Mixed Up Confusion

Smitten. [Sidenote: I only know one person who lives in/near Thurmont, MD. Quit coming here, kthx.]

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Things are going splendidly with my Georgia peach Air Force boy, which from now on will just be called The Captain for brevity. See, my Captain's last name is Kirk and he will someday, literally be: Captain Kirk.

Um, how fucking awesome is that?! It makes me want to marry him right n (more)

Do you like me? Check yes or no.

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I have no idea what the hell is wrong with me. My cute little Georgia peach Air Force boy has me all confused. He's such a gentleman - offering his jacket, offering to drive an hour to change my tire, pulling my chair out and opening doors.

Because I have zero self esteem, I'm now t (more)

I have a feeling this is the last crush I will ever have because he is the perfect boy for me. At least, that's what I'm hoping. Knock on wood, k?

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I'm completely smitten with my Georgia peach Air Force boy.

He is the nicest boy I've ever know. He offered to drive an hour to change my blown tire. AN HOUR! Obviously, I didn't make him, but the fact that he even offered makes me adore him even more (if that's even possi (more)

My tooth is rotting out of my head. Mainly because it's a BABY TOOTH. Yes, I'm 30 and still have a baby tooth - who says I'm old?!

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While my last crush is completely gone and I now consider the rocker catholic home-schooled boy a bit of a douchebag (thought still a decent friend), I've moved on to yet another crush.

He's lovely. He also goes to grad school with me. He also happens to be brilliant beyond words. I (more)

Does anyone know of a man who is ok with skipping the whole get to know you part of the relationship and jumping directly into the overly comfortable with each other part? Please introduce us.

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I'm sad today. I'm sure it's related to my period - I feel very needy and emotional.

I need a hug.

I need someone to hold me.

I totally want someone to brush my hair. Am I the only one that LOVES that?! I mean, seriously - best. thing. ever. right?!

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I'm a bit sad the crush has subsided. It made me feel giddy and happy and fluttery.

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So, I talk to the home-schooled Catholic boy on a daily basis and we hang out occasionally outside of school/work. But, I can't decide if my innocent, yet completely inappropriate, crush has subsided or if it's just dormant. I adore him and care about him, but no longer want to molest him. (more)

It's true, the way to a man's heart is through his stomach.

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I've been a baked goods baking fool lately for the boys in the lab. They adore me even more than they did before (As if that was possible. HA!)

I was going to add a *special* ingredient to the brownies to see how the cadets would react, but didn't because I'm nice. And I didn� (more)

I wore all black on Friday to mourn the loss of my twenties. They were awesome and will be sorely missed.

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I'm officially 30. I've been in a funk about it for some time. Recall my obsession with a 23 year old boy? Yeah, that was a little bit of a mini midlife crisis. On Friday, my birthday, we spoke on the phone and in the middle of the conversation it just dawned on me that I am fucking ou (more)

7/97-8/09

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I euthan (more)

I feel deflated.

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So...yeah. I feel weird today.

I don't know why, but my crush just kinda...dissipated into thin air.

Perhaps it's because I've been trying to rationalize having a relationship with someone 7 years younger than me and I can't seem to make it work in my head. Or no mat (more)