WTH!

2011-10-31T23:16:00.001+08:00

shawty

2011-08-31T21:28:00.001+08:00

today: 20% beautiful , 80% awkward. and i dont mind at all

2011-08-01T20:41:00.003+08:00

one of them notes to self

2011-06-25T22:54:00.002+08:00

"The person I want you to date has character. When you’re young, all you’re looking for is personality. Charm. (ok guilty) Compatibility in music and book taste and food preferences. I think these are all well and good but character is what sustains a relationship when all of these things change. Personality is ever-evolving, character grows and amplifies in time. Character is when a person does beautiful things without seeking credit. It’s when someone doesn’t quit — even if every fiber of their being begs them to. It’s the ability of someone to graciously expend back-breaking heart-wrenching love to someone who has disappointed and failed them. Character is that beautiful thing that gets molded over time and experience.

Be someone with character and never settle for someone without it."

full text >> HERE

the non-makeup tutorial

2011-06-20T14:39:00.002+08:00

what do you do when a. its a holiday and b. you have nothing on your planner? how about.. play expert on a subject you're clueless about.. sounds good? :p

if you're one of those who step into Beauty Bar, Watson's , Face Shop or Body Shop with a mental list of prettyfying tools you've ran out of, then I am honored to have you read this. haha This is for the blush-awkward girls, with hide and seek Asian lashes and could only spare some teeny leetol change for makeup, like so:

It took me about 3 months to learn how to put on liquid eyeliner--that's give or take a hundred days of having my eyes contoured like a volatile stock price chart! But it did get better, and I learned that THE Kate Middleton did her own bridal make-up which largely egged me on to google and ogle at Michelle Phan's makeup videos. The moment I saw her working magic for her thin lashes, I loved her already. and isn't is so human to like someone with the same problem? haha.

One thing I learned about cleaning out the clumps from mascara is using your fingers to 'curl-comb' the strands from underneath. I suck for not curling my lashes before applying mascara but 1. I didn't have a decent curler and 2. I've experienced falling hair (the eye version!) due to the insistent pa-girl that I've imposed on them. Thankfully, the mascara I used was good, relatively cheap, and had a nice animal print packaging ...which I guess helps you have the guts to pile it on! :p It's Maybelline Cat Eyes, Php 400-ish

For the eyes naman, I used Ocean palette from Clarins, which has a googled price range of $30-$50. If you know me in real life, you'd have guessed that its obviously a gift. :)) It comes with an applicator which I only use when applying the baklang barbie pink shade (second from left) in the inner eye crease. Other than that its magic fingers all the way. The only downside to the shade is that you have to be prim enough to make sure it stays on the upper lid, a little tinge on the bottom lid comes off like an itchy allergy spot, which is universally not cute at all. :p

The ones above are the other things I used. Leftmost is Nichido Eyeliner in Vivid Turqoise, 80 bucks lang and for some reason, they've formulated it better now than when I bought their white eyeliner which Candy magazine recommended a few years back. THAT didn't "write" and I felt so cheated by my best friend (yes, I mean Candy mag, kadirs :p)

The second from Left is FaceShop's Blemish Balm, o mas kilala sa pangalang BB Cream. I first learned about Face Shop when I went on exchange program sa Seoul 3 years ago cause there was virtually a Face Shop in every major block. You could even polish yourself up on the way to a party if you wanted to kasi andaming testers and oil removers and cottom pads. I initially found it racist when I walked into their store in MegaMall and found that they only sold a ~~BLACK~~ dark shade of BB cream here. But it turned out to be good since it doesn't have that "white face effect" upon contact with a flash camera.

Finally , since I'm not quite fond of my lips, I make sure it doesn't have any sparkling thing, or chapping party going on. Organic Lip balm from human heart nature will do the trick. (: They have one in chocolate too but if you're a choco wacko then you'll most likely end up licking the life out of your lips, which'd make it dry. (again, not nice.)

And finally, the result. haha. I don't know a lot about makeup but well, it could only get better. Might just post something similar if I gain more K na to actually share haha. Either that or I'll come up with a better holiday activity.

p.s. CLEARLY, Bridal make up ang peg.

hey

2011-04-09T22:47:00.000+08:00

‎"I will wait for you. And I will know you. Because when you speak I will be reminded of Solomon's wisdom. Your ability to lead will remind me of Moses. Your faith will remind me of Abraham. Your confidence in God's Word will remind me of Daniel. Your inspiration will remind me of Paul. Your heart for God will remind me of David. Your attention to detail will remind me of Noah. Your integrity will remind me of Joseph. And your ability to abandon your own will will remind of of the disciples. But your ability to love selflessly and unconditionally will remind me of Christ." ♥

sweet

2011-04-08T02:04:00.000+08:00

its time...

2011-01-23T01:33:00.001+08:00

to stop playing God.

re: how you do anything is how you do everything.

2011-01-22T12:07:00.001+08:00

The college graduation honeymoon ended as soon as the Cebu beach tanlines brought back my yellow Chinese skin-- working like a post-it reminder to 'start' real life. Oh boy did time fly, I do remember feeling a few things and being at peace wasn't one of them.

It has always been about finding the balance between profit and purpose-isn't that what fresh grads unchained from the hold of by-the-book concepts all aim for?

A hundred emails and follow up phone calls later, I land a job at the bank. It's true what they say about not 'testing the waters' if you're not serious about pursuing anything because it is TOO easy to just bathe yourself sick just 5 minutes from the moment you're pinky toe touched the water. 180 days later, while I can say I've matured along with all the Time Deposits at the vault, I still can't honestly say I chose the path with a heart. (edit 6/20/11: have to give time, time)

Maybe it's because I've always been one who can commit only for free samples and trial sizes, but really, is there such a thing as a "FREE" sample? no sir, it's a bait! an impulse purchase in disguise, the equivalent of a serious pick up artist who wants to go for a harmless evening jog. SUS. (edit 6/20/11: couldn't. agree. more. especially on the part about the evening jog. double SUS. haha )

I guess my habit of sleeping through long road trips has sneaked its way into the way I view my life stages, of itching to 'arrive'.

I'm slowly seeing a pattern as to where the potential pitfall of my life lies-- its in being blind to the beauty of what is, in being selfish of compassion, and in pouring fleeting disinfectants in an attempt to speed heal my wounds. yes, melancholic na kung melancholic ang lola.

the old adage

2010-10-12T02:29:00.001+08:00

"do what you love, and the money will follow"

demn. i think im cursed for being too in love with this country, the environment, the poor that I can actually walk away from money.

what will i feed my children??? hahaha

but then the next question is... what will i LEAVE my children with? what kind of country would I want them to be born in?

what if i actually took a risk and did what makes my heart leap?

blessing after blessing

2010-10-02T14:02:00.000+08:00

when the bible said in psalm 37:4 that when we delight in God, He'll give the desires of our heart, He really meant the S in desireS. as in really really really meant it! haha :)

its true what they say that God is the God of superlatives, all out blowout! always game face, always magis always and always mind blowing.

i see sexy

2010-09-12T22:19:00.000+08:00

in the geek absorbed in a book, in the man behind the lens, in the worship leader shutting his eyes from the world.

in the man who's a silent genius and a loud lover who can do more with his body apart from ripping a wet polo on stage by popular demand.

i see sexy in the man who loves and lusts for life, for adventure and for whatever he does that makes him come alive.

and Today, I'm praying for you my sexy man.haha (I try actually na everyday but I sometimes forget sorry:|) and well, Im not ashamed about it.

(insert second thoughts on clicking the Post button) :p

coming soon.

2010-09-04T20:33:00.004+08:00

its hard to trust God

2010-08-30T21:05:00.000+08:00

but it makes perfect sense anyway. haha. thank you Lord for the prank yesterday and yup you got the message across. why are you always right :))

i love you and please calm me down.

==

a thought on religion.

im not really the type to convert people to my spiritual way of thinking. but here's the thing, if you like surprises, try getting to know God. Get to know lang, ok, kahit not believe yet. In secular terms, "Casually date", don't commit yet.:p (haha sorry for the blasphemous metaphor)

just get to know AND THEN see where it goes, hows that? (:

and then and then, like what barney stinson would say. WAIT FOR IT.

man hole, man whore.

2010-08-24T21:10:00.001+08:00

hazel yap fell in a rib-level flooded man hole yesterday just minutes after 'falling' for a sneaky acquaintance's dishonest statement. and yes haze was wearing a flouncy dress!

sometimes she wonders if shes getting TOO comfortable with failure and slightly too battle scar hungry.

if you dont feel it, dont PILIT!

2010-08-19T23:43:00.001+08:00

but what if... you do? (TEN DEN DEN DENNNNN! -yeap its that gasgas mozart quad-note haha)

while downloading music in kenny's today, it occurred to me how beautiful it can be to really just trust the universe. despite its promise of aches, and the elusiveness of (some) dreams, the world never ceases to be beautiful. and yes i'm idealistic. and yes i'm high on life. and yes i'm aware that it could well be beginner's luck and that anytime, any minute from now even, if a drunk gun-toting bastard storms through kenny's and gets annoyed with the shade of my peach jacket shoots me just because--- everything that flips my lips the right side up could pop like a helium balloon sat on by a fat ass in a kid's party. (whew! ang wordy mo girl!)

anyway.

this is a nice state to be in. like whiffing the cinnamon that gives the coffee it sits on a run for its money. like hearing the first line of a favorite song and SOLVE ka na kahit youre 10 seconds out of 4 minutes into the song! napapa DAYMN ka na lang sa amusement. heehee.

so for my conclusion? dying young is kinda overrated, and if the thought even crosses your head haze when you read this in the future, remember the lust for lifeyou had on august 19, 2010. remember the things that you're willing to be cheesy for. know your heart and then, maybe scratch it a bit. even jeans look better when they've already roughed it up. (:

the X factor

2010-07-22T22:31:00.002+08:00

This is a theory that played in my head earlier this morning. A theory on why they call it the "X" factor. Or maybe an answer to "How do you explain the concept of the X factor to a 5 year old?"

illustration:
La Ex~~change~~---> LaX
Bri~~cks~~---> BriX

explanation:
the X factor stands for that one thing or one person, that stands for a lot of things, for a lot of people. A singer that can belt out the sentiment of any entire country--that's the 'job description' of an American Idol. A gadget that functions as a phone, powerpoint clicker, camera and mosquito killer (could you believe theres an app for it! ) that is the Iphone.

One singer. One gadget. 10 in 1, representative, and hella irreplaceable.

maybe the better question to ask is...

2010-07-21T16:23:00.001+08:00

Perfectionist. For me lang ha, being a perfectionist is not that bad. Or any "bad" trait for that matter is not THAT bad. Maybe the thing to ask is... What career fits this trait to a T? It makes wonderful sense to have a perfectionist doctor who delivers without fault or an impatient news anchor (and pizza man!) who delivers on time.

I think bad traits are really inborn, genetic even! (Or maybe genetic in the sense that we copy it from the parents and friends who've raised us) It's prolly a matter of moderating that learned impulse.

provocative!

2010-07-20T22:45:00.000+08:00

http://stuffnoonetoldme.blogspot.com <<

im still thinking of a blog post to go with this picture. but this will do for now. what do you think?

there i said it.

2010-07-18T02:40:00.001+08:00

market studies turn me on. :| :))

water!

2010-07-17T12:39:00.003+08:00

life without water would mean...

... there's nothing refreshing to drink after exercise/ jogging
... there'd be no coffee/juice drink, just coffee powder/beans,and sugar
... we'd be helpless when our houses start catching fire
... we cant flush the thing thing that's there when we poopoo or wee wee
... a stinky stinky STINKY world. poor noses!
... people can't belly flap in pools
... and fred can't swim in his pool!
... there's be no ice! no snow and no snowball fights! :(
... there won't be romantic cruises for people on honeymoons
... we have to order the overpriced drinks in restaurants instead of saying "water lang"
... there'd be no lovely water fountains where people throw coins and make wishes

so, thank God for water (:

gabaykabuhayan.com

2010-07-17T11:31:00.004+08:00

if there's anything that resonates most with who I am, its helping people, it's bringing a bit of justice where it's non-existent. and I guess that's why starting something that holds a prospect for bringing more health, of bringing the majority of Filipino's quality of life a notch higher just hits my core.

amazing how far the vision has gone from a humble stallin LAvista market where 7 20 year olds would wake up at 3 or 4 am to sell vegetables! yuh huh, with timbangan and all!(spot timbangan below! haha)

*image taken during the Gawad Kalinga Builder's Night last July 7 at the Rockwell Tent where we catered to a crowd of 500

the in-between years

2010-05-21T13:19:00.002+08:00

i think we love holidays for the time it affords us to get in touch with the essentials of life.

take for instance, resolutions. i took mine as the brave step 1's to my better self. and 5 months back i REALLY thought i was doing the whole self help thing for myself. but today i realized much of it was a second rate spin-off of other people's recipe for success or self-actualization whatever (self-help in a lot of ways is a lot like masturbation methinks).

i did succeed in resolving to "hold back only when it's highly needed" (resolution# 10) . i chose to be vulnerable on many accounts, but the safe kind of vulnerable still. i've become a 'semi-open' book.

friends. ah, now that's one area i can comfy talking about now( this year lang ). considering that 5 years ago i didn't have the she-balls to share my humongous family problem with a single soul. i consider it an 'achievement' to have had the guts to ask hard favors from one good friend- a strange behavior from someone who'd hate to be 'indebted' to anyone. beyond that, i like the fact that i was given the chance to be a friend this year. to do a favor for other friends. to be real friends again with my almost lover. to be a friendlier stranger to the cab driver. to strangers on my commute. (yea, i commute-the hard core way{i.e. jeep} now too!:p)

i think that the time post-grad, pre-employment is a strange but beautiful holiday.

i can honestly say i enjoy how life had slapped me hard , in a lovingly painful way. haha. lovingly painful. DAYMN.

and i realized how going into a relationship is a lot like getting a job. people are in it for various reasons. it could be sheer necessity or pure love-either way the intent does not guarantee how much happier you'll be. and and and! (man im good at stretching this metaphor! haha) it helps to be honest, as brutally honest as you can stomach even, because the company/person who appreciates your potential holds the cards in bringing out the worst and best in you while you're together.

id like my tombstone to read 'she can do what she pleases she's nobody's fool' -from that billy joel song. hee. it sounds selfish. but i'd want to do the world a favor by daring to stop trying to please it.

movies

2010-03-15T23:38:00.009+08:00

so i was wondering just exactly how many movies i've watched for the past 20 years. decided to make a list and despite my memory being an ass , here it is(: When im 40 i might just get how many percent of my life i spent watching these :D

~~strikethrough~~ for those i didnt understand/enjoy
bold for faves (:

A

An Education
Amelie
Ace Ventura: Pet Detective
A Walk to Remember
A Very Special Love
Angels and Demons
American Wedding
August Rush
~~Aeon Flux~~

Brother Bear
Bee Movie
Bucket List
Breakfast at Tiffanys

Chocolat
Charlie's Angels 1
Children's Games (Jeux d' Enfant)
Close To You
Cars
City of Angels
Click
Corpse Bride
Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon
Cliff Hanger

Dinig Sana Kita
Definitely Maybe
Dr. Seuss's Horton Hears a Who
Down with Love

EuroTrip
Enchanted
Ever After
~~Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind~~

50 first dates
1408
500 days of Summer

Good Luck Chuck

How to Lose a Guy in 10 days
Hachiko, a Dog Story
~~Hancock~~
High School Musical 1
Harry Potter 4
Hitch

Its Complicated
Ironman 1
Inconvenient Truth
If Only
~~Il Mare~~

Just Like Heaven
Juno
~~Just My Luck~~

Kill Bill 1 &2
~~Knocked Up~~

Live Show
Lake House
Love in the Time of Cholera
~~Little Manhattan~~
Love Actually

Miss Pettigrew Lives for a Day
Meet Joe Black
Mano Po 3
Monster's Inc
Music and Lyrics
Must Love Dogs
My Sassy Girl
My Tutor Friend
~~Monster in Law~~
Miss Congeniality
Maid in Manhattan
Marley and Me

Notting Hill
National Treasure 2
New York, I Love You
~~Nobody Nobody but Juan~~
Night at the Museum 2
No Reservations
Nuovo Cinema Paradiso

One More Chance
Oceans Thirteen

Priceless
Piglet's Big Movie
~~Pirates of the carribean~~

Q
R

Roman Holiday
Rush Hour

Sabrina
Se7en
Shrek 1,2
Star Trek
She's All that
She's the Man
Slumdog Millionaire
Step Up 1 & 2
Sydney White
Sweeney Todd

Ten things I Hate about you
21
Transformers 1
The Wedding Singer
The Princess and the Frog
The Emperor's New Groove
Thumbelina
300
Taken
The Bourne Ultimatum (or was it Supremacy?)
~~The Curious Case of Benjamin Button~~
The Girl Next Door
The Prestige
The Kite Runner
The Incredibles
The Nightmare before Christmas
The Number 23
The Passion of Christ
The Simpsons Movie
The Count of Monte Cristo
The Notebook
~~The Time Traveler's Wife~~

Up in the Air
Up

V
W

What Happens in Vegas
~~Winged Migration. haha~~
Wind Struck
~~When Harry Met Sally~~
Wickerpark
~~Wimbledon~~

X

Y

Yes Man

Zack and Miri

Total:

why does this strike me?

2010-03-09T23:51:00.001+08:00