Mommy Was Moody. Now She's Raising Zoeyjane

the end is the beginning is the end

Zoeyjane — Thu, 01 Dec 2011 11:49:48 +0000

“History, despite its wrenching pain, cannot be unlived, and if faced with courage, need not be lived again.” ~ Maya Angelou So there’s this thing I’ve seen play out all around me, from all of these bruised souls that have accidentally become a part of this sisterhood we shouldn’t have been born into. It’s a [...]

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When logic is absent, how does one solve for x?

Zoeyjane — Thu, 01 Sep 2011 22:49:02 +0000

My daughter has my dead father inside of her. Or she's five. And I'm skinny. As much as things change... they don't.

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I’m going to try not to cry this time

Zoeyjane — Wed, 18 May 2011 06:47:26 +0000

So, besides the fact that I got to see a slew of medical professionals during my awesome seven-weeks-and-still-kicking cold, I see my doctor every month. My medication’s not quite right. I’m a little too up, when I should be level. A little to frenetic, when I should be still. A little crashy, when the whole [...]

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Blogging is more of a mirror than a reflection (aka high school ended a long time ago)

Zoeyjane — Sat, 14 May 2011 08:21:35 +0000

I want to clarify that this particular post isn’t directed toward anyone specifically, nor is it meant to imply that I am either ‘hot shit’, ‘warm shit’, an ‘authority’ or ‘awesome’. After reading Angie‘s post and Meredith‘s, my brain just had words. Evidently, a lot of them PS. I am ‘awesome’ (ironic quotes intended). Okay, [...]

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On the anniversary of

Zoeyjane — Sat, 07 May 2011 19:29:28 +0000

Daddy, Tomorrow is the fifth anniversary of the last day that you took a breath. It will be, as it usually is, a bittersweet day. Because this day reminds me of how I’m basically little more than an orphan. 50% self-imposed; 50% biologically-determined. It’s a reminder that I don’t miss you, but I do miss [...]

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It Does Get Better (a giveaway and pledge)

Zoeyjane — Thu, 31 Mar 2011 10:45:36 +0000

I don’t talk much about it here, but everywhere else, when the conversation or writing on the screen calls the conversation, I’m talking. I know I’ve been away. I haven’t been posting much lately and some readers, knowing my ups and downs, I suppose, have emailed out of concern. I’m okay. I’m better than okay. [...]

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Askance

Zoeyjane — Fri, 04 Mar 2011 10:39:28 +0000

This is my first week participating in the IndieInk Writing Challenge and Cab wasn’t gentle. My prompt: Watch this video. Write a fictional story based on how you interpret the song’s meaning. No word count guidelines. Bonus points for erotica. *** When I picked up the phone this morning, reaching through the fog of another [...]

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Carnivale

Zoeyjane — Mon, 21 Feb 2011 06:27:37 +0000

I’m going up, locked in at waist and chest, but there’s enough space between the gulf that my hipbones protrude from and protection that I’m not safe. I know this. Still, I can’t help but wonder at the blueness that surrounds me. The single seagull, swooping, as if in slow-mo, calling someone far away. He’s [...]

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The fear

Zoeyjane — Tue, 15 Feb 2011 07:32:28 +0000

I can over-simplify, and under-explain, but completely qualify my fears as Zoë’s mother into two distinct forms: I worry that I will box her into being something; I worry that I will fight so hard against boxing her in, I veer too far to the other side. Take swimming. Today was her first lesson, ever. [...]

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This week in life

Zoeyjane — Tue, 08 Feb 2011 06:16:15 +0000

You know when you find a killer sale, and you totally stock up on stuff, thinking you’re being proactive, but then you soon realize that you either: a) already had stocked up on the thing you were just stocking up on, or b) needed the thing you were stocking up on, so it’s not so [...]

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