MUSCO

2011 ...............

2011-12-31T01:09:00.000-08:00

2011

Terrible mistakes were made

Wrong decisions were made

Got carried away a lot of times

Things were at a standstill

Along the line

Things got back in line

Doors were opened

Mistakes were rectified

Made more enemies

Just for things to be right

No regrets whatsoever

I forge ahead without regrets

A better entity evolved

The peace came back and covered all pains

Pains were relieved

2012

Will be better

Major steps will be taken

Joy will be fully restored

Racism is still here ........

2011-11-30T02:03:00.000-08:00

Racism is definitely still here in the UK......

After spending about two years here, I think I got my first full dose of racism at work and I'm so pissed about it that I'm taking it up with the management. I understand that the typical uneducated British hates immigrants because they think we are the ones causing problems for their economy and their social amenities. I really don't blame them, our quest for a better life has pushed us as immigrants to share in their country's so called wealth. Are they even wealthy now with all these economic predictions they may be heading back into another recession?

The UK has really got immigration issues and in solving it, they are going about it the wrong way. While other countries like Australia and Canada are opening up their borders for skilled workers, the UK is closing theirs against skilled workers. Why should I even blame them, my country- Nigeria has refused over the years to be creative with their wealth and in the nearest future, I don't think it will.

At the end of the day, not all that glitters is gold in any country one finds himself!

WORDS .....

2011-11-15T14:40:00.000-08:00

Words are like fire
It could be used to destroy
Words have destroyed a lot
Words seem like fire
Words that seem to act on their own
Without understanding the full implications
Words may be the best weapon to free the pains
The pains will forever be there when the words can no longer find wings

The words of fire will be quenched soon
The smoke will gather
The ruins will remain

Looking back
The fire should have remained as smoke!!!

UK Pains.... 1

2011-09-30T02:21:00.000-07:00

When a full-blooded young man like me makes what I call a kind of sojourn into the UK without essential back-up such as the presence of the one you love and left back home to keep you in check, one is bound to stray in this country a few times. Over the last two years, I have had my temptations. I have been able to deal with some of these temptations adequately but I have also fallen by the wayside a few times. You can judge me as much as you like but I must confess living in the UK has been one of the most difficult times of my life.

I look back and think I shouldn't have fallen the few times I fell but I have learnt so many lessons that can't ever be learnt from books. I have realized you can't ever let a certain hurt get out of your mind or heart by trying to use someone or something to recover from that hurt. It will only end up blowing up in your face and you end up getting hurt the more.

This may just be the right place to talk about the sojourns of young men like me in their late 20s who think temptations in a place like this can be avoided if you stay focused but it's not always like that when the real situations prop up .....

To men like myself and my good friend and brother T.Notes who is more prone to temptations (lol ...true talk though) ...... God be with us!!!!

Musco Got His Mojo Back!

2011-08-23T16:02:00.000-07:00

Somehow, Musco has got his blogging mojo back!

I must confess I come here everyday with the zeal to write something but my hands fail me even though most times my head is full of so many thoughts, real-life experiences I want to share. One good reason why I have refused to blog in a while is the fact that I was angry with the world and so called friends. I just didn't want to use my blog as a way of letting out my anger. If I had done that, I'm so sure I would have world class enemies by now and they may even be calling for my head like they have been calling for Gaddafi's in Libya as well as Arsene Wenger's head at Arsenal.

I don't do blog rounds that much again but that yeye boy or man called T.Notes always has a way of making me go to his blog to make comments. I was almost pushed to the wall several weeks back when he kept mentioning my name on his blog and making different allusions to the 'Musco' entity, to write a full piece about him but I was told by my legal counsels T.Notes to give him sometime to amend his 'womanish' ways.

Anyways, I'm back and will be doing a lot of writing in the next few days. I need to start up again with reflection on those days when 'Musco' was a popoular naija blogger.

For friends like my egbon-Naijalines that have abandoned me. God dey o!

Tagged!!!!

2011-02-12T09:15:00.000-08:00

I have been tagged again! Although I have been tagged ages ago, I don't really know what kept me from accepting the 'tag'. In my egbon's word (Naijalines):

''The rules are as follows:
1. Thank the person who gave you the award and link back to them in your post.
2. Tell us 7 things about yourself.
3. Award 15 other bloggers.
4. Contact these bloggers and let them know that they have won''

Since it's been ages I was tagged, I will just go straight ahead without following the rules and tell you seven things about myself .........

1. I'm beginning to love football with a strange passion that has not been there before. Even though it gives me heart-ache when the team I support loses, I promise myself to stop watching football but the next weekend I'm a die-hard Arsenal fan again!

2. I think I have a thing for older women, most of my virtual friends are older than me and I really enjoy having them as my friends *winking*.

3. I daydream a lot about what my complimentary card will look like in the nearest future because of all the academic qualifications I seem to have acquired.

4. I'm getting tired of making job applications!!!

5.I still fight a lot with my mum even though we are miles apart but we seem to have a special way of settling our differences.

6. I have a sleeping dis-order!!! No matter the time I sleep, I wake up like 2-3am and I can't sleep until the break of dawn.

7. I have a strong passion for Naija music and I believe I have a good ear to know if a particular naija music will be a hit or not. I'm also daydreaming of starting my own record label that will be a force to reckon with on the naija music scene.

Done!!!

No elaborate .....

2011-02-06T12:56:00.001-08:00

No elaborate title for this post!!!!

I have a feeling it's been ages since I put down my thoughts on blogville. I really don't know why it's so difficult to write these days. Maybe I'm gradually getting too old for blogging(...is this really an excuse?) or I have just lost the zeal to just flow. I must confess that I do log into my account to write but after some few minutes, I log out again because the words just seem to go into thin air once I try to pick the particular issue to blog about. I still do a lot of blog rounds even if I don't leave comments but I do read a lot of writings from other blogs.

It is interesting to note that since I have been on AWOL for a while, T.Notes has gradually increased his female fan base on blogville because I no longer monitor his movements on the female blogs. FYI, I have been monitoring you and I will soon start giving you a run for your money amongst the blogville female community asap.

My dear egbon- Naijalines tagged me several weeks ago and I'm promising to make that my next post asap.......!!!

My muse is back I guess!!!

Can I ....?????

2010-12-22T13:27:00.000-08:00

Can I really leave????

I have been asking myself that question for the past few weeks since I put up my last post. My heart has been pounding with words that need to be put down in writing. I'm going absolutely nuts right now and blogging about my issues right might probably help because I have been having this funny idea of jumping into the river I pass through to work almost everyday.

I know I have made some terrible mistakes in my life. I know I have let a lot of people down especially someone. Is it exactly my fault? The person in question is never there to stop me from making these terrible mistakes when I'm about to make them but castigates me like hell when the deed is done. I feel like giving it all up now but a friend has 'hammered' it into my head that if I do anything stupid, life continues as usual for ..... and I may even be labelled as stupid if I do exactly what is on my mind.

For now, I'm also contemplating alcohol is a way out of this trying times but will it really help? I don't really know but the bottom-line is I'm freaking tired of all the bullshit going on in my lfe right now!

Do I feel better now? I think so since I have let it out a bit. This may be part of the recovery process!

I know this looks entirely stupid but I'm not editing jo!

Finally!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-12-15T06:46:00.000-08:00

The time has finally come

I no longer feel safe here

I can no longer put my thoughts down here

I know I have stalkers following my every blog move

But

Can I really leave blogville?

I probably need a rebirth

Or a more quiet place

Where my thoughts can be let out in writing without any fears!!!!!!!!!!!

I may still be lurking around in a different form .......

For now

I bid this blog a final goodbye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Winter Dialogue!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-12-01T23:07:00.000-08:00

musco: O boy this winter dey hammer body o!

'kini':Before nko?

musco: Wetin we go do to survive am?

'kini: U dey craze?no be you dey control me?

musco:Control you?!All the times you have put me into trouble nko? I have said it times without number that you absolutely have a mind of your own and you always tend yo use that against me.

'kini': LOL!!!!!!!!

musco:Sounds funny right? God dey o

'kini':lol.... whatever you say, I still keep warm down here somehow

musco: So how come you make me toss and turn on my bed each time I wake up in this terrible cold?

'kini': You already have a mindset that you can use me to keep warm especially with my twin(Do I even have a twin?)

musco: Can't I just have a decent conversation with you????? This winter is killing and as it is, you are the only one I can talk to!

'kini': You are talking to the wrong 'thing'!

The winter is here again and it seems I can't cope with the cold anymore. Last year, I was able to cope probably because I have had years of Nigerian sun burnt into my body but it seems the cold has taken it all out now. Obviously, the cold has made me started acting weird and that's why I had to engage in a conversation with 'kini'. My past posts on 'Monologues' should help to understand the 'kini' concept better.

I hope nobody crucifies me this time. Na winter cause am ...lol!

Nice to be back on blogsville.

I also stumbled on this new blog. It looks and sounds down to earth to me. Do check her out ......http://adeesco-myworld.blogspot.com/

So far ...................

2010-11-04T07:25:00.000-07:00

I really don't know why I haven't blogged in a while. I have been kind of skeptical about blogging because my blog has been under a lot of scrutiny lately from the outside world. At a stage, I really wanted to pull down the blog but what the heck, it's my blog and this is where I put down my thoughts.

My mum is fast beginning an internet guru these days so I really need to be careful about my blogville status. The interesting thing is that my mum wants us to chat online every night now and with time I'm sure her snooping around the internet will become more intensified. I'm really trying to be careful o........... I still fear my mama small.

I have missed blogville somehow sha ....! I have also been busy trying to get a job too. Life after a masters degree isn't as rosy as the picture I had in my mind before I left the 'Jersey' shores of Naija. I don't even know if I should just pack my bags and move back to Naija or just stay put in this 'tasteless' food country. If I move back to Naija, I still need the connections to get a good job not just any job.

For my present state or due to my present state, I really wish my dad is a politician!

Getting there ....

2010-09-11T02:12:00.001-07:00

Exactly a year yesterday, I stepped into the shores of the 'tasteless food' country. It's been a year of full of hopes, dreams and hard work. I must not forget to add .... God's favour!

The gist is ... since I met baby (I call her that), I have never done anything to really make her proud of the entity called 'musco'. So before I left, I remember vividly telling her that with this, I was going to make her proud. After I embarked on it, I had to knock myself on the head sometimes, wondering why I told her anything like that. Probably because the task ahead was damn enormous. I obviously didn't have a choice especially when I had to think about all the 'co-operative' money involved or at stake (naija pple will understand that better ...lol). A lot of things were at stake.

To a large extent, I fulfilled that dream and promise far beyond my own expectations! Should I say I have an addition to my academic qualifications? The beginning of another phase .... !

I have also been in 'looking for trouble mood' on blogsville lately. I have been terrorising Naijalines lately over Tom-Tom and I will be writing an open letter to Tom-Tom on my blog soon. I have also got gist about the new set of 'oyinbo' people I'm working with presently. I'm sure Naijalines (my dearest egbon) is seriously contemplating that knee replacement for me over .... LOL!

Deep ......!

2010-09-04T16:31:00.000-07:00

I just have to share this....! I think the song is really deep if you really listen to the words and the 'yarns'. I have kinda listened to it for the third time already. I seem to be hooked to the song probably because it says a lot about the singer's life struggles.

With the way I'm going, I may end up setting up my own record label soon .... I think I have an ear for good naija music.

Dreams!

2010-08-28T02:32:00.000-07:00

Over the years, the dreams have grown wings

They have flown over the seas

They were hatched across the south-western parts of naija

All the dreams want is a final berthing place

When will that be?

The wings of the dreams seem to be losing momentum now

The dreams still want to fly

The hatcher of the dreams can't wait for the next flight

It is believed they will fly again soon

The odds are so many

But the dreams will gain its wings

Not through those commercial mechanical birds

But through the resilience and determination of the hatcher!

Dreams come true .........!

Tyler Perry- Thanks!

2010-08-22T16:40:00.000-07:00

I just finished watching 'Why Did I get Married Too' and I must confess that though tears didn't come to my eyes as most of such films make me go emotional (the crazy part of me!), it did strike a chord in me. The movie made me feel like I was watching a true-life situation probably due to the fact that the movie centered on relationships and it was played out with good acting and emotions.

I have been going through some stuff in my relationship and as at yesterday and this morning, I absolutely felt like giving up on my relationship but thanks to Tyler Perry, I'm going back to fix my relationship. If only we could all fix the problems we have in our relationships, the world obviously would be a better place. The choices we make relationship-wise either has a positive or negative impact on it. It's obvious we all can't carry our burdens alone because life is absolutely short!

If you get to read this, it may not entirely make sense to you but it has helped in gathering my thoughts together to get my relationship fixed!

''I love you baby and no matter the odds, I'm still taking the bold step with you!''

Damn! I don't even have an elaborate title for this post ...

Endowed?

2010-08-17T12:33:00.000-07:00

I absolutely think this guy has gone nuts! I used to really like D'banj with his first album sometime in 2003/04. He was fresh and brought something different to the entertainment scene in Nigeria. Right now, I strongly feel the fame and money he never knew would come so soon has 'entered his head' and it seems the creativity he was 'endowed' with when he came on the scene is gradually running out....

What is our business if you are 'endowed below'?

Someone should please call this guy to order!

Stalker!

2010-08-16T09:21:00.000-07:00

What does one do when a family friend who you attend a particular Christian meeting with every Wednesday back home has been reading your blog?

This gist is she has been stalking my blog since God knows when and has all the 'sexcapades' and 'monologues' I have written at her fingertips. Just wondering what it would look like sitting in their sitting room on a Wednesday evening for house fellowship and my stalker winking at me with the 'I know what you have on your blog' smile wildly on her face. Trust me, she's mischievous!

I handed in my dissertation today and hoping for the best as per the marking. It's not over until it is over!

I'm back to blogging more often again. Anybody up for some more from the 'Monologue' archives?

Another Rant ....

2010-08-09T18:05:00.000-07:00

Right now, it's about 2.05am and I'm trying to fight nature because of the pile of books in front of me. I have got my dissertation to hand in a matter of days and I can't believe I still have loads to write and put together. Stop! I know what you are thinking .... 'Musco has been damn lazy'! I haven't been lazy , it's just that combining work and schooling in this country is crazy. On days like this, I really wish my dad was a politician and he had all the money in the world to send to me regularly so that I won't have to do all these crazy, yeye, insulting jobs but it's all good sha. Right now, from what I have been through so far, I can look up to the heavens and thank God for his faithfulness to me despite all odds. There are times, I don't deserve half of what I get because of my sins but God has just been faithful to me. I have also learnt what it really means to be a man especially when you have to fend for yourself.

I decided to put up this post because I'm feeling damn sleepy but I have to keep awake to get my dissertation done. I actually have three deadlines. The first is in a few days, the second is in January while the third is in May 2011. So you see, Musco hasn't totally been lazy besides what the heck will I be doing till May 2011 when I should be expecting my first child by then (LOL!).

Over the past few months, I have made some very wonderful friends on blogville. These friends would always be special to me no matter what. I have made up my mind to have their names on my acknowledgment page. One of them is my blog crush...... Thanks a million for being there every single day since we hooked up...I love you( not scared of saying it openly.lol) The next one is also someone very special who is always ready to talk to me even when she's at work. I can remember a particular day I felt so down and wanted to give up but she was there talking me through it. Thanks 'babes'. The last one is someone very naughty but has been a good friend too. He's always ready to give me survival tips and always ready to send me an instant message if he feels anything is wrong with me. I really wonder what it will be like to have you all in one place. Kai,that won't be a good idea because I'm not letting you guys know who my blog crush is ...lol.

Wow!I never intended writing anything close to this and I'm sorry if this post looks dis-jointed. I have this very bad habit of not editing whatever I write. It's 2.34am and I'm back to the analysis of data and drawing of bar charts and pie charts to represent it.

How I Feel ....

2010-08-08T02:05:00.000-07:00

This song pretty sums up right now how I feel relationship wise .....

Sex on Blogville

2010-08-07T14:22:00.000-07:00

There is something definitely wrong on blogville. Lately, I have noticed that most blogs have shifted their writings to a more sensual approach(If I can call it that?). Is it my imagination or I just have this feeling that everybody is getting sexually frustrated?

A friend and blogger thinks I'm presently sexually frustrated.

Guess this sex thing all over is just a time-bomb waiting to explode!

Rants ....

2010-07-23T22:24:00.000-07:00

It's like 3am and haven't been able to get a grip with having a decent night rest. Something seems to be wrong. I try to figure out what it is but my head has refused to connect with what exactly the problem is. It seems the problem I had with sleeping at night some few years ago has resurrected from wherever it had gone to for its summer holiday.

With my eyes wide open, I began to think about different what it could be that has stopped my entire body from shutting down at night. I decided to do some surfing on the internet but that didn't help. I decided to read some parts of the David Beckham's autobiography (there's something special about 'golden balls' and Posh) but that also didn't take long before I got bored again. Still, sleep eluded me. I was wondering if this was probably the side-effects of taking too much energy drinks for school work like a month ago but that didn't really add up in my medical brain or dictionary.

... or could it be because I was out late last night and everything about life seemed so boring .....?

Monologues ....(4)

2010-07-17T06:31:00.000-07:00

As a 'kini'

I misbehave a lot of times

That is a known fact!

Times I misbehave

Such as

When I respond to 'stimulus'

Different techniques are adopted

One good technique is the 'pocket saver'

My owner grabs me sideways ...ouch!

Putting me in a holding position in his pocket

As if I were a mobile phone being held in his pocket

I'm not allowed to get back into position

Until I behave!

My Crush ....

2010-07-15T11:40:00.000-07:00

Everybody seems to want to know my crush. T.Notes and Naijalines have even attempted mentioning names with T.Notes conducting a full scaled investigation to fish out who I have a blog crush on. I have had a blog crush once and never believed I could ever have another until now.

It's been wonderful having this blog crush because it's so strange that I seem to understand someone's feelings and thoughts even though we have never met and may never meet for now at least. The last few days have been spent trying to figure out my crush better and I seem to be enjoying it even if the 'crush' never finds out.

Life itself is full of mysteries and so shall my 'crush' remain a mystery (T.Notes take note ...lol). Like Naijalines said, I have applied the 'softly softly' factor to it.

For my crush, thanks for giving wings to a heart that was already getting bored of blogville.

I don't think I need help anymore, besides it's all about blogville!

What's so Special about Sex????

2010-07-15T11:36:00.000-07:00

This was a post I did sometime in 2008. Obviously these are times man needs a wife in this lonely world especially when the whole world seems to be full of everything sensual. Writing and talking about it makes me feel a lot better!

Here it goes ....

There are times we have to reflect on certain mysteries that have come to affect our daily lives in such a manner that keeps us wondering about the complexity of life in its entire form. There’s something extraordinary about this 3-letter word that makes me borrow a line from a traditional praise-song poem to sufficiently describe it:

“… One sees and points towards with all one’s fingers.”

What’s so special about SEX that makes everybody want to talk about it? This assumption might not be generally acceptable because even with the advancement of technology and a lot of stuff that has now come to stay, a lot of people especially in religious quarters still don’t want to talk about it. If you have never thought about the true essence of SEX and all the mystery that surrounds it, maybe we should all spend a few minutes after reading this to critically examine if there’s really a mystery surrounding this word.

Have u ever wondered why husbands cheat on their wives because of sex and vice-versa?

Have u ever wondered why parents find it so difficult to talk to their children about sex?

Have u ever wondered why a whole lot of us can’t wait until we get married before we experiment with sex?

Have u ever wondered what the world would look like if God activates our hormones on our wedding night?

Have u ever wondered why it is believed that sex affects our destinies?

My thoughts and contribution towards making the world a better place!

HELPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!

2010-07-14T05:43:00.000-07:00

Helpppppppppppp!

I'm having another blog crush!