Mind of a Muslimah

lonely

noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Wed, 25 Jan 2012 20:09:00 +0000

"I said I want to be alone, not because I thought I'd be happy alone. I thought that if I loved someone, and it fell apart- I would never be able to pick up the pieces. "

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just deal with it?

noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Wed, 25 Jan 2012 19:54:00 +0000

For many of us, when someone's attitude goes south, so does our care for them.

It doesn't feel good to have a bad attitude, but it may be worse to be on the receiving end of one. For many people, being the brunt of someone else's bad attitude is stimulation for having one of their own!

How do you deal with being the dumping ground of someone's bad attitude without striking back in like manner?

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Hurts Me lyrics

noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Mon, 23 Jan 2012 16:16:00 +0000

I'm standin' at the fork in the road, and I Don't really know which way to go, it's like 17 years ago all over again, and I, I I'm a little girl lost alone, and yes I wanna know what lies ahead, and yeah, my Feet are planted & I don't wanna take a step

Cause I won't make it any further with you on my back Carry a burden & I can't do it this time, goodbye Then again, do I listen to my heart, do I cry for help I keep second guessing myself, why Does it have to be so (Be so) Hard to let you go (Whoa-ouh)

Its almost sun down (Ahh) I gotta put my foot down And I know if I do It's gonna hurt me

More than it hurts you (uhh) I know how much you need me Breaks my heart, believe me (Ahh) Now I know what I gotta do But it's gonna hurt me

More than it hurts you More than it hurts you More than it hurts you But it's gonna hurt me More than it hurts you More than it hurts you (Cause I don't, hey) More than it hurts you But it gonna hurt me

Now ordinarily I wouldn't give up, i'm no quitter But under the circumstance I think it's better that I wash my hands of ya, love ya (I) But i'm thinkin' that I can't live with ya Can't live without ya, It's something about ya, That makes me wanna stick around & stay Settle down Even if it kills me but I can't

Cause I won't make it any further with you on my back Carry a burden & I can't do it this time, Goodbye (Do it this time, goodbye) Then again, do I listen to my heart Don't I cry for help (Ahh, hey) I keep second guessing myself, why Does it have to be so ( Be so ) Hard to let you go (Whoa-ouh)

Its almost sun down (Ahh) I gotta put my foot down And I know if I do It's gonna hurt me More than it hurts you (Uhh) I know how much you need me Breaks my heart, believe me (Ahh) Now I know what I gotta do But it's gonna hurt me (It's gonna hurt me)

More than it hurts you (Hurts you) More than it hurts you (Hurts you) More than it hurts you (More than it hurt) But it's gonna hurt me More than it hurts you (Hurts you, yeah) More than it hurts you (Cause I don't, hey) More than it hurts you (Ouh, why) But it's gonna hurt me (Walked, wait, realize)

Cause I You got me walked, wait, realize

Cause I

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noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Mon, 23 Jan 2012 01:22:00 +0000

People need loving the most when they deserve it the least

John Harrigan quotes

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noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Mon, 23 Jan 2012 01:20:00 +0000

If a condescending joke is truly funny, make yourself the subject- you will increase the number of people laughing by at least one.

Joe Harsel quotes

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noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Fri, 20 Jan 2012 20:08:00 +0000

Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end

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noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Fri, 20 Jan 2012 20:07:00 +0000

I'm tired of being questioned and accused, quite frankly I'm just tired

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noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Fri, 20 Jan 2012 19:25:00 +0000

Did you think I was happy? Silly little boy, I only wanted to be happy. Sure, in your arms I was happy, but as soon as you let go I would cry. You only made things worse for me. You showed me how great life could be and then just as quickly you took it all away.

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random thoughts

noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Fri, 20 Jan 2012 18:32:00 +0000

“Consider how hard it is to change yourself and you'll understand what little chance you have in trying to change others.”

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definition of mental illness

noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Fri, 13 Jan 2012 22:24:00 +0000

I'm starting to wonder if my negative surroundings and people are affecting me physically. I feel sick hearing and dealing with negative people, myself included.

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apology

noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Thu, 12 Jan 2012 04:31:00 +0000

Apology

How do I tell you I'm sorry -With a gesture, a look, a touch? How is it I never realized I hurt you so very much?

I do not ask forgiveness, A comfort I'll never deserve. I merely want to let you know, But I cannot find the nerve.

To finally confront you, face-to-face, To look you in the eye, To face your wrath, your apathy -Too terrified to try.

You called me selfish, I turned away, I festered and I fled; Cutting and wounding and lashing out, Just to see if you bled.

Betraying and deceiving you, I surely had no right To snatch away such a precious gem; A dark thief in the night.

3 months and forever passed To bring us to this day, When I present these simple words I never thought to say.

The time has come, it's long past due, To put aside my fear; Would this confession torture you, Or have you longed to hear?

To hear those forbidden words, To vanquish all the pain, To understand my dearest wish: To know you once again.

The months aged me remarkably, Though they have not made me wise; I do know I erred irrevocably -For that I apologize.

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Fresh Start

noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Mon, 09 Jan 2012 20:00:00 +0000

Fresh starts, that's what the new year is really about. Having a blank page to start on. It's like when you're finally tired of being the same way you've been. You realize its time to step it up and you realize in order to do that you have to clean the slate.

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Black Friday Sales

noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Thu, 24 Nov 2011 00:32:00 +0000

I'm debating if I should try and get some bargains this Friday but I don't really want to deal with the crowds of people pushing shoving all for the sake of materialism. I may snap if someone was to push me at this point. I could use some new clothes but I should try and save. Dilemma.

theres some good ones left

noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Sat, 22 Oct 2011 00:42:00 +0000

domestic violence

noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Fri, 21 Oct 2011 00:28:00 +0000

A girlfriend that i havent seen since her baby shower called me today crying that her husband is abusing her and her baby. Hearing her cry just broke my heart, i felt there was nothing I could do because she was just scared into believing his threats. She is all alone in her mind and cant even go to her parents for help that live upstairs from them. This sucks. She lives far away from me so I cant even see her.

qaddafi killed

noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Fri, 21 Oct 2011 00:19:00 +0000

I almost wonder why they needed to put such graphic pictures of a killed person. Do they think we wont believe them as the media? Im sure there would be plenty of speculation since the media has shown in recent years how reliable they really are. But to glorify death like this just shows how little humanity seems to be left in society. But I just wonder what is next for the Libyan people

i hate texting

noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Sun, 16 Oct 2011 23:05:00 +0000

I know texting is supposed to be convenient and all but when did it become a substitute for real human interaction? I mean if someone has the time to text a conversation with me for over 10 minutes, why not just call me? Just so I don't have to sit there and peck at this tiny keyboard while trying to keep up with the constant boxes popping up on the screen. A conversation by text that's close to 20 minutes long that could have easily been knocked out by voice in 7 minutes. Its really aggravating that ill call people in the middle of a long text battle and they don't answer but text me, I cant talk right now, uh hellooooo but you have time to write me ten million messages? That's my rant for the hour...

work it out

noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Wed, 05 Oct 2011 16:50:00 +0000

I made it to the gym yesterday with the little guy. He loves going anywhere he can play with kids since he is usually around adults 24/7. When I go to get him he is usually playing by himself happy. He is also getting used to sleeping in his own bed and I think we are getting closer to him sleeping through the entire night. He still wakes up frequently calling out for me, but quickly goes back to sleep. I'm not sure why he wakes so frequently crying. Maybe some moms and dads have had similar experiences? I hate working out in front of a bunch of buff guys that all seem to gawk at any woman in the weight area. But I enjoy the increased energy and decreased stress and depressive episodes. Hope I can make it today.

been a long time

noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Mon, 03 Oct 2011 16:47:00 +0000

So, its been a long time posted anything. Obviously, life goes on and so much has happened to me. Going through a divorce, raising my son, working full time, all while trying to go to school and get my higher degree. Dealing with friends and family while attempting to stay sane. Alhamduillah. I'm so blessed for the love and support of my friends and family. Ramadan was awesome even though I didn't go to as many iftars at friends or the mosque as I had anticipated. Another birthday has passed and I just feel older lol none the wiser. At the best, I'm taking care of my little one and I'm looking out for better job opportunities. Even though the economy is not at its best I'm still trying to be positive and grateful for the benefits Allah has given me.

ramadan mubarak

noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Thu, 04 Aug 2011 15:50:00 +0000

Ramadan Mubarak everyone

Ding Dong the Witch is Dead

noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Tue, 03 May 2011 03:44:00 +0000

Osama dead...end post.

why

noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Fri, 18 Mar 2011 03:54:00 +0000

So i went shopping for some milk and baby food and as im leaving the grocery store a man is shot and i get to see him laying on the ground...

alhamduillah he is ok it was not a fatal shot. 20 years old... it just makes you thankful to be alive and near your loved ones seeing too much pain in the world. Get to work and i find a crack pipe on the lawn....Lord why?

Cant focus on the tasks ahead. Cant focus on work, school, relationships, or even prayer. Just trying to get by day to day. Such a low feeling to have. Cant bother to pray or put my hijab on. I feel sick physically and spiritually.

Cant motivate myself to better myself or situation. Cant shake this dark cloud...miserable.

I need duas

noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Thu, 17 Mar 2011 03:51:00 +0000

So i havent been posting as much, and its mainly due to personal problems. My mind is not clear and Im losing my focus spiritually. Keep me in your prayers....

Lost

noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Tue, 08 Feb 2011 05:26:00 +0000

How do i get back to that place

Im running like a train off the track

Wondering how Ill ever get back

Like taking Pelham 123

Going every which way, trying to break free

Free from the stresses of everyday life

Feeling nothing but sorrow, pain, and strife

In a dark tunnel, nothing bright

Up, up ahead, I think I see light

Coming head on, no where to run

Life comes at you then its over and done.

Christians Protecting Muslims in Egypt

noreply@blogger.com (Nawal) — Fri, 04 Feb 2011 03:15:00 +0000

Christians Protect Muslims as they Pray in Egypt

In contradistinction to the vapid antagonizers who wish to see a religious war between Muslims and Christians there are those souls who are willing to stand up for religious freedom — and thankfully they are an overwhelming majority!