Married Life of a Young Filipina in England...

Impatiently Waiting

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Wed, 12 Jun 2013 14:14:00 +0000

I know and I am fully aware from the moment I saw that two lines in my pregnancy test, I have to wait 9months/40weeks or even more before I could finally get to push this little one out of my tummy. But there you go, I want to cut it short! Hehe..seems like I've been waiting too long now! These few weeks I have left seems to be slow, and I am getting so impatient and not to mention uncomfortable!
My tummy is so low now and I am feeling a lot pressure already. Little ones movements gives me a lot of discomforts now as it is more distinct and strong.
My midwife told me during our visit last 2 weeks that my baby was already low and head down in position ready for labour. But more than two weeks now and my little Munchkin is still hanging around my tummy.We have another midwife appointment tomorrow and I'll see what the midwife says and if there's any progress.
I am having a lot of Braxton hicks now but it comes and goes. I guess I don't have much choice at the moment but to WAIT until this little one here is ready to come out!
We've got everything ready and prepared for you little one, things you need and a bit of spoiling :D. Mama and Papa are ready for you, our family are excitedly waiting for you out here. So when you are ready, strong and healthy enough, you can come out anytime. Although Mama is a tiny bit scared, she knows all the pain will be worth it!
Let's just keep praying to God that all will be well and we will be both healthy and strong for the final day! I love you to bits anak, I'll see you very soon? :P

Hospital Bag Checklist

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Wed, 29 May 2013 15:04:00 +0000

Less than 5 weeks to my due date and less than 2 weeks to full term...guess I could say I am nearly there. Although there are still a few things to do to get everything ready for the arrival of our precious one, I'd rather want it sooner than later,
Things doesn't seem to be easier for me anymore. As my little one gets bigger, moving about is getting harder every day. I feel easily exhausted and been feeling a lot of pain and discomforts here and there. I know my little one is getting excited to come out too, the thought of cuddles and kisses makes me more impatient. :)
I am aware, little one is not yet in full term but I am ready anytime now (Weeh..am I?). Not sure how I'll cope with the labour pain but I know I can do it. I've got our things ready for the hospital bit. Hospital Bag Ready!

For those expecting Mummy like me, let us double check our Hospital Bag Check-list from Bounty :

My Hospital Bag (Instagram photo)

Labour Bag Check-list

Birth Plan and Hospital Notes
Warm sock and a cardigan (in case you suddenly feel chilly in strong labour)
Toothbrush and toothpaste
Baggy T shirt, nightie or large shirt to wear in labour
Directions to Hospital and money for taxis, parking and phone calls
Hair brush and hair bands or clips
Face cloth
Lipsalve
High energy snacks for you and your labour partner
Fruits drinks for both of you
Magazines, games to keep you occupied in the early stage
Camera
Mobile phone
Pillow which smells of home can be comforting and relaxing

Postnatal Bag Check-list

Cotton nightie,pyjamas, slippers and light dressing gown
Wash bag with cleansing wipe, moisturiser, deodorant
Disposable knickers or old ones as it may get ruined
Large maternity pads
Breast pads and a nursing bra
Nappies and clothes for your baby
Book or magazine
Car seat

So far I've got most of it in my bag, just the food bit which I'll leave up to my husband to sort out. We just have to make sure not to forget the car seat if we want our little one back home with us! hehe..
How about you, have got yours ready? If not you better check now and do it sooner as you might not know when your little one is coming out! Goodluck! :)

Instagram Pregnacy Journey Photos

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Wed, 15 May 2013 17:11:00 +0000

Since I found out we were expecting, I didn't really have time to update my blog regularly due to some technical problems and that I got myself busy feeling ill most of the time. lol..So my pregnancy journey isn't much detailed and regular in here than I would have wanted.
Anyway most of the Mummy's out there probably would agree that every pregnancy journey we have is a very precious experience for us, especially for the first time Mummy to be like me. Every first is amazing, first scan, first show of the bump, first kick, first move, first clothes we bought, first everything..we want it all remembered and cherished. So I would understand those Mummy to be like me if they have a photo of their bump inch by inch bigger, or if every little thing that is connected to their pregnancy they have photos of and is sharing it in the social network they're joining, don't be kill joy as it's just their or should I say OUR way of cherishing the moment, sorry if you think it's too much, for until you become one of us you wont know the wonderful feeling we all have!
Thanks to Facebook, Twitter and especially Instagram for making it possible for us to document and share all these special memories. And here's some of mine;

Everything grows rounder and wider and weirder, and I sit here in the middle of it all and wonder who in the world you will turn out to be...iloveyousomuch my little one! See you, hug you and kiss you in 6 weeks and 3 days! :)

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My Bucket List Soon Coming Together

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Wed, 15 May 2013 14:22:00 +0000

Less than 7 weeks now and I'll be finally seeing my little Munchkin! I am getting so excited and impatient now as it get closer and closer. Aside from a constant back pain and hard time moving about due to my heavy big bump, everything is going well. And what's good, my Bucket List to do are all under control! Little ones nursery is nearly ready, just a bit of finishing touches and then schedule the carpet fitting. I'm all excited for the final bit really, you know the furniture assembling, cot bed, putting the baby stuff together (big smile)!
I hope we could sort and settle things before June comes so I could just relax and wait for the Big Day to come. Oh, I still have to get my hospital bag and birth plan ready so have to do it sooner.

Is there any Mums out there who shares the same joy and busyness as mine? :) Feel free to drop your thoughtful thoughts as it would be really appreciated! Cheerio!

Looking Forward of Spring

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Thu, 04 Apr 2013 13:51:00 +0000

google photo

I think winter is a bit too cheeky now, temperature is still too low and still snowing in April! Grasping to hang around even though daffodils and snow drops are already out. London GMT time has been adjusted an hour as well to make use of a bit longer daylight, so hey Winter you have no reason to hang around any much longer!!
I oh so long to feel the warmth of sunshine, have a walk somewhere on a sunny day, wear comfortable summer dress, flipflops and sunnies..ohlala! I'm sick of radiator heat, let alone it's not as good as sunshine, it cost us a lot of money!hehe..My now big bump desperately needs sunshine! XOXO

Pregnancy and Beyond

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Thu, 21 Feb 2013 14:45:00 +0000

Being pregnant is such a joy to every parents especially to the mothers who are carrying the little miracle in their tummy. The moment you saw those two lines in the pregnancy test, you know your life is about to change forever!

Constant change, that's how it will be for the rest of 40 weeks. You have to be ready and be prepared for a roller coaster ride..I'm sure most mummy's and pregnant women like would agree to this.
My journey to pregnancy wasn't easy, I would say that the first 3 months was indeed a joyous yet breath taking roller coaster ride.
I found out I was pregnant last week of October following my birthday. We were so delighted and ecstatic knowing we were expecting. A birthday wish come true for my husband and I (both birthday in October).
I was at my happiest but something is tormenting me...What if it will happen again?I couldn't possibly bear it anymore! Following a miscarriage, being pregnant again couldn't be more distressing! I was so stressed BIG TIME!
I was worried all the time, every little unfamiliar change and deja-vu on the previous pregnancy tormented me. Morning sickness was just as bad as the previous, I was so fussy with food and so scared of moving about. Because of my previous MC my GP signed me off from work for a month for observation. I was a bit relieved as I could rest well while the baby is developing out of the danger zone as they say. Not a day goes by that I am worry free, everyday I have to tell myself to be strong. I talked to my baby everyday to keep fighting, be healthy and be strong for me. And above all what made me survived is my FAITH, that my GOD is a good GOD, he is with me all the time and He will grant the desire of my heart. Provided me with a loving family, such a great husband who is with me all the way and said he wanted to take this journey with me no matter what.
And so here I am a thriving 21 weeks and 3 days pregnant. Not so long to wait now. More that half way through 40 weeks :). I passed the tricky 1st trimester, morning sickness gone, sensitive smell gone, being giddy, and most all I am worry less. I had my 12week scan which came out good, saw my baby for the first time and saw heart beating was superb feeling. Here are some photos of the 1st scan


Our 12 weeks old babybunch


An excited and proud Daddy!


A happy and excited Mama!

20 week scan, showing my little one's hand and foot :D cutiepie

All test result normal and baby growing well and healthy. Last week we had our anomaly scan where they check the baby's organ and happy to say that our little one's perfectly alright and all organs normal and healthy. It was such a great experience the 20 weeks scan as you could see your baby moving around. hehe...Our little one was very fidgety, lots of movement and actually while I'm blogging now, my little one is very fidgety, I think it's lunch time Mama, enough blogging for now.. :D Happy Mama Happy Baby! Cheerio!

Good to be Back with Great News!

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Thu, 21 Feb 2013 13:17:00 +0000

Great to be back in blogging :), it's been a while yes..My last update was September of last year,whew! Life was so overwhelming that everything happened so quickly for the last 5 months so far. And apart from that there was a serious (I think) technical problem with my blog but there you go, I was able to fix it! Thank God!
Anyway since it's been a long time I haven't catch up with you guys, let me tell you my October 2012 update with a great good news! :D

October

My/Our October didn't start promising, we received a bad news the day before my husband's birthday. Grandma (FIL's mum) who was very poorly passed away in the hospital. It was a very sad news but we all knew grandma would be happier with grandpa :)
Hunny celebrated his birthday the next day in a simple, sporty way..playing golf! And as it was his birthday he was incharge for the day (for a change..hehe). Although the weather was too windy for my liking, I agreed to play 18-hole golf with the birthday boy! It's his day so he has to enjoy it, and I think he did. Later in the evening I mae him a special dinner and as he requested I made "thai chicken". We had a great time together and enjoyed our simple dinner.
Weeks went very quickly and hey it's my turn to be spoilt..my 25th birthday came. And as I turned silver, I decided to have a party and invited friends over for lunch.It was a blast and I really had a great time! :)
And a week after guess what?We had a delightful surprise...We found out we were 5 weeks pregnant!Hooray! Such a wonderful birthday present from God for both of us.

Victoria's Secret is Finally in London!

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Wed, 05 Sep 2012 13:03:00 +0000

Good news for the wives, bad news for the husbands! nyahaha!

A few weeks ago Victoria's Secret has opened a branch in Westfield Stratford City ,London. What a great news for us VS lovers! *wink*

Now it would be easy for me to buy my favourite VS scents and have a look at their fabulous collections. And oh a friend told me that they are on sale again 5 items for £25 (selected items I suppose), isn't it a bargain?! :)

Just another thing, I hope VS will be accessible on-line in the UK soon!

Our Weekend Away

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Thu, 30 Aug 2012 13:23:00 +0000

How's your long weekend guys? Have you had the perfect weather for it? Or have you had an inconsistent weather like we had here in England? :D
My husband and I had a great weekend. We went away for my cousins wedding in Eastleigh, Southampton. It was where my husband studied for University so he know the place pretty much. We stayed 2 nights in the hotel nearby my cousin's house, the church for the wedding and reception, so it was a very sensible hotel to stay.

Breakfast, most favourite meal of the day if I am staying in a hotel..Why? Cos it means full English breakfast with choices of fruit juices, fresh fruits and freshly baked breads like my all time favourite pan au chocolat.

And here's what you call full English breakfast. Sausage, bacons, beans, mushrooms, roast tomatoes, egg and hash brown. What a great meal to start your day! *wink*

How about you guys, how did you spend your weekend? Oh not long now and its gonna be weekend again! :D

Super Thanks sa SuperDry! :D

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Mon, 27 Aug 2012 12:33:00 +0000

Gusto ko lang magpasalamt sa aking mapagmahal na asawa sa pagbigay niya ng aking munting hiling.. :D Bonggang bongga ang pamimilit ko at sa huli nadala din siya ng aking charm at kanyang binili ito :)

Salamat ng marami hun!

Balikbayan Box Sent!

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Tue, 14 Aug 2012 09:52:00 +0000

Three weeks had passed since we sent the box to Mama and I wonder which part of the world it is now..(hehe). Five more weeks and Mama would be able to receive it. I hope there would be no problem shipping it to my our province.

Everyone is so excited to see what they have in the box and I am excited as well for them to receive it. It's a joy for me to share to them what I have even in little things. My siblings likes chocolates to I focused in getting more of that! *wink*

Here's a sneak peek of some of the items we bought for my family

Safe trip box and we hope LBC would be prompt in delivering you to our door. Hope everyone will like what's in the box! :) Thank you hunny for all of these! :) xx

Getting Over and Letting Go :'(

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Mon, 13 Aug 2012 16:00:00 +0000

It has been almost a month since that tragic day happened. And there are days when I look back and thought about it, I say to myself "You've done very well Roxxy, you've stayed strong". But there are times when I could still feel the pain, fresh and inconsolable as I was that very moment it happened. Just when I thought I am in the peak of getting over it, I burst in tears when my husband played one of the scene in the movie "Tarzan" from you tube
And last night when my husband was reading the "Empty Arms" book with me and one of the mothers said in the book " This was my child who brought me only joy all the days of his life. Thank you God, for that kind of child; it was a gift only you could give." Tears fell from my eyes after hearing this as it is so true. When I had my baby in my tummy everyday was bright and happy and I miss that feeling now. :(

"God's plan is better ours" yan ang lagi kong sinasabi kapag nawawalan ako ng lakas ng loob na lumaban. Kanina bgila na naman akong nalungkot kaya ginawa ko I listen to song I like in You Tube, yan ang lagi kong ginagawa kapag malungkot ako. After constantly looking and listening to songs, I came across sa kantang "He'll Carry You" by Hilary Weeks. Heto pakinggan mo;

He knows your heart
He knows your pain
He knows the strength it took just too simply breathe today
He sees the tears that you cry
He knows your soul is aching to know why
He hears your prayers each humble word
When you said you couldn’t face another day he understood
He knows the path that you will find
Though you felt alone he’s never left your side

He knew there’d be moments when no earthly words
Could take away your sorrow
And no human eyes could see what you’re going through
When you’ve taken your last step and done all that you can do
He will lift your heavy load and carry you

He’ll bring you peace and leave you hope
And in the darkest night he’ll comfort you
Until you know the sun will rise and each new day
You will have the strength to live again

And when there are moments when no earthly words
can take away your sorrow
And no human eyes could see what you’re going through
When you’ve taken your last step and done all that you can do
He will lift your heavy load and carry you

He hears you when you’re crying in the night
He hears you when your soul longs to find
Till the morning will come
And the light of the dawn reassures

It's a wound that only God and time could heal. Ikaw, ano ang kwento mo? xx

Three Weeks Stay-At-Home-Wife

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Sun, 05 Aug 2012 18:12:00 +0000

Having signed off from work and stayed in the house for 3 consecutive weeks made me realised how demanding it is being a stay-at-home wife. There are household works waiting to be done everyday and I kept finding more as the day goes by. Brushing the floor, dusting, cleaning the kitchen, laundry and watering the plants (especially the tomatoes) became my routine every morning. I set a date once a week to clean the bathroom and do some ironing twice a week. Ironing is a marathon yet it's my pride to see my husband wearing presentable clothes at work and going out. And cleaning bathroom, laborious! Dust and my hairs are everywhere, but as what my Mama told me, apart from the kitchen it should be the most immaculate place in the house! Right?
I did a really good job clearing our spare room last week. Because I thought of renovating the room sooner, I started to tidy it up. Mum in-law and I did some filling on the wall with cracks and holes and then I cleaned the wall with sugar soap to have it ready for rubbing and painting. I piled the boxes of books in our secret cupboard and so we hope to continue renovating the room when we have sometime so to have it ready for our special someone to be send by God. (big smile)
Another housework I do enjoy now is watering the plants especially our tomatoes. I've been enjoying gardening lately. Thanks to my mum in-law whos' encouraging me to use my spare time in a more productive way rather that sulking in my bedroom, facebooking!hehe..
Cooking dinner for my husband has been my favourite routine for the day. Although it gets tedious sometimes trying to alternate English and Filipino/Asian foods. I don't know much about English food and I guess not so much with Filipino food as well. OK let's just say I am a complete beginner in cooking. I was not interested in cooking at all so I didn't bother to learn I hated it, honestly! Until we've moved to our own house, I realised I have to like it after all. My Mama has been a very good mum and wife and so as my mum in-law and so for me to be like them, I should at least learn how to cook! hehe..
I am just so lucky that my husband isn't a fussy eater. He eats anything except seafood, whatever I cook he eats and above all he likes Filipino food! (Smile).
Being a house wife is indeed demanding and laborious sometimes but the role itself is fun and at the end of the day a job well done!
It's my last day being a stay-at-home wife and tomorrow I will be back to my working wife role! I am excited and ecstatic to be finally coming back to work to build my confidence again, see my work colleague friends and be able to help my clients! I miss them..
Thank you God for sustaining me in the longest 3 weeks of my life. Thank you for being with me every step of the way and showing that there's still plenty of reason for me to love life and continue living despite of what happened. Thank you for all those wonderful people around me, for their prayers and thoughts.
I am now ready to face the world with you..I know you will soon bestow us the most precious thing our hearts desire.

2nd Anniversary Presents

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Fri, 03 Aug 2012 18:48:00 +0000

A month ago today, hunny and I celebrated our 2nd year anniversary.Oh yes we are married 2 years already and very very much happy..wink!
And so to celebrate that day, hunny took me out to eat, watched movie and shop (yes shopping!smile) at Westwood Cross, Broadstairs. Although the weather wasn't that great our day was fantastic! We watched the Tom Cruise movie "Rock of Ages" and guess what? It was exclusive for just the 2 of us..haha nobody watched it that except us so it made our anniversary extra special! wink
And for the exchange gift, I gave my husband this;


Photo taken from Amazon where I purchased the product

He bought a Nokia Lumia 710 mobile a month ago in replacement for his old one that I broke (peace hun). And as I feel awkward of him using my girly phone pouch I though of getting him this 5-in-1 accessory pack of Nokia Lumia. Which includes a leather flip case cover, anti scratch screen protector, stylus pen, car charger and USB ad apter. He like and it has been very useful :)
And my present is this;

A matching Lacoste bag and shoes! I tell you what, I was so spoilt that day..wink! Thanks hun especially for that very special present you gave but didn't come true, lets asked it again as our Birthday present :). Happy 2 years and 1 month today! I love you so much!

Our Back Garden

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Wed, 01 Aug 2012 14:38:00 +0000

I am so pleased that the previous owners of our house were keen gardeners and had invested so much time with the garden. The landscaping and arrangement of our front garden is very good. And aside from that I am so happy I have a very good parents in-law who's at the same time loves gardening a lot.Father in-law has a good gardening backgrounds as his parents used to own a big nursery where they grew and sold vegetables and flowers. And in my mother in-laws case, she has a good touch and loves gardening..(smile) My sister in-law inherited the touch and interest but unfortunately my hunny didn't!But despite of that our garden is doing well.

We have apple trees in our backyard, tomatoes, lettuce, newly planted leeks and purple sprout (like broccoli), chillies, and 3 different colours of hydrangea.
I am so proud of what we've done to our back garden with the help of my parents in-law especially mum. We turned our out grown back garden into a flowery and fruitful garden.
It's been a joy waking up seeing all of these everyday. Having my in-laws to help me has been a big advantage for an inexperienced gardener like me. Now I am ready, willing and keen to learn gardening!

How about you guys, how's your garden doing?

Our Little Sanctuary

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Sat, 28 Jul 2012 10:41:00 +0000

Welcome and Come In!

Ever since we moved in to our new house I haven't really shared much about the house move and the house itself. So it's time for me to share about our little sanctuary!
Welcome to 8 Makenade Avenue,our little sanctuary, our humble home. It is a semi-detached house and was built in 1935. It is near the train station, town centre, library, post office, grocery store and above all it is just 10-15 minutes walk to where I work. Perfect location!
The previous owners of this house were an elderly couple and has lived here for 50 years. They both love gardening that's why we have this lovely front garden, two green houses (one was demolished), and plenty of plant pots (big and small). hehe
Now we have lived here for just almost 4 months yet it feels like I've lived here 4 years. I fell in love with this house the first time I saw it on our first viewing. And of all the houses we viewed this is just the only house I felt at home and instantly saw myself living in here.
And how we got the house? Quite a chased! I felt so sure of the house even though there were so much to do to update it in a 21st century standard. I told my husband to put an offer but he wasn't sure so we left it for a bit. But because I am dying to get the house, I had a look again through the Internet and it said it has been taken out of the market! Someone has fancied it and put an offer!
I was so furious and upset. I rang the estate agent and alas! he confirmed to me that someone had put and offer and the owner has accepted it! I hurriedly rang my husband, nagged him and just like a brat, I asked him to do something to get it because I wanted it so much!
I was so disappointed and I cried to my mother in-law. And as always she supported me that the house is the right one for us. Actually she liked the house as well, she was the one who saw it in the Internet and told us. Now as I felt hopeless, all I did was prayed and thought if it is for us by hook or by crook we will get it and I left it in the hands of my husband.
He rang the estate agent and put an offer to the house guessing it was bigger than what the first bidder offered. The waiting game was tedious but thanks GOD he planned this house for us, our second offer was accepted! Hooray! We got it!
And since then our bank account hasn't been recovered! haha..Updating it is expensive yet we know in the long run when we've finished renovating our little sanctuary, it's gonna be worth it! :)

Now we are enjoying and happily living in this place we call HOME!

Our Visit to Mount Ephraim Garden

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Tue, 24 Jul 2012 14:36:00 +0000

HOlla! 26th of May this year was one of the early taste of summer for me. It was a wonderful, sunny weekend to have fun with family and for us, it was a perfect day for a kiss and make up! *wink*
Yes, after my hunny screwed my week we decided to spend our weekend exploring the splendid garden of Mt. Ephraim. A 5-10 minutes drive from our place..Here are some of the many photos we took;

The Beautiful topiaries

Father in-law inspecting the history of Rose Garden

We had a great time with the kids and with parents in-law! Pictures and memories are worth remembering..

Have a great summer!

Time to Share

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Tue, 24 Jul 2012 12:47:00 +0000

Yes I admit, I lost tracked with my blog for a long time!I failed to share so many memories, happy and sad moments, ideas, struggles, special celebrations, photos, bad news and good news and a lot more things I should have or happy to share with you my wonderful blog friends and followers. To be honest I do open my blog most of the time, and as I've said I had so much to share yet I still ended up no entries for the month of June! I don't know but I just can't be bothered that time. Now all those thoughts, ideas and memories are clogged in my head and shouting and begging to be shared with you guys. Although I can't share all of it in a day, I will make sure I'll post one each day. By the way I would like to thank all my blog visitors for dropping by my blog although it is totally out of date! Thank you so much guys for your time and effort leaving thoughtful thoughts for me which I really need at the moment! :) Cheerio!

♥ We Were Supposed to Have a Baby But We Had an Angel Instead ♥

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Thu, 19 Jul 2012 11:20:00 +0000

To My Dearest Little Angel

I was over the moon when I knew you were growing in my tummy.

I adore and love you so much even though I haven't seen you.

I carried you very carefully for the 11 weeks you were inside me.

Everyday I woke up with so much joy and excitement in my heart

knowing each day I am getting closer to seeing you my dearest little angel.

But I don't know what went wrong,

I woke up with spots of blood telling me that my little angel isn't safe any more.

I was so scared, I can't imagine losing you, I wouldn't know what to do.

I prayed and prayed, asked my little angel to be strong and to hold on for Mummy and Daddy.

Slowly the pain elevates and just then I knew sooner or later I might be losing you.

I felt so helpless, hysterical and above all, scared.

I can feel the blood rushing out of me, pouring down the bed,

I couldn't move, I don't want to move,

I wanted to keep you so badly, so desperately.

Although my heart gets weaker and weaker every time I felt the blood coming out of me,

I didn't lose hope, I didn't want to lose the hope that you would be staying with me and Daddy.

The doctor tried to spot you with the ultrasound inside Mummy's womb

And for the first time I saw you,

My heart was beating fast, I was delighted to see you and more desperate to keep you.

Although the doctor told me he can't hear any heartbeat,

I didn't lose hope because my heart was beating for you.

I can bear the pain and all the blood loss,

But the thought of you leaving me, I can't bear.

The most painful memory was lying there on the hospital bed so helpless

Just waiting to lose my little angel.

My abdominal pain didn't seem to get any worse after taking some pain relief.

I wish it lessened the pain I felt in my heart, but it didn't, it just sent me to sleep.

After five hours of sleep, I woke up from my nightmare, which unfortunately was real.

Much as I was losing my blood, I was not losing my tears.

The pain covered me and a sudden melancholy invaded me.

I went to the toilet to relieve myself,

I felt something bulky came out of me,

And when I tried to have a look,

Right in front of me, swimming in a bloody liquid was my dearest little angel.

"Oh my Lord!", my heart was ripped and I didn't know what to do,

I wanted to save my little angel, but there was nothing I could do.

Desperately wanting to cuddle my little angel,

I picked up my little angel and lay it on a piece of clean paper.

I held my little angel and carried it with me to my bed.

I wanted to run away with my little angel, but I knew I had to face it and I couldn't do anything,

But trust my little angel to the hands of God, who does great things for us.

I feel so sorry, so guilty and irresponsible.

I could have been extra careful.

Now I don't know where to start, how to pick up the pieces and face life again.

I lost myself just as I lost my little angel.

We love you so so much our little angel,

You will always be in Mummy and Daddy's heart forever.

Some day at the right time,

Mummy and Daddy will finally hold you

and cuddle you in our arms.

Lots and lots of Love 

Mummy and Daddy xxxx

Summer Has Finally Reached England!

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Tue, 29 May 2012 21:57:00 +0000

Hello Hello Hello! Welcome back in blogging world Roxxy, it's been a while since you shared something.Your post hasn't been as consistent as it was but there you go, welcome back! *wink*

Summer has finally reached England.Hooray! This glorious weather has been with us for more than a week now. You could see a lot of people getting busy enjoying the sun wearing their fabulous summer dresses. Gardens in most of the houses look more colourful and weeds free (like ours..*wink*). I'm sure most of you guys has planned you holiday already, I envy you cos it seems like we wont have ours until later this year as we are still catching up with the expenses in the house. Well anyway I'm sure we could still find a low cost getaway or just maybe enjoy our weekends (if I'm lucky to be off from work) visiting interesting places round Kent (I'm sure there's plenty!).

How about you guys, what's your summer plans? Are you going on a holiday somewhere?

I Love Louis Vuitton wink

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Wed, 23 May 2012 21:10:00 +0000

I Love Louis Vuitton *wink* by xoey04 featuring louis vuitton handbags

Bagot, Bored, Homesick

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Sat, 19 May 2012 17:47:00 +0000

Ako ay nababagot, nabobored at na hohomesick na naman. Ang hirap din talaga mag-adjust at mag-cope pag nasa ibang bansa ka.Kahit lahat pa ng bagay na pinapangarap mo lang noon andito na at abot kamay mo, di pa rin kompleto ang buhay. Noon akala mo heto yong mga bagay na magpapaligaya sayo pero hindi rin pala. Mamimiss mo rin ang mga simpleng bagay na ginagawa mo noon nong asa Pinas ka pa.
Marami ang naniniwala na masuwerte daw ang mga Pilipinong nasa ibang bansa. Madali daw ang buhay, maraming pera at mas masaya. FYI po, mas masuwerte po kayong mga nasa Pilipinas.
Bakit? Dahil unang una kapiling niyo ang lahat ng mahal niyo sa buhay. May karamay kayo sa bawat problema at lungkot na dulot ng buhay. Hindi man kayo sumusuweldo ng dollars o pounds, at wala man sa inyo ang mga karangyaan sa mundo, nasa sa inyo naman ang pinapangarap ng bawat Pilipino. Ang kaligayahan na kapiling ang buong pamilya.
Base po yan sa pinagdaanan ko. Lumaki ako at mga kapatid ko na hindi nasubaybayan ng Papa ko dahil isa siyang OFW sa Saudi. Matagal din siyang nagtrabaho don mga dalawampong taon. Umuuwi siya isang buwan kada dalawa o apat na taon, depende sa kontrata niya. Kaya lumaki ako na halos di ko siya makilala at may takot sa kanya. Naging isang estranghero sa akin ang aking ama. Nong bata pa ako ayokong umuuwi siya, sabi ko di na baleng wala siya, ok na ako kay Mama.
Pero sa pagdaan ng panahon at habang lumalaki ako at nagkaisip nawala rin ang takot ko sa kanya. Napalitan ito ng paghanga at malaking malaking pagmamahal. Unti unti kong nakilala ang aking ama at isa siyang dakila para sa akin.Tiniis niya ang lungkot na mawalay sa amin para lang mabigyan kami ng magandang buhay. Dahil don idol ko siya at siya rin ang numero uno kong tagahanga. Buong buo ang tiwala niya sa kakayahan ko at matalino daw ako. Kaya simula noon ang bawat tagumpay ko sa pag-aaral para sa kanya. Nangarap ako ng matayog, kaya kong abutin ang buwan para sa Papa ko.
Kaya nong namatay siya gumuho lahat ng pangarap na yon, naging walang silbi lahat ng pangarap ko kasi wala na siya. Doon ko nakita kong gaano kalupit ang buhay, nawala ang tiwala ko sa "future" na sinasabi nila. Pano pa ako magkakaroon ng magandang kinabukasan kung kinuha niya ang kaisa-isang tao na magbibigay sa akin nito. Matinding lungkot at takot yon ang naramdaman ko.
Matinding lungkot dahil nawala ang pinaka importanteng tao sa buhay ko. Nawala siya sa mga panahong naramadaman at naisip ko na pinaka masaya pala ang pasko pag andiyan siya. Sayang, isang beses lang kami nagkasama sa buong pasko sa buhay ko. Ang sarap pala ng yakap ni Papa pagkatapos kang murahin at pagalitan ni Mama. Don ko naramdaman na ang "YAKAP NI PAPA" kayang pawiin at palakasin ang loob ko na labanan kahit na pinakamasakit pang mura ng kung sino. Yakap na nagsasabing "Walang sino mang Puncho Pilato ang puwedeng mang-api sa bunso ko." Yakap na sana nakuha ko arawa araw kung di lang siya dapat lumayo para sa magandang bukas na na gusto at pangarap niyang ibigay sa amin.
Kaya ngayong may asawa na ako at nasa ibang bansa rin, mas lalo kong naintindihan, hinangaan at minahal si Papa.Lalo nga lang akong nasasaktan sa tuwing Nababagot, Nabobored, at nahohomesick ako, kasi naiisip ko na doble o triple pa ang nararamdaman noon ng Papa ko kasi walang siyang kahit na sino sa tabi niya. Ako masuwerte pa rin dahil kasama ko ang asawa ko, mga biyenan ko at may mga kaibigan sa banyagang bansang ito.
Pero lalo ring tumatatag ang loob ko dahil alam ko kailangan kong maging matapang para ipagpatuloy ang pangarap na binuo ni Papa sa pamilyang inalayan niya ng buhay. Kaya sa mga ta-ong nagsasabing hindi naging mabuti ang buhay namin kung hindi dahil sa mga asawa namin "PAKYU!!!!!!". Para malaman niyo hindi man kami mayaman hindi rin kami naghirap ng masyado dahil patuloy na nangarap ang Papa namin para sa amin.Dugo at pawis ang inalay niya para lang hindi kami apihin ng mga mapanghusgang taong katulad niyo! Pinaghihirapan ko kung ano man ang buhay meron ang pamilya ko ngayon.

Kaya after all I realised being with our Papa all our lives would be best than a good life. Perhaps it wasn't the good option before nong mga bata pa kami but growing up I can't even remember the good life, just the pain being away from our Papa most of our lives kaya he chose to spend most of his years working abroad just because he preferred to give us a good life. I am not blaming Papa at all or Mama, perhaps that's the bitter sweet life nating mga Pilipino. Kaya FYI po ok lang mag abroad but don't live all your life or don't let your parents/parent live all their lives working abroad dahil sa GOOD LIFE na yan!! Pag naka ipon na ng tama go home habang malakas kapa and so you have the rest of your life with your loved ones. What is a good life or money after all. Pag lumaki po yong mga anak niyo at nagkaisip tama man ako o hindi if you asked them now they would prefer to be with you all these years kesa sa lintik na good life na yan!

Tsaka family photo po don't forget, yan ang simpleng pangarap ko lang na kahit kailan hindi hindi na mangyayari unless mag photoshop!

Ang Nababagot, Nabobored at Nahohomesick,

My Dream Holiday

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Sun, 13 May 2012 17:22:00 +0000

A long weekend away or perhaps a week holiday is what I long desire. Take a long break from work not having to think that I have to go back the next day after staying in the house all day because of the bad weather! I want to go somewhere far, away from a busy city life and traffic. Somewhere where I could see beautiful landscapes while in a long drive. Stay in a century old hotel or in a self catering thatch cottage in a countryside surrounded by unique, old buildings, houses and shops. I wanna have a walk in the hills on a sunny day, visit state houses and castles and explore their enchanting gardens.
Spend an evening in a pub or romantic restaurant having a nice dinner with my husband. Then a pint or two of cider while having a good chat and laugh afterwards.
I want to go somewhere where nobody knows me and everybody is a stranger to me. So I could freely dance in the middle of the street in case I feel like doing it. Or I could shout or laugh out loud in happiness and nobody would mind me. Or sing while walking, kiss and hug my husband any time, anywhere without someone saying " C'mon get a room!" (nyahaha).

Or otherwise I dream of a romantic, extravagant get away..A Europe Cruise or Europe Trip..via train..Wow! It would be a dream come true to finally visit the romantic city of Paris. Have a photo with the Eiffel Tower..weeeh..haha. Walk down in the fashionable high streets of Paris..whew!
And the next stop? Roma, Italia! my dream country to visit since I was young. Perhaps a religious influence, being a catholic and studied in a Catholic school I really wanted to visit Vatican, set foot and have a moment of reflection at St. Peters Basilica one of the most holy and sacred place for us Catholics and of course the privilege or should I say if you're lucky to see the Pope, but I doubt it..lol..
3rd country to visit..Greece! I think by this time historical influence..gods and goddesses, remember?hehe..Zeus, Athena, Hercules?lol..And oh the remarkable Akrotiri in the island of Santorini and the magnificent Acropolis.
Next stop? Switzerland! Not that I know a lot about Switzerland or anything has influenced me but I really think this is one of the best country to visit. Oh actually there's one influence I suppose why I want to visit Switzerland, they're one of the best chocolate maker, for me Swiss chocolat is the best! That's why I love Lindor!hehe..*wink*

Enough of this day dreaming..But anyway I'll make sure this won't stay a day dream. Someday either by plane or train or car, my Europe Tour will be for real!

“Throw your dreams into space like a kite, and you do not know what it will bring back: a new life, a new friend, a new love, a new country.” by Anais Nin

Happy Week Ahead!

We've Got the Date!

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Thu, 26 Apr 2012 17:47:00 +0000

Finally after all the hard work, packing and sorting out necessary things to make our move in to reality, and postponing many times, at last we've got the date! 27th of April 2012..oh yes, the date is tomorrow! *wink*
Hunny booked a van to rent yesterday and we are going to have it tomorrow from 8am to 5pm. Yes indeed tomorrow is an early start for us. Good breakfast tomorrow is essential as we have a heavy day ahead. We have to have plenty of energy to sustain us from all the moving,carrying and lifting heavy furnitures.
After that unpacking and sorting out is the next thing, so our weekend will be fairly busy. After tonight we are officially at 8 Makenade Avenue and not 5 Well Close no more..it will be a bit strange at first but I hope we'll settle quickly.
I feel happy that finally we are moving to our own place but at the same time sad as I will miss my parents in-law. I know we are not gonna move that far and seeing them wont be a problem at all, but I mean the usual stuff we are doing together. Like playing card games at night, my MIL's cooking, the laughter, the good pudding, the luxury of having different flavour ice cream (lol), lots of things.
Anyway I/we will make sure we are going to visit them often, I'll be calling my MIL often as well for some food advice and of course we'll make sure we wont miss the Sunday roast that often.*wink*

How about you guys what are you up to this weekend? Whatever you do, enjoy and have a happy weekend!

Bedroom Furnitures

noreply@blogger.com (Wifey10) — Fri, 20 Apr 2012 15:47:00 +0000

Three weeks ago my husband ordered 3 bedroom furniture from B&Q and was delivered last Monday. Delivery date was a good timing as it was my day off, hubby took a day off as well so we could assemble the furniture straight away. I was excited as moving soon looks rather more promising..*wink*

Here are some photos we took while assembling our free-standing wardrobe and 2 chest of drawers:

Here's the 3 long boxes of our wardrobe and 2 small boxes for the 2 chest of drawers to be assembled...

Here's the excited owner looking or rather holding the instructions manual..lol

We decided to assemble the chest of drawers first as they don't seem to be as heavy as the wardrobe. It was a good first experienced and warmed us up in assembling the wardrobe..

Here's my hunny so engrossed of his assembling job..hehe

Time for a pose hun! *wink*

And there you go..the finish piece! Hooray!

Next Mission, assembling the wardrobe! All the pieces ready but the man who's going to assemble it looks rather bemused..Long screwing ei?! Not to worry we'll ask another help from mum..lol

The manual said it needs 2 persons to assemble it but we reckon 3 is more sensible. Here's the first bit..looks promising ei?

We managed to stand it between the 3 of us and that lamp up there was a nuisance!

We are getting there, hunny is assembling the mirror bit..

And here's the nearly finished wardrobe..just need to fit the door tomorrow. We ran out of time and energy..lol

It was a good fun though and I enjoyed it a lot. Any furniture to assemble out there?Nyahaha! xx