Mid's

Lama Tak Jumpa.

2015-04-16T14:30:00.000+08:00

Assalamuailakum w.b.t.

It's been a while, since last posting, which is Dec 12, 2013.
More than a year. Hehe...

There are a lot of things that happen within this period.
Macam-macam hal sudah jadi. Ada good, ada bad. Common lah, this is life right?

The good,
I'm finally engaged (yeay!), and will get married soon (insyaAllah, pray for me).
I've been to several places (I mean out of Malaysia) such as Turkiye, Indonesia, Taiwan, and recently Thailand. Well, some part of them. I will share the stories in other post.

The bad,
Nahhhh, seriously I just don't remember the bad one. :p

I'm not sure whether I still have followers here, but hey, I write for my own pleasure.
If someone read it, it's cool.
If none, nahh it's okay.

After all, I'm the loner kan (tiba-tiba).

Okay then, will definitely write again, soon I guess?!
Haha!

Till then, see you when I see you. :)

Kronologi Pemergian Ayah Menemui Sang Pencipta

2013-12-12T21:58:00.004+08:00

November 24, 2013

Dalam jam 11 pagi lebih kurang, aku dapat pesanan ringkas daripada adik lelaki yang mengatakan bahawa ayah tak berapa sihat. Masa tu aku masih di pejabat, dan aku beritahu adik yang aku akan gerak pulang jam 12.30 tengah hari.

Setibanya aku di rumah, aku terkejut kerana disambut oleh pakcik dan makcik aku. Mereka memberitahu bahawa ayah telah di bawa ke hospital dengan ambulans kurang lebih 10 minit sebelum aku sampai.

Aku segera bergegas ke HUKM bersama-sama pakcik aku dan isterinya.

Dalam jam 2 petang, kami tiba. Ayah masih lagi berada di wad kecemasan. Kesemua kami, adik beradik serta saudara mara berasa resah kerana merasakan seakan begitu lama ayah berada di dalam wad. Untuk pengetahuan, ayah pernah masuk ke HUKM sebelum ni akibat serangan strok pada tahun 2010, tapi keadan beliau ketika itu tidak begitu teruk. Dan sekejap saja ayah dihantar ke wad rawatan yang biasa.

Kedengaran speaker hospital membuat pengumuman mencari si waris ayah dalam jam 4.30 petang, aku dan adik lelaki aku bergegas ke wad kecemasan mencari doktor yang yang merawat ayah.

"Ayah kamu masih sedar ketika sampai ke sini, tetapi terkena serangan jantung secara mengejut dalam perjalanan untuk membuat pemeriksaan otak. Jantung beliau berhenti, dan kami terpaksa menjalankan CPR selama 6 minit. Sekarang keadaan beliau masih tak stabil, dan kami akan beritahu kalau ada perkembangan selanjutnya."

Tiba-tiba aku rasa aku tak dapat hadam apa yang doktor katakan. Doktor membenarkan kami melawat ayah sebentar. Tanpa aku sedari, air mata aku mengalir deras. Badan ayah berselirat dengan segala macam wayar, dan ayah memerlukan bantuan ventilator untuk bernafas.

Aku keluar dari wad, untuk memberitahu keadaan ayah kepada saudar-mara yang menunggu. Setiap kali aku menerangkan keadaannya, setiap kali tu lah aku tersedu-sedu. Terasa sakit sangat hati bila melihat ayah dalam keadaan begitu. Terasa lemah, tak bermaya.

Jam 6 petang, ayah dihantar ke Unit Rawatan Jantung untuk pemerhatian doktor pakar dalam bidang itu. Doktor menerangkankan bahawa saluran darah ayah telah tersumbat dan menutupi saluran darah ke dua organ penting iaitu jantung dan otak, lalu menyebabkan jantung terhenti seketika 6 minit dan major stroke.

Ayah juga telah diberikan ubat pencair darah yang tinggi untuk menurunkan kadar tekanan darah.

November 25, 2013

Semasa ayah dalam pemerhatian, perut ayah dikatakan mempunyai pendarahan berdasarkan warna air kencing air ayah seakan 'coffee ground'. Doktor meminta izin untuk melakukan 'scope' untuk mengenal pasti punca pendarahan.

Pendarahan dikatakan berlaku disebabkan ubat pencair darah yang tinggi dan faktor usia dimana perut ayah tak dapat tahan kesan daripada ubat tersebut.

Tekanan darah ayah tiba-tiba jatuh mendadak, dan sel darah merah ayah pun turut berkurang. Doktor meminta izin sekali lagi untuk memasukkan darah.

Doktor mengesahkan ayah memang mengalami strok yang teruk dan peluang untuk ayah sedarkan diri amat tipis serta menyarankan kami agar bersiap sedia.

Lagi sekali, dunia aku seakan gelap bila dengar doktor beritahu perkembangan itu.

November 27, 2013

Saluran darah ke otak ayah totally blocked. Darah langsung tidak sampai ke otak. Biasanya dalam 5 minit bila keadaan macam ini berlaku, otak akan kehilangan aktiviti dimana dalam istilah doktor, 'brain dead'. Mata ayah juga disuluh untuk mencari jikalau ada sedikit respon terhadap sensitivi cahaya. Malangya mata ayah malar, dan tidak bergerak.

Ayah juga masih menggunakan bantuan pernafasan dengan menggunakan mesin ventilator. Sekiranya ayah mampu bernafas sendiri, beliau akan berada dalam keaadan 'vegetative state' akibat 'brain dead' tadi.

Aku memang tak mampu nak kata apa apabila doktor menerangan keadaan ayah.

Kalau boleh aku rebah, memang dah lama aku rebah. Tetapi fikirkan adik-adik, terpaksa kuatkan juga semangat.

Disember 2, 2013

Kami adik-beradik serta pakcik dipanggil oleh doktor jam 3 petang. Profesor Asma, namanya datang bersama team doktor dan jururawat yang menjaga ayah aku bertemu kami. Beliau dengan lembut menerangkan keadaan ayah. Dengan tenang memberitahu pilihan-pilihan yang kami ada.

Beliau menerangkan adalah lebih baik membawa ayah pulang ke rumah kerana disitulah tempat ayah patut berada disamping keluarga di saat-saat akhirnya. Seperti yang dikatakan sebelum ni, keadaan mata ayah yang tak responsif terhadap cahaya, kematian aktiviti otak dan pernafasan ayah yang bergantung kepada mesin adalah tanda yang ayah sepatutnya pergi dengan cara yang baik. Kalau masih dibiarkan di hospital, ayah akan sentiasa di ambil darahnya. Dicucuk sana sini.

Kalau ditengok keadaan ayah, dari hari pertama ayah masuk sampai ke hari ini. Mata dan lidah ayah menjadi kering dan mata ayah telah mempunyai selaput dan kesan darah. Badan ayah menjadi bengkak. Kesan cucuk akibat ambil darah pun tak hilang.

Hati yang tabah pun boleh jadi remuk tengok keadaan ayah yang bukan saja makin tak pulih, malah makin teruk.

Kami sepakat untuk membawa ayah pulang keesokkan hari. Ini cara terbaik dan kami semua telah redha walaupun pahit untuk menelan haikatnya.

Disember 3, 2013

Seperti yang dijanjikan, semua orang bersiap sedia jam 7.30 pagi, semua orang termasuk pasukan polis peronda IPD Sentul, saudara mara di kampung, dan sahabat handai ayah.

Tapi atas sedikit salah faham dan sedikit karenah birokrasi, ayah discharge dari HUKM pada jam lebih kurang 4.30 petang.

Oleh kerana polisi HUKM tidak membenarkan mencabut ventilator, pakcik aku memohon untuk bwk pulang ayah dengan ambulans persendirian diiringi MPV kereta peroda IPD Sentul.

Alhamdulillah, dengan bantuan kereta peronda, perjalanan yg biasanya memakan masa 1 jam setengah jadi 45 minit. Ayah selamat sampai di kampung lebih kurang 5.45 petang. Saudara mara juga dah ramai berkumpul waktu tu.

Selepas selesai uruskan tempat baring, lebih kurang 10 minit kemudian, staff nurse beritahu bahawa beliau akan cabut ventilator tu. Ketika itu hanya ada aku dan adik perempuan, sebab hanya kami berada di dlm kereta peronda dan ambulans. Saudara mara suruh bisik kalimah Allah sentiasa di telinga ayah.

Tak terasa sungguh ketiadaan ayah kerana dia pergi secara senyap apabila ventilator dicabut. Sampai aku ditepuk oleh staff nurse utk beritahu ketiadaan ayah, dalam lebih kurang sebelum jam 6 petang.

Alhamdulillah, senang je cara ayah pergi.

Segala bengkak di mata dan badan ayah juga turut surut sejam kemudian dan ayah kelihatan seperti sedang tidur dengan nyenyak.

Rasa tenang je lihat ayah dalam keadaan begitu.

Disember 4, 2013

Ayah telah selamat dikebumikan di tempat kelahiran beliau, Kampung Tali Air 3, Jalan Pantai Rasa Sayang, Sekinchan, Selangor pada jam 10 pagi.

Ayah bersemadi disamping kubur arwah atuk dan nenek.

Alhamdulillah sangat, semua urusan pengendalian jenazah ayah dilangsungkan dengan mudah. Walaupun pada ketika itu hujan sedang melimpahkan rahmatnya ke bumi Tuhan ini.

Al-Fatihah.
Daripada Allah kita datang, kepada Allah kita kembali.

Terima kasih Tuhan, atas nikmat dan rahmat yang Kau pinjamkan seketika.
Terima kasih, kerana menjemput ayah dengan kasih sayang yang tak terperi,
Kau tutup aibnya, Kau permudahkan urusannya.

Semoga aku dipinjankan kekuatan yang sama seperti ayah,
untuk meneruskan kehidupan yang masih samar-samar hala tujunya.

Sesungguhnya Kau lah Tuhan yang maha pengasih lagi maha penyayang.

Roads Untraveled

2013-09-28T23:50:00.000+08:00

Weep not for roads untraveled

Weep not for paths left lone

Cause beyond every bend is a long blinding end

Its the worst kind of pain I've know

Give up your heart left broken.

And let that mistake pass on

Cause the love that you lost wasn't worth what it cost

And in time you'll be glad it's gone.

Weep not for roads untraveled

Weep not for sights unseen

May your love never end and if you need a friend,

there's a seat here along side me.

-Linkin Park

2013-09-01T21:59:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.,

Dulu punya berjanji akan update blog ni dengan lebih kerap. Tapi, janji tinggal janji.
Kalau dengan kawan-kawan pun, bosan dengan alasan aku, yang asyik sibuk memanjang.

As time goes by, many things have change.
Most of my peers getting married and some of them are expecting for baby soon.

And i still adjusting with my life.

Tapi takpe, Allah dah bagi bahagian kita masing-masing.
Tinggal kita je yang redha ke tak. Kan?

Feminine.

2013-06-07T00:13:00.002+08:00

Today I went out to meet a friend.

So, I went there with my (female) cousin, to meet the (guy) friend.
And the conversation goes like this...

Guy friend: "So, you came with your cousin, a girl. Such a surprise."

Me: "And what do you mean by that heh?"

Guy friend: "Judging by you look and behavior that look less... you know, feminine?!"

Me: "And?"

Guy friend: "Well, I was assuming that you have no any girl friends."

Me: "..."

And I still wonder why most men don't exactly, hmm..
Never mind.

Keterujaan.

2013-04-16T22:33:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum and hi.

Have you ever be to excited that you can't enjoy your beauty sleep? Heh.

I don't think that I should brag about it, but you know what? I'm a person who get excited way too much.

I have two vacations this month, one is planned since February this year I guess another one is unplanned. Such in last minute.

Like what I wrote previously in my blog, I wish to have more adventures this year. And I really grateful that I have a friend that have same interest as me.

She way too good for me, and I don't know how to repay her good deeds towards me. Kinda have a older sister you see. HAHA!

Okay, back to the topic.

Yeah, my vacations.

This weekend I will go to Terengganu for 'mencandat sotong' activity. I feel excited because I don't really know what 'mencandat sotong' really is. HAHA! Lame city girl I guess.

So, Terengganu is my unplanned vacation. It's actually a client to my friend's activity. And when she asked me whether I want to join, I said why not kan?

My friend will drive us there. Please pray for our safety yea?

HAHA! Okbai.

2013-04-03T07:37:00.000+08:00

Assalamualikum, and hi.

It's quite long right? Did you miss me?

Life is like a wheel, sometime we're on the top, sometimes we hit the ground. And right now I feel like I hit the rock at the ground, very hard.

I couldn't really tell you what happen, just pray for me that everything will turn out alright okay?

Yes, and lately I became a sensitive person. Every words that been said have hurt me. I just hoping this is a some kind of syndrome of PMS. But is not. Heh.

When we sad or in a confuse situation, to whom we turn to? Although I can tell my father everything, I can't afford to worry him as he aspect me to be the strong one. How can I protect the other siblings if I'm not strong enough?

Friends? Frankly speaking I don't really have a friend that truly can be trusted.

I think it is in our nature. When time get rough, we turn to our creator. Ya Allah, Ya Rahim.

I talked to him during prayers, during I'm alone and before bedtime.

The test that he gave me is nothing, really. But I don't know why the burden felt so heavy on my shoulder.

I just hoping that I will not going to be mad. Heh.

This month end, my friend and I planned another vacation. This time is located another country. I hope after the vacation, my mind can be clear and have a good rest.

I will update about the vacation. Soon. If I safely come back. Heh.

The Moment...

2013-03-12T20:16:00.001+08:00

...when your create a entry at the phone and thought of published it.

Then you open the web, you realized the entry is not there.

T^T

Be Patient.

2013-03-02T11:16:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum, and have a good day ahead.

Right now, at this hour (as I typing this) I am working, to baby-sit some TOEFL candidates.

Well, while I have nothing to do, so here I am, writing.

...

Last night, my partner in crime and I went to Masjid Muadz bin Jabal, located at Setiawangsa.

"Kita dah lama tak pergi majlis ilmu ni Mimi, kotor dah hati kita ni. Awak pun kena pergi sekali."

She said. It's more likely an direct order to force me to come with her. Hihi...

The majlis ilmu or kuliah (I don't know what term to use in English), started with selawat and qasidah, prayer and praise to Allah and Rasul. Luckly this time we have the book, so we were not so blur like the another night. --"

And then, Ustaz Don Daniyal stand up and give us some lecture, usrah, and hadith. And I love it when he share with us the story about an Arab Badwi's guy, an animal called thok (I think, I didn't hear that clearly, it's something like biawak he said) and Nabi Muhammad.

The story goes like this...(err, and I think it's better for me to tell it in Bahasa, I afraid that I will mistranslated it. T^T

...

Suatu hari, seorang lelaki Arab Badwi pergi untuk berburu haiwan yang digelar thok. Sejenis haiwan yg pada masa itu menyerupai biawak, ianya laju dan sukar ditangkap. Kiranya sesiapa yang berjaya tangkap haiwan tersebut pada waktu tu, amat hebatlah orangnya.

Lelaki Arab Badwi ni, berjaya tangkap thok tersebut, lalu di letaknya haiwan tersebut di lengan bajunya, supaya haiwan tersebut tidak melarikan diri. Kemudian dia ke pasar, untuk menjual haiwan tersebut.

Setibanya di sebuah pasar, dia ternampak seakan ada satu majlis dan orang ramai. Lantas dia bertanya kepada orang disitu siapakah yang berada di sana.

"Muhammad."

Apabila dia mengetahui ada Rasul Allah, Muhammad, dengan segera dia berjalan kaki ke Majlis ilmu tersebut.

Setibanya dia di situ, tanpa salam tanpa pengenalan diri, perkara pertama yang dia perkatakan kepada nabi Allah adalah,

"Aku sangat benci kepada mu, wahai Muhammad."

Saidina Umar yang ketika itu ada di sebelah nabi, lantas bangkit dan berkata kepada nabi.

"Mahukah kau, wahai Muhammad, untuk aku selesaikan dia sekarang ini juga?"

Nabi bangun, dan berkata (menasihati) kepada Umar,

"Tahukah kamu Umar, orang yang lemah lembut (penyabar) itu sifatnya hampir menyamai aku (nabi Muhammad)?"

Lantas Umar terdiam dan duduk kembali di tempatnya.

Kemudian, nabi berpaling ke arah lelaki Arab Badwi tadi dan bertanya kepada beliau membenci nabi.

"Aku tidak akan beriman dengan Allah, tuhan kamu, dan tidak aku beriman dengan kamu sebagai pesuruh-Nya, sehinggalah thok (dilemparnya thok tadi yang berada di dalam bajunya di depan nabi) ini beriman kepada kamu."

Kata lelaki Arab Badwi tersebut.

Thok yang dilempar tadi, mencicit lari, langsung kaku sebentar apabila nabi memanggil.

"Wahai thok, kemari engkau."

Elok, jalan ke kearah nabi.

"Siapakah Tuhan kamu?"

Tanya nabi kepada thok tersebut.

"Aku beriman kepada Allah. Yang di langit ada arasy-Nya, yang di bumi ada kerajaan-Nya, yang di laut ada jalan-Nya, yang di syurga ada kebaikkan-Nya dan yang di neraka ada balas siksaan-Nya"

Dengan ajaibnya thok tersebut boleh berkata-kata.

"Siapakah aku"

Tanya nabi lagi.

"Engkau adalah Muhammad, pesuruh Allah. Tiada Tuhan melainkan Allah, dan sesungguhnya engkau adalah pesuruh yang diutus Allah untuk umatmu."

Lelaki Arab Badwi yang terkesima dengan thok yang boleh berkata-kata itu lantas meminta maaf dan mengucap kalimah syahadah untuk memeluk Islam.

....

This story, it's quite long and it doesn't finish here. And I know I didn't write this story as interesting as Ustaz Don told us last night. Lame me. Please forgive me. :)

So basically, Ustaz Don was meant to tell us that patient can mend a stubborn heart.

While the Arab Badwi guy came and insult nabi Muhammad, and Saidina Umar want to finish-off the guy, instead off get mad to the Arab guy, he stood up and advice Umar to be calm. And then talk to the Arab guy with nice tone and ask why.

You see, the people that I respect the most is the people who can hold up their anger and be patient to others. I'd encounter with some people who can't manage their anger properly and simple shout and sometimes come out from their mouth improper words.

Well, I am one of them.

I think that's why we have some wise sayings, "If you angry, don't speak. As your mouth act faster that your brain."

Lebih kurang macam tu lah. --"

I don't really remember the exact words. T^T

In my humble opinion, it is easy for us to change from bad to good. But to keep it, and stay like that will need a proper effort from us.

Our iman can increase and decrease anytime. It takes some works to maintain it at the level that we need it to be.

I get angry easily, ESPECIALLY when I'm with empty stomach. (I remember when I watched one of the Tanyalah Ustaz program, he said, "if you truly want to get to know a person's personality, get to know him/her when they're hungry.")

Secondly, what Ustaz Don want to convey to us is that, every creatures in this universe are have faith in Allah. Even if it is a biawak. If we don't have iman, we are no better than them.

I try and still trying to be a better version of me. So if you see me speak improper words, mencarut and all that. Please let me know and advice me. Old habits die hard, I guess.

Like Ustaz Don said yesterday, "I wish the mouth that says prayers and praise Allah and rasul isn't the same mouth that talk bad thing about others."

Oo Allah, the most merciful. Forgive us, the ungrateful servants.

Thanks for reading, I hope it will benefit all of us. ;)

2013-02-26T23:27:00.001+08:00

Assamualaikum. Hi.

I know I've been missing for ages (ehemm, exaggerate..)

A week ago, I've been attacked by high fever. Well, 40.6°c (not exagerating), and I was't be able to write (but obviously still active at twitter). Thanks to my friend who took care of me, made sure I eat things and took my medicine. If you're reading this, please note that you're the greatest!

And weeks before that, I've been through lots of activities. Well, if you can see (or follow my instagram) you know that I was quite busy. Ehemm...

Things happen in my life, up and down. I think, I will manage it anyhow.

So, this week kinda slow week for me as my partner in crime is away, and I'm quite numb right now, don't know what to do to keep my head occupied.

Well, except reading of course.

And talking about love life, one of my friends are happily married. Happy for them, really.

And for me, my future?

Que sera, sera...

I'll keep you guys posted (whoever reading this).

And this entry typed with my so called smart phone. Heh.

Chow sin!

C Chantique Product Launching

2013-02-06T01:20:00.003+08:00

Location: Full House Lifestyle Store and Cafe, Sunway Giza

Date: 19th January 2013

Event: C Chantique's Product Launching

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

Hi readers, are you miss me? I know some of you are keen to know about my whereabouts and what I was during past weeks right? So, here I am. To update some event that I has attended.

So, how did I get involve in this event?

Long story short. My colleague has invited to be a emcee to this beauty's product launching event. She asked me whether I'm free or not for that date and invited me to join her. And, I agreed.

Frankly, I'd be using this product long before the launching event because my colleague also one of the distributor and ask me to try on first.

Let me tell you, if you have followed my Twitter or Instagram, you'd knew that I always bragged about my skin. My pigmentation seems more obvious, my (pimple's) scar wouldn't fade away. It is bothering me though, because I felt that my face very comot (?) and uncomfortable with it. Some of my friends did gave me some tips, and I did followed the advices, but the results quite the same. T^T

Then, when Azuwa (my colleague) asked me to try this serum, I didn't immediately try it on. To be honest, I'm quite scared to put something I unsure, uncertain on my face. I waited like, two days I guess and finally have the guts to try it on. (And because Azuwa everyday push me to try it, I tell you she's like to nag all the time.)

After the first night I'd try it on (have to take this serum at night before sleep), and went to office, another colleague commented my skin an said that my scar seem almost invisible. And I was like, "are you sure mate?"

HAHAHA!

It's quite amazing, because we can see the result immediately on the next morning. I felt my skin are more smoother even after my bath.

Seriously, no bluff one.

Okay, baiklah...

So, Azuwa is the emcee on the event and she done quite amazing job. She looks pretty to, but sadly I don't have her photo with me.

But of course, I have photo of mine, with my (almost) flawless skin. HAHA!

Kak Yana and I at the night of the event.

This photo without any filter or editing okayyy...

See for yourself. HAHA!

And here is the montage about the information regarding the serum.

C Chantique's have various product line for different type of skin problems. From uneven skin like mine to sensitive and pimple until wrinkle solution. You can check on the Facebook as stated in the montage. I can't elaborate more about the other product, because I didn't apply them. But base on my observation on the testimonials, the feedback are very positive.

I used C Chantique's Bright (C+)'s Professional Serum, and the outcome are amazed me. For those who know me (I mean my friends), they know that I only introduce or recommended only the best.

So, (ehemmmm) I help Azuwa to sell this product. It's only RM70 (not included postage charges) per box and one box contains 10 serums in it.

Email me at md.subohi@gmail.com.my for inquiry for other products too.

Thanks for reading. And enjoy you day.

Some Adventure, You Say?

2013-01-20T21:48:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum.

As promised, enjoice.

Forever a kiddo.

Breathtaking view

Gadis sebalik lalang, you say?

And this one was at Putrajaya.

I have to cover my poyo's face, you know.

Sudahlah, I am very tired to download and upload as the internet are super slow.

Bye.

Weekend Activities

2013-01-15T22:17:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum.

Nowadays, when I looked at my circles of friends, I noticed that almost everyone have move on to next phase of their life. Build a family.

I'm happy for everyone, really. Eventhough sometimes there some eeney, minee, tiny little sense of jealousy. You know, when your friend attached with someone else, they don't really have time to spend with you. *sadface.jpg*

So, happen to be at my office there are another 'bujang girl' and share the same interest with me. so we have made a plan to hang out together last weekend.

You guys know where we've been last weekend?

Nahhh, enough for guessing.

My friend and I went to climb Broga Hill near at Semenyeh.

Suppose to be there will be some photos of us when we're up there, but my external hard disk are being funny, so, I lost ALL the photos. I hope my friend still have them, and later on I can share with you.

We brought some props along with us and the bag are heavy. So, when we wanted to climb the first peak, there was one gentleman, that kind enough to offer his hand and help us to bring our stuff. We also met some nice people up there. Being shy my, I just able to smile and laugh along with their stories and jokes.

And we unable to continue to the next peak though as we're too tired. So we just took some nice spot ant be ready to take some shots of photo.

It's really nice. The view up there. It's breathtaking. Be sure to follow my Instagram to view the photo captured from my semakness phone.

At night, my friend took me to Restoran Pelita, Subang to have some taste on the restaurant's sup tulang/daging/kambing are super duper awesome. I am literally craving for it again right now. Perh!

And so, for the next day my friend took me to the Taman Putrajaya, and yes with some props to capture the beautiful view there. I really like the landscape of the lake near the Pullman Hotel. It's really, really nice man. Ohh, I wish my home in future will have such a beautiful landscape like that.

On the evening, there some couples of newly wed or newly engaged that took sweet momento of them beside the lake.

Ohh, I love how people taking their wedding photos. Almost make me tear as well. HAHA!

So...

What's on my mind. When being forced to be a model.

eat.pray.love. I'm the expert of the number 1.

Yes, my tak-ikhlas's face. HAHA!

Thank you Wawa for your kindness. Only Allah will, and He certainly will repay your good deeds. Thank you so much for these nice momento. I love you.

So, what your stories?

Buenanott. :)

ATV Adventure

2013-01-07T00:28:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum, how are you guys doing? I hope everyone are doing fine. ;)

So, how's your weekend? Well, I'm going to brag about mine. HAHA!

Being young, energetic and adventurous me, lead me to another adventure in Perak. I actually planned this from last year to go there, but since there are some constraints (time and budget), I have o postponed this plan. So, finally...!

I'd arrived to Kuala Kangsar, Perak form Kuala Lumpur at 2 pm something, and Hanum picked me up. She took me for lunch as my stomach was empty. It's because of my habit that I won't eat or drink anything before I took off if I were going somewhere by bus. I'd afraid I need to go to the loo in the middle of somewhere that unknown. Gitu.

After lunch and perform our prayer, we went to the ATV, Jalan Bukit Larut. Finally, JYEAHH!

I was so excited, and in the same time afraid too because I don't know whether I can manage to ride the ATV.

So, the instructor teach us about the gear, break, and how to turn on the engine if it suddenly stop. After make sure that all of us understand, he take us for a trial ride. At first Hanum was at behind him, and after he saw how clumsy and weak I was, he told me to ride right behind his motorcycle.

After the second round, he brought us to the real trail. He did warn us that the trail slope might exceed 45 degree up and down. My heart beat even more faster. And I thought, I AM SO DEAD! For a second, I don't think I can make it out. T^T

So, we started. The trail are totally rough and tough. I felt like I'd almost terbalik all of the time. I wonder how Hanum done it so smooth.

It turn out so well and fun. I certainly have no regret. And definitely will try it again if have any chances.

I looked awesome am I? I know. HAHA!

I wore the safety helmet in the wrong way. Duhh.. --"

Almost forgetting, there are nice river flowing at the end of the trail. The instructor gave us some minutes to took some photos and rest before we heading back to the camp.

So, after an hour spend on riding ATV, we decided to get some food to eat as we're all are hungry. We agreed to eat some Yong Tau Fu first, because we were gong to eat Ketam Lembut/Sof Crabs after that.

The foods are awesome, I tell you. You guys should try the soft crabs at Kuala Gula. I never knew, in my entire life, there were some species of crabs that so soft. You don't have actually to peel (?) the skin, because the skin so lembut. And it so sweet and my mouth are literally watery when I think about those sweet, soft crabs.

The scenery. Subhanallah. The food, alhamdulillah.

The next day, Hanum took me to Pasar Karat at Ipoh for sight seeing. The place are incredible amazing because that's the place people buy and sell so-called ancient and antique stuff. Some of the stuff I never see it before. And I was like, very cool liao!

This bought by Hanum's boyfriend at the price RM25 only. If I'm not mistaken.

Well, I'm not buying anything. I do fancy antique stuff, but to buy the, I have to think through because I'm not the kind of person that can keep things well maintain. :3

Again, after that they took me to get some lunch before I'm off back to Kuala Lumpur, because my ticket are at 12pm. Well, the lunch were awesome to. :)

Rojak Bellamy (this one is at KL), Nasi Ganja, Yong Tau Fu.

What I call, Heaven on earth. HAHA!

Perak have been nice to me, and I certainly will be back again to this beautiful state.

And Hanum, thank your for your hospitality and everything. You and your family are being such a welcoming and good hosts.

So, how about your weekend?

Till then, adios amigo!

To Do Or Not To do.

2013-01-01T22:20:00.000+08:00

...it's in our hand. It's our choice.

Hi, Assalamualaikum.

Well, I'd re-read my last post, and it really sound funny. Nowadays I am rarely read and write in Bahasa, I think that's why my last post sound tunggang-terbalik. Wa-lah, macam saya ni lahir di Amerika je. So, as a truly Malaysian, so I decided to write in rojak. HAHAHA!

Okay, back to the topic.

When I'm younger, I have lots of opportunities to do things that I regretted now because I didn't do it at all. And now I keep wonder and asking my self (quite frequent actually), "Why I didn't do that, why I never try this?"

For example, when I was in primary school, they actually have an association for Wushu training for students, and a friend of mine, actually join in. And she was the only Malay girl who join that martial art that time. How cool is that? She did asked me though to join with her, but I declined because I didn't think it wasn't cool enough that time. There were also another things like PBSM, Palapes, Debate Team etc. etc...

Success People's Indicator = 2013 resolutions!

I think of my self like, you know when too comfortable in something, I keep doing it and I afraid to make some changes.

Have you ever read "Who Moved My Cheese" by Dr. Spencer Johnson? It's really, really a good book. It's about how you want or need to adapt with changes in your life whether you expecting it or not. Well different people have their own different ways. Some people can easily adapt, and some people have hard times to move on.

As my teacher said to me once, when I was in my sekolah teknik at Kuala Klawang which the area is very outdated and kampung style as I'm from Kuala Lumpur, urban city yaw! So, she said to me (to us, the students actually),

"Untuk menyesuaikan diri di sesuatu tempat atau keadaan baru, kita ada dua pilihan, sama ada kita ubah keadaan itu mengikut kita atau kita yang mengubah diri sendiri dan sesuaikan dengan keadaan itu."

Which means, when we're in new situation, we only have two choices. It's either we change the situation to follow our ways or change our mindset and adapt the new situation. Something like that.

So, being me that time, I didn't have much choices, aren't I? So, I have to change my self, my ways of thinking and soon I found that I like my school more and never get homesick again. I'd miss my school, until now.

If you ask me what my New Year's resolutions are, I will say that I don't what to be afraid anymore. Afraid of changes I mean. I will try everything that new to me, so I will not have any regrets on my tomorrows.

Like today, I'm actually afraid to drive alone, at unfamiliar places. But today I manage to went to place I never been before ALONE, although I'm lost in the way to going there and have to asked for help from my friend, I think it's a really good start though. T^T

So, a new year ahead, brace yourself and be a better person. InsyaAllah.

Till then, buona notte, caro mio. ;)

Cerita Kosong.

2012-12-28T20:49:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.

Hihi... Iye, kali ini saya menulis dalam Bahasa Melayu. Sebab saya rasa mungkin apa yang saya tulis pada kali ini mesejnya lagi mudah sampai kalau saya berbahasa dalam bahasa ibunda kan? Lagipun, saya dah tak nampak pula pembaca dari Geneva di statistik blog saya itu.

Mak aih, sopan pula gaya bahasa kali ni. Tak macam personaliti yang sebenar saya pun. Issokay, saya memang mempunya banyak personaliti pun. :3

Petang tadi, saya pergi menemani dua rakan sekerja melawat sebuah rumah. Katanya, penghuni rumah tersebut kematian suami dan tinggal bersama seorang anak kandung dan seorang anak tiri yang masing-masing masih kecil. Dijadikan cerita pula, anak tirinya (anak arwah suami) menghidapi leukimia dan perlu ke hospital sebulan atau dua bulan sekali.

Alhamdulillah, masih ada lagi ada ahli keluarga yang lain yang masih peduli akan mereka, kata kakak itu.

Kakak itu (yang saya tak tahu namanya, kerana saya hanya bertindak sebagai pemerhati saja), bekerja sebagai tea-lady di sebuah syarikat swasta dengan pendapatan tak mencecah seribu ringgit. Tetapi saya bukan nak bercerita mengenai pendapatan dia atau hidup dia yang tak beraba nasib baik itu. Saya sedikit terharu dengan dia sebab dia sanggup jaga anak yang tiada hubungan darah dengan dia yang ada penyakit.

Bayangkanlah, berapa ramai yang sanggup berbuat demikian? Diri sendiri kudrat tak kuat mana, kerjanya pun gaji tak seberapa, kena jaga anak yang sakit yang boleh dikatakan tidak ada kena mengena dengan diri sendiri pula tu.

Credit from Nayzak's DeviantArt

Saya rasa bersyukur sangat-sangat, walaupun saya ini banyak sangat kekurangannya, saya masih lagi di kelilingi dengan insan-insan yang berhati mulia. Sekurang-kurangnya, apabila saya terfikir hendak berbuat jahat, saya akan teringat akan peristiwa sebegini dan membuatkan saya insaf kerana saya masih punya nikmat yang mereka tidak peroleh. InsyaAllah. :')

Sebelum kami berangkat pulang, dua orang kawan saya menhulurkan sedikit sumbangan kepada kakak itu, dengan harapan dapatlah kurangkan beban dia untuk beli susu anak atau belanja rumah. Saya berharap Allah akan mempermudahkan perjalan hidup kakak itu sekeluarga.

Semoga Allah juga mempermurahkan rezeki kepada dua orang kawan-kawan saya tu. Sebab diorang pun selalu belanja saya makan. :')

Saya tertanya-tanya, kalau perkara sedemikian berlaku kepada saya, boleh ke saya terima dengan redha atau pun sebaliknya?

...

Baiklah!

Esok saya akan berangkat ke kampung pagi-pagi buta kerana mahu menghadiri majlis perkahwinan sepupu saya. Haih, seorang lagi sepupu saya yang sudah tamat zaman bujangnya. :3

Doakan perjalanan saya selamat pergi dan selamat pulang. :)

Andai kata tak mendengar cerita daripada saya lebih daripada seminggu, sedekahkanlah al-Fatihah. Walaupun kita hanya orang asing.

Semoga Allah merahmati kalian, terima kasih kerana membaca. ;)

Skytrex Adventure

2012-12-23T20:23:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum, and good evening everyone. (I wrote this at 7.41pm)

Do you know about Skytrex Adventure? Well, I didn't know either at the first place. Being young (eh hem..) and energetic me, I did Google "extreme outdoor Kuala Lumpur", and TADAAAAA... Skytrex Adventure appeared. But the location aren't really at Kuala Lumpur though.

Skytrex's website

So I asked my friend whether she is up to it, and she said yes. Then I told her to manage this activity for us.

We did booking for this activity thru online as advised. We chose the hardest one, the activities that pump out our adrenaline, the extreme challenge. Extreme challenge consists 34 of challenges, with some platforms reaching the height of the 22 meter.

We arrived Shah Alam yesterday, in a group of 13 persons.

Oh, in before, this entry will have no photos of us from the activities as I waited from the others the photo and I will update the photos (if any) in another post.

We arrived, and we have to sign some form for emergency contact if anything happen to us during the activities. Then we have to wear the harness for safety reason lah of course. HAHA!

After all done with the harness, we've been taken to a instructor to brief to us about how to use the pulley and carrot-something (I don't know how to spell it. Sorry.) that attached together with the harness. He did tell us the rules, the do and don't. And then, he told us to try first.

It's raining though in the middle of briefing. Heavy raining and we stop first.

We waited like an hour plus, before we resumed.

After finish the training, then start our first challenge. We have to climb up a 14 meters height ladder. I told you guys, your hand must be strong if you want to climb the ladder. My hand are aching right know when I typing this post. (--")

And we start the flying fox. Quite high, and quite far you know. I did not really know how to landing for the flying fox you know, so, I can't really manage to slow down a bit, so my hand are bruising right now. T^T

After some challenges, one by one of our members have surrender. At some point I want to surrender to, but I will not waste my RM50. HAHA! And I wanted to finish it. And yes, I did, after like 3 hours.

If you seek out an adventure, I totally recommend this and the fees are affordable too.

And I'm planning to go there again. Certainly.

I wish they have some photographers up there that took photos of us candidly, as we can't bring our phone and camera up there (well, you can bring it of course but I wouldn't risk it).

So, how is you weekend?

Ohh, it's Monday tomorrow. Good Luck and happy working.

Words.

2012-12-17T21:40:00.002+08:00

I got this from somewhere in Tumblr. Currently the same problem bothering me.

I just hoping that I wouldn't end up in some kind of metal institution.

I just wish that I can forget everything.

Big Bad Wolf.

2012-12-16T19:43:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum.

So, earlier today, I managed to went to Big Bad Wolf Books. Yeah, since everyone in Twitter and Facebook, not to forget Instagram about this event. It's definitely a crazy and hunted place for most people, like me. Books are everywhere, and I like, oh my God, I must browsing all through. And the prices, are very cheap okay? Like, I want to spend my whole pocket money here.

Okay. Exaggerating.

Because I don't know how to get there (lame KL-ian), I asked my mother if she want to go and she agreed. And of course, my little brother tag along.

I bought this four books for myself, and some kid's activity books for my brother. And only cost RM40. And all of my four books are hard covered.

I can't actually afford to go through everything as my little brother always wanted to play, you know, kids. So, maybe I'll be back there again next week. Hopefully I can manage some time.

So, till then. Happy reading. Wohoo!

The Sweet Escape.

2012-12-13T00:45:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum.

Someone have been missing me, I guess. Because I haven't write anything for days, and I take a look at my statistic review, well, there always someone came and visit my blog. It's either happy or creepy or both at the same time. Because either I have some loyal readers or lunatic stalkers. HAHAHA!

Hello there, enjoy your reading.

So, I've been busy for pass (or past?) these days (same sentence over and over again). Last Saturday I was helping my friend to move over to her new house and went to the PC fair. Nothing much to brag about that PC fair. Just doing some sight-seeing ~~and boyfriend hunting~~.

Things have happened in my life, and I stressed out. And it's been a coincidence that my friend asked me out on Tuesday as it was a public holiday for those who works at the state of Selangor. She asked me if I interested to go and do some climbing. And of course, I say YES!

We went to FRIM (Forest Research Institute of Malaysia). We have to pay RM 6 (RM 4 for car and each person RM 1) before enter, as we are too lazy to park our car outside.

This is me, took some rest after the climbing. They have mini waterfall there. It is really nice to have a break, and of course, your photo taken candidly. WOHOHO! Feels like a model. Puihh!

It is quite nice actually to be close to nature some time after everyday you have to face machines and unpredictable humans. I felt very calm and I have fun there. I hope I will find some time to come again here.

If possible, can you recommend me some nice place to go nearby Kuala Lumpur or Selangor? I plan to have a day out once a month. You know, to keep me sane, and well-balance.

There was a staff meeting earlier at my office, about our company trip for next year. Since I'm new, so I unable to join to Dongbei, Northeast China, where weather there are mostly down to minus 23. Most of the staff are complaining because they know they can't cope with the damn cold weather, but I wonder if my big boss will change his idea. Still, I hope I can join them though. I don't think that I will go there by myself, because I'm not that brave. But if I have some company, why not?

But, you know what? In my dream. HAHAHA!

Sometimes, when I got back home from a hectic working day, I just wish to get married to some man with money and he can afford to take me to everywhere that I want.

But, again... In my dream. I know.

"I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired. I know right now you don't care. But soon enough you're gonna think of me, and how I used to be...me"

Thanks for reading, I'll write more in future. Good night.

p/s: do you ever wonder that my writing always anti climax?

Are You Javanese Enough?

2012-12-06T20:52:00.002+08:00

I keep listening to this song quite some time. Introduced by my colleague, at first I don't understand what they're singing even though I have Javanese's blood in me. So I'd Googled, around to find the meaning of this song. Turn out that this song have a beautiful meaning behind the sweet melody.

I'd copy from here though.

Let's enjoice this. ;)

Lir-ilir, tandure wis sumilir

The wind breezes so gentle on the rice fields

Tak ijo royo-royo tak sengguh temanten anyar

So green, that theyll make you proud if you present them to a newly weds

Cah angon, cah angon, penekna blimbing kuwi

O you, you shepherd boy, climb that star-fruit,

Lunyu-lunyu penekna kanggo mbasuh dodot ira

even if it’s hard to climb, climb it you shall not give up since we need the star-fruit to wash our clothes

Dodot ira, dodot ira kumitir bedhah ing pinggir

Our clothes, yes our clothes have some defects. They were torn on some parts,

Dondomana jlumatana kanggo seba mengko sore

We have to sew them, stitch them, do some needlework on them Do you remember that this evening we will meet our King?

Mumpung padhang rembulane, mumpung jembar kalangane

Don’t hold it up, don’t waste our time! While likely the moon will be full this eve, While the sky is bright and we still have lots of time.

Yo surak a… surak hore…

So, let’s celebrate this! Let’s celebrate our chance to make a perfect meeting!

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The Metaphor

1. green (a point where to start the life. In Javanese the word ilir – sumilir may transform into nglilir which means awake from sleep before planned time to wake up. From this, the first line may imply “a wake up call”)

2. mature (married or taking a serious oath; the word temanten – manten may mean both being married and being attached to a serious oath) struggling (climb the slippery tree OR we may interpret that the tree itself is not slippery but the soles and feet of cah angon [the shepherd]covered with mud and dirt makes it hard to climb the tree OR it means that the obstacles are from ourselves) – redefining oneself (wash the clothes AND let’s not forget that when one wants to wash his clothes, he must wash his hands and feet) - making amends (do some needlework) [continuously while we still have lots of time]

3. struggling (climb the slippery tree OR we may interpret that the tree itself is not slippery but the soles and feet of cah angon [the shepherd]covered with mud and dirt makes it hard to climb the tree OR it means that the obstacles are from ourselves) – redefining oneself (wash the clothes AND let’s not forget that when one wants to wash his clothes, he must wash his hands and feet) - making amends (do some needlework) [continuously while we still have lots of time]

4. perfect evening (died – a meeting with The King).

Hobby.

2012-11-30T11:41:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum, and hi. ;)

One of my favourite things to do of I have some leisure time is READING. Yes people, I like to read. A LOT. Whether it is a book, novel, article, magazine or even blog. What I read most are, of course, fictional novel, and biography of influenced people.

I start reading when I know how to read. (Duhh...) When I was a kid, during school holiday I was often sent to my village by parents. When I was there, I will stay at my uncle's house, a teacher and his wife too. So, they have a big cabinet or book shelf. Most of them are educational books. But there are some books for their children too. And then, the other cousin too, who apparently a true collector of some investigation novel like Nancy Drew and Hardy's Boys. I often read his, and sometimes he have to lock his locker in order didn't want me to mess up his novels. --"

When I was younger, I was also a true collector of that investigation teen novel, and some comics like 'Sailormoon', 'Dragon Ball', and 'Detective Conan'. But I don't know what happen, since I was admitted to a school which far away from home, when I came back, most of the books and comics are gone. Damn it!

I didn't buy any new novel, book, or comic since then. I just borrow from some friends and libraries.

Finally when I started to work, and gain my own sweat money, I start to buy books again. This time mostly I buy motivation books, novel and biography. At first I planned to buy a book in a month. But whenever I entered the book store, I tend to have a book with me when I came out, even if I don't have much money.

So, I just promised to my self to go ONLY to book carnival, where I can buy a lot of books that cost me less. But still, there got some website that I can buy books without any constraints. Sometimes I rather don't eat in order to buy books. --"

And yes, I just bought 6 novels just now through online purchasing. Damn it!

Lastly, I will do some review on what I had actually read and share with you, whoever read my blog. But it take some times right now to read the books, my previous one, which I bought before, most of them I actually not yet finish. What to do, I am a busy kepohchi lady. I promise my self to finish them, and share the thoughts and reviews. So, I will have a segment in my blog regarding this book review.

Before I forget,

Just don't miss this out guys.

K, bye. Have a nice weekend!

Life Purpose.

2012-11-29T12:23:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum, hi. ;)

You know, before I'm off to sleep at night, my mind always wander and wonder about lot of things. Mostly about my self, like, am I satisfied with the day I went through today, or did I actually done something that I won't regret if I die next morning?

Will I be regret if I do something, or will I be regret if I've done nothing at all?

I'm still young, will be 24 next year. Can that be excuses that I can delay something that I want to achieve in my life? Sometimes, when I have the passion to do something, eventually there will be some invisible negative forces that pull me on hold.

Before I'm off to bed every night, I always ask my self, what are actually that I have achieved today? Mostly, the I answer I'll get will be NOTHING. NOTHING that I have actually done. I am really upset with my self.

23...

23 years, I have live in this world, I still contribute nothing to my self, my family and others, and this world. What will happen if I die tomorrow? Will everyone that knew me will be sad that I'm gone? Or they don't even notice that I actually live in among them? I want to make my self valuable to others, that everyone still remember me even if I died years ago.

SO, what actually the purpose that Allah have sent me to this world? Did I actually fulfill the task that I've been given? Did I make my parents and family proud of me? Or did my life just wasted away like that?

I have a dream. I want to inspire people. I want to be like those people that I'd admire so much.

Taken from The Buried Life's Facebook

But how am I going to inspire others, when what I actually do is hurt people around me.

These thoughts constantly running through my head. But still I've done nothing about it. And I am really, really tired.

Yes, I am lost. I still wondering which road should I take, which journey should I choose.

With the name of Allah, the most generous, the most merciful

By (the Token of) Time (through the ages),

Verily Man is in loss,

Except such as have Faith, and do righteous deeds, and (join together) in the mutual teaching of Truth, and of Patience and Constancy.

Al-'Asr (103:1-3)

I am the man (women) who is in loss.

I Passed My Exam

2012-11-25T21:07:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum, hi.

It's been a week since my last post. And I've noticed from my viewer statistic that shows that my blog have it's reader even though I have not post anything new. Thank you for reading, who ever you are.

It's also been a stressful week for me. I can't sleep for almost this week because I have two test to be done. One is my motorcycle's JPJ test, which I failed. And the other one is my Takaful Basic Exam, which I failed last time, and have to repeat it again.

And, ta daaa! I made it!

I don't know how to face my team leader if I failed it again. Ohhh!

If I want to get my licence in order to be Takaful Insurance's agent, I have to complete three exam which are PCE, Investment Link and TBE. I completed the previous two long time ago and both exam passed. And syukur, this TBE also passed.

And now, the pressure will begin. HAHA! I really need this, in order to keep my mind preoccupied.

Okay, till then. See you when I see you.

The Season. Part 2

2012-11-19T09:50:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum and Hi.

Apart of this rainy season, this time around at Malaysia is now actually are school holiday. Yeay for the students!

In Malaysia, school holiday means a perfect time for some of us to held a wedding or engagement ceremony. And I was like, Ya Allah, there are so many ceremony to attend to. And if I can split my self into 2 or 3 person, I think I will attending EVERYONE'S kenduri!

For my friends who get married or engaged, congratulations and barakallahumawabarakah! May Allah blessing be upon you and your life partner. I am truly sorry, if I'm not be able to attend your ceremony (for those who invited me). I try my best though to attend all of the ceremony.

So, last Saturday I was attend one of my closest friend during my uni time ceremony, we were late actually and the ceremony is done. But LUCKILY, they still got foods for late comers like us. :3

Photo of the newly wed and us.

Credit to Ismail. Took this photo from his Instagram.

Congratulations Yaqeen and Luqman. Thanks for inviting us.

And uh, uhmm... Everyone, please meet my new life partner, 'Adam'.

Please not be mistaken, 'Adam' is behind me, not the person beside me. HAHA! Yes, I finally bought a car. So, after I get my 'P' license, I can freely take 'him' whenever I want. Right now, he is resting at my father's house. Ohh, I miss 'him'.

So, till then. Bye for now.