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Tristan Prettyman and Her Breakup Album ?

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Sat, 22 Mar 2014 10:40:00 +0000

Jason Mraz's ex-fiancee. Damn her album Cedar + Gold will tear your heart to pieces. Remember how Adele's album became your life-story when you got broken-hearted? Well this album is kind of like that. Just instead of hearing a power vocalist, her music is the mellow, rainy-weather music type.. They said that this album was all about how she felt after Jason Mraz called of their engagement and split-up. And you can really feel the pain when you listen to ALL the songs in this album. I only discovered her music and this store a few months ago and I kind of felt sad for both of them. They looked good together and they both make good music, and they could have been a great couple. Whatever happened to them, I hope they're both happy now.

Everything Will be Alright

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Wed, 13 Nov 2013 09:18:00 +0000

I give up. Following the news about YolandaPH Relief efforts is so frustrating. In social media you see hate posts and statements of blame. A lot of us hates the government right now for STILL not being in control of the situation even though 5 days have passed. I can't blame these people hating on social media right now because I'd like to believe that like me, they're just frustrated and are feeling really helpless about the situation. But reading all these news, all these posts, I feel my heart breaking to pieces. I'm so frustrated with what I'm seeing, that I want to personally go to these places affected and just help. I want to go and hug my kababayans but I know we all have a role to play and my role is to be here, in the office, doing my job, donating whatever I can to the relief efforts my company is organizing.

You know why I'm frustrated? Because here we are, giving our donations to organizations/government, doing our best to gather funds, and relief goods, only to see in the news that even before these people get a hold of them, the local government officials are already hoarding them. Or you see news like people are arguing that a certain church didn't let people in because they don't belong to the same religion. My goodness! It's as if my heart is crushed right now. I'm angry, and frustrated. Frustrated because I can't do anything about it other than to pray that love towards others will be greater than greed. Billions of pesos are coming in from other countries and overseas organizations who wants to help but you can't help but doubt if these citizens from the Visayas and Palawan regions will really benefit from it. I know prayers are powerful but I feel like this frustration is too much. My heart's so heavy. God help the Philippines. Enlighten the hearts and minds of our leaders. Comfort the hearts of my countrymen especially those in the areas severely hit by the typhoon so that they will comfort one another. I hope one day, I know, we will all stand up from this tragedy. There's hope for us as a people. Bangon Pilipinas.

To my fellow Filipinos, who are victims of Yolanda, I can't imagine how horrible you feel but please don't give up. There are better days ahead, even though we can't see it now. We just gotta keep on believing that we will survive this. We need to help each other. We (along with all the Filipinos all over the planet) got your backs fellow Pinoys. We will survive this.

The heart is stronger than you think

Things get better, through whatever

Don't you know, you can go be your own miracle

I think I need to stop reading my social media feeds for a while (I don't have TV thus I only read the news
via Facebook and via the Rappler website). Listen to this song. I know this song is for cancer cause but
it's one of the pick-me-up songs I listen to whenever I feel down.

Take heart in the fact that we're not alone, we've got each other.

Destructive Yolanda(Haiyan)

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Mon, 11 Nov 2013 05:51:00 +0000

Look at Yolanda(International Name : Haiyan) almost covering the Philippines.
photo by : ABC News

If you've been watching the news, then I think you already know about Yolanda, the destructive typhoon has struck the Philippines last November 8. Seeing the damage it has done to my country is really breaking my heart right now. It is feared that at least 10,000 people lost their lives and there are still isolated places now with no electricity, cut-down communication lines, and no food. Some people, due to desperation and hunger, even resorted to looting and chaos in the places affected. Debris and remains of dead people are everywhere. These people have not eaten for days. It was reported that the storm surge, and the powerful winds of Yolanda practically washed away, like, 95% of Samar-Leyte provinces in Central Visayas, and to think those places are not the only ones affected. Every news report is really devastating. I'm thankful that I'm safe and my family is safe but its heart-breaking to see that my countrymen, who are not yet even over the loss of hundreds of people when a 7.2-magnitude earthquake hit the Visayas Region last month, are now again facing this. But we've been through a lot of destruction before and we've proven to the world that we're strong people and I know Filipinos will stand again. These tough times may crush our hearts but not our spirit. I'm positive that we will come out as even stronger country after this.

Help my fellow Filipinos during this tough struggle by donating in kind or in cash. Rappler put together in one post the links of organizations collecting relief donations for the typhoon victims. Follow this link and give help, they need help, the Philippines need help.

And I'm Back!

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Sat, 09 Nov 2013 10:15:00 +0000

Why, hello there! Yes I've decided to blog again. After 2 years of not posting, here I am again opening my blogger account and writing. I don't exactly know why, but today I felt like I need to get all of these stuff out of my head before they evaporate in the air. I think it's true that when you reach your early-to-mid twenties, you experience some kind of a crisis - you realize that people change, people have different priorities now, and you're not that young to make silly decisions anymore yet you're not old enough to be taken seriously by some people too. Aaaah.. these are just some of the things that's been running in my head recently. I just needed to let them out you know. Plus I'm in my office-home-groceries-home-office-home routines again and it's been hard arranging meetups with friends nowadays (I don't know why) so I'm actually enjoying spending most of my time alone. Going to new places, discovering new things, especially now that I finally have my own place.. I tell you it's scary but very exciting. So yeah.. hence I'm back to blogging. To document all these moments and feelings again and maybe share it to the world.. I won't promise to write as often as I can, I won't promise anything anymore. This time this is gonna be just about me, and for me, as I chronicle my changing life. :)

My Prayer

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Fri, 06 Sep 2013 17:16:00 +0000

Find me, because I want to find You

I’m surrendering it all

Find me again and don’t let me stray

Help me let You in

Find me, help me know You more

Live in me, make me worthy

Find me, so that when others see me,

They will find You.

Live in me, cleanse me, fill me with Your love

So that when they see me,

They will see Your goodness and grace

Find me, cleanse me, live in me

I’m surrendering it all.

The New Year and The Social Network

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Mon, 03 Jan 2011 15:11:00 +0000

I don't know if there are people following this blog but Happy New Year to you whoever you are reading this post right now. I wish you lots of blessings for 2011. :)

Well, it's been ages since my last post where I sorta promised to blog more often. Sorry self and sorry blog, I failed to keep that promise. But I have been, from time to time checking this account and logging in just in case I get the urge to write but unfortunately I am too guilty about a lot of things that I don't think continuing to blog or be crazy about Kpop or be up to date with the latest movies are still things I am entitled of. Yeah. Things kind of got ugly and sad the past couple of months so I decided to lie low from my addictions (well except for Facebook and tumblr, they're the only things that kept me sane all these months). But it's the new year and screw the self imposed punishments, I'll just try again. So here I am again.. Writing. I don't know when the next post will be but let's just see.. Whatever goes. I'm just trying to pick myself up again and I think re-living this blog will help. I hope.. It's a new year so it's a good time for a new start..

So this morning I watched The Social Network. Great movie.

It's amazing how (according to the movie) Facebook was born because of a Harvard student who got dumped. Haha! All throughout the movie I was thinking,, "So all of these Facebook effect started because of a girl." Mark Zuckerberg, who by the way is Times' Person of the Year, is a real genius. Before watching the movie, I didn't really know or even care about the story how Facebook was created. But after watching it, I thought he's really amazing but also an idiot. Haha! Because at the end of the movie, he was adding Erica Albright on Facebook and was waiting for her to accept his friend request. I mean after being the youngest billionaire today, he still cares about that girl. Crazy. But.. I did a little research after, and what a relief, the movie did not accurately tell the real story of Facebook. Mark Zuckerberg says that the movie got a lot of stuff wrong and random details right. Hmm.. Of course.. But I don't really care right now. Haha! It was a cool movie and I enjoyed it. How I wish I had Mark Zuckerberg's programming ability.. It also reminded me how precious a simple idea can be.. Damn.

Too Much Drama

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Thu, 23 Sep 2010 12:23:00 +0000

The Vampire Diaries, Glee, God of Study, Personal Taste. What could be crazier than watching 4 TV shows/Dramas! Well, only an out-of-school youth like me can do that. Haha!

A lot of TV shows are having their new season premieres this month. And Glee just aired its first episode for season 2 yesterday. Everybody's been anticipating that episode especially for the entrance of new characters! I guess a lot of Filipinos are now converted Gleeks because our very own Charice Pempengco is now part of the show. She's playing Sunshine Corazon, a Filipino exchange student in McKinley High who'll be Rachel's new rival. There's also Coach Beiste, who replaced Ken Tenaka as the football team coach. Another eye-candy added to the show is Sam, a new member of the football team. Glee opened up the season with a lot of new characters, and I'm just so excited of what's gonna happen in the next episodes.

The next series, which also just started its second season this month is The Vampire Diaries. My sister started watching this show last summer but since I was so busy with the Cisco certification and all, I wasn't able to join her in her TVD marathon. I downloaded the whole Season 1 yesterday and finished watching up to episode 8 and I have to admit I'm so hooked! Stefan and Damon Salvatore are damn hot vampires! The story's really interesting too. After The Twilight Series became a big hit in the bookstores and the theatres, vampire-themed shows/movies/books are gaining more and more popularity these days. But in my opinion, The Vampire Diaries is much better than Twilight. Elena Gilbert is way much prettier than Bella, and she's also less melodramatic. Also, Stefan and Damon Salvatore combined is like 200 times better and hotter than the very pale Edward Cullen. Hahaha! Stefan and Damon are both vampires, and brothers in the story who once fell in love with the same woman and it looks like another love triangle is going to happen this time with Elena. If you're a fanatic of Twilight, and you love romantic vampire love stories, then this series is definitely a must-watch.

Now on to the Korean Dramas, I am currently watching God of Study starring the very cute Yoo Seung Ho. This drama has been on my hard disk since May but I only started watching it this week because after I finished Cinderella's Sister(which by the way is a really good drama) last month, I felt like I wanted to rest from watching dramas. God of Study is a 16-episode drama "about a poor attorney who leaves a well known law firm so as to not be compromised by unethical activities. He takes on Byung Moon High School,known for troublesome, poor students and on the verge of shutting down. He takes on the challenge to have 5 students accepted into Chun Ha University, a top national university."

Another Korean drama I've been meaning to watch for months now is Personal Taste which is starred by Lee Minho and Son Ye Jin. I've heard so many positive reviews about the drama. I'm still on episode 1 so I can't say a lot about the drama yet. But so far, I think Lee Minho really improved from his performance in Boys Over Flowers. Also, his outfits in this drama are really, really good.

So that's it.

The Vampire Diaries - Episode 8
Glee - Episode 1
God of Study - Episode 3
Personal Taste - Episode 1

I hope I can finish all of them this month. Except for Glee which just started airing.

OPM Fever, Taking a Break from Kpop

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Tue, 21 Sep 2010 18:34:00 +0000

For some reason, I felt like listening to one of Orange and Lemon's hits, Heaven Knows this morning when I woke up. I then found a Youtube channel with loads of OPM songs and after listening to most of them I realized I really missed Filipino music. So I searched for download links and ended up downloading OPM albums the whole day. Hahaha! Right now my playlist contains Callalily, Hale, Silent Sanctuary, Rico Blanco, Shamrock, Kitchie Nadal, Julianne, and even Noel Cabangon. I found a very helpful site with tons of OPM downloads so I kinda downloaded every album of my favorite artists. ^_^

During my highschool days, I was really into OPM. I think 2005-2008 was a period where OPM started to regain its glory but sadly it was short-lived. I don't know what happened. Maybe it was because of piracy? *chokes* I'm sorry. Sadly I am one of them piracy supporters. Forgive me. My meager allowance could only afford the cheap pirated CDs and "digital pirated copies/downloads". Haha! I think I only had one original album from a Filipino artist and it was given to me as a birthday gift. Anyway, that time, Rivermaya, Kitchie Nadal, Parokya ni Edgar, Hale, Callalily, Orange and Lemons and Cueshe were some of my favorites.

It was during the 90s that OPM was at its best.
All the best bands that ever existed in OPM history were formed that time. There were Eraserheads, Rivermaya, Parokya ni Edgar, and a lot more. . How I miss those days when OPM dominated the radios, when our neighbors and my sister used to exchange "song hits" books/magazines which they bought on weekends, and jamming sessions in the neighborhood. Hahaha! Well, it was my sister's time. It was also the time when drug addiction was like a fad to young people, sadly, because their idol band members were into drugs too. Many great OPM bands broke up because of those issues and I guess from then on, the OPM industry laid low. Some bands came back, and some separated ways for good. From those epic bands sprung out new great ones today like Bamboo and Pupil.

This is Broken Sonnet by Hale. It was one of the most popular OPM songs during my highschool days.

When I remember those times(90s), I don't know but I remember how simple the weekends were. During the 90s I was in my elementary and I used to study a lot back then. I take a break during the weekends by, scanning through my sister's "song hits" and we would sing together while she was ironing our uniforms. Hahaha! My highschool days, when Bamboo, Rivermaya, and Callalily were topping the charts, was the time guitars were a usual sight in our schools. And who wouldn't have a crush on a guy who sings and plays guitar? Sometimes you won't mind the looks anymore. LOL.

Well, I am not yet done downloading and I'll continue this tomorrow. I'll also look in my old mp3 collections and put the old OPM albums back in my playlist. It feels good to take a break from listening to Kpop sometimes. Hahaha! Especially today, not a lot of good Kpop songs are coming out.

I hope the OPM scene will come alive again. I despise those Kpop wannabes in the Philippines. I mean, hello, we're Filipinos. Let's stop imitating other races. We can be different and still rock.

PS.

Parokya ni Edgar just released a new album called Pop Rockers. Their latest single is Pakiusap Lang (Lasingin Nyo Ako). Watch the music video here.

I just found out from tumblr that Hale disbanded already. Sad news. Champ, the lead vocalist, is currently working on a solo album. Tsk. Actually, after their first album, I didn't love the succeeding ones. It just wasn't as good as the first. The cause of the break up was said to be their differences in attitudes, and the chemistry that wasn't there anymore.
Alden, a guitarist of Callalily also left the band already.

I'm so not updated with the OPM scene!

Life Update plus 2PM - Fly to Seoul (Boom Boom Boom) MV

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Fri, 10 Sep 2010 16:35:00 +0000

Hiyeah! I've been distancing myself from Kpop recently. It's unintentional. I think I don't enjoy it as much as I used to. My biases, Super Junior, DBSK, and Big Bang are currently not in the Kpop scene, although 2ne1 is back and Big Bang is gearing for this comeback next month too, and I don't really dig the new Kpop groups that are emerging. I don't know I can't seem to find a new group that'll keep me addicted to Kpop nowadays. The new groups that debuted after 2PM and 2AM just keep getting younger and younger and some just don't meet my expectations talent-wise (Beast and MBLAQ are exceptions. I like them. :P). Hmmm.. Is it really just because of that or I have really become mature and don't spazz that much now?

So.. What have I been doing/checking out related to Kpop, Korea, or Korean Entertainment recently? Korean Dramas and Korean Movies!! I just finished Cinderella's Sister last week and it's 9/10 for me. I love Moon Geun Young and I super love her and the other casts' fashion style in the drama, but it's just so melodramatic for me. Of course what can you expect, it's Moon Geun Young! But really, she's 24 now but why does she still appear as a teenager for me? Even when she takes mature acting roles, she's really still Korea's National Little Sister. Also, yesterday, I watched 71:Into the Fire. It's the most anticipated Korean war film of this year and I was so excited when I found out that the English subtitles are already out. It's a great movie and is definitely a must-watch. Unlike my all-time favorite Korean movie Taegugki, it's not as dramatic for me, but it's really, really good. It's about a company of 71 South Korean student soldiers who fought during the Korean War. The main actors were T.O.P. of Big Bang, Kwon Sang Woo, Cha Seung Won, and Kim Seung Woo (Iris). I have been waiting for this movie and it definitely matched my expectations. I love Korean War films and this movie just made me grow my interest in Korean history. Also, it also made me respect T.O.P. more as an actor. :] Today, I also watched 2 Faces of My Girlfriend (2007). It's not a new movie but my best friend recommended it to me so I watched it. It's also a good and sad movie though I didn't love, love it. Haha! Maybe because she basically told me a summary of the film after she watched it. She couldn't help but give me spoilers. And lastly, Khuntoria couple in We Got Married is an essential part of my weekend! It's the only variety show I've been watching these days. Come on, Nichkhun (2PM), who can resist Nichkhun?! Haha!

So as a celebration for my comeback in my Kpop addiction world, here's 2PM's video of Fly to Seoul Boom Boom Boom
which was released last month but I only saw the MV and heard the song today. Haha! This video is L♥VE! Not only because it's sung and starred by the HOT 2PM boys, it also showed the wonderful city of Seoul, it's night scenes, mall and shopping districts, and (I don't know if it's intended) Seoul Fashion! LOL. Sorry if it's just me. Haha! I think I've been looking at a lot of Korean fashion pictures in Tumblr lately that's why. But here it is.. 2PM's Fly to Seoul. Enjoy!

Someday, I'm flying to Seoul and will definitely take lots of pictures of those wonderful places I'd visit! Someday! :]

Bruno Mars is ♥!

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Thu, 05 Aug 2010 15:38:00 +0000

Shocks. Why did I not search for his other songs before?? Nothing on You was my summer soundtrack this year but I didn't really bother looking up Bruno Mars on Youtube. Haha! Not until today! I so love him already. His looks, his voice, his songs are just so awesome. I love all of his songs now. Plus, he's Filipino-American!

So everything you need to find out about him is in Wikipedia already. Haha! But just in case you didn't know, he collaborated with B.O.B for Nothin' on You which I think is one of the best songs of 2010, and Travie McCoy for Billionaire, another cool song. He sounds like Ne-Yo to me but I don't know there's something in his music that makes him different from others. I love Ne-Yo but Bruno Mars is so much better in my opinion. My favorite songs of him so far are Runaway, Move On, and Who Is.

Listen to Bruno Mars - Move On below.. Such a wonderful song!

Bruno Mars - Move On

How do I end up in the same old place,
faced again with the same mistakes,
so stubborn thinkin I know what is right,
but life proves me wrong everytime,
takin roads that lead me nowhere,
how do I expect to get there,
but when will I learn to just put you first.

(Chorus)
I come to you now when I need you,
but why do I wait to come see you,
I always try to do this on my own but I was wrong
cause only with you can I move on. Can I move on.

(oh)

When I awake it's you that makes me strong,
and I know that you've been with me all along,
so many times I begin to close my eyes and listen to my heart,
with you life is so easy why do I make it hard,
oh takin roads that lead me nowhere
how do I expect to get there
when will I learn to just put you first.

(hey!)
(Chorus)
I come to you now when I need you,
but why do I wait to come see you,
I always try to do this on my own but I was wrong
cause only with you can I move on.

I get out of my own way, let you have your way.
Cause I realize I'm no God on my own,
I'm there for you, I'll sell for you
I can't live without you. Noooo

(Chorus)
I come to you now when I need you, why do I wait to come see you,
I always try to do this on my own but I was wrong, I was wrong, I was wrong.
With only you, only you, with only you.
Can I move on, can I move on, can I move on,

Oops, guess what, apparently Nothin' on You is nominated in this year's MTV VMA Awards for the Best Pop Video category. Other nominees for the category are Lady Gaga's Bad Romance, Katy Perry's California Gurls, Ke$ha's TikTok, and Beyonce and Lady Gaga's Video Phone. Let's see who'll win!

2PM - I Will Give You My Life [MV] [Lyrics]

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Wed, 04 Aug 2010 16:53:00 +0000

After Only You, this is my favorite 2PM song as of today. After I read the English translations of the lyrics, I was teary-eyed when I listened to it again with the translations. What a very touching song from one of my favorite Korean Idol Groups. How wonderful if Junho (my bias in 2PM obviously ㅋㅋ) would sing it to me. Haha! Forgive the daydreaming and the fangirling. Just listen to the song and read the English translations and you'll find out what I mean. Enjoy! Lyrics after the jump! ^__^

2PM - I'm Putting My Life On the Line

이젠 아프지 마, 이젠 울지도 마
내가 너를 지켜준다고
너와 영원히 함께라고
사랑을 믿어봐, 다신 두려워 마
너를 행복하게 해주겠다고
이렇게 네 앞에 서있는데

내 목숨을 건다
내 목숨을 건다
내가 너를 사랑하기에
내 목숨까지 건다
이런 내 마음을 넌 아니
자꾸 보고 싶은 맘 아니
사랑하기에 난 목숨도 건다

이젠 혼자 아냐, 나와 함께잖아
세상에 지쳐서 힘이 들 때도
내가 너를 위로하잖아
사랑을 믿어봐, 이젠 나를 지켜봐
너를 행복하게 해주겠다고
이렇게 네 앞에 서있는데 에

내 목숨을 건다
내 목숨을 건다
내가 너를 사랑하기에
내 목숨까지 건다
이런 내 마음을 넌 아니
자꾸 보고 싶은 맘 아니
사랑하기에 난 목숨도 건다

어떤 것도 우릴 갈라놓을 수 없기에
아마도 우린 운명이겠지

내 목숨을 건다
내 목숨을 건다
내가 너를 사랑하기에
내 목숨까지 건다
이런 내 마음을 넌 아니
자꾸 보고 싶은 맘 아니
사랑하기에 난 목숨도 건다
사랑하기에 난 건다

I'm Putting My Life On the Line (Translation)
Don't hurt anymore
Don't even cry anymore
I'll protect you now
I'll be with you forever now

Try believing in love
Don't be scared anymore
I'll make you happy
I'm in front of you right now

I'll put my life on the line
I'll put my life on the line
In order to love you, I'll put my life on the line
Do you know my feelings?
Do you know how much I miss you?
I'm putting my life on the line to love you

You're not alone anymore
You're with me together now
If you're tired with the world
I'm here consoling you

Try believing in love
Observe me now
I'll make you happy
I'm in front of you right now

I'll put my life on the line
I'll put my life on the line
In order to love you, I'll put my life on the line
Do you know my feelings?
Do you know how much I miss you?
I'm putting my life on the line to love you

Nothing can separate us
We're probably destiny

I'll put my life on the line
I'll put my life on the line
In order to love you, I'll put my life on the line
Do you know my feelings?
Do you know how much I miss you?
I'm putting my life on the line to love you

I'm putting my life on the line to love you

I'm Putting My Life On the Line (Romanization)
Ijen apeuji ma
Ijen uljido ma
Naega neoreul jikyeojundago
Neowa yeongwonhi hamkkerago

Sarangeul mideobwa
Dasin duryeowo ma
Neoreul haengbokhage haejugetdago
Ireohke ne ape seoitneunde

Nae moksumeul geonda
Nae moksumeul geonda
Naega neoreul saranghagie nae moksumkkaji geonda
Ireon nae maeumeul neon ani
Jakku bogo sipeun mam ani
Saranghagie nan moksumdo geonda

Ijen honja anya
Nawa hamkkejanha
Sesange jichyeoseo himi deul ttaedo
Naega neoreul wirohajanha

Sarangeul mideobwa
Ijen nareul jikyeobwa
Neoreul haengbokhage haejugetdago
Ireohke ne ape seoitneunde e

Nae moksumeul geonda
Nae moksumeul geonda
Naega neoreul saranghagie nae moksumkkaji geonda
Ireon nae maeumeul neon ani
Jakku bogo sipeun mam ani
Saranghagie nan moksumdo geonda

Eotteon geotdo uril gallanoheul su eobsgie
Amado urin unmyeongigetji

Nae moksumeul geonda
Nae moksumeul geonda
Naega neoreul saranghagie nae moksumkkaji geonda
Ireon nae maeumeul neon ani
Jakku bogo sipeun mam ani
Saranghagie nan moksumdo geonda

Saranghagie nan geonda

CREDITS: KOR - NAVER , ROM - Belle, stg821, TRANS - Hazyfiasco @ 2ONEDAY.COM

Update!

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Wed, 04 Aug 2010 16:33:00 +0000

Long time no post! hahaha! Gave my blog a new look today. I don't really have an artistic side when it comes to designing my blogs so I hope it turned out fine. Thanks to blogger's template designer it's easier to customize blogger themes now.
I only had 2 posts for the month of July and 3 posts for June. Tsk. I haven't been writing a lot online but I'm going back to the basics. I've been writing in my notebook again! haha! Diary, yes. Old-fashioned, yes. But it has become my habit these days. My notebook has become a budget book, a diary, and a planner, in one.

Also, I'm enjoying Tumblr a lot! I think I opened an account last February or January but I haven't been really active in posting stuff there not until July. Haha! I discovered the awesomeness of Tumblr. Actually it started as Mai Rant Avenue but Tumblr is too happy a place for me to post my rants and hatred there so I changed the "theme" of my posts there. I also introduced it to my sister since I think it will be a really good site for her passion in photography. So follow me @ my Tumblr blog here and my sister here. :]

Anyway, I miss writing here too so here it is.. I'm gonna try to write again. haha!

AJ Rafael - When We Say (Juicebox) MV

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Mon, 05 Jul 2010 15:39:00 +0000

I need to recover from that very serious post prior to this. I've been having bad dreams recently so I need to divert my attention before going to sleep.

I know this song has been all over the Internet, and the charts for some time now but yesterday was only my 3rd time watching the video and it was only then that I came to appreciate the song. Sorry to my kababayan AJ Rafael. But hey, I love your song now. ^_^ If you guys don't know him, which I doubt 'coz I think he's really famous now, he's a Youtube singing sensation who became famous because of his covers. He sang his original songs too and this song is one of them. Watch the video and listen to the lyrics and I'm sure you'll remember that at one point of your life, you can relate to the song. Haha! Because, "this ain't a movie," there are no happy endings.. By the way, he's not my first love in Youtube. Haha! That one's got to be Gabe Bondoc. (just saying. lol.)

Enjoy the song and the video.. While I go find more happy videos or stumble upon free business cards, before I go to sleep. ^_^

Alarming Suicide Cases

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Mon, 05 Jul 2010 15:19:00 +0000

Okay I know I should be sleeping right now but I accidentally opened the profile of one guy from my school who committed suicide just a few weeks ago. He was the second this semester. The semester started first week of June. Yes, three suicide cases in MSU-IIT in just one month. ~~Wait 'til it's Finals!~~ Just kidding.

The first guy killed himself because he flunked a subject. Stories say that it was his third time to fail the subject and he just couldn't accept it this time. The second guy committed suicide because of love problems. He was just a second year student! The third case was pretty dramatic I must say. He jumped off the overpass outside our school. The cause was apparently another relationship problem.

I don't know their real stories, I haven't talked to them (oh God I don't want to either), but in my opinion, killing yourself because you are heartbroken is a very careless and immature decision. Many people are in the hospital right now dying to have the opportunity you have that you are living your life, studying in a good school, and there you are lying on the floor, cold and dead just because YOU killed yourself. They took their own lives. I'm not religious and I'm not a good Christian but I know and I believe that there's a God and that everything that happens for a reason. We are here, breathing because He brought us here. If we are suffering, maybe it's because of our faults or maybe it's because of other people's faults, but it's just a detour. And in our lifetime we'll encounter hundreds of detours. But I believe He had it all mapped out. Our purpose, our destination. We have choices, that's why life is a maze. We can choose, out of the millions of paths, which one to take to get to our destination. But for sure in every avenue, in every road, in every corned someone is there to call us and guide us to the right path if we just ask for His help and listen to Him.

Don't get me wrong, I have problems too. I've had struggles too and I sometimes think of giving up. But I'm thankful that I have friends and families to run to. No matter how little or how big our problems are there are always people who will listen to you. Trust me. No matter how embarrassing or how impossible it may be, tomorrow is always another day. So lighten up. There's someone out there bigger than your problems. Someone or something brought you here and it's only Him who can take that life back.

On another note, the school should act on this too. 3 suicide cases in just one month is alarming. Maybe it's time to have some compulsory counselling schedule? Or should there be religion classes? But that would be under big debate. I don't know what could be the best thing to do but the school and the youth council of the city also should do something regarding this matter. It's so creepy, when you walk in the school grounds, among all the people you meet along the corridors, one of them might just be the one whose Facebook wall is filled with RIP posts the next day. What has happened to us youth these days? T_T

FIFA 2010

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Sun, 27 Jun 2010 12:10:00 +0000

Well, I've been following the FIFA 2010 updates even though I'm not really a football fan. Believe it or not, I became a FIFA fan because of the World Cup songs. LOL. First it was K'naan's Wavin' Flag, then Super Junior's Victory Korea. And because of my Korean friends on Twitter and the Kpop celebrities I'm following, I found out how supportive the Koreans are to their team for the World Cup. It really amazed me. How I wish my country could represent in the World Cup in the future. How I wish. LOL. But football's not really a favorite game for Filipinos, it's basketball, so I think I might have to wait for a long time for that to happen.

So they are currently on the Round of 16, and last night, South Korea lost to Uruguay so they're not qualified to enter the quarter finals anymore. I think a lot of Koreans cried last night. I wasn't able to watch their game but for sure they did great and their countrymen are apparently proud of them. Too bad they can't have a chance to the finals. But it's still a victory for them for making it this far.

The team I'm cheering on for the 2010 World Cup is... Argentina! Why? Well, I was able to watch South Korea's game against them last week ( first football match I ever watched. LOL. I watched it because I was curious. lol. and I was bored that time. ) and I was impressed by their team. and.. yes, this is the part you have been waiting for.. One player caught my eye. It's Gonzalo Higuain. Argentina won against Korea 4:1 and Gonzalo Higuain contributed 3 out of their 4 goals. Since I wasn't able to finish watching that match via live streaming, I downloaded their game today and watched it. They're really good. I'm gonna watch replays of their games tonight if I finish downloading them all. Go Argentina!

Here are my favorite players of the team :

Gonzalo Higuain

Lionel Messi

Sergio Aguero

By the way, Gonzalo Higuain was declared Man of the Match during that game against South Korea. Today, June 27, they will compete against Mexico to qualify for the quarter-finals. I hope they win. I wanna see them on the finals. Go Argentina! :)

Happy Father's Day Tatay

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Sun, 20 Jun 2010 06:22:00 +0000

“I have an excellent father, his strength is making me stronger.”

- The Best Day by Taylor Swift

My father's phone call woke me up today. It's just so nice to hear his voice. But because I was still so sleepy, I forgot to greet him a Happy Father's Day. I'm so sorry Tatay and Happy Father's Day.

I was browsing through the status updates in Facebook and saw a lot of father's day greetings. Then I realized a lot of people I know didn't grow up with their father by their side. It must be very hard for them. I couldn't imagine growing up without him.

I'm so thankful that I have the best dad in the world. Many people misunderstand him, including me sometimes, but I know he's always thinking of what's good for me and my sisters. I know he loves me so much. I have failed him so many times but he's still on my side, guiding me. I lived half of my life without him by my side physically. It was very hard too. It's still isn't easy even today. But as what mom and he used to say, it's for me and my sisters. I think of all the boys in my life, he's the only one I could really trust. They say I resemble him a lot. My mom and my eldest sister says I even got much of his attitude. I used to be very close to him before he left to work abroad but after a few years a lot of things have changed and sometimes it makes me sad that we're not as close anymore. I hope he'll come home and just stay here for good. I want to make up for the years we didn't spend together. I have always been asking him about that but he says it's not yet time. Well, that's true, my sisters are still studying and we still couldn't manage if he's gonna stop working now. Sometimes I really hate the fact that we can't be together because of money. But I know it's useless - all the blaming. Because here we are, we survived all the storms so far including the 1 decade of living away from each other.

So tatay, I have a lot of unsent letters for you. I'm so sorry I never had the guts to give it. But I hope you'll get to read this, I love you so much and thank you for everything. Thank you for taking care of me, my sisters, and nanay, and thank you so much for putting up with me despite all my failures. And thank you for being so brave in facing life without mama just for me and my sisters.

[Life Update] Being an Out-of-School Youth and Enjoying It

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Sun, 20 Jun 2010 05:22:00 +0000

LOL at the title. Yes, school has officially started a couple of weeks ago which means I am now officially an out-of-school youth. I was supposed to graduate last April but yeah, I have an incomplete subject (my thesis) so it's gonna take another school year or at least one semester for me to finish it. And since the INC expires after one school year, I am not officially enrolled this semester. Hence, I'm an out-of-school youth!

I miss going to school. I miss waking up early, listening to lectures, chatting with my seat-mates during a boring class, cramming, and the allowance of course! lol. I miss my classmates a lot. I don't know when we will ever seat in a class all together again.

These days I'm just staying at home everyday and just go out when I have things to buy or bills to pay. It's quite boring but I have tons of movies on my hard drive now. I guess one true sign that you're a bored homebuddy and an out-of-school youth is that your hard disk is full of movies. It's a perfect time to catch up on good movies that I failed to watch because of school before. I actually have a lot of things on my plans during this not-so-free-from-school time but for now I'm still stuck with movie marathons.Revamping my blog and looking for cheap hosting is part of my list. I've been meaning to learn web development but I don't know I'm not that motivated yet. I also want to go back to learning Korean. Apparently, I stopped my Hangul 101 a few months ago and I'm not that into watching Korean shows or updating myself with the latest Kpop gossip anymore. I must go back to learning Korean before I forget a lot of things I learned before. Exercising and going on a healthier diet is also part of my to-do.

With this much time on hand, I don't even know which things to do everyday. Hahaha! Welcome to the life of an out-of-school youth. I'm enjoying it but I gotta hurry and finish my thesis soon so I'll be able to find a job. i know I'll get tired of this carefree out-of-school life..

Coolest Wine Labels

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Sat, 29 May 2010 01:49:00 +0000

I missed the StumbleUpon button ever since I migrated to Chrome. It was only a few days ago when I found out how to stumble again using Chrome. Haha! I'm such a loser. Yes, you can still use StumbleUpon in Chrome but, that drop-down menu where you can choose to stumble only images or videos, or blog is gone. Tsk. Or maybe I don't know where to find it. LoL. My first stumbled page today was this! It's about wines.

I love drinking wine. I wanna collect wines and wine bottles in the future too. I stumbled upon this nice list of the coolest wine labels I've ever seen.. Gotta own one of these soon. Haha! I especially liked these ones below..

Lunar Vine Wine

Saddler’s Creek Winery “Naked” Wine Bottles

Duffy and Partners Holiday Wine

taken from : The Coolist

Lee Hyori and Daesung's Duet - How Did We Get

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Sat, 15 May 2010 03:04:00 +0000

This is my favorite song from here newest album. I just love Lee Hyori. (and Big Bang's Daesung too, he's really adorable.. ). Hyori recently made her comeback with her album H-Logic. It's her 4th album to date and she's currently promoting it in weekend Music Shows. It's a battle between 2PM's Without You, Rain's Lovesong and Lee Hyori's Chitty Chitty Bang Bang every weekend. But now that Super Junior has also made their comeback, it looks like it's going to be a tough fight for the mutizen awards.

Enjoy listening everyone! :)

Diet on Summer?

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Sat, 24 Apr 2010 16:17:00 +0000

That seems impossible. Summer and Christmas months are my favorite months of the year. But these months are also the months when there are plenty of food in the table so gaining weight is inevitable. My dad comes home during summer so all our postponed birthday and other family celebrations, we spend it all on summer when he's home. It's the only time of the year when we can ask him to buy any food we want to eat so I don't really care about getting fat. Yes, I'm not one of those who go on a diet the whole year just to get a nice bod for their bikinis. It's the only time I can eat as much ice cream and chocolate as I want to for free so might as well take advantage. But now that summer is almost over, I'm starting to worry about my weight again. Maybe my friend's worries about how to lose weight is contagious, or maybe the mirror is really telling the truth that I'm getting fat again.
After last year's Christmas vacation, I managed to get my shape again after one month of diet and exercise. By diet, I don't exactly mean a strict one because I have stomach ulcers so I can't really skip meals or eat lesser than I should. What I do is just skip snacks, have healthy and hearty meals, and the secret - drink green tea and lots of water. I actually like tea and water so much. I think I'm already addicted to tea. I like trying out any tea I see in the grocery. Green tea, they say, can help your body burn calories faster, thus aiding to weight loss when complemented with exercise, so I guess it really worked since people around me said I lost weight after a month. But I stopped my routines because on March we had so many project deadlines to chase and I wasn't getting enough sleep anymore so I also stopped exercising. Then my father came home so my stomach flabs are here again.

Gotta go back to exercising and diet. Maybe I should try new whey too. My happy days are over and it's time to get fit not only to lose the chubby image but also to have a healthier body. But how thin is healthy? How about Megan Fox as an example? ㅋㅋㅋ

I Miss DBSK/TVXQ!

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Thu, 22 Apr 2010 16:26:00 +0000

I suddenly miss Yunho, Xiah, Hero, Micky, and Max. I was about to turn off the computer when I saw one of their old videos. Seeing them with those ridiculous hairstyles and baggy outfits, make me remeber how cute and innocent they were back then. I'm not a true blue Cassioppeia but I love DongBangShinKi. They are really talented. My favorite is Xiah Junsu, the cute Junsu. I love his voice. Plus I love the fact that he likes or sometimes called 'dolphin.' I don't really know the story behind this though.

They became controversial last year because of their lawsuit against SM Entertainment. Micky Yoochun, Hero Jaejoong, and Xiah Junsu, specifically had some issues about their contract with SME. Theirs was dubbed as slave contracts. I can't really remember the details, I don't want to read more about too because I know I'll just be sad. I like them. DBSK, like Super Junior, are also brothers to each other, like family. But it's been a while since they performed as 5 in Korea, it's been awhile since they released and album in Korea or even attend a variety show. I just miss the dorky, cute, and funny DBSK and amidst all the controversies, I hope they will come back someday. I want to see them in variety shows, music shows, and concerts again.

Here's one of their oldest songs, Hug. I love this song. I miss DBSK. >_<

P.S. Did you know that DBSK has the largest fan base in the world? That's how lucky they are. So many Cassiopeias love them. :]

I Have Found My Happy Place

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Thu, 22 Apr 2010 14:44:00 +0000

in the IT field that is.

I can't believe one year have already passed since my on-the-job training. It was hard to adjust at first. Leia and I had a rough start. The only thing that kept us going was knowing that we were living in a very beautiful subdivision for free, we get to eat in almost all restaurants/food chain in the nearby SM every weekend, and I get to wear (and buy new clothes for) corporate attire (which honestly, really makes me feel happy. :).Despite all the stresses, the endless photocopy jobs, and the little trouble we went through during that 250-hour OJT, I am so thankful because I learned a lot (both IT-related and not). Since the call center I had my internship on was catering technical support for Linksys devices, and we were assigned in the Training department, we get to listen to the lectures and before our intrernship ended, we had a special mini-lecture series from the trainers there. We also get to harness our computer troubleshooting and reformatting skills, plus a lot of tips and tricks in computer security from our boss, the lab administrator of the training lab. So yeah, that was my first time to be exposed to networking devices, and learn how to configure routers and all. We also did an inventory of all the networking devices there so up until now, I am still a bit familiar with the model numbers of some of the devices. Haha! I actually enjoyed the training and I'm happy that I learned a lot during our OJT.

Then I took up Network Administration as an elective. And the rest is history. Haha! I fell inlove with the subject. Our teacher also inspires me and my classmates a lot. His encouraging stories give me hope and patience to endure BSIT, a course I never liked ever since I realized it was not as easy as I thought and flunked my first major subject. Yesterday, we had a meeting. Our teacher wanted to confirm who are the ones who are really committed to join the review and take the exam. I never thought it would be an inspirational talk kind of meeting. Haha! His stories about people he trained who are now at the peak of their careers now and of course stories of his own life of course. Imagine, there are only more or less 30,000 people in the world who passed the CCIE exam of Cisco. Wouldn't it be nice to be known as one of the 30,000 elite and unique people on earth? We are only gearing up for the CCNA. I'm not aiming for the CCIE yet. But this is already a big accomplishment and a big stepping stone for me and my classmates. For me, I'm just loving networks more and more now. Partly because of the demand of network engineers abroad, and partly because all this time I thought I can never love IT and now, here comes a field I know I enjoy studying and will still enjoy studying in the future. No matter what happens, if I go that far or not, this step is a very crucial part of my studies so I really need to do good. I want my dad to be proud of me. Review classes will start soon and I'm excited and nervous at the same time. So wish me luck in this endeavor.

Celebrations and Summer

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Wed, 21 Apr 2010 03:46:00 +0000

Last week I went out-of-town with my college classmates to celebrate our classmate's graduation. We went to a beach resort in Talisayan, Misamis Oriental and stayed there for 2 days. I definitely had a blast during the whole time we were there. The sun was lovely, the beach looks so good, we had unlimited swimming pool and billiard hall use privilege, not to mention it was an all-expense paid trip. The best things in life are free. What's more fun than being in the beach, and playing under the summer sun with the best and most fun-to-be-with people in the world? I'm a very beach person. I just love the feel of my feet walking in the sand. Until now, I still get a wonderful feeling whenever I remember that weekend.

Just 2 days after, my stepmom's daughter came to visit Iligan City so we took her to the famous Timoga Spring Pools. It was actually an impulse decision for me again to join them since my best friend and I was supposed to hang out here in our house that day, I didn't know my step sister is coming and all. So yeah, since my sisters didn't want to swim anyway, my best friends tagged along and joined our "family day." I had a great time catching up with them and at the same time hanging out with my family.

So this summer has been soooo fun so far. It's just so good to bond with great people, eat good food, and just have fun under the summer heat. This summer is definitely another unforgettable summer. I can't wait to have more beach fun in the next weeks. But even though I'm not a sporty person, trying into sports activities for the rest of my summer would be a good idea too. I wonder how my other close friends are spending their summer. I guess most of them are into basketball betting now since the NBA Playoffs are already underway. My sister has been playing frisbee and I've been really meaning to join her but I can't wake up early in the morning. Haha! I want to learn how to swim too. Yeah, I love the beach but I can't swim. Such a pity, but I'll learn how to swim soon. My reviews for the certification exam I'm going to take will start next week. I hope I can still squeeze in some out-of-towns or beach outings with friends before that. It's just April and I'm very excited for the remaining one month of the summer.

Is Hankyung Really Leaving Super Junior? Part 2-Interview

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Sat, 10 Apr 2010 22:24:00 +0000

I think this is not the same interview for the interview teaser that first came out but apparently this is about Hankyung speaking up about his current condition, what he went through before, and about SM Entertainment.

I'm happy that he's doing great these days. I'm also glad that he's spending more time with his family especially his mom. Honestly, even though I'm such a big fan of Super Junior, I didn't know about the mask incident(s). I'm a Ryeowook die-hard so please understand ㅋㅋ. But, of the 13 of them Hankyung is the one I admire the most because of everything he went through. I know about his visa problems, how hard it was for him to train in Korea away from his family and away from the way of life he was used to, but nobody truly knows how much the boys (all 13 of them) have suffered but themselves and their families. All of Hankyung's sacrifices to make his dreams come true in Korea and China, I'm just amazed how he endured it all. He even had gastritis. I know how painful it is to have gastritis. T_T

The part where he talked about the unfair treatment/contract he had with SME really touched me. He said that he can't really say it's unfair because if it really what you want to do, not everything is going to be fair. It was clear to him that the number of sacrifices he had to make was normal in that line of business. He even said that if not for all those hardships, like wearing a mask while performing just for Super Junior to have a complete appearance on TV, he wouldn't be who he is now. I admire him more because of that statement. Maybe it just finally came to a point that to Hankyung it's enough, the company has crossed the line. Hence, the lawsuit. I'm glad that to his statement I can still sense a feeling of gratitude he has for SME, despite everything. I'm pretty sure it wasn't all nightmares for him when he was in SME.

Everyone is still waiting for the result of the lawsuit. It's sad if Hankyung will really leave. I want Super Junior to be 13 again. But if Hankyung will be happier if he's out of SME, then I think I'll have to accept that. I don't know how I'm gonna do that, it's hard, but if it's going to happen, I can't change the decision of the court. haha! So I think I can eventually accept it. It's hard to see Super Junior lacking one member. I hate seeing them incomplete. Even when it was Kibum, Heechul, or Kangin's case, when they were frequently absent in Super Junior's appearances, it feels like the stage is really incomplete. The carnival is incomplete. But as one said, Super Junior can't stay together forever. One day, they will eventually disband. I'm still living for beacon of hope that Super Junior is going to be 13 forever though. No one can replace any member. As what Donghae recently tweeted, Super Junior + ELF = One 1. ELF, I know, will always support them whatever happens. I just hope the result of the case will be for the good of Hankyung, the remaining Super Junior members, and the fans.

Super Junior is in the Philippines! Part 1

noreply@blogger.com (darksphere) — Sat, 10 Apr 2010 09:25:00 +0000

(how it feels)

Super Junior is in the Philippines..
and here I am, feeling like the whole world is on my shoulders, problematic because I can't go to their concert tonight. Super Junior arrived yesterday, April 9, 2010, in NAIA (Ninoy Aquino International Airport) in Manila.

As I'm writing this (it's currently 5:02 pm, Philippine time), the concert gates are already open for thousands of Filipino ELFs who are attending the last part of Super Show 2. I can't believe I'm sitting here, mourning, trying to find things to make me busy so I can forget about SS2. This is Super Junior's first time to be here in my country and I won't be able to see them. I'm a very big fan. I love them to bits. I can't believe I won't be able to sing Marry U and Shining Star to the boys I really adore. It's one of my dreams to be in one of their concerts and do the famous Marry U chants with my co-ELFS and watch them perform at their best and sing in front of me. I want to see them bow at the end of the concert, LIVE! I want to see them live! But for now, for this Super Show, I just can't..

I found out about the concert last January. Being miles and miles away from Manila, I know, with my meager allowance, I can't save enough money to go to their upcoming concert. But I tried. I knew there's a way if there's a will. But since I'm a very impulse driven person, plus all the expenses I had to give for school stuff, my personal savings went bankrupt. Someone offered me a plane ticket (round-trip) to Manila but it's just impossible that I can accept it without hurting my family. (damn, if only i can be insensitive and ungrateful for one day. but i can't. I can't take putting the ones I love to that much trouble.) With my blogging I earned enough to buy a ticket for the concert but not sufficient for my ticket to Manila and back. My only way to get to the concert was that if I graduated last April 7-8 since I (think) can ask for the plane tickets as a graduation gift. But yeah, I didn't. I didn't finish my thesis and I wasn't able to attend this year's graduation ceremony. So yeah.. It's so sad. So sad.

But last week I had a very wonderful time with my family. My dad only comes home once a year and summer is just the happiest, happiest days of our year. No one can buy that. No concert can top that. Another good news also is that my blog, this blog, reached PR3 yesterday(or 2 days ago I think). Yep. I'm happy. I feel so thankful because of these blessings. But *cries on the floor like a baby* Super Junior.... Ryeowook.. T__T

I don't know when they will come back to the Philippines. I don't even know when they will be together as 13 again. This is a chance of a lifetime and I'm letting it pass. But I still believe that someday, I'm gonna be in their concert again. Maybe in the Philippines or not, but I'm definitely going to a Super Junior concert before I die.

To all ELFs who are in Araneta Coliseum right now, I hope you enjoy the concert.

To Super Junior, THANK YOU for coming to the Philippines. THANK YOU for working so hard for your fans and your families. THANK YOU for being Super Junior.

PS. Ryeowook.. T__T I'll see you someday oppa. Someday..

P.P.S. There will be part 2 of this. I'll post Super Junior's pictures and videos in the Philippines including some pics in the SS2 tonight. If I can get fan accounts from my friends I'll also try to post them here.

*SIGH*