MoODy DiaRy~~~~~

This??? Or that???

2010-06-25T02:51:00.002+08:00

Everyday...

We need to make decisions everyday....

No matter small one, or big one~~

Whether to eat noodle or rice??? Whether to drink coke or water??? Whether to buy this or that??? Whether to help him or her??? So on.......

There are a lot of decisions we need to make for our entire life~

Each decisions lead to different outcomes and results..... What we decide now will affect our living styles and ways in the future~~

Some will wonder whether they had made the right decisions or not..... May be the decision is the best one for now but not the future.... May be it doesn't seems good for now but better for the future~~

The most important thing that one must remember is that.... God doesn't force you to make a decision like what you had selected... He wants you to make a decisions that is by His Will.... You can choose to follow or let go....

In the end... You will know that His way is the BEST for you and me~

Trust in Him~~ Every decisions made will be supported once you think His way~~

Crazy~~

2010-05-07T00:06:00.002+08:00

Dont know what is the reason~~ Every time I work at SnJ, I will enjoy and laugh a lot~ Yesterday, HY told me that my laugh was very influencing one~ Haha~ Sweat man~

Today, I have gone crazy again~~ Like a mad girl~~ Laughing all the way~~ The whole day~~ haha~~ I was making a double bow~~ I tell HY that I wanna make a nun-chuk~~ its a very big different~ I dont understand why I said so~~ may be I have problems with my head and nerves~~ Hah~

Around our closing time, there was a customer wanted to make a "nun-chuk" said HY~~ haha~ We laugh again~ They said that the way i laugh and act was very cute~~ Very happy~~ This cute and the cute I dont like is different though~ haha~~

Hope that I can behave like that every day~~ So that I can influence more people that there is still warm in the world!!!

My Prince Charming

2010-04-29T01:40:00.002+08:00

I wonder when can I get to meet my prince charming~~ I had dreamt about meeting my prince charming~~ I hope that I can have a romantic relationship~ Just like what i dreamt~~ Meeting him, fall in love due to understand and that chemical reaction, he would care for me, love me, hug me like I will be gone in any minutes, and lastly get marry and give birth~~ Problems do occur during the relationship but it helps us to understand each other better~ Unwillingly to be separated~~ Fuh~~ Dreams really can out of imagination~~ How long else can i wait?

crazy decision

2010-04-28T23:33:00.000+08:00

Today's exam wasn't as hard as I thought so~~ And the tips are very ACCURATE!!
I went to Jitra today~~ Watch "Ice Kacang Puppy Love"~~ Nice movie~~ ^^. Tension being released during the movie~~ Hoho~
We have KFC as my dinner~~ the dinner was a disaster~~ We tried the new nasi briyani set~~ It taste bad~~ I dont like it at all~~
I saw my friend's post today morning~~ Asking anyone miss her cause she is going back~~ Quite a number of people comment on her post~~ Lots of people miss her~~ May be because she is cute and pretty~~ haha~~ Shame on me~~ Guess no one will miss me at all~~ Haih~~
I saw another post later at night~~ One of my friends celebrated her birthday~ I dont know when~~ But the post made me sad~ None of my Christian friends celebrate for me~ I know I shouldn't be greedy~~ But I'm really really sad~~ Because I feel that I'm no one among them~~ May be I'm not welcomed by them~ Sad story~~ No one will pity me~~ No one will care about my feeling~~ Who am I for them to care for?
Someone advised me to be more aggresive to care for somebody else~ We have to be initiative~~ Not being passive~~ If i does not get any from others~~ How do I spread or even care for others when i dont have any??? Sad~
Today I saw a notice on the notice board near cafe~ It states that a guy had stolen things from the shop~~ But caught by CCTV~~ I'm afraid that he is one of my friend~~ Cause the size and shape of the body look alike~~ I hope that it was not him~~ Pray~~ Haih~~ Sad thing~~
Sad things do happen everyday~~ Its the matter of how we handle it~~ I bet I failed to handle it well and properly~~ I could not control myself~

Its the final count down~~

2010-04-25T07:23:00.002+08:00

Im on my way counting down for my journey to my home!!!
after today's paper... I will left only 2 exam papers to go~~ so excited!!!!
less than a week~~ I'LL BE HOME LESS THAN A WEEK!!! Like the past few semesters, I dont expect high CGPA for my final~~~ I just hope that I can maintain~~ Its enough for me~~ and today, while I'm studying and preparing for my exam paper... I fcan feel it~~ I can feel the power from God~~ Thank Him for being with me~~ That power is awesome!!!! Amen!!
Oh God, continue to help me and grant me wisdom and knowledge for the papers I'm going to sit for!!!! In Jesus name, Amen!!!
Gambatte kudasai!!!!!!

nothing is impossible~~

2010-04-20T00:19:00.004+08:00

usually... we like to say nothing is impossible~~ i feel that people who say this quotation have the intension of cheating ownself~~~ though...... sometimes it really works~~ haha~~
it has been 2 days after my birthday~~ I'm quite sad~~ especially one day before and on that day~~ why?? haha~~
i have join them to celebrate 2 friends' birthday just few days before my birthday~~ like usual~~ i expect that they will either celebrate my birthday one day earlier or on that specific day~~I was disappointed... nothing happen~~ not a single birthday celebration until this moment~~
I kept telling myself they are busying with their exam~~ that's why they did not celebrate for you~~ dont be sad~~ there are around 100 persons wished you happy birthday in facebook~~ why care for the minority while majority greet you??
haha~~ yeah~~ why do i need to care for those who dont care for me?? why do i need to be sad just because of them?? do they worth it?? God knows~~
Nothing is impossible~~ may be they just want to give me surprise?? haha~~ lying to myself again~~ once and once and once again~~ may be i dont worth being celebrated by them~~ moreover, I'm not a celebrity, not anyone important to them~~ may be i really dont worth it~~ haha~~
then, I was thinking~~ if that is so~~ why do i need to celebrate for the others while they dont celebrate mine?? I laugh at myself~~ for being foolish~~ the reason i celebrate their birthday carry other meaning~~ i hope that they will celebrate for me in return~~ what an idiot~~ they have no responsibility to celebrate for me~~ and they did not force me to celebrate for them~~ so..... why do i care so much~~
this is what i told myself: I'm not going to celebrate any of their birthday anymore~~ unless i wanted to~~ lolx~~ so materialistic~~ i couldnt help it~~ i really like to have party with friends~~ but they hurt me too much!! my birthday~~ i wont let it through meaningless~~ its only once a year~~ i will satisfy and celebrate myself~~ eventhough alone~~ i wont~~ i wont waste my time waiting anymore~~
nothing is impossible??? haha!!!
i guess it should be
NOTHING IS POSSIBLE for me~~

we wish you a happy birthday~~

2010-04-13T01:05:00.000+08:00

today~~ is the day~~ we are celebrating SH's birthday~~ they bought KFC and Pizza hut~~
At first, I wonder why they did not bring down the food together with the cake~~ May be they dont want SH to notice that~~
The cake was chocolate banana~~ FULL of chocolate!!!! Somemore~~~~ they poke in something else~~~ Our pictures~~~ =.=''' Really sweat~~haha~~~ but creative neh~~ ^o^
SH really surprised~~ and she was touch by the movie made by HP~~ thanks to HP~~ ^^
After finish singing, eating, SS and LY went out~~ i thought they just went back for something else~~
Then, I saw them acting stealthily~~ nothing gets into my mind that time~~ then, i went to toilet washing my hands~~ at that moment, I laughed~~ why?? yeah~~~ i guess they are bringing another cake~~~ to celebrate my birthday~~
happy neh~~~
though i might not be the main purpose for them to celebrate~~ I still wanna thank them for celebrating my birthday~~ ^^
thanks for the cake and food oh~~

let's celebrate~~

2010-04-11T00:39:00.005+08:00

my friend told me few days earlier that we are going to celebrate SH's birthday~~ my heart was up and down~~ she's final semester~~ so, I agreed to celebrate for her~~ I dont expect that they will celebrate for me~~ I do feel annoyed for a while~~ my birthday is just around the corner and they plan to celebrate for SH whose birthday falls on May~~ haha~~ then i realize~~ may be i should be more aggresive in joining them~~ i guess no one likes me~~ due to my appearancce and attitude~~ who knows??

anyway... i really want to celebrate SH's birthday~~ she helps me alot and i know i have no chance to celebrate for her anymore~~ since she's leaving for practical~~ hope that she will enjoy her birthday celebration and remember us though she's leaving~~ ^^

Gambatte kudasai!!!!!

and good luck too~~

craft

2010-03-26T12:29:00.000+08:00

I love craft things very, very long time ago~~ Now~~ I can fulfill my dream of DIYing my own thing and sell it to get income!!! Yay!!!!
I bought a lot of non woven cloths for that purpose~~ I have completed 11 and on the way making more before I start to sell it!!! This semester break will be a good period for me to use up all my materials~~ Two months!!!!! I believe I can finish it!!!!!
100pcs of the cloths~~~ hoho~~~ Cant imagine when I use up all my materials~~~
I need idea, idea, idea and ideas~~~ hah!!!
Wish me luck!!! Hope that i can earn money from that!!!! haha~~~

Hint

2010-03-20T12:19:00.000+08:00

I guess its a hint from God~~
I have seen the same message twice in a day~~ And the message is very impressive~~~ Like talking to me about my problems~~~
"Shared joy is a double joy, shared sorrow is half a sorrow"
what does that means??? May be He wants to tell me that if I am willing to share joy with the others~~ The joy will be much more than that~~ It will be 200% from what I shared~~ If I share sorrow to the others~~ They wont feel the sorrow as I do~~ Which means they only feel 50% of what i feel~~ Sad thing~~ But its true~~ How many person in this world will wanna share the pain you suffer?? Not many I think~~
Its time to learn how to share more JOYS and throw away ALL the SORROW so that the total of 150% of the sorrow will be gone~~ Out of my mind while the HAPPY one stays forever~~~That should make me and my friends happy always~~~ Rather than feeling SAD myself~~~
GAMBATTE!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry sorry~~

2010-03-19T17:50:00.000+08:00

I have been away for a very long time~~ away from His home~~~ My home sweet home~~
Does He really abandoned me?? This is the question I've ask myself again and again and again~~ For dont know how many times~~~
I went to church today~~ the title spoken today was "WAITING"~~
Suites me~~ I guess~~
The content was:
When we pray, we often expect God to answer our prayers~~ But we had forgotten that prayers is not only for the time when we are under depressed, in problems or troubles...
Prayers should be every where, every time, every occassions~~ Its a media or channel for us to communicate with Him - our God~~~ It is up to Him whether to answer our request or not~~~ Our duty is to tell Him everything~~ No matter small or big case~~ No matter we are in troubles or not~~~ Because He is the one who listen~~ And is Him who will decide what to do~~~ That is His responsibility~~~
I guess I have to do my part always~~
Besides, we cant determine with the so call 'fact' that:
when our prayer has been answered = He has listened to us
He will always be there to listen to us~~ He did not answer our prayers doesnt mean He dont care of us~~~ May be He wants to train us to become stronger through problems~~ Just like our parent~~ They will give the best to us~~ they would stop us when the thing we want is not suitable for us or it will harm us in a way that we dont know~~~ He is like that too~~ So dont blame Him for not answering our prayers~~ He is just protecting us in a way that we dont like or agree with~~ That doesnt mean that He dont love us~~ JUST we dont understand His purposes and He had all our blames~~~
Sorry~~ Father Lord~~ Sorry for all that I have blame You with~~~ I promise I will learn to understand Your ways and wills~~~ Not mine~~~
Sorry~~~

Problem

2010-03-16T23:33:00.001+08:00

I wonder how~~ I wonder why~~~
I have been facing the same problems over and over again~~ Why is it happening to me?? I just want friends~~ so that I will not be alone all the time~~ Is it really that hard???
Every time when i saw the others who always hanging out with a gang of friends or having that specific friends all the time, I become so down~~ Always asking why why why~~~ Why i dont have one???
I am very hurt these days~~ Seeing them going out together.... leaving me behind~~ its like stabbing me with a real sharp knife~~
do prayers really answered by God?? I'm doubt right now~~~ I can just blame myself~~ Im such a stupid and ugly person~~ may be no one wants to be my friend~~ may be becoming one of my friend is not a good thing to them~~ sad~~ real sad~~~ being denied by the others is such a sad thing~~ anyone would really want to become my friend???
I wonder~~~

picture~~~

2010-01-08T15:48:00.004+08:00

充实ing~~~~

2010-01-08T15:29:00.002+08:00

在过去十二月份的假期当中,我觉得我过得也挺充实的~~

我回到精品店那里打工~~几乎同一班人马,却不一样的感觉~~今年开心太多了!!!!

很高兴能包礼物~~包到不能停!!好兴奋哦!!!!

我还看到八八六十事的男主持人gary yap哦~~~ 他本人很高很白~~斯文型的男生~~~不像在电视内看到那么活跃的他~~原本以为可以向他拿个签名的~~结果,包礼物包得没空呐~~~

我还带上天使环工作呢~~虽然有人会说我的坏话,如:有那么胖的天使吗??等等~~

但很开心的是!!!!! 有很多人赞我可爱哦!!!!连难得见到面的老板也说我可爱哦~~~嘻嘻~~~超high的!!!这个月的我心情都不错吧~~保持笑容, 所以顾客们才会觉得我可爱吧~~~ ^.^嘻嘻~~

也因如此,我认识到很多顾客~~有些是别处的工作人员~~他们看到我都会天使天使的叫我~~~

圣诞节也是在店里度过哦~我工作的最后一天,他们还送我毛巾和一起聊天到三更半夜哦~~~回来时真的好不舍得他们哦~~~希望我们还可以继续联络!!

朋友!!等我回家我一定再约你们出来疯狂下的!!!! ^o^

放些我和同事拍的照片...还有天使环哦~~~

feeling~~~

2009-11-04T17:46:00.001+08:00

人需要天父,却不承认,结果把生命弄得一团糟.

是否曾经遇上某些事情是明明自己做不到的, 却偏偏不肯交托上帝?? 硬要自己完成呢?

曾经何时, 我也是如此~~自以为是, 只肯相信自己的能力是多大多大的~~~ 却死都不承认神是万能的, 是全能的~~~

直到事情变得越来越糟糕时, 才来埋怨神为何不伸手帮忙~~~ 那你想过吗?? 神永远都在我们左右, 随时standby为我们担当~~~ 只是, 我们可曾在那时候想起他呢??

就是因为我们不肯承认他是全能的神, 不肯学习交托~~~ 往往以自己的”聪明智慧”来解决~~~ 却不曾想过他的智慧是超乎所有人的~~~ 包括圣经人物当中的所罗门王的聪明也不能与神相比~~~

所以呢~~~ 无论何时何地, 我们都应该先祷告寻求神,再努力的解决所有问题~~~

因为他必在旁指引~~~ 阿们~~~~~

what i get~~~

2009-11-03T17:52:00.000+08:00

这几天呢, 我都很勤劳灵修, 读神的话语~~~ 真的得益非浅啊~~~

我读到一篇文章, 题是超级难题~~~

很感兴趣叻~~~ 文章是说, 有个牧师挑战教会的每个人,在21天内(据说21天可以培养新习惯)都不可以抱怨, 不可以发牢骚. 看完了, 还真觉得有挑战性和困难叻~~~

我一直以腓立比书2:14来警惕自己~~

凡所行的, 都不要发怨言, 起争论~~~凡所行的, 都不要发怨言, 起争论~~~凡所行的, 都不要发怨言, 起争论~~~

一直不断的重复着~~~ 也忘了多少遍了~~~ 两三天过了~~~ 原来要这样真的不简单~~~ 但是呢!!! 我发现自己抱怨及发牢骚的次数少了~~~ 希望神会继续帮助我~~~ 让我能成功咯~~~~

为什么一定要成功???? 嘻嘻嘻~~~ 因为在民数记14章里~~~ 因为以色列人一直抱怨, 不断的发怨言, 最终被上帝惩罚了~~~ 我不想得罪神~~~ 我想要讨主喜悦哦~~~~ 各位弟兄姐妹~~~~ 让我们一起来加油哦~~~~ 为了那永恒的生命!!!!!　

路加福音12:15 - 人的生命不在乎家道丰富

2009-11-02T17:48:00.001+08:00

在街上, 餐厅, 商场等等的地方, 我们都会看见不一样的人事物~~~
这一刻, 你可能在这看见一个美女~~~ 随后, 在那又可能会遇见一个胖小子~~~
这时候, 你可能幸运的抽到一个小礼物~~~ 过后, 可能在路上碰到车祸就在你面前发生~~~
很多很多的事情, 每一天都不会停止的发生在我们身旁~~~
有些人会埋怨, 有些人会冷言观看, 有些人却感同身受~~~
你又会是怎样看待这些事情的呢???
活了22年(快23了), 我的人生路段并不算太坎坷~~~ 感谢主~~~ 只是, 也并不好受~~~
我常常抱怨为什么我不是出于富裕家庭呢??? 那我就可以要什么买什么了~~~ 我也常抱怨为什么主赐福给其他人却永远都不是我的家庭??? 为什么别的基督徒那么有钱??? 我家却难过得要命~~~ 连自己想吃一餐较为丰富的都难~~~
也忘了几时, 我不再抱怨~~~ 只晓得, 不管什么时候, 我所需要的, 主都知道~~~ 他必定会安排给我~~
现在的我也算是明白为什么神会这样安排给我啦~~~ 我这个人太多欲望了~~~ 别想歪~~~ 是物质上的~~~ 我看见什么就要什么~~~ PSP啦, 新手机啦等等等等的~~~ 想深一曾~~~ 这些东西是必需品吗??? 有的话可以添饱我的肚子吗?? 能帮我解渴吗??? 是不能的~~~ 所以呢, 没钱就不必想那么多咯~~~~ 要不然也浪费了~~~ 若真的要就努力挣钱咯~~~ 嘻嘻~~~
最后呢, 要说的是每个人有自己的遭遇, 不必羡慕不必嫉妒~~~ 这都是神为你和我量身定做的哦~~~
路加福音12:15 - 人的生命不在乎家道丰富~~~~~
上帝应许供给我们的需要, 而非满足我们的欲望~~~~~~

happy-ing~~~

2009-10-28T14:20:00.002+08:00

27/10
今天是我这学期最后一个Presentation~~~ 整个过程中, 我们三个女生都没出声~~~~ 因为我们完全不懂~~~ 没份做的原因咯~~~~ 不过, 还好Lecturer还蛮满意的~~~
今天约了芯蒂和Sushi出去Changlun一趟, 吃了一顿. 她们还请我喝茶呢~~~ 真的谢谢她们呢~~~
我们六点回的时候下了场雨吧~~~ 看见好漂亮的彩虹~~~ 可惜我没相机~~~ 不能清楚拍出来~~~ 电话拍出来就这样的效果咯~~~~很开心~~~还想起有彩虹的原因~~~ 圣经说: 这是神和人们的约定, 不再以洪水毁灭人~~~~
我真的要减肥了~~~ 因为我真的很丑啦~~~~也因为这样而没自信~~~~ 神啊!!!! 求你帮帮我吧!!!!!

Penang trip day 3

2009-10-26T14:16:00.001+08:00

25/10

从昨天开始, 我们就一直怂恿文豪不要回去开会~~~ 看着他我也替他感到挣扎~~~ 今天醒来时差不多两点吧~~~ 原本打算直接吃了就回的~~~我们吃了Rojak和KFC~~~吃完了就回慧婷家收拾东西咯~~~ H的一句话就影响了文豪的决定了~~~因为6.45pm开会, 如果现在回也赶不及去开会了~~~ 因为回到去应该八点晚上了~~~~~ 唯有决定明天一大早就去搭巴士回咯~~~ 文豪解决了, 可Eunice不肯呐~~~~因为功课还没做完~~~结果还是给我们说服了~~~~留下来在那里做咯~~~

文豪想睡觉, Eunice要做功课~~~ 我, 慧婷和伟伦就去看看慧婷的朋友~~~ 因为有活动哦~~~ 是Jom Heboh来到那地方~~~~

慧婷朋友给了她一盒用Peanut Butter做的饼干和一罐Peanut Butter呢~~~~ 我还和Ribena的葡萄和柠檬拍了一张照呢!!!!!! 哈哈哈哈~~~ 幼稚!!!!

虽然那里没什么好玩, 不过也属一次经验咯~~~~嘻嘻嘻嘻~~~~

晚上我们去吃了海鲜粥, oishii ne~~~~ 虽然地方很不开胃~~~ 但是食物真的不得了~~~~ 开心ing~~~~

还去Pasar Malam买了芋头叉烧”包”来吃~~~ 真的好香~~ 好吃好吃~~~~

能吃真的好幸福~~~~ 但是, 是有代价的~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Penang trip day 2

2009-10-25T20:23:00.003+08:00

24/10
醒来时, 已经是快下午两点了~~~ 我们准备好后, 就出发去吃东西~~~ 慧婷带我们去吃猪肉粉~~~ 好好吃哦~~~~而且有很多猪肉哦~~~ 又没有猪肉的臭味~~~ 他们的辣椒很特别~~~ 也很好吃~~~ 真的很想再去吃耶~~~
吃完了, 我们就去了福音书局~~~ 里面有好多东西我想买的叻~~~ 可惜没什么钱~~~~~ 下次去要买很多很多东西!!!! 有项链, 书签, 灵命书籍, CD, 笔记本, 还有游戏等等等等的~~~ 我都想要啦~~~~ >.<
购物完毕~~~ 我们的下一站是海湾~~~ 我们在那里玩疯了!!! 伟伦爱演我们不出奇, 原来文豪也超爱演的~~~~ 哈哈~~~ 我们拍了照片之外, 还拍了MV, 和<<吓到笑 2>>~~~~ 真的笑死我了!! 一路上他们就一直说一直说~~~~ 我就一直笑一直笑~~~ 笑到我快疯掉了!!!! 哈哈哈哈哈!!!!! 伟伦真的无时无刻都在演~~~ 动作又好笑~~~ 令到我们笑声完全停不了的感觉~~~~
接下来就是火锅店~~~ 是自由式的哦~~~ 食物任拿的那种~~~~ 嘻嘻~~~~ 想到都开心~~~ Eunice是最先说饱, 却比我们都还要能吃~~ 真的甘拜下风呐~~~ 哈哈~~~~
这一餐真的太丰富了~~~ 我们吃到动弹不得呢~~~~ 那店后有养鱼, 好漂亮哦~~~ 我还拍了几张照片呢~~~ 还折磨了那可怜的小鱼一下下~~~ 嘻嘻~~~ 不好意思啦~~~ 只是手一时痒咯~~~~~
十点了, 我们送了慧婷的朋友回家后, 我们就去~~~~~ 登登登登~~~~ 海边!!!!!!! 我们在那里聊了好久哦~~~ 真开心~~~~ 还玩了水~~~真舒服~~~
今天和昨天一样, 都是快六点了才睡~~~ 好累哦~~~~~

Penang trip day 1

2009-10-24T20:24:00.003+08:00

23/10
我的心不上不下的~~~不知道到底我要不要去慧婷那里~~~很矛盾~~~
结果, 还是去了~~~~
今天, 崇拜完了有UUPG – UUM United Prayer Gathering, 会举行到两点~~ 我并没有打算要去~~~ 我就参爱丰去吃午餐~~
1.45pm
他们还没完~~~ 但是, 听着他们敬拜, 我哭了~~~ 我觉得我自己好笨~~~ 什么都做不好~~~ 什么都不会做~~~ 神啊!!! 求你引导我吧~~~~
原本今天是坐传道的车去到Alor Setar搭车去Butterworth的~~~ 因为传道的车没位了~~~ 所以我们就自己等巴士咯~~~
我们一路上有说有笑的~~~ 满开心的~~~ 所以很快就到我们的目的地了~~~ 到那里已经差不多五点了~~ HT就带我们去吃~~~ 我吃虾面~~~ 文豪, 伟伦和Eunice吃鸡和猪扒饭~~~ 慧婷叫了星洲炒米粉和福建面(我那一带是这样叫的, 慧婷那里好像不是叻~~)来吃~~~
之后我们还吃了白咖哩面, 炸鸡和蚝煎~~~好丰富, 吃得我们好饱哦~~~
接近八点了, 我们就一起去唱K的地方~~~由于慧婷也是第一次去, 所以呢~~~ 我们得早点去找找那地方~~~
那唱K的店名是叫日光~~~ 我们见到了!!! 下去问~~~ 噢~~~~结果好羞哦~~~~~ 那里是大桌球的地方叻~~~ 原来唱K的地方在对面远些的地点~~~~
我生平第一次唱K唱到那么久那么迟的~~~~ 总共唱了7个小时~~~ 是7个小时!!!!!好夸张哦~~~ 不过, 很享受很开心~~~ 原来他们四个都很厉害叻~~~ 我真的有点惭愧~~~ 哈哈~~~ 过后, 我们还去打包了McDonald来吃~~~ 那时已经差不多四点了~~~ 回到慧婷家大概4.30am吧~~~ 聊下聊下~~~ 我们差不多六点才睡~~~ 一天就这样过去了~~~ 好开心~~~

We always have this someone beside us-Jesus Christ

2009-10-18T15:35:00.003+08:00

USUALLY, I'm alone doing anything~~~ Dinner, shopping, play games and so on~~~ whatever u could think of~~~
I always give "No common topics to talk to the others" as a reason to keep away from socialize with others~~~ I can actually think of a few topics to start with the others yet i don't want to~~~ Cause I'm afraid that they don't like~~~ Because of this problem,i always walk anywhere alone~~~ then, i don't need to think of anything~~ But i will always feel lonely too~~~
I always tell others that i don't know what to talk to the others~~~ my friends who know me a little deeper than the others knew that I have LOTS of things to talk about!!!!!
Now that i almost always alone~~~ i feel hard to make new friends~~~ i posted a question in my facebook wall before. Asking do i have at least 1 true friend??? The answer is yes~~~ I have this invisible friend - Jesus, that will always by my side no matter what happened~~~~
To those who are alone and think that you do not have a true friend~~~ i can tell you very certain that Jesus will not leave you alone no matter what happened~~~ When you are happy, sad, worry, enjoying and so on~~~~ He will NEVER leave you nor forsake you!!! unless you choose to leave and forsake HIM~~~~~

what we have and what we don't

2009-10-15T15:10:00.000+08:00

i saw a picture i guess~~~ its kinda like a comic too~~ i added the image in~~~ But its in Mandarin~~~
it says that: "God is so gracious that He gave us so many things in our life yet we like to blame God for things we don't have~~~~ No wonder we are not happy~~~~"
its true that humans are almost the same~~~ me myself will blame God too~~~ Cause i cant think of anything that God gave me in my life~~~~
I blame Him for not letting me to be born in a wealthy family~~~~ but yet i can continue living day by day while i'm always thinking on how to earn and find more money~~
I blame Him for giving me such a family that full of noise (arguing, nagging, bla bla bla)~~~ yet I'm happy when we laugh together and we learn to forgive each other SO QUICKLY~~~~
I blame Him for not giving me parent that cares very much about me~~~ But i feel great that i can be independent in a lot of things~~~~
I blame Him for giving me such a big fat body that cause me losses all my confident~~~ yet i like my face very much (without specs) and thank God that my body consider healthy (no diabetics, high blood pressure, high cholesterol and so on)~~~
I blame Him for not giving me a determine heart in doing anything continuously~~~ yet I always able to go through problems with the minimum obstacle~~~
I blame Him for a lot of things and i forgotten about the best gift anyone could ever have~~~~ Jesus Christ-my savior~~~ and He gave me ETERNAL LIFE as i believe in Him~~~~
Starting today~~~ we must always learn how to appreciate things even the smallest one and STOP blaming!!! Life would be better!!!!

为什么??

2009-10-14T01:05:00.002+08:00

13/10/09
晴天
为什么??我那么爱赖床??我竟然五点才舍得离开我的床!!!!真恐怖~~~
昨晚~~不~~~应该是今早六点才睡觉~~玩玩下电脑,做做下assignment... 不知不觉就到了那个时间...
今天星期二,不必上课...理应可以花时间做完我的功课的~~我没有!!!!真懒惰!!!要改要改!!!!
我的一天竟然就这样给我浪费了!!!过意不去~~~
醒来了~~什么都没做~~~只是玩游戏而已~~~然后上了一个小时网~~一天就这样完了~~
还有,Helen找过我~~~今天开始我可以烘面包吃了~~~谢谢哦~~~
明天八点的课~~希望醒得来吧~~~

faith does it all~~~

2009-10-13T23:31:00.000+08:00

Today, my sis called me and told me something that makes me down~~~
She told me that my mum cried~~~ Not allowing my sis to ask her the reason~~~ But in our heart~~~ We do know the exact reason very well~~~ What i can do is pray hard~~~ Nothing much more i can do for my mum~~~ Cause I'm still studying~~~ I feel that I'm very useless~~~ As the eldest sister, I couldnt help to reduce my mum's burden~~~ If i were working right now~~~ maybe she wont be so stress and tension about money matters~~~ but i cant fall now~~~ or else she will fall together~~~ So i prayed to God~~~ Asking for His help~~~ May His mighty hand be upon my family, especially my mum~~~
Then, i sms my mum... Telling her that all the problems we faced were to glorify God's name~~~ Its a blessing when we have full faith that He will help us~~~ My God grant her love, peace an joy... He will always be with us and we will always stand by her too~~
Yes, its true~~~ It is God's blessing in another form~~~ If one believe without seeing... The blessings will be even more~~~ This is what God says in the bible~~~
Though things happened to me or God's blessings for me is only on the smallest things in people's eyes... But not to me~~~ Cause little things are the best way to show God our faith~~~ This is what I think~~~
Faith does it all~~~~