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Tudung Ekspres Awning Lembut

2012-02-13T14:44:00.001+08:00

After i gave birth to idris, i stopped using tudung bawal for good. all my long or square selendangs became gajah putih that sit nicely in my drawer because i found it very hard to use when i'm always in hurry each time i want to go out.

dengan nak gosoknya, nak sematkan pinnya, nak hembus bagi mucung, nak letak sepit kiri kanan, those routine turn out to be tedious and messy sometimes.

Therefore, with all those reasons i decided to go for tudung ekspress with hard awning. It so simple when all I need to is to put on my serkup jaring, put on my instant tudung and in less than 10 minutes i'm ready to go anywhere. Life becomes so simple right?

However after a while, i found it a little complicated to keep and take care of the awning because some of the brand macam mudah sangat patah awningnya. The fact that i grow to be a 'hamba tudung' have urged me to find a substitute. Biasalah, manusia ni dah mudah nak mudah lagi. by the way, maksud 'hamba tudung' in my dictionary is when i have to take care of the tudung, send it for dry cleaning, keep getting worry or disturbed when someone accidently sit or rest their back on my tudung. or the worst part is when I feel awfully sad dan rasa nak menjerit bila tengok awning terpatah or renyuk.

i hate the fact that i have to wash it put it in a different pail and hang dry accordingly (i don't mind hand wash it) whereas wearing tudung should be effortless and easy.

I knew tudung Syria which has been existed long before the tudung express can be a good escape, tapi, eventhough I am lazy, I do and still care on how look. I bought one tudung Syria back in 2010 and I never worn it outside my room because I look pretty much like soup bowl as my face shape jadi boolat and kembang. Tudung Syria is not meant for everybody. If I have an oval or small face, I would look cute in it. But having a round and kembang face, it's totally a no, no for me.

Sampailah last year when I bought a custom made tudung from alimrans whereby she sent me a tudung ekspress, with awning but the awning is soft dan takde backrum.(pengeras). Masha allah, mudahnya though I do admit at times tudung tu terkelepet kat kepala but with a little hootie and the blowfish… the tudung kembali memuncung and give an instantaneous effect to change my face from boolat to semi oval just like what tudung ekspress with awning keras does to me all the time.

This type of tudung also is good for travelling as you don't have to iron it and taking care of it or you can simple dump in your luggage because you don't have a fragile awning to worry about ( i learn this from our trip to aussie last year when my sister in law use this type of tudung during our trip there - yang ni double subhanallah for the invention that makes everyone's life easy.)

So yesterday, I managed to dragged hubby to jalan TAR and bought few pieces of tudung berawning lembut for my outing use. I still opt for tudung ekspress with awning keras to work since it is more suitable, neat and more decent.

I don't mean to do an online business but I do get good bargain for all these tudung since I bought in bulk. So if anyone interested to have or try any of these tudung I don't mind letting go some of my stock and send it to your doorstep. It's only RM32 inclusive postage. it's brand new ye.

picture i apload later tonight.

.today is our fourth anniversary.

2012-02-08T09:08:00.001+08:00

and I'm indeed a one lucky woman to be blessed with a great husband cum companion and a wonderful daddy to my two growing up sons.

Happy anniversary to our marriage and I hope the great thing will happen everyday despite a little argument that I believe spice up our relationship every now and then.

Love you sayang.

.milk booster - is there any really?.

2012-01-11T23:10:00.004+08:00

this entry was written almost two years ago (22 july 2010 to be exact) which i failed to publish it sebab kesudahannya yang tergantung. so kali ni saya dah finishkan the entry and would like to share it here:

my besfwen has started giving her daughter formula milk when she reached 1yr old and told me her niat to breastfeed (bf) her daughter til 1 yr old is finally accomplished. she didn't bf her first child due to lack of knowledge on bf and so on.

so bila ingat apa yang dia kata pasal niat nak bf sampai setahun, i have my set of stories about bf too. some are written here, some are just in mind. tak sempat nak tulis because 24hours is a bit cramped ever since i'm carrying a status as a mother of one.

jadi aku cerita kat besfwen that two weeks ago my milk production was very low and little. skali pump dapatla 5oz and time consumed for that expressing business would be plus minus 25 minutes. 5 minutes per 1 oz gila lama tu. tapi aku tak panik, sebab benda ni pernah jadi masa idris umur 2 bulan lebih.

what i did this time sama macam kes pertama iaitu makan supplement and to be exact i popped up two capsules of shatavari every day. shatavari ni sebenarnya kegunaannya untuk ibu-ibu yang baru melahirkan anak di mana ianya mempercepatkan proses pengecutan rahim and some other goodness yang aku dah lupa sales girl tu cakap. yang aku ingat it can help to increase breastmilk. kesannya lebih ketara utk orang yang masih dalam pantang or baru habis pantang or ibu-ibu yang continuosly bf their child.

its true, milk production ada nampak perubahan. bertambah juga la and i double up my pumping session from 2 to 4. yes... busy with work was my only excuse of less pumping session dan malam tak sempat nak ngepam sebab si idris akan bergayut more than 4 times a night.

tapi tiga hari lepas my milk production suddenly increased!

one session boleh dapat 15oz within 20 minutes. which is kind of odd to me sebab to be frank, dah dekat dua bulan susu tak melimpah ruah macam tu walaupun baru beli the absolute machine tu. so it makes me wonder apa benda aku makan yang buat susu tetiba melimpah ruah ni? is it the pil asi? or shatavari? or horlicks?

bila cuba ingat balik... baru aku teringat yang tiga malam berturut yang lepas aku minum horlicks + susu nespray sebelum tidur. YA... susu nespray kawan-kawan.

cerita pasal susu nespray ni, masa lepas aku gave birth to idris dulu my mom sibuk dok suruh beli susu nespray. katanya susu ni bagus untuk bagi luka cepat heal dan tambah BM. bila tanya mak mana dia dapat tips ni... dia kata arwah nenek yang cakap. so aku pun beli la dan minum susu nespray tu religiously. (twice a day during pantang)

mungkin sebab badanku serasi dgn komponen dalam susu nespray ni membuatkan my BM melimpah ruah during that time. dan terbukti sekali lagi when the production tetiba naik after i drink it 3 consecutive days.

so what i want to share here is gunalah apa yang ada sekeliling kita dulu dalam usaha menambah pengeluaran susu (berdasarkan bacaan atau komen dalam forum-forum) seperti minum air rebusan halba (yang selalunya ada kat dapur tapi tak tahu nak guna bila), minum susu skim yang ada dalam almari kerana susu dari apa jenis skali pun insha allah dapat membantu pengeluaran breastmilk sebelum kita membeli breastpump atau supplement yang mahal-mahal.

aku faham, being a mother, kita akan buat, dapatkan atau beli apa yang orang cakap bagus untuk tambah pengeluaran susu demi anak dan juga for our personal satisfaction (berdasarkan target penyusuan yang kita dah tetapkan untuk diri sendiri). kadang-kadang kalau kita kata terpengaruh pun ye jugak sebab hari-hari dah disogokkan dengan idea-idea bahawa

KOMEN A : Supplement Cap Naga ni bagus sebab i baca review semua orang kata menjadi... susu banyak sangat lepas makan benda alah ni....
KOMEN B: Breastpump Cap Helikopter ni memang patutla mahal sebab bagus betul. semua orang yang dah gunakan breastpump ni akan komen yang sama.

berbalik pada hakikat untuk KOMEN A : adakah badan kita, hormon kita sama dengan pengguna lain yang kita boleh expect perkara yang sama pun akan terjadi kepada kita? kalau tak macam mana? kecewa tak?

KOMEN B : benarkah BP yang mahal akan menghasilkan susu yang banyak? what about the law of demand and supply which is basically the key to kemakmuran susu? macam kes saya, dah beli 3 jenis pump walaupun rasanya tak sama, tapi hasilnya tetap sama. jadi saya tanya diri saya balik: adakah production susu saya 90% dipengaruhi oleh jenis pum dan 10% atas law of demand and supply atau sebaliknya? (bagaimanapun saya akui kebaikan utama the ultimate machine tersebut ialah it's mobility dan lain-lain lagi seperti yang saya komen di sini.)

saya sudah ada jawapan sendiri dan saya rasa siapa yang baca entry ini serta mempunyai pengalaman seperti saya punya jawapan tersendiri.

Tepuk dada Tanya selera.

.a bucket of smile.

2012-01-11T17:04:00.000+08:00

I didn’t do anything momentous today in the eyes of anybody. Just my daily task not worth to remember.

Tapi kan, the fact i could see my staffs grinning (not smiling dah tau) when i gave each of them a thumb drive (i requested from our IT department in one day) somehow makes my heart tingling with ecstasy along with a high spirit to be nice to people.

At times, a smile can make someone's day a better one and sincere smiles can tame the dark side in one person.

In my case, what happened today made me vow to myself supaya jangan garang-garang ~~macam singa~~ lagi dah macam masa jadi secretary dulu.

Have a great day uolls, i'm getting ready to fetch my son and go back home with a bucket of smiley heart.

.9 waktu mustajab untuk ibu bapa nasihat anak.

2012-01-10T13:10:00.003+08:00

Dalam blog babyibu ni banyak info i can get from there. This one is a must copy-paste entry i have to publish in my own blog for my future reference and also for sharing with anyone who stumble upon this blog.

Sembilan waktu mustajab untuk ibu bapa nasihat anak walaupun hanya untuk seminit :

1-Sebelum anak tidur.
2-Ketika anak sedang tidur (bisikkan di telinga).
3-Selepas anak bangun tidur.
4-Selepas anak mandi.
5-Selepas anak solat.
6-Selepas anak membaca al-Quran.
7-Selepas anak berdoa.
8-Selepas anak beriadah.
9-Ketika emosi anak terangsang (contohnya selepas memarahi anak).

Ayat al-Quran yang digalakkan untuk diamalkan :
Surah al-Baqarah (apabila dibaca pada satu malam, selama tiga malam syaitan tidak masuk ke dalam rumah).

Surah al-Nahl, ayat 97 (amalan untuk mencapai kebahagiaan). Firman Allah yang bermaksud: “Sesiapa yang beramal salih, daripada lelaki atau wanita, sedangkan dia beriman, maka sesungguhnya Kami akan menghidupkannya dengan kehidupan yang baik dan sesungguhnya Kami akan membalas mereka, dengan memberikan pahala yang lebih baik daripada apa yang mereka kerjakan.”

Ayat akhir surah at-Taubah (baca 7 kali selepas solat fardu untuk mengharap pertolongan Allah). Firman Allah yang bermaksud: “Jika mereka berpaling, maka katakanlah (wahai Muhammad): Cukuplah Allah bagiku (yang menolong dan memeliharaku), tiada Tuhan (yang berhak disembah) melainkan Dia. Kepada-Nya aku berserah diri dan Dialah yang memiliki ‘Arasy yang agung.”

Panduan macam ni perlu especially kepada ibu yang garang macam singa (aku lah tu) mendidik anak yang sedang membesar. Memang betul la apa yang mak aku cakap, makin besar anak ni, makin besar dugaan dalam membesarkan mereka.

Like in my case, beranak setahun sorang dan dua-dua boy pulak tu. Anak-anak aku pulak bukan jenis macam setengah anak orang yang tahu duduk diam bila perlu. Both of them are very active, hatta nak dok diam sesaat pun sangat lah susah kecuali waktu mereka tidur.

adik dok main diam-diam dia nak angkat.

pastu mommy jadi simba.

As a working mom, balik kerja dah penat. nak layan suami lagi, anak lagi memang banyak menguji kesabaran aku. Kadang-kadang bila merungut kepenatan pada hubby, aku mintak pada Allah supaya tak potong markah pahala yang aku dapat kerana aku merungut bukan kerana tak ikhlas, just to share with my husband so he could help me in any way possible to lessen the burden.

Sekarang semuanya mudah sebab tinggal dengan mak mertua. Kalau hubby balik lambat, mama ada untuk tengokkan anak-anak while i go up and clean up myself. Tapi dah tinggal sendiri nanti i don't know how it would be as i try my best to manage my family without a helper hinggalah aku nak beranak anak sorang lagi in 2-3 years time from now.

Ya Allah, kau kuncilah mulut aku dari berkata-kata perkara yang tidak baik pada anak-anak ku ketika aku marah, dan kau jauhilah aku dari mengeluarkan kata-kata yang boleh menjadikan aku isteri derhaka ketika aku sedang penat. Amin.

Doa yang last tu takde kaitan dengan tajuk entri ye mokcik... Heehehe...

.khaleel is 3 years old.

2012-01-09T12:54:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah, Khaleel is officially 3 years old yesterday.

Terima kasih Ya Allah kerana engkau telah kurniakan kami amanah yang tidak ternilai harganya ini and i hope he will be with us til we close our eyes.

As usual, we just had a small celebration iaitu makan-makan with family at my MIL's place that is also our home. It started with lunch dengan nasi bukhari ayam cooked with love by mama. Menu nasi bukhari ayam yesterday were nasi bukhari ayam, salad with tomato sauce kacang, daging masak tomato and lastly dalca. semua lauk pauk dan nasi itu adalah mama punya signature dish dan peluang untuk makan macam ni selalunya for special occasion like this.

i ordered oreo cheese cake from nowwa choc's. there is a story behind the melted cake. so kalau tengok gambar cake tu yang macam dah renyuk its edible picture wasn't because it was made like that. there was an incident that made both me and nora screaming, wondering and laughing about it.

Eventhough the cake was melted but the taste of it is dad gum good (menguatkan lagi semangat mokcik untuk belajar dengan nora the nowwa choc on how to make that cake). Secret recipe pun takde rasa sedap macam tu. sebab kejadian cair itu and i myself is a cheesecake lover, hubby suggested that i should learn how to bake cheese cake myself so at least untuk birthday anak, or untuk sendiri mau makan, mummy can bake the cheese cake herself.

the delectable oreo cheese cake.

Yummy sangat-sangat!

ada juga kawan-kawan rapat tanya, "bila nko nak buat birthday party anak nko?" and i always tell them tunggu bila aku dah dok rumah sendiri nanti. but then being me yang kesabaran senipis kulit bawang ni, i don't think i would be able organized a birthday bash yang hebat-hebat tu sebab mana lagi nak kejar dengan eventnya, dengan kerenah anak-anak yang banyak songelnya. maybe bila diaorang dah besar, dah ada kawan-kawan barulah boleh fikir untuk buat birthday party.

Ok back to khaleel's birthday celebration story, lepas lunch semua orang rehat. i put him to sleep for his usual afternoon nap. yang besar-besar dalam rumah makan pulut durian yang mama masak, dan petang bila dah redup sikit, my SIL buka her portable swimming pool and let all the budak keciks mandi manda dalam pool.

they had finger food sahaja cicah dengan cheese sauce. sungguh berlemak, tapi budak-budak aktif makan memang lemak tu tak sempat nak berkumpul pun...

dan akhirnya, after maghrib, me and hubby ordered pizza for our dinner and also majlis nyanyi-nyanyi a birthday song. it was a lovely to be able to celebrate and sing him a birthday song again this year dan khaleel pun was so happy to cut his lightning mc queen birthday cake.

i was surprised that he managed to eat up one piece of cake i cut for him. sedap... that's what he told me many times. ok, kat bawah ni adalah some of 'publishable pictures' i can put up here.

the birthday boy...

LIGHTNING MC KHALEEL!!!

the little guests

(yang selalu jadi tetamu of each others birthday celebration)

birthday boy and his little family

(tolong excuse tudung mokcik tuh)

and to my dearest son Nor Khaleel Idris,

"Walaupun birthday party ni kecil-kecilan sahaja but you must know that every food and effort we (mommy, abah, nenek dan semua orang) put for this simple occasion are all made with big love. Yang penting, doa dari mummy, abah dan semua orang adalah lebih besar dari umur khaleel. Semoga khaleel menjadi anak yang soleh dan bertakwa dan menjadi permata hati all of us in this world and also herefater"

Happy Birthday Sayang, mommy, abah and adik love you so much!

.u dah kuruih la ni, what's your secret?.

2012-01-05T12:15:00.003+08:00

Ok I can't lie. Memang kembang semangkuk seluruh badan bila orang komen cam tu. Daripada size sebesar peti ais bergerak kepada size lampu berdiri ikea, memang la orang tegur terutamanya orang yang jarang jumpa kita.

We'll, I don't have any secret. I consume Herbalife and every Tom, dick and Harry know. I have been consuming Herbalife since after aidilfitri last year and alhamdulillah the result is good on both me and hubby.

My daily intake of shake is only once a day and it's strictly for breakfast during weekdays. Weekend is no Herbalife day. And I eat almost everything during lunch and dinner on weekdays. No pantang-pantang like makan Nasi skit, lauk banyak atau apa2 pantang yang sewaktu dgnnya. Saya ni tak de lah berkejar sangat nak kurus. Just nak rasa ringan sikit and fit my old clothes aje pasai tu ambil once a day ( selain dari hakikat sebenar nak fund untuk benda ni twice a day adalah di luar kemampuan mokcik kan...) maka begitulah kekdahnya.

Selain dari badan is getting less heavier, i lost inches all around quite a lot too. Geleber kat tangan pun dah makin kecut and the so called elephant ear pun makin hari makin more invicible cuma tang perut tu kena lebih gigih with a light bangkit tubi exercise when time permits. Daaaaaan, yang paling penting ialah, I never feel this healthy.

Bila dah consume benda ni hari2, secara otomatiknya otak dah boleh tune my perut to eat secara sederhana sebab tak tau la orang lain, Herbalife ni bila i makan macam nak goal esok, badan jadi lesu dan tak bertenaga. So macam signal pulak supaya kita eat moderately.

I'm not a distributor but friends if you want to try this at a very reasonable price, I can recommend uolls to hubby's cousin, percayalah... Uoll tak kan regret!.

Hehehe... Macam entri iklan la pulak. Owh satu fakta yang mungkin mempercepatkan proses kurus kurus ni is because I still breast feed my son.

Sorry, i tak provide qambaq sebelum dan selepas i ye sebab takut jadi poyo pulak... Hehehe...

.kindy drama on 2nd day.

2012-01-04T13:06:00.001+08:00

Khaleel hari ini menangis sedu-sedu nak ikut mommy dia pegi opis.

and the conversation went like this:

KHALEEL : Mommy, abang nak ikut mommy pegi sekolah kat opis mommy

ME : Ok... ni la sekolah abang... dekat je dengan opis mommy

KHALEEL : Bukan sekolah yang ni, sekolah yang dalam opis...

ME : Oooo... opis mommy is opistal (hospital) abang nak ke ikut mommy gi opistal? ada dr chan...

He nodded with the teary eyes. Muka ala-ala nak nangis tapi control hensem.

He usually akan bersetuju dengan suci hati untuk tidak ikut mommy and abah if i ever mention Dr. Chan's name sebab dia tahu, Dr Chan means IV and nebulize which he hate the most. Tapi lain pulak cerita hari ni bila dia sanggup ikut saya jumpa Dr Chan sebab tak nak ke kindynya.

forced smile indeed!

Masuk je dalam kindy the drama started when he cried his lung out and hugged my leg so tight, not willing to let me go. Nasib baik berjaya pujuk dia dengan hot dog yang direbus pagi tadi and i asked him to eat with his new friends. Eventhough he was still crying when i left, bunyi tangisan nya tak lah sekuat masa i used to sent him to child care nearby our house when he was 2.

i silently hope that things will get better tomorrow.

.a day before he start going to kindy.

2012-01-02T13:18:00.001+08:00

Hubby and I decided to just stay at home today because I need to mark and write khaleel's name on all his stuffs that we are going to bring to his kindy tomorrow.

Yes, you heard me right that we are sending Khaleel to Permata kindy which is located within the perimeter of my workplace this year.

I'm glad that permata kindergarten syllabus is just so right for a 3 year old boy like him and I'm so excited preparing for his school since mid december. Like I am the one who's going to school...agagaga... I couldn't imagine my excitement preparing for his standard one four years ahead. (long way to go mommy!)

So starting from tomorrow, he'll keep company back and fro work and a ganti to my car pool buddy who is now working at putrajaya for good.

Happy new year, and may this 2012 is greater and blessed than last year.

.retirement option.

2011-12-30T18:48:00.001+08:00

tomorrow is the last day of all submission with regards to my service matter.

being procrastinate and such a big time delay queen, here i am at 6.33 pm today, still at my office being patience with super slow human resource management information system or in short HRMIS trying to get things done before the big due date tomorrow.

when i check the balance of my annual leave of 2011, i can't believe i still have another 29 days leave which i can bring forward. since it is quite a lot, i decided to have 15 days for GCR and the balance is to carry forward just to save for hospitalization or holiday purpose.

i am always grateful and bersyukur that i have chosen this career path. kalau orang nak kutuk orang kerja kerajaan makan gaji buta skali pun i don't take it personally knowing that i do not fall under that category.

and today, i have signed my retirement option to age 60. i don't plan to work that long but somehow see the benefit if i opt for this forth option because i actually joined this public service when i was 28. My time span in public service might not be enough for full pension benefit if i opt to retire at age 58.!

The thing is : do I live that long?

.car seat n safety.

2011-12-29T18:04:00.004+08:00

I'm the midst of paying and getting axis car seat for my baby muhsein and feel so contemplating to get Rodi air protect for Khaleel (replacing his graco sport) as I feel the need to prioritize my babies safety when we are out and about.

Beside safety, I found it easy for me when I buckle them up in the car seat as I get to wear my seat belt too, have ample space to stretch down my muscle and massage hubby while he is driving.

This habit of 'safety first' which so alien to us before is gained from our family trip to Melbourne last month where children aged below 7 must be in the child safety car seat not in the arms of theirs parents. The three days force training there in way helps a lot because after we got back here, Khaleel can sit still (and happily) in his car seat so does muhsein whereby before this, mommy mesti bersilat panggung to put them in with drama and endless screaming. when dramas happen, me and hubby would normally give up putting them in because outing with family should be started in good mood not in a little chaos with crying and yapping.

Is just that, sometimes i wonder, kalau anak sampai 6, berderet-deretan pulak tu memang tak nampak jalan to buckle them up in the car seat sebab kat malaysia, price of a good car seat is ridiculiously over priced!

.can I say this is my new gadget?.

2011-12-28T12:02:00.001+08:00

Ok... This is my online journal right?...

i hope this entry doesn't make me look like i am showing off. Hubby said the iPad he bought is meant for me and the children to use while he swears to be loyal with the lappy i bought 6 months ago (that have gone thru a major repair because of the hardware failure - damn you ASUS!)

with its mobility and accessibility would gimme ample time to write and blog about anything, anywhere and every time...

Yeah right!

P/s I got this Mas Hitam last Sunday. Now aiming for 9900 which I think quite interesting too...

Yang... Subsidi please!

.Rahsia Perangai Anak.

2011-12-28T09:32:00.002+08:00

Found this artikel in FB.

♥ Anak Sulung

Anak sulung merupakan cahaya mata pertama di dalam keluarga dan menjadi tumpuan kasih sayang dan perhatian ibu bapa. sehinggalah kedatangan adik baru. Namun apabila mereka meningkat remaja, mereka lebih pandai membawa diri masing-masing dan sanggup berkorban demi demi adik-adik.

... Ciri-ciri yang ada pada mereka ialah :

* anak sulung dikaitkan dengan sikap pelindung, suka bertolak ansur, serta ego.
* sering berjaya dalam hidup.
* lebih pandai mengambil hati orang tua.
* mempunyai nilai tanggung jawab yang tinggi.

♥ Anak Tengah

Biasanya anak tengah lebih pelik sedikit dari anak-anak yang lain. Mereka lebih gemar berdikari dan membuat hal sendiri. ini kerana mereka adalah antara yang paling kurang ‘favourite’ di kalangan adik-beradik yang lain. Seringkali mereka juga teras terpinggir. Dalam banyak hal mereka merasakan diri mereka dipaksa untuk mengalah kepada si sulung atau si bongsu. Sebab itu di kalangan mereka juga kadangkala mudah dilanda tekanan. Oleh itu, anak tengah juga cuba untuk melakukan yang terbaik bagi diri mereka tanpa mengharapkan bantuan orang lain.

Ciri-ciri yang ada pada mereka ialah :

* lebih berdikari berbanding dengan si sulung atau adik beradik yang lain.
* lebih percaya dengan keyakinan sendiri.
* suka mencuri perhatian dengan cara tersendiri.
* sering merasakan diri mereka terpinggir.
* terlalu mengalah

♥ Anak Bongsu

Mendengar ungkapan anak bongsu saja cukup memadai untuk membuat tafsiran bagaimanakah sikap anak bongsu. Mereka sering digambarkan sebagai seorang yang manja dan besar kepala dan mahukan orang lain mengikut kehendak mereka sahaja. Mereka perlukan orang lain untuk melakukan apa saja dalam hidup. Sering dikatakan mereka kurang berjaya dalam hidup memandangkan sikap ketidakpercaya ibu bapa terhadap mereka. Biarpun mereka berjaya namun sikap ibu bapa sendiri membuatkan hidup mereka terbatas. Mungkin ibu bapa sentiasa berasakan anak bongsu memerlukan perlindungan mereka buat selama-lamanya.

Ciri-ciri yang ada pada mereka ialah :

* happy go-lucky dan yakin diri.
* manja.
* berkeinginan dan bercita-cita tinggi.
* sukar membuat keputusan sendiri.

♥ Anak Tunggal

Dalam banyak kategori, ramai ingin menjadi anak tunggal. ramai yang beranggapan seronok menjadi anak tunggal memandangkan hanya mereka satu-satunya anak dalam keluarga. Mereka akan menjadi tempat sepenuh tumpuan, perhatian dan curahan kasih sayang ibu bapa. Mereka juga tiada persaingan dari adik-beradik yang lain. Dari sudut hubungan bersama ibu bapa, tidak dinafikan hubungan anak tunggal lebih kukuh dan erat. Mereka saling memerlukan antara satu sama lain, saling menyokong dan menggalakkan.

Ciri-ciri yang ada pada mereka ialah :

* sering merasakan diri mereka kesunyian.
* lebih berkeyakinan kerana sudah terbiasa segala yang dihajati tercapai.
* lebih bijak bergaul.
* lebih cepat matang.
* terlalu rapat dengan ibu bapa walau usia makin meningkat.
* sukar nak bertolak ansur dengan orang lain.

.back to work but at a new department.

2011-12-14T14:17:00.002+08:00

everyone was surprised and so eager to know about my new posting after i was being posted less than a month at National Service Department.

i was far from being in love with NSD to feel sad and hurt to leave that workplace as i was away for two weeks while i was there for my family vacation.

and today is my first day at defence complex being so damn happy to back here at a different department which i was pretty much welcomed by colleagues and friends because in here, every new officers are welcomed as the workload is loaded and a lot! hahaha…

i take this posting order as a blessing because coming back here means i get to send abang to permata kindergarden located within my office compound. and that also means more time with him as he would be accompanying me everyday back and fro work.

Allah’s plan always works in mysterious way and i want to see this as a good one despite negative sok sek sok sek behind this double posting i have to experience.

Alhamdullillah.

.post holiday blues.

2011-12-12T00:40:00.000+08:00

today is the third day we came back from holiday and i still feel unbelievably exhausted eventhou i have slept and rest enough. i have learnt a lot from this 10 days trip to aussie especially on solat as musafir and the simplicity of my religion. thanks to my sis in law who taught me on being a practical muslim and i am glad despite our tight schedule and my super active boys, we both (me n hubby) cud still jaga our solat even though we are travelling at a non islamic environment. WILL WRITE MORE LATER...

.Melbourne Trip - Day 1.

2011-11-30T22:06:00.008+08:00

Ola!

Kita dah ada kat Melbourne ni.

Flight touchdown kat Tullamarine International Airport jam 9.30am waktu Oz (6.30am Malaysia Time). Masa sampai tu punyalah seronok sebab seumur hidup aku yang dah 33 tahun ni tak pernah pegi obersea. Kalau setakat Thai-kap-kung-kap tu selalu gak sampai al maklum lah dok kat border. tapi masa kecik-kecik dulu mana nak ingatkan dan mana boleh kira as a trip abroad sebab jarak rumah dengan Golok tu is less than an hour dan tak pakai passport pun.

Masa memula naik flight semalam, flight attendant dah bagi visitor card untuk kita orang isi and declare duit dan barang yang kita bawa. Australian Government ni quite strict on rules and regulations yang diaorang impose so kalau nak isi card tu kena isi betul-betul. tak leh tipu atau buat trick kat memana sebab nanti kalau dia tak kasi masuk negara dia ada mampu kita nak patah balik Malaysia?

Our families were the last to board out of the plane. Everyone complaints that they were tired because of the uncomfortable seat in air asia flight while i can't agree with them because i had a wonderful sleep with muhsein last night sebab dapat tidur macam kat rumah di seat kosong yang flight attendant baik hati tu dah cop awal-awal. Mana tak tolong cop, gamaknya kesian nengok aku beriba si muhsein dengan khaleel 'khekok' sebelah aku sebab kesempitan ruang. hehehe...

Tapi nak komplen pun macam malas la kan dah namapun tambang murah. kalau nak yang selesa kena lah top up an extra cost which i think unnecesary bila dah bawak anak berangkai-rangkai. i think it's better i save the money for shopping here rather than fork out for plane ticket. hohoho... ini adalah pandangan orang yang tak banyak duit tapi nak pegi jalan-jalan jugak. so this is considered as budget trip. maka kami semua berusaha untuk minimize our cost on benda yang boleh save like fare, meals and accomodation.

Berbalik cerita di airport, kami beratur untuk passport check dekat immigration kaunter. muhsein started to make a scene while we were queing, menangis, mengamuk mintak aku lepaskan sebab dah rimas berdukung beriba. that 8 hours journey has finally take a toll on him. so dalam dia dok buat drama tu, one immigration lady officer cakap

"where's the baby?"

dua tiga kali cari bunyi tangisan. agaknya bingit kot dengar suara meneran budak kecil ni and she finally allowed me and my sister in law (yang dok dokong anak jugak) to cut the que sebab keadaan yang kelihatan sedikit huru hara . terima kasih muhsein for being cranky as your crankiness is finally rewarded!

everything went smooth, from passport check to luggage check. i was quite impressed with their integrity as compared to our country. memang jauh sangat bezanya and secretly i wished that one day our country's entry points will be as strict as here. (reality bites eh?)

hubby and khaleel weren't around. same goes to yaya and her family and also mama. jenuh tunggu diaorang keluar tapi tak muncul tiba until me and my kokda's family decided to continue with luggage check by their custom officer and wait for them outside.

dalam setengah jam tunggu hubby, khaleel, my mil and yaya's family tersangkut kat dalam, finally they came out. rupa-rupanya diaorang semua kena isi balik vistor pass tu sebab salah isi. mana tak salah isi sebab ada orang nasihat suruh tick yes dekat semua petak instead of no. terkena pulak immigration officer yang check their passport was very strict (sebab apa yang kami isi semuanya sama - 13 of us) jadi terpaksalah diaorang isi balik.

akhirnya dapat kumpul semua rombongan cikgu khadijah kat waiting area

ada orang sangat lapar ye di situ

(pic. courtesy fr. kokda's fb)

mokcik and the children

Baru sikit je angin ostoya tiup dah pengsan si muhsein ni

(pic. courtesy fr. kokda's fb)

muka hubby dah macam nak lebam kepenatan sebab letih mengawal keligatan khaleel. adik dah tunggu kat luar dan lepas semua dah berkumpul we went off to adik's house by taking a cab. sejukkknya udara kat sini. macam kat genting plak (tapi lebih sejuk... hahaha... ayat poyo di situ)

mata aku ni dalam dok tengok pemandangan sekeliling kejap-kejap jeling meter cab tu. macam air paip lajunya meter tu jalan. sampai ke lygon street ialah AUD68. Cubalah kali RM3.2... mangkuk mahal. padahal takdelah sejauh putrajaya ke LCCT pun... isk... sangat insaf !

mokcik babywearing in the van

kat melbourne budak kecik kena pakai seat belt.

itu pasal macam keras je dalam van...

Sampai-sampai kami lunch macam nak rak. Lapar sangat sebab tak breakfast. lunch ready was before adik came and fetched us. she prepared a delicious and hot chicken tomyam. lepas makan dan solat, i immediately put my sons to sleep. tapi lumrah lakan... bila nak tidurkan anak, mak bapak pun tidor skali sampaikan kami dah tak larat nak join my mil pegi jalan-jalan kat lygon st and melbourne uni.

takpelah... banyak hari lagi kat sini kan. gambar tak banyak on the first day we are here. leceh nak handle a big camera with two boys yang sangat active. i should have brought along my small camera untuk snap gambar-gambar biasa. tapi tu lah... dah ada kat ostoya pun tak dapek nak nolong...

.muhsein's 1st birthday celebration.

2011-11-28T14:16:00.003+08:00

alhamdulillah we managed to throw a simple and yet meriah birthday party for muhsein last saturday (cum tahlil for my late FIL) with angry bird cake and nasi arab as the main eatery from mommy and abah. other tit bits were either made by my SIL or MIL for the tahlil.

i ordered nasi arab from kak normala and it tasted so good that me and hubby had it countless time enjoying its hot and spicy nature. the delectable apple salad still lingers on my tastebud. sedap sangat. this is not going to be a long entry as i am in the midst of packing our stuff for our trip to melbourne tomorrow.

this is the best shot taken from the event. by the way, i didn't get to capture pictures of the tahlil as i was busy blowing the baloon in our room while our extended family were downstairs reciting yasin and doa.

: muhsein's birthday cake

and some other pictures worth to keep

muhsein was sharing his birthday cake, song and wishes with princess adlin yang baju polka dot tu

rimas with his birthday paper hat

it was definitely a memorable event for me as my second son is already one year old and we both are not planning to have a new addition anytime soon because having two boys now is like having four or five children already.

both of the are super active and super clingy too!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADIK.

Semoga awak jadi anak yang baik dan soleh!

I love you

mommy and babah love you!

.luggage bag murah story.

2011-11-21T10:53:00.003+08:00

Weekend lepas memang dah plan dari awal "sahaja aku pegi pavillion atau ke mana-mana untuk mencari luggage size 28 bagi trip kami nanti" amin...

since this is our first family trip to oversea, we didn't have proper luggage to keep our clothes and what not. i only have one luggage. a cabin size luggage yang pastinya wont be able to fit all our empat beranak stuffs in it.

actually last month, before my trip to lumut, i bought one luggage size 24 which is meant for our oversea trip (tapi sebab aku ni jenis tak sabar, terus guna masa pi lumut tu... kellas kau jah!). the bag we bought is in purple color from ELLE was so cheap and the most important part about the bag itself is weighted more or less 2.5kg which is what we are looking for considering the limited baggage weight we bought to and fro for this trip.

bila dah kemas-kemas apa yang patut by putting hubby's and my clothes in it, beg dah penuh dan sendat. though the bag is expendable, takkan muatnya nak masukkan semua baju anak-anak tu.

at first we wanted to borrow our relatives big luggage sebab masa tu kitaorang pikir bukannay nak guna selalu pun bag tu plus storage issue in our house. tapi bila pikir-pikir balik, tak rugi pun beli setakat satu beg size 28 or 32 for our family because we both intended to make an oversea trip our bi-anually family activities from this year onward.

sebab tu lah, last saturday kami terjah tangs, travel for all, luggage empire and also parkson in search for one suitable luggage size 28 di mana harganya must be below RM300 (yeah, we are cheapskate!), lightweight and dark color. (banyak pulak songeh nya dengan bajet yang seciput tu.. hehehe)

so bila dok pusing-pusing satu pavilion dan belek-belek beg in each and every kedai bag, we decided to buy a luggage size 28, black color dengan berat around 3.8kg jenama peirre cardin at travel for all shop located at the second floor (next to STADIUM). paling penting harganya is within our budget which is RM295 (price after 50% discount).

kami tak beli terus although we have found one as we wanted to have a last check at pavillion. masa mula-mula pegi tangs, we just browse thru gitu-gitu je on all luggage they have so takut jugak we missed out special promotion which we forgot to ask the promoters there.

so off we went to tangs for the second time and asked promoter yang berdedai-dedai kat situ. tapi yang paling aku sentap bila kita tanya pasal berat luggage boleh dikatakan semua promoter kat situ cakap "TAK PASTI KAK." even a person who hung "SUPPLIER" tag on his neck gave us the same answer which is unacceptable to me. kalau tak tau tak yah la pakai tag "SUPPLIER" yang tulis besar-besar tu sebab betul-betul memalukan company yang kau representla dik.

While asking this and that to one of the promoter of DEUTER brand (dia ni ok sikit la dari yang lain) a man who was looking for a luggage smiled at me and asked:

ABANG BAIK: You cari luggage big size ye?
ME: Ha ah...
ABANG BAIK: You nak cari yang ringan eh?
ME: Ye... nak ringan tapi murah...*bigggg grin*...
ABANG BAIK: Try AMERICAN TOURISTER. Brand tu satu company dengan SAMSONITE. Murah dan ringan. I bought one last week at ROBINSON less than RM300. You punya bajet berapa?
ME: Bawah RM300. Malas nak beli mahal-mahal... bukan nak guna selalu pun
ABANG BAIK: Cuba tengok la AT brand. it's very light and it's cheap.

we then headed to AT section with hubby and that kind man were also there with his wife checking on SAMSONITE and AT luggage. The kind man then started talking to my husband about the luggage he bought. lepas potpetpotpet for almost 20 minutes with the kind man, we decided to go to ROBINSON and forgo our choice we made earlier at TRAVEL FOR ALL .

Memang lah kerja gila namanya ni dan kat mana sangatla value for money nya when we calculate on mileage and parking. dan bila sampai mid valley, kami hanya tuju ke robinson specifically the luggage section.

since we have narrow down our choices to these criteria:

luggage size 28/32
black color
lightweight
four wheels
must be AMERICAN TOURISTER
price below RM300

we were lucky when we got there, we were welcomed by a friendly and knowledgeable sales assistant. i said knowledgeable because she can answer all questioned we asked. dan dia pulak siap bagi few recommendations which gave us many choices. there was also 10% discount on certain bag which is given by the company. another plus point for not buying at tangs.

selepas hampir sejam memilih dan bertanya bermacam-macam soalan, we decided to buy a black AT luggage dengan harga RM279 (original price is RM350) dengan beratnya for only 3.5kg.

masa bayar luggage tu, cashier pulak cakap if we buy for RM300 you will get RM40 voucher and if i pay by citibank, i get one payung. this is the part of me yang sangat menjengkelkan - i like vouchers and free stuffs. so i bought a set of roll up vacuum keeper for only 21.90 untuk cukupkan the bill to RM300. and the rest is history.

alhamdullilah, our search for luggage went smoothly that day. double lucky bila masa dok sibuk belek dan pilih luggage at ROBINSON, my khaleel idris was sleeping so lena in which dengan ketiduran itu helped us to make a better decision and choice.

if i have time, i will update this entry by uploading the picture of our catch of the day. with the RM40 voucher, we bought another cabin size luggage in PURPLE color!... it so cute and i like it very much!

alah membeli menang memakai kheen...

.my second day here.

2011-11-15T11:39:00.000+08:00

i am not busy with work now because i have nothing to do. though it is clear in my transfer order that i should be sent to 'this and this' unit, i am not surprised seeing myself happily swim in the work pool at the new department i started using back a punch card yesterday.

so rather than just sit my pretty ass comfortably on this working chair doing nothing, it will be justified if my time is occupied by updating my FB, sort out friends in need and ditch out friends i barely get in touch even though i see their status on my home page almost every hour.

on my second day here, i attended the dept monthly assembly, not being friendly and felt too sleepy to mingle around as my sleep was interupted few times when muhsein merengek and mengempeng the whole nite.

my poor baby is down with fever. flu fever i supposed as i could clearly see the mucus running down his nose pretty bad early this morning with his body temperature stroke to 39 degrees. my usual lame justification for his demam is 'demam nak besar' because in less than 10 days, my baby muhsein will be 1 year old. sungguh cepat kamu membesar ye nak or lebih tepat if mommy says - cepatnya masa berlalu???

my life is actually pretty rewarding even tho i don't know what's coming as my new office is just 10 minutes away from home. therefore i'm planning to go home every other day during lunch break and clock out 5.00 pm sharp (if my workload can wait?) and be home as early and safely at 5.10pm everyday. boleh ka?

if it's true diaorang stationed me at HR, it will be much to my liking as i really want to do and learn something new from what i've been venturing for the past 4 years in my tenure ship in gov.

tak kisah la korang paham ke tak ayat aku kat atas tu but i think my english is really bad and it's funny that i care about it.

and yes, i'm busy packing for our family holiday too!

.sometimes i just don't know how to react.

2011-11-04T12:23:00.000+08:00

. on work that feed me . So two days ago my current immediate boss has asked me to write a surat penangguhan penempatan whereby i will be officially become NS new member starting from 14 Nov 2011. It is ok with me as i still have few other things to finish up like report and minute. and not to forget my tnt claim this month. so when i look at my tnt claim form, i just realized that i have been going out station like every week last month and from what i heard, my new job scope in NS too requires an extensive job outside the HQ which means - MORE OUTSTATIONS!

i don't know whether i can cope up with that, but i look forward on doing new things rather than just sit here doing what i have been doing for the past FOUR FREAKIN' YEARS!

. on my little khalifah . i noticed that i get edgy and cranky really fast these day that i always lost my temper on idris. (poor little abang). each time this thing happened, he will get my pulasan ketam (pinch) which brought two different reactions. laughing or crying. laughing because the pinch was ticklish or he will cry his lung out when my pinch is a bit hard and painful.

i am not so good at holding my patience when he hit on other people (in my case his own little brother and his little cousin), stranggle and kepak his lil brother's hand because he treat his adik as laksaksa (raksaksa) and he; the ultraman. i shuld not allow him to watch ULTRAMAN at first place because this is the repurcussion of doing so!

i know i shudn't snap on him when he buat perangai and expect him to understand my instruction (or more or less my scream) like he's a big boy, but i'm just a normal human being with little patience in my pocket.

must read quran more to avoid all these grumpiness!

.my first day at National Service Dept.

2011-11-01T13:03:00.015+08:00

ok how to start?

Starting from this month i am no longer a member of A Department, but will start kicking my energy at a new department doing something totally new and different from my previous job scope.

There are a lot of things going on here when i reported myself this morning. a bit kelam kabut on my posting and their wish to maintain the old officer (which i supposed to ganti) which then has left me blur with all this posting things.

Looks like they are not ready to receive a new officer and so comfortable with the previous one.

i don't know how life would be, but the beginning wasn't pleasant as much as i expected.

is this a sign?

.terlajak kata buruk padahnya.

2011-10-27T15:59:00.000+08:00

sebab perkara ini baru sangat berlaku pada saya... about 3 days ago, dan baca pulak blog miss isabelle dengan entry ini membuatkan saya terpanggil untuk menceritakan pengalaman yang hampir sama seperti beliau.

last tuesday, i visited my auntie who was admitted at hospital taiping di atas sebab sakit puan. jadi ketika saya sampai di hospital, she wasn't there because she was sent to a private hospital for a ct scan. so while waiting for her to be back to HT, hubby and i went to a cafeteria which is located just next to the ward. (Ward 19). i make it point untuk makan di situ kerana adik saya bilang mee sup kafeteria itu sedap GILA. makanya haruslah saya cuba makan apa yang sedap di situ kerana saya pasti saya takkan kembali ke tempat itu lagi dalam waktu terdekat ini.

so i had that delectable mee soup dan ala-ala berebut dengan suami (yang sibuk menceduk sup itu). saya bilang pada suami "jangan lah abang belasah semua sup tu, tak kan jadi mi sup lagi dah kalau supnya dah kering." which later he asked me to get another bowl for him (yes, memang sedap!).

jadi semasa menempah mee tersebut, saya yang berdiri di tepi kaunter membuat permintaan :

Saya : Abang, nanti mee tu saya nak ayam bahagian daging, tak mau tulang
Abang manis : Daging tak de kak ayam saje ada
Adik manis : cakap isi kak, bukan daging (menyapa saya seakan berbisik)
Saya : owh, bukan daging... maksud saya ayam tu saya nak isi. tulang tak mau.
Abang manis : ok kak

and while waiting for abang manis to prepare the mee soup for me, i had a little conversation with adik manis (who helped me out with my poor vocab) sebab terasa seperti harus beramah mesra kerana menghargai bantuannya.

Saya : thank you ye dik...
Adik Manis : it's ok kak...
Saya : Awak tak cuti lagi ke?
Adik manis : Tak kak
Saya : (dengan nada terkejut) Tak cuti lagi? Esok deepavali cuti tak?
Adik Manis : Saya mamak kak, bukan hindu

Bang! (kapoww X sejuta)

Seperti cik isabelle bilang, rasa macam *gedegang!!!* rentung dipanah petir

saat itu saya rasa muka manis saya ni kelat macam jambu muda. pijar pipi separuh gebu ini seperti ditempeleng sepuluh kali tanpa henti. telinga yang kembang jadi kuncup macam bunga ros buruk, mata tiba-tiba berpinar, rasa mahu berguling-guling atas tanah dan digilis keretapi tapi bangkit semula dengan maintain ayu.

saya bilang maintain ayu sebab malu dan rasa tebal yang amat. seriously, saya tak tahu mana nak disorok muka saya ni. this is the problem with me when i have the tendency to stereotype people based on their color. when almost all the time i thought when you are fair and and have sepet eyes - you are chinese and buddhist, when your skin is dark and you have sharp nose - you are indian and hindu.

gosh! sangat keji bukan? tapi nasi telah jadi bubur. terlajak perahu boleh diundur, terlajak kata, tanggunglah sendiri!

apabila adik manis mengatakan dia adalah wanita dari keturunan mamak (and of course beragama islam), saya segera minta maaf padanya. saya harus minta maaf kerana stereotyping her secara melulu. mujur si adik manis tidak marah-marah atau menarik muka. sebaliknya hanya mengangguk-angguk as a sign of forgiveness with the sweetest smile. walaupun saya pasti, di hati kecilnya mesti ada sedikit rasa kurang senang dengan judgement saya yang salah dan melulu.

selepas mee sup suami saya ready to be pickep up, saya segera bawa lari mangkuk tu. hati saya menjerit "kenapalah mulut kamu ramah sangat sampai tersalah cakap" mahu saja saya siram sup panas tu di bibir sebagai punishment of being overly friendly.

though this incident may sound hilarious, but it is a lesson learnt for me supaya selepas ini janganlah terlalu friendly tidak bertempat. supaya selepas ini (seboleh-bolehnya) mengurangkan sikap stereotyping people based on their color, religion etc. supaya selepas ini berfikir sedalam-dalamnya sebelum berkata-kata. sebab kesan selepas salah cakap itu mungkin memalukan kepada kita tapi pernahkah kita fikir kesannya kepada orang yang terkena seperti adik manis itu.

harapan saya cuma satu; semoga adik manis tidak terganggu emotionally and mentally akibat terlajak ~~perahu~~ kata saya itu!

.muhsein & his breastfeeding mayhem.

2011-10-21T10:38:00.001+08:00

Kesiannya!

Apabila saya masuk dalam kereta bila suami datang ambil saya di KLIA dua hari lepas, saya peluk cium Khaleel Idris. Cium dan cium dan cium kalau boleh nak gigit dan kunyah kulit dan isi pipinya kerana rindu yang amat ni.being a very responsive boy he is dia balas ciuman saya dengan pelukan erat. seolah-olah tak mahu lagi berpisah dengan mommy yang masam ni walaupun sesaat. detik yang sangat saya hargai sehingga akhir hayat saya.

belum puas saya mencium Khaleel Idris, saya tanya suami mengenai adik Muhsein. rindu saya pada anak kedua ini sama nilainya dengan si abang. awop bilang stok susu sudah licin dan dari petang juga dia hanya diberikan air suam sebagai ganti.

tanpa saya sedar, mata saya bergenang dengan air mata. mudahnya hati kecil ini terusik. rasa seperti saya ibu yang kurang asam kerana tidak betul-betul memastikan cukup atau tidak stok susu yang saya tinggalkan. rasa seperti zalimnya saya tidak menyediakan susu alternatif (susu formula) kepada muhsein sebagai pesediaan kalau-kalau susu tidak cukup (dan terbukti memang tak cukup pun!).

Satu jam 15 minit perjalanan balik ke rumah saya rasa seperti 5 hari yang menyeksakan. saya mahu cepat sampai sebab saya mahu pangku muhsein dan segera suakan candunya yang hilang. saya mahu lekas sampai supaya saya boleh cium dia puas-puas sewaktu menyusukannya.

apabila saya sampai, muhsein sedang lena tidur. saya segera mengeluarkan EBM yang saya kumpul di Sabah dan Sarawak(dengan penuh kasih sayang itu) untuk segera simpan dalam fridge. Buka sahaja bahagian freezer,

TADA!

nothing in this box. not even a single bottle!

waah... lagi meruntun jiwa saya. macam-macam benda bermain di kepala. apa muhsein minum sementara menanti saya pulang? macam mana dia boleh tidur kalau dia tak minum susu? kenapa lah saya tak beli susu formula untuk kegunaan di saat-saat kepupusan susu ini?

saya segera menguruskan EBM saya. berjaya bawa pulang 40oz sahaja selama tiga hari dua malam bekerja di luar kawasan. dari 40oz saya bahagikan kepada 3oz setiap botol dan inilah hasilnya

walaupun tidak selebat mana hasilnya, kotak susu itu kembali penuh. namun, hasil tersebut sememangnya tidak mampu menampung keperluan seharian muhsein jika saya ditakdirkan kerja out station lagi.(tanpa angkut kedua-dua anak bersama). semalam juga, my MIL told me that she has fed muhsein with FM kerana kepupusan stok EBM. dia bilang, muhsein tak henti-henti merengek sebab mahu susu. leaving her with no choice but to use my niece FM (sama umur dengan muhsein). surprising, he drank it easily dan terus berhenti merengek which makes me more sayang pada muhsein for being such an easy baby. (easy in the sense tak memilih untuk minum asalkan perut kenyang)

walau bagaimanapun, saya tetap gigih memerah. minum air banyak-banyak supaya banyak susu saya boleh kumpul. saya cuba buat power pumping untuk increase my bm production. alhamdulliah, hasilnya lumayan. bekalan EBM saya susut kerana cirit birit yang saya tanggung dua minggu lepas. selepas recover, saya hanya mampu expressed sebanyak 6oz sehari selama seminggu di mana ianya kurang dari pengambilan harian muhsein (sebanyak 12oz sehari). jadi bayangkanlah berapa banyak stok yang saya simpan terpaksa digunakan in order to top up his need.

jujurnya, saya rasa terkilan apabila matlamat menyusukan muhsein secara ekslusif sekurang-kurangnya setahun tidak tercapai. however, i'm not literally rigid dalam hal ini just to ensure the end is justified. kalaulah saya tahu my EBM wasn't enough, i would have bought a formula milk as substitute. takkan kerana mahu capai matlamat menyusu secara ekslusif saya mesti biarkan anak saya kelaparan serta menyusahkan mereka yang menjaga muhsein dan bilang pada mereka "tunggu hingga saya balik".

itu bukan saya!

and to my dearest muhsein,

walau mommy tidak berjaya susukan kamu secara ekslusif selama setahun, walau kamu sudah ok dengan susu formula (in your case u like lactogen!), walau mommy sudah beli susu FM sebagai payung sebelum hujan, walau berapa lama mommy perlu tinggalkan kamu di atas tuntutan kerja... mommy akan berusaha semampu yang boleh untuk terus menyusukan kamu sehingga kamu sendiri refuse to be breastfed. kerana kamu perlu tahu, menyusukan kamu adalah moment paling private antara kamu dan mommy.

kamu sebelum mommy terbang ke S & S

.panggillah nama setiap manusia dengan panggilan yang baik-baik.

2011-10-14T09:25:00.004+08:00

masa saya kecik-kecik dulu, saya sangat kecewa dan frust dengan mak ayah kerana menamakan saya dengan nama KHADIJAH. marah sangat kerana saya tidak suka orang panggil saya JAH. ketika itu, i strongly believe JAH is only meant for old ladies or wanita-wanita berpangkat nenek dan bukan pada kanak-kanak riang ria macam saya :P

Tambahan pula saya membesar di negeri Cik Siti Wan Kembang di mana jika mereka memanggil saya JAH bunyi itu akan bertukar menjadi JOH, MEK JOH atau worst case TIJOH! Sumpah saya benci dengan panggilan seumpama itu. rasa nak tumbuk muka manusia yang memanggil saya dengan nama tersebut. sehinggakan saya pernah menangis (bukan sekali) berkali-kali apabila nama saya diejek atau dipanggil sedemikian oleh rakan-rakan sebaya.

Adat kata - saya memang makan hati dengan nama sendiri dan secara diam menyalahkan mak dan ayah saya apabila memilih nama tersebut. saya pernah bertanya pada ayah kenapa ayah namakan saya khadijah bukan nama-nama lain seperti hanim atau farah? (those two names are my favorite names that time)

dan ayah bilang:

"Kan ke cantik nama KHADIJAH tu... itu kan nama isteri nabi... nanti bila hari kebangkitan di padang masyar, apabila malaikat menyebut Ya KHADIJAH, semua yang bernama KHADIJAH bangkit bersama-sama isteri Rasullullah"

tapi being rebellious, i didn't care less on his explaination. yang saya tahu ketika itu, hati saya bengkak diejek dengan panggilan-panggilan yang menjengkelkan.

saya masih ingat akan keberanian (ataupun mungkin keceluparan) saya when i dare saking one of my teacher yang memiliki nama klasik seperti saya. saya mengadu pada cikgu itu bahawa saya benci nama saya sebab it sounds so oldies. tapi entah kenapa jawapan yang cikgu itu bagi sedikit sebanyak dapat mengurangkan rasa marah saya pada nama saya yang indah itu.

she said something like this:

"i'm proud of my name. saya tak kisah orang nak kata nama saya klasik ke kuno ke dengan nama ni sebab nanti cucu saya tak malu bila orang tanya mereka " nenek awak nama apa?" my grandchildren boleh jawab dengan bangga "nenek saya nama KHADIJAH". bukankah nama itu sesuai dengan status dan umur kita ketika itu?. nama macam nama awak ni sesuai untuk semua zaman. whether you are young or old, it suits u. so love it and embrace it"

ouch! jawapan yang menyejukkan telinga dan sedikit sebanyak melembutkan hati batu saya.

tatkala saya hanyut dalam dunia saya sendiri, saya kembali 'mendekati' dan 'menyelami' nama saya yang indah ini. seperti bercinta dengan nama sendiri saya menyingkap sejarah hidup wanita yang memiliki nama ini. mendalami sejarah hidup siti khadijah seperti memberi suntikan dan semangat baharu kepada saya untuk memperbaiki peribadi diri kepada yang lebih baik. dan kerana menyelami nama saya yang indah ini juga, saya berusaha menjadi muslimah yang baik. kalau pun tidak sehebat sahsiah SITI KHADIJAH isteri nabi itu, sekurang-kurangnya saya berusaha ke arah itu.

eh,eh,eh... dah panjang berjela pulak saya menulis tentang nama saya ni.

sejujurnya, saya tidak berniat menggambarkan keindahan nama saya dalam entri ini. yang ingin saya kongsi di sini adalah apa yang telah saya lalui dan rasa sebelum ini. jika diimbas kembali 'kejakian' (atau lebih tepat kebencian?) saya dengan nama sendiri sebenarnya bukanlah berpunca dari nama saya yang saya anggap klasik dan tidak moden itu, sebaliknya ejekan dan nama jolokan 'hodoh' yang diberikan oleh rakan sebaya. besar kesannya pada diri saya sehinggakan saya tegar menyalahkan emak dan ayah kerana nama sendiri.

saya tidak suka kalau orang panggil nama anak saya sesuka hati atau ikut sedap mulut. kalau idris panggil lah idris. jangan panggil dia dengan nama deris or deghih. sebab saya takut kalau-kalau dengan panggilan sebegitu buat dia benci dengan namanya yang indah atau dia benci dengan kami suami isteri kerana menamakan dia dengan nama indah itu. we didn't take five second to name them. berhari-hari juga memerah otak, membelek buku-buku nama, bersengkang mata mengadap komputer gigih mencari nama-nama yang baik maksudnya sebelum nama tersebut didaftar.saya kira bukan kami sahaja yang begitu, rasanya hampir semua ibu bapa melalui situasi seperti kami dalam proses menamakan permata hati kita.

anak-anak kecil memang suka memberi nama jolokan kepada rakan-rakan mereka berdasarkan keadaan fizikal dan sahsiah masing-masing. ada sesetengah nama kekal pada si polan sehingga mati. ada yang suka dengan nama jolokan tersebut dan tak kurang yang membenci dengan gelaran yang diberi. kerana itu, saya berpendapat sebaiknya kita didik anak-anak kita agar memanggil nama kawan-kawan mereka dengan nama yang baik-baik dan digemari empunya badan. jangan ejek nama orang lain. jangan bagi nama jolokan yang mereka tidak suka. selok-eloknya kita ajar anak-anak kita memanggil nama orang lain dengan nama penuh kerana setiap nama mengandungi doa. jika baik maksud nama itu, maka baiklah doa yang kita sebut.

i even wish that one day, i will tell each and everyone of my children about their name. bahawa keputusan meletakkan nama mereka sedemikian tidak seperti melepaskan batuk di tangga. bahawa ada storyline sebelum nama tersebut didaftar. bahawa setiap nama yang dipilih ada nilai tersendiri di hati kami. bahawa nama mereka itu adalah doa yang terbaik dari kami dunia dan akhirat.

update*

this is the dalil that can conclude this whole entry (taken from the comment i received from my FB)

"Dan janganlah kamu panggil memanggil dengan gelar-gelar yang buruk..."

(Q.S Al hujarat:11)

*ehem... heidee nor tu adalah nama pena saya... hehehe...

.muhsien and rotavirus.

2011-10-12T18:00:00.002+08:00

"mommy buat apa tu?"
"mommy jaga adik"
"adik kenapa?"
"adik sakit"
"adik sakit apa? mommy kat 'opistal' ke?"
"adik sakit perut. ha ah... mommy kat hospital. abang behave tau. tido dengan nenek jangan perangai tau"
"emmm..."

sayu.

tipulah kalau saya cakap air mata tidak menitik. gundah gulana hati kecil ini apabila terpaksa meninggalkan idris di rumah dek kerana saya terpaksa bermalam bersama muhsein di hospital akibat muntah yang berlarutan.

bermula dari malam selasa 27 sept, muhsein muntah sebanyak 5 kali before i managed to put him to sleep. sepanjang waktu tidur, dia tidak menyusu kerana kepenatan. tepat jam 6 pagi, muhsein mula menyondol-nyondol mahukan susu. namun tak sampai 5 minit menyusu, uweeek... muhsein muntah lagi.

setibanya kami di hospital, doktor bertugas telah memasukkan ubat tahan muntah dan meminta saya menunggu sehingga sejam for his next feeding. after one hour, saya menyusukan muhsein and again he vomited everything he drank. doktor memaklumkan bahawa muhsein perlu ditahan bagi mengelakkan dia mengalami dehidrasi yang teruk akibat muntah yang berlarutan.

semasa doktor bertugas bertungkus lumus memasang IV pada muhsein's tiny hand, all of us suddenly tercium bau gas which was quite stinky. it came from none other person than muhsein. i tell ya that his fart was so smelly when all of us made a weird face upon sniffing such a stinky gas. demi allah, saya tak pernah tercium bau sebusuk itu. and after they have done with the IV my son suddenly purged macam air. habis seluar dan baju yang dipakai dan his stool juga bocor di atas cadar dan selimut hospital. and again, his stool was unbearably stinky like a rotten fish.

walaupun saya sudah mencuci tangan dengan sabun sebanyak dua kali, baunya masih belum hilang. kami maklumkan kepada paed who attended muhsein mengenai perkara tersebut, he suspected it is a rotavirus based on the smell of his stinky stools.

malam itu, kami anak beranak bermalam di hospital. idris tidur dengan abah on extra bed we requested from hospital. very comfy and pretty much like staying overnight at hotel tapi dengan IV dan butang kecemasan. ;D. hehehe... it wasnt really a good decision actually to allow idris sleeping with us but we couldn't help it.

malam seterusnya, kami tidak membawa idris bermalam bersama memandangkan keadaan muhsein yang semakin teruk. he was having quite bad cirit-birit sehinggakan pada malam kedua, nurse terpaksa menukar cadar sehingga 5 kali! tiada apa yang keluar kecuali air berwarna kekuningan. it was so heart wrenching to see my little love battling again that nasty virus and the only cure for this antigen ialah memasukkan air yang hilang dalam badannya melalui kaedah drip.

muhsein yang keletihan selepas purging sebanyak 8 kali

baru dua hari, muhsein sudah kurus dan ringan. hilang pipi tembamnya, hilang sudah peha KFCnya yang sangat yummeh itu. suhu badannya jugak agak panas (39 degree). Dari apa yang doktor maklumkan kepada kami, suhu badan yang tinggi atau demam panas ini adalah salah satu kesan jangkitan virus ini.

pada hari kedua ini juga i have decided to request a hospital gown for muhsein. pesan saudara saya yang juga seorang doktor, lebih mudah jika menggunakan pakaian yang dibekalkan oleh hospital supaya bibik di rumah tidak perlu menguruskan pakaian-pakaian kotor muhsein yang dikhuatiri boleh membawa kepada jangkitan virus tersebut (melalui stool/ purging yang melekat di pakaiannya) kepada orang lain.

bila request for hospital gown, i received a weird (or mungkin surprised) look from nurses. saya rasa mesti tak ramai patient kanak-kanak di sini memakai pakaian tersebut. dan telahan saya benar kerana telah diakui oleh nurse yang menyediakan pakaian tersebut kepada kami. di sini tidak ada strict rules that patients must only wear hospital gown seperti mana yang diwajibkan di hospital kerajaan.

i think he looks lovely in that gown eventho he's sick. tak percaya?

my little boy in PINK!

masuk sahaja hari ketiga there were some improvements on his condition. demam panasnya telah hilang sama sekali menunjukkan virus jahat itu semakin berkurangan. walaupun dia masih lagi purging seperti dua hari sebelumnya, sekurang-kurangnya dalam stoolnya sudah ada hampas. he refused to eat dan bergantung sepenuhnya kepada drip. saya tahu dia semakin sihat apabila dia sudah tidak lembik dan kembali lasak dan cergas. nak duduk diam seminit pun susah, kalau disuruh tidur, lagi lah susah!

dah sihat sikit sibuk nak main je!

benarlah seperti yang doktor bilang, the best cure for this virus is water. air yang masuk ke dalam tubuh akan flush out kuman-kuman tersebut melalui tahi. saya juga diingatkan, cirit birit yang dialami tidak akan terus hilang apabila discharge nanti.

masuk hari keempat doktor adrian masuk ke beilik kami we good news...

"it's time to go home...!"

the best phrase a mother would want to hear from a doctor!

saya suka doktor mualaf ini. everything he was telling us sangat menyejukkan telinga dan juga ubat penenang kepada kekalutan kami suami isteri. setiap kali he visited us pun, dia sentiasa said positive things. he's warm and friendly buat kami seronok and always look forward for his next visit.

i immediately pack up our stuffs and wait for our bill. seronok tak terkira bila sudah dibenarkan keluar hospital. memang benar apa yang orang cakap, walaupun hospital tempat muhsein dirawat sudah seakan hotel 'berbintang' with good food and excellent service, tapi tiada yang terbaik seperti rumah kita sendiri. hanya berbekal ubat demam dan probiotik, the three of us left the hospital to the comfort of our home. the next follow up check up will be next week.

walaupun serangan rotavirus yang dialami muhsein tidaklah seteruk mana, tapi sudah terlambat untuk kami mengambil vaksin tersebut as it is meant for a baby below 6 months. memanglah ada orang cakap, ambik vaksin RV pun kalau nak kena kena juga, tapi saya selalu berpegang kepada prinsip, prevention is better than cure. lepas ni saya berikrar, kalau ada rezeki lagi ber'baby' baru, saya akan pastikan dia mendapat vaksin RV ini supaya apa yang berlaku pada muhsein tidak akan berlaku kepada dia.

selepas discharged dari hospital, muhsein masih lagi mengalami cirit birit selama dua hari. kami ikut nasihat doktor to only feed him with bubur nasi kosong yang ditambah dengan garam sahaja. no other source of protien, sugar or what not should be added in his porridge as his stomach is still weak for digestion process. alhamdulillah, selepas dua hari stool muhsein dah kembali normal which indicate RV dah totally gone.

saya teringat cerita saya mengenai idris and his stool dalam entry poo-pooless baby ini. dua cerita bersangkut paut dengan stools anak-anak buat saya ketawa sorang-sorang. jadi ibu ni even tahi anak pun kita sibuk nak ambil tahu. bagaimanapun, harap-harap in the future, tak de lagi sakit macam ni menyerang anak-anak (and also both of us) sebab kesan selepas itu is undeniably exhausting!