Misadventures of a Chunky Goddess

didn't ya know???

2012-03-06T16:36:00.001-05:00

I MOVED!

come find my ass... just click the button & follow along!

i miss ya!!

xxoo
cyn

my blog is moving!

2012-01-22T21:11:00.001-05:00

day: 140
merry sunday blogdom!

well after many snafu’s, the inability to read a good portion of my fave blog’s let alone comment on them & the final straw where i can’t even edit my own freakin’ posts – i am bailing on blogger.
it’s been fun & blogger is certainly the best format to learn the in’s & out’s of bloggin (not that i am some expert – far from it) – but it’s time to move on down the road.
plus it’s cool to be a dot com now!
i hope you guys will still follow along – i will be following all of my faves still & commenting as always.

because i am not a blogspot blogger – you won’t be able to follow me in the traditional way.
so i have some coolio options for ya!
1. you can sign up for email notifications of new posts.
2. add me to your blogroll.
3. follow me on google+ .
4. or even facebook?
5. or twitter?
6. or ALL five!
whatever blows your skirt up !

so without further adieu…
here is my new location:
http://thechunkygoddess.com/
or just click here to go right there!
everything from this blog was imported to the new site -- i am still under construction & researching web hosts – but i can do the basic bloggin’ as is.
i will never delete my blogger blogs but the new blog will be the only blog i will be posting in from now on – even my purple goddess blog is going dark.

so adios blogger --- i will always have a soft spot for ya no matter how much of a spiteful, heartless whore you may be…
heh!

peace, l♥ve & margaritas bloggy peeps!
xxoo
cyn

weigh-in vol.19

2012-01-20T19:43:00.006-05:00

day 138:
tee gee eye eff blogdom!
i’m backkkkkk…

so today was my weigh-in & I really wasn’t feeling it & was pretty confident that i was looking @ a gain. not much but a gain nonethless…

it’s been a bizarro week.
a little funkish & my head just wasn’t in the game.
but i did what i do (tracking, eating good, working out daily) & believe it or not – i stayed the same!
(my actual weight tracker!)
i will gladly take it & kinda nice to know that i can maintain.
(the daily workouts are the key!)(yeah here is my mug -- not my best photo but taken today!)

moving along…
after my rant yesterday about blogger (still being a dickhead to me even after following some suggestions & now won’t let me edit my own freakin’ posts) & how i was considering wordpress… yadda yadda.
well i was playing around on wordpress last night & decided to try and import some things from this blog just to see if i liked it.
i get it all imported and this pops up on my wordpress dashboard:

warning: we have a concern about some of the content on your blog. please click here to contact us as soon as possible to resolve the issue and re-enable posting.

are you fucking kidding me?
wordpress hates me too?

so i was on lockdown @ wordpress all last night & i gotta tell ya – this does NOT impress me.
i realize i am not some g-rated mommy/crafty/sunshine shooting out my ass kinda blog – but am i SO bad that I need to have my content reviewed?!?!?!
just didn’t seem right?
then i got this email this morning…

Hi,
Our apologies. The system should not have done that.
We have removed the warning in your dashboard and sincerely apologize for any inconvenience it may have caused.
--
Anthony
WordPress.com

well thankin’ you anthony!
apparently a fluke but still… i had barely finished importing from blogger and wham-o – shut the fuck down!?!?!
i will stop now.

and i gotta tell ya folks…
despite the whole *lockdown* issue -- i am diggin’ wordpress.
especially with the upheaval of GFC, blogger & google+ going on.
i am still kinda lost about all that!?!
google+ is the new way to keep track of blogs/followers?
i dunno???
if anyone knows for sure – enlighten us dimwits (that would be ME) who are just clueless!

but as you can see i have been giving this blog a little facelift – so i haven’t totally jumped ship yet.
just trying out a new look . i like it – simple & to the point.
i am aiming for a *lifestyle blog*.
i wanna meld my two blogs by continuing to write about weight loss & my journey while incorporating my day-to-day life more.
with that being said -- i thought it better not to have butts & boobs on my header.
but for the record – i ♥ butts & boobs!
A L O T
i will miss them…

another change is that after this weekend i am giving the *no more muffin top hop* a indefinite break. not that i don’t like doing it – it’s just time.

where this blog will go from here – not sure?
but my goal is to make it better!
like the bionic blog!
yeahhhhhh!

before I wrap this up – lemme end by saying that i have THREE birthday parties to attend this weekend. one for my cousin’s little girl (movie theater party – we will be seeing beauty & the beast on the big screen in 3 D!!!!), another for my bff’s daughter, and brian (my hunny) turns 38 on sunday! (that’s right – i am rockin’ that cradle like a MoFo!)
for the record – i am NOT going there where the birthday cake & movie popcorn are concerned. doing so will only lead to utter ugliness!

peace, l♥ve & rock on bloggy peeps!
xxoo
cyn

no more muffin top weekend blog hop -- vol.16

2012-01-20T08:16:00.003-05:00

day 138:
tee gee eye eff blogdom & welcome to…

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and because i was asked last week…
(via blogaholicnetwork.com)

Here are the basic Q&A's on blog hops:
1) What is a blog hop? A blog hop also called a link up is basically a widget, called a linky, that allows bloggers to add their blog to a list. The list can be on multiple sites or may just be on the site of the blogger hosting the hop.
2) What is the purpose of a blog hop? Blog hops allow you to visit other blogs, follow blogs you like, and gain followers.
3) How do I participate? It's easy, just follow the rules the host has left. Sometimes the host asks that you place the blog hop button on your site or in a post, others have no rules. You then add your blog to the list and then visit other blog from the list. When you find blogs you enjoy follow them and leave a comment.
4) Why should I leave a comment? Leaving a comment allows the blogger to know that you are now following them. However, there are a few rules of etiquette:
■Don't spam bloggers
■Don't ask bloggers to visit your site and follow you
■Try to leave a sincere comment. Comment on the post or their blog in general and then let them know you are stopping by from the blog hop. No need to ask them to stop by your blog, if they are participating they already know how it works.
5) How long is a blog hop? Blog hops typically last one day although some may last an entire weekend and specialty blog hops may last a week or more.
6) How many blogs should I visit? As many as you would like. Visiting blogs through blog hops takes time so you may not get to everyone on the list, the great things is most blog hops are weekly events so you can stop back b next week.
7) How do I find blog hops? We have a list of member blog hops here on the community. You can check out our member blog hop list here. Also many bloggers have buttons for blog hops in their sidebars if you see one that catches your eye click on it and usually you will be brought to the site that hosts the hop and you can find out more.
VERY IMPORTANT:
If you plan on attending blog hops to gain followers make sure you have a way for new followers to follow you. You can add the GFC widget to the sidebar of your blog ot if you use Blogger add the followers widget.

i hope that helps with some of the newer blogs & bloggers!
now for my hop…
as usual – no rules – link up whatever ya like – even giveaways & other hops!
rockin’ the hop button is always nice & i über appreciate all of you that do!
and if ya find a new blog that blows your skirt up – follow along & be sure to leave them a nice comment saying hello & tell them ya found them on *the no more muffin top* hop.
that’s it – easy peasy!

happiest friday & i will be back tonight to report on my weigh-in…
i feel a gain coming on & i am already okay with & prepared for it!

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta this diem!
xxoo
cyn

***blogger is still not allowing me to do basic editing like fonts/size/color & i think it sucks ass bigger than doo-dah***

blogger vs. wordpress

2012-01-19T16:46:00.006-05:00

day 137:
happy day-before-weigh-in bloggy peeps!

so i wanna kick blogger square in the gonads today.
yes it has balls – big, smug, uncooperative balls.

i have been having serious issue with this site for a week or better -- amongst the minor issues i have had for eons.
but lately i am unable to comment on certain blogs – not all – just certain ones? i can read the blog but if i hit the comment button either the whole page freezes or goes white?
and no it is not on my end. i have done everything possible – from upgrading my java & browser to screaming “FUCK YOU” right at my pc.
but then i enabled the “reply” feature (part of bloggers upgrades i might add) for my own comment form & now i cannot even do that on my own frickin’ blog?!?!
WHAT THE FUCK BLOGGER!?!?!?!

so i thought back to the last time i griped about blogger -- how i cannot stay signed into my own blog otherwise it becomes a total clusterfuck – and robin (massholemommy) told me then that i needed to take the plunge & dump blogger right on it’s ass for wordpress.

so i started puttering around on wordpress today…
the thing is – i ♥ blogger. i love the community of amazing peeps (that would be you!) that i have been fortunate enough to come across & i love that blogger was my first “real” blog site. (i blogged way back when it was called journaling…)
but…
blogger SUCKS!
at least for me lately it does.
and i am super leery of this whole swap to google blogs (or whatever the fuck they are gonna call it) & what a giant snafu that will be?
so i might be bailing ship…

i have been considering a few changes to my blog – nothing drastic – this will ALWAYS be about my journey & i will NEVER censor my posts, words, thoughts, etc.
sorry, you are stuck with my high heel wearing, eff bomb dropping ass!

but maintaining one blog is hard enough – let alone two – so i have been trying to find a way to transistion the two into one. and the truth is – i am much more a chunky goddess than a purple goddess any day.
i love my purple goddess blog – but i am not a *mommy blogger* in that traditional sense & this blog has always felt more like me from day one.

so that is where i am at…
i know some of you use & love wordpress & i am curious as to how hard the transition is?
did you swap all your blogger goodies to wordpress?
do you find it easier?
any input is greatly appreciated!

and to my die-hard blogger peeps (obviously blogger likes you!) – would ya still follow me if i jump ship & go to the *dark side*????

weigh-in & meeting tomorrow – i know i said this last week but i feel like i might have a little gain – just haven’t been on my game this week & i swear when your head isn’t in it the rest follows…
we’ll see?

happy thursday!

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta this diem!
xxoo
cyn

can you fucking believe that as i am posting this i am having MAJOR issues editing this post?!?!?! are the blogger police watching me or has blogger completely shit the bed?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

getting uncomfortable...

2012-01-18T08:17:00.006-05:00

day 136:

merry wednesday-ness blogdom!
hold on – this might be long-winded…

so i wrote on monday that i was in a slump & not having the best of days…
(i have had a few lately truth be told)
between the holidays & then my little girl getting so sick – i think it has been really hard to get back into the swing of things?
i was going through the motions & doing the things i needed to do – but i am certainly not going out of my way to exert any energy to push life past my *comfort zone*…
meh.

i know this is so cliché – but…

(ya know i gotta toss the jillian wisdom in there every now & again)

so yesterday i am took my existance back…
i choose not to exist in the meh where I feel incapable & a little unwilling.
instead…
i am choosing to kickass & push myself past the point of no return. because i do not want to return to that icky blah feeling!
i know sometimes in depression you can’t always will yourself outta the funks – but sometimes you most certainly can. motivation comes from many sources but the kind that counts the most comes from within…

moving along & going in a totally different direction but i do have a point to this…
so yesterday i had a teeth cleaning but let me state this right up front – i am not dentist friendly.
and i know this is horrible but i let a lot of years pass without a visit (just keeping it honest no matter how embarrassing that is). and as hypocritical as this may sound – nothing skeeves me more than fucked up teeth. sorry if that’s offensive & bitchy – but that’s how i feel & i know how ass backwards that sounds coming from someone who avoids the dentist like the plague!
not making lame excuses but you know how it is when you are in your 20s & 30s – you think you’re invincible & nothing will ever happen to you. well i learned the hard way that isn’t the case. i finally relented & saw a dentist a little over a year ago & surprisingly, minus a few minor cavities & the need for a deep cleaning my teeth were a-okay. i mean i am not some grub – i do brush several times a day – totally suck at flossing though & i got my ass chewed for that.
but i digress…
so last year i was on track to getting back to regular dental care & then my shit former job got insane & i totally missed my last two appointments for another cleaning & one last cavitiy to be taken care of.
fast forward a year + later & here i am back at square one. now i have three very small cavitites (grrrr really?!?!) & my teeth needed a deep cleaning.
my last cleaning a year ago wasn’t the best experience – i am sorry but that shit effin’ hurts & i loathe that feeling of the metal hook thingy scraping my teeth – it’s like fingernails on a chalkboard to me!
(my freakazoid anal retentive dental flossing boyfriend LOVES to get his teeth cleaned?!?!)
but at least the hygentist was super nice & very attentive to my chicken shit needs.
well yesterday i got the OTHER hygentist.
the eva braun of dental hygiene i might add.
this bitch MUST work out because i thought for sure she was ripping my teeth out or at the very least scraping the enamel off of them!
it was fucking horrible & i swear i am traumatized. (okay i might be exaggerating but it sucked gorilla nuts for sure!)
but…
i don’t think my teeth have been this clean since the 1980s.
i will be seeing my dentist for four mondays in a row starting on january 30th to get the fillings taken care of (why we can’t do this all in one go i dunno?) & i already have my appointment in july for another deep cleaning (shivers).
i am vowing to not let another year go by without being a good dental patient – no matter how much it scares the crap outta me! because this is what i need to do to be healthy & the best me possible!

which brings me to my point…
i know i have said this before but this journey i am on is about so much more than a number on the scale/losing weight.
it might be the thing that motivated me to get off my ass & has brough me a lot of self-esteem -- but 4 ½ months in & i realize it is about so much more.
it is about taking care of myself – body, mind & soul & becoming the best me i can be!
sometimes that means getting uncomfortable (yeah that again) & doing things that i might not like, that don’t feel so hot, or are not fun.
but that is life & i would rather be living life good & bad than burying my head in a proverbial hole & being that girl who turned a blind eye & didn’t lead her own life.
and if something mundane like the dentist steers me even further in that direction – then bring it on!

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta this diem!
xxoo
cyn
p.s.
I missed biggest loser last night because goddess group resummed this week – but I will be watching it tonight!

wanna contact me in a more personal manner than my comment form? feel free to email me: chunkygoddess@verizon.net !

coasting...

2012-01-16T20:00:00.004-05:00

day 134:

monday monday bloggerville!

i am waving the white flag…
i am officially in a foul mood, tired & life is kickin’ my ass.
okay – well the foul mood & tired part is true at least – life kicks everyone’s ass – what makes me so fuckin’ special?
i have seemed to have lost my mojo in the past week or so?
i am still doing what i do but some days lately it has been a total struggle.
i am still tracking my food & eating well…
still doing my daily dose of jillian…
but i am not putting forth any extra effort to push myself a little harder.

i want to run…
but i haven’t -- not since that one day last week i got the wild hair across my ass...
and i haven’t a valid excuse so i won’t even try to muster one up for good measure!
maybe i need some of this?
i’m in a funk – it happens – and trust me, with my depression i am used to this – only a million times worse & more often.
the old me woulda done this to ease the pain…
the new me says *fuck that noise!*
it will pass & i will kick it back into high gear but for now i am just coasting along…

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta this diem!
xxoo
cyn

**wanna contact me in a more personal manner than my comment form? feel free to email me: chunkygoddess@verizon.net.

lazy sunday with pinterest vol.8 : the dream wedding edition

2012-01-15T16:16:00.008-05:00

day 133:
between xmas, new year’s & a sick child it has been a few weeks since i have posted but…
welcome to…

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the dream wedding edition!
this is my homage to one of my most favorite addictions/past times – pinterest.
if you are pinhead like me – come find me!

so as i reported earlier this week – i finally fit in my wedding dress -- which is a HUMONGOUS turning point in my relationship.
brian & i are totally committed to one another wedding or not – but i do want to marry him (despite draggin my feet for a year +) & now that i am feeling more confident (and better) in my own skin – let the wedding planning commence!
so this post is filled with wedding perfection in my brain & if money were no object – i would be more than dreaming…
but enough gabbing – let’s get to the goodies!

you’re invited!
something like this would probably rile the family up & be talked about for ages to come… the antagonist is me l♥ves it!
theminted.com

if i were to have my perfect dream wedding it would be outdoors in perfect 70-75 degree weather going late into the evening as dancing under the stars would be a dream come true.
it would be casual, easy going, & most of all FUN!

the ceremony…
definitely outdoors at dusk… i want to say my vows amongst family, friends & nature!
purple fabulosity!
(uploaded by user)

this is heavenly…
(uploaded by user)

my dress…
i am just not the foo-foo princess dress type. i LOVE it on other people – just not me.
these are more my style…

this is about as *formal* as I would ever get & simply because I adore elie saab –- he is the master of gowns. but i still feel like this just isn’t me? oh who am i kiddin' -- i would rock the shit outta this gown... heh!
a tale of four cities

this is very me & very similar to my dress (only mine isn't that short) – even in my dream wedding i would choose my current dress.
(uploaded by user)

i am on the fence where veils are concerned – but if i do decide to go the veil route – this type of veil with the netting is perfection! ( i even love the hair!)
wearable artz – etsy shop

and i MOST definitely will be wearing purple shoes…
dress2sale.com

i am also not planning on bridesmaids as i know that not everyone considers that an honor – heh. but in my dream wedding they would have no choice & i would love something like this! mismatched dresses of the bridesmaid's choice (minus the red though) in the shade of purple & style of their choice.
martha stewart weddings

the reception…
i dream of long tables, all of my guests dining together – NO head table, round tables & seating charts. good music, dancing, a beautifully catered meal (with a vegan option), served by a professional wait staff, great wine, candles, flowers, strings of lights & simplicity…

s w o o n – this is my wedding dream!
style me pretty

dancing outdoors under a lit tree & the stars? yes, yes, YES!
martha stewart weddings

open bar of course– i adore the chandelier hanging from the tree!
snippet & ink

centerpieces annoy me – especially the ginormous tall ones that you have to look around to see the person sitting across from you. i like a more simplistic approach. fresh flowers, white candles, clear dishes & glasses.
style me pretty

i love the idea of individual little angel cakes. i absolutely abhor the whole cut the cake thing & smashing me in the face with my own wedding cake will NEVER happen! no offense to peeps who like that – that just annoys me!
martha stewart weddings

wedding favors WILL be some sort of live plant/flower in a pot that hopefully my guests will plant and/or tend to! my 1st choice would be succulents because i love them so!
the wedding chicks blog

OR…
i could say frig this & let disney plan & do the whole thing & fly everyone i know & love to disney world for the wedding of a lifetime?!?! heh.
disney event photography

like i have said before – i totally lack the bridal gene (although i am pretty opinionated about what i like & don’t like huh?). i love to watch other people go over-the-top but for me that seems obscene? even if money were no option i could never justify $40,000 for a gown & hundreds of thousands of dollars for the wedding itself.
gimme the simple life any day!
(bridal gene or not – this was fun!)

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn
if ya’ll feel like takin’ a gander --- go check out my mama/photography blog the purple goddess & follow along!

weigh-in vol.18

2012-01-13T20:13:00.005-05:00

day 131:
happy tee gee eye effin eff bloggyhood!

so let’s get to the goods shall we?
weigh-in went better than i thought – i was down .6lbs & ya know down is always better than up so yeehaw!

we (my mom & i – she is my weight watcher buddy) went to an earlier weight watcher meeting today. in the meeting a gal received her 100 lb. charm.
umm wow!
and she was so gracious about it & so empowering. while i may not have that much weight to lose it still made me feel like i can do this!
i love my meetings – i know i would not be as successful without them (and this blog!).

we also went technologically savvy @ weight watchers today. whole new system that automatically posts your weigh-in to your weight tracker on the weight watcher e-tools!
i love shit like that!
you still have to manually change it on your ww profile – but i can live with that!

now something complete off-topic:
i was reminded today that when push comes to shove & the feelings of the peeps i love are at stake – i will turn into the bitch goddess from HELL with no mercy & no limitations to my wrath.
i am a force to be reckoned with & i pity the fool who does!

sorry i am slacking on the hop today amongst other things. seriously – my daughter being so sick for a week has thrown our whole lives off. i feel shitty for not replying to all of your comments because i do read every single one & they mean so much to me. along with your blogs! i am reading faithfully – i just don’t always time to construct a thought let alone type a comment.
bottom line: i simply adore you all to pieces! xxoo!

tanning booth confessions vol.6

2012-01-12T22:33:00.001-05:00

day 130:
merry weigh-in eve bloggy peeps!

so it’s been awhile & in honor of my triumphant (heh) return to the gym last night which also included a visit to the tanning booth (soooooo effin’ relaxing – oh how i have missed thee tanning booth) – i am bringing back…

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the random thoughts that permeate my sick twisted little brain whilst standing buck-ass naked in a tanning booth for the longest ten minutes of my life…

in situations like this you have no choice but to come clean and say it like it is…
so here goes – light a candle, chuck life the bird, and fess the fuck up!
(disclaimer: not all things posted will be traditional confessions – but certainly random!)

so let’s begin!

confession:
last night was the 1st time i have been to the gym since december 12th – wow! the guy at the desk had that “where the heck have you been?” look on his face – but it’s the *no judgement* zone @ planet fitness so he didn’t say mum. his face said enough…

confession:
everytime i go shopping i feel compelled to try on jeans just to make sure i am really a size 11/12. i know it sounds insane but i haven’t worn this size since the 1980s & i am having a real hard time convincing myself that this isn’t some fluke! and furthermore wearing clothes that actually fit & are not overly baggy in a vain effort to *cover* areas that i don’t want seen is completely foreign to me as well.

confession:
i ♥ tjmaxx & especially this time of year when they have AH-MAY-ZING clearance prices. i got a pair of jeans (size 11), some skinny navy blue super soft cords (size 11), two shirts (size medium) AND a dress (size medium) all for $37.00! and i didn’t want to scratch my own eyes out in the dressing room which is a MAJOR nsv (non-scale victory).
*a little head’s up – bathing suits/bikinis are already making their grand entrance into the stores*

confession:
i ate at the local (shithole) buffet yesterday. but in my defense – it is the ONLY place on the planet that my picky eating/recently sick daughter will eat (don’t ask me why – it is a mystery to us as well) & because she had basically gone SIX damn days without barely a nibble; drastic measures needed to be taken. as someone trying to eat healthy & vegan – this place is a virtual nightmare. seriously – even their veggies were cooked in GOBS of butter & the green beans had some sort of pork product (ew ew ew) in them to *flavor*. blech! i stuck with the salad bar – which was actually very nice --- lotsa fresh fruit & even some some beautiful mixed geens.

confession:
brian asked me yesterday if i was *skinny* (his word not mine) enough to marry him yet. i have written before about what a vain mofo i am & how i have come to terms with the fact that the reason we aren’t married yet & i have been dragging my feet is because i didn’t want to be a fat bride. i don’t want to look back on that day or at photos & all i can focus on is that i didn’t feel or look my best! (and please don’t send me snarky emails – i am not saying you need to be *thin* to be a beautiful bride. this is my personal preferrence & i am entitled.)

confession:
brian’s question got me to thinking – so i tried on my wedding dress & for the 1st time EVER it zipped all the way up! IT FITS!!!! and i love it! i can actually envision myself getting married…
wow!
so i guess i will be planning a wedding for real?
wow!
don’t ask when – i gotta process the fact that i can zip my dress up first!

confession:
i missed a good portion of the last hour of biggest loser (spoiler alert) tuesday night because i was snoozin’. i did see the beginning of the weigh-in’s & i did see mike get voted off the ranch (he was kinda creepy anyhow). and i know kim kinda fucked up making that bet – but i still like her – she is like me – all or nuttin’! and i like emily too – they are my faves – ironically the two peeps brought in without a partner!

confession:
i am not feeling super confident about tomorrow’s weigh-in. i might have a gain? maybe not? i certainly don’t think i lost much if anything at all. i have had a good string of pretty impressive weigh-in’s for the past month or so – i feel like i am due for a gain? it’s part of the process – everyone gains – so i am prepping myself for it. either way – i WILL be at my weigh-in/meeting & owning my shit!

confession:
i am back to wearing thongs & have officially chucked all my granny panties & brian is suddenly much nicer to me… heh. yeah my butt can fit in them again without them rolling down & making me mental! YAY! Another NSV!

confession:
i literally have been writing this post ALL FREAKIN’ DAY as my daughter has been abducted by aliens & they have replaced her with some sort of alien pod baby. seriously, i know she is just getting over being wicked sick & i love her more than life itself but W T F kid?!?! she screamed, yelled, kicked, stomped & cried on & off ALL day & if i didn’t have weigh-in tomorrow i would be downing the bottle of wine in the fridge right now!

so there ya have it – no shame in my game!

what do ya need to get off your ta-ta’s?!?!
spill it…
then cross your eyes, make the sign of the devil horns, and drink a double hail bloody mary and all is forgiven…

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn
if ya’ll feel like takin’ a gander @ my alien pod baby & the rest of my crazy brood --- go check out my mama/photography blog the purple goddess & follow along!

something radical...

2012-01-10T19:50:00.004-05:00

day 128:
happy biggest loser tuesday bloggerville!
will you be watching tonight?
i will!

so i did something radical today…
i got a wild hair up my bum & decided to run.
now lemme backtrack a bit…
during my 3rd attempt @ weight watchers (about a year & a half ago) & when i was utilizing walking as my only form of exercise – i decided i wanted to try & run. i got about 6 weeks into the c25k (couch to 5k) program & had an *encounter* with a dog. i was physically unharmed but i let it totally derail me mentally. although i have my suspicions that i more likely used it as an excuse to quit because i was REALLY struggling…
anywho – ever since then the desire to run has never left me but has TOTALLY eluded me. it’s one of those things i really wanna do for some reason yet am terrified to really put myself out there for.
i have written about it before even here on this blog.

as i said, today i gotta wild hair.
i have been thinking about it a lot lately & today i asked myself what the frig i was waiting for? what is the worst thing that can happen? i am not able to run very far or very fast? well duh… of course i won’t. but i will never be that runner i envision myself being if i don’t get my ass out there.
so i got dressed, opened my front door, and decided i would just run until i couldn’t run anymore.
i ran 1.4 miles!
i was winded & my legs felt like jello but by golly i was freakin’ running.
i ever surpassed these two walkers & i have to admit that made me feel like the shit!
heh!
so it’s a start & further than i have ever run – even when i was doing c25k!
i am 3 ½ months away from turning 42 but i am telling you – i am in the best shape of my life & feel better than i EVER have!
it truly is never too late to change your life!

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn
if ya’ll feel like takin’ a gander --- go check out my mama/photography blog the purple goddess & follow along!

another 30 days of kickin' ass (measurements & photos)

2012-01-08T21:52:00.004-05:00

day 126:
holla blogdom!

been a couple of days since i posted – but i have had a very sick little girl which resulted in a trip to the ER & her daddy getting sick as well (don’t ask me who was the bigger baby – i swore i would never bash him on my blog… heh). but all is better – both are on the mend & i figure it will only take a truckload of lysol to de-germ my house!
sigh.

in between tending to sick babies i managed to complete another 30 days as a shredhead (aka an avid fan of jillian michaels workouts) which brought me to 90 days of consecutive daily exercise!
yeah..
me!
nine-fucking-tee days!
holy fuckballs!

if ya have been reading along in my daily drivel/diary about my workouts (all located in the shredhead tab above) then you know i kinda be-bopped all over the place with my workouts this past month. i exercised daily & they were all jillian workouts – just not the same & certainly no plan was implemented!
i was afraid it might effect my results but…

not the case at all – these are some of the best results I have had all along!
and if you think that’s amazing – check out the comparison between day 1 & day 90!

it blows my mind that i have done this…
i know it’s corny & i have said it before but…
these workouts have changed my life!

and where do i go from here?
well, today i started this…
i try not to make total assessments on day 1 – but so far i am diggin’ it & i was certainly sweatin’ my balls off afterwards! check out the shredhead tab for more gab…

well kids – i am literally beaten down & i gotta cut this semi-short!
thank you all for the amazing comments you ALWAYS leave me – i read every word but totally am behind in replying. you all rock balls & i adore you!

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn
if ya’ll feel like takin’ a gander --- go check out my mama/photography blog the purple goddess & follow along!

weigh-in vol.17

2012-01-06T17:25:00.009-05:00

day 124:
happy freakin’ friday!

so i had the most unexpected surprise @ my weight watcher weigh-in/meeting today.
not only did i lose 2.8lbs this week but i got my 25lb. charm today!
(ain’t it purty?)
AND i entered into the 170s – fuck, i blasted the door down on the 170s!
i have lost 26lbs & honestly it just blows my mind!

don’t get me wrong – i have worked my ass off – literally – but sometimes it still surprises me that i am actually doing this!
not only have i lost weight – but i am changing my life.
(here i am @ 178.4 lbs -- get used to this outfit – i am superstitious like a mofo & wear the same thing to weigh-in every week…)

i have become that girl who normally would annoy the piss outta me… heh.
i care about what i eat, i workout & love it (98% of the time), & i am passionate about the changes in my life & want the whole world to know!

i needed this awesome weigh-in – i was feeling a little underwhelmed & really wading in some self-doubt because i have been a bit lackluster about working out this week. i do it but I had to talk myself off the *don’t feel like it ledge* more than once & that just isn’t like me. in my defense – mother nature has kicked my butt in half (fucking monthly gift my ass!) & i am just a biznotch & a half when she is rearing her ugly head.
but somehow i pulled it off?
wait a minute…
no, i didn’t just *pull it off*!
despite my lackluster feelings – i DID still workout every single day along with sticking to the simply filling plan (except for nye when i kicked back some vino).
i followed plan & i earned those 2.8lbs by golly!
no need to sell myself short!

this is life & some days this is easier than others.
and some days are better than others…
today was one of the better days & those better days are what motivate me to keep going!
and there ya have it!

don’t forget to link up!

as usual – no rules – link up whatever ya like – even giveaways & other hops!

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn

no more muffin top weekend blog hop -- vol.15

2012-01-06T10:35:00.001-05:00

day 124:
tee gee eye eff bloggahs!
welcome to…

as usual – no rules – link up whatever ya like – even giveaways & other hops!
rockin’ the hop button is always nice & i über appreciate all of you that do!
and if ya find a new blog that blows your skirt up – be sure to leave them a comment saying you are a new follower & tell them ya found them on *the no more muffin top* hop.
that’s it – easy peasy!

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn
if ya’ll feel like takin’ a gander --- go check out my mama/photography blog the purple goddess & follow along!

c'mon baby re-light my fire...

2012-01-05T08:05:00.008-05:00

day 123:
happy weigh-in eve blogdom!
(does anyone else feel that way about the day before your designated weigh-in?)

so in case you have had your head buried in the sand for the past week – everywhere you look it’s all about losing weight, getting fit, new year; new you – all that jazz. and i love every second of it. if the 1st day of a new year is what you need to get motivated then yay for you! i commend anyone who takes any step, no matter how small, to changing their life! those of us already on that journey know how hard it is!
which brings me to the topic at hand.
i have also noticed a lot of self-doubt, lack of motivation, people still caught in the holiday rut, & frustration out there in blogdom & beyond.
for those of us already in this – we don’t have the luxury of that *newness* that amps us up those first few days, weeks & months. a lot of us (self included) are kind of in a rut – both with food & exercise.
i am still doing it – but maybe not with the same flare & gumption that i had just a few short weeks ago & i feel some self-doubt floating around in there – eating away @ my motivation.
boo fuckin’ hiss!
i was hitting the gym a few times a week for some extra cardio on top of my daily jillian workouts & that hasn’t happened in weeks due to everyone’s crazy retail work schedules & babysitting issues. but ummm xmas was almost 2 weeks ago & everyone’s schedule has gone back to normal… so what exactly is my excuse?
yeah that’s what i thought – i ain’t got one!
and ya know what – fuck that noise!
just because it isn’t my official day one doesn’t mean that i can’t get re-amped & focused like a mofo again! i am gonna do something(s) different & make it like a day one & get that flare & gumption back!
with that being said…
here is some motivation & definitely some things to think about!
relight that fire & love yourselves out there!
we deserve it!

that's right!

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn

thoughts on the biggest loser...

2012-01-04T13:31:00.007-05:00

day 122:
hump day humps ya naughty bloggers you!

spoiler alert – because i will be talking about biggest loser in detail – so if ya have it dvr’d look away now!
so who watched the biggest loser last night?
i did for the 1st time in many seasons. last time i watched; jillian was still on & michael won – losing an astronomical 264lbs!
now ya’ll know i love jillian --- but the show itself lost it’s appeal.
maybe i am just an asshole but it got to be too dramatic for my tastes & it seemed like they were trying to push the unrealistic/unbelievable envelope by having bigger & bigger people on each season.
but even with that being said – the show is inspirational. i get inspired seeing anyone do things they never fathomed possible – like exercise, run marathons & lose hundreds of pounds.
i love that the trainers don’t give a fuck & push these people to their limits!
for those reasons -- i was compelled to watch this season.
(well that & because there isn’t jack shit on tv this time of year?)

so far (one whole episode – lol) it seems to be more like the show we all fell in love with the 1st couple of seasons. they have a mixture of contestants that range in various weights & ages.
good lawd, one of them even looks like santa claus ferfuxsake!
yeah, santa is on the biggest loser this year!
ya can’t help but to like him & his wife even but…
rant on: i was flabbergasted @ his wife – she is 42 (my age) & she looks like mrs. claus & easily in her 60s & all because she has a head full of gray hair???
unless your name is bonnie raitt & you just won your bazillionth grammy – gray ain’t cool! gray hair is just something that makes me insane.
why would any woman want to look older than she is??? go to walgreens, spend $6 on some miss clairol & cover that shit up! or better yet, take a day to hit the salon & have it done professionally—you’re worth it! rant over.

and i love the theme of this season: no excuses!
i think just about anyone on a weight loss journey can relate to that. i know i had my stockpile of standard excuses.

this is also my 1st time watching dolvett quince (who trained janet jackson & justin beiber btw before biggest loser) who used this phrase last night…
sure to be on bumper stickers & t-shirts before ya know it!
anywho…
finally some eye candy.
i love bob & would choose him a million times over dolvett but dolvett is ripped like a mofo.
holy shit is he ripped!

but bob is my heart – love him!
(not as much as jillian but i got mad love for him nonetheless)
he is my favorite vegan/yoga loving/tattooed/southern/sweet as pie but will kick your ass fella ever!

but let’s dish on ben – the guy who ASKED to be voted off the ranch.
sorry to say this but… he just got lumped into the *dickhead category* by millions of biggest loser fans. just a major no-no on that show.
whatever -- let him go!
but i love how when he was all woozy during his 1st workout & kinda went to la-la land & back – the determining factor was that he didn’t know who bob was.
ha!
“what? you don’t recognize bob harper?
oh you better rest a while!”

my faves so far (which could change at any given moment) – kim (pink/red team) -- the former professional wrestler.
no really, she was a wwe diva @ one time as well as a fitness model!
i am super curious to see if & how she gets back into shape!
(she is 5’8” like me too!)

hopefully i won’t tire of the show & will watch it faithfully & give my two cents throughout the season.
because i know you guys are just dyinnnnnng to know my opinion…
*insert sarcasm*

anywho – there ya have it – my half-assed thoughts!
mwahs to all the real biggest losers out there who live it every single day!
you know who you are!

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn
if ya’ll feel like takin’ a gander --- go check out my mama/photography blog the purple goddess & follow along!

TO-DO list...

2012-01-03T19:46:00.004-05:00

day 121:
howdy ho bloggy world!

so i have kinda been teetering with the idea of new year’s resolutions.
i know they are EVERYWHERE & mine aren’t that unique that i gotta make some ginormous production outta them.
so instead i will make a TO-DO LIST for 2012!

before i lay it on ya – i gotta say something. i feel like i am at an advantage over most peeps out there in the world. i am already living & tackling what is usually my top TO-DO’s!
lose weight
work out more
eat healthier
drink more water.
check. check. check. and check!
yay – that feels pretty fantabulous to be ahead of the game for a change!
so this year i thought i would write a more frivolous list that doesn’t focus on the same old stuff…
here goes…

the chunky goddess TO-DO LIST for 2012!
1. vlog. i have been thinking about it for some time & i think starting soon it will be a regular feature – you lucky ducks get to see my mug & hear me blab all live & shit!
2. experiment with my cooking more. i get in food ruts & can be quite lazy when it comes to cooking for myself. i need to get a little more adventurous so i do not get bored with the foods i am eating. i gotta a bazillion cool recipes pinned on pinterest – bout time i start cookin’ em up!
3. grow an herb garden & not kill it this year!
4. try at least one local vegan restaurant!
5. make it a point to keep in touch with all of my friends – phone calls, emails, whatever. i am such a lame-o friend lately…
6. take more videos. my camera takes beautiful 1080p hd quality movies – what the frig am i waiting for?
7. find a part-time job. i never thought i would still be looking but i am. and no, i in no way regret leaving my job & i may not be looking as hard as i should either…
8. hire a personal trainer to take me to the next level where weight training is concerned! i wanna be ripped – not in a chyna/steroid/horse face sorta way – but i want some definition & peeps to know i am an ass-kick workout fiend!
9. be more spiritual – i am fallen off my path a bit & i am missing that magical feeling.
10. always trust my gut – it has never steered me wrong!
i am late on the resolution/intentions/goals/TO-DO list ball so i won’t ask the obvious – but i will ask what one frivolous thing that has nothing to do with weight loss do you hope to do this year?

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn
if ya’ll feel like takin’ a gander --- go check out my mama/photography blog the purple goddess & follow along!

tagged

2012-01-02T12:39:00.004-05:00

day:120
i got tagged…

i know some people hate these sorta things & moan & groan about them – but i fuckin’ love this shit!
so when the ever-lovely-yet-kickass rachel from because i have to -- one of my fave blogs of all time & the winner of my 1st ever (and only) giveaway – tagged me – i was happy to oblige!
so here goes…

here are the rules:
1. post these rules.
2. you must post 11 random things yourself.
3. answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post.
4. create 11 new questions for the people you tag to answer.
5. go to their blog and tell them that you've tagged them.
6. no stuff in the tagging section about ‘you are tagged if you are reading this.’ blah blah blah, you legitimately have to tag 11 peeps!

even an easily befuddled bitch like me can handle that…

11 (more) random things about me:
1. i love the ufc but don’t let brian know how much i really like it otherwise it would be the only thing we ever watched… heh!
2. my name (cynthia) means *moon goddess* & i love that
3. i would get plastic surgery and/or botox in a new york minute if i could afford it & screw anyone who thinks its vain. damn right it’s vain & i totally own that shit all day long!
4. i was born in memphis, tn
5. when i was a kid i was convinced i was adopted & threatened to pack my holly hobby mini-suitcase & run away to find my *real family* all the time -- true story.
6. i own about 75 pairs of shoes (and i recently downsized!) – all heels (4” & higher) minus one pair of uggs & my workout shoes. even my flip-flops got height!
7. my super power is that i am a human lie detector – ask my kids & all my ex-boyfriends… lol!
8. i never had a date all through high school – i was just so insecure & shy. i completely changed the summer after i graduated high school – i dropped some weight & let my hair grow long & suddenly had more self-esteem than one 18 year old gal should have… heh!
9. i never thought i would have kids – let alone 3! now i wish we could have more!
10. i have been a photography freak since i was 10 years old & got my 1st camera – the instamatic with the cube flashbulbs! i used to take pictures of my cats & the neighborhood dogs… lol!
11. i am mere months from turning 42 & STILL dunno what I wanna be when i grow up & it pisses me the fuck off!

11 questions from rachel…
1.what is your favorite midnight snack? i try to not eat too-too late but i am a total evening grazer & usually it’s either popcorn or cereal!
2.if you could go anywhere right now, where would you go? the four seasons hotel in bora bora – look @ these private villas! who wouldn't want to be here???3.what is your favorite movie from your childhood? anything disney – my parents would always take my brother & i to see whatever disney movie was out @ the drive-in – this was way before vcr’s & dvd’s – when you actually HAD to go to the movies to see a film.
4.do you have any tattoos, and if not do you want to get one? i have 4 tattoos & am dying for some new ink – i want something elaborate & pretty big!
5.what is one food that you will not eat under any circumstances? i am a southern gal at heart but i will never eat grits – ewwwww!
6.current obsession? stripes! especially black & white & if they are chevron i am even happier!
7.favorite smell? i love the smell of coconut! it makes me think of summer & warm tropical places with ginormous pina coladas!
8.something that gives you the giggles every time you see it. i am such a sucker for those stupid text convo’s you see all over the place. i know some are fake but they crack me the fuck up – especially the *when parents text* ones… heh!
9.what is your favorite flavor of ice cream? coffee – yum! when they come out with an awesome vegan version i will be happier than doo-dah!
10.what is your favorite brand of lingerie? i love the marilyn monroe intimates line – it’s a modern take on vintage styled lingerie & it fits marvelously! a lot of leopard print in this line & i am ALL about that – matter of fact i am wearing a leopard & black bra by them now!
11.are you wearing shoes right now? yup – my awesome purple & grey saucony’s that i ♥ so freakin’ much!

The 11 lucky buggars I am taggin’…
1. ellen from from flab to fab
2. maren from from cow to wow
3. kerry from curly girl
4. bailey from the middle
5. helly from fat girl slim
6. miss april from 30 before 30
7. gillian from a daft scots lass
8. jennifer from finding my way in texas
9. alana from fractured fairy tales
10. miss mama from mommy bags
11. susan from 75% hippie

my 11 questions to you!
1. what is your middle name & the story behind it?
2. what is the best concert/show you have ever been to?
3. favorite perfume/body spray?
4. would you ever have plastic surgery & if so what would you have done?
5. what is your biggest fear?
6. who do think is the most annoying celebrity right now?
7. who is the funniest person you know?
8. favorite disney princess?
9. someone (other than spouse/partner) that just melts your butter big time?
10. favorite form of exercise?
11. what is your dream profession?

there ya go – hope ya have fun with it & no worries if ya don’t play along!
merry monday bloggers!
peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn
if ya’ll feel like takin’ a gander --- go check out my mama/photography blog the purple goddess & follow along!

well hello 2012

2012-01-01T22:51:00.007-05:00

day 119:
well hello 2012!

this is gonna be a quickie but…
i wanted to at least say merry 2012 to you fabulous peeps out there in the blogosphere!

me & ange -- my bff of 20 years! we have rang in many a new year & it was awesome celebrating with her last night!
(my sexypants hunny -- brian. he's a hottie huh?)

i partied like a rock star last night & let it be re-established that i cannot hang.
i dunno why i even try?
heh.
(at least my shoes were kickin’ ass & takin’ names last night!)

and yes i felt like ass today & i made less than stellar food choices due to being a wee bit hungover – but i tracked every filthy morsel and i made myself workout tonight after an enormous internal battle over should i or shouldn’t i…
for the record – i always should!
and i am glad i did!

i am welcoming 2012 with open arms & an open mind & just happy to be where i am & that life is becoming increasingly better & better by the day!

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn
*** if ya’ll feel like takin’ a gander @ the rest of my new year’s eve photos & more --- go check out my mama/photography blog the purple goddess & follow along!

a reflection on 2011: the year i got selfish!

2011-12-31T14:45:00.004-05:00

day:118

so this is the dilly – 2011 started out like 2010 which started out like 2009 & so on & so on.
big ambitions & very little motivation.
i can sit here & list a bazillion reasons but ultimately i believe that my inability to be okay with putting myself 1st has been my downfall all along.
no really – hear me out.

this year my life, my health, my sanity, my relationships, & my overall well being were in jeopardy.
i hit a wall with so many things & was left feeling overwhelmed & defeated in just about every aspect of my life!
after years of trying to self-medicate with just about every form (mainly food) possible -- i finally realized that i needed help with my depression & i needed to make that a priority.
i know it’s cliché but admitting ya got issues truly is the 1st step to recovery.
and girlfriend (that be me) be drownin’ in her own shit & shit!

once i got over the depression hurdle that is when i had an epiphany – i cannot be the best mom, partner, friend, daughter, & human being until i am okay with ME. and i cannot be okay with ME until i make ME the top priority in my life over EVERYTHING else.
and I mean EVERYTHING -- kids, spouses, partners, friends, relatives, jobs, faith, commitments – all of it!
all those things you put ahead of yourself no matter what because you believe that is how to show your love & devotion, what is expected of you, makes you a better person, & we (especially women) are taught that being selfish about ourselves is a bad thing.
and sorry kiddos but doing all of this will NOT EVER lead to true happiness.
life is too effin’ short to be unhappy – so i decided to be happy.
that’s when i kicked it into high gear & made some decisions that changed everything…
i left my job -- the work environment was toxic on so many levels & no amount of money is worth being miserable every single fucking day! could we afford it? helllll to the no! but i also couldn’t afford to loathe something so much that i wanted to punch something or someone hard. really hard!

and i rejoined weight watchers – i decided that i am worth the added expense, time, effort & energy it takes to truly commit to weight loss & getting fit.

just those two vital decisions & how they bettered my world transcended into other bigger/smaller decisions & actions that have made my life increasinly happy!
and when mama’s happy – EVERYONE is happy!
truly.

in 2012 – i plan to keep it rollin’ & continue on my current path. i will never be that girl again – the one who lets life come 1st .
i come 1st no matter what!
and anyone who doesn’t like it can kindly step to the left & fuck off.

peace, love, & toasts to a fuckin’ fabulous 2012!
xxoo
cyn

**** disclaimer – i am in NO WAY telling anyone to run out & quit their job or to do anything drastic for that matter. i am only relaying my life experiences & what changes helped me. and as always i recommend EVERYONE see their doctor before beginning ANY weight loss/diet/exercise regimen!

weigh-in vol.16

2011-12-30T19:47:00.004-05:00

day 117:
tee gee eye eff blogdom!
wow can ya believe how fast this week has flown by?
wasn’t it just xmas eve & here we are on the cusp of new year’s eve.
eeesh time – slow up a bit!

so today was weigh-in/meeting & while i am doing what i do – i have indulged in a cookie or two (or five) this past week – along with some chocolates that just JUMPED into my mouth – don’t ya hate when that happens?
anywho – i was a wee bit nervous. not that i felt like i had gained – i felt great actually – but being the weigh-in after xmas – who knows?
well, i lost 1.8lbs!
wow, just wow!
i have never lost weight around xmas.
never EVER!

last year i gained 7-8lbs in the month or so between thanksgiving & xmas – this year i lost 10.2lbs.
yeah, TEN effin’ pounds!

I am down a total of 23.2 lbs!
Yay!

honestly i owe it to a couple of things…
the sweet tooth challenge…
recommitting to veganism…
tracking every day, every morsel, no matter what!
and
daily (yes, every single day) without fail exercise (my jillian michaels dvds) – even on xmas!

another coolio thing – we got a new meeting locale.
they closed down two locations & brought us all together is one brandy-new, bigger, modern, AWESOME location! (right next door to trader joe’s i might add – s w o o n!)
thankfully i still have the same awesome leader – seems like everyone else got shuffled except for the friday morning & early afternoon meeting peeps.
phew because i flip-flop between the two depending on bri’s work schedule!
i would hate to have to switch leaders!

any of my other weight watcher junkies get a new center????
or are we just über blessed?

tomorrow night brian & i are actually heading out for new year’s eve – for the 1st time EVER together.
no really – we have never been out together for new year’s eve -- we have been pregnant or raising a baby – but now we are ready to rejoin the adult world for one evening.
we are going to my best gal’s house for a little soirree & we are happier than doo-dah about it!
we don’t get out much & never together – one of us is usually home with skylar – but my mom is babysitting – so look the fuck out 2012!

what are your plans for nye?
partyin’ down or on the down low?

well kiddos i gotta get off my ass – i gotta hot date with jillian & my dvd player!

don’t forget to link up!

as usual – no rules – link up whatever ya like – even giveaways & other hops!
that’s it – easy peasy!

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn

if ya’ll feel like takin’ a gander --- go check out my mama/photography blog the purple goddess & follow along!

no more muffin top weekend blog hop -- vol.14

2011-12-29T22:17:00.000-05:00

day 116:
thirsty thursday bloggers & welcome to…

as usual – no rules – link up whatever ya like – even giveaways & other hops!
rockin’ the hop button is always nice & i über appreciate all of you that do!
and if ya find a new blog that blows your skirt up – be sure to leave them a comment saying you are a new follower & tell them ya found them on *the no more muffin top* hop.
that’s it – easy peasy!

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn

ps.
i love you all.
the comments you left me on my last post just made me smile – you get it & you get me!
yay!
sorry i didn’t reply personally – i am just so unorganized for time this week?

the media sucks

2011-12-27T19:38:00.005-05:00

day 114:
tuesday tidings bloggerhood!

so i have to make an observation…
(and a bitchfest too while i am at it)
xmas night – as in xmas not even being officially over – we were hangin’ out watching some random movie that wasn’t even xmas-y (that is a whole other rant for another time – how tv SUCKS @ xmas time now) & the fuckin’ media is already on our asses about losing weight for the new year.

they are a smart bunch those fuckin’ media types.
they know that the numero uno resolution for most americans will be to lose weight/get in shape. it’s been my numero uno for 20 years at least!
so sure as shit – there is a slimmer janet jackson with her soft melodic voice shoving nutri-system down our throats.
special k had ads out the whazoo…
i saw a couple for slimfast…
and let’s not forget my least favorite ad – mariah carey for jenny craig. (oops i mean *jenny* as they are calling themselves nowadays in an effort to promote change & to be more “holistic with a simpler approach to dieting” -- their words – not mine)
i am sorry but mariah carey is so fucking annoying standing in her sheet/bandeau/whatever strategically wrapped around her seemingly thinner body whilst flippin’ her hair around. she used to be so awesome & somehow she became trashy & gross & she is the last person i would look to for any inspiration! and normally ANY woman willing to give childbirth a whirl around age 40 instantly gets my respect – but she has even made that experience trashy?
i will stop now…

i am not dissin’ these weight loss company’s just because I happen to love weight watchers (because it works using REAL food & without deprivation) – if they help people get to a healthy weight in a healthy way – cool beans by me!
but if you think that i believe for a nano second that superstars like janet & mariah used nutri-system or jenny to get back into shape -- then ya got another thing coming!
they have a TEAM of people who make them who they are – and none of them are named jenny…
but that is neither here nor there.

my biggest grievance is the fact that xmas wasn’t even over & already the media is back in our brains picking away to ultimately pick our wallets!
because trust me – they don’t care if we are overweight & unhealthy – they just want our moola in one way or another.
and you know this WHOLE week will be flooded with these commericals!

i think losing weight, gaining health & getting fit SHOULD be a top priority & resolution if that is something you want.
but how you choose to do so is really very personal because we gotta get our heads in the right place before ever having any success no matter what method you use.
where are the ads for that?
everything is about ease, speed & efficiency – and sorry but those words do not exist in the realm of sustaining long term weight loss!
it is hard…
takes time…
and is never efficient – at least not for me – i gotta move heaven & earth some days to get my workouts in & to come up with new & interesting ways to eat healthy so i don’t die of food boredom!

sorry to go off on a huge tangent…
basically it irks me that getting healthy has become so commericalized like everything else in the world.
okay wait correction – i can handle the commericialization IF it were all valid.
we have so much ineffective measures & misleading information out there that it is no wonder we are progressively becoming a nation of obese people raising a generation of children who will undoubtedly be even more obese than us.

don’t believe the hype!
be informed…
consult your doctor…
and more importantly be realistic – if it sounds too good to be true – it is!

and ummm fuckin’ media types – let us digest one holiday before choking us with the next expenditure! xmas day/night should be – dare i say – sacred & off limits?
but that’s just my two (okay maybe more like ten) cents!

any thoughts?
am i alone in thinking this?

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn
if ya’ll feel like takin’ a gander at my xmas photos & more --- go check out my mama/photography blog the purple goddess & follow along!

holiday survival 101

2011-12-26T18:55:00.004-05:00

day 113:
happy *we-made-it-through-another-xmas* blogdom!
i hope your holiday was a fabu as mine.
santa was very good to us – but he always is!

(here i am @ xmas dinner)

i feel good about my eating – i ate what i wanted within the restrictions of being vegan – counted my points (i opted to track over the weekend in lieu of simply filling) – and other than a random cookie (okay those weren’t vegan – oops – but i am not gonna sweat one egg between 24 freakin’ cookies) – i was good.
oh and i did my shred-it workout– even on xmas.
so pffffft to gaining weight.
just not in my plans this year.

so i gotta share a NSV (non scale victory)…
my mom bought me clothes for xmas this year – she always does & oddly even though our styles are on the polar opposite spectrum of one another – she usually picks out great stuff for me!
but i digress…

so she buys me an outfit & i am looking at it & the pants (black cashmere boyfriend jeans that are to.die.for i might add) are a junior size 11!
up to this point i am fitting into jr. size 13’s & a random size 12 on a good day – so i told her she had way too much faith in me to buy me 11’s.
oh & a size medium shirt!
a medium!?!?!
i haven’t worn a medium or a size smaller than a 13 & the random 12 since jr. high school – no shit!
maybe even elementary school now that i think about it!

but do ya know they fit?!?!
i can wear 11’s & a size medium!
woa…

not only is this a NSV but an eye-opening moment for me.
i think when your weight has fluctuated from chunky to thick to big to fat your whole life since puberty it is really hard to wrap your head around the fact that you may slowly but surely becoming the not-so-chunky/thick/big/fat girl anymore.
but it is hard.
in my head i am NOT a size 11 & certainly not a medium -- i am still a 18/20 & XL/XXL…
but she also bought me two pairs of workout shorts with matching tees – ALL size medium & they ALL fit.
so it wasn’t some fluke…
woa…
it will probably take me some time to accept that i am doing this & the results of my hard work are starting to show in ways that even i cannot fathom.
bizarro & yet so fuckin’ cool!

so how is everyone?
how was your holiday?
lay it on me!
share your nsv’s & success stories – i love to hear them as they inspire me to stay on plan!

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn

weigh-in vol.15 & 16 weeks

2011-12-23T20:50:00.008-05:00

day 110:
merry xmas eve eve blogosphere!

so i had a blast last night!

good peeps & tons of laughs – i mean that’s what it’s all about.
and ya know how i swore up & down that i wouldn’t be drinking?
yeah epic fail on that.
BUT…
in my defense – it was at brian’s urging that i relax a little & have a drink if i wanted – so i did.
and i wanted a few!

i can be quite extreme – i am just an all or nothing kind of gal. but he is right – one night out with friends – something i rarely do – is not going to derail all my hard work.
BUT…
it took every bit of me not to raid the fridge when i got home last night & i was famished ALL day today.
pffffft!

but let’s get to my weigh-in.
i had a bad feeling about my weigh-in – not that i have had a bad week – i have stuck to my usual diet & exercising daily – but we went out to eat twice this week & then last night’s adventure.
so imagine my surprise when i lost .4lbs!
not a ginormous amount but a loss nonetheless & i will gladly take it!
this time of year i am content to maintain – so a loss is fan-fuckin-tabulous!

and i got this beauty today...
my 16 week charm!
i have been a weight watcher member & attending my meetings/weigh-in's faithfully for 16 weeks!
w00ts!

and why the big deal about 16 weeks?
well studies show that sticking it out for 16 weeks leads to further commitment & long-time success!
now that's what i'm talking about!

i haven't set any number related goals since i rejoined weight watchers 16 weeks ago EXCEPT to at least stick it out for 16 weeks & not miss a weigh-in and/or meeting no matter what!
i am super proud to say i did just that!

well that's all i got kiddos – i gotta get hot & start wrapping all my gifts!
yeah; ALL my gifts!
yikes!

oh & don’t forget to link up:

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that’s it – easy peasy!

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn