love love love this song! at first i was a little bit cynical of julian’s solo album project, but it turns out good, and very different from the strokes! it’s so 80s, very mgmt-ish haha. and he looks sooooo cute in the video <3

i celebrated new year’s eve at my sister’s house in cibubur. and spent the long weekend there with the whole family. so i just got back!

it was so much fun. in the new year’s eve we had barbecue party, playing with fireworks.. okay so normally some people light up fireworks, and we watched from safe distant, right? but it was like every house light up their own fireworks. gahhh! i felt like in the middle of war! sounds of explosions everywhere! smokes filled the air, cars alarm were wailing (i think one of the neighbors made little accident when their fireworks explode in the ground, but they were ok). i saw a firetruck passing by too (uh, i hope nobody got hurt).

and oh, the full moon!

and the next days.. umhh pretty much playing with my baby nephews (they are soooo cute!), went to the mall, watch movie, eat, eat and eat (omg i eat uncontrollably along holiday, i thought my stomach gonna explode).

finally watch this!

and this!

love love love robert downey jr. and jude law!

both are awesoooooooooome! james cameron and guy ritchie? quite a guarantee.

and oh, i’m looking forward to see this movie. the other avatar! if you have children in your house (or maybe you are child at heart hehe) you must know avatar the legend of aang/the last airbender. i actually never watched the anime, but i want to see this.

top-right : dev patel (slumdog millionaire/anwar from skins) as zuko.
bottom-right : jackson rathbone (jasper hale in twilight) as sokka. i don’t like twilight but i love him, haha. okay i admit he is the main reason i want to watch this movie! i love shyamalan thou, no matter what people say about him and saying that his movie is rubbish. the village is good!

overall, despite the ups and downs (of course), 2009 has been a good year for me

2008 was a terrible terrible year of my life. too many bad things happened. but somehow it taught me to be stronger and reevaluate my life. So, 2009 is like a silver lining after the dark rain. i won’t say i’m happier, but maybe this lyric reflects the best :

and the question is was i more alive than i am now?
i happily have to disagree
i laugh more often now
i cry more often now
i am more me.
(peter bjorn and john – object of my affection)

i become more alive. more real. more “me”. well, if you were lying in hospital bed all day and do nothing and no matter how you try to occupy your mind with other things, you keep thinking about death. and when you’re thinking about death all the time, you become cherishing your life more.

the “test” i had in 2008 and early 2009 however, has shown me who my true friends are. you know they said friend in need is a friend in need. i hold dear the ones that shown as my bestfriends, who always there for me, and try not to think much about “friends” who drifting away from me. i’m going to love back people who loves me, but don’t give a damn to those who don’t. i found this nice quote on tumblr (anyway, tumblr has been my amazing discovery of 2009) :

“there’s a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything, but it’s not giving up. it’s realizing that you don’t need certain people and their crap.”
~anonymous

i was such a pleaser, nice to everyone and i want everybody likes me. i realized it’s impossible. no matter how nice you are, you can’t control how people feel about you. you can’t be perfect and even though you nearly perfect, people can hate you just because they’re being envy. so yeah, i’m trying not to think a lot about people who don’t care about me, not even saying “get well soon” or simply text it. oh, and i got a hater, who sent me hate comments and hate emails. normally i would do everything to fix this up. but as my boyfriend say, no matter what you do, if she hates you, you won’t change that. so i just let it be! i learnt that you can’t make everybody happy, you can only try your best to be a nice person, but yeah well, if such things happen just let it be.. and it felt so.. relieving! freeing!

# so i spent more time with people who loves me. my boyfriend, my bestfriend, and my family. oh my family! i could cry right now to think about it. i wasn’t close with my family. they’re fine really, the problem is me, i’d always been a difficult kid. trouble maker, yeah something like that. i always love them, but don’t want to spend time with them. but as i gotten ill, i realized they are the ones who gonna be by my side all the time, no matter what, shower me with care and love. i feel grateful i have them. and after that, this year i spent a lot of time with my family which is rare things to do before : dine out, watching movies, visit my sister’s house in jakarta, going fishing, etc. so much fun

i have many goals (i prefer this term than “resolutions”) in 2009, some i fulfilled some don’t (like “save money” : FAIL).

me-galuh-nadia

# i (finally!) graduated! i have the title “S.I.Kom” now! i was working so hard for this, the journey was so long and winding road hahaha.. it was frustating me! i thought i was gonna give up! i wasn’t 100% cured, so sleep deprivation + stress while doing this minithesis = brought to ER. hahahahahaa. now that i think of it it was quite funny. such a experience hahaha. but well yeah, finally it has over..

# i fail on fufilling my wish to celebrate this year’s birthday with orphans. the plan was i had graduated by then and worked so i had money. but after the downfall everything was delayed, it took longer for me to graduate. i even quitted my job so i could concentrate on my college. so instead of making money i spent all my savings because the minithesis costs a lot. but after i graduated i sort of celebrate it with kids at nearest mosque, nothing fancy just few cakes & snacks ;). i hope i can do my plan with the orphanage on next year birthday.

# mew concert! it was magical moment of my life.

# my family meet my boyfriend’s parents. i was planning to get engaged this year, but it’s postponed. so the plan for 2010 is engaged and few months after that married! whooooooooooooooooooooa.

# my second novel is also postponed to next year. it’s been on settings/layout team for ages

# making my own online shop is also postponed! i’ve been helping my sister’s but want to make my own. still struggling with the financial aaaargh!

# the dream job is still on process. i have gone through interview and psychological test this month. i don’t know when they will announce it, maybe they’re already on holiday right now. oh please please please i really want this. wish me luck k?

phew. a lot of things being on hold. oh well, just take it slow, one thing at a time yeah?

as for 2010, beside the usual resolution (save money, exercise, eco-friendly, healthy life blah blah blah) i think i don’t have particular goals like i have in 2009. it’s tiring and it’s time to have some fun haha. well maybe the only goal is just get the dream job and work work work my best!. but i think it’s time to set some other fun plans.

chris miles and jal frazer from skins

# say “fuck it” and “yes” more. the “yes” part is the advanced step after i watch “yes man” and try to say yes, try something new. i have always been a worrier, a planner, a perfectionist.. but now let’s just go with the flow, be spontaneous, take risks, don’t care what people say!
# learn to ride a bicycle (hahahaahahahahaha)
# learn to drive car
# learn to swim (hahahahahahaaha again, gosh i’m such inadequate)
# learn english & french
# learn how to cook
# have pet(s)

pretty sure 2010 gonna be awesome! moon eclipse on new year’s eve? what could possibly top that one out huh?

well yeah, HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL! hope you’ll have a great year ahead!

it’s fuckin hilarious! can’t stop laughing!

My sister gave me this high heels. But to be honest I don’t know what to wear with this. Most of my clothes consist of black, white, brown, and pink. I’m not really a colorful person and never thought I would have something in purple color! Hehe.

Today went out with my bf and he treated me pizza and Smitten frozen yoghurt. Froyo are becoming trends lately, after Sour Sally and another few brands. I personally don’t really like it and I think it’s overpriced. Around IDR 20K just for small amount of yoghurt? Ehm, I prefer 1 large box of Walls/Campina ice cream, esp in chocochips flavor. I’m not really into sour flavor, prefer a sweet rich creamy ice cream.. yumm. I don’t care about the fats because no matter how much I eat I never get fat (haha, don’t hate me).

Can you guess what is this? Looks like a wrapped gift eh? But it’s actually a wallet! Meet my new wallet! Very childish yeah? hahahahaha.

This one from Shentaruw. Thank you

No requirements for this one (yay :P)

And this one from Dhyn Hanarun. Thank you

I have to write seven facts about me.. I think I’m going with the “Seven Fave Movies” like Dhyn did. Can’t think of anything else. So here it goes. (not in particular order, just alphabetical as usual :P)

Star Wars 4-5-6 (Luke Skywalker series, I don’t like story about Anakin)

Did I make it 9? Whatever Ah there’s so much more I want to put, actually.

I pass this award to : ALL OF YOU LOVELY READER

p.s as usual I flaunt the awards in the sidebar

And last but not least,

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

Well anyway, I have this widget called “toplist”, it’s winamp add-on to list which songs I played the most. And recently I listen a lot old songs that I hear being played on Skins. It’s just the top 10, but there are a lot more, it really has great soundtracks!

Season 4 starts January 2010.

Nicholas Hoult as Tony Stonem. Yumm.

With Boy (my boyfriend’s cousin) & Della in Padangnese traditional wedding dress.

Kebaya by Nia Fahira, it’s a label by my own sister. She owns a moslem fashion boutique, but sometimes accept making kebaya on special order. Contact me if you want to know more