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Le ROARRR!! #1

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Mon, 30 Jan 2017 01:09:00 +0000

It's been long since I wrote the last entry in this blog. And fortunately that's a good thing because it means so many things going on with much intensity too: I'm now more active on Deviant Art. Since my first join date I've won many contests & prizes, har harrrr...!! And I'm sometimes notorious too, you'll find me if you know the right keywords, can't miss it.

Very grateful with how things progressing in my life. Hopefully this year I'll win more contests BEYOND Deviant Art with larger (as in LARGE CASH) prizes. And of course the FREEDOM & POWER beyond this too!

Miss Me? XD

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Wed, 16 Nov 2016 16:01:00 +0000

Dream Journal #5: An Interrupted Honeymoon

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Sat, 15 Oct 2016 16:36:00 +0000

I'M CRUISING. WITH MY HUSBAND. OBSESSION NO. 1!!!!
Things can't be crazier than this! We had lots of fun!!

But.. too bad my time with him was cut off by a murder happened on the ship! Now I must assist some law enforcement officers interrogating people [suspects? witnesses?] as an journalist or detective [or was it just as an interpreter?]. And despite my initial secret excitement it eventually induced a darn lot of anxiety its enjoyment dropped to zero!

I think now I know what it means by "I'm married to my work" - WHA..?? NOOO..!!

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LOL LOL LOL despite my obsession and all, I still am absolutely clueless about thing called 'relationship'. And no, in real life I'm not a foot-work investigator of any kind.. although I might try something in that line later when I'm bored.

Le Mrrow! #1 (Ode to Spontaneity)

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Wed, 12 Oct 2016 18:43:00 +0000

Scaredy Cat

Lou Rawls & Desirée Goyette

I may be lazy, I may be fat,

I don't do laps, and I do not chat,

I may be selfish, yeah, and all of that,

But the one thing I'm not is a scaredy cat.

The one thing he's not is a scaredy cat!

I may be bossy, I may lack grace,

I don't do sit-ups to trim my waist,

I may be thoughtless, yeah, and all of that,

But the one thing I'm not is a scaredy cat.

The one thing he's not is a scaredy cat!

I don't have charm or much pizzaz

I don't chase mice and all that jazz,

I may be sassy, yes, and all of that,

But the one thing I'm not,

Yeah, the one thing I'm not,

I say, the one thing I'm not is a scaredy...

The one thing he's not is a scaredy cat!

The Scholar of Paradox #1

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Wed, 12 Oct 2016 18:15:00 +0000

I want to see their SAD face

It's my curiosity for paradoxes
What's behind those smiles & laughs
Sadness, anxieties, personal problems
Oooh.. how I expect to hear it all!

But whoa I realized something now
Despite I do want to see their dark (HIDDEN) side
In real life I'm far too sensitive
To get to know anyone's life mess

Afraid to get involved, afraid they gonna suck me in
Afraid they gonna ask me for help I can't give
Heck I'm even afraid they'd ask me for advice
For although I'm an in depth person
I'm not a vent buddy
I only consult others when I want in the way I want

Yet I think my irony is understandable
For eventually observing darkness is much different
Than getting to know it personally - you're not involved

And so the curious case scrapbook is born

Talking about sad clowns, I remember a cheerful-personality friend in high school with ironically a bunch of problems from health, family & money - I wont mention the details because even writing about them would make me overwhelmed! But suffice to say at one point she didn't even know if she and her family could eat the next day and yet she's still got that 'positive' attitude as if that didn't really matter. I got to help her once giving her a sum of money, so did a few other classmates as I recall.

After graduation I've lost contact with her and to be honest I'm not really interested to reconnect. I just hope she's fine, judging by how she managed back then I think she is now (although now that this topic is about comedy-tragedy, I wonder..). Oh, and she actually reminded me of a flatmate already moved out few months ago whom at one night I heard crying loudly in her room. Later I overheard (errgh sensitive ears!) in addition to bf problem she's got family & money problems as well. And her face, figure, & personality were actually almost similar to that high school friend! I've checked and no, she's not her. The names are different, the faces also not really the same. (What relieve actually, I want to stay strangers with everyone!)

So what does this actually say about my hunts for paradoxes? Here I'm also one: I wished for knowing things behind the scenes and here I am, having sensitive ears, catching all those things I was supposed to be curious about and regretted doing it! Chat noir is confused.

No, I guess when it comes to a friend I can't really laugh about it. The problem is you can't predict whom or WHEN I'd consider (others) as friends or as the ones to downright stomp on (le rivals) - or simply as interesting case study subjects, mwahahahaaa..!! Of course I'd absolutely HATE being perceived as a study material but I don't do empathy in this (or many other?) case - but that's for another coming post!

Le ARRR!! #2

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Tue, 11 Oct 2016 18:05:00 +0000

DRATS DRATS DRATS DA FVCK IS THAT LOW LIFE OF A GIRL COULD COIN SUCH OUTRAGEOUS THOUGHT UNDERVALUING HERSELF THAT LOW AND WHAT. THE. HELL. IS ANOTHER MORONIC GIRL CHIMED IN SUPPORTING THAT OBVIOUS DEBAUCHERY?!?!?!!

THEY'RE PRACTICALLY SAYING, "PLEASE, PLEASE ABUSE ME!!" with cheerleaders in the background, "YEAH, GO GIRL, GET YOURSELF ABUSED WOOHOOO!!"

BLEGH!!!!

OHMYGODDAMNFVCKINGGOD A DISPLAY OF UNBELIEVABLE IDIOCY TO THE MAX!!!!!!!!

I've become SO ALLERGIC to this self-incriminating ignorance by those BRAINLESS inferiors now I wonder if I need to stop lurking the forum altogether - although that doesn't guarantee the people outside that place are better because unless you've mastered intuition like a trained mind reader you can't really know what's going on in their heads.

DEAR GOD PROTECTOR OF ALL THAT IS GOOD AND HOLY,

DELIVER ME FROM WOMEN WHO DON'T APPRECIATE THEMSELVES, NEVER LISTEN TO THEIR SENSE OF DIGNITY, MAKING JOKE OF THINGS SHOULD NOT BE LAUGHED IN THE SLIGHTEST, THROWING AWAY THEIR SELF-WORTH TO A PACK OF HYENAS!!!
AND DOUCHES OF MEN WHO WOULD INEVITABLE PREY ON THEM!!!!

I WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH ANY OF THEM!
Even my defender-of-the-weak side doesn't want those particular underdogs, too angry to see their STUPIDITY! Because you know what? Inferiority might be more possible to heal but ignorance is just #@$%;^&#&*#!!

CHAIN IS CUT!!!

Le ARRR!! #1

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Tue, 11 Oct 2016 13:24:00 +0000

Aand.. I was lurking the forum I used to be active in again and I read something (again) that made my blood boils. How I would love to reply badly:

WHERE'S THAT IGNORAMUS OF A PROFESSOR OF YOURS??
I'LL NOM HIM FOR YOU!!

IN FACT I'LL NOM EVERYONE PUTTING ANY SILLY ARBITRARY AWFUL PLAIN RIDICULOUS EWWWW SOCIAL EXPECTATIONS ON YOU!!!

But I can't do that. I've decided not to return to that forum for good. And guess what, while I might be taking the above poster's side, doesn't mean I would do the same with other posters with the same issue. My concern is 'costumed' per individual. Besides, I do JUDGE others, I put expectations on others despite they could be not the same with those of what ignoramuses think. You can't really predict what my next step would be.

I have no hesitation judging other judgers, PIRATE AGAINST OTHER PIRATES, IT'S THE FREE OCEAN WAR ARRRRRR..!!!

Ode to the Fire

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Tue, 11 Oct 2016 12:50:00 +0000

Day You Laugh

Toshiyuki Toyonaga

Romanji

mienai kage koyoi mo yami ni ochiru

uraomote no nai Coin ga mawatta

anata wa ima doko de nani o shiteru no darou?

usotsukidarake no sei de

ikiteru noga tsurai

the Day you laugh rough lie lie lie

give up nante yosou rongai

atama no naka mechakucha ni nattemo

madamada tarinai

sakebu dake ja nanimo kawannai tte koto kai?

ugokidasou saa, buki mo te ni totte

"keishou o narase" to bokura wa tatakatta

saiai no anata ni mata deaitakatta

wazawai no nai yo no naka nante

sasai na mono datta

arasoi no hou ga mashi da to

itteita nowa dare?

the Day you laugh rough lie lie lie

give up nante yosou rongai

atama no naka mechakucha ni nattemo

madamada tarinai

kowasu dake ja nanimo kawannai tte koto kai?

agaku dake sa boku wa shita o muku wake niwa ikanai

jama sae nai

yukai janai?

hikari sasu beki sugata ni naritai dake sa

bokura ima o ikiteiru

sono hi ga kuru to shinji, ikitteiru

English

Invisible shadows fall into darkness again tonight,

As a coin with no faces spun through the air.

Where are you? What are you doing?

Surrounded by so many lies,

It's just so hard to keep on living.

the Day you laugh, tell a rough lie lie lie,

And give up - no, don’t say it, it's out of the question!

Even if my mind falls into disarray,

I still just can't get enough!

I guess this mean simply yelling won’t change a thing,

So let's get moving - Come, take your weapons in hand!

We were fighting just to "sound the alarms";

I just wanted to see you again, my beloved.

Our world without strife,

Was such a trivial thing -

Who was it who said,

We'd be better off in conflict?

the Day you laugh, tell a rough lie lie lie,

And give up - no, don't say it, it’s out of the question!

Even if my mind falls into disarray,

I still just can't get enough!

I guess this means simply breaking things won't chance a thing;

That's just struggling in futility – I can’t keep my eyes cast downward!

There's no resistance whatsoever,

But isn't that nice?

We just want to become deserving of the light.

We're living through this present day;

We're existing, believing that that day will eventually come!

Dream Journal #4: A Diamond-In-the-Rough Friend

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Tue, 11 Oct 2016 12:14:00 +0000

A dream already few weeks ago I guess.

I was wandering at some kind of underground tramway still under construction.. I asked around for a direction/a train route.. a young adult Chinese-like guy I felt I can trust for a while to direct me to the right train platform.. as he walked fast he also warned me about some lunatic man known to often lurk around this station, but his way of talking was like joking so I didn't take it seriously, until we saw the mad, ragged man going slowly towards us.. the Chinese guy put a funny face and gave me a hint to run (as he giggled funnily)! But I was too slow, blank due to not taking this guy seriously (and I know it's NOT my fault! - that 'comedian' should've known better than making light of dangerous situations!), the madman suddenly really chased us, I couldn't catch up with the Chinese guy and the ruffian caught my hand!

As I was almost paralyzed by fear, a tough girl nearby working on subway construction jumped and helped me getting rid of the freak! Thaaaaaank God!! Somehow my mind was filled in with her story how she ended up here [but now I forgot it all], yet despite all her struggles she's still somewhat keeping up hope, "There's always another way."

[Changing scene..]

Suddenly I found myself have become quite a close friend with the tough girl that somewhat reminds me of Princess Mononoke.. and myself. Anyway, we're now on a mission.. she's wearing feminine clothes: a plaid dress shirt, a long loose skirt, a hat.. all in vintage style, but those can't hide her inner & outer strength.. we must somehow board on a train but too late it's moving.. I was kind of giving up but then she suggested, "No we're not losing it yet, see? We can jump on it!"

And so by instinct I knew she's right and we could catch it on time.. we're running towards and jump to the train like a couple of master parkour buddies! XD A few more acrobatic moves and we're inside! I didn't think we've got tickets for the train, we're in a hurry, but as long as I'm with her I knew we'll manage this somehow..

[dream end]

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Part of me glad I've got someone with similar personality but other part of me hates it entirely because then I'm no longer unique!! >:( Now I see it's just a dream, I wonder if she's just another side of me.

While you're jumping..

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Thu, 22 Sep 2016 13:45:00 +0000

But REMEMBER!:

The truth of this paradoxically interpreted insight is just HALF of the truth!!
Alchemist, the Deep World Magician not just craftsman magician.
Always consult back to the Black Onyx.

A Stranger is Born

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Thu, 22 Sep 2016 06:22:00 +0000

A few days ago..
I got an insight I don't want it to be true..
But I sense a grain of treasure out of it..
Something that might solve a great deal of my puzzle parts..

So despite the truth is partial (THANK GOODNESS!!) to the whole truth about the fluid reality
I decide to act on it, start moving the gears..

Thus it's time to (re)consider,

"What is this place?"

Dream Journal #3: High School Romance

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Thu, 22 Sep 2016 06:05:00 +0000

This is actually my dream 2 days ago.

Meeting high school friends.. we're older in age, grown up and all but still with more or less the same physical appearance.. at one point I met my (not so) secret admirer - a handsome one (but not my type) who had a crush on me back then, supported by the whole class (of which I was oblivious to it).. and now when we met face to face it's still coyly awkward.. the rest of the class was also still curious about my answer..

He even gave me LOTS of cactus loli - large single cactus plants on sticks - like almost a load of truck! XD Apparently he knew (most likely consulting his friends though) that I wouldn't do the ordinary, you know roses, huh!

So I decided to say it.. finally I gave the answer to W****, ahahahaa..!! But the answer is "No", with the reasons according to my current self: I've got my obsession No. 1 (and 2). Glad for the appreciation, but.. no. Thanks, but sorry no.

[dream end]

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Who doesn't like a dream when some above-average fish has a crush on you?
But I hope next time (better, in real life) I'll get the one I really can say "Yes" to. ;D

Always do things from the heart, they say..

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Thu, 22 Sep 2016 03:10:00 +0000

Perhaps that's why my answers were considered 'best' by some askers, because I did answer them from the heart.

But like love, HATRED comes also from the heart and in MANY situations it's NOT allowed to express itself..

And being a highly sensitive person I don't like it when I can't express either love or hate (maybe ESPECIALLY hatred!) spontaneously in any given circumstances.

DON'T LIKE IT. AT ALL.

Dream Journal #2: A Certain 'Ariadne Oliver'

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Tue, 20 Sep 2016 16:48:00 +0000

Then several days after the French class dream, I've got this curious one.

So I was a university student or so.. I met an eccentric woman (most likely a lecturer I'd be consulting with about papers etc), old but still somewhat attractive because of her intelligence, quirkiness, almost childlike demeanor but subtle & sophisticated.

Somehow at some point I was watching her life experience: adventure on train tracks (solving a case? finishing a project?), outwitting an evil Haddock threatening her life - like, a check mate! Ha! Epic WIN!!

[And at some point in the dream I felt like I was actually her..!]

[dream end]

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The truth is in real life despite being a thinking person I DON'T do academia. But still this is a nice pleasant dream of surTHRIVAL (WIN!!) so I'll take it as a good sign.

Dream Journal #1: A Happy French Class

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Tue, 20 Sep 2016 16:22:00 +0000

Several days ago (okay, maybe 2 weeks already, haha.. too lazy to write) I've got this pleasant dream.

Back in high school when I was somewhat a popular maverick (right now I achieve to be maverick-maverick, ARRR..!!), a pretty, intelligent dork with a solid principle of integrity - which means I DON'T. CHEAT. EVER. And still being able to make friends, helping them doing homework by teaching the how, not doing it for them.

So it was apparently a French lesson, a test.. only 5 questions but turned out it's quite hard even for me. I didn't study much.. I could only expect 6-7,5/10 point.. but I was feeling playful, there's something in the 5th question about "du lait" [either it's part of the question or my answer].. whichever that was I was pretty sure the teacher would appreciate my humorous answer and I'd get 8/10!

Meanwhile as usual once the teacher left for a while 99% of my peers were cheating at each other, even dared to either ask me or offering me answers!! (Secretly I felt being stabbed & feeling like killing them but as usual because of my sensitivity not really wanting to stomp dead others I tried to be polite and refuse all their attempts!)

In short time we've finished answering the test (with me being 100% honest & others cheating), only 1 minute less the teacher would return..

[dream end]

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I don't know why I dreamt this dream, quite curious. I'm forever grateful for all the fun school experience in my life, perhaps this is a good sign! ..only in my current self I'd stay way-away as possible from any complicated friendship!

[My Answers #4] How do I escape this lie of a life?

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Tue, 16 Aug 2016 07:12:00 +0000

So back then I was bored and interested to answer questions from Yahoo. Here are some of them. (Oh yeah I love to read my own crafted words! :D)

How do I escape this lie of a life?

I feel like for my whole life I have never been genuinely happy. Of course I've laughed and joked but at the end of the day I feel like that was all an attempt at being a "normal" person. An act to hide the apathetic person that I really am.

I have everybody fooled, if you met me in real life you would think that I'm a very happy guy, but behind the smile I feel like I'm hopeless and it may be better to just end it now. It's not the first time that I've had thoughts like this but it's the first time that I am seriously considering.

I don't know if its a mental health problem of what but I'm starting to think that I will never be able to experience genuine happiness in my pathetic life. Everything that I do and say in the real world feels like a lie And I'm getting really tired of pretending.

Sorry for the rant but I just feel like I need to tell someone the truth before it's to late. Does anyone have any idea what I should or could do?

3 ANSWERS:

Best Answer: It means you're still in survival mode (just like most of human being on this planet). The survival instinct is the first to function when we were born.. and it quickly sensed that in order to survive, we must adapt, FIT IN to social rules & expectations. We learned to act (as in "actor/actress") on what's acceptable & what's not. Nothing wrong with survival instinct as it's an intelligence on its own, but later in life we found some behavioral pathways don't serve us any longer, feel so FAKE to who we really are. At that moment, it's time to take over the steering control, turn off the autopilot.

Now how to do that, you asked. From my experience, I only know courage as the answer. You have to dare yourself to change, start revealing the real you openly and endure the consequences - whatever your environment (family, friends, workplace etc) perceive. You stop reacting/behaving the usual way everyone expect you to will cause a stir, big or small.

Yes this could be a big bang. You get out of your cocoon that's been protecting you for so long, you will come out an entirely different being (which is actually the real you), don't expect your life would be the same. Some would be disappointed, hate it, or love it.. but what matters is it's so much liberating!

I could go on forever on this but that's it for now, and in the end it's up to your decision: there is a price for freedom, but believe me it's worth it.

Good luck.

Source(s): personal experience

Prince Adrian · 1 year ago

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And to think you only have till your 70 or 90 to fine out where you fit in this world.....So many hide themselves in drugs or drink letting it be their guild in life.....not knowing and understanding they are but children looking out the window wanting to go out and play but the chains of life around their ankles place there by lies, love, anger, and the strongest is fear will not let them....My answer is to do as Jesus said, "Seek, knock and ask" and those chains will fall off and instead of pitting yourself for nothing.... you will live with the understanding you are just passing through and life becomes to have so much love in it that your heart will and cannot hold it all and bubbles up and out and on and you can see clearly for the darkness that you were living in...will have so much light in it that as you go to sleep at night you will be saying, (I think I'll let you answer that for yourself if you understand the words the Lord gave me)

william ellis · 1 year ago

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Sorry William I appreciate your answer but I don't understand What do you mean by seek knock and ask?

I don't understand you are saying that we are passing through, than why are we not be allowed to take a shortcut?

And where would one look for light in this life if all they know is darkness??

Robert · 1 year ago

Charles · 1 year ago

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[My Answers #3] My issue with life, philosophy people answer please?

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Tue, 16 Aug 2016 06:38:00 +0000

So back then I was bored and interested to answer questions from Yahoo. Here are some of them. (Oh yeah I love to read my own crafted words! :D)

My issue with life, philosophy people answer please?

When i post a question on here, multiple times people answer saying the same thing, i don't understand the problem essentially is the response. My problem is that my life at the moment consist of, waking up, washing dishes at a restaurant for half the day, working out and then going to bed, that's my life for the summer until college starts again. I'm a senior and i don't have confidence that my degree will get me a better job, i endure this pitiful excuse for an existence because i feel that it is temporary, but what if it's not, i refuse to life out my days like this, alone, hating what i do with half my day, exercises because i need to let out my energy, yet society seems to think that this is normal, maybe it is, but i'm not okay with it at all and don't know how to change it

5 ANSWERS:

Best Answer: Yes, mostly society takes things for granted (the 'normal' stuff, ugh!).. or you're simply fed up doing the same routines. Or maybe you've got other underlying, indescribable dissatisfaction. Now you're aware of it? Congratulations. You're called to get out of prison. So what to do? The answer is not "out there" but "in here" - in you. This one cannot be solved by ordinary thinking so stop forcing your brain. Try to be in the moment as often as possible, and watch insights unfold..

Prince Adrian · 1 year ago

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You must first make that leap of faith. After, you might fail so many times but you will get your bearing and be able to stand up. No matter what you choose or decide upon, always consider this...All Successful People have so much failure in Life, yet they remain acting in a Certain Way. You have to Act in a Certain Way to retain the drive to excel. Not talking about success, just the drive to Excel. Because Success should not be a target as it is the natural reward after Excellence. Many people view success as the Purchasing Power to buy that luxurious car, having that fancy house and everything. But such luxury will loose their luster because the Excellence is not there.

Excellence should be what makes you Satisfied, to be comfortable in saying "I have done good". I may not be Contented with what I get from my endeavor but I am Satisfied with what it gives me to live comfortably by. You may not be the next Bill Gates or Donald Trump, but you will be the better version of your own Divine Self. The moment you reflect your worth with those you are envious about, you will self pity and be sad that you are a helpless Dishwasher.

Change the way you think. Not happy with your job, then do something about it. The mind triggers you to think because you are reflecting discontent, and by being so is also asking what would you like to do? Want to have another job, decide. Want another opportunity, seek it. The Mind that perceives the limitation, is the Limitation. If you feel that you have not excelled, then carry on in finding such excellence, but do not search it to find happiness as a reason.

Happiness is a choice. No choice is a Choice. Everything and anything that your heart desire to achieve within the parameters of your Life Path are all with you. You just have to own it, and be grateful about it even in those low times when you seem can have both ends meet. Challenges is what push you, don't sulk, don't stagnate, move and move on. Make your existence not just about Philosophy, about Satisfaction... but more so about making it to mean something to you and all those lives you touch even if they wouldn't stop to say thank you.

You wash Dishes, big deal...that is a very noble job. If you see that every dish you wash is the kindness that you extend to those who have no arms to do so themselves...won't you be glad to have wash dishes for them? If all the paying customers, can't eat with clean dishes...how else can they dine? With Banana Leaves? Love what you do,not just do what you Love. And above what you have done, love the goodness of your deed.

By staying positive, you allow the Universe to work with you, not against It. Be the obedient Student and a grateful Master, for all your worth is not without cause, you cannot harvest what you have not planted, neither hope for the bounty while there is nothing to bear fruits yet. Be patient and always kind. You cannot hide from what they know about you. They are always ahead of you.

Anonymous · 1 year ago

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If you think your degree is not going to give you a better job, then no point pursuing your degree. Use your money to take a short course or training in other things like gym instructor course and earn more money by being a fitness instructor.. There are many job out there that don't require a degree.. You wan't to change, then do something challenging, if it doesn't challenge you, it doesn't change you...

Saware · 1 year ago

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you've helped me in seeing that i need a professional counselor...., i mean what you said made sense but it's ignorant and unless you know the field i'm in or can hear what i'm about to say next it wont matter.... Thank you, you helped more then most on here

? · 1 year ago

Your problem would seem psychological rather than philosophical.

Mr. Interesting · 1 year ago

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lifes what you make it and if you dont like your life reinvent it

Alison · 1 year ago

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[My Answers #2] What does my drawing said about my inner world 10 points?

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Tue, 16 Aug 2016 05:59:00 +0000

So back then I was bored and interested to answer questions from Yahoo. Here are some of them. (Oh yeah I love to read my own crafted words! :D) And here's a fun-curious personality reading. ;P

What does my drawing said about my inner world 10 points?

1 ANSWER:

Best Answer: Pretty much about inner child/innocence or a hope for peaceful environment.

Now my personality reading about you (just for fun, don't take it seriously):
You're a simple & conservative person, feminine, a feeling type (compared to thinking & instinctual type).
Value relationship but introverted. You've got this dream/hope of "happy happily ever after in the end" about things/situation. There's a hint of inferiority feeling too.
But then, you're still very young (aged 12-15?). Lots of things can change.

Now how much of the above is true? ;)

Prince Adrian · 1 year ago

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Is true yup I don't take things seriously
and femmine but I'm not really conversative and
yup I do have interfiroty feeling too . I am 21 yearold

there are a lot things correct :)

emoapple · 1 year ago

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[My Answers #1] How do you recognize an answer given by your intuition?

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Mon, 15 Aug 2016 17:03:00 +0000

So back then I was bored and interested to answer questions from Yahoo. Here are some of them. (Oh yeah I love to read my own crafted words! :D)

How do you recognize an answer given by your intuition?

3 ANSWERS:

Best Answer: In my own experience:

1. The 'voice' sounds neutral. Not rushing, not judging. Like simple facts (ex: "water boils at 100 degree celcius").

2. On the other hand it can also be compassionate, makes you feel genuinely good about yourself. But not an ordinary emotion of feeling good, it's more like a sense of relieved & being sincerely forgiven.

3. If it's about dangerous situation it could be pushing/rushing you to take action but it's devoid of anxiety. Because it's not originated from the mind/memory/your judgement about things and the world.

"RUN. GET OUT. GET OUTTA HERE." (no "!") Could be loud & pushing but not judging things as 'bad', 'ugly', etc.. if you know what I mean. It's just "something is out of place"... and you need to do something about it.

"There's something strange about this person" (ex: despite he's being friendly), "Something is not right in this place," "This letter feels strange.." I bet we all have met this situation sometimes.

4. May feel like comes out of nowhere. You're aware that you have no memory at all in your subconscious mind that could lead to this 'voice'/answer. But it could also be from 'creative connecting' process of the subconscious, like intuition of experienced experts (2 different kinds of intuition in this case).

5. Can also contradict everything you've ever known. Or what you see about something on the surface. So yes, following intuition sometimes needs COURAGE.

I also found that intuition doesn't care about your current lack of resources, the fears that you have - about how 'impossible' it is to act on the answer. That's why following intuition needs courage and mastery in other 'life skills'.

But how then to get the mastery (ex: releasing fear, dealing with change, how to get the resources I need, etc)? I would ask my intuition again for that! X-)

That's all I know. Still exercising listening & following mine too.

Prince Adrian · 3 years ago

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Prince Adrian's answer is absolutely terrific! Take heed. The only thing I can add is that intuition usually comes when we are not thinking about the topic.

susan · 3 years ago

I'ts more a feeling than a thought

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The Looking Glass(es) II

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Mon, 08 Aug 2016 16:27:00 +0000

BECAUSE that so-called more REALISTIC REALITY could be as well just ANOTHER SMOKE!!
ESP. things/views about ____, ____, etc etc!!
...

But when it's via the submarine not the ship, that view of reality is at least better than the previous. So for now perhaps that's enough.

Mad Hatter Realized

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Mon, 08 Aug 2016 15:28:00 +0000

Got a dominant character vision.. but can't help being eccentric! Can't help being open-minded to new ideas!! Can't help the desire to EXPLORE what's beyond!

And apparently they STILL don't know each other!

But the above illustration is actually when the eccentric is EMPOWERED with Adrian's fire - integration. And there's still MANY levels of integration on the queue!

The Looking Glass(es)

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Mon, 08 Aug 2016 15:25:00 +0000

Because apparently everyone has their own blue smoke..!! REMEMBER THAT!!

Circling the Drain II

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Mon, 08 Aug 2016 15:23:00 +0000

Some things on a local news website and pinterest had upset me. Too bad I forgot to pin them (or I might pass them for genuine respect for my nervous system).

NOW this world is really REALLY SCARY CONFUSING OVERWHELMING!!!!

That's why my own instincts are SO precious goddamnit!!!!!

Circling the Drain?

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Wed, 05 Aug 2015 14:25:00 +0000

This world HURTS.

How could they? HOW COULD THEY be, how could even there be such slimy monsters? Even more disturbing, how could the other ones make those monsters & their values ACCEPTABLE??! Actually ADAPTING to them??!?

What madness, MAD universe. What's called as common sense has gradually changed, mostly for what I think, strongly feel & intuit, the worse. CURSE this adapting, chameleon-like society! And how DARE you all planting these PARASITES to my psyche??!?!!!

This is not just about individuals. What I sense & deeply detest is the COLLECTIVE CONSCIOUSNESS. And not just about the country I'm living in, but the whole planet. It's rotting away.

And I don't want to go down the hell with them, NO sir.

I'm gonna stay here, standing alone, trusting my inner compass only. Listening only to everything originated from within: the soul, the instincts, intuition, every emotions and even impulses. Anything except the outer world's hurtful-unspoken-slickly-penetrating doctrines!

**

I guess that's why it's so hard to simply be me. Layers and layers of protection, the ego's work, really, can't be blamed. There's already lots of pollution out there, can't let the innermost of me corrupted.

My cynic/pessimistic side muses, "Is this existence just god's sick joke?" But my Joker Card side, the somewhat more enlightened one, thinks of this from another side of the coin: a 'joke' that's meant to enjoy a.k.a GAME.. which means, those imperfections of this world are challenges.

No, no, NO. Don't interpret this 'challenge' word from the common western perspective which they've used to brainwash the rest of the world (SUCCESS : failure : money : fame : house : car : vacation : perfect family : marketing : selling : promotion : JOB : CAREER : and other dry materialistic toys)!

GAME, as in "Sherlock Holmes: Crimes & Punishments". Challenge, as in "Solving six cases of murders, disappearances and thefts. Depending on how player interprets the clues, they will have different conclusions. Therefore the player can fail or succeed in finding the culprit. He also decides whether he wants to absolve or condemn the criminal. The moral choice the player makes will influence the further gameplay."
Challenges are cool missions, filled with adventures & excitements. With deep sense of FREEDOM as its 'basic operating system'.
Now how about GAME, as in "My Life". Challenge, as in "being me, being true to my values despite the world going loony"?

Hhhh..

Surely I want something with much more sunshine than just this game of "soul survival". Games are always meant to be ENJOYED after all, aren't they?

Back to my inner compass..

My Postcard Collection #1

noreply@blogger.com (Adrian) — Sun, 02 Aug 2015 08:21:00 +0000

animated photo: raincoffeeandwanderlust.tumblr.com

It's philosopher's moment.

Rain is pouring, soup is ready, and the coffee is hot.

Come, sit with me for a simple enjoyment of collection of written words from countries far-far away..

#1 Angel, MACAU

My very first postcard is holographic!

#2 Angela, DUTCH

#3 Charlenne, CHINA

#4 Babett, GERMANY

#5 Polina, RUSSIA

#6 Raquel, BELGIUM

Her handwriting is so illegible that I had to 'decode' it on my own. Pas de problème. I love puzzles.
And yet only 90% solved, this is a tough one..

#7 Kirill, GERMANY

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