LIMBO OF LOST DREAMS

Philippians 4:13

2015-08-14T22:55:00.003+08:00

im down for 5 years, and nothings new happened to me. i guess its time for me to move on. enough already.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me – Philippians 4:13 NKJV.

O' God please help me, get through with my life. help me to fix it. just a little help.

i know everything will be alright.

FAITH.

PIRACETAM UPDATE: BRAIN HACKING

2013-04-12T12:45:00.004+08:00

I am still taking Piracetam OVER A MONTH and I don’t feel the good benefits out of it. I guess I should take Choline and Piracetam together, perhaps It will work. I will try to add choline and eliminate others.

I hope that there is some percent % chances I would feel the effects of Piracetam with choline. I hate being sleep all day. but sometimes taking a nap will help because I notice a feeling the effects many times after waking up from a 20 minute nap.

I don’t want to end up getting a headache like my previews sets of brain hacking source. and if it doesn’t work. I will stop it. Im just wasting my money.

of course I want the consistent results.

sometimes I feel I can control my feelings and anger.

hmmpp!

maybe the effects on me is different from the other people who is using it. i dont know if i am correct because i am at the troubleshooting period, looking for the correct doze that will work for me.

what i am trying to say is, if you are a programmer then you must think harder. perhaps nootropics will work to help you to think deeper.

for me i guess its the end.

i've got no luck.

PIRACETAM FIRST MONTH

2013-03-15T11:30:00.000+08:00

actually i experienced some EFFECT on my first month using Piracetam, this was without choline however i still got headaches. Just out of curiosity and it made a bit difference with my mood.

I was no longer irritable and it instead gave me subtle positive effects such as a better mood and more motivation to do things like readings, but difficult to focus on solving problems like Math.

i dont know if i've got the correct dossage or i gain the right effects on it.

i dont know how to troubleshoot piracetam & i dont know what is the side effect out of it.

daily intake:

Morning 9:00 AM and Afternoon 2:00PM:

2 (1.2G) PIRACETAM NUROCER
1 AMINO ACID
1 B-VITAMINS WITH B1, B6 AND B12
1 MULTIVITAMINS
1 VITAMIN C (ASCORBIC ACID)
OMEGA FISH OIL 1000MG

NOTE:

im healthy and atlethic person. i go to the gym every other day and i played basketball almost every day.

PIRACETAM NUROCER

2013-03-06T23:19:00.000+08:00

PIRACETAM NUROCER:

I consume over 4.8 grams of Piracetam per day.
Not getting the effect of it.
i got Headaches and take a lot of sleep. i dont smoke, i dont drink.
it's my first time, and it has been past 3 weeks of regular piracetam consumption with calcium, and vitamin B1, B6 and B12.
I DONT KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO ME AFTER A MONTH.

HANDS UP!

2013-02-01T22:43:00.000+08:00

everything is really hard to find.

everything is crazy.

everything is very difficult

it's tiring.

HANDS UP!

I MISS MY LIFE

2012-12-14T22:17:00.002+08:00

I sat on the couch and then I watch movies till I fall asleep and when I wake up, I’ll just turn on the music and listen to it while Sometimes I do laundry stuff and cleaning the house.

Then if i want to get out just wanna change my environment or somethin’ that I want to breath, or need to inhale fresh air… I ride with my toy and I called him jovenjoshua that’s the name of my toy, his helping me a lot to forget my pain.

I know it doesn't sounds fun.

I miss my life that I have been destroyed.

AND I AM LONELY...

I’m still go out in pain

2012-12-11T23:37:00.000+08:00

I don’t know what I was thinkin’… it wasn’t part of my plan to visit my blogs tonight... reading my old post make me feel sick… i dont want to write my whining but my mind wants to say somethin’, my heart wants to let go of my burdens…

Over the years people have come and gone in my life and I have wasted to many years losing the life I was in... I can’t believe it but it was happened with the blink of an eye, it happens so fast. I lost everything… I have loved and lost as so many others. I don’t know when is the time to close that door and open a new one... I am 36 years old now and my life is winding down.

I’m still go out in pain... I want to move forward but I don’t know how… Im freakin’ tired.

TAPOS NANAMAN MAGHAPON KO

2012-06-09T00:53:00.000+08:00

natapos nanaman maghapon ko ng wala akong nagawang mabuti sa sarili ko. haaay buhay nga naman... walang asenso... hindi ko alam kailan ako mag kakaroon ng sigla sa sarili. nagiging pabigat na ako sa kay mama.. nakakahiya na. wala akong ganang mag trabaho... kahit nga kumain na lang wala pa rin gana...

buti nalang kanina around 7:30PM nag punta sila pastor joy dito sa bahay nangaral ng salita ng diyos kahit gabi na 30 mins lang tinagal pangaral nya, salamat at kahit papano na bless ako sa aral ni pastor... at medyo kahit papano naman na iba din ng konti takbo ng buhay ko...

at dumating din si oden kanina pag katapos ng turo ni pastor. naligo kagad ako para ma fresh ang katawan at isip ko. at pagkatapos ko maligo nagpunta kagad kami ni kuya para maglaro ng basketball sa court nila calvary around 8:00PM. matagal tagal na din akong hindi nakakapag laro ng basketball... madale na akong mapagod sa paglalaro ngayon...

naka isat kalahating laro lang ako... pagod na kagad.. pinulikat yong kanang binti ko... masakit at hindi ako nakakatakbo ng maayos sa court. kaya nag papalit na kagad ako..

haaay... tumatanda na talaga...madali ng mapagod... isip na lang gumagana.. hindi na kaya ng katawan...

12:44AM na pala.. medyo antok na din ako...

pahinga na muna... bukas nanaman ulit..

ano nanaman kaya mangyayari sakin bukas...?!

hangang kailan ako ganito

2012-06-08T06:12:00.001+08:00

Well, today maaga ako nagising.. maaga dumating si mother galing sa trabaho 5:30AM. maaga akong nagising kasi ginising ako dahil hindi nya daw marinig ang kausap nya sa skype. pinahiram ko yong isa ko pang laptop para doon na lang siya makipag-usap...buti naman naayos ko yong skype... nag uusap na sila.

anyway, gusto ko pang matulog kasi antok na antok pa ako. masyado pang maaga para gumising. pero kong iisipin mo talaga, halos araw araw natutulog ako dito sa bahay walang saya at sigla... walang inspirasyon. wala, wala lahat. hindi ko alam kong kailan ako ulit mag kakaroon ng buhay. hindi ko alam kong kailan ako ulit sipagin mag trabaho.

matanda na ako. walang ngyayri sa buhay ko. naglaho na mga pangarap ko. hangang kailan ako ganito.

Do you believe in miracle?!

2012-05-04T21:06:00.001+08:00

i lost my strength.

i lost everything.

i have been left alone. I don’t know what’s happening to me.

i dont know where i should begin. i dont know where to find myself. i feel i am just floating in the mids of the clouds.

imagined the things that i know it didnt happen and it will not gonna happen.

i always cry... cry and cry.

i cant get back the time once i was happy.

i am feeling so hopeless.

i always quit my job.

im so lazy to earn money.

im dying inside.

i am tired of being me.

i want to end my life.

do you believe in miracle?!

something that when you wake up in the morning your life comes back.

my life is a waste.

only God knows where's my fate lies.

Another sad night

2012-01-04T06:00:00.000+08:00

Another sad night. I hope 2012 would be life easier for me, but those past few days it wasn't good to me. I am hanging at the moment, don’t know what to do next.

It wasn't nice to be alone, I will just remember the stupid huge mistakes I made. it leads to breakups, everybody knows breakups can be devastating and it happens to anybody, I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest and I can’t be able to eat, I can’t sleep late at night, I can’t breathe again. Sad to think that you will also forget how to smile.

Being heart broken by someone you love is one of the most painful things I have experience as human beings. But it happens to almost everybody.

mood: 3.5/10.

I wish the world ends today!

2012-01-03T07:25:00.000+08:00

tonight, feelin sad thinkin what should I do., do the mayan calendar correct. do the worlds end this year?!

Whatever! I don’t care! I wish the world ends today!

Anyway… the Japanese guy and his girlfriend visited mum and brought some gift with 1 case bottle of san mig light, 5% alcohol with it… kinda friendship thing…

however... It’s almost midnight… I am still awake… the night Is the safest time of day answering the unspoken question in my eyes. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way…

the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so unpredictable, I just smiled sadly. knowing that you have been left alone. I don’t know what’s happening to me. Lots of mistake, lots of guilt kept. Life is so unpredictable.

I like the night. When it seems the worlds was asleep. Watching the stars at night, dreaming the happiness arrive, staring when the happiness suddenly shifted back to mine.

mood: 3.4/10

get really sick

2012-01-03T04:40:00.000+08:00

i know she's gonna get really sick of my negative thoughts I'm pouring on her all the time, shes mad, really really mad. I know its not a good sign. Anyway, That's why I need someone else to talk too. that’s the thing being difficult for a long distance relationship. Its hard and It's too sad to think, she should know or we should know both about it.

I wish every time I was with her we both never been happier and that it would be nothing but laughs and smiles. But it's not always. I wish I could just be happy for her. I wish I never had a worry in the world just for her, so that she never had to be unhappy. sHe deserves to be happy but I feel, seeing as she's the only person in the world I can talk too, I just bring her down. I love her so very much and happiness is the last thing I want it to be for her.

mood 6.2/10

2012 Taurus Horoscope- Year of the Dragon

2012-01-02T23:41:00.002+08:00

2012 Taurus Horoscope- Year of the Dragon

Year 2012 Overview

With lucky Jupiter continuing to bless your stars, you can definitely expect to have the Midas touch in 2012, Taurus. Take advantage of your cosmic carte blanche during the first half of the year and get yourself firmly on the map. The first six months of the year are part of an ongoing personal renovation project before generous Jupiter leaves your stars. Not that you'll be losing much once the planet of fortune and fame moves into your neighboring sign and starts to bless your money sector. On the contrary - as soon as Jupiter moves into Gemini in June, your luck continues to build while grounding you in positive energy. The second half of the year will bring you great financial prosperity and opportunities to expand your talents.

You certainly won't starve for love, lust and creativity in 2012. Mars, the planet of action, will heat up your romance sector for the first half of the year. The first four months of 2012 could bring the return of old flames. Use Mars's first quarter retrograde phase to wrap up old creative and romantic business. Having both Mars and Jupiter working hard on your behalf for the first six months of the year is a glorious predicament, indeed. Between mid-May and late June, your ruling planet, Venus, will turn retrograde, so mark that period on your calendar as a reminder to slow down, reflect and re-evaluate your relationship priorities. In fact, this would be an ideal time to take a hiatus from responsibilities in favor of completely relaxing and immersing yourself in beauty.

Money and finance take center stage for most of the year as you experience several gains and losses. The key to your sanity will be to ride the wave of unpredictability and, in the end, trust that you'll still come out ahead. Pay special attention to your finances around the major eclipse points in May, June and December. Watch for new money-making opportunities around your birthday. It's just in time, because you may very well need to pad your piggy bank for some unexpected expenditures in June and July.

forgotten blogged

2011-12-31T00:04:00.003+08:00

tonight, i remember that i had a blogs. i totally forgot when i tried to move on and promise to myself that i wont write my hurt aches again, I guess it works.

well, now it seems so foreign to me?! since i've not used this in a long long time! And I am already here so just dropping a few lines. i hope i could write again about some of my recent activities. I don’t know why but im just being too lazy to write some thoughts. i do occasionally write some post here, and i've posting blogged much in the past year or so.

Now kinda not sure whether i will continue to post here;

for now, i'm going to read over some of my older posts.

mood 5.5

installing blogger droid

2011-08-26T11:28:00.001+08:00

i installed blogger droid in my android phone, whatever i may go or whatever i may do i can write my thoughts. see yah!

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2011-05-06T12:59:00.000+08:00

I finally admitted to myself that I am not the one she loved. i feel the pain and it happened so fast. Anyway, I feel tired… I feel that I have been cheated… and stubbed with a sharpest knife right through my chest… and let the blood pour forever… losing my breath slowly… made them happy…

i quit my job, I fired myself, I don’t want to see myself again… helpless… depressed… loser… it’s too painful and nobody could understand it… however, finalize today I ended my lease with my current housemates, and have started packing my belongings, Time to move. Time to move at the end of the month... Never did I think i'd have the courage to just start over again somewhere new in the drop of a hat, but I am. Life wasn't working, I hated it, never got to have a real relationships with my friends/girlfriend. I am not enough… she didn’t give me a chance to choose her… to live with her… to marry her… I guess it’s too late….i am not meant for her…

I need to move on… Taking this time to start being happy, stop everything… i need a straight life… I should know how to appreciate what I have in the present.

Oh God this is life…. this is how my life would be, please show me another way, that there is still an opportunity and life is worth living. 3 1/2 more days then im going, moving my stuff last day of may.

starts today I need a fresh start. Delete the past and start moving forward… press refresh…

my mood: 8.9/10

anyone but me

2011-03-28T21:21:00.000+08:00

i wanna be with you forever. i wanna hold you in my arms forever, kiss you everynight before you sleep until the sun rises. i wanna know that when i wake you will still be mine, that you wont love anyone but me.

too tired

2011-03-25T19:50:00.003+08:00

Today, afternoon, I came home from basketball. I was really tired, very tired. i played 3 sets, wheeew... i want to rest in my couch and sleep. gotta clean my room later. FBL

Today, morning, i get up early, have a bath, packed my shoes and uniform, gettin' ready to play basketball... gotta go now...tryin' to catch my coach... FBL

facebook life

2011-03-25T09:59:00.002+08:00

Today, at work, i chatted all day, i got tired and i started to fell asleep and lost track of time. Damn, I forgot to finish my daily report for tomorrow.

tonight, at fb, i was suprised when i visit my fb account, i found out that i have wall post that i know i didnt made. btw thank you for doin the effort for me. FBL(facebooklife).

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LIMBO OF LOST DREAMS

Philippians 4:13

PIRACETAM UPDATE: BRAIN HACKING

PIRACETAM FIRST MONTH

PIRACETAM NUROCER

HANDS UP!

I MISS MY LIFE

I’m still go out in pain

TAPOS NANAMAN MAGHAPON KO

hangang kailan ako ganito

Do you believe in miracle?!

Another sad night

I wish the world ends today!

get really sick

2012 Taurus Horoscope- Year of the Dragon

forgotten blogged

installing blogger droid

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