ziesya zulkifli

not just some random

2011-11-01T12:02:00.001+08:00

fear. ketakutan. panic attack. ape kite buat if kite dapat panic attack. no its not something yang kite dapat but its something that occur when we got panic and something like that. early today a friends of mine Fadhilah, ask me..sya, ape kau nak buat bile habis part 1 ni? and I'll answer her simply just..well, aku kerje maybe dalam 3 or 5 years. just to make sure my design thinking are mature enough, later then, I'll continue my part 2 and that's when the path are a bit clearer for me. at least i hoping so..then she ask me one more time. this time the panic attack, attack me. the question are, macam mane dengan kahwin? wow. i am stunned for a few second and burst into a long confused insincerely laugh. God, I've never thought of that thing. marriage, kids. maybe someday in my late 40s or i don't know. its something that we are unable to plan. i don't want to be a working mum. i love to be home, surrounded by my lovely kids. teach them lessons of life, the values and everything. but honest to GOD, i don't know where to slip those marriage and kids thing. its hopeless. i want to make myself stable first before thinking about all this stuff but it hit me. honey, you are already 20 and your 21st birthday are just around the corner. at these age my mum are already married and gave birth to her first child, and the worst thing, the child was me! me and those boyfriend, girlfriend thing? i am screwed. i don't want to get involved in any of those. so the major thing that i should do right now is stop freaking out!!! GOD. the rest of my conversation with Fadhilah will remain secret till death! mama i need you!!!

What if we made for each other
Born to become best friends and lovers
I want to stay right here in this moment with you
Over and over and over again
What if this could be a real love
A love
I dont know what to think
Is this real or just a dream
In my heart is where you'll be
I'll keep waiting till we meet
~LetterstoJuliet.2010.=)

random #2

2011-10-28T09:07:00.001+08:00

bila masanya tiba. aku kaku. kututup semua pintu. bukan ku pinta begini. inilah cerminan rasa hatiku. salahkah aku berlaku jujur? biarpun kejujuran itu perit. biarpun aku menyembunyikan kekhilafanmu. aku bukan malaikat. aku manusia. sifat manusia itu wujud padaku. aku punya dosa. aku buat dosa. ku pinta pengampunan? salahkah aku bersifat itu? aku bukan nabi.
just a random thought. my current life turns upside down. not in a good way. i hate it. hope can rise anew. lets hoping for the best in this reality life. i guess.

at least. I'm smiling =)

random thought

2011-10-11T11:15:00.000+08:00

Life teaches me something lately and it really really messing with my freakin head. In a good way. Really. But to be honest, I kinda like what happen lately. The tragedy, the drama. Who not love it! Lot of things change. Big thing, small thing. Every tiny change, change my life, change my thinking way, change the way I look about people. I see clearly now. I live my own. I do things I thought was right for me. I reward myself. I’m happy. I found friend. Not friends for benefits but friend that will be by my side to wipe out my tear, to share my burden and not forgotten she brings back my sunshine and rainbow and hope and mostly my smile. She will catch my back whenever I wanna fell down. We share pain, laugh and everything. I’ve lost her once; I’m never let that happen again. Of course I love you. And for this semester, I’m hoping for the best. I hope I can give the best of me for everyone, but of course I’m no saint, angel, professor. I’m just a girl that just found her light. She found the right path. And please help me..

I think I’m in love with one of my best friend. I’m hoping the best for both of us. If there meant to be, it meant to be. Let Allah do HIS job =)

Dear Li, just what you said to me..biar je ape diorang nak buat dekat kite, jangan kite balas balik. Kalau x..kite same je macam diorang. Xnak kan jadi macam diorang. Biar Allah buat kerje die. InsyAllah semuanya ade hikmahnya..kite bersabar je ye. I’ll love you forever girl.

people

2011-05-20T16:04:00.000+08:00

People look at you strange, saying you've changed, like you worked this hard to stay the same..

updated

2011-03-05T14:43:00.001+08:00

long journey. two hearts . taiping . seratas . i love you . till death apart .

pillow talk

2011-02-14T18:17:00.002+08:00

people come and go in your life. you can't blame them for what in the past, you can't blame yourself either. stand up and speak loud! kenape buat kenyataan macam ni? hmm maybe ape yang dah jadi sejak akhirakhir ni banyak mengajar aku. betul, xsemua orang sukakan nita dalam hidup ni.dan aku mengaku ade beberapa orang yang aku okey, tapi xngam. ade yang aku beni. hey, aku pun manusia biasa. ada salah silap. but girls, sudahsudah lah tu menyakitkan hati antara satu sama lain. kita x untung apeape pun. besides, malulah dekat guys. ape ni nak gaduh. okey i admit i pun same. ye. kita mungkin xtinggal sebumbung, xbercakap dalam ruang masa yang sama, xberakap dalam nada yang sama. tapi, atleast we can try kan. stop being selfish. kita ade pelajaran, kita bukan gadiswanitazamanduludulu yang bergaduh tarik tarik rambut. xmalu ke? okey. kita memang xkan sukasayang semua orang, tapi kita boleh try. just say hi when we met eah other and stop all those back stabbing punye perangai and lagi satu perangai batu api. oh my, girls xperlukan tenaga sekuat badang untuk bergaduh, bertengkar. just lidah yang tajam macam pedang. cukup. pedihnya Allah je yang tahu. kenapa kita nak hancurkan kaum sejantina kita? memalukan diri sendiri lah. please, kita semua dah besar. dah tahu mana baik, mana buruk. just for once, kene fikir jugak. dari pemerhatian aku,lelaki yang baik, untuk gadis yang baik. jadi kalau mulut awakawak macam *****, macam mane nak dapat suami yang baik? oh my, sya dah pandai cakap pasal suamisuami bagai. admit it lah, even i ade keluarkan statement xnak kawenlah, nak jage baby oranglah. hey, deep inside each girls heart, semua nak suami yang baik kan? sebagai pelindung, sebagai macammacamlah. and nanti mesti nak anakanak, keturunan yang baik kan? jadi kenelah start jaga dari sekarang. lindunglah apeape yang patut, jage mulut, jage perlakuan. semua bukan untuk orang lain, untuk diri sendiri jugak. xrugi pun. pause kejap 5 minit, fikir balik ape bende kita dok merepek, melalak selama ni. xmanis kan. kita dah besar. last, jaga diri ya!

p/s aku xtau ape jadi kat aku dah sekarang ni tapi nak baby!!!!!

=)

2011-02-10T13:44:00.002+08:00

i'm not in love with sape2 lah bob. peringatan. apeape kenyataan yang aku buat dalam blog belum tentu betul dan hanyalah buah fikiran aku sematamata. kadangkadang aku ambik keadaan sekeliling sebagai case study aku, then aku luahkan dalam blog. haha

ok chill! =))

kejar

2011-02-07T17:22:00.001+08:00

kawan2 aku tanya kalau aku drive, kenapa nak drive laju2? soalan dorang. kau nak kejar ape kat depan tu sya? aku just diam and tersenyum. pada masa yang sama, akal fikiran aku ligat berfikir. betul jugak. ape yang aku kejar kat depan tu? ade ape je kat depan tu? kenape aku nak laju laju sangat? aku sendiri pun xtau jawapan yang sesuai untuk semua soalan tu. tap yang aku harap. kat depan tu ade something yang membuatkan penantian aku selama ni, berbaloi.

ye ke? hopefully lah =)

uitm perak di hatiku

2011-02-02T12:54:00.002+08:00

some of my beautiful +hyper+attractive friends ask me to blog about UITM Perak. what acctually happen, and yadda yadda. ha ha not in mood to maki uitm lah. maybe one day bile i dah betul2 kene dengan pihak pengurusan. well, even kejadian bas haritu yang xdatang ambik kitorang memang annoying gila, tapi everything happen for a reason. kan?

chill =)

Taman Negara 2011

2011-02-01T14:40:00.003+08:00

sedih xdapat pegi wafa punye wedding tapi seronok pegi taman negara even ade sedikit kesilapan teknikal, tapi i love to see our bonding dengan lecturer dah semakin bagus and kitorang punye bonding pun dah semakin positif. life is about positive thinking. tu yang aku belajar mase kat taman negara. aktiviti yang disediakan best. 1st day petang kitorang buat hut, thrust me. pondok tu xroboh pun mase kene ribut+hujan, and xbocor. malam kitorang pergi nightwalking. the next day kitorang pegi canopy walk and mountain climbing. Bukit Teresek. it was a blast! lagi best petang tu kitorang pegi rapid shooting, which means, naik boat lawan jeram. oh my! it was hilarious!! abang boat tu sangat xbaik. habis semua orang basah. the best thing pasal boat tu? boat tu by kayu. mase pergi Royal Belum haritu naik boat moden, i mean made by fiber. kali ni memang real punye basah. dengan cik amran start perang air. lepas tu terus pergi mandi sungai. not Sungai Tembeling laah. ade satu sungai y proper utk mandi kat situ. Nusa somethimg. xingatlah. hen kitorang buat floating structure. owh kitorang punye cabaran ni semua pakai nature punye bahan. and guess what? kitorang punye structure xtenggelam!! ade a few group yang tenggelam. malam tu kitorang relax. xde aktiviti. seriously penat gila kot. ade tayangan movie y kejam, xtengok pun. nak termuntah lah tengok movie tu and plus ramai yang dok kejar nyamuk. lari naik bilik. tido. esoknye dah balik. it was fun! i tell you. i ade beli red bull yang berharga rm5.50 and i simpan the can. why? mahal lah nak buang! beli dekat Mutiara Taman Negara. i need it badly. so beli je lah. the rest is history...

acctually penat lah menaip banyak banyak.

so long babai! =)

kita berbeza

2011-01-23T16:09:00.002+08:00

hoi! get a life lah!

kurang haja jerit kat aku macam tu. abis tu kau ingat aku tengah buat ape sekarang? slowly dying? uh shut up! kau xtahu. jangan nak pandai mengarah lah. hidup kita berbeza. okey maaf. tersembur.
kau ingat aku berjalan macam zombi tu xde life ke? okey tipu. aku xberjalan. berlari selalu. tapi terbang jarang. sayap aku patah.

hai awak!

2011-01-22T21:24:00.001+08:00

mama saya pesan, jangan bersembang dengan orang yang xdikenali.. tapi kita ni ape? kita kenal x? kita kawan kan?

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2011-01-17T21:31:00.000+08:00

beauty is not mine

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hello 2011

2010-12-23T14:17:00.002+08:00

waiting list

1st aku tengok promo ni..aku macam..wahh Johnny Depp n Angelina Jolie..nak tengok nak tengok. 1st time kot dorg together-gether. okay. nak pergi tengok.

oh mama!

2010-12-22T18:48:00.000+08:00

hensem! alahai. terjatuh-jatuh dah hati aku ni! adoi adoi

ye, kamu

2010-12-11T08:08:00.001+08:00

tengah cari sumber ilham. bukan seperti pergi ke kedai dan meminta sekilo tepung gandum yang bergred rendah dek kerana harga barangan yang kian meningkat. will be back.

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mana mira

2010-12-09T18:57:00.002+08:00

bosanlah. bangun pagipagi xde orang wish selamat pagi. bile nak habis cuti ni. bosan owh. keje xdapat. nak keluar xde duit. ha macam mana. cepatcepat la...nak balik sri iskandar. gila dah ke aku ni? *wondering* bosan!!! mira cepatla balik!!!

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LEMBAGA HITAM PEPERIKSAAN BLOGGER

2010-11-30T17:17:00.002+08:00

bagus sangat2 la..aku dok bosanxtaunakupdateape tibatiba si tyra p tag aku. meh layan tag dia sat.

LEMBAGA HITAM PEPERIKSAAN BLOGGER

Apa benda paling penting dalam hidup anda?

kad atm aku. lappy aku. buku aku.

Benda terakhir korang beli guna duit sendiri?

mee sedap kot. beli masak hujung2 sem. mana nak ade duit nak makan sedap2

Dimana tempat perkahwinan dan apa tema perkahwinan korang?

wush! xtau lah

Adakah korang tengah bercinta sekarang?

sentiasa dalam cinta hahaha

Berapa lama korang akan mencintai kekasih orang?

tak faham bahasa? aku mbek jawapan ko tyra

Novel/buku/majalah terakhir yang korang beli?

CLEO kot

Apa benda paling penting dalam hidup anda?

ade nampak aku ni macam kaunter pertanyaan ke?

Antara mak dan ayah korang,mana korang lagi mesra?

2,2 laa

Namakan orang yang betul betul korang nak jumpa dalam hidup korang?

Mr Casanova

Adakah korang basuh baju korang sendiri?

x. mesin basuh tolong basuhkan. x)

Dimanakah tempat yang betul betul korang nak pergi?

Venice and Scotland

Pilih satu, peluk atau cium?

penampar nak?

Beritahu 3 benda tentang orang yang tag anda?

1. orang gila. baik gila
2. muka dah cun. tapi kasaq
3. blog die makin best!

5 lagu yang korang suka dan selalu dengar?

selalu betukaq la.

5 bloggers yang dipertanggungjawabkan untuk jawab tagged ini?

kalau xnak tag sape2? ha! hg nak buat ape kat aku!

x)

The boy and his bestfriend

2010-11-25T19:40:00.000+08:00

Boy: I broke up with her.

His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.

His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..

Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

Boy: Well, she..

His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?

His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.

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Think about it, when she’s too much for you.. She just wants the best for you. Because to her YOU’RE the best. If you don’t like something, talk to her about it. You mean so much to her. Don’t just give up. Don’t just leave because you want the easy way out.

sumber: facebook

2010-11-24T14:02:00.002+08:00

anak muda zaman sekarang. marah. mencarut. apa kau dapat dengan mencarut tu? hati kau bertambah sejuk ke? dapat tambah pahal ke? eh. apa kau kisah pasal pahala dosa kan. kau xpeduli semua tu. yang kau peduli. rokok kau. awek untuk pelukpeluk manja. mungkin lebih. machine kau. senang nak pergi manamana + alat untuk senang pikat awek.

aku doakan kau jumpa pangkal jalan. semoga Allah bukak hati kau

dulu dulu

2010-11-21T09:22:00.003+08:00

mase aku kecik2, aku tengok

Barney and Friends,

sebelum naik bas pergi sekolah tengok

The Flinstones, Fred, Wilma.

best. lepas tu ade pulak Luna. tapi xingat dah surname die. bile search je keluar gambar pelik. pelik. ha. cakap pasal pelik baru aku sedar.

Teletubbies

dulu aku memang suka gila tengok ni.
pastu tibatiba aku tersedar.
bende ni pelik gila kot!

korban last

2010-11-21T03:06:00.003+08:00

tadi ade kenduri kat Pulau Gandasuli. Oh my. aku pergi tolong kenduri, dah la aku ni agak 'pemalu' manela aku reti nak bersembang ngan makcik2 tu semua. lain la adik aku. habis semua makcik2 tu nak ambik die jadi menantu. ramah yang amat. hadoih. last2 aku buat2 jage syahmy yang demam. eceh boleh tengok tv+tengok pakcik2 lapah lembu kat luar.

syifa : mana lembu tadi?
aku : tu la
syifa : oh

pergi lari lari lepas 5 minit datang tanya lagi soalan yang sama. haha

zohor ade la sorang pakcik ni mintak one of my uncle tolong ubatkan die. perubatan alternatif. aku dah memang dok terjelepok tepi dinding dah. mengantuk gila. rumah tu nama je rumah kampung. tapi panas. sesi berubat pun start. bile dah habis pakyek tengok aku semacam je.

pakyek : ti, ko mengantuk ke?
aku : a'ah
pakyek : ko seram sejuk ke tengok berubat tu?
aku : haish! xdelah haha

susah kot nak bagi aku seram sejuk. tak percaya? try me.

apebende yang aku korabankan kali ni? mase aku. woi ingat free2 ke aku pergi kenduri tu. aku berkorban la tu. tolong2 ja. aku xmakan pun. pukul 3 aku call abah aku suruh datang ambik. abah aku cerdik. hantar kitorang. sengih 2,3 saat. lepas tu hilang. hampeh.

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2010-11-20T03:04:00.000+08:00

i miss you.
no.
i really do
='(

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bag GA

2010-11-18T22:38:00.004+08:00

bosan. blogwalking. jumpe banyak jugak GA y best2. ok pe kalau join. kurang2 berupdate jugak blog aku nih.

so, GA ni dtg dari Viwy Gurlish. blogshop ni mostly jual bag, handbag, sling bag, clutches, kirenye die jual baglah! harga yang blogshop ni tawarkan pun menarik and berpatutan, design cantik. eish dah macam promoter pulak aku nih. ape2 pun pergilah tengok ye!

oh ya GA ni berakhir pada 26/11/2010 so sempat lagi. cepat2!

ni la lebih kurang hadiah untuk 10 blogger terpilih. join tau!

tag
tyra
hajar

rindu

2010-11-18T20:48:00.002+08:00

alalala rindunye kat lacey!!! mak2 die yang lain eja lessi macam ni. kila dah janji nak bawak next sem! kila cakap lacey da besar. maunye x. mase dok ngan aku haritu pun die asyik makan je. baru xtengok bpe hari dah membesar dah. alalalalala geramnye! rase nak picit2 je!

. lacey/ lessi ialah seekor arnab ye.