Moca Hallucinations

ticking on the clock

2011-06-20T01:25:00.000-07:00

and we try try try

but we try too hard its a waste of my time,done looking for the critics,cause they're everywhere,they don like my jeans,they don like my hair,exchange ourselves,and we do it all the time...

why do we do that?

lost

2011-06-07T00:09:00.000-07:00

hello peeeeeps....

its been awhile ,i forced to stopped blogging... i seldom meet my friends,i seldom do shoppings or even chatime.i feel very gloomy recently,i understand life have up's and down's,somehow it is not working even i've tried so many times,i must admit tat im very stupid in certain ways of life.i don know how to make things positive,i don know.

last week back,my parents went vacation to australia for almost a week,the 1st thing comes to my mind was,i own the house and the car ,i can drive out till late night ,i tried to drive as far as i can,it was totally excited,unfortunitely all of those time,i was alone,i don know who should i call or date. Till then,i crashed my dad's car at the middle of the road ,i crashed my mom's car while i was on my way to parked my car. i hate my collegues,i hate my job sometimes,i felt shame,i felt alone and im so tired to move on ,have no one to talk with,i just wan to hide and cry in the bathroom.

when im in the bathroom,i didnt cried but i look myself in the mirror,i see myself pale and sleepy,i teared my finger skin again until bleed,i poke the bubble on my toe,i do things that hurt myself ....

lost soul.

second week of may

2011-05-16T06:37:00.000-07:00

hey peoples,i cnt believe that it is already second week of this month already,and i just noticed that this month i only post 2 blogs,i feel so sad abt it...i totally lost my inspirations,i have not been catched up movies and friends,everyday busy working,im not busy but my work is never ending...

and i neeeeed money !!!

2011-05-12T00:44:00.000-07:00

hey peeps! long time no see,i can see my visitors are decreasing day by day,aww tats hurt me,but i cant do anything about it,since the 1st day i started my job,i have no enough time to sleep even online,plus my modem got some technique problems ,i cant online for the pass few days,and it was hard to passed my times,finally it is back to normal,and today is my off day,i should make some productions in order to keep my visitors :)

so.....wanna know more abt my job scope?well,it was honestly tired,sometimes i have to stay back a little late for stock check,and so on.... it is really out of my expectations,i didnt know i have to stay back after all... but it is a good thing thou,i can see how other ppl work in the midnight,like cleaning the mall,decorate their shop and whats more.

for ur informations,im working in topshop pavilion :) feel free do drop by and visit me,or maybe we can have lunch date ,hahaharrrs...

aite,is time to go for another revisions,it is killing me softly everyday if i don memorize all the things that i have to remember.... :( tats what i didnt expect again

byeeeeeeee....

28/4/11

2011-04-28T01:39:00.000-07:00

a heart tat hurts is a heart tat works !!

saturday and monday

2011-04-24T23:52:00.000-07:00

Last saturday afternoon me and my family went out to midvally to bought some work needed,haaa~ i always have the habits of buying new shoes and bags and so on....hmmm

then i bought this ninja joe burger :) is like finally i got the chance to taste it ! dayummmmm

some homemade lunch by myself today,coldstorage bake bread and egg,i called it 鸡蛋穿裙 :))

aite,is time to take a nap after the whole day,i woke up pretty early just to catched up breakfast since i missed it for quite some time,haaahaaa....overslept case

bye....

24/4/11

2011-04-23T10:02:00.000-07:00

you wipe my tears got rid of my fears why did u have to go,guess it wasnt enough to take up some of my love.

guys are so hard to trust :))

19.4.11

2011-04-19T01:58:00.000-07:00

hey,hows everyone?

im so sorry that i have to neglected my blog for a moment,because i lack of photos and entertainments,some of my friend haven even tag me those pictures yet ,argh!! i cant wait to see the result too,oh well...

i've finally graduated from college life,looking for a job nao,everyday google ,ya ~ it makes me puke too,because there is alot of jobs,further place high salary,and so on...honestly it is attracting me,but i don have a personal car to travel tat far to PJ.......hmmm,so i decided to find a nearer place which i always went to,i get a retailer job for myself,i hope everything goes smooth as i quite exciting abt the job . for further details i will keep my my blog updates :D

i bought a sandwich yesterday for today's breakfast,i personally like their bake cakes ,bread and sandwiches ,i have 3 kinds of sandwiches-tuna,cheese ham and vege RM5.50

this picture taken by last friday morning where im abt to go out ,i have date with my auntie joanne

lunch at sushi tei,this was my favourite from that restaurant

mushroom udon

snowflakes -soya series and set 1,not that nice

the next day,went out with mandy gioh,it was our 5-6 dates already finally we met up :)

picture will upload soon ,loving my new peach colour long sleeve blouse,i got it from sungai wang

parents went to energizer night marathon tat night,so they gave us money for dinner outside,sister drove out to sri rampai -downtown for the quick pick dinner,tagged her bf as well

purposely drove down to KL for some kl night view.... then supper at mcd,which only french fries,salt and pepper :)

went out with boey yesterday noon,we have our stories time and lunch at fong lye taiwan restaurant at klcc

i've my set of lunch-sweet and sour fish.RM19.80

very nice bitter gourd chicken soup,and super hot! be carefull ur tongue

white rice and meat sauce

pretty much meaty feeling ,because 2 meat in one day,chicken and fish ! :O

after lunch headed to starbuck for some stuff to do ,while waiting ivy to joined us

tats all for the updates,stay tune,be right back after

14.04.11

2011-04-14T04:25:00.000-07:00

is time to moved to another life stage,people leave,stop lingers the same place,time no waits.

there's nothing left to say,but goodbye

i try

2011-04-10T03:27:00.000-07:00

Never believe my cellphone can actually captured such a good snap shot when comes to sunlights,i noticed it have a little bit of cyber shot and focus ,LOL..... well,i have been using it almost a year since my last year birthday.

i woke up early this morning,i think i should take some milk and biscuit,while waiting the rest to come down to living room . Mom changed the kitchen table no longer ago,and i realized it was vintage to match with ,because we used to have a wood table before this,so far it already becomes our habit. WOOOOOOOD

sorry to say,nothing is perfect, i edit-ed

HL milk and Jacob biscuit,2 is better than more.Because i don feel like eating chocolate paste in the morning,and it makes me feel like puke the half way, ~~greasy.~~

went graveyard this morning with family,it was sunny + cloudy weather,nice.Craved for ice cream while on my way to temple,they have special machine like mcd's,only rm1...nt very nice thou -.-

sleepy face,messy hair,and faded tee shirt that i seldom wear from topshop,and a forever 21 skinny jeans that i hardly recognize it compare to leggings, i crop-ed the pic

there is a point in life when u get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything,but its nt giving up,its realizing that u don need certain people and their craps.

-the end-

9.4.11

2011-04-09T10:34:00.000-07:00

my life right nao consist of staying on the laptop all day,eating everthing in the house due to boredom,feeling lonely most of the time,having no friends that live near by only miles and miles away,stuck in a town that i cant wait to get out of and to live my dreams and start my life.Until then i have to stay strong!

7.4.11

2011-04-08T07:57:00.000-07:00

i've no idea why clinique product so expensive,i bought the "all about eyes" few days ago,it is costy,but i just wan to deal with my eye bags and dry skin around my eye area....so i 've applied it abt one week,and i haven see the result,u can say i lame or wat,yea generallly i just cant wait to see the result la... :P

see,i still have to hide myself in high contrast~

we decided to catch up movie at 1st,but thanks to the bro who name eugene and matthew aka sinchan,they screwed up the chances...grrhhh,so change to plan B,we took our lunch at the foodcourt,suppose only matthew because he is the one who hungry,then both us looked at him ....pathetic

then went for snowflake afterwards,had my long lost soya series + peanut+black pearl +red bean,awww....so freaking nice

met missy boey and ivy awhile at chatime,then headed to j.co for donuts and yogurts! damn nice i can say ,heeeeee

lanc matthew aka sinchan,obviiously he stared at me

and they don know how to used my mobile to captured me,HAHAHAHA

aite,i guess this should be the post i wanted to update ,nothing much for me to share somemore,because i don feel happy in these days,obssessed and depressed at the same time,full stop

running nose

2011-04-06T00:33:00.000-07:00

i went out for a movie with slim last sunday afternoon,we talk,we eat and we laugh...

final exam these 2 weeks , i have my gummy bear in the progress of the exam

purposely went to pavilion straight after exams,we have chatime in the noon and did some window shop at topshop again.Speaking abt chatime,beside pearl milk tea,honey lemon pearl is my second choice!

1st time went to teppanyaki for lunch the next day with coursemate,it was my good time for having beef sets,and the chili ,soya sauce ,price is reasonable no worries :)

am having running nose in the dark and lonesome night,full of mucus kind which change my voice into deep and husky sounds,this is no good,at the same time,my negativities has once again step into my current youth days,something which is really really hard to express out , i guess this is the most creepy wan's,compare to other those days,i don even feel like spending my time with my friends,they just nvr bother abt it at all.

i feel like our world 's been infected,and somehow u left me neglected.So i guess ,i should really making a new decision,to leave

ignore me if it is bored

slack

2011-04-01T02:46:00.000-07:00

oh ya...should filled in some about yesterday outing with choong boey and ivy :D

headed to pavilion ,lunch at fish market,and it was my hard time,salmon too fishy for my garden salad,it took years to finished,but i manage to finished all the salmon in the end ,weird.

then suyin joined us halfway of the lunch,they chatted.For business man sake,many thanks to the owner,they have wifi there,although its abit lagging ,so that i can do my "own thing" via mobile facebook ,teeheee

afterwards we went to chatime ,bumped into some familiar faces,and my fred perry tote bag at the same time,i was thinking to abandoned my bag since i can see those fluff appeared ,but i just cant deal with it ,because next season haven release yet,i guess i shall wait new arrival then only settle abt it.

They have photoshoot at klcc's garden,so i decided to leave early as i still feel abit sick on my eye,before leaving,i went to topshop again,because i wanted to get the shirt that im eyeing on at pavilion,unfortunitely they only available in other colours instead of the one i want,tooo bad la...this sunday no new cloths :(

basically i spend my thursday just like that,ntg much....

by the way,i start reading since few days back with a book call -true love and other lies :) cant wait to know more abt claire and jack further detail ,Hahahaha

weekends is coming,cant wait to spend my day already,xoxo

the momento

2011-03-30T00:33:00.000-07:00

went sing k after class yesterday noon :) am not really in a good figure because of my eye,due to the long hours wearing contact lens since monday ,poorrrr me

hmmmmmmmmmmmmm...i really don have thoughts to share :(

can i stop time???

-the end-

the egg day

2011-03-28T03:14:00.000-07:00

hey hey !! good evening earthlings...

well,just brieftly go thru abt the weekends ,i spend my saturday night with my high schoolmates to one utama for movie-sucker punch.

it was so-so,as i don really get wat the stories line about,but i like the girl who name as emily browning.

she is now 22 years old,she have a long hair before but short hair in actual,which is really short...she have cognitive facial that i hardly forget,she take part in few familiar filmography that i watched before,the very 1st movie i knew abt her was-ghost ship,aka katie(2002),i almost change my name to katie tat time,LOL. Apart from that,she also take part in Lemony snicket's a series of unfortunate event,aka violet bla bla bla(2004),i watched this movie at cinema tat time,her character impress me alot,with her intelligence method ,she can always deal with any obstacles that she faced. How i wish i can have a small part of her :P i remember i watched it 2344548 times in few years back..Needless to say ,the latest movie-sucker punch,aka babydoll..No doubts ! she still stick with the main character of the movie,thumbs up!! :)

so,after the movie....went supper and meet some boys as well,hee!! then ciaoz around 1am ,it has been awhile i nvr hang out that late since after CNY...believe or nt? yes ..

come back to monday,i have test in the morning,thank god i still manage to answer few of 'em as i refer some answer from multiple choices,no offences,u can copy watever u think that its correct or watsoever,i do that often :) tats how i pass my paper i guess ,lol

had steam egg custard in the early noon,thanks to my friend andrew and nick for giving me such a good chance to try ,cant believe it taste like heaven! had lunch with coursemate at the same old place,guess what i order? tofu and steam egg again ,rofl ...sincerely tofu fans!!

aite,shall go and bath :)
bye ♥

一半

2011-03-26T01:29:00.000-07:00

今天好像特别热.....

虽然一个人在房间，风扇开得大大的，但是还可以感覺到窗外照进来的热阳光，這时刻很想飞去市区逛街买冰淇淋，或者是chatime解热，突然想起我好想很久没到过pavilion了。也很感谢昨天一气之下剪了较短的头发，不然一定會变脾气暴躁，因为头发太厚了。

睡醒时已经是中午，最近都很少节目，睡觉的时间自然变多了，开了电脑很快的就update我的status,原来今天是earth hour的那一天，还差点忘记。希望经过了日本的大天灾可以让全球人名醒悟，保护地球是大家的责任，合作支持一年一次只有一天的 earth hour-8.30pm-9.30pm,幸好那時間没节目，那我可以享受关灯的气氛咯。准备蜡烛了吗 earthlings??? :D

以下是我刚才由于太闷了所以webcam了几张，也因为在家整天所以没刻意打扮.......

不凡听听丁当的一半，很有意思，突然间有很多感触，我的一半在哪裡啊？

想着一个人，可是不知道想着谁

stay in

2011-03-25T03:07:00.000-07:00

hellooooooooooooooooo...

finally i went out again today,i went klcc alone to meet my auntie,then we have lunch at subway somewhere nearby avenue k,then back to alone again...cause she need to work,decided to go for haircut,my hair roots are terribly bad after 5months :(

went miko hair saloon,saw many sweet face hanging on their face,i guess today must be "thank god is friday" mood :) hey!! 2mr is weekend again,weeee~~

back home after the hair trim,it was horribly hot,i feel so angry all the way,my brown flower shape flat went KO once again :(

So back to the main point,i've finally got all the pixie already from friend's tagged at facebook ,weeeee~

okok,this was my night before friday morning,packing my stuffffffff

purposely went cold storage just for the japan's snackssss,LOL

woke up at 5am,done my preparation,then head to train station meet yuri ,terry and issac :)

thanks to jason for the mcd hash brown for light breakfast

this is the flat that i just mentioned above :) nice to see but not nice to wear

slept in the bus

this is my 1st proper meal for late lunch at lumut

otw to jetty

next day........................

last day at pangkor..............

cant believe it,i saw dogs at the island :O

going to the jetty again ................

last bear survivor (gummy bear) LOL

tats all :)

babe outing

2011-03-24T00:46:00.000-07:00

so....

before the trip,me and my babe decided to have another short shopping again on wednesday morning to leisure mall,and also the manicure ,since my nails look so ugly,lol

ps: i will nvr cut my own hair / try very short bangs ever again :(

went wongkok char can teng for lunch,then off for movie ,mars needs moms

they bought snacks ,pop corns and fish balls :D

and the four main animate's human voice

ahhh.....internet got problems,and this lead to emotional effect ,not in the mood

back to the life

2011-03-22T07:05:00.000-07:00

hello guys ! hows life these days?

well,im finally back to the usual life again,was having a trip to pangkor last weekend with my coursemate,it was fun and enjoyable,picture will upload here soon!!gimme sometime to manage the picture,just too messed up at my facebook :(

no doubts,i get tanned due to the diving session on last sunday noon,it was quite fun,i saw many alive fishes,coral and real big hot sun that day ,lol...somehow the sunblock are nt usefull enough,because i still tanned !

come back to tuesday(today),i have progress test,it was GG all the way,don know how to do as i totally forgot the test,then after the class ,meet boey at klcc for some talk cock session!! it has been awhile,starbuck still our second choices beside chatime :) oh ya!! it was rain like cats and dogs this morning,i went messed up again because i didnt brought my umbrella~ goodness!

somehow,my hoodie not that thick anymore when comes to coldness day :( i have sneeze in the class and home the whole evening,tissue stuck in the nose somemore :P i hope 2mr will be fine after the warm ginger soup from mom :)

aite,is time to doze off,i need more slumber this week!!

ciaoz

before the trip

2011-03-17T06:38:00.000-07:00

oh hmm... hey guys!

im going to a trip with my coursemate 2mr ,will be leaving to pangkor before sun rise,omg,cant imagine it takes loooooooong journey to reach,so...i've no idea how my ass is goin to be :( basically i've done my packing,i bring lotsa cloths( habit ),hat,sun block,hair dryer,shampoo and body 's,toothbrush/colgate,and shoooooooo much more to go,i just cant live without those stuff ,tats why i pack shooo many things inside luggage,hopefully still capable to stuck something ,lol

okay,this is insane(my mom say),i only go for 3 days to pangkor,i bring all my belongings,i just realize i got nothing left on my dressing table. sot plug i can say *

well,this is my 1st time leaving far with my coursemate without family,cant wait to spend my night with them,~~naked face~~,omfg!!

alright,shall continue my packing again,before i forget to bring anything,see u guys real soon,its just 3 days,swt!

bye!

last sat

2011-03-16T06:11:00.000-07:00

parents went wedding dinner that day,so me and my both sisters decided to have dinner at paparich :) it was awesome,we jokes around,laugh out loud(as usual),talk cock sing song the whole night,then speed the car on the road,it was damn fun !!

pix of the day ,not very in the good digestions,but bloated... @@

i guess something wrong with the coconut milk that contain in the laksa , stomachache the night and lack of slumber as well..

mom brought roses home after the saturday night wedding dinner :) it was pretty fresh,and the roses open widely... i can feel the happiness of it ,LOL

this is me

random.

hmmmmmm

2011-03-14T06:47:00.000-07:00

i've driving test 2 again,yes is second!!! fml.......i paid the goddamnit 150 just for the resit car parking !!! :( aww,this is shooooooo pathetic aye...

sorry im so moody :(((((((

still good

2011-03-12T01:54:00.000-08:00

me and my classmate decided to buy trip stuff together on tuesday ,after class.Coinsidently boey date me at the same day as well,but this time i've to drained away...

before head to sungai wang,we took our lunch at ampang,where we use to go...i have my taiwan cuisine this time :) errrrrrrr,i have no idea which part of it look like taiwan cuisine but more to chinese cuisine thou

on my way to sungai wang,was considering which brand of the sunblock should i buy.... :D

so i bought 2 diffrent usefullness of the sunblock from sunplay i guess,each cost abt 30(more or less),there is one contain "body concealer"so that u can make ur skin tone more equally and protection under sun ,another wan is normal sunblock,waterproof and it keeps ur skin moisture...both contain 50++ spf,so its shooooo worth to buy ,u can find it at watson :)

i've another outing at thursday with boey ,and her beloved :)

big thanks to my little sis for the ride as she was rushed her way to university,yet she willing to fetch me somewhere nearby pavilion ... xoxo

don really got myself the best ~~straight and silky~~ haido tat day,all because of the mistaken shampoooooooo! :(

meet boey at 12pm,got ourself the movie ticket then off we have our lunch at ying ker lou @pavilion,1st time trying hakka cuisine ,and the lei-cha rice ,cost abt rm15.90,u can choose either white rice /brown rice

bought big momma like father like son for the movie session at 2.15pm,movie was so-so,and i shivered tat time :(

had chatime again,HAHAHA...then wait for the sister finished her class,and fetch me home :) little bit of traffic conjested on the road,as usual

aite,parents nt home tonite,they have wedding dinner again -.- shooooo many dinner lately,nonetheless,me and my 2 sister plan to drive out for our best siblings dinner later,woohooo! sounds great :P

arigato

星期三不算晴天

2011-03-09T06:31:00.000-08:00

今天一早就出发去上课，妈妈很好，看到我在巴士站一个人，所以就顺便载我到火车站。火车和平时一样多人，不知为什么他们不再服务比平时长的火车，人超多，一个人在火车里的感觉很好，可以听歌也可以发呆。看见很多人都忙着玩iphone ，想说如果我也有一架那该多好~

一大早就有考试，昨晚都没好好复习，因为都很累，躺在床上很自然睡了。说回考试，其实并不难的，有些都有听过老师提，就是不用心咯，搞到字认识我，我不认识字，幸好时间很多，至少我抄了好像对又好像不对的答案，总好过交白卷啊......

下午的课，提前上。所以今天很早回家，大家都因为昨天疯狂购物买旅行的东西而导致精神不佳，早回家也是好的。回家路上下毛毛雨，幸好yuri肯送我回家，不然也是落汤鸡到家的，到家的时候远看见我家的bb四脚朝天睡觉，爸爸妈妈不在，那种感觉很爽，因为很清静，洗手洗脚后就躺在床上上网，是不是很空闲的感觉？哈哈

就这样，不小心睡着了，一睡就睡了3个小时，很不赖！精神很好，也不知道今晚几点才可以入睡了，惨惨惨~

今天总算过得不错，心情有点差因为娃娃鞋做怪!!讨厌新鞋，因为会打脚 :(

今天也吃得不多，早餐吃了两块小饼干，下午吃炒饭，晚餐吃豆腐青菜和猪胸肉醋，因为是酸的所以不会很肥，整天就是吃减肥餐!!零食也没吃哦，因为睡过头，时间过了不想吃，我想以后要吃就睡觉，哈哈

最后送上昨天的照片，这几天一直用错洗发液，搞到我的头发很粗！有没有？:(

还有双眼皮画得很均匀，这也是幸运才会均匀的，不晓得为什么~

刚才吃橙的时候，不小心吃到不少的tissue,真是不小心........................

bye