mel's diary

falling?in?love?

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Fri, 25 Oct 2013 11:14:00 +0000

Why does someone who's being in love like to say it that he/she is falling in love? We can just simply say it 'in love' without using the word 'falling' in the front of that sentence, right?

For me personally falling sounds kinda hardcore. Because falling can means hurting. You fall then you hurt right the second after that. Falling can also means going down.

So, why does everybody likes to call it falling in love? Does it mean love that comes with a bad impact? Or does it mean that love is always ends with a pain and hurtful feelings?

Or this is just me overthinking again?

Just so you know....

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Sun, 06 Oct 2013 13:22:00 +0000

I have my own personal SoundCloud account. I once made that just for fun. Don't be hesitate to follow me, fellas :D

Back for good

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Fri, 04 Oct 2013 07:11:00 +0000

Taa-daaa! I'm back. It's been like forever that I've been gone M.I.A. So sorry fellas. I've been distracted by my busy routines. I have TONS of things to do. Not to mention, all that super hostile deadlines. But as hard as it sounds, it's kinda fun. I had so much amazing experience, especially in the-process-of-making-program-television sort of things.

You understand now how busy I am, right? so forgive me for being AWOL

Juts to make sure. What I'm doing is just.....

Later, Fellas! ♥

new comer

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Wed, 12 Sep 2012 15:22:00 +0000

here come the stupid face

ciao amigo! I'm so so so sorry for let this blog moldy and neglected. I realized I didn't make any post for august. not even a welcoming-post like I used to do. yeah at that time blame my internet connection. the thing is, my father had the internet connection off in my home for some reason, so you can imagine me spent my holiday at home without internet connection to explore the virtual word. how boring!

and now it's september and I already back to my habitat (Jatinangor). my daily class has been running from the past few weeks. and here I am, welcoming days with burden of overload assignments. I surely need an extra energy and additional spirit.

just so you know I've moved from my dorm to my brand new apartment. finally, huh? no more moist/sweaty air and repulsive insects. and hello to nice-comfy-clean environment. my apartment is not that special btw. it's not that big and luxurious. it's simple, just like a studio. most importantly, it's cozy and nice to live in. in additional it has a swimming pool. that doesn't mean I would often swim, thou. the bad side is it still so deserted and little bit far from my campus and unfortunately my class always start at 7.50. so yeah I have to wake up a little early than I used to. a little leak, I usually wake up at five then sleep again and wake up again at half seven. I'm such a sleepyhead I know hahaha

so yeah that's it for now. I just wanna fulfill this blog and give a little update. see ya soon

notice my new tattoo? it's a bird-shape

Morning Craze

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Fri, 07 Sep 2012 01:41:00 +0000

just wanna greet you a happy friday morning. it's FRIDAY folks. loosen up a little. have a dazzling friday everyone. cheers for FREE-DAY!! :D

M.I.A.

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Wed, 25 Jul 2012 23:52:00 +0000

due to my health condition, I've been MIA (Missing In Action). I got a bad flu, so my day is full with cough, sneeze and runny nose. how sickening, huh? not to mention with all the headaches that come up repeatedly and nausea. how to live and get through the day with all that crap without even moaning or squawking? it's such a hell of couple day.

because of my condition, most of the time I just spent in my room, sleeping and covering myself with a blanket. not really like a holiday as I expected before. yeah not even close -_- but what can I do? it's for my best. since I won't take my medicine (because I hate how bad it taste), I should really get an adequate and proper rest.

now I'm feeling a little bit better. I still got a headache and nausea sometimes but I feel okay. my cough is almost vanish. I can sing along when music played and my voice didn't sound like a robot again. good news, rite?

see the picture below? I still manage to take a picture when I woke up yesterday noon. yeah I didn't write it wrong. it's noon not morning hahaha yes I woke up that late :p I remember that day I had a huge headache, right after I woke up from my sleep. that day is so not nice.

that's it folks. I really need to sleep right now. I think I just got my alarm, the nausea is coming back. it's from a different cause btw. it's my first day period so yeah it's normal. catch ya later folks. take a good care of yourself :)

adam from heaven♥

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Mon, 16 Jul 2012 08:12:00 +0000

Just so you know I have been in love long ago with mr. Adam Levine. who doesn't? he's so charming and sexy. and I can tell he's kinda bad ass in a good kind of way. what I know for sure is I don't like tattoo guy that much. Honestly I hate a guy with a tattoo. but not this time. I make an exception for him. he looks gorgeous with tattoos. yeah let say I'm a huge fan.

what makes me love him even more is this video clip. I finally found out this video at the first time when my friend texted me in the morning, when I just got up from my beauty sleep (yeaah I still remember it clearly). in her text she told me that I should immediately open my laptop and look for the link that she gave me. and yeah after I'm watching that video I'm waaaay more in love with Adam Noah Levine, my Adam from Heaven. I can't even stop watching at this video over and over again if my friends didn't stop me, tee-hee :p

so here's a video that I'm talking about. the one that could melt my heart. enjoy watching folks. maybe prove me wrong that Adam Levine is that much awesome?

a little advice from me

Fourth of July♥

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Tue, 10 Jul 2012 14:59:00 +0000

YEEES I'm 19 now. how old, huh? it won't be long before I was 20 without me realizing it. fourth of july is not only my day, it also USA independence day. Happy independence day to USA :D

my birthday wasn't that special btw. it was like a normal day, since I had to celebrate it far away from my whole family. coincide with that day I was busy with dance practice for tomorrow's event funtastical2012. the day before my birthday, when I was about to sleep (fyi, I had sleep over at my friend's, dilla), out of the blue dilla played me a song from her computer. at first I didn't realize what song it is. it sounds like a lullaby, but turns out it was an instrumental happy birthday song. it was so sweet. one more thing which made that day special is the greeting from all of my friends, families/relatives and even from strangers. they were really sweet. I was deeply touched by them. thank you so so so much for all of you who uttered me happy birthday. I sent a special huge hugs and big wet kisses for all of you my folks :*

lucky number seven

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Mon, 02 Jul 2012 16:11:00 +0000

it's july already. see how fast the time goes by. like I said on the previous post, the exam week is over. but I still feel a little bit stress. although If I don't have to be busy studying, I'm still preoccupied with everyday-dance-practice. I'm not really into dancing, but I have to do that for 'Funtastical 2012' (the event/show that I already told you in the previous post). btw, I just got home for the dance practice. It's quite a tiring day. but I still try to make this post because I've made a promise to you, haven't I?

as you can see, I'm posing with number seven shaped candle. fyi, seven is my lucky number. and seven is the sequence number for the month of July. so seven is actually the depiction of July. and just so you know, July is my month.

I'm gonna get older soon, from 18 to 19. despite of the grueling dance practice, my beginning of july is quite good. on the first july, precisely in the morning, I got a declaration of love from a stranger. a stranger kid actually. he's about 8 years old. it was kinda weird yet sweet. it really made my day hahaha.

I think that's enough for me. I want to give my body a proper rest. I have another dance practice tomorrow and I have to wake up early. so see ya folks. have a wonderful July!

say 'YEAAAH!' for freedom

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Sat, 30 Jun 2012 17:23:00 +0000

hey guys, I'm back. the exam week is FINALLY OVER! Wohooo I'm so relieved. it was such a full of stress week. and now I'm as free as a bird. actually not really free. I still have one event to be staged. just so you know my faculty held an event. it called funtastical. at this event we are gonna showcase the variety of cultures from around the world. so please generously follow @Funtastical2012 for more information and don't forget to attend this event. you should really go. it's for FREE guys.

and FYI, I'm gonna perform on that show, hehe. I'm gonna be a geisha and dance as well. curious to see me dancing? just come to this event and bring your fellows as many as you can.

*******

btw my sister has been married. it happened on may (don't ask me the date, because I completely forgot). it was so amazing. my sister looks very beautiful at that time with all-red-and-gold-colors in her kebaya. it was such a wonderful night. and I was wearing red-gold kebaya too, but not too fancy like my sister's.

so here are the pictures from that special day of my sister.

look at this! we are a couple. a couple of crazy-but-sweet brother and sister. yeah, just so you know this is my BROTHER, NOT my BOYFRIEND neither my FIANCE. there are a lot of people thought that we are an item or something, but we are not. but we look cute together, huh? hahaha

and btw my brother has a girlfriend. see the girl on the right from the previous picture? there she is.

we do like to make an unusual shindy pose, tee-hee :p

here's another shindy pose with the groom and the bride

okay that's all folks. it's kinda late. I'm gonna off to bed. promise I will post again later.

here's a peek for the next post

see ya! ♥

One Day in Neglasari Elementary School

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Fri, 22 Jun 2012 14:10:00 +0000

i told you already on the previous post that I had a lot of assignments and projects. and this is one of them. my lecturer once gave me a projects to do. it is about making an event to provide training. and I chose to train an elementary school children how-to-brush-your-teeth-properly.

it actually happened on 26th May. this event is kinda fun. honestly I don't like children. since I'm the last child so I don't know exactly how to handle children. this event taught me to be more patient when dealing with children. it such a good experience for me.

so I'm not gonna say a lot more. here's the pictures from the event.

bienvenido junio

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Sat, 02 Jun 2012 01:41:00 +0000

hello fellas, long time no see. yeah I neglected this blog again huh? see? I told you so! I'm the worst blogger of the world. so sorry for my 'missing-in-action' issue. I've been kinda lazy to update this blog. a little bit busy too, because my lecturers gave me a lot of assignments and projects to do with NO MERCY AT ALL. yeaaah BLAME MY LECTURERS!!

so did you notice that it's JUNE already? time really goes by so fast right? I have a final exam (*sigh*) and a long holiday (yippie!! *dancing hula*) that awaits in the front. and the deadline of my tabloid (one of my project) is in this JUNE. what a pressure! my life is kinda like one big heavy sigh at this moment. but hey I'm not gonna act like a miserable girl and turn off my smile. I'm gonna do the opposite. just try to keep it fun (add dancing and singing along in every kind of activities) and still keep a big smile.

let's make the best of JUNE!! :D

one fine night

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Sat, 28 Apr 2012 16:25:00 +0000

it happened at tenth april. its pute's birthday. I know it's too late to post it now, but yeah it's not wrong if I want to share it, rite?

so on the day after pute's birthday, me along with my other friends gave her a little surprise. we came to her dorm without her knew it before and gave her a cake (of course with a candles on top of it). the funny thing is when we want to light the candles before we knocking on pute's door and surprising her, the wind was blowing so hard so we kept failing to light the candles. so me and my friend, della decided to just go ahead and surprise her. it's quite a succes tho.

and after that, we planned a sleepover at della's and we went to campus on the night to do a photo hunting. at first my friend, dilla suggested to do some mystical thingies that she called 'red expedition' which we refused immediately because it was too scary and we didn't want to play around with it. and yeah we did some photoshoot. the photos is not so good and kinda blurry because I turned it into a low quality so I didn't have to deal with a long-upload-ing-process (pardon my impatience).

pute - me - dilla

della - pute - me

me & birthday girl: pute

dilla - della - me

me, myself and I, tee-hee :D

pute - dilla - me

the last photo is dilla's idea. we just want to do some weird funny thing, yeaah something like that. at first I didn't wanna do such a thing, because it's kinda absurd and there's a bunch of people who staring at us like we are such trio freaks, but yeah I still did it in the end.

weird, huh?

we are happy family

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Mon, 23 Apr 2012 04:07:00 +0000

yes, I have a new family. hipppieee *(^-^)*

since I was far far away from home and my whole family there, they are a good friends who also I consider as my family here. we share things. we help each other. we keep each other. what usually it's called if it's not family?

btw, it's my mom's birthday. too bad I couldn't go home to give her a big hugs and sweet kisses and say 'happy birthday mom' directly.

dear mom,

today is the most special day of the year because if it weren't for the day you were born, I wouldn't have been born either. wishing you a very happy birthday!

-with so much love, your sweet daughter

sleepless-dreamer

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Fri, 20 Apr 2012 17:07:00 +0000

aaah I'm so relieved those days of suffering are over. yeaah almost over actually. I still have two more days. you know what? I became a kind of a zombie lately. I keep studying and studying every single night and be sleep-deprived. I have an eye bags and you can even see it from a distance, because it's huge like a panda. I have no idea why, but I became a very serious kind of person lately. I usually is the one who always face and living things with ease. but now somehow I take everything seriously. it's very a odd, even rare for me. is it a good news or a bad news?

courtesy of: aditkok

another moodbooster

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Tue, 17 Apr 2012 18:26:00 +0000

so you may not know that lately I've been kinda bussy with all the lectures thingie. the assignments, paperworks, presentations, yada yada. all of that extremely drain my mind and my time. and now I have to deal with midterms. and yeah, here comes the stress. so please understand my absence or MIA. wish me a good luck fellas :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD❤

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Sat, 14 Apr 2012 04:24:00 +0000

today my dad is having his birthday. and last night I went home without even telling him. I deliberately wanted to surprise him. luckily when I got home, he was asleep, so I don't have to do a secret-hidden-action. at twelve o'clock, me, my sister, my brother, my brother in law and my mom secretly went into his room, want to surprise him. I woke him up and we all started singing 'happy birthday'. he was deeply shocked at that time.

my sister ordered a cupcake special for this occasion. she ordered one with the ornaments of birds because my father is very fanatic with bird, especially the lovebird. I believe I already mention in the previous previous post that he maintains a lot of birds at home. like a lot

look at his sleepy face! haha funny

and yes, I made him a special birthday card for him. I manage to made it between lectures time and pilling up assignments and paperworks

the point is, no matter how old we both grow, you will always be the person who will hold my finger when I'm down. That is how highly I think of you. and even if you don't realize it, I'll always be there, praying and hoping for the best for you and try to do my best for you. and that is how much I love you. because I do love you that much, dad. for me, you are the best dad in the world. wishing you a very loving and warm happy birthday♥

- a daughter who love his dad very very much with no limitation (｡◕‿◕｡)

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Sun, 18 Mar 2012 07:56:00 +0000

I put this on my wallpaper as a motivator and also as a reminder to always be productive and fight harder to achieve my dreams. it also can be a hard slap for me when laziness attacks me. and yeah it kinda works

the day of ardent

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Tue, 06 Mar 2012 11:58:00 +0000

this morning my dad just sent me a message via blackberry messenger. he quotes the advice of Ali bin Abi Thalib, a friend of the prophet Muhammad. and it successfully got me feel thrilled and fired up. and just this afternoon there was a cute little girl who smiled at me and greeted me in the middle of my way to my dorm. yeah even from just one little thing could make my day

just so you know, here's his advice:

"not a difficulty that makes us fear, but fear that makes it difficult. therefore you should never try to give up and never give up trying. then do not say to God that I had a problem, but say to the problems that I had an almighty God."

quote of the day #2

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Fri, 02 Mar 2012 09:26:00 +0000

four is better than one

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Wed, 29 Feb 2012 13:53:00 +0000

one day, there was a four of us. it was my last day in the city. at first I was in my super bad mood, because I realized that I have to go back tomorrow and it destroyed my mood completely. but then at the middle of the day, I started to enjoy it. we had so much fun at that time. and yeah I missed that day

too complicated

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Sat, 25 Feb 2012 14:44:00 +0000

who am I? who are we? what are we? it's just so hard to describe. or maybe I'm just too afraid to define it. maybe I'm afraid to change 'me' into 'we'. maybe I'm not ready yet to start over. ah I don't know. I don't understand and don't wanna understand. it's too complicated. let it remain as a mystery. until eventually revealed itself

childhood memories

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Sat, 18 Feb 2012 02:22:00 +0000

looking back

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Wed, 15 Feb 2012 17:29:00 +0000

since I've made a promise to post more so now I wanna keep that promise and prove it. I have been planning to make a post from a far distant day. but yeah you have to understand me and my laziness. can't help it. okay so here's the thing. last monday, when I was sitting back in the dinner table while enjoying a cup of tea (like-usual), my sister came over and joined me do the sitt-back-and-relax-before-bed-time thingies. she brought a stack of old photo albums with her. since she will getting married in March so she wanted to select a multiple photos for slide show that will be display at her wedding. and I offered myself to help her pick and choose the photos that look good. it was quite fun you know to look at those old photos. to look back into the past for a while. to see what happens at that time. to brings all the memories. it was quite weird too to see what had happend before I was exist and born into this world.

I was intrigued when I saw the photos of my sister when she was still a little girl. it was an interesting photos because it took a place in Washington D.C. I didn't mean to brag but in fact I was born in that city. fyi, my family used to live there for a while. and yeah I am so jealous with my sister because even though she was still a little at that time at least she could enjoy being there and have fond memories, while me on the other hand was a baby and didn't even remember anything. one thing that made me even more jealous is when I saw the photo of her wearing a fabulous coat and the cute white boots with a white delicate snow in the background. envy much? aaah I wish I was in her position. hopefully someday I will have a chance to visit my hometown.

page after page, I found the photos of my mom and my dad when they was still young. I saw the photos of my dad with his long hair. I saw my mother with vintage outfit and she used to looks slim. it was quite odd to saw them like that. I wonder if only they never had met, they will never establish love together and be united. and that means I will never be be born in this world. or maybe I will but I may not be in a position as I am now. and it will be a very different story. I don't know. I will never know. what a mystery! yes life is full of mystery which we always try and fight hard to reveal it.

***

okay so talk about the past and the mystery around it, the past is like foreign country, you know? they do things differently there. sometimes I like to think and asked myself why I do this thing or that thing in the past. sometimes I can't even understand why I'm doing some of things I did in the past. yes what has happened in the past with the present is completely different, but it still have a relation. what we need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened, it has all worked out together to bring to you this very moment. what has happened in the past is exactly the path that you chose in the past. so no need to regret. yes we do have to go ahead to the future without ever thinking to look back and regret it. but there's nothing wrong to look back for a moment to make it as a lesson for the present and learn from it. we do have to know the past to understand the present, right?

refresh

noreply@blogger.com (Anonymous) — Mon, 06 Feb 2012 08:11:00 +0000