My Beat

Why and oh why ??

2008-12-02T12:01:00.005+05:30

This poem is dedicated to our NSG and police forces who fought 60 + hours of grueling fight against the terrorists to keep Mumbai and India safe. And also to the victims of the terror attack in Mumbai.

Its in our heart and mind
With blood engraved and signed
I feel them fall like leaves
Only it's that they aren't leaves
But humans like you and me
I feel their tears in my heart
I feel their fear tear out my mind
I don't want it for them
All I wanna know is why
why and oh why ??

Isn't it blood like whats in us
Flowing thro' your heart
What makes you kill us brother
We are not asking for your blood
We are not asking for your life
We are asking for peace . . .
Come and be with us
Lets enjoy the fruit of unity
Lets have love flowing around
Not hatred and Not War

© 2008 by Sunandha V

If only I knew

2008-11-07T22:14:00.003+05:30

This is my new song. Oh! please comment. This is my new attempt on writing about Betrayal.

   
Oh baby! I don't wanna think anymore
My feelings 've gone sore
And my heart's turned stone cold
Coz' it never expected to be sold
What I feel is not a matter now
I've never been so low
I'll never forgive you for what you have done
And now I feel I've always won
You'll never be a part of me - And
Am glad it was never meant to be

 What did I do to make you leave me
 You were the only there for me
 I never knew you never thought so . . .
 What do I do?
            - If only I knew

Looking at you, walk with your new love
I believe, I still live but dunno how
I did things I didn't wanna do
Of them all is falling in love with you
Is it so a great crime
That i still live with passing time
To know your smiles are not for me
To know your kisses are not for me
And your love is for someone else
oh! when will I ever get some sense

Don't walk away

2008-10-08T12:59:00.002+05:30

This is my new song - Don't walk away. I am writing this after a extreme dry period. Somehow I feel this is missing some element which is present in my other songs. Just that I dunno what :(

I still see you walk away
with disgust on your loving face
I stand stunned; dying inside
Still in my moment of daze
And not believing the words you said
Holding onto my love
Hoping its all a game
I dont understand it all till now

Just dont walk away
You are everything I need
Just dont walk away
Its all ripping me alive

I feel the need to come out
And understand all that you mean
But still am locked inside safe
Wanting to stay serene - Knowing:
Feeling it all would be death
I cry into the middle of the night
Wanting you to take me away
Still crying into the first light.

© 2008 by Sunandha V.

Please do comment.

Where did I go wrong . . .

2008-05-04T03:20:00.003+05:30



I thought I was the only man
And loved you with all I can
It all felt so correct
And my night seemed so bright
Your presence felt so good
Even in my every single mood
Nothing was out of place
And I did never find a trace
Just
  Where did I go wrong.

Here I stand, drenched in rain
Wondering where I am,
And without a soul or a heart,
When you left me to part. . .

Dont you ever know?
Did you always pretend?
I dunno where you are
Or with who you are

You are my soul I never had


I feel your precense everywhere
Its not something I dont care
What did I really do
And make you abandon me so
There's nothing I need to live for
Everything round me starts to sour
Nothing else felt so right
But I dont wanna fight
Just
  Where did I go wrong.

© 2008 by Sunandha V.

Never leave me again

2008-04-09T00:58:00.001+05:30




You are like a lightning in the night
Just a streak of light in the dark
Full of power and beauty
But I don’t wanna be fooled again
My feelings are not a matter
When you decide to leave me alone
You done care, am dying inside
But still I fall for you again
What do I do now?
 

    Give me a peace of mind
    Never leave me again
    Just let me love you
    As you deserved all along
    Never leave me again
 

Everytime I watch you leave
I lose a part of me with you
What am I left with?
Nothing but a hope to see you again
Oh! You always had been right
But I don’t wanna think of it
I just hope you would be back
And lets start where you let off
Is this I have in life????

With you by my side

2008-03-16T00:00:00.003+05:30

This one I wrote for my friend, who requested me to write about her love for her hubby and daughter. This was written as a personalized one for her. Small changes was done to remove the personalization.



I sit by the window sill,
And watch the clouds float by,
To the sun setting in the farther hill,
As I wait for you to return to me.
Many things might come and go again
But its not you and me.
I remember the time stand still,
When you saw me across the flowers,
Nothing moved except you and my heart.

 I've never felt so much ecsatacy,
 I've lived my life so complete,
 But it not just me honey,
 It's you who makes me.
 I've never wished for more
 Everything round me is so clear

        Everything is gonna be very right,
        With you by my side.

Now when I see us together
It feels like a heaven in earth
Nothing feels so beautiful and great
I wish, I could've something to wish for - but
All I wanted is you by me.
And go thro' every second of my life
Till my skin shrinks; and
Till my breath leaves me;
And I know it'd be true.

        Everything is gonna be very right,
        With you by my side.

© 2007 by Sunandha V

My English Rose

2008-03-01T23:19:00.002+05:30

Ma new Poem . . . . My English Rose. I wrote this for ma friend who just challenged me in writing this for him . . . and I did it tho' I took a little bit more time. . . He he he

I saw her along the woods,
The sun shining on her hair,
Her lovely face raised up to the breeze,
I stood there feeling a warmth creeping in,
Chasing away the cold and lonliness
That made up my heart for long;
Making me wish to be the breeze
That caressed her pretty face
She was there; one among the nature
Nothing could make look more beautiful
And nothing was needed also.
I still stand there one among the trees
Engrossing her warmth and beauty,
To fill me forever; And I
Will always be here; My English Rose.

© 2008 by Sunandha V.

If you go . . .

2007-08-02T23:14:00.000+05:30



This is one i wrote recently and one I love too much . . . Dunno why . . .

Have started my next and will finish this week . . . :)))))




When I tell you that I love you 
I have never meant it more than I do 
When your face glows with a smile 
My heart beats as I if raced a mile 
Every moment you see me live 
Its all you and only you give 
There’s no life beyond you 
Nothing more will exist if you go 

       I remember every moment and every word 
       As we move along the long road 
       You are not one I would lose 
       If I do or dont have to choose 

I know, I have made mistakes, 
And I’ll do whatever it takes, 
To make you mine forever and ever 
And to give you all within my power. 
I need you by my side, 
To take my life in it’s stride; 
There’s no life beyond you, 
Nothing more will exist if you go. 

       I remember every moment and every word 
       As we move along the long road 
       You are not one I would lose 
       If I do or dont have to choose 

I wonder if my words’ll reach you; 
Or you to understand what you do, 
Every moment to my soul and heart, 
When you with a sad smile part; 
I’ll do anything to make you understand, 
Coz’, it’s not something I can withstand. 
There’s no life beyond you, 
Nothing more will exist if you go. 

             © 2007 by Sunandha V.

My Baby Brother

2007-05-24T00:50:00.000+05:30

This poem is for Vijay my brother . . . I remember the days I fought with him for really silly matters but i have always loved him like my kid . . . he well knows that but i dunno how much he is gonna accept the fact that he is still the baby I remember with two front tooth gone and a smile that could light up the whole world . . .

(I still remember when you were angry with me and frowning when i compelled to pose for this photo. But I wont tell why . . . )

You are still my pet Vijay . . . and you always will . . .

I never knew you as my brother,
I know you as my kid I love and protect,
I know you as my kid I care and cherish,
I saw myself as a knight to slay the dragons,
If ever I saw tears and pain in your eyes.

I am far away but not so far,
You are a living thought I cherish.
You are grown and a man to everyone,
But for me, you are the new born I saw then,
And the baby I watched take every step.

You are the greatest gift I ever had,
And the lovely person I always will love,
My little Bro', I still find hard to believe,
You are not the baby I held 19 years ago,
I dont wanna believe coz' you're still My Baby Brother . . .
© 2007 by Sunandha V.

This is dedicated to you Vijay . . .

I promise you . . .

2007-04-20T01:29:00.000+05:30

I wanna fill you, with a love,
That never; ever fades away;
I rejoice at your smile,
That makes me feel worthy;
And makes me do anything;
That would make you smile,
Every moment and every breath,
I regret; that I hadn’t been earlier.

I wish I could do some more
Take away all your hurt and pain
And fill you with love to the core
Don’t cry, my little one
I promise you the heaven and angels

You give me a love and a smile,
That doesn’t have a reason,
I wanna keep you tucked away safe,
Away from all worldly pains,
I remember, baby, during my pain,
The love you shower without limits,
I have you to return to; my flower;
This is all I need in life;

I wish I could do some more
Take away all your hurt and pain
And fill you with love to the core
Don’t cry, my little one
I promise you the heaven and angels

© 2007 by Sunandha V.

I am out of feelings . . .

2007-04-20T01:11:00.000+05:30

My new poem . . . I wrote sometime back but didnt have time to post it here. . .

Is this a game. . .
Or . . .Did I miss something. . .
Is it not still the same?
Your love is all I need.

I am out of feelings
Ii've lost evry thing for you
For a love of deciet
Yet I'm still here for you

I felt the world was mine
Filled with love and trust
When I chose you over time
I gave myself in your hands

I am out of feelings
I've lost evry thing for you
For a love of deciet
Yet I'm still here for you

I dread a nameless future,
With my dreams melting around;
Evry minute around's a torture;
Feeling my heart breaking to pieces.

I am out of feelings
I've lost evry thing for you
For a love of deciet
Yet I'm still here for you

How long am I to trust;
Loving you to bits and not hate,
As if loving you is a must;
And losing my soul in all.

© 2007 by Sunandha V.

I am not me . . .

2007-03-02T18:39:00.000+05:30

I tend to think sometimes about what I wanted to be when I was a kid or when I led a carefree life. But am not that now. In the course of life I have started to please every one around me that I now no longer myself, and if I try to be myself I am questioned "Sunandha, why are u changed? You are not the Sunandha I knew." I laugh at these comments coz' I know, Yes I am changed but for good, to seek the girl I had been, Happy and peaceful.

Now I dont wanna hurt any one, but I wanna be myself. Can I be . . . Nope I cant be . . . Why? . . . They dunno my originality, they only know what I was trying to be . . . I was just trying to make them happy . . .

This poems has my own feelings about life and how I feel strapped after I analyzed my life.


I hold on to my past;
Think about my future,
What I was; but,
What I wanted to be,
I knew what I am.

   I am,
      Who every one wanted me to be,
      Who every one thought was special,
      But its not me.

I hold on to a picture,
A dream that was me,
That would always be one,
I spread my wings far wide,
Take a leap to pleasure, but;

   I am,
      Who every one wanted me to be,
      Who every one thought was special,
      But its not me.

I hold on to my dream,
Live a life that’s a fake,
Take a step that’s destruction,
Look back and see me last,
For am not me, but;

   I am,
      Who every one wanted me to be,
      Who every one thought was special,
      But its not me.

I try to make them understand,
I try to make them trust,
I try and keep trying,
That’s not my fault; that’s what;
Every one wanted me to be.


© 2007 by Sunandha V.

I’ve got Nothing . . .

2007-02-28T00:43:00.000+05:30


This one I wrote day b4 sterday night. . . no no sterday morning. . .
there was peace all around . . .I wanted to write this.

Guys this is the benefit of being a nocturnal creature or devil
(Thats how my friends call me coz' i am awake
when all sleep and I sleep when all rise up in morning :P) . . .



The night is coming down, dark;
But, I feel myself drown,
In the depth of your eyes,
Shining with all love I ever want.

     My heart’s in your hands,
     My soul’s in your keep,
     I’ve got nothing more to give,
     Just my love in abundant.

The wind is rushing over, cool;
But, I feel so very warm,
Wrapped up in your love,
Forgetting my fears in the warmth.

     My heart’s in your hands,
     My soul’s in your keep,
     I’ve got nothing more to give,
     Just my love in abundant.

I shiver to my very soul,
As the water caress my feet,
United in your love, baby; 
Radiating my fear for loss, coz;

     My heart’s in your hands,
     My soul’s in your keep,
     I’ve got nothing more to give,
     Just my love in abundant.

I just need you by my side,
I just wanna hold your hands,
Feel the spring moving on,
Assuring your love in all words.

        © 2007 by Sunandha V.

Feelings

2007-02-17T23:24:00.000+05:30


FEELINGS is a small poem I wrote four years back. When I went through all my poems
 now, I felt my poems then a little immature . . . a bit on the wrong understanding
of love . . . that every thing about it is good . . . No it has its bad side too . . .
my recent ones take more and more on the emotional side . . . 
It comes well actually . . .

      

The light in the dark,
Kindled my feelings,
I felt it would be mine;
I lost my sight in it; feeling,
It would lead my way.
I wanted to cieze it; feeling,
It would move away - but
An unfortunate, need not feel,
Coz'it would never be mine.
    
    © 2007 by Sunandha V.

My Mystery Man

2007-01-30T16:07:00.000+05:30



I remember staring at the walls;
Putting together, blank words;
Trying to feel, unfelt emotions;
And waiting for a sun in the night.


 And then you came,
 I felt my emotions in your voice;
 You brought out my sun,
 Yet for me you remain . . . .
    My Mystery Man


I remember watching the waves on my feet;
Trying to listen, unheard words;
I pictured a world of love;
Yet filled with tears of loneliness;


 And then you were there,
 Filling my night with love,
 With the moonlight on your face
 Yet for me you remain . . . .
     My Mystery Man


I wish I could get one more day,
To feel the depths of your love,
To feel the emotions play on your face,
Or to just tell you my love.


 And you just smiled,
 made me see depths,
 guided me in love,
 Yet for me you remain . . . .
     My Mystery Man


        © 2007 by Sunandha V.

Silent love

2007-01-17T15:35:00.000+05:30

The moments of loving looks,
The moments of killing glances,
oh dear! could I forget those?
Few years of silent love . . . . . .
But few days of silent sleep . . . .
Could you part me dear?
Could anything seperate me from you?
Could those years of silent love be removed.
Make my life flourish,
Not with your thoughts; my love,
But with your presence.
Parting is never for hearts;
Let us continue with . . . .
With years of silent love;
How ever . . . . . . .
Everything cannot be attained in life.

© 2006 by Sunandha V.

Betrayal

2006-12-22T09:44:00.000+05:30

Every one has a dream that occurs again and again . . . we may have a reason or we may not . . .
I too used to have a dream that occurs again and again . . . no reason . . .
I dunno why . . . I brought out tht as a poem . . .This is not a pessimistic or depressive thought . . .
A dream that no one would want to happen in their life no matter what . . .
being dumped by your bride or groom at the altar . . .
No one would like it . . . if that happens . . . If you are a guy or a girl . . .
read this as if you are in that position . . . you will understand . . .Hope this brings out real emotions as I intended.

I stand in the cold rain,

remembering your words,

When you were mine;

I try to wash off your words,

Echoing every second in my head,

I stay shivering in its strength.

I remember your wandering eyes,

I remember your restless smiles,

I remember you walking away,

I'll never remember you weren't mine.

I stand in the end of world,

remembering your love,

When you were mine;

I try to close off your memories,

Installed in every cell of mine,

I shudder in its depth.

I remember your wandering eyes,

I remember your restless smiles,

I remember you walking away,

I'll never remember you weren't mine.

I stand staring at the aisle,

remembering my dreams,

When you were mine;

I try to crush my fort,

I built in my dreams,

Smiling down at the wild flowers.

I remember your wandering eyes,

I remember your restless smiles,

I remember you walking away,

I'll never remember you weren't mine.

I'll still remember you turning around,

The angel of my dreams,

Dressed in all beautiful laces,

I remember you turning around,

To the hands of your love.

I stand . . . .

2006-11-24T23:04:00.001+05:30

I stand in the rain,
And stare at the falling drops,
I feel your frenzy kisses;
Making me wild with your emotions.

I wonder why you left me,
Was I so difficult?
And-Was I always the fool;
Never knowing the truth.

I walked along the beach,
And stared at the waves,
I felt your caressing hands;
Making me wild with your emotions.

I always dream of you,
And-I never knew it would be a just a dream;
I feel your breath as my beat,
If I ever have a heart.

I gazed at the moon,
Reaching the silver rays,
I felt your bright aura;
Making me happy with your love.

I wonder why I still wish;
To be your love and life;
To be absorbed in your brightness.
I never want to know the truth.

© 2007 by Sunandha V.

I'll be never for you

2006-11-21T21:04:00.000+05:30

Was it my mistake . . .
To fall for you . . . or
Was it destined to happen

I may never know, but
The truth is you will never,
Ever know the depth of love.

I may not be the one for you,
But you were the one . . .
Rejection is never accepted.

Do remember me, if you're rejected
You will need me once,
But I'll be never for you.
© 2006 by Sunandha V.

Every time i try . . . . . . . . . .

2006-09-25T23:24:00.000+05:30

Every time i try . . .
I feel myself blush;
I feel my heart filled;
But am trying still.
Evry time I see U . . .
My feelings seem to rise;
Oh! dear just a look;
Takes me to the heights.
Evry time 'am beside U . . .
Though am near U,I feel myself suffer;
My souls aches in ur love,
Just your arms around me, my love!
Just makes me forget this world,
Just soothes my feelings out,
I feel myself blush;
Evry time i try forgetting ur first kiss.

© 2006 by Sunandha V.
This poem is about a girl who remembers her first kiss . . . .

When I first saw him . . . . . . . .

2006-09-22T22:16:00.000+05:30

When I first saw him,
I well thought . . . . . always . . . . . .
He would be mine, life long;
I passed him, ever to be noticed,
Always with a small short gaze.
I felt his smile; heavenly,
My heart throbbed fast,
I needed his presence;
Badly and ever badly,
Now too I wish, my only wish:
His presence nearby, his soothing words,
The killing lovely gaze . . . . . . . . . life long,
Wishes are only wishes, only wishes.He wants the gal, not me for sure.
He wants her; loves her;
And cares her in his being.
Now too I notice . . . . . . . .
In one among those gals just passing by.
© 2006 by Sunandha V.

I simply love this one . . . . Infact written by me. . . . This is about the feelings of a girl when she sees her prince charming with another girl