:: mʎ 0wИ sʇ0ɹʎ ::

:: piTy ::

2011-03-17T05:01:00.000-07:00

im saDness. .

thinking abt my life ..

Bad m0ments when my sis through her teenager tym..

make my life was control..

s0 hard 2 say,n im crying when i pray..

n share abt dat wif God,,,,

notin dat can i d0,juz i wish i'll be a patient pers0n..

Never Had a Dream Come True. .

t0o Much. .

2011-03-15T03:24:00.000-07:00

I sit 0n my chair in my r0om. .i was thinking," i still hv a long journey in my life.."
~' Beep '. .i look on my screen phone, " 1 Message Receive ". .i 0pen n read de msge. 0owh fr0m him. .i put back my ph0ne on my table, n listen a love s0ng playing. .
My tears w0nt st0p. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

" мʏ ρяιʌαтɛ ˩ιғɛ "

2011-03-06T05:47:00.001-08:00

n0 0ne kn0w waT im g0ing thr0ugh..Wat i was thinking abt s0me1 else..They 0nly know n see wat wil c0uld hppen 2 me real,n say " 0wwhh "..

:: in mY dReam ::

2011-03-03T05:31:00.000-08:00

Hope my Dream wiL b c0me trUe. .

AmiNnn. .

:: resuLt stPm aLrdy 0ut ::

2011-03-03T04:23:00.000-08:00

Huhh..My rsuLt stpm??erm..n0t baD,actLy i feeL s0 gud n thnX 2 Allah..NsyLh,if ada rZki myB smbg msUk U..Mdh2n dpt,tGh bRusaHa ney skg..Even p0inter ak juZ 2.33,but pLuang ada dmna2..God bLess me..:-)
LOVE U ALL..

My ResuLt :

Pengajian Am = B-
Bahasa Melayu = B
Pengajian Perniagaan = C+
Sejarah = D+

. .Lm sdh XupdatE. .^^,

2011-03-03T04:07:00.000-08:00

UiissHh..Lm nya xupdatE bLog ak ney. .heHe. .

itz My Cute LaptOp...ツ

2011-02-06T01:09:00.000-08:00

FrOm Him..

2011-02-05T23:05:00.000-08:00

Since 1st day i meet him,he gv me diz card..Until n0w i stil keep it...ツ

i maY be al0ne,but im nver l0nely..

2011-02-05T03:34:00.000-08:00

BEING ALONE...
S0me days,itz OK,0ther days,itz unbearable.I need 2 learn 2 b OK being alone n being wif myself..I’m trying 2 work 0n being ok wif diz!

Being alone has its ups and downs..
I love it when:
I can sleep as l8 as i want,d0 absolutely nothing,leave dishes in de sink,eat anything food 4

breakfast,listen 2 relaxation music without getting a strange look,talk silly 2 my cats,sit in front of my laptop all day,cry when i feel like it,laugh out loud at a stupid thought….

I hate it when:

I need some1 2 hug…i want 2 c a really gud m0vie,go 2 anywhere 0nly wif myself,i hear a strange s0und in de n8 n n0 0ne was pr0tect me,i did'nt hv s0me1 2 talk abt smthg n etc…

But it does seem 2 make u better able 2 look at situations more realistically.U are responsible 4 ur own choices n actions n u can’t blame any1 but urself!

U also realize dat u CAN take care of urself n u learn 2 depend on U!

I hv 2 keep telling myself dat im ok,dat i can take diz,coz i know i can..Being alone is gud.. BUT??

i pr0bably shouldn't be telling de w0rld all 0f diz...but writing is helps!

Find N Hold Me!

2011-02-03T06:02:00.000-08:00

Im hurt all de tme,

I dunt want 2 cry 4 de way i feel inside,
I juz want some1 2 hold me...
Im alone in de dark,plez try 2 find me..
If no one cares,i dunt c a p0int 2 go 0n,
any1 find me!Any1 care!
Im sorry,i juz dunt want 2 b alone anymore..
I feel unheard n unseen..Depressed n weak..
No one cares n yet im 0wez de s0rry 1.
Some1 find me!Im scared...
Plez hold me until it all ends..
Juz hold me datz all i want..
I dunt want 2 b al0ne in de dark..
Juz hold me as i start to disappear fr0m de light,wen i start 2 cry,wen i wont be alone inside,wen i dunt d0 something wr0ng,
Juz hold me s0 tight.....<3

De m0ment_Punk Rock Girl h0stel_

2011-02-03T04:53:00.000-08:00

eL. .Nany. .Rozie. .

We make diz vide0 at h0stel 0n 22nd n0v 2010..

i'll nver 4get diz moment,s0 sweet!!i really miz it!!

"SKUL" itz fnish..n it wil nver back!!

RosSa _ ku Menunggu...

2011-02-03T04:05:00.000-08:00

I felt like i was having a heart attack!

2011-02-02T07:53:00.000-08:00

Part 0f me is s0 tired 0f fighthing wif him..N I feel as though i can't fight anym0re!!im hurting s0 bad i havent really been able 2 eat 0r sleep 0r anything i've tried talking to him abt diz but de same thgs stil hppen!

im >> br0ken heart gurL..

2011-01-31T22:45:00.000-08:00

I put my heart int0 all dat i wanted wif u n u showed me tyme n tyme agn dat im n0t w0rth de sacrifice..U won't really miz me until im ....GONE!!! Sometymes i wish i was a little kid agn..Until diz moment,i nver undrstood h0w hard it was 2 lose smthg u bcoz my hrt is taken by u,br0ken by u,n n0w it in a pieces all bcoz 0f u!!

Wat do u do wen d 0ne wh0 br0ke ur heart is d 0nly 0ne wh0 can fix it????

2011-01-30T06:21:00.000-08:00

Itz better 2 b aLone,den living wif a broken heart. .

2011-01-30T05:47:00.000-08:00

i hatE myse|f 4 being a diSsapPointEd!!

im Hurting!

2011-01-27T08:17:00.001-08:00

I honestly dunt know y im still here…I dunt know watz keeping me here…y hv i not ended it yet?…Im so sick of feeling diz way…I want 2 cry,i want 2 scream,i want 2 stop de pain,i want 2 cut myself until de physical pain drowns out d emotional.I want it over! I want diz pain 2 end!!

I worry so much wif wat im going through..I want 2 b more open wif how im feeling…but smething inside me is keeping me from doing so.I juz want 2 hug some1 n cry until i feel btter…I cant do either…I haven’t had a gud cry in a long tyme…I dunt think i even rmmber how.I juz want de pain 2 go away…people keep telling me im a strong person but i dunt c it. If they REALLY knew me they would know dat isn’t true.Im tired of faking a smile,a laugh, dat evrything is ok wen im being held 2gether by cheap tape dat is barely doing de job.Im afraid 2 trust any1,i dunt trust myself n itz very hard 4 me 2 trust others…

Each year my sadness grows even more n i bcome even more broken inside…i juz want it over!!!…I hv nthing keeping me here…I know dat i stil hv 2 deal wif evrything else dat pains me,i wish i wasn’t alive…I want de pain 2 stop!!!….I want 2 cry….I want it all over!!!…but…I never get my way…L

im stil alone..

2011-01-27T06:50:00.000-08:00

I need a boy...a true guy,1 who looks real tough...But won’t mke me cry.I need dat kind guy who Understnds...N even wen He’s wif his friends he stil says..."baby,hold my hand..’’

I look around n all i c is couples... skinny blonde wif some tall dark muscular guy..holding her tight... stealing kisses wen they think no 1 is watching...wen is it my turn? God, how i wish i could be her...God, how i would gv my evrything 2 b her..juz 4 1day...juz 4 1hour...1second..juz 4 1kiss... juz 2 b held..juz 2 know dat some1 is there...2 know dat some1 cares... 2 know dat some1 could care abt me as much as they do abt all de skinny blondes..

Wat i need 2 find, is some1 2 hold me tight...

Wat i mean is i want 2 be somebody's somebody...

Some1's some1...some sweetheart’s sweetheart …

I wanna b dat 1…

Some1 faithful 2 some1 faithful... some1 kind 2 some1 kind 2 me

Somebody 2 somebody who loves me..

I need a man dat'll treat me gud....not like these lil boys dat claim they could..

im sick of these little boys

n de games dat they play

either u want me or u dunt

bounce or stay

Single..sexy..free to flirt...

wanna b in love...dunt wanna get hurt

I love de whole flirting around,being wif ur gurls,an independent woman

but I wouldn’t mind holding hands.Going on dates.

Being his girl..

Yah i know it might seem like i need love

But in diz world

Every1 who falls in love

Falls apart..

Stil getting hurt over n over agn.No more stressing n obsessin.From now on im having fun n refusing 2 gv my heart 2 any1.Yeah im alone,but i dunt need epy couples walking down de hall togther 2 remind me..

im not a girl dat thinks a guy is d answer

im juz tired of being alone..

Juz once i wanna b de gurl datz hard 2 walk away from..

im tired of not being enough..not being some1’s once in a lifetime...

all i wnt is a guy 2 hold me,kiz me,n look at me n say 'I love u' n actually mean it…

i feel like no 1 wants me or dat im not

even there wen it comes 2 me liking some1

they juz dunt seem 2 care

i juz want dat 1prson dat can make me smile wen im crying

dat wil laugh at my jokes even wen they’re not funny

make me feel like im d only person in my world

n if some1 says something abt me he’ll stick up 4 me

i juz want dat 1person dat i can love

n he’ll love me wif all his heart

im so sick of being single...i need a guy

2 hold me tight wen i start 2 cry

i need a guy datz nice n so damn fine

So i can tell my gurlfriends... "Yup,he's mine!"

Sometymes i wnt some1 2 juz hold me wen i need it.Not a hug,but juz hold me,u know? I need some1 2 actually love me 4 once in my life..

I dunt wanna b everything 2 every1...

But I'd like 2 b something 2 some1...

d only n only thing i want right now

is 2 find a guy who likes me 4 me

a guy who isn’t afraid 2 act like himself around me

n 4 me 2 be able 2 act like myself around him

some1 2 cuddle wif n mke me feel wanted

some1 2 love..n some1 2 love me..

I need a boy who would let me cry on his shoulder

hold me until itz all over

pick my head up n kiz me

n say “I Love You No Matter What

And Everything Will Be Ok”

Im convincing myself, YES i’ll find some1 new,i won’t b alone,n i won’t b wif u.U’re waiting 4 me 2 crawl back 2 ur side,but no…NOT DIZ TYME!. Im keeping my pride..So gd bye 4eva,i’ll be on my way, itz going 2 take tyme, but i’ll b Ok...Daa

! HATE U!!!

2010-12-16T21:26:00.000-08:00

!t is better 2 be hated 4 who u r,than 2 be loved 4 some1 u r not!

when pe0p|e u d0nt even kn0w hate 0n u..

then u kn0w u're de SHIT!!!

u h0nes+|y th!nk ! care dat u r s!tt!ng there ta|king SHIT abt me..my pix,my |!fe..

know wat th0se th!ngs !n c0mm0n??

itz a|| abt me!!s0 be j|ez!!

cuz ive g0t awes0me sty|e,amaz!ng frenz n a beaut!fu| |ife!

n d 0n|y th!ng i can say 2 u is..

GET UR OWN LIFE!!!!!

..!m siNg|e..

2010-12-13T21:49:00.000-08:00

u know wHat?
im singLe but my hEart is takEn....s!ng|e doesn`t meAn ava!lab|e..
Somet!mes i hv 2 stanD aLone 2 prove that i still can stanD..

be!ng sing|e is pretty good..Itz a nice sense of irresponsibi|ity..

being s!ng|e isn`t bad..What is bad is giVing up hope on finding thaT some1 spciaL..

nEw yEar is cOming. .

2010-12-12T06:37:00.000-08:00

tHun 2010 dh mO smpi ke pghUjungnYa. .xtRsa rsanYa dh hmPir stHun bLaLu. .wkTu pskLhn pn dh abiz. .umo dh mO mcecah 20thun,cPatnya msa 2 mLimpas. .ehe.sykur kPd tUhan smpi ari ney ak mC dpt bnaFas n mnjaLani khdpn sPt besa. .exam pn dH mo abiz,hOpe2 dpt rsuLt bguz t. .dpt jga msUk U. .amiNnn. .hPy new yEar utk kwn2 yg knaL ma aku,kMu cLbrte thun baRu dmna Lh?bh. .yg pntg epy bH kn. .^.^

no skuL,no wOrk,no pRobLem!

2010-12-12T01:21:00.000-08:00

no taLk abt asGnmnt for a few month. .Yeah!diz is dE tym 2 rest of my bRain. .my pLanning is juz go to wOrk wif my fRenz 4 a whiLe waiting a resuLt oUt. .hOpefuLLy my resuLt nOt juz ok bUt GREAT!!!!

mErry XmaS 2 aLL!!

2010-12-12T01:08:00.000-08:00

i w!sh mErry Xmas 2 any bLoggErs that cLbrate diz Xmas on 25th dEc 2010. .hOpe u all enjOy on that time. .

whY????

2010-12-11T06:53:00.000-08:00

siTting here tHinking of the tiMes u've hUrt me..WondEring why i stiLL Love u..Myb itz ur eYes,the way tHey make me feeL so gUd inside,or the way u smile..Thats make me feeL that i've nEver been so haPpy in my Life..itz pRobabLy juz the way u are..A funny,sWeet,cariNg,cute gUy tHat every girL dream of..Set aLL the times u hUrt me,i juz dont unDerstand..WHY i stiLL Love u..???

taLk abOut loVe. .

2010-12-11T06:24:00.000-08:00

Love is Like a war..
Easy to sTart,haRd to enD n impossibLe to fOrget!

anD