Memoirs of a Benjamin

Life’s crazy

2025-08-22T05:42:00.001-06:00

Well let me say that using the letter “I” on my phone is extremely difficult.

Writing from my mobile phone and relying on automated word prediction to help.

I stop and imagine how much time has changed from when i started this blog.

Life has become an entre new world a world I tried to make happen years ago. But no social media then well oh well.

Regardless here we go somewhere for me to vent and release someway and somehow

It’s unreal.

2023-11-25T02:52:00.001-07:00

When I initially started this blog I was maybe but 21 or 22 as a creative person who drew in class I was never or rarely surrounded by what at that time was the “popular crowd”.

I always had so many ambitions, thoughts hopes etc. many events occurred from when I stopped posting here to the present.

I flew internationally for the first time to meet other urban sketchers who are world renowned and have published books etc. My hope was to learn what I needed to sustain a simple life with or through art.

Little did I realize many of these artists I have followed for years would tell me they were architects, engineers, marketing executives… (this was prior toward the social media boom).

I came back to my small farm town and well my three year relationship ended, and I landed myself as the friend of four who slept on a couch…

I took the money I’d spend to live by myself and invested in a comercial space that I turned into a storage and studio space.

I met a young woman who saw interest in me and what I was doing, which later became a relationship. At one point I looked at what I invested in my art studio va her brand new car. The car got us to work and back grocery trips and though she let me use it to pick her up from work (we both worked as PSDs so we would work 36 hour shifts without returning home) I saw she paid payments, insurance on the car and I was spending basically the same for an over glorified man cave….

How do I make this cave provide.

I figured start with maybe an art show to sell art maybe every few months. Possibly a class but who am I to teach others.

In turn I started a figure drawing night which I planned once a month maybe twice due to those interested having schedule conflicts.

Wow

It led into a solo art show nearly each month, as the gallery owner I determined how to display and where to place the works for the artist to best present their work. The monthly bimonthlyfigure drawing nights became weekly.

I invested so much time and effort into this endeavor as I simultaneously worked two full time jobs that my relationship collapsed because she was 20 I was 24 and all my thoughts were “if I run things like this and ask this much is that too expensive how can I make things cheaper.

I was invisioning A nearly 20 year plan, every 5-7 years change buildings do some Reno to an old abandoned building which hasn’t been used in my history for nearly 5-10 years and use a space to expand. While ultimately developing into a facility that would provide artist studio space, classes and workshops along with gallery and art show events and ideally an after school and summer program for children in a small town which while I grew up the most ya had was sports drugs and alcohol or ya worked the farm because that’s what the family does.

Needless to say I ended up in the situation where the relationship ended and do I live in an art studio with no shower or a house that has two cats.

Through that I ended up finding streaming and minded this was way way before Covid gen z wasn’t even a thing yet, if so y’all were just in the nut sack ir barely in the belly… (no offense)

I became decent at it, I understand it better than most editors and creators I see now oh my goodness hire me please is all I can look back on how I’ve learned and seen the rise of podcasts and shows now days.

I met another girl. FML

Met a woman and well we did good and alright I guess… but honestly we would be better friends than partners. We ended up through hell and back again. A lot learned and well regardless we just were not healthy together.

I learned a lot in my time alone after, maybe I just wasn’t ready for a relationship and perhaps we were still broken from past relationships or traumas.

I isolated and slowly hated everything I became. I was once so great and after Covid I’ve seen skillsets I could have monetized on; streaming, computers, networking, even just basic IT…

Well here I am… another huge change, and this time for a little boy who I hope will forever at least be a little like me and forever call his dad “papa bear”

At The College

2012-11-10T19:13:00.002-07:00

1376 2nd St Alamosa, CO

“Though the road's been rocky it sure feels good to me.”

Bob Marley

Staying Focused Despite The Obstacles

An early start to the day; waking up and enjoying my morning coffee to a soft blanket of snow. Melting by noon the chill of the winds remain. The season is only going to get colder. I'm concerned about sticking with my goals of improving sketch counts, and the ensuing cold will make this a difficult task.

Zacheis Planetarium, Richardson Avenue, Alamosa, CO

Good News From Higher Powers

Despite the recent winds and temperature drop things are still progressing forward. Thursday I had the chance to meet with the Tarot Wizard. The cards say I have a sturdy base, and that I am putting hard work into my trade. I just have to remember to make personal time for rest and perhaps to seek guidance from a spiritual perspective.

Art Building, Richardson Avenue, Alamosa, CO

Experiences Help Build Character

Yesterday I had the pleasure of doing an interview for GrizzTv (Adams State University's tv channel). It was surreal being filmed as though I were some sort of celebrity, but it was nice to have to elaborate on the subject of my work and analyze myself. Subscribe to my feed to stay updated on new posts. I will be posting a link or feed of the interview soon.

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My Ears are Still Ringing

2012-11-04T22:05:00.002-07:00

Alamosa Water Works Center
700 Ross Avenue Alamosa Co

I haven't been sketching as much as I want lately. Though I'd sketch all the time if it were an option. Continuing to keep my head looking up much like the water tower up above.

Enjoying my cup of coffee at
Milagros Coffee House Main St. Alamosa Co

Similar Work I Admire
This last weekend I was passed a store displaying some watercolor pieces. I discovered the work of "Barbara Forrest".

While looking at some of her miniatures I couldn't help but notice similarities within our work. None the less I admire her landscapes and nature scenes.

The leaves have fallen on Main St. many local's will recognize The Ink Pusher's sign a local and fairly known tattoo artist. I really need to work on consistency in scale.

Getting Ready to See Lil' Flip
Richardson Hall Adams State University

Well Then Just Start
This last sketch is actually somewhat of a funny spread. I started the first while being somewhat called to action and start sketching on the spot.

The subjects left shortly after, but for the most part I didn't even start with a line drawing on it. The second page however is the fun one. Let me first say it's not done.
So does anyone recognize the signatures let alone read em?

Yesterday a friend asked me to do a favor for him. Agreeing I showed up thirty minutes early and drew the building to help record the event. I am happy with where it's at. The sketch was quick, light, and not detailed. This is only 15-30 minutes in.

So as I go with my non-volunteer volunteered girlfriend to help out we find out it's a music concert. We are always up for free live music. Backstage passes handed over we went to our stations and found out the main event was a mainstream rapper "Lil' Flip".

Well the concert was great! Though I much more enjoyed the local bands and indie rap artists who showed up early, and extended their set lists to help maintain the show while we awaited the famous rapper. Not to mention they played more then he did.

I asked the guy to sign small and close to the lower section. Instead he signs half my page. Let me cut this all short. I met the man shook his hand, minded I didn't get to really have a conversation with him, I wasn't very pleased.

Maybe he was busy, maybe just uninterested I don't know. I don't take it personal, I just don't understand how I can take time out for anyone who likes my work, but I was somewhat overlooked. Is it just me?

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SLV Brewery Returned

2012-11-02T00:12:00.005-06:00

Inside The San Luis Valley Brewery

Returning to the Brewery yet again I feel I have somewhat managed to capture the light coming in from outside. I also liked played a little with my pens here. I have been working on removing line so it was nice to play with bold blacks.

Returning to Routine

This week marked the second week I've been back at the regular job. Continuing to draw as much as I can. I'm thinking of attempting a go at Though this does not mean I am not staying busy and active. As many of you may have notice the recent face lift the sketchblog has recently gone though. Thanks to Zoe at Chic & Sassy Designs.

A Future Project?

Today I met up with a good friend of mine to plan a project out. We'll begin next Friday I'll have to give you some more news later on about that though.

By the way, what'd ya think of the new watermark?

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Leaving Work for School

2012-10-22T09:20:00.000-06:00

"Where do you wanna go?" "Third street, find some shade and park."

"Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase."
Martin Luther King, Jr.

A quick sketch I did while thinking too much (again). Things have been hectic lately. With my birthday a little over a month away I have been reflecting quite a bit; thinking of what will come within the next year as well as in the later future. Then looking back and seeing that not much has been accomplished. That's when I knew I needed to change things.

I've been considering leaving my job and going to school full time. It's what is best for me right now as far as development goes, but the change is very scary. I'll need support. Luckily through my sketchbook I get to resolve a lot of thoughts floating around. Though there still is a lot of worry and concern in my mind I know I'll get full support when it comes to this plan, I just have to wait for the spring semester to begin.

What are some major changes that you've made in your life to accomplish a goal? Are there risks in accomplishing that goal? If so are you willing to take them?

Split Spread Decision

2012-10-18T20:09:00.001-06:00

Well here is yet another split spread. Typically I usually try to get one image per page. My entire schedule lately has been chaotic though. It feels as though as soon as I get into my sketch its time for me to go.

None the less here's the result of utilizing left over space. The first part (right side) was started at the coffee shop. I am very pleased with the girl directly infront of me. The older woman further back was really a pain though. She was writting or grading regardless her movement was frantic. I definitely need to work on speed for those situations.

The later side was done later on in the evening. It's brought on by an earlier discussion with one of the art professors at the university. His recomendation for me was to work more on my atmospheric perspective. I feel this sketch performed this decently.

Let me know what you think and which you prefer of both sketches.

Split Spread Situations

2012-10-15T20:03:00.000-06:00

Which do you like more the top or bottom?
Split Spread Situations, a photo by benjmelgares on Flickr.

Well I spent about an hour on the top half and unfortunately time did not allow for the finish. However later that day I figured I'd go ahead and use up the remainder of the space.

So which do you like more, top or bottom. What makes you like or dislike the other in comparison. Leave me your thoughts.

ASU Homecoming Parade on Main Street

2012-10-13T10:41:00.000-06:00

Adams State University's Art League Float

Well its homecoming week for Adams State University. So there have been quite a bit of festive events going on and off the campus grounds. I even got to see Eddie Griffin. None the less today was the homecoming game and prior to the starting coin toss they held a parade through town.

Having a Drink at SLV Brewery

2012-10-10T21:35:00.000-06:00

Inside the San Luis Valley Brewery Having A Drink

Well while ending my night I decided to stop by the local brewery and grab a drink or two. The cast shadows and lighting in this building sets such a mood. Not to mention both the food and beer taste great. Count on seeing more sketches of this place.

Terrys Liquor

2012-10-10T20:20:00.000-06:00

Terry's Liquor in Alamosa Co

It's possibly pretty obvious that I'm constantly looking for new places to sketch. The other night while driving through town I couldn't help but notice how some buildings appeal to me at night. So this is a first attempt at night sketching.
It's always good to try something new or out of the ordinary to keep things moving forward. This will become a new challenge for me to work on and overcome.

McDaniel Hall at ASU

2012-10-08T17:13:00.001-06:00

A quick sketch of the McDaniel Hall at Adams State University.

So while capturing this sketch a friend arrived and we held a decent conversation, which in turn ended up becomming somewhat of a heart to heart. Everyone needs that moment in their life to vent and relieve there souls of the negative energy which burden our overall well being.

None the less while talking about my sketches and the work I've done, I can't help but get to the point that I'm truely at peace when drawing and that its all I really need to be content with myself. Working to illustrate and capture memories, moments, and emotions that connect or speak out a message is my goal. Doing so and allow those works to provide for my simple living is the dream. Now how can I get from point a to point b?

Ambitions, goals, and dreams are needed, without them a person loses faith and can not work forward. Now the challenge is achieving them. So Whats your goals or achievement. What exactly makes you happy with yourself?

Milagros Open Mic Night 10.7.12

2012-10-07T00:35:00.001-06:00

Well its the first Saturday of the month, which means it was a pretty eventful night at milagros. Open Mic Night had a great turn out.

Got some great sketches in, didn't catch everyone. I'll have to work on speed and tones.

Concept Sketch

2012-10-05T16:02:00.001-06:00

So the lighter is only there for scale purposes. None the less this is a concept sketch for a project I have been planning and working on. I would like to keep everything somewhat still on a quiet scale. But would love to hear what this makes you feel, think of or add some story to it and drop me a comment.

Firedworks Gallery

2012-10-04T11:19:00.000-06:00

Firedworks Art Gallery Alamosa Co

Fall is definitely here. The valley winds begin to pick up as the leaves drop and flood the streets. I must say I love the yellow in the air though.

Wizard Tarot Reading

2012-10-03T15:26:00.000-06:00

John Coyote Doing a Tarot Reading

Well this one isn't finished. Knowing that time was against me on this one I went straight for tones. As I started adding in the tones I was next up to get my reading from the wizard John Coyote. He comes to the college the first Wednesday of each month at Adams State University.

I had a great overall reading for what my career should be. I have some major planning to do. None the less I need to figure out how to get a hold of this guy for another tarot. What do you think? Do you feel there's any truth to them at all?

Classroom Study

2012-10-01T12:15:00.000-06:00

Adams State University Intermediate Painting

Well I finally get to open up the pages of a new sketchbook. I have been so excited to start this book. The sketchbook in mention is a 7"x5" Moleskine watercolor sketchbook. So the pages are better suited for watercolors. I can't wait till I finally close this back cover when it's finished to see how all the saturated pages overlap. (sorry I had to let me inner art nerd out for a second)

Feelin Like We're Back in the 1920's

2012-09-30T12:47:00.000-06:00

Fun Fact: if you play a song at Milagros you get a free cup of coffee.

Well, I woke up today feeling wonderful. Yesi and I went for coffee and bumped into a wonderful friend of ours. While visiting this lady started playing the piano they have set up at Milagros. I can already tell that this would be one hip lady to hang out with back in the 'speak easy' days.

Back To The Classroom

2012-09-24T01:32:00.000-06:00

Adams State University Intermediate Painting Class

Well I joined Yesi for her Painting class today. I love being around the creative and constructive energies flowing around the room. Though it all really does make me long to go to school. Lately I just can't shake the want or desire to take classes.

Rainbows End Thrift Store

2012-09-10T12:12:00.000-06:00

Rainbows End Thrift Store

You gotta love a decent thrift store. I've come across a few good sportscoats, a cool pair of sunglasses, not to mention my kick ass art bag. Regardless they are always better oriented toward the ladies. Men have a habit of wearing it out till it's gone. So share the message, when your gonna get rid of old clothes, take it to a thrift store or goodwill.

Campus Cafe Pancake House

2012-09-03T14:24:00.000-06:00

Campus Cafe

Well I got to hang out with an old friend today. We didn't do much but blow an hour or two waiting for her car to get a tune up. None the less I caught up these sketch. To many of the Adams State College Alumni and locals we all know and hold this place dear to our hearts. The foods great and the cinnamon rolls are massive!

If you stop into Alamosa make sure to drop in early to the Campus Cafe, but get there soon, they'll fill up quickly.

Play Those Guitars Boys

2012-09-01T11:07:00.000-06:00

A lady enjoying her coffee even sang a song with these drifters.

Well being we have the train so near by we tend to get quite a few travelers. These boys were playing guitar at milagros. They of course had their guitar case opened for tips. Unfortunately I have yet to make the big leagues with my art. So they received this sketch instead.

Obsolete News Stands

2012-08-27T12:04:00.000-06:00

Milagros Monday,
I can't help but wonder if news boxes will ever disappear. With the increase in internet for news, and the loss in cost to print, will they eventually be fazed out? If so what happens to those of us without the nice tablets, or ipads?

Waiting at The Drive In

2012-08-23T18:55:00.000-06:00

Waiting for our car hop to come bring out our order at the Sonic Drive In. Really starting to see the need for a scanner.

Back End of Cole Park

2012-08-19T15:51:00.000-06:00

Sometimes you think living with a park in front or in this case in back of your house would be alright. Just bare in mind the many different types of people that may meet go there. None the less it's good to be friendly and make new people.

Memoirs of a Benjamin

Life’s crazy

It’s unreal.

At The College

Staying Focused Despite The Obstacles

Good News From Higher Powers

Experiences Help Build Character

Somewhat Related

My Ears are Still Ringing

SLV Brewery Returned

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Having a Drink at the Brewery

SLV Brewery

Leaving Work for School

Split Spread Decision

Split Spread Situations

ASU Homecoming Parade on Main Street

Having a Drink at SLV Brewery

Terrys Liquor

McDaniel Hall at ASU

Milagros Open Mic Night 10.7.12

Concept Sketch

Firedworks Gallery

Wizard Tarot Reading

Classroom Study

Feelin Like We're Back in the 1920's

Back To The Classroom

Rainbows End Thrift Store

Campus Cafe Pancake House

Play Those Guitars Boys

Obsolete News Stands

Waiting at The Drive In

Back End of Cole Park

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