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JUSTCAPSHUNZ WEEKLY ROUND-UP FOR 27 JANUARY 2012

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Fri, 27 Jan 2012 06:05:00 +0000

And now the Friday blast from Just Capshunz. Because starting the weekend snarky is a good idea. (Smooch.)

LOLCATS WEEKLY ROUND-UP FOR 24 JANUARY 2012

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Tue, 24 Jan 2012 16:26:00 +0000

Here's the weekly best of what I've gleaned from I Can Has Cheezburger efforts.
There are some really creative folks out there.

JUSTCAPSHUZ WEEKLY ROUND-UP FOR 20 JANUARY 2012

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Fri, 20 Jan 2012 14:56:00 +0000

And now the Friday blast from Just Capshunz. Because starting the weekend snarky is a good idea. (Smooch.)

LOLCATS WEEKLY ROUND-UP FOR 17 JANUARY 2012

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Tue, 17 Jan 2012 06:05:00 +0000

Here's the weekly best of what I've gleaned from I Can Has Cheezburger efforts.
There are some really creative folks out there.

JUSTCAPSHUNZ WEEKLY ROUND-UP FOR 13 JANUARY 2012

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Fri, 13 Jan 2012 16:56:00 +0000

And now the Friday blast from Just Capshunz. Because starting the weekend snarky is a good idea. (Smooch.)

NEW POEM

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Wed, 11 Jan 2012 08:16:00 +0000

DINNER BELL

I am tired of slanted truth
Afternoon light which warms the room
but never reaches my starving skin

I want brisk and cold floodwaters
Mama's voice blunt in my ears
For once answering my lament
even if to deny me

To admit I was not seen, not
chosen. The blood I've pooled
in my own palms is no use now
even to feed the geraniums. Wash up
and go elsewhere for supper.

Copyright Maggie Jochild, Written 11 January 2012, 2:08 a.m.

LOLCATS WEEKLY ROUND-UP FOR 10 JANUARY 2012

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Tue, 10 Jan 2012 07:11:00 +0000

Here's the weekly best of what I've gleaned from I Can Has Cheezburger efforts.
There are some really creative folks out there.

JUSTCAPSHUNZ WEEKLY ROUND-UP FOR 6 JANUARY 2012

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Sat, 07 Jan 2012 14:09:00 +0000

And now the Friday blast from Just Capshunz. Because starting the weekend snarky is a good idea. (Smooch.)

LOLCATS WEEKLY ROUND-UP FOR 3 JANUARY 2012

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Tue, 03 Jan 2012 05:54:00 +0000

Here's the weekly best of what I've gleaned from I Can Has Cheezburger efforts.
There are some really creative folks out there.

JUSTCAPSHUNZ WEEKLY ROUND-UP, LAST OF 2011

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Fri, 30 Dec 2011 17:32:00 +0000

And now the Friday blast from Just Capshunz. Because starting the weekend snarky is a good idea. (Smooch.)

LOLCATS WEEKLY ROUND-UP, 27 DECEMBER 2011 (HOSPITAL EDITION)

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Tue, 27 Dec 2011 13:35:00 +0000

Here's the weekly best of what I've gleaned from I Can Has Cheezburger efforts.
There are some really creative folks out there.

SECOND NEW POEM, CHRISTMAS DAY

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Sun, 25 Dec 2011 17:09:00 +0000

I know how to sing for my supper.
Close your eyes and do it earnest.

When we could not make the rent,
Mama sent me down the block
to beg the foul-tempered landlord
for just a few days more. I went
to school with his granddaughter,
and by the time I reached his ivied porch
Mama knew I would be wheezing.

Honour your people, stay alive
but rip out every seedling they left
and hold it up to the sun.
Scorched earth is fertile.
And find a companion
who can tell when you are
leaking shame into your bloodstream.

© Maggie Jochild, written 25 December 2011, 10:35 p.m.

NEW POEM, CHRISTMAS DAY

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Sun, 25 Dec 2011 17:08:00 +0000

On Christmas we string coloured lights
and fill the air with roasting meat
because the silent older folks
are dodging ghosts and rotted dreams.

I've stopped thinking "Mama would
appreciate this book." She is not
replaced, she simply vanished in
mid sentence.

© Maggie Jochild, written 25 December 2011, 10:27 a.m.

JUSTCAPSHUNZ WEEKLY ROUND-UP FOR 23 DECEMBER 2011 (HOSPITAL EDITION)

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Fri, 23 Dec 2011 20:38:00 +0000

And now the Friday blast from Just Capshunz. Because starting the weekend snarky is a good idea. (Smooch.)

LOLCAT WEEKLY ROUND-UP FOR 20 DECEMBER 2011 (HOSPITAL EDITION)

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Tue, 20 Dec 2011 16:50:00 +0000

Here's the weekly best of what I've gleaned from I Can Has Cheezburger efforts.
There are some really creative folks out there.

JUSTCAPSHUNZ WEEKLY ROUND-UP 16 DECEMBER 2011 (HOSPITAL EDITION)

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Fri, 16 Dec 2011 13:24:00 +0000

And now the Friday blast from Just Capshunz. Because starting the weekend snarky is a good idea. (Smooch.)

LOLCATS WEEKLY ROUND-UP 13 DECEMBER 2011 (HOSPITAL EDITION)

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Tue, 13 Dec 2011 03:14:00 +0000

Here's the weekly best of what I've gleaned from I Can Has Cheezburger efforts.
There are some really creative folks out there.

JUSTCAPSHUNZ WEEKLY ROUND-UP 9 DECEMBER 2011 (HOSPITAL EDITION)

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Sat, 10 Dec 2011 01:54:00 +0000

And now the Friday blast from Just Capshunz. Because starting the weekend snarky is a good idea. (Smooch.)

LOLCATS WEEKLY ROUND-UP 6 DECEMBER 2011

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Tue, 06 Dec 2011 13:55:00 +0000

Here's the weekly best of what I've gleaned from I Can Has Cheezburger efforts.
There are some really creative folks out there.

JUSTCAPSHUNZ WEEKLY ROUND-UP 2 DECEMBER 2011

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Fri, 02 Dec 2011 06:58:00 +0000

And now the Friday blast from Just Capshunz. Because starting the weekend snarky is a good idea. (Smooch.)

NEW POEM

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Thu, 01 Dec 2011 00:31:00 +0000

RUBAIYAT CÉILIDH

I dream I'm dancing with my girl
Our hips encurving like a burl
She whispers in my ear a charm
Before she laughs into a whirl

She spirals down my eager arm
The air between us flickers warm
My past a blur of clever days
Which somehow carried me past harm

The nearby fiddles play strathspeys
Of seismic drift and Simon Says
My feet glide over gritty beams
And friends pound tempo in the haze

I am not crippled in my dreams
My heart tells tales, like Parson Weems,
Of cloth wove whole, sans patch or seams
Of cloth wove whole, sans patch or seams

Copyright Maggie Jochild, written 30 November 2011, finished 6:27 p.m.

LOLCATS WEEKLY ROUND-UP FOR 29 NOVEMBER 2011

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Tue, 29 Nov 2011 13:48:00 +0000

Here's the weekly best of what I've gleaned from I Can Has Cheezburger efforts.
There are some really creative folks out there.

PERSONAL UPDATE

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Fri, 25 Nov 2011 21:03:00 +0000

Deeep into the rabbithole this afternoon, and a slow resurfacing all on my own. One of the notable advantages to being "retired" as I am is the chance to wake up when my body is ready. I think it is brutal to be jerked back into consciousness by electronic noise.

Or the antics of your furry rumate, of course.

It is that time of month to worry about rent, and I have more disconnect from the world than usual because almost all I see out there is a focus on shopping. (Not among most of my community, which is a relief.) I am trying to figure out how to do a fundraiser, since my immediate care expenses have gone up, Margot has overextended, and I need some extra help. Payment for a complete blood work-up to see what is going on with me before Medicare kicks in 5 months from now (at least $400) and yes it is either out of pocket or I call 911 for a stay at the hospital, which has risks I am advised against. A small generator to stash in my closet against power failures, or else I'd have to evacuate to a nursing home I might not get free from. Eventually a spare twin bed (rollaway?) against future visits from M or others. An extra set or two of good twin bed sheets to make up for those Jenny4Jesus mildewed -- ditto cheap bed-pillows.

Plus the DME upgrade which has cleared my skin issues but costs an extra $150 per month. If anyone has FSE funds they want to spend before the end of the year, I can send you privately a list of what eligible items I use monthly.

I woke up, though, thinking about Dinah's transformation. Perhaps it's merely Margot Majick of the same sort that makes my days joyous. But M says she thinks Dinah is responding to my new sense of security and peace -- now that Dinah doesn't have to Worry About Me, she has the room to explore affection instead of vigilance. If that is so, I feel so badly about what I have put that little kitteh through.

The fairy lights on the new timer come on more or less shortly after noon and go off at 7-ish. Not what I set it for but I need better eyes and hands to recalibrate it, and I am fine with it for now. Their colourful emergence each afternoon reminds me Margot has occupied these rooms with me, she has keys to the front door now which are on her keychain that jingles with the bells from collars of all the cats she's love, including now the bell from Dinah's collar. (Since Dinah is her kitteh now, too.) Margot has filled these rooms with the delicious scent of her cooking, we have slept and watched each other sleep in here, made passionate love, shared meals, pored over photographs, wept and talked and laughed without limit.

This room has stopped being a prison and is now a shimmery rainbow doorway. No wonder I need to sleep more to understand it all.

Tammy told me she feels reassurance and hope every time she comes in the door. What a great thing to hear.

JUSTCAPSHUNZ WEEKLY ROUND-UP FOR 25 NOVEMBER 2011

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Fri, 25 Nov 2011 16:22:00 +0000

And now the Friday blast from Just Capshunz. Because starting the weekend snarky is a good idea. (Smooch.)

NEW POEM

noreply@blogger.com (Maggie Jochild) — Wed, 23 Nov 2011 20:39:00 +0000

OUR MOTHERS

They want us to appreciate the squeeze they felt.
To forgive them their choices, honor feeble intent
in the men they married, our fathers.
They drag us out to dinner on dead men's birthdays
milking into wineglasses our compulsion to forgive
the women who gave us our eggs, now unused forever --
Even as our would-be daughters blame us for not
finishing our revolution, every step we took wrong.
We have no absolution from those who came after.
They demand our sisterhood as well, and mock how
we turn to each other, old now, but still in love
with the glimpses we uncovered of female spirit
unchained.

© Maggie Jochild -- written 2:31 p.m., 23 November 2011