Michy Ramblez

First Camping Trip!

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Mon, 12 Aug 2013 18:27:00 +0000

Yes! You did read correctly! My first camping trip ever!

Who did I share my first experience with? My best friend Melissa! It was her first time camping too which made it very interesting. Newbies lol

We ended up going somewhere fairly close by for a first time experience, just in case something would go terribly wrong. You never know what can happen to two females who have never went camping before.

Anyway's, to my surprise, we survived! I'm kidding! Besides, we aren't completely incompetent!

Besides, 2 days and 2 nights is nothing. Beginners!

Here are some pictures to show for a good time at Bronte Creek Provincial Park =)

Toast over the fire!

Melly Pooh :)

Mel and I

Ember

Wake up!

View in the morning from tent window

Our tent "lamp"

Rise and shine

Pose :)

Our camp-site

Sun at the pool

Photo by the pool @ Bronte Provincial Day Park

Our home-made hamburgers that we did on the fire =D

Dinner is served!

Mmmm! Burgers

Our home for 2 days :)

Smores!

Camp-fire

Are you cold?

Fire and ember <3

Inside tent at night.

The Sound Of Silence

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Thu, 01 Aug 2013 01:59:00 +0000

Have you ever felt that your life was just a joke?
That no one took you seriously, or took you for granted?
... I feel like that everyday that I wake up... I can't help but feel that that way about my life, I've been given no reason to think differently...

One could say the world I would actually use describe the way I feel about my life is hatred.

Hello darkness, my old friend

I've come to talk with you again

Because a vision softly creeping

Left its seeds while I was sleeping

And the vision that was planted in my brain

Still remains

Within the sound of silence

In restless dreams I walked alone

Narrow streets of cobblestone

'Neath the halo of a street lamp

I turned my collar to the cold and damp

When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light

That split the night

And touched the sound of silence

And in the naked light I saw

Ten thousand people, maybe more

People talking without speaking

People hearing without listening

People writing songs that voices never share

And no one dared

Disturb the sound of silence

"Fools", said I, "You do not know

Silence like a cancer grows

Hear my words that I might teach you

Take my arms that I might reach you"

But my words, like silent raindrops fell

And echoed

In the wells of silence

And the people bowed and prayed

To the neon god they made

And the sign flashed out its warning

In the words that it was forming

And the sign said, "The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls

And tenement halls"

And whispered in the sounds of silence

My heart is numb... I have never been so hurt in my life by someone before.. I had grown skin so thick that a knife would struggle to cut through. What happened? What changed? Where did that strong woman I once knew go? I wish she would show herself. I really need her now more then ever to get through this.

How could you have been so stupid to give your heart to someone again after you promised yourself not to. Not after the first time. You were stronger and smarter then that. What went wrong? Now look what happened, you went and got cut.

Where are all the bandages? There isn't any.

You can suffer now, you made your bed,now lay in it.

Let your guard down did you? Ah well, shit happens right?

Your a fool. You really are.

C'est la vie

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Tue, 30 Jul 2013 14:24:00 +0000

Okay so basically in the span of 2 weeks I've come to the realization people are disgusting, and that's being nice. Everyone is so money oriented that it has blinded them of how to be a compassionate human being, if there even is such a thing. With the exception of maybe a handful of people that I'm greatful enough to know or have in my life.

I remember mentioning last post about my foot being broken and all. Now currently I am working two jobs, a weekday and weekend job. I have been pushing myself through the weekday job but have decided to not work the weekend one. Mainly because it is a whole lot harder for me to move around and carry out tasks. The weekday job however I have been managing pretty well given the circumstances. I work with complete cunts. I'm sorry, that's rude of me and completely uncalled for ... NOT!

You come to realize that if you aren't bringing in money for someone you might as well be considered dead. People don't phone you to see how your doing or how your managing. They call to ask when your coming back to work cause there is clients who want to book, or calling to ask things of you like agency workers to cover you. Like seriously? F off!

Don't even get me started on the clinic I work for on the weekday! Pushing 7 clients on me in a row without a break! My foot is broken you moron! Here, let me break your foot and give you 7 clients to treat, let's see how you handle it... I'm technically not even supposed to be working. Not for 6 weeks. I went back to work the second week. Maybe I'm the retard but still. Not to mention she makes me crutch all the way to the front to grab the file and the client... Like I can do that at lightning speed anymore. What a *****!

Did I mention these are all WOMEN?! Spineless, ruthless B*****! Argh!!

Anyways c'est la vie right? What can you do when the world you live in is based on how much money you can milk.

Lets change the topic to something positive shall we? I'm going camping for the first time in my life! Woohoo! The date is set already, August 9th-11th. I know, only 2 nights, but it's a first. Baby steps right? My main concern is being eaten alive by Mosquitos, contracting west Nile or Lyme disease, or perhaps being mauled to death by a bear.... Good times... All normal fears right? Insect repellant apparent doesn't work as it should, and is there such thing as bear repellant? If so, I'm all over that like flies on shit. Sorry for the crudeness, but I can't find at the moment another way to compare my want for such a chemical.

Sharks have a repellant don't they?

Anyways. I'm still in a cast and crutches so this should be pretty interesting. Hiking with crutches... Can be done right? Swimming? God I hope this thing comes off on Tuesday next week. My X-rays are set for August the 6th so, fingers crossed!

I'm excited though none the less. Putting all freak scenarios aside, I'm sure Melissa and myself will be just fine and will have a great time! I'm pretty sure I'll have some sort of crazy story to tell when I get back.

Why do I have a bad feeling I will end up face planting a poison Ivy bush?

Stay Tuned!

True Love

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Tue, 16 Jul 2013 23:31:00 +0000

So, when I was in high school, I was browsing the internet one day and came ended this random site. To be honest I must have been goofing around on Google typing in things like; love, true love, real love, you know how teenagers are. I can't remember if I was in a relationship or not at the time, possibly a heartbreak. Who knows.

Anyway's, I came stumbled upon this webpage "The Story Of What I Did For Love"...

Now I can't say for sure if it is a true story or not. All I now is that I had saved and printed out this story in a binder back when I first read it. I think I even cried reading it. Not to mention it comes with some beautiful soothing melody that uses Quicktime auto play. Nothing special, continuous loop. You barely even notice it once you start reading. At least I didn't.

If you happen to stumble on my blog, I highly recommend you sit down and read that story. Real or not, it makes for a good short read and really gets to you. It's sweet and sad, perfect for when you are depressed and want to make it worse.. I'm kidding!

Enjoy!! XoX ❤

It's Been Awhile

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Mon, 15 Jul 2013 06:12:00 +0000

It really has been awhile since I lasted posted. So much has happened in the last while that I don't even know where to start!

The last time I had blogged about was going through some rough times with Matt and my health. Sadly, nothing has changed at all. Come to think of it, it's alot worse.

Where do I start with this grand update?

Okay, let's start with my health. Well on a positive note my neck is alot better. I only visit the chiropractor once a week now, which is a huge leap from three times. On a sad, depressing, painful to mention note; I have recently broken my foot. How recent? Tuesday July 9th. Yep. Just my luck! In the dead of summer, I break my foot. Well, spiral fracture on the 5th metatarsal to be exact. Who cares what it is! It sucks! It's a broken bone that is now captivated in a death contraption called an air cast. Now alot of people would argue the thought of an air cast compared to a regular hard cast. I know, I know, I'm considered lucky in that sense. I can shower and take it off for my foot to breath right? I don't have to deal with having that nasty condition called 'smelly cast-foot syndrome.' Besides, if that were the case, I would most likely settle with amputation. GROSS!

Anyway's, it's been five days already and I'm going nuts! It swells like a balloon and it barely even fits in the cast any more. I think it's a sign to stop taking it off. To make the experience even more enjoyable, I wasn't prescribed any pain medication... Yay *faded*

Did I forget to mention that this is my first broken anything? First real injury! Well if the whole Cuba head trauma thing doesn't count. *Sigh*

Six weeks in the air cast I was told. Two weeks until the next X-ray to see how the bone is healing. *fingers crossed*

It sucks hopping around on one foot, crutching around the house like a wounded soldier. It freaking sucks!! Not to mention I am a freaking cluts! Cluts-zilla should be my name! I smash into almost everything. I must of smashed my foot in total 50 times today. Not to mention falling going upstairs.... Yah...*long pause* I swear I'm going to end up in a full body cast one day if I don't take better care of myself.

On the plus side, Matt's family has been super supportive and super kind! Feeding me and making me smoothies, forcing me to sit down and ice my foot. Buying me awesome breakfasts and desserts to make me happy. They are so cute! Sad to say that they are there for me more then Matt is. *sigh* I will explain that after, it's a whole other story. My mom also has been pretty helpful and caring. It's nice to see that for a change since she never really took care of me.

Moving on, it's trash talk Matt time. Well it's not trash talking, more like talking about him behind his back online. That sounds bad, scratch that. Anyways, where to begin with this boy... He has been next to impossible lately and no, I'm not just over reacting or being dramatic.

Okay.. So, as I mentioned before, rough patch. We sort of crawled out of the ditch for awhile, and by awhile I mean a few days, maybe a week or two. We now upgraded to sleeping in his bed at home instead of a bed we would make in his basement. We also had a weekend family getaway to Sherkston Shores Resort for the Canada Day weekend. Good times while they lasted. Sadly, he has fallen into this lying binge lately. I'm really starting to see a pattern here with him.

It's like, if and when I'm injured, he backs away from me and distances himself. It's not me over thinking things. He hasn't kissed me in 5 days, hugged me or been affectionate with me in anyway, at all. Nada. I laid right beside him for 2 days straight with my broken foot in agony trying to get comfortable and sleep, and nothing. Not even goodnight. What's wrong with him!? I swear he doesn't love me any more! That's not even my problem with him! It gets way worse!

He had been kicked off his soccer club 'Sporting' a little while back, and he went through his own small rough patch. But with the help of his friend Phil, Mauro, and myself, we had pulled together a new plan/project for him with a different soccer club in Toronto. I was there for him the most. I saw it in his face and the way he changed how much it affected him. It was hard for him, he wouldn't admit it. I knew better though. I was there for him as best as any girlfriend could be for someone they love, as long as the other person allows them to be there. He refused to talk to me and express how he truly felt.

A few days after, I had notice him imploding on himself, I addressed his emotional breakdown by asking him to talk to me. He freaked out at me and we ended up getting into a huge fight. He then ended up confessing that he had been avoiding me, and choosing to not tell me or talk about his feelings towards the whole situation. Why? Because he "assumed" I would be disappointed with him and his decision to not get back into it right away.... Ummm. I have been by your side through this whole mess! Staying up till 2-3 am in the morning in Tim Hortons with you and your friends just to brain storm, even when I had work in the morning. Then scouting games for 2 hours at a time right after I would finish my real job. Rushing around and stressing; trying to involve myself in things I have no understanding of, just for you. Having headaches and migraines 3-4 days in a row from lack of sleep! Ugh! Why? Because I love you and believe in you. So you can turn around and shit on me... *Sigh*

Sometimes I question myself, why do I bother?

Today we had fought for 3 hours...it just keeps getting worse. I honestly feel like he takes me for granted and doesn't appreciate me. Even with me being hurt and weak, I find him getting frustrated with me and purposely trying to inflict pain on me by hurting me. Like the other day, he took my braided hair and whipped me in the face with it. It hit me in the eye made it water and burn like a bitch. He laughed sinisterly. Then I started crying because I felt like he was bullying me. I happen to be very emotional right now with this whole broken foot thing and not being able to be mobile. I hate not being able to be self sufficient. Anyway's, I told him how he made me felt in that moment, his response was to just laugh... Great...

Anyway's, I'm exhausted. Time to hit the hay.

Here are some recent pictures of what's been going on. Enjoy!

Random day to the movies

Matt's moms birthday dinner at The Black Skirt

Random selfie

Matt's ex-soccer clubs annual Dinner

Late night drives down town Toronto

Late night drives to West Bay park in T.O

Bubble tea runs at 2 am at teashop 168

Trips to High park for Matt's refereeing

Matt's mom braided my hair at the trailer in Sherkston Shores Canada Day weekend!

Happy Canada Day!- Long weakened!

My broken 5th metatarsal X-ray :(

Air cast bound for 6 weeks *sad face*

Ps. I'm a blonde now ;).. Well sort of.

Down in the dumps.

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Wed, 15 May 2013 18:34:00 +0000

It's official. My relationship is falling apart in front of me and I can't find a way to selvage it.

For the first time in a long time, I can't think of anything I wanted more but didn't fight to get it. Does that make sense? Probably not... But then again nothing to me makes sense anymore.

Where did we go wrong?

Fighting and arguing is the only thing we seem to have left in this crazy relationship. What's to come of us?

I want us to work, I really and truly do. I love Matt with all my heart and can't think of anyone I would want to spend my time with or my life with for that matter. It's been years since I was able to let go and just fall madly in love. I usually put walls up to avoid getting hurt.

To be completely honest, I truly believe he does not love me or care about be the way he use to any more. Sounds like I'm over reacting right? But I'm not, I can assure you.

He has completely thrown his hands up to this whole relationship and it pushing away as much as he can.

I want to give up but I don't know how! I feel so emotionally invested in this relationship that it is not in me to throw this under the bus and say to hell with it.

For the love of GOD I was planing on going to England with him! Forget going! Moving! How do you loose feelings for someone that fast?

I'm so crushed. I don't know what to do...

Sunday Confirmation

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Tue, 23 Apr 2013 19:26:00 +0000

Sunday 21st was Matthew's cousin Marcus's grade 8 confirmation. I of course was invited which is great, but family gatherings that are not my family scare the crap out of me.

I think it could be the fact I haven't really met 'all' of his family yet, or at least all in one sitting. Well it wasn't that large of a gathering at the banquet hall which was a good thing. But none of this is important or relevant to why I am writing this blog.

I want to discuss the relationship of Matt's mom and I. Lets start with outfit selecting shall we. First of all, I was the first person she wanted to give her an opinion on what she should wear. Skirt or pants? This top or that one? These shoes or those?
Let me start off by saying, I'm an acceptance whore. I have this "need" to be accepted by the significant others parents. Especially the mother, always the mother.

I've been dating Matt for a year, just 2 months over now and it feels like I've been fighting for his mothers attention. Well, not really, she would bake with me and stuff but still. I wanted more! I also felt like I was trying to take the place of Matthew's Ex girlfriend Maria, which was hard for me to stomach.

Anyways, back to the story.

So, the day of, I needed pantyhose, I was going to go with Matt to Walmart to quickly grab a pair but his mother offered to have me try on a pair of hers that weren't opened. Okay, nothing special about that right? Right.

After I was dressed, I was trying out accessories to wear with the dress, which of course I asked her opinion. She took a look at the bracelet I had on, then turned to her jewellery box and went through her stuff and picked one of hers for me to wear. I thought that was really nice of her. I then sat down and watched her put on her make-up.

Once we were all done we headed to the church then straight to the hall. I ended up sitting beside his mom in the hall, which was fine. Night went well, then espresso and brandy and baileys shots were passed around. I declined of course 'vow from Cuba'.

Then his mother says;

" Does this mean I don't have a drinking partner if I want to go out?"

WoW! I swear I must of blushed!

Matt then stepped in before I could say anything;

" Don't worry, she'll grow out of it soon enough."

Umm, no I won't... I almost died!! Hello!?!

Then it was time for pictures. They came to the table that we were sitting at and wanted a family group shot. I moved out of the way. Lina; Matt's cousin, then told me to get into the picture, I'm considered part of the family too.

Matt's mom then followed that with "practically" which threw me off...maybe more so in a bad way...

Later that night when we got home, Matt and his dad went downstairs to the basement to watch the highlights from the Benfica game, while his mom, miki and I stayed upstairs. Me and his mom ended up having a long winded conversation for over half an hour. The conversation consisted of married life, changes, dealing with the family drama they are experiencing. I like it when she opens up to me and talks to me about personal things. Especially when we can relate.

I hope soon we can actually have bonding time. Like if she were to invite me out somewhere alone. Like she did with the ex Maria...all..the...time.

God.

Update on health- still shit. That is all.

Lack of Affection

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Tue, 16 Apr 2013 16:28:00 +0000

So I noticed it has been awhile since I last posted.

Where has the time gone? Anyway

So an update on my health status, it's still shit. In alot of pain at the moment and still no feeling in my right thumb and index finger *sad face*

Chiro x2 a week and I've been slacking with the massages. Haven't had one in over a week and I think it is the reason why I'm not improving. Crap.

Tax season? Finally just filed mine yesterday. Pushing the deadline much?

Affection? Hmm, the reason for the title should be explained.

Where do I start? Hmm let's see, NO affection for moi !

None.

At all.

Kisses? Nah! I don't get any. Bedroom passion? Don't get any of that either. Spooning is the only affection I get and sadly, even that's poor and lacking. Hugs? Sure, if your into the whole hugging your buddy *pat pat* on the back thing.

What happen? A fight that took place like 2 weeks ago... Sure, talk about holding a grudge. Although it's not me!

Yes dear Matthew was apparently hurt and now he is "safe guarding" himself... Okay?

No! It's annoying! Like get over it already! It was just a fight! No one cheating on anyone, no one physically hurt anyone. Just a regular altercation! It happens in relationships. But now you want to shut down everything else in the relationship cause you want to what? Prove a point?

I'm starting to think my injury has alot to do with this. I've noticed a change in his behavior big time. He started off caring and concerned, helpful, always wanting to treat me or take care of me. It lasted for the first week or so. But instead of it getting better or it not being a big issue, it got worse and started affecting me emotionally. I feel like he's frustrated with me because I'm still broken and need help. It's like I'm not allowed to be injured for more then a week and supposed to spring right back. No, it doesn't work like that. I use to be the one taking care of him and now the roles reversed. He's not taking well to it.

*sigh* On another note, I'm job hunting again, looking for a part time office job so I can take it easy on my body and focus on fixing my posture and spinal deformities.

Well back to work, lets hope things change and start looking up. I need a pick me up and soon. I want to go to England. Seriously, start fresh.

*Fingers Crossed*

Crazy Week

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Thu, 04 Apr 2013 04:30:00 +0000

So I haven't posted since last week.

Probably because I've been broken?

I'm a walking disaster right now. Looking back to my last post, I'm doing a whole lot worse. My hand is numb! Well my thumb and index finger. My neck and shoulder is still in pain but doing alot better. Did I mention I have electric sharp shooting pain into my arm?

Ugh! It's affecting my work. OH! I forgot to mention! I'm a freak! Yes a freak! I had X-rays done on my full spine and I look like a lopsided animal! It's so depressing to know I look like that underneath all that skin and fat. Yuck!

I had cupping done. It's nasty looking. (Picture below says enough)

My cervical spine has no curve at all! And my lumbar spine is curved and rotated. I have rotatory scoliosis. YaY? :/ Great!

So with the help of Massage Therapists, Chriopractor's, and a Naturopathic doctor, they are all currently trying to correct me and help me live a pain free life. Is this possible?

*STOP FAVORING YOUR RIGHT SIDE*

I've been wearing a neck brace at night, that's pretty awesome. Not.

I have a question to ask! Why wasn't warm ice created? What about people with cold sensitivities. You know, the kind where you can't creat your own body heat and your core temperature drops below -80. Fun times let me tell you.

Hmm, lets see; I've been massaging my clients a with my right hand in my pocket to avoid using it. Doesn't really matter since I can't feel it anyways!! Professional right? Not. Well, whatever it takes to stop abusing myself right?

All I know is I'm one step away from looking like Kwazi Moto. No joke. True story.

Sleepy time.

PS. Current picture.

Depressed

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Tue, 26 Mar 2013 19:17:00 +0000

Have you ever been in so much pain that you can't even function to put on your own clothes?

Or to the point that you break down crying cause it's affecting your ability to work?

Well I am currently suffering with a problem in my neck, right shoulder and arm. It all started Wednesday last week on the 20th. I woke up totally fine, no pain, went to grab something from the closet overhead and BAM! Neck spams from HELL!

Whatever, I've dealt with this before, some stretching, heat, massage from the boyfriend, and some Advil. Usually my pains go away in 2-3 days. Not this time.

On Thursday 21st I had 15 clients at work. I think I forgot to mention what I do for a living. I massage people. Professionally of course. I'm fully licensed and practicing for 3 years now. Anyways!

10 clients in and I'm DYING! So I seek out a fellow MT to help me. I find a rehab clinic upstairs in the same building that is willing to take me in for a 30 min treatment. She helps, I get some relief, but it doesn't last long seeing as I still had 5 treatments to do.

After work, I went home, took a hot shower, stretched, and popped and Advil then went to bed.

When I woke up in the morning I was a disaster! I was having sharp shooting pain in my eye, visual disturbances, and tingling in my arm. Okay? I till had to face work for the rest of the weekend. Great!

Friday, Saturday, and Sunday go by and it's just getting worse. The pain is now catching my arm!

Monday (yesterday) rolls around and still working! I work Mondays and Wednesdays at a Chiropractic clinic uptown. After 2 treatments I couldn't take it anymore. I was in tears! I approached the Chriopractor and asked him for help. Let me start off by saying Chiropractors scare me. I've never been adjusted before and never wanted to be. But I was desperate!

So he did what any Chiro does, he cracked my neck. Apparently, according to him I have a pinched nerve and I had a rib that was popped out :/ ... Umm okay?
He also made me wear a cervical spine decompressor which didn't really help. I actually found that it caused me more pain.

Today it is Tuesday and YES I am working! I'm in so much pain that I'm considering taking work off for the rest of the week. My arms are gone, no strength at all, shoulder and neck are shot to shit. (Excuse me French) but I can't help but be irritable and cranky!

I booked another massage at 4 pm between clients. I know there no point but I'll take anything at this point.

Heal me please! Somebody! *tear*

Coming home

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Mon, 18 Mar 2013 01:37:00 +0000

So Matt is coming back home tomorrow from Portugal. I don't know how I feel about that to be completely honest... I thought I would be excited, ecstatic to be honest since I missed him so much. But I'm not :/ I'm indifferent, and I can't seem to understand why. Maybe it was because he upset me and we got into an argument on Friday night. But why should something like that push me so over the edge to a point where I don't care to miss you?

We haven't really talked all that much since he had left. We Skype here and there whenever he gets the chance.

" I miss you, I feel like apart of me is missing, I hate not seeing you. I want to dedicate more time to you."

These words and a whole lot more was preached to me over the time he was there. But yet, Friday, 2 and a half days left till he returns, I write something sentimental on his Facebook wall.
I believe I wrote ...

" Two and a half days left... That's two days too many :("

His response to that was..

"It's already been 6 days"

What?... Are you joking?.... It's hard enough for me to display public affection, especially on your Facebook wall, and that's what you respond with?!?

I made a comment to him later on that his response was "lame," to which he responded with.." Wow, really?"

We talked a little more and then he took off for a short period of time. I finished work and was getting ready to leave when I got a Skype message saying..

"They want me to go to a bar, should I go? :/"

Not even two seconds after that he posts a comment on MY Facebook wall saying..

" "I wish you were here (L)" "..

I quoted that in a quote because be quoted that himself!! :/

Trying to soften the blow much? Only after I make a stink about the comment you last made and now you wanna go to a bar. How convenient.

He ended up going of course and strolling in at 4 am in the morning. I wanted to snap! This caused a fight the next day and we haven't been the same since...

I'm going with his parents to the airport tomorrow to pick him up... Hopefully things change then and the thirst for him comes back.

We will see... His flight is at 5:30 am their time, 1:30 an hour our time. He is expected at 3-3:30 pm tomorrow.

Fingers crossed.

He Left Me

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Mon, 11 Mar 2013 17:32:00 +0000

Yes, that's right. He left me. He went to Portugal for a week without me....*SAD FACE*

As I have mentioned, he works in a Soccer Club that happens to travel annually to Portugal to practice and learn in their actual academy. What sucks thought is I have no Matt for a whole week. This blows. It happened last year too but it didn't suck AS much. Mainly because I didn't love him yet.

Anyway's, he had to be at the airport for 5:00 pm since his flight was for 8. His parents and Miki took him and told me to come along. Thank GOD I only had one client at work yesterday. So we all went over to the airport. Matt sat in the middle seat of the back and Miki and I sat on either side. Both of us were crying and the parents were laughing at both of us. "

"It's only a week guys, he will be back"

So we dropped him off, we left, Miki wanted me to stay with him for a bit still and play video games with him, which I agreed to. Before I left Matt's dad Bino, asked for my number to put in his phone so that they could invite me over for coffee or dinner. The Mindy and I hugged and she said that since she is always home and barely answers her cell phone to just call the house. We said our goodbyes and Matt phoned me as I was getting into my car.

We spoke a few more times until his plane took off. He even sent my a text message while he was in the air.

6 hours and 46 minutes was the length of his flight. I kept track and set alarms to wake me up around his arrival time. It was 3:08 am here in Ontario when he landed and 8:11 am there in Portugal. HE had sent me a text message from his phone around 4:10 am here to let me know he had landed and that he will contact me when he has the chance. I have already received 1 text message since and then he had messaged me on skpye around 12 pm here.

I miss him so much... I cant wait till he comes home on the 18th. I have never wished for it to be a Monday so much in my entire life.

I love you Matthew.
❤

Friday Date night

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Sun, 03 Mar 2013 01:22:00 +0000

Yesterday was a great day! No work? Sounds great! But seriously, in all honestly, having no work yesterday was the best thing. I ended up having a wonder afternoon/evening with my Matthew. *sigh*

I have slept over almost every night this whole week at his house, so I ended up driving him to school yesterday morning for 8:30. It was cool mainly since I made him stay up late to watch "Baggage" with me. Have you seen it? It's hosted by Jerry Springer and basically it's about the main player either a female or male trying to find a date out of three bachelors or three bachelorettes who all have, well, baggage! To sum it all up,the three contestants each have 3 suitcases, a small, medium, and a large. In each suitcase is a piece of baggage that they have to reveal to the main person in which she or he must send 2 of them packing.

To be completely honest I hate reality TV and games shows for the most part but for some reason, I am hooked! They have the most bizarre "baggage" I have ever seen!

UH? ....What?

At the end of the game, if the main player has finally ruled out which contestants baggage they can handle, he or she then has to reveal their biggest piece of baggage and hope that theirs is accepted too. Yes, the main player of the game can be rejected for their baggage. I find it so funny! The outcome sometimes is hilarious! You must watch if you have the GSN (Game Show Network).

Anyways! Back to yesterday *happy face*

So after I dropped him off at school, I went home to take care of my own little things. We decided that we were going to meet up in the afternoon since he finishes school at 1:30 on Fridays. I had brought up the idea of venturing downtown just for the heck of it! So that's what we did! I wanted to take the bus so we both picked a subway station close to the both of us to meet at. He decided to take me to Kensington Market which is a National Historic site of Canada that contains a mixture of vintage clothing stores, Latin American grocers and butchers, loads of fresh quality produce, café's and watering holes. Then he decided to take me to the Distillery District which is another historic entertainment site located on the east end of Toronto and it withholds numerous café's, restaurants, shops, art gallery's and exhibits.

Kensington Market

Distillery District

After venturing around in our lovely freezing Canadian weather! We decided that we were starving and wanted to eat. It was a toss-up between Porketta Sandwiches or Mexican. We both agreed on Mexican food. Besides, I've been craving for it a long time now.

Matt said he knew a good place that he's been to three times on Yonge called "La Mexicana." Which I must say was totally worth it. First of all, I know the history of this place to him, so I was kind of sceptical and awkward at first. Him and his ex had their "one year" there and his birthday which both happen to fall on the same day.. Great.. Associate your birthday with your ex. Ugh.

Any-Who! It was an overall memorable evening. We both ordered the same dishes since it caught both of our attentions.I need to mention how they place nachos on the table! So much better then bread! YUM!

Cute Place

Nachos! Yum!!

The ambiance was very nice, and not to mention they had a live Mariachi band who was circling the restaurant! So much fun!

They ended up approaching us and asking us if we had a request. Matt told them to surprise us to which they then turned to me and asked me if I speak Spanish. Clearly not ... So I said "No." They then started singing a song in English. Stand by Me by Ben. E. King was the song that they chose. They also made us hold both hands through the hold entire song. I was so embarrassed! It wasn't a special occasion or anything, but the whole room was staring at us being sarenated. All I could do was laugh. Matt just smiled at me and sang along to the song while looking at me. I was bright red! RED!

These were the dishes we got. The same I know. Great minds think alike :)

After dinner, we head back to his house to watch a movie. He has a slew of movies that I haven't watched yet. He decided we should watch Inglorious Bastards by Quentin Tarantino. Honestly a great movie!

We then curled up together and went to sleep. Perfect ending to a perfect day. *sigh* I love him.

So darling, darling, stand by me. Oh stand, stand by me, stand by me.

Muah! XoX

I Just Wanna Run Away With You

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Fri, 01 Mar 2013 16:02:00 +0000

RUN AWAY

Lyrics ❤

Run away with me just the two of us
and no one else
to a place where we can fall in love
the world is ours
I don't wanna stay here so take me away
everybody stay clear I'm leaving today
paradise is so near
when love leads the way
there's nothing that can stop us are u ready to escape?

I wanna hop on a red-eye flight with you tonight
I don't care where it's going I just wanna run away with you
I just wanna run away with you

I wanna hop on a red-eye flight with you tonight
I don't care where it's going I just wanna run away with you
I just wanna run away with you

I wanna run away, run away, runaway
I wanna run away, run away, runaway
I wanna run away, run away, runaway
I wanna run away, run away, runaway

Take a moment and breath
feel the rush of love get into you
you amaze, amaze me now we are up so high
look at the view

I don't wanna stay here so take me away
everybody stay clear I'm leaving today
paradise is so near
when love leads the way
there's nothing that can stop us are u ready to escape?

I wanna hop on a red-eye flight with you tonight
I don't care where it's going I just wanna run away with you
I just wanna run away with you

I wanna hop on a red-eye flight with you tonight
I don't care where it's going I just wanna run away with you
I just wanna run away with you

I wanna run away, run away, runaway
I wanna run away, run away, runaway
I wanna run away, run away, runaway
I wanna run away, run away, runaway

Our One Year

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Fri, 01 Mar 2013 01:51:00 +0000

Alright! One year! Here we go!

We decided to Niagara Falls for our one year weekend. We went up Saturday afternoon on the 23rd and left the next day around 3 pm.

He booked our night stay at the Marriott hotel overlooking the falls. Simply gorgeous! We were on the 13th floor in room 1307.

Our room had a jacuzzi and fireplace! Not to mention a gorgeous view of the Falls!

JACUZZI!

YES

FIREPLACE! DOUBLE YES!

So pretty <3

Our night was perfect. Dinner in the restaurant inside of the hotel with reservations beside the window. Who doesn't want to eat dinner and look at the falls?!?

The night from then on was perfect, jacuzzi, lit fireplace and the gorgeous view of the falls. The city night lights especially from the states were breathtaking! We exchanged our gifts at 12. We tried to wait for 2 am but we were just so tired we couldn't do it. *Sad face*

I gave him a pretty little letter I wrote for him and a blown up picture from our first slow dance. He made me a scrapbook of everything we did, places we went, things we had in common, and things we are passionate about. I loved it. Made me laugh and tear up. He said it was the first time he had ever done anything like that *I personally don't believe that, but oh well*

We fell asleep wrapped in each others arms. I faced the widow and gazed at the beautiful view while listening to the fireplace.

Breakfast was In the same restaurant as dinner. It was Buffett style though which wasn't too bad, food was good!

Afterwards we got some Starbucks, Chai tea latte and Matt had the mocha frappuccino, I know right? Middle of winter and he's drinking frozen beverages! He's nuts! Still love him!

We took a walk down to the falls and then through the strip. We decided it was getting cold and we should head back to Toronto. It didn't take us a long time to get back to the city but from breakfast at 9 am, we were starved.

We went to a small hole in the wall Portuguese restaurant that had some seriously amazing food for not too much.
I was full!! We then went back to his house and decided to watch a movie that he was supposed to watch and give back to his friend since September!

"zombie land"

All in all it was an amazing weekend. I loved it! I love him! I can't wait to see what this year has in store for us...

On a sad note.. Matt is going to Portugal for a week for with his Sporting Soccer club... How will I survive without him!! *double sad face!*

Gorgeous View

*Sigh*

Night View of the Falls from room

Yah! Jacuzzi Time!

This is the picture I blew up and framed for him.

Spa Day!

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Sat, 23 Feb 2013 03:43:00 +0000

Okay so, as I mentioned before for our one year anniversary, I was planning to treat Matt and myself to massages. Couples massage to be exact.

So the place I had decided on was Hand & Stone Massage and Facial Spa

I had booked the 80 min massage with the 10 minute foot exfoliation treatment. I love their lemon grass scented sugar scrub and lotion. LOVE

We had started off our afternoon with some Booster Juice that was right beside the spa, which was perfect since I love Booster Juice! It was Matt's first time trying it.

We decided that we would split one and it would hold us over for the 90 minutes until we could actually go and eat something. We chose the Superfood Shake - Brazilian Thunder which contained Acai, Strawberries, Raspberries, Bananas, and frozen yogurt. We also added a Booster shot called Warrior that contains; Echinacea, Goldenseal, Rosehip, and maltodextrin which is used for fighting cold symptoms.

After our 90 min massages we decided to go for lunch/dinner at Licks Home Burger restaurant. They have the BEST hamburgers by far!

They have the best sauce that they use called Guk! Basically it is like a garlicky mayonnaise, but it tastes AWESOME!

Pretty good day I must say. He drove me home so I could shower off all that gel they used before I get backney (Gross)..

Tomorrow we are off to Niagara Falls for the weekend. Excited! I just wish it would stop snowing *sad face*

Bed time! I'll keep you updated!

Muah XoX ❤

The Day I Met You.

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Thu, 21 Feb 2013 16:06:00 +0000

Our One year Anniversary is this weekend on the 24th. I thought I would post this now since I wont be around the whole weekend ... Enjoy!

I cannot believe we have been together for a year already. It so shocking! I remember the day I first met you....

It was back in August 2011, I had jut gotten back from Portugal 2 days prior. Our friend Daniel at the time had picked me up to hang out at Tim Horton's. He only told me in the car that there would be some of his friends there too. When I came in there was 3 of his friends there, including you. I sat across from you, I couldn't help but be drawn to you instantly. You were so attractive! You had the fullest lips, the longest lashes, face structure, and your chiseled jaw! Ugh! That nose! So cute!

I'm pretty sure you caught me examining you a few times, I couldn't help it. You were wearing a Portugal soccer jersey, I started conversation about me being in your country and how much I loved it there. You were interested in my job, we talked about it, you were impressed. We all then played cards, jackass I believe was the game. I couldn't remember the rules of the game, you explained and helped me through the whole game. You were charming, we hit it off as friends right away.

I remember being driven home that night by Daniel, him saying to me "well, my friends really liked you." I met you, Nelson, and Andre that day. I knew Nel liked me, he hugged me when I was leaving. I had sat beside him the whole time we were there. I had fun with all of you guys. I didn't think anything of it though since I was in a relationship at the time.

I would see you more frequently every time I would hang out with Daniel. Tim Horton's, sushi, movies, not to mention you would make trips to my house to talk to me when I was having my famous anxiety attacks at like 12-1 am in the morning.

Until the day before my birthday. December 14th, it was Nelson's birthday party and I was invited. You of course were there, so was Daniel and his cousin Chris who we would all drive up into Newmarket to see. We all drank, Dan was my ride there and back but he drank too. You offered to drive me home, I accepted. We sat in your car for 3 hours that night just talking. You were invited to my birthday party the next day, sadly I had to cancel it because I was sick as a dog.

Christmas was just around the corner, I decided to buy you small gift as a token of my appreciation, an iTunes gift card and a small bottle of champaign. You in return wanted to get me something but didn't know what. You phoned me asking me what I wanted, I would just respond with "nothing...make me something."

December 23rd, I had my G2 driving test. I passed of course. I think you were the second person I called to tell! My "bf" at the time was becoming less and less involved in my life. I was invited out by one of my male friends to go to a bar somewhere down town with a few of his friends, a little celebration for getting my G2 since I had no plans.

I got piss drunk. So drunk that I didn't even know where I was. At some point during the night some of his female friends joined in so I felt a little better. At one point my friend started hitting on me, it made me uncomfortable, I was scared. I wanted to leave, but he was my way back. I started texting people randomly saying only "Help!" in the message. My "bf" at the time messaged me back saying he's in bed, I texted Daniel, he asked if I was okay, I texted one of my other guy friends who didn't respond till morning, and I texted you. You called me instantly, no hesitations. You asked me where I was, that's all you said. I asked someone and you heard them tell me. You then responded with " I'll be there in 15 minutes."

I didn't tell you why I texted help, nor did you want me to explain. In 15 minutes you were there, like you said you would be. I was already outside waiting for you, my friend still there beside me trying to hit on me. You pulled up and I bolted to your car. I got in and you looked at me, then shook your head. I smiled and said thank you.

You drove me home and we sat in your car in front of my house. You then decided to give me your gift you had made me and a box of chocolate. At the time my favourite song was Marooned by Pink Floyd, so your gift was related to it. It had one of your Lego female characters on a sand bank that you made from you bearded lizards sand, water that you painted and a palm tree. " Marooned but never alone" was written on the front of it. I loved it. It was perfect. I was drunk and exhausted. I put my head down on your arm, then fell asleep. You let me sleep for a few hours and woke me up at 6:00 am so I could go inside.

That day, I couldn't stop thinking about it. It changed the way I felt about you. I started to realize I had feelings for you. A few days later you had admitted to me that you had feelings for me too. From here everything listed from A Year Ago had happened. This was a long process that lasted almost all of January.

After all that craziness and the emotional roller coaster ride, we finally made it official on February 24th 2012 at 2 am in the morning.

Matt, I love you so much and I couldn't be happier being with you.

Happy Anniversary my love.

02/24/2012-02/24/2013

Matt and I at my friends wedding... First dance together
Photo Credit: Dahlia H.

Photo Credit: Dahlia H.

After a huge sushi lunch, we pass out on his couch.
Photo Credit: Matthews Cousin Lina :)

Exhausted...Happy Family Day!

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Tue, 19 Feb 2013 04:13:00 +0000

I haven't written anything since Valentine's Day! Where has the time gone? Oh, that's right, I forgot, I don't have any.

By the way, Happy Family Day to everyone! I hope it was well spent and enjoyed!

I slept most of the day, catching up on some well needed R&R. Worked on Matt's anniversary gift a bit, almost done. Can't believe in less then a week it will be our one year... Stay tuned to see the story I have written and saved for that!

Momentarily we are fighting, as usual ... *sigh* I hate when this happens.

His Valentine's Day gift was a step in the right direction, although it was based more on our one year coming up. He had made a beautiful picture frame filled with photos of everything we had done together until now. Precious! <3 Not to mention what he had wrote in my card.... That was a step up too...

Can we stop fighting now? I love you and miss you and surely don't want to go to bed hurt and angry tonight. Mainly since I wont be seeing you till Friday....

*SIGH* Well, I'm off to bed, long day at work tomorrow... Can't even remember when I start so I'll have to wake up extra early to call and find out. This should be interesting.

Goodnight! XoX MUAH!

Happy Valentine's Day!!

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Thu, 14 Feb 2013 16:41:00 +0000

To everyone on this day of love :)

Excited And Prepared!

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Tue, 12 Feb 2013 01:37:00 +0000

Okay! So! Basically I decided to be creative for Valentine's day! I went ahead and made my own V-Day card for Matt. No sure what else I should do, I happen to work that day :-/

Anyway, so I have everything planned and booked for our one year anniversary. I went ahead and booked a couples massage for 90 minutes with a foot sugar scrub at Hand and Stone Massage Spa.

I am so excited! We both need it anyways so at least it's not a useless gift.

Ugh! So much to do so little time!

Stay posted! XoX

*Sigh* Love is in the air!! :-)

Fed Up!

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Sat, 09 Feb 2013 12:18:00 +0000

So, I mentioned that I work at this place currently that treats me like a pile of crap. 3 years I have worked for them and busted my ass, destroyed my body and health for this place, and what do I get in return? The golden shaft all the time.

Today I walked into work to see on my schedule a note written in the top right hand corner. Saying "Reminder take out our garbage at the end of the day" ... I do? All the time. Actually come to think of it, I empty my bin all the time before I leave. There's nothing in there! But surprisingly when I return to work the next day, there is ALWAYS a full trash can, the massage table has oil all over it, it's lifted to the ceiling, the room looks like a tornado hit it, there is a random chair in the middle of the room! But I'M being told to clean up the room? What the hell is wrong with this picture?

Apparently the 2 other massage therapist are accusing me of leaving the room a mess to get me in trouble. Did I forget to mention they are 2 male massage therapists that are ADULTS, are MARRIED and have KIDS?!? Umm do you not have anything better to do then be jealous of me and try to get me in trouble? Like seriously! You have kids for the love of god! What if this happened to your children when they grow up? When they get jobs and get bullied because of 2 stupid older men who are jealous? Karma is a bitch my dear foes. Surprise surprise but you both happen to have daughters. I only hope they get a taste of the medicine you made me suffer with for 3 years.

I'm sorry, you know what, I'm not a vindictive person but I only hope that they see what they do is not right. And no, it's not right of me to wish any evil of the poor souls of their daughters who do not deserve that. They cannot help that they are the product of stupid people that should not be reproducing.

Anyways, with that being said I am giving my 2 weeks notice and leaving this place, what a joke.

On a positive note, I received a phone call this morning from a spa downtown. They had gotten around to my resume and wanted to set up an interview. So on Monday the 11th I now have an interview. Moving on up.

My cold doesn't seem to be getting any better. I finally went to the doctor yesterday and got some crapy drugs. Amoxicillin.

Aren't cough attacks embarrassing? Don't you just hate it when your trying to communicate with someone and you start getting that tickle in the back of or throat. I bet the first thing that comes to mind is " Oh no! No!! Not now! Please!"
You try and hold it back, letting out the smallest soft coughs that you can in hopes that it's good enough to stop the irritation. Until you can't hold it anymore and break out into this loud, barking, cough monster! You cough and cough till your eyes water, or you gag! You try to apologize but it only comes out in coughs! No one can understand you. Disturbing and distracting everyone and everything around you. You can walk away and drink some water, or shove halls in your mouth as much as you want. But it never helps.

It is so embarrassing! This happens daily to me when I'm sick! Ugh!

Valentines day is only a week away! Next Thursday to be exact. Kind of excited, this will be me and Matt's first Valentines day together. I haven't started making his V-day gift yet. I should get on that.

Well till then, back to work. Please don't snow too much!

XoX

Matt made me this on his bed when we were arguing one night.
He then took a photo and sent it to me. I love him <3

Slightly In Shock

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Tue, 05 Feb 2013 02:48:00 +0000

Today was the day my mother after 23 years offered to help me financially. Yep... I think her watching me have a nervous breakdown today really got to her. I've been worse then this before, but I'm pretty bad right now. Not to mention sick as a dog. With all this stress I can't even get better.

I've been crunching numbers all day and sorting things out to the best of my ability to make things work. At this rate, I'm at the point where I'm going to have to work 7 days a week!

That will destroy me. I know it! Sometimes I can't even handle 5 days a week, let alone 7 with no break!

Matt keeps telling me if I decide to do this, it will only be for a short while. Mainly cause he knows I will become an angry, uncontrollable, rage monster. Yep, I do not deal well with stress at ALL!!

I really need to calm down and take a step back and just let things work for themselves. Anyways, back to my mom. She offered to pitch in 200 a month to my insurance. Which isn't going to help THAT much, but it's something.. Instead of having to pay over 800 a month, more like 600 and some.

It's a start I guess, just got to hope that things fall into place and things get on track.

2013... You aren't starting off very well for me. Let's hope that changes soon.

I still need to make that bucket list. Might help me stay on track better.

Till then, goodnight all xox

Just One Of Those Days

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Fri, 01 Feb 2013 15:29:00 +0000

February 1st ey? Already! This is freaking nuts! Where is the time going?

Who cares? That's besides the point. People are way to caught up in their own lives and drama to care where the time vanishes.

Where am I? Still caught up in this mess with my car insurance, my stupid so called "family", my frustrating boyfriend, and the fact that today I call in and find out I have no clients REALLY is starting to piss me off!

How in the world am I supposed to be able to make car insurance payments monthly if I don't even have clients?...*sigh*

To top it all off I now caught a cold.... =( ... A stupid, nasty, life destroying, COLD! I swear this morning my ear was leaking!! I'm leaking from every Orpheus!

Okay so, with the car insurance being up in almost 5 days, I'm trying to make some serious decisions in life. I have been having alot more problems here at home lately, mainly with my stupid sister and father....I'm at the point were I just want out already to be completely honest.

But it doesn't stop there. Oh no siree! Now Matt is on my case all the time! Fights every other day! Such an emotional roller coaster! I love him an all buy UGH!

I want to move out, I want my car, I want to go to school.. Everything involves money! And me no have money!

Currently watching judge Judy, I still think my case with my ex should be on this show. It would be very entertaining I think!

Oh crap! I just remembered! It's my mom's birthday tomorrow! I might want to get her a card? But I'm sick :( and it's freezing out!

Happy groundhog day tomorrow? ...
BRING ME SPRING!

Advil cold and sinus time! Nighty night!

Noce says goodnight too! EYES!

XoX

Update

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Tue, 29 Jan 2013 03:08:00 +0000

Okay so let me update you on what has happened in the last little while;

1) I finished my case studies for Reflexology!

2) Me and Matt decided that I need to get my Italian citizenship card if we want to go to England and work.

3) Matt want's to be put under my car insurance so we can split the pay (which is sweet on his behalf cause he knows it will help me)

4) I'm potentially getting thinner?

5) I've voiced my concern to Matt about him being way to much on the cheap side. He had mentioned going to Winterlicious (which is basically when restaurants hold fixed menus and charge like $30.00 for a 3 course meal.) Lets see if he takes me. He hasn't mentioned since it started and it ends Feb.06...

6) I just had a job interview today and got it pretty much on the spot.

7) I want to give my 2 weeks notice at the current job I am at with my bitch boss.

Yup...

I need to make a bucket list for 2013.

Maybe next post. This will take some time and effort.

Ciao Xox ❤

What kind of sleeper are you?

noreply@blogger.com (Michy Ramblez) — Sun, 27 Jan 2013 20:00:00 +0000

Do you enjoy spooning? Or maybe you like to wake up and smell the morning-breath of your beloved first thing in the morning. Or even better are you a blanket thief?

I just love hearing about peoples sleeping positions with there significant others. The stories are always so funny to hear or compare too.

I am described as a blanket thief and heat stealer. Let me explain.

So Matt is what I like to call a furnace, he creates so much heat that it isn't even funny. So I usually end up doing one of two things since I can't create my own heat for the life of me.

I either snuggle up and attach myself to him like a parasite to keep warm or, if he moves away from me I retaliate by stealing the covers so he gets cold and has no choice but to come back and snuggle with me. Hehe >=) I'm evil. Yes I do this on purpose!

We always go to sleep in the spooning position though. ALWAYS! ... Staying there is the issue though since I sleep like a crazy person!

Well crazy person OUT! It'z Zumba time

XoX Ciao!