MISTER COCONUTYOGA`s WORLD

Guess who`s back...

2011-11-10T11:24:00.002+01:00

Hello everybody!

Hope you are good out there! After a longer period of silence (at least on this blog) the good news first:

Mr. Coconutyoga is still alive...

Some months ago I wasn`t sure, if i would continue writing or if all what happened only remain as a sad illusion former days. Heavy storms came over Coconutyoga`s World. Sometimes that`s the prize for flying to high. But better to crash after flying, then never trying it. I felt totally free, when I ended my journeys.

Anyhow - I regained strength and I am supposed to continue travelling. But not sure yet.

As my experiences while travelling even amplyfied my doubts about capitalism and the ability of humans to change their attitude towards saving the enviromental systems, it was necessary to find a way to express these thoughts and try to get people to think about the problems and possibilities of these challenging times.

So I started on May, the fourteenth, to write with some friends a political blog. Funny enough - one day later the spanish 15M-Movement occupied the square in Madrid. That time i had no clue about it and I heared about the events there much later, as there is not much broadcasting - at least in the etablished media.

Exactly thatswhy I am still writing it - to offer another view based on mainly independent media. It takes a lot to read all this stuff and pick the most important information and to comment them.

But it doesn`t remained "just" a virtual effort. I am part of a little Occupy-Group here in Stuttgart, Germany.

But it`s quite difficult here, as there are already protests against another project already since more than a year. Anyway, a very interesting experience. It is very challenging to get decisions based on real democracy, but it`s more than worth it. People start to talk wit each other again and everybody is challenged to learn and grow.

Occupy Wall Street has spreaded all over the U.S. It`s obvious that the challenges there are much bigger than in germany and the police as well is acting very different and sometimes extremely violent.

Greetings to the movement over there, stay strong! But not only in Europe and the US, no, all over the world there are people trying to express solidarity and gather to discuss challenges and possible chenges, to find agreements and slowly start to express their demands. But that will still take a while. If the politicans would have found solutions in years, there wouldn`t be a need for this kind of protest!

So we need a long breath to reach our goals - step by step.

But even if there wasn`t enough media reports about the protesting corwd worldwide on the 15th of October it was a big sign...

And that was just the beginning! In Frankfurt there are 100 tents in front of the European Central Bank. I have been there too, its a very motivating crowd. The Occupy-Movement is more and more spreading to the consciousness of much more people. In Berlin there is finally a new camp, too.

That`s it so far about politics. It`s thatswhy very interesting for me, as this could be something that keeps me in the western world - if i have the feeling to be needed here. But don`t be sacred. This will be remain a personal blog...

I finished meanwhile the first edition of my book, what is including my travels, but also my challenging past. So it will take at least until christmas to get it to a state, when i can offer it to readers. I would love to see also an english edition. But let`s see. Step by step!

After finishing that project I will by tempted to visit asia again. I feel like this will happen, but I explained already under which conditions that could change. If I go i will visit my beloved INDIA again. Still haven`t seen Varanasi and there are still so much wonderful places to see. There aremore plans in my brain but I won`t release them now. The tiger needs to rest... ;-)

I failed to keep in contact with a lot of people, but maybe you can understand it now - as you have a little picture what is going on in my life. But I think about you and eveerybody i met remains in my heart.

It is so nice that peopleare awakening. And as most of the people I still have to do a lot of steps towards real freedom, but I am onmy way.

I wish you all the best and will keep you updatet from now on what is developing in the next time. These are exciting times - no question...
As i love it deeply i want to share "RAP NEWS".One of the most innovate productions I have seen so far. Pefect mix of satiric and serious message!

Much love from

Mr. Coconutyoga

Pictures

2011-10-08T19:33:00.000+02:00

Favorite Pictures

2011-08-01T21:30:00.001+02:00

back to life?

2011-07-04T17:28:00.002+02:00

Hello everybody!

Hope you are fine out there. A lot of change occurred since my last blog entry. Meanwhile I was able to find a room and a job as well. Finally everything went very fast when I already thought everything would go to an end, as I felt like dying every day a little more. I was filled with fear about the future.
I was almost unable to do any step in any direction. Then I found a job back in the work with disabled people. The situation was still surreal. I had a job but still no place to stay. Crazy situation… And really very difficult to find something in Stuttgart, as there aren`t enough flats and at the same time the city has a lot of jobs to offer. But I was lucky and was able to find a nice room as well.
So I am back in life… Or I should be. After one week I can already tell, that the new job isn`t that nice at all. Most of the people I have to take care of aren`t able to communicate properly and some are aggressive at all. There is a lot of work to do, what isn`t that bad, but the working conditions are not nice at all. Well, I only have a six-month contract and I will try my best to make it work for me. Let`s see.
But I am trapped in my mind one more time. After at least six weeks of pure fear I am just not able to come down from this stress level. No way to relax like that.
What is even more difficult is the situation, that I really don`t want to live only here in Germany anymore. I miss the friendliness of Asia, the smiles, the smell, the devotion and the contact to people who disagree with the western life style and much more things. But here are my friends and family. I feel like divided between two worlds. I am not really here mentally, feels like some part of me is still in Asia. For sure – just leaving to Asia is impossible right now and wouldn`t change my mind. The reality is, that I need to earn a living again and I still need to discover a way, how to make money abroad as well.
I don`t see any sense in this consumer hell in the “western world”. Again I don`t see any space for me. I am sure there are some hidden places, I could accept for myself, but I need to find them.
I just watched “in to the wild” again. I love this movie. Also the book is absolutely to recommend. Well, my I don`t want to lose contact to other people, but I also need to separate myself more and more. Maybe I understand too well, why the main character (based on a true story) went so far on his search for the essence of live. I am like that, too. But I totally lost my track at the moment and I don`t understand anything about the “normal” life.
Maybe I pushed my travels and the separation from my old life too far and now I need to get back on the track as quick as possible. Otherwise I don`t have much hope. Sounds very disturbing, but that’s the truth. I hate almost everything about my life right now and I am very sad, that I cannot be a better friend for the great people I know and a better son. I just cannot take anymore these ups and downs that determinate my life and I don`t see a way out. I know, that’s hard to handle for everybody who knows and likes me, but I just don`t know how to go through another period like this again. The sun is shining, a lot of people a happy and I am just complaining. That makes me separate myself even more. Everybody has his struggles and most of the people are challenging it. Well, these aren`t any new problems in my live, but if I can`t find a way to live my life in a different way, I am unable to continue. And I want to live!!!
Crazy enough I cannot access to the feelings I had while travelling. That is very, very sad. I had such good times but like often in my life fear and stress are blocking most of the time the memories. What a shame. That could give me a lot of power. But maybe I just need more time.
I am thinking a lot about a different kind of life and how to make it happen. I don`t know if I can manage that alone. But I will try!
And yes, if I can go through this fuckin` difficult time, I will manage to come back to Asia. More and more I think my place could be there.
Wish you the best, yours,

Mr. Coconutyoga

a stranger

2011-06-13T14:19:00.000+02:00

Hello everybody!

After not writing for a longer period here is again a status from Mr. Coconutyoga, who is dying a little more day by day - but still alive. Sad enough I don`t have any good memories on this phantastic journey, what seems insane to me as I had such a good time. When I just think about the three last months - that was amazing. But it also has totally nothing to do with my life here - if I could call it live.
Well - it`s nothing new in my live - depression and a lack of hope, but i thought I would be able to act differently in between. What is really missing is a home. That`s the only thing what could help me find more peace. But its almost impossible to get even a room without a work. And finding a job is same connected with at least a room. And in Stuttgart it isn`t easy at all to find something. So its not easy to start anywhere and my thoughts are drifting every second from one angle of view to the other. I know myself enough to be sure that under all this there is pure fear and my thoughts are just blocking myself to find ways out of this situation. Well, the insight is important, but what does it help, when I can`t break through it. This thoughts are in my life since I was very young and its more than just knowing about the wrong mind system. I just read something from Eckhard Tolle: The Power of now. And I totally aggree, that the only way to be free is to live in the moment. That was also what just made me often so happy while travelling. Very difficult to change a mind set what is already that etablished in the mind already. And not all of my future fears are just a mind set. It is just difficult. But I know: I make it more difficult and so I got unable to carry it anymore. So I am full of tension all the time and don`t know where to go. I am searching for a place to stay and some work that gives my life sense.
But to be honest: I just think I put it way to far with my travels. Actually I don`t regret what I did. But I learn now more and more that I simply just don`t find a way back. And even don`t want to live here anymore. There was a reason because I left and there was no reason to come back instead to see friends and family and second, that I didn`t found the right oppurtunity to stay in Asia.
The society seems so cold to me, I am unable to see anything attracting in the cities, I don`t want to consume anything instead of basic supply. And I miss the communities, I found in Asia. Well, i know, there are a lot of problems as well, but I felt still so much more connected to the people over there than with most of the people here.
I don`t say I couldn`t be happy here in Germany or anywhere else in Europe. I just don`t know where could be my place, where I am able to breath and that makes my crazy. I would go and fight but just don`t know where is the right place.
Such a rollercoaster life is never boring but it`s often just too much. I was falling like this already a hundred times and sometimes I just don`t know how to continue one single day. I know, its very difficult to be in touch with me at the moment and I hope its getting better.

Bless you,

Mr. Coconutyoga

Good bye!

2011-05-14T14:09:00.004+02:00

Hello everybody!

Time for an update. Last time I didn`t wrote about some things. The reason was respect. Not that I lost the respect, but I need to write about some feelings that make life right now very difficult.
So what happened? I came back with a lot of enthusiasm, full of love for Natali and to actually everybody, thought I would work for a while and start for another trip with my love. Well, three weeks afterwards things are very, very different. And I am very sad about that development.
After I came back, I didn`t heared a lot more from Natali. She was very sick in the first time and when I was already wondering what happened and was in big sorrow for her, I got another message from her, what she send my by audio file. She was very ill, but she just said sorry so many times, for not being there for me at my party. She wanted to be present on skype to see my friends. There was no reason to feel sorry at all. Everything else she said have been commitments about her love for me. I was happy again and could relax. But nothing changed, again it was the last sign for her for a while apart from the short message, that she would have to go to China once more. She wanted to avoid that, but she couldn`t. She just told me, when I catched her that single time, it would be here last evening in Argentina before heading to china the next morning. And that was it again. No nice word, nothing.
She connected one more time from China and I know much more wasn`t possible. These trips are just insane. Immediately she has to work after arriving and it didn`t stop for ten days. Even in the night she had to send files to Argentina for her company. That she has stress was never the point. I know, it is fucking tough for her. But I didn`t received any nice word from her anymore. Whyever. I can understand, if she wasn`t sure about changing her life that radically. But actually that was her plan, I never wanted her to change anything. Is it too much estimated, to write some lines from time to time?
When she came back to Argentina from Asia she was very sad. I had the possibility to be there for her, as I was still in Cambodia. But I didn`t felt that different, when I came back. And nobody was there. More and more I got mad about the situation. I can have a lot of patience, but how is it possible, when the contact is getting less and less. And whenever I wrote her a mail, I never received any answer. I didn`t expected a lot, just something.
Anyhow, it put me down and all the enthusiasm to try to make a living from the material I collected while travelling disappeared. That’s only possible with a positive and clear mind. And disappointed as I was, I started to drink and smoke more and more. I couldn`t help myself anymore. Even then I cried every day. What never happened to me before, instead when somebody died or when I was first time in love long time ago. Still I tried to put any pressure from her and I think I did. I was sure, it wasn`t easier for her and I tried to accept the situation. But I couldn`t. And it was getting worse and worse until I was almost finished. I was just very lucky not to get into deep trouble. Especially when I tagged some messages on a very sensitive building in my hometown. I put a lot of anger and sadness in it. For sure one of the craziest things I ever did. Climbing over big fences and hiding from a helicopter, which was flying three times over the building, I had chosen. I was full on adrenalin and finally did it. Afterwards I changed my outfit while running away and climbing a crazy way up. I even passed some police cars and finally flew over the track for the trains. If they would have catched me, I would have been in very big trouble! But I was lucky and there are no regrets. In the end it was also a political action, as this building is a symbol for the “new Stuttgart”, I don`t want to be part of. Heart of Europe…Hahaha…it’s a dead area. And if they realize the new train station, it is getting worse. There would be more offices and more shopping malls and more decadence. The only thing Stuttgart would need are more flats.
That was finally the point, when I was sure I would have to leave the town, before worse things would happen. Anyway I had planned to visit my uncle and aunt and afterwards my parents. To see them again. And to have some time to work on my travel reports.
The situation didn`t got better. I still have no clue what she is thinking or feeling and it`s short before to end. I feel treated in a way, I don`t think I deserve. That`s just unfair. Its not that I didn`t had a lot of understanding for her situation. But mine isn`t better. True is that I have too much time to think about it and also that I have to find a living and a space to live.
All these bad feelings made it much more worse. It wouldn`t have been that easy anyway, but with a more and more broken heart I felt like it is impossible.
For sure I asked her if that means, she already made a decision. But nothing. It`s not that I wouldn`t accept, if she would tell me that it isn`t possible for her to follow her desires and dreams and is choosing security. But couldn`t she tell me? What nfor? Not to hurt me? It hurts like hell and if she really trusted me, like she told me, what can I trust for?
Well it is like it is. And one day I will look back and smile again. I have no regrets, I kept going my straight and honest way of love and I will always be on this track. And if it`s going to kill me one day…who cares. Better to try everything then die like a coward, who don`t believe in real love anymore.
That’s not me.
I really feel not well at all, being back in Germany. If I would have the choice, I would leave again very soon, but that’s impossible. Or it would be mad and probably end in a disaster. At least right now.
So all I can do is to find a living, whatever that might be. I just need to earn money to leave again. I feel like I cannot breath here. I miss the spirituality of Asia, the friendliness to strangers. I hate almost everything about this system, in which money seems to be everything. I don`t want to watch TV, buy any consume goods. I just want to be. And still don`t know how.
Once more in my life I am totally at the bottom. My self confidence almost disappeared completely. A few weeks ago my heart was open and happy and now my heart is almost closed.
I really don`t know how to survive all the crisis in my life, its seems never to stop. Some people told me, I would have to protect my heart better. But that`s not me. This intensity might scare away all the women, but I am not going to change. I cannot. It`s my curse but also my blessing. I wouldn`t be the same anymore wearing a mask to protect me. I wouldn`t feel alive at all. But true is: this is how I feel right now. And I have no clue from where to take the power to continue. But I don`t need just to continue, I need to build up a new life. And I am desperate, not seeing a way, I can follow.
After the next weekend I will probably head back to the south of Germany and hope I will have more luck. I am ready to put a lot in it, that`s not the point. I really hope I will find a way for myself. My own thoughts scare me a lot, one more time I am in an existence crises. I would like to through everything away and simply disappear. But I promise not to give up at that point. But it’s a dangerous situation for my soul and I don`t know if I can take it. But I try hard.
Well, one more thing. I don`t search for any guilt. I think that’s stupid. I might be angry, but I see very well my own mistakes, even when I feel like I cannot act different. But the people who know me can be sure: I might be my biggest defender but also the person, who judge himself the hardest way.
And this blog is not a attention call (well…sure I would take every help I can get or at least try to accept it), it`s the truth. It`s a small gap between life and death. And that`s very scary for me. And not a single event leaded to that situation. I am very disappointed but I am trying not to blame anybody, as I am sure everybody is doing what he thinks its right. Why the hell are we making life that complicated? I don`t think that’s necessary, there are so many important things to fight for, to change the world and change the idea of growing, growing, growing. Otherwise we will have destroyed this planet very soon…
As I wrote this lines already a few days ago, I know can be sure: It`s over. The circumstances have been one more time very disappointing and extremely harming, but I wrote already enough. Everything else is something between her and me or let`s say it was. At least I know now that there is nothing to hope for anymore. Very bitter for me, but I cannot change it.
For me only one thing remains: to fight, because otherwise I will loose everything. Can`t still believe how deep I am falling. But well.
Thanks to everybody, who tried to give my courage the last time, without you it would be even worse. Shouldn`t think about what would have happened then.
I cannot send you love this time, because there is nothing left. But stay true and don`t forget the good times, I was allowed to tell you about. I don`t know if I continue writing this blog. At least not before I have better news.
So thank you for your interest, for 3000 clicks and all the best for you,
I will concentrate in the next time on writing some more reports from my travel and a new political, social critical blog, but both in German.

Mr. Coconutyoga Reflections

Der Scheinwerfer

Yours Mr. Coconutyoga

Coconutyoga Travels Slide Show Part IV

2011-05-10T23:38:00.000+02:00

Hello everybody!

A little silence around Mr. Coconutyoga. At least in english. As you moght have seen, I created a second blog to put on some reports, but this time in german, as I am trying hard to get some passages ready to try to get it printed. Maybe not tomorrow, but i am working on it. For sure I will need some contacts and even some luck to be able to make something out of it. But at least I am trying.
I just watched the Slide Show and it was the first time i was really smiling since a while. Don`t want to talk at that place about all the circumstances. It`s still to early. I need to make some steps and I have no clue right now, which i should go for. Hopefully that will change soon.
Thanks everybody, who make this time so enjoyable! I might struggle right now, what is part of giving up everything. But I have a treasure in my heart. And soon I will feel it again. I am trying hard.
And now enjoy the last part of this travel:

Coconutyoga Travels Part IV

Much Love,

Mr. Coconutyoga

Nucleus Roots: Still here

2011-05-04T23:28:00.000+02:00

Check it out

Fuckin` tough times right now. But what to do? Try to keep me my head up, writing a lot and hopefully it will get better soon.
The pivture below it`s just a gimmick. It doesn`t show my situation right now. But one day i will tell you what happened that evening. Wouldn`t be very wise tot ake about it already now...
Some news should follow in the next few days. Stay true,

Mr. Coconutyoga

Benztown & Friends

2011-04-26T14:34:00.006+02:00

great to see you again and for sharing...you are the best friends I could hope for! Thanks a lot!

Hope and Sorrow

2011-04-26T12:47:00.001+02:00

Hello everybody!

This is already day 12 after arriving back in Germany. A very intense time and everything changed…again. Not easy right now, even more difficult than I already expected it to be. First a wall great so see my friends and see familiar places. The sun is shining – I would say it`s the best time to be here in Stuttgart and spend time in all the parks and green areas all over the city.
But…
I don`t feel at home here anymore. It will always be a place where I will come back with pleasure, whenever I can. But it`s not my life anymore. Well, my relation to this town was never such easy. There are a lot of bad memories connected with this city, but for sure also great memories. I juast spend already more than 15 years here and it feels that I need to make a move. I cannot imagine to settle down here – at least right now.
To have great ideas is one thing - making them true another. I am still wondering what to do. But I decided to write the next weeks a lot, to focus myself to make parts of my book ready and also create some stories I could send to Newspapers, (Travel) Magazines, Internet Platforms etc.
At the end of the day I am more a writer than anything else. And it`s time to make some final steps towards a detailed report about my journey with backflashs into my past. This is what I am workin on already a long time and the time to make a bi step is right now. That might help me also not to forget how phantastic the last three months in Southeastasia have been… Also I gave a promise. And I am serious about that. I don`t want to wait until I am thirty. At that point it need to be ready.
And yes I want to find a way to continue writing on my next journey, even if it`s very uncertain right now, when I will be able to go and where.
I still try to find ways to place my pictures and the slide shows but I need to focus on one thing now…writing.
I feel not very good right now (to say it very nicely). I feel very strange and know there is no way back to my former life. That might be a little scary but I wanted to change my live…and I did. And I feel the old feelins calling my back to a life I don`t want to lead anymore. I would even say that`s impossible.
As you mkight have seen already, I created a FB-Fanpage. That should make the contact easier and there is place for any kind of idea…check the Info Page!
Natali is right now in China on another short but crazy exhausting Buisiness-Trip. And it`s not easy at all for her. As I am struggling with having no structure and don`t know what will happen the next months, for her is opposite. She need to work all the time, there is no space for reflection, for taking a breath and getting peace to think again about all what happened with us.
Whatever she will decide… I will not be angry in any way. She need to make a decision for herself first. So many people on this earth, who don`t believe in love and feel responsible to tell people, who are trying to make it possible. That’s the only thin that makes my very sad. Love is everything to heal our souls and to act in a nice way.
Not easy to have any patience right now as my feelings are so intense and sometimes hard to stand. But whatever she choose – she will always be in my heart. Love is a gift and I don`t take it back. I have no expectations anymore – but I didn`t gave up. Why should I – we both have been sure it will not be easy. I made my choice and nothing can change it. Everything else is just private. I just wanted to give a little insight.
My live keeps being challenging and it`s not easy right now. But still better to live intense and fall down from time to time, instead not to try everything to live to the fullest.
Greetings to everybody, who is with me… Thank you!!!

Yours,

Mr. Coconutyoga

Home

2011-04-19T19:50:00.003+02:00

Part I: End of the road – Munich to Stuttgart

Hello everybody!

I am right now on the last step of this long and crazy but also often nice journey back home. I still cannot believe it. I see Germany outside but I almost don`t recognize it. I feel absolutely like a stranger. But this will change and I am looking forward to see all my friends again. One friend – Christoph, who shared with my 3 weeks in Thailand and one in Laos - even offered me to stay in his flat for two months without paying… Phantastic. I can really tell myself a lucky bastard right now… Why not? It hasn`t been always like this – to say it in a nice way ;-) That gives me a lot of space for developing my ideas. I now this will be tough. It`s one thing to have great ideas another one to make them true. I have my doubts for sure but I am not afraid. Or let`s say not to much.
The last night I stayed in Munich at Boris Place, my friend I know from Goa. That was great. In around two hours I will see Benztown again. I am excited what kind of feelings are awaiting me there this time. The first stopover I felt like I lost my home, the second one I felt like settling down again and now? Let`s see…
Tomorrow I will have a little Party at another friends place and I am looking forward to it. I hope I have still some energy left then.
I feel like travelling since 6 days even when I had a short stop in Siem Raep, Bangkok and now Munich. But I am really happy when its over very soon. And my day in Angkor and Siem Raep with Mr. T was nice but not a real break. In Bangkok the same, because of the New Year Celebration. Crazy, I can tell you. I haven`t seen anything like this ever. So many people, Water from all sides, Techno Beats, colors, Joy and Madness. Glad, that I have seen that, even when it made it almost impossible to get the things, I wanted to buy there. But all good.
(…)

Part II: back in Benztown: a stranger in a familiar area

Well. Now I am already back in Stuttgart since a few days. So many intense feelings. First I went to my good friend Christoph and the joy was big. I stayed some hours before I went to visit another very good friends. Turned out he is in big big trouble. It might be even a question about life and death… Can`t put any more details but I was shocked, even if it doesn`t surprised me that much. We talked a lot and I spend finally the night there.
The next day I got the key of my best friend and his girlfriend to prepare the party, I already planned in Cambodia. I thaught it would be better to have this party as soon as possible this time. I was quite tired and jetlagged but also looking forward to see all these good people. It hasn`t been such a big crowd, but the right people have been there. For sure some people have been missing but it was all right. I enjoyed a lot to see my friends and share same stories. For sure it wasn`t possible to talk to everyone like I wanted to. But it was just a start.
Thanks to Martino, Arthur, Dieter, Sarah & Cedric, Tamara & Kai, Daniel, Markus, Anne, Christoph, Gilad and Sebbe!!! You made it easier to reach here.
But still I am not fully here. No wonder after this crazy long journey including jetlag. And the month before was great but also very very intense. And what a culture gap again. The people look again, if I was falling from the sky…and they aren`t that wrong 
The time difference to Argentina isn`t anymore crazy 10 hours but still 5. That`s a real challenge. I miss Natali like crazy but we both try to focus on our things to see again as soon as possible!
My feelings are a rollercoaster right now and for sure I am afraid. But I try everything to transform this tension into energy, but it`s still a way. Ideas for the next time will follow soon.
The day after we went like old tradition to see the soccer match of the local soccer club, what ended in the city like always. Another long day after a few hours of sleep.
Yesterday I was just crushed and tried to recover. But sleeping is not the easiest thing right now.
I feel still like a stranger and it will need some time to reach the bottom.
I am struggeling right now but I am not blaming anybody for it. Would be stupid!
Thank you one more time for being interested in my life and my special way I am choosing all the time. I love you!!! You make it doable, how difficult it will be. I am looking forward to see you all again. Stay true out there and news are following soon!!!

Much love from Mr. Coconutyoga

Goodbye Asia / see you soon again!

2011-04-13T17:33:00.001+02:00

Just a short message at that time. Will write some more after arriving in Germany. But could take some days. Right now i am in bangkok and will head to bed very soon. The New Year Celebration today was nice but also exhausting, especially after arriving here just yesterday evening after a full day drive from Siem Raep. I stayed there only one last day to say thank you for all the phantastice things that started there. I took a overnight bus from Shinouville to Siem Raep before. I feel like beeing on the road already since a week and will be very happy when I am finally arrived!
Great things are waiting. The Love for Natali I feel make the colors in my life. What a strange journey back, still with wonderful moments. I am so filled with feelings and experience and its continuing all the time. Time for a break now to take a new breath for new roads...
Good bye Asia, see you soon.
Coconutyoga Travels continues!

Stay true and all the best. Bless you!!!

Junkerry - Laguna Vista

2011-04-09T20:35:00.002+02:00

Finally I have the honor to present some links of Junkerry`s phantastic music and performance at Laguna Vista. I saw her almost twenty times live and really enjoyed every time. Thank you also for beeing a phantastic friend. Such a good and intense time at Laguna Vista. Will always be a very very special place for me and meeting Junkerry, Noah and Thomas and all the other amazing people there was a big gift for me. Will be there End of the Year... Blessings to Goa and Vietnam.
And Enjoy Nepal together, Noah, Axelle and June...
See you soon!

"I`m not afraid"-Junkerry

"Blue Montain"-Junkerry

"The Will"-Junkerry

Enjoy!

Friends

2011-04-09T12:43:00.005+02:00

here some pictures of some of the amazing friends I was allowed to meet on my trip. The list is more than incomplete... More is coming... Thank you so much!!!

Thank you for sharing the road with me!!!

2011-04-09T07:25:00.003+02:00

Hello everybody!

Another insight in my life. I twill be a deep one as the doors of perception are wider open than ever before in my life. If you have read about my wonderful time in Angkor and at the coast of Cambodia - there is the key for the wonderful moments I have right now. But first a wall is was YOU who made my days and made my able to grow and follow this my path for such a long time. I got hosted when I was in Germany by so many nice friends I got to know wonderful people learned a lot of myself, about my inner demons and how to deal with them. My goal for this journey was getting excited about the life again. And finally it worked out very well. I want to learn i am excited about people and love to share my life with different people. I am still at Mien Mien (or say i am back) and played music the last three days here. I connect again with great people who can teach me a lot. I just fixed a little party in Germany where i return to in less than a week. Crazy to imagine after these 20 months and one full year in Asia what changed my life totally but not my character.
I had to go through a lot of struggle on this joruney and I learned a lot from it.
I am still the guy how started to travel in 2009 seeking for a different life. And it is a real life as i share my live with locals and phantastic people. But still it will be (again after two stopovers) a big gap to get used to Germany again. But what saves me is that I will meet up with all my friends in Stuttgart and Germany. That will be amazing. One of my friends - Chris, who visited me also in asia and went with my to southern northern Thailand and finally Laos offered my a room in his flat for two months. Phantastic! So i will have some space, my own home for a while and time to write and work on my ideas.
What kind of ideas?
I am thinking about an exhibition, about presenting slide shows, playing music and a lot of different stuff. I will use the blog in the next time to present some of these ideas. ANd there is still a lot of stuff, not told yet, even not why Mr. Coconutyoga is called Mr. Coconutyoga... ;-)
So the end of the road is there but a new one started already, when I met this wonderful woman Natalie from Argentinia. We are both heading to a common road and I am looking forward to it...a lot. We will go to travel together whenever we manged our things back home. I love you! I am so happy that we try whatever we can because we now its necassary and we would regret every single day of the rest of our lives not to give it a chance. I will do whatver i can.
Now it`s time for a last relaxation at Mien Mien before I head to Angkor to simply say thank you for the new path what opened up there. And then straight to Bangkok and Munich.
SO watch out the next time. I will need help at some point.
Thank you so much for sharing this road with me going through struggles and desire for wonderful moments of Philosophy, Hapiness good times and just for beeing there and sharing. WIthout you it would have been nothing. I send you my love,

See you out there!!!

Mien Mien again - Picture Update

2011-04-07T05:25:00.002+02:00

Some Pictures Thomas gave me, when we stayed together at Mien Mien - Thank you so much. What a nice surprise!!! Wish Thomas & Pete a great time in Vietnam. Other news will follow very very soon. Challenging but wonderful times. Much Love!!!

on Rabbit Island with Thomas & Pete

2011-04-05T12:00:00.005+02:00

Playlist II

2011-04-01T13:42:00.002+02:00

Hello everybody. Just arrived in Kep after a wonderful time at Otres Beach. Will head to Rabbit Island tomorrow.
Thomas, a phantastic friend from Muenster / Germany felt inspired by the playlist and did the effort to combine a playlist with some of song of my playlist and his own one.
Another download might follow soon, as I got new music from a very nice russian couple, fom brother and sister from Belgium, from two germans, an english guy and from more people who wrote down music for me, that I still have to discover.
But her the Playlist:

Coconutyoga and Deejay T - Spring 2011

Thanks a lot, Thomas. Enjoy!!!

more impressions from Otres Beach

2011-03-31T02:47:00.004+02:00

will be not easy to leave this wonderful place & people. But i don`` t want to live in a dream world when a wonderful reality is waiting ahead! So i will change to Kep tomorrow to meet up with Thomas and Pete. Peace!

Mi Confession

2011-03-31T02:35:00.002+02:00

I had a wonderful walk yesterday about 10 kilometres to the beginnining of the National Park. I needed sometime for myself. And then I had to do a little collage... There was no plan, just desire! It`s Amor!

More from Heaven - what a gift

2011-03-30T07:12:00.006+02:00

Hi everyboday.

To be honest. It isn`t the same here without here. But it is still a wonderful place and the family already kind of adopted me. Got even blessed by the monks, who came to devote the new temple in front of the oldest tree of this part of the beach. I am so happy and gratefull. Cannot belive how lucky I am, that I found the ONE!!! It`s so great to skype with her even if I would prefer to take the next plane to Buenos AIres. But I need to end my journey nicely after such a long time and another journey ahead. i am very busy with writing, selecting pictures, connecting with interesting people, discovering more and more music, developing ideas and so on.
I am happy about any advice you can give to me about Photo Stack Buisiness, Exhibitions, Places and Cafes to present Posters from my own pictures or a whole exhibition. Every advice, how small it ever is. It is a gift.
SOme pictures abot the wonderful present. Soon I will meet up one more time with Pete and Thomas and then probably have a short visit to Pnom Penh, making a short visit to Angkor Wat and would like to take the train to Bangkok afterwards. There I need to find a good place for cheap but good quality posters. Has anybody any idea.
Thank you for beeing with me on this incredible journey that changed the way I am looking to the world and acting with people but never changed my personality. I am totally the person I am. Thank you so much for shring the road with me!!!

Much love from Mr. Coconutyoga

Playlist of the music that saves my life...

2011-03-29T07:07:00.002+02:00

Hi everybody!

Here my little Playlist… I am still surprised abou a lot of music I am listening right now and how much I love it. It saves my mind right now. I listened to a lot of this sounds in Laguna Vista. Will be there next season. Hope you can run it again!!!
Much Love to you! Thx a lot especially to Thomas and the other people who gave me new inspiration.

Nuclear Roots: Still here
Eddie Vedder: Long Nights, Society, End of the Road, Guaranteed
Cat Stevens: Where are you?
Air – Love 2: Love; Heaven`s Light; Tropical Disease, Do the Joy, Night Hunter
Air – Walkie Talkie: Venus, Blossom Cherry Girl, Run, Universal traveller, Biological
Air - Vagabond
Air – Playground Love
Air – Moon Safari: Kelly watch the stars; all I need; Le Voyage de Penelope…actually the whole album
Moby – 18: At least we tried;
Moby-Play: Porcelain
Lenny Kravitz – I`ll be waiting for you, Breathe
Gotan Project – Lunatica
Massive Attack – Splitting the Atom
Feat. Lupe Fiasco – Daydreaming
Oasis – she is electric
Freundeskreis – Mit Dir
Manfred Mann`s Earth Band - Blinded by the Lights
St. Germain - Monetgo Bay Spleen
Paul Kalkebrenner – Aaron Mix
Bombay Bicicle Club – What if
Buddha Bar – chillout in Paris
Butterfly Dawn – Shivai
From Cairo – Ride my Camel
B.J. Thomas – Raindrops keep fallin` on my head
Lovely Head – Goldfrapp
Mamas & Papas – California Dreaming
Simon & Garfunkel: Miss Robinson
Dezarie – Travellers
Leonard Cohen – Waiting for the miracle
Roots Manuva – Highest Grade Dub
Clarence Henry – (I don`t know why) but I do
Orishas - Desaparacidos
Phoenix – Napoleon says
Infected Mushrooms – Muse Breaks RmxPerry
Como – Magic Moments
Locomondo – Sister shine
Dire straits – so far away
The Roots & Erika Badu – Baby
Buddha Bar – Breathing Light
Trentemoller – Nightwalker
Deadmau5 feat Kaskade – I remember
LCD Soundsystem - Daft Punk is playing at my house
Beaucoup Fish – Pushin`

Also listening to:

James Brown
Moonbotica
Eagles
Cake
Manu Chao
Boards of Canada
Sascha Funke
Babylon Circus
And highly recommended:
Junkerry, great woman, great artist, see you!!!
Management…need to get it!!!

And still so much to discover!!!
Enjoy!
And some songs are just written for us, Nathalie. I love you!!! Querida!

Much Love from Mr. Coconutyoga to everybody out there sharing the joy or seeking for it!!!

Link for an amazing Blog

2011-03-28T08:35:00.002+02:00

Hey out there,

I want to reccomend you a phantastic blog from a guy from Puerto Rico, who is travelling with his girlfriend through Asia. Watch out for his Blog. It has amazing Pictures, is really deep and has structure (what you might miss on my blog from time to time on my blog...different folks ;-) ). Check it out. It`s more than worth it!

Bitacurry

Music Playlist will follow very soon...

Ultimate Joy, Bliss and Love

2011-03-27T08:43:00.004+02:00

Hello everybody.

I hope you are all doing well! I have a lot of good News and I am looking forward to share my incredible joy with you! I could write without end but I try to put the pieces together for you.

OK, where to start? Already Angkor was an incredible experience for me. I was so much impressed. I felt the Compassion of the beautiful Faces in the Bayon, the heart of Angkor Thom, enjoyed Moments full of Devotion, was stunned from the incredible architecture and asked myself how much the Kings and the architects must have loved the creation and feared the Gods, that they let built these timeless monuments. First devoted to the Hindu Gods Brahma (the creator), Vishnu (the Conserver) and Shiva, the Destroyer, how dances until the World collapse to be renewed by Brahma again. Very late it became a Buddhist Place. But I don`t want to forget to mention how many people had to suffer for building these monuments, even when they used elephants to carry the stones in the jungle. But in a way it must have been cruel for the workers, same like in Egypt or with the Mayas. But still very, very impressive.

I enjoyed it a lot being in the back of a Moto and found a really nice driver. I listened a lot to the Eddie Vedder Soundtrack and felt great.

“Long Nights”
“Society”
“Guaranteed”
“The End of the Road”

Check these music out if you are interested. All by Eddie Vedder. It’s the Soundtrack of “into the wild”.

I slept outside in front of a hotel. How comes? I arrived late from the 4 thousand Islands after another crazy exhausting journey. I got offered a dorm room and thought I could do that for a night. Then I found myself outside like in a small Pavilion. And I liked it and stayed 10 nights… 
Actually it wasn`t a good constellation to catch some sleep. First there have been drunk people all the time at the pool all night. When that stopped, the neighbors celebrated two marriages in a row with incredible loud music from 8 a.m. damned shit. I almost changed to a room but finally I was fine. Nothing got ever stolen. I came in touch with very nice people. Every day there was somebody else. Some people stayed a few days and I stayed and stayed. I also liked to talk with the funny rickshaw drivers, went to the pool, played badminton, went to the town and the rest was socializing.

And then everything changed totally in a very unexpected way. OK, I was ready to jump for love but I am still wondering that these wonderful moment happened to me and turned to be a moment that could last my whole life. But slowly, slowly.
One evening a nice and interesting woman from Argentina stood in front of my Pavilion and started talking with me. We talked for hours lying in her bed (she was my neighbor for one night before she moved to a room). She had just a few hours of sleep, as she headed the next day to see the sunrise at Angkor Wat and discover a lot of temples almost the whole day. Actually I never made it for the Sunrise. I wonder why… ;-) You know me…

I was looking forward to see her returning. She really liked it, even if she wasn`t enthusiastic as I was. What is good to understand as I am extreme. But only from time to time. Why not?
And when she came it was heaven. We talked a little, then we felt closer and closer and finally we started to kiss and it smashed me immediately in a wonderful way. And she decided to head with my to the Cambodian coast, knowing that she would have a flight a few days later from Bangkok back to Buenos Aires. I was incredible happy, could almost not believe it. It’s not that we didn`t had any misunderstandings, but I think that brought us even closer to each other and it can be scary to feel from the beginning so intense feeling for somebody you just met.
As I wanted to go to the Temples a fourth day, she told me to go and enjoy until the sunset and we would leave the following day by night bus to Shinoukville. When I was at the temples I was in a way glad that she understood how much I enjoy to be alone in these atmosphere. But I also missed her a lot and imagined how great it would be to share these moments with her. I was so grateful, thanked the Gods for sending me these source of incredible happiness. I devoted some intense sticks, talked with some monks and enjoyed the incredible atmosphere at Ta Prohm, where I had just “my” place. Nobody around, just the sounds of the jungle - mighty trees growing on the temples and walls. I was fulfilled and happy.
I was very exited to come back to see her again and share with her my joy. And we did…

After another one and a half hours of talking and coming closer we started to kiss and I entered a different dimension…
We went to the town and buyed some wonderful stuff from the Old Market. We enjoyed ourselves a lot, met nice people.
The next day we got our tickets, went again to the town with a really nice, exited and young Swedish traveller. In the end we still stayed in a restaurant when we head 15 minutes to catch our pick-up at the hotel. And I hadn`t paid my bill for the 10 days… And she needed still a new bag. Shopping. As she is a fashion designer, who also designs her own beautiful clothes she is very selective and the locals are almost scared about her talent for bargaining… As she is going every year a few times to China to fix the prices for the fabrics her company is producing there. She also takes a look at the production. But she is also fed up with these trips. What is so understandable.

She really wants to change her life. We just met at the perfect time.
But back to the restaurant. She went to buy a new bag and the Ganesh, she wanted for herself and three minutes she was back with all she wanted.
We took a Tuk-Tuk back to the hotel, where the pickup was waiting. After endless waiting for the bill, we went by Tuk-Tuk to the Bus.
I was incredible exited but also calm, because everything felt so right.
As she took a sleeping pill she was able to sleep and I kept being awake. Another nightbus…

We arrived in the early morning in Shinoukville and she was still very affected from the pill, really tired and weak. Probably we even managed to forget her shoes on the bus. But we return to this matter….
But still she started to bargain with the drivers until I decided that I am not going to bargain about a dollar and we just left to the place, where Thomas and Pete already stayed some days. A wonderful place. We chilled at the beach in these amazing chairs (we need to buy one ) and felt from the very beginning like in heaven.

Where our intensive worlds meet together there is light. A lot… As she stayed it was like endless dreaming. I totally agree!!!

We had only four days here together and I can easily say that was by fare the most wonderful time in my life. Mysterious, challenging, exhausting - but also refreshing, exciting, wonderful. We both felt blissed and we didn`t lost our smiles. We had another one or two difficult moments to go through, but that was necessary, also to talk about our desires, our former disappointments and to get clear what problems we have with ourselves from time to time. What has sometimes not to do with us too.

Sleep became a word that was missing in my dictionary…
She slept a little more but still much to less. We just felt fully awake when we have been together.

We also had a wonderful time with Thomas and Pete. Was so great to see them again. We might meet up also very soon at another beach on an islands at the coast. Would be phantastic. I also got so amazing music from Thomas. I am still wondering what kind of music is on mymp3 player right now. And I keep on meeting more and more music, exchanging book tips and ideas what to do with my medias from this journey.
But back to the most wonderful part of my life. And I had already before so amazing friends and family, but this… No Words for it. But I try hard to find some…
For ever I will remind our trip to Shinoukville. We have been by far the most confused people in this little town EVER. A Video of theis episode would become a legend ;-)

So what happened? We went to buy some small stuff for us. We took a Tuk-Tuk and went on this short but incredible bumpy road. First we went to get some information how she could come home. She still needed to reach Bangkok to catch her flight… Then we tried to change her flight day. I wrote a email to Air Quatar. Sadly they could offer something a week later, but that seemed to be impossible, at she will have an important meeting for a fashion week at that date. But we tried and I am so glad we did. She is such a brave woman. The craziest thing ever was entering to more travel agencies. We haven`t been able to speak one useful phrase, we looked lost at each other, break off in a incredible laugh, left the Offices without having said properly hello and left behind very confused staff there… Next stop at a supermarket. We entered it and got lost immediately. We struggled to buy even a cream for her. I was never so lost but incredible happy at the same time, sensing that she had (and still has) the same feeling. She advised me to shop in different sections of the super market. When we met again, we had a lot of crazy things with us. As she didn`t had any shoes (still…) we tried to get some. But as she is a fashion designer she is very picky. She found the right shoes but the color was wrong ;-)

It was so funny. And everybody was laughing about and with us. She tried on her own another shop, came back (still without shoes), telling me we would have to leave this place… We passed the shop, where she went alone, where four locals kept on staying in front of the shop laughing like hell. Wonderful! I love the way she deals with other people and especially the locals. She has such a big heart.
After Thomas and Pete left to Koh Rong (an nearby Islands) we met another great german guy, Falcon, who is leaving in Chiang Mai almost three years already. A great guy, with good music, very easy going. And there was Elles from Netherlands. Another great person. We all understood with each other perfectly. We sat at the beach, listened to great music, went from time to time to the see and have been incredible happy. More happy then ever before.

There was one time when we have been in the water when we could see the stars (the weather is changing a lot and there is a lot of clouds or rain, but who cares?). I had a incredible sensation, staying there with her in the water. I felt the universe expanding, felt energy floating into my mind and body and felt infinity. I told her about what I sensed and she had absolutely the same feeling.

I felt like falling. You are the ONE!!!!!

Still I heared some music when she managed to sleep a little and I couldn`t, because I was way to exited the whole time. And it killed me. Air (cherry blossom girl, All I need, Kelly watch the stars, Venus), Lenny Kravitz (I`ll be waiting for you), Moby (18, at least we tried)…
I will post a playlist soon with all this phantastic and inspiring music!!!
She kept on running in the morning (she is a marathon runner and a vegan) even after one hour of sleep. We gave each other space but enjoyed also every single second with each other.

The last night wasn`t only easy but wonderful. We talked about the future, tried to avoid to get too sad. There was a point, when she refused me. It was all getting too much emotionally. We took a break, talked it out and then I listened to “With you, Mit Dir” from freundeskreis a hiphop formation from my home town with a lot of soul. A Love song and I was sad and was singing also, because it was fitting to the situation perfect. Even when she couldn`t understand the message it reached her.
Saying good-bye to her was extremely harmful, even when I was (and I am) sure we will see soon again. I was crying.

She was brave but told me later she was crying the whole flight. And she took a 50-hours journey on her… I felt so much with her. For sure I wanted her to stay for every price and she didn`t wanted to leave at all. But it was right. She needed to go back to her former live like I have to do very soon.
I am happy that she don`t want to change her life only because of my, as she was thinking about leaving Buenos Aires, these job and the trips to China, she started to hate. Otherwise it wouldn`t work. And she is managing this right now. Telling her friends about a new life feeling and a decision she made, telling her family, telling her ex-boyfriend. She is so brave. For sure her sisters are not very happy, that she is telling them, that she will not stay and live a life with a german guy, she met in Cambodia after six days. Sounds strange. But they haven`t seen us. And everybody who saw us understood that this is something what happens once in a life time!

I made me decision already and I only want to be on a road that leads to her!
These are big Words, I know. But they are true.
It`s crazy. I thought this journey would be finished. I felt in Angkor already before I met her that the road is over and that would be the highlight in the end. And then it became even better. Hard for me to believe sometimes. I feel just grateful big time.

Now it turns out is the beginning of a total new world. With a wonderful, shining woman from Argentinia, with a Jewish Name from Poland and roots from Syria. I believe I can see these in her beautiful face.
So my World is complete now and I am so happy that I forced myself for this third part of my travel.

Since she left (we are still writing each other a lot and just skyped last night) I met more great people. Two amazing Germans I will keep in touch, the couple from Puerto Rico, who translated the wonderful Spanish letter she left for me and shared with me my bliss and joy. We even connect our blogs. Link will follow soon. Also I met a guy and a woman from Romania. She gives me some Spanish words. We have a great time but for sure I miss her a lot. And I know that is more difficult for her right now but I will face this also very soon. But I am not afraid. Okay, from time to time. But I did my choice and I trust my friends and family that you feel happy with me, even if I shouldn`t stay in Germany for a longer time. Again. But now it`s time to make plans, think about in which way I can makie a living in the next time and looking for a place, where we can live together. And I think we have to see very soon again. So it might turn put that I have to go to South America (what is also still a dream of mine). But we need a little Patience. Not easy! I am happy about any kind of tip and ideas.

I want to thank everybody who shared this road with me that leaded finally to Hapiness, love and Compassion. Thank you so much. Without you it wouldn`t have been possible. I love you for sharing with me. So many phantastic people.
My Heart is with you Nathalie. I love your rithym, your dancing, you smell, your charisma. I could continue endless. I love everything about you!!! Trust in us. We will find a way. It is not only easy right, now. But its so worth it and I “just” want to life with you. You changed my life. I will always trie to be better than before. You are everything. I will wait for you as long as I breath. Te Amo! I miss you! Muchos Besos!

Thank you for sharing that with me. I am the happiest man in the world!!!
Much Love from Mr. Coconutyoga. Stay true!!!
I promised her to write my book. So watch out!!! A new intensity entered my life.
I could write much more but this is the end for now. A new journey has started!

If you want to get in touch:
skype: mr.coconutyoga

See you out there in this wonderful world!!!

Mien Mien - People and Nature

2011-03-27T05:36:00.005+02:00

Impressions from the wonderful place I am still staying at right now. Love it here!