Margie's Thoughts

HELP CDO

2011-12-18T15:05:00.002-05:00

MORE INFORMATION : http://cdocity.com/

This time is tough. But we, as one community, are tougher.

My hometown, Cagayan de Oro have been ravaged by flash floods brought by Typhoon Sendong (international name: Washi) after 12 hours of nonstop raining on Friday. The pounding rain has caused major rivers in the area to swell up and fatally tear down homes and properties, especially in Cagayan de Oro city and Iligan city.
The flash flood came wreaking havoc in the evening when it was pitch dark (the electric supply was cut-off earlier in the evening) and most people were sleeping. A region that rarely experiences typhoon, Northern Mindanao was caught defenseless and unprepared.

According to the Philippine Red Cross, the death toll from all affected areas in southern Philippines is now at 652 and 458 more are missing. In Cagayan de Oro, the area that was hit the hardest, at least 239 people died ? mostly women and children ? and millions of properties have been damaged.
There are at least 7,947 families cramping in 23 evacuation centers. What are most needed by these victims are food, clothing, water and medicine.

How can you help?
Tabang Sendong continues to accept donations ranging from food, medicine, clothing, potable water, and toiletries to be distributed to areas in and around Cagayan de Oro city that were damaged by the flooding.

LBC will ship your donations for free to those who need it the most. Just drop it off at the LBC branch nearest to you. Let's join together once again in helping our kababayans, together we can make a difference!

PAL flights to Cagayan de Oro and Dipolog will carry free of charge disaster relief donations coming from reputable non-government organizations (NGOs), private companies and religious groups addressed to their designated recipients in Cagayan de Oro and Dipolog. PAL will carry the relief goods as cargo on any of the five daily flights to Cagayan de Oro and five weekly flights to Dipolog using the Airbus A320 and A319 aircraft.

EMERGENCY FUND & DONATION:
The University is accepting donations at the Helpdesk set up at the University's front gate or at the Relief Center at the Satellite Canteen near the College of Agriculture building (beside the gymnasium). Personnel and student volunteers are being deployed to buy, pack and deliver relief goods all over the City, under the direction of the University Chaplain.

Fr. Eric Garcia Velandria S.J.
Coordinator of Sendong Operation,
KKP Office, Xavier University-Ateneo de Cagayan, Corrales Ave.
9000 Cagayan de Oro City, Philippines.
Cash donations can be deposited at this account:
Account Name: Xavier University
Account Number: 9331-0133-63
BPI MAIN BRANCH
Xavier University Relief Center
is conducting a relief operation for families affected by Bagyong Sendong.They are asking for donations in
CASH
FOOD (noodles, canned goods, etc.)
BOTTLED WATER and
CLEAN CLOTHES.
You can drop them off at the
Xavier University KKP-SIO.
Volunteers also needed @DSWD (Masterson Rd, Upper Carmen).
Call 09066150095 or 858-8892. Let's help, pleaseOther Useful Information:SMART LIBRENG TAWAG, INTERNET and CELLPHONE CHARGING sa PHILCOM OFFICE, MAX SUNIEL ST. CARMEN (RIGHT BESIDE ACSAT GYM) for those who would like to contact their loved ones who have been affected by the recent FLASHFLOODS. Please tell your friends, family and neighbors!!!! Please repost. - T. Tamayo
For those live in Manila, you can help us
For CASH/ CHEQUE donations...(through Simbahang Lingkod)
Direct deposits may be made online from any BPI branches, pay to:
SIMBAHANG LINGKOD NG BAYAN (Account Name/Payee)
Bank of the Philippine Islands (Loyola-Katipunan Branch)
BPI Peso Checking Account Number: 3081-1111-61
BPI Dollar Savings Account Number: 3084-0420-12

It's the season of giving, please open your hearts and share your blessing.

Victoria's Secret Fashion Show 2011

2011-12-01T10:52:00.004-05:00

Full SHOW, No COMMERCIAL Breaks.

LINK: http://youtu.be/bDI74Q16FCQ

Victoria's Secret SUPERModels for 2011-2012 Fashion Show.

Adriana Lima
Alessandra Ambrosio
Behati Prinsloo
Candice Swanepoel
Chanel Iman
Doutzen Kroes
Erin Heatherton
Lily Aldridge
Lindsay Ellingson
Miranda Kerr

Themes for the 2011 Victoria's Secret show, Ballet, Super Angels, Passion Play, Angels Aquatic, I Put a Spell on You and Club Pink

Musicians LIVE: Kanye West, Jay-Z, Maroon 5, Nicki Minaj

Coming SOON: The Avengers

2011-11-27T11:10:00.002-05:00

It is part of the Marvel Cinematic Universe, which crosses over several Marvel superhero films including Iron Man, The Incredible Hulk, Iron Man 2, Thor and Captain America: The First Avenger.

Cast:
Robert Downey, Jr. - Iron Man
Chris Evans - Captain America
Mark Ruffalo - Hulk
Chris Hemsworth - Thor
Scarlett Johansson - Black Widow
Jeremy Renner - Hawkeye
Samuel L. Jackson - Nick Fury

Release Date: May 2012

Failure

2011-11-16T22:02:00.002-05:00

According to Wiki, Failure refers to the state or condition of not meeting a desirable or intended objective, and may be viewed as the opposite of success.

For me, the definition is somewhat inaccurate. When you try to achieve your goal, you put a great deal of effort and time and energy into achieving it. Trying to finish your goal may be your ultimate achievement but just when you're working at anything, there are always new things you discover, things you learn, and a sense of achievement by the very experience of TRYING to achieve something. You can never do anything without learning something or gaining valuable experience. Even if you do not finish your desired outcome, it's not failure because you've gained something from the experience, you learned a good amount of knowledge and experience.

So, not finishing your ultimate goal or getting the desired outcome you want, it's not failure. The only failure is in not trying at all.

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2011-08-23T21:51:00.003-04:00

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Rory

2011-06-13T00:10:00.002-04:00

Love this song, definitely how I feel.

2011-06-12T23:41:00.004-04:00

i have nothing to moan about today except that I am having a lot of fun lately. Well, you know, I feel proud that I am starting to learn how to cook. Lol.

Today was a usual Sunday, had a dose of close family ties, we, filipinos always love. And it's always that good feeling we get after hearing God's word. Had lunch around 12, traveled for about 2 hours, and ate dinner at a friends place, it was just the right amount of socializing. hehe

The weather is still not cooperating. Wind is just crazy.

The day went by fast but had a little time to tidy the things Rory and I bought from the grocery store and to write something here that doesn't really matter. lol

OK, got to sleep.

P.S
My Rory is kinda sad tonight, Miami Heat didn't win NBA Championship so he's off venting his anger playing DOTA and killing everyone who stand in his way.

A great relationship is about 2 main things. 1st, find out the similarities. 2nd, respect the differences. #DamnItsTrue

2011-04-04T20:36:00.000-04:00

Well, I have them, struggles. I am struggling. Everyone struggles with something, I know..

Right now, I am in a situation where I can't adopt. Adjusting to a new environment is really hard. I am so used to being in my comfort zone that I forgot that I need this. Badly.

I have so many thoughts running through my head, it's like a tornado. I am so pressured with everything that I lose my concentration. I easily forget things. I struggle with almost everything right now. I have struggle trying to be calm, struggle to remember IMPORTANT things, struggle to adjust, struggle to be confident. I am so scared that I am screwing up. =(

I know I am stressing about simple things but for someone like me, I don't know how to cope sometimes. I feel I'm strong enough, but, right now, I feel like I really don't have any courage. I am scared, scared of this new -- new everything. It's haunting me. It's daunting.

I know that I will be fine. I know that everything will be okay or it could get a lot worse, but, I know it could also get a lot better than it is right now. I just have to believe in me and put all the anxiety away.

God bless me.

Jealousy

2011-01-30T06:08:00.004-05:00

I am a jealous person. I am not proud of it and I so want to get rid of that trait. It's insecurity and I don't want to be an insecure person. I have so much to be thankful for to be insecure. I am blessed with loving family, great friends, supportive lover, a job I seldom enjoy and other perks of life that tells me I should and never be insecure or jealous. But, I am. Tired of it but I can't help it. I know I've associated the feeling of jealousy into my life so wrong. I made myself believe that it's alright to be jealous. Now I know it isn't.

Every time me and my friends go out and of course we do talk about girl stuff and I hear myself giving advice about trust and not being jealous and after giving some talk about that shit, i end up feeling a hypocrite. I have no right to be talking about that because I am having problems dealing with jealousy. It's an emotion that is painful. It hurts to be jealous because it torments my thoughts and it's hard to just not think about it.

I am insecure and jealous because I have fears of abandonment, feelings of betrayal and anger and I feel threatened. Is jealousy inevitable? Yes. In some point of a person's life, he/she feels jealous of something or someone. Is it natural? Maybe. But for how long does one person feel jealous?

Well, lately, I am beginning to see changes. I'm not really sure if I've overcome my jealous ways but I know that it's been awhile I have not felt that feeling of "jealousy" anymore. Maybe I just forgot about it and just moved on. Maybe I've realized that there's nothing there I should feel jealous about. Whatever the reasons are, I know it feels good not to be jealous.

2010-12-31T10:59:00.001-05:00

It's the time of the year once again where you seem to remember how youthful things were before. lol. What a naive child i was.

Love. Love. Love

2010-10-12T09:40:00.002-04:00

I am grateful I have someone that I love.
I am grateful that I am loved.
I am completely and totally content and satisfied with my relationship.
I have all the love I could possibly want.
I am often reminded how lucky I am to have him in my life.
This is the man who I love and loves me in return.
I can't stop talking about how happy I am.
Love is in me. Love is all around me.


Our 5th Anniversary

Photographs by Giorgio and Sofia: Adam + Samantha II

2010-10-08T10:06:00.000-04:00

Photographs by Giorgio and Sofia: Adam + Samantha II: "they might look familiar and yeah they had two pre-nuptial photoshoots! one with me for Giorgio and Sofia and one with their wedding photog..."

Saturday

2010-05-15T12:14:00.009-04:00

Okay. So, this week isn’t the picture perfect one I was hoping for but it was “okay”. It’s rough. I mean, one told me that life is hard, but who said it’s going to be easy?

Saturday, I broke down and cried. I was crying silently in the hopes that none of them would hear my sobs. Reality hits harder and I’m screaming from within. Okay, I’m having word salad. My thoughts are so disorganized, I can’t think straight. I feel lost and disoriented and I don’t know where to turn and find that escape. I’m sitting here, trying to put into words my thoughts of … I don’t know. Hehehe

Anyhow, I'm going to let you know how it feels to be ignored. Having to hide how disappointed I am can be draining. I was always told to forgive but I think I may have crossed some lines and made myself look stupid. There’s no one who can help me, so I need to stand up for myself. It’s painful when I get too emotional. I’m so sad right now that I need someone here to reassure me that things will be okay. And I’m contradicting myself now. See?

Everything’s happening so fast now, like someone is fast forwarding the time to the state of end. Arrrggghhh… I think so much, it’s stressful. Fuck.

A good book would be nice, so it can take me somewhere else and be someone else. Take me away from my messy world. A place where I could feel I’m at home.

I have issues. Everybody does. I'm just a little more blunt about mine.

Life as it Happens

2010-04-19T02:30:00.002-04:00

When I was 16, that's when I've realized, that my life started to go down the hill, and fast. Well, actually, it started when I was 11 but i was still too naive to know that. Anyway, i committed something serious, probably life changing. At that time, it was - for me, the best way to get out of whatever pain i was dealing with. And no, I wasn't committing suicide. =)

I believe that everything happens for a reason. I have lived by that since, forever. Many times in my life I have found myself in a situation where I thought, was just terrible. But then again, as time passed by, I realized and learned that it wasn't such a bad thing after-all. Yes, people learn the hard way, I learn in a hard way, but I learn fast. And I've always told myself to never commit the same mistakes again.

I hate to think of where I'd be now if things hadn't happened the way it had. Again, things happens for a reason, we might not know or understand it now, but someday we will. Sometimes, if not oftentimes, it works out for the best.

Live, Love and Laugh

2010-03-18T08:10:00.000-04:00

It's been a decade. 10 long years has passed. And yet, there's still this Anger. That's really the only emotion i feel in any large quantity. (atik lang) haha..
On a more serious note, I have been rehashing old memories and past wrongs and i get angry.. I'm a happy person, i am. But when these memories just keeps coming back in, it's like, my emotions just flat-lined.

Something needs to change. I don't know what, but I'm starting to suspect the answer is everything.

change is good.
Sometimes change comes about when you have to either sink or swim...
Can't wait for it to happen, it won't happen on its own. I have to make this happen.

yeah, this is not because i was listening to an audio at work about life changes and stuff.
though, partly it's the reason why i came up with these. hehehe

I am so glad i've become this person that i am now. and i owe it all to everyone around me. What i've learned throughout the past decade is to know self preservation. No one's going to help me in every step of the way but myself.

I can't let these mind games pull me down. I've come to the realization that the only person who can help me through these mind games is going to be me... Sometimes, i don't think i'm strong enough or i'm capable. but, something about not being able to do it, makes me want to be able to do it.

Like what I've been telling myself for the last 4 years; Ita, life is a game. play it like survivor but learn to Live, Love and Laugh. =)

release

2010-01-28T10:50:00.003-05:00

this voice pounds within me now, it wont go away no matter how much I want to.
it seems as though, even in my sleep, he visits.
the truth is, the second we broke up a year ago, I died.
that day, over the internet - on SKYPE. I could still remember my soul
slipping away from my body and seems like drifting into another world.
i live each day trying to piece together what was broken in my heart.

I loved him and that I couldn't deny.
Actually, I LOVE HIM TO DEATH.
More and more as each day passes by.
I wanted to make him happy, I wanted nothing but LOVE for him.

But why all these sadness and pain?
The last thing I want in this world, is for us to HURT each other.

I'm crying so hard.
My brain is fighting with itself. one part is telling me to keep trying and NEVER give up.
and the other one is telling me that I should just let it go.
I can't even begin to say how much it hurts.
Because you've lost the respect I needed from you.

I want you so bad to be part of my life, to be mine forever - but it's like ...
you're looking for reasons that I cant, I wont.

The only way I can be happy is if, I'm with you.
There's no question. I Love you, with all of me.
But how can we bear this?
How can we make it better?
To bicker all the time, for such little things?

I want to wake up, one day and hope that all of the pain is gone. Nothing.
Sometimes, I question myself at night. Wondering if sometimes, you've ever told me you love me and just say it as if it's more like a cover up from how you really feel. I am scared. Always have been. My insecurities will last lifetime to lose.

I won't give up on what It is that I only wanted - and that's YOU.
But I hope that someday, you'll learn to give something of what we call "respect".
Not only did you hurt me with accusations that are so false, but also, you have made me doubt myself more.
I contemplate on how badly have I gone wrong... Maybe, so wrong you have to degrade me.

There's nothing more I can give.
My well have dried up.
I gave all of my Love, patience and care for you. God knows how hard I'm trying to make this work.
I don't know where else to get the strength to cope from all these pain.
Because I love you.
Because I want you.
Because I need you for me to be alive.

REALITY

2010-01-09T10:32:00.004-05:00

i know that this sort of love I have, is rather being "destructive." I mean, what's going to happen next? I am fooled by empty promises. Lately, everything just seem to be dying....? It's tearing me apart, that makes me ask, what am i supposed to do now? My heart is being destroyed little by little. WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG?

Sometimes out of blissful thoughts... Being alone isn't so bad. Doing things for myself, and not to please other people is a great way to appreciate life.

I have a hole in my heart, rather life. and it is unbearably painful. I know that letting go of someone is full of hurt. But staying is torture. He said he's there, but why the feeling of abandonment?

It will take me a lot of courage, and confidence to face REALITY.
Courage to stand and try to live life again, in spite of pain and suffering. And, Confidence to believe in myself that I can be happy, somewhere, somehow, someday.

random thoughts

2009-11-27T08:04:00.001-05:00

so yeah... it's friday evening and once again, I'm at home. Lifeless. So what better way of remembering stuff like these is to write it in a blog. Let's talk about Life.

I love the idea of another chance. A new start. Fresh.
It makes me think about the fact that I can try harder, the fact that I can be a better person tomorrow, next week, next month or the next year. But I dread the time, which I'm sure will come sometime. When i realize I wasted chances. That when that time comes, it will make me think I haven't tried harder, I haven't become a better person.

I am desperately trying to find the motivation, the ambition and the drive to take me over the next 2-5 years but it's not there. What's here is nervousness and dread. Anticipating over things that I know won't happen. Where's the motivation? Maybe it's taking a leave and having a vacation down the Carribean? Who knows?! The point is, I always find myself in the same position at the beginning and end of every year. Stucked.

Where do I start? I don't even know how to start.
I am losing control. Where am I going?

Life is pretend, we fake a smile, we bullshit a talk. Why? because deep down, we know nothing. God didn't make life easy. Some parts will be less difficult then others, but they will always be difficult.

Life.
Filled with flaws and pain.
We are brought into the world, we get older and educate ourselves and after that, if we're the lucky ones, we find love. We get a job and then what?
We live our lives in a bubble, doing the same thing over and over again.
Work, Live, Love - Work, Live, Love
Like ANTS.
It sucks.

inner thoughts

2009-10-29T11:22:00.004-04:00

what is love?

"Love is not the i Love you's and the i miss you's, not the hugs nor the kisses, but it's about the chills you get in the back everytime you think of the person, it's about the care you give for the person, it's when you would do anything to be with that person, it's about being able to do anything for that person, it's about you protect their heart with yours. it's about how your heart beats faster when you know you're gonna see him the first time or the second time or the nth time, Its your heart beating for that special moment with that special someone."

That's Love?

in life, there's always people coming and going, fate decides who arrives, we determine who goes or stay. but, sometimes, we try so hard to hold on, it slips away even faster. Sometimes when we love something so much, and think we can change them, take care of them, and we expect so much from them, and no matter how hard we try to make it last forever, it never will..

All you can do is sit back, and watch everything fall apart, and fall back into place.

it's sad.

2009-10-29T10:45:00.005-04:00

"It's sad when people you know become people you KNEW. like when you walk right past them like they were never been a big part of your life, how you used to be able to talk for hours and now, you barely even can't think straight or something about them. it's sad how times change. it's sad when you have to cry to see clearly, to fall a hundred million times to learn how to pick yourself back up again. It's comforting to know friends and family where they'd tell you that life kicks you around sometimes. i'm all beat up and scared, but i know the day will come and i'd realize that i'am a survivor. i'am tougher than what's thrown at me."

bring it on! i'll live.

the good, the bad

2009-10-21T01:19:00.001-04:00

i'm not gonna die, not yet. because i lived long enough to wait for something good that will happen. it's taking a lot of freakin' time, but i know something good will come out of it, im just being positive. lol. it's hard really, but there's no choice.
dying makes you become a loser, so live longer and prove to them that I should have died a long time ago.

my so called life

2009-09-07T05:44:00.002-04:00

currently playing: James Morrison's Wonderful World

current mood: blah

somewhere in my life i've learned to associate crying as weakness. what does crying do? does it fix anything? seriously! it doesn't make things better or change the outcome of things... so, what's with crying? how can people get so easily convinced that things could be fine, that everything will be fine? and that life is great? is it?

i have been rejected. a lot. i want a decent paying job! like now. but fuck... i can't seem to have that. i am so tired feeling broke all the time, and when i need money - where to go? nothing. i am constantly reminded how hell my life is. fuck. when am i going out this shit hole? I'm so tired of ALWAYS feeling sorry for myself. i have grown self-pity all through my 23 years and hoping it'll change. but no luck so far on that department. puhleeezz GOD, give me a break!!!! I am doing something, don't get me wrong. I am no Juan Tamad who sits all day waiting for a miracle to happen. I strive, striving for nothing. Shit!

the pain from deep inside have become so thick that I am physically hurting. My thoughts have become more confusing. that sometimes, they don't make any sense to me anymore. it's becoming exhausting. i feel like, I have been the biggest hypocrite to have ever lived on earth. I have this front act and like people do really believe it. Why can't they see that my mask is on? Can i just drop everything? these fears, these insecurities. all. tired. i'm so effin' lonely. People depend on me for strength when I don't even have that. They seem to think that I'm strong. But, PEOPLE!!! You're all wrong. I write, because I DONT HAVE ANY OTHER OUTLET for this pain. I am super confused that I don't even know what's wrong. maybe it's just bein' broke kickin' in. haha fuck!!! curse curse curse! SHIT! Confusion, not because of anybody, but my own emotions. they are just so, - TWISTED!

Happiness? what is it? where is it? when will it come!? Contentment? what is it? where is it? when will it come!?

Forgiveness

2009-08-26T13:00:00.000-04:00

This was originally posted in another blog of mine, just want to share it again. Written way way back 2007

I chose this subject for many reasons: One, because the last couple of days I have been on the end where I needed forgiving. Two: Forgiving doesn't stop at other people, sometimes you have to forgive yourself. And, three: Forgive those who have hurt me in one way or another.

Asking forgiveness of yourself. This one is tough. Think back of all the things you aren't exactly proud of. For example, I swore up and down that if anyone ever hurt me, I was calling it quits and they were kicked to the curb. No questions. I have let someone or something beat me down, mentally, emotionally, psychologically, and physically without so much as lifting a finger. I was - am - my own hypocrite.

Forgiving Others. Sometimes it's easier to loathe people for doing hurtful things to you than it is to admit you forgive them. For many people, these feelings of hurt without forgiveness leads to my number one worst word in the human language: hate. No one, and I mean no one, has ever hurt someone so bad that they cannot be forgiven. If you carry the burden of hate with you, you will find your life less fulfilling, because hate encompasses your life, your day to day life, and steals away opportunities to heal and reach true happiness. It's like a weight around your heart, whether you see it or not. It influences not only your thoughts and actions, but, in many cases, your health. It adds stress to your life - and God knows we have enough of that already without adding to it. No thought you can possibly have will punish that heartbreaker/someone that have hurt you enough that will justify your feelings, nor will it effect that person, people, like what God will do. By forgiving them you are allowing God to do his job while simply cleansing your soul of that burden. There is a certain finality to forgiving someone for the wrongs they have done to you, a cleansing of sorts. You feel clean again, refreshed, lightened. I am not saying it's easy, because it isn't. I struggle with it daily and am still finding it hard to forgive certain people, even though I wish I had that strength.

In a nutshell, no one is perfect. Sorry, it's the cold, hard truth. You will lie, you will cheat, you will do things that you know is not right, and you will do them anyways. Once you admit you are not perfect, you need to admit you can't expect everyone around you to be perfect, too. It's human nature. We are selfish and materialistic - yes, we are. Once you admit that, Life takes on a whole new aspect. Forgiveness: Ask for it, look for it within yourself, and generously hand it out.

Jealousy is a Bitch

2009-08-26T02:09:00.002-04:00

I don't think i care about myself that much anymore. i mean, i care more about others, making them feel happy. I feel like using someone or being used for the feeling of comfort that someone is there. or something in between. I don't know.

each day realizing things, i am taking a breather - I know he won't be there. I am gasping for air - because I feel I am alone. I'm turning into something lifeless and the thought of it leaves me gasping for more air. holding myself together and trying to be strong - talking about bein a POKER FACE. Right now, I want to be invincible or invisible. Either way, I'd take it. I am striving to be an OPTIMISTIC fucked up. haha but, the Pessimist in me is trying to eat me alive and telling me to stop my hypocrisy. I'm not a tough cookie, and for all I know - I am hurting - just shoving off the feeling and pretending that I'm strong. I need serious help.

Need to be hit by a lightning, or something to knock some sense into me.

I need to be stronger, where to get that strength?

for you.

2009-08-16T11:28:00.007-04:00

what's the difference between a long distance relationship and a proximal kind of relationship?
well, having a "LDR" has lots of cons and just thinking about it makes you feel so toxic. expectations not expected.

Oh well, sometimes we just have to suck it up. It won't be easy, and it needs a lot of fucking effort to deal with it but i remember telling my friend about being "naughty" and not allow any possibility of breaking up. though, you cannot control things, everything happens for a reason. sometimes, reasons we cannot understand. and it breaks us. why us? why me?... there are a lot of shit to be scared about bein' here, i mean -- one day you'd realize that it's not me you need after all, or you've found someone better who can always be there for you. But, I am willing to take those risks - i mean, to love is to to risk and like i said, i am naughty. I am not gonna dwell on the negative aspect of shit, but rather think about the positive outcome. these are just mere trials. this is just a challenge. LOL. so uber optimist. it's too good to be true. but hey, if this is true love we have, then that alone will make it work right? I mean, i am patient enough to wait. i always have faith that someday .... things will get better for the both of us, this is just a temporary thing - the distance is not gonna make me fall. i can and will do my best to make this work because i want this. i want you.

the caring and the loving and all those shit aren't bound by miles or time, as what the bible says "Love knows no boundaries". But YES, certainly physical connections are difficult because we are far from each other. But, I am IN LOVE with you - DEEPLY, IRREVERSIBLY and HOPEFULLY ETERNALLY.

when we overcome this, i mean this distance --- we will be stronger than ever. no everyday together relationship can top what we've been through. no one can compare. I am not doubting of how i feel, nor am i gonna let go too easily. I am stubborn, and this is my choice. Is it ideal? No, I dont know -- but, It is what it is for NOW.

I love you, no matter what other people say.
and i want to spend the rest of my life loving you, NO DOUBTS ABOUT IT