Methyl Blue

Forever

2008-09-03T13:33:00.002+05:30

Dark sky,
Hot night,
Stars lit up,
Soft grass,
Still wet,
Your eyes,
My smile,
Wrists locked,
Lips closed,
Let's stay like this forever,
Gazing in each other's eyes.

I’m tired of being sorry

2007-12-29T18:15:00.000+05:30

I hate us fighting
but I'm tired of being sorry

I'll never forgive myself for pushing you away
but I'm tired of being sorry

I can't stand the fact that I never got a second chance
but I'm tired of being sorry

I regret many things I did to you when I had you
but I'm tired of being sorry

I miss what I lost in you
but I'm tired of being sorry.....

I'm tired of being sorry for YOUR mistakes!

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Secrets

2007-12-07T18:13:00.000+05:30

Thinking herself too smart,
She lies again.

But I know,
I’ve always known.

Sometimes secrets get too big to hide,
And one can’t help it out.

Life is a long journey,
And many people come and go out of one’s life.

No one can become so significant,
That one’s life stands still for her.

I hope she realizes,
How worthless she really is.

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Dark Orange

2007-12-02T18:12:00.000+05:30

I wish I could gather my life in an orange
A big one filled with blood and tears
And I could eat it as I grow up
To stab in hell all my fears.

And I wish I could taste it again and again
Till sipping the last drop of it
And murder it with a bloody knife
Without loving and smiling a bit.

Maybe, if some pieces from it will rest
I will write them on my tomb;
And maybe on your chest
I will paint all the doom.

Don't be scared...

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Always

2007-11-19T18:11:00.002+05:30

Do you know how much you hurt me?
What did I do?
Am I not good enough?
Did I say something wrong to you?
What did I do?
Maybe I was just never meant to survive
In social circles.
Maybe I was destined to live alone...
It doesn't matter anyway...
Anymore.
It will take a while to get over...
But I'll get used to it.

I always do.

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A token of your love

2007-11-07T18:10:00.000+05:30

I was teased
Beaten Alive
You couldn't be pleased
To know I survived
All I did was love you
Until I was blue
And now I must pay
For the rest of my days
I have loved once in my lifetime
And I'm treated like that was a crime
What did I do to deserve this?
When all I wanted was a kiss
A token of your love
Floating like a dove
But all I got in the end
Was a heart that I must now mend
I wish I never gave in
To the feelings within
For now I must move on
Knowing my heart is gone
Shattered between the two of you.

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i hate you

2007-11-03T18:09:00.000+05:30

from the bottom of my heart i'd might say
you are one of the best friends i've ever had
but now i kinda like you to stay
the rest of your days all sad

i hoist the anger in my soul
because i cannot hold this burden anymore
you make me mad the way you flow
i want you to leave this place therefore

what the fuck did i make for you two
i just wanted you to be together and happy
but why the hell did i deserve this from you
you make my hate alive, you made it slappy

i curse this moment for the rest of my life
i disgust you both until i leave your faces behind
even all day the sun for me will shine
the shadow of my angst you will find

stay away, stay away, you make me sick
how i wanted you the way you were in the past
maybe your promises would better stick
but in my mind your pride and ego grows too fast

i throw up your hearts locked in my stomach
they liquify in acid seas
and i laugh, i'm glad and i match
the sound of a violin to your corpse fleas

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Leave me lying dead

2007-10-28T18:05:00.000+05:30

I’m so sick of it all…
My heart is killing me
I enjoy it as I fall
The pain of cold reality
Tell me that you actually care
Tell me you gave a damn
You said that you were always there
And you accept me for who I am
No guarantee I’ll actually heed
As I plead insane in my head
The roots of this maddening seed
Will leave me lying dead

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The Hell of Mine

2007-10-15T18:04:00.000+05:30

This hell of mine
Daggers of emptiness
Contained in thoughts of hate
When all are screaming
Running from fate
Who can hold my hand?
Will I be left too Wonder?
Face this pain alone
But noYou are there to keep me sane
Coz you're the
One for me
And yet
I hate you
Hate you for this pity
I can't continue
But can't go back
I'm stuck in the middle with you
In the middle of this hell
Where all is dark
No shades of light
No colors to remind
Us of life
The fires are rising
And my lips are leaving
A sweet trickle of blood
Down my neck
I laugh in my pain
Hold the skull in my palm
To make this pain seem
Fine
Yet deep inside my soul is crying
While you just snicker and yell
Choke on those words
Just lay down and die
While I scrape away at my
Heart
You made me this way
You made me feel pain
In this hell of mine.

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The Plans for Betrayal

2007-10-05T18:03:00.000+05:30

A stab to the back
You fall to your knees
The parilous fight you faceA cut to the wrist
A drop to the floor
This is but the beginning
You dispicable whore
The pills eat you from the inside
You tremble in pain
For the rest of your life
You'll do nothing but cry
From the angst of this session
The faces they laugh
The people they point
What will you do?
This humiliation
You're stripped naked
Tortured, burned, sliced
The cuts to your fingers
The ones to your toes
You struggle and cry
But oh who knows
I'll probably never let you go
The betrayl is strong
My anger is fierce
As you lay your broken body
At the foot of your soiled bed
Chains around you
Dirty floor
This is your coffin
Where you'll spend forever more
Tomorrow's another long day
And I just can't wait to play
Get some sleep
And try not to die

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Broken and Outspoken

2007-09-25T18:02:00.000+05:30

Every heart is different,
So is every key,
In order to find peace in life,
I must find the other meant for me.

I feel so locked up inside,
As if I cannot break free,
As I fall deeper into hate,
Wishing for someone to find my key.

Hearts weren’t meant to break,
People weren’t meant to be broken,
But in the eyes of many,
I suppose I am out spoken.

Don’t pretend you know me when you don’t,
Don’t pretend and act like you care,
Because in the end,
just like the others,I know you won’t be there.

Don’t break me if you don’t have to,
Don’t pretend that you didn’t know,
Because by the end of today,
I’ll most likely just be some side show.

Hearts weren’t meant to break,
People weren’t meant to be broken,
But in the eyes of many,
I suppose I am out spoken.

I have to give up,
I have to give in,
For under pressure I am nothing,
In the end we all give in.

Just let me sleep,
Until someone can be there for me,
I’ve already caved in,
When will you see?

Hearts weren’t meant to break,
People weren’t meant to be broken,
But in the eyes of many,
I suppose I am out spoken.

Just let me sleep,
Let me disappear,
Until someone,
Is truly sincere.

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I'm so tired

2007-09-20T22:00:00.000+05:30

I'm.
So angry.That I need to vent.

I'm.
So hateful. Your gonna regret.

I'm.
so tired of you, not accepting me.

I'm.
Just trying to live, being me.

I'm.So sick of the faces. that glare at me.

I'm.So happy that your gone.I'm.So moving on.

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Forever

2007-08-23T18:15:00.001+05:30

Dark sky,
Hot night,
Stars lit up,
Soft grass,
Still wet,
Your eyes,
My smile,
Wrists locked,
Lips closed,
Let's stay like this forever,
Gazing in each other's eyes.

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The Night You Died

2007-08-15T18:14:00.000+05:30

We Hold Eachother
For The Longest Time
And Let The Moonlight
Shine Down On Us

And Blood Runs Down
From Your Mouth
And You Stare Coldlessly
Into The Night Sky

The Bitter Cold Wind
Thrashes Against Us
And The Tears Come
And The Blood Runs

I Hold You.
I Hug You.
I Miss You.

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Ashes

2007-07-19T18:10:00.000+05:30

I have burned so many of your belongings . . .
Each one, in hopes to erase the days attached . . .
But the ash that now covers my skin . . .
Lay heavy and keep them from floating away . . .

I now choke on these memories . . .
Gasping to be free of them . . .
Just deepens their hold . . .

My lungs full of this false snow. . .
Impure and muddy with my tears. . .
Your cherished memories are my suicide. . .

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