Mad Sailor

Takziah Demokrasi

2013-05-06T00:00:00.000+10:00

educate yourself

2013-05-02T05:37:00.000+10:00

Click on me.

p.s sorry for my absence.

2012-04-22T04:44:00.000+10:00

2012-03-21T23:54:00.001+11:00

commercial pilot license [✓]

2012-03-11T23:28:00.000+11:00

fuck i miss malaysia

2012-03-08T13:16:00.001+11:00

http://vimeo.com/34268907

http://vimeo.com/34146022

Alice

2012-02-22T21:24:00.000+11:00

ever since we were young, we were programmed to follow them blindly. every time we had a question, they would have the answer. if they didn't, we were taught not to question such things. every time we did something wrong, they were there to correct us. only they have the answers to the problems of our daily lives. only they have the authority over certain matters. only they have the power to decide what is right or wrong. everything is left to them to decide. after all, they are supposed to be right anyway.

but..

where does that leave us?

could it be that what we are being told is a lie? and they are actually hiding the truth from us. or maybe they don't even know what the truth is either. because they too have been blindly following others. in this case, the blind leading the blind.

maybe we only have ourselves to blame. what ever happened in our ability to think? it's like we just gave it all up and let them do all the thinking. so now is your chance, to ponder on what I have just told you. (or not) the choice is up to you..

time's up.

are you ready to go deeper down the rabbit hole?

just one of those nights

2012-02-17T01:37:00.001+11:00

can sleep, but choose not to.

rather stay up late, and wait for something.

something that will never come.

but my head keeps telling me to wait anyway.

maybe I should start listening to my heart.

as soon as I find it.

2012-02-12T20:48:00.002+11:00

Tired. Physically, mentally, emotionally.

(is this what being 20 feels like?)

Help me.

What I need is a kick up the ass.

Any takers?

2012-02-04T11:56:00.001+11:00

Ola!

Two days back I was discharged from the hospital. I was sick since last Thursday but it got more serious on Monday which meant I had to be admitted to the hospital straight away. I sorta had a panic attack and thought I was dying. Silly me..

I'm sure now you're all sitting there thinking away. Well, to make things short, I had blood infection. It gave me random high fevers during the day and made me ill 24/7. I could barely even walk. I don't really want to write a long bloody essay on it so I'll just leave it there.

I'm doing much better now. I think it's good to get admitted to the hospital at least once in your life. For starters you find out who really gives a fuck about you. And I have realized now that my health is the most important thing in life.

So to everybody out there, stop fucking up your body.

Emergency Landing

2012-01-26T15:57:00.002+11:00

video of the day...

2012-01-10T23:44:00.001+11:00

Malaysian Judiciary

2012-01-08T21:53:00.000+11:00

I came across an article on Malaysia Today and I thought I'd share it with you all.

http://malaysia-today.net/mtcolumns/guest-columnists/46382-mahathir-forgot-how-he-destroyed-the-judiciary

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Salleh_Abas

If you have time please do read the links above.

I would like to quote the great Tunku Abdul Rahman Putra who wrote;

Times have changed.

This terrible episode of sacking the Lord President should serve as a lesson to the people of Malaysia as well as to people in many developing countries where judicial independence is seen by those who wield power only as an inconvenience and a threat to what they arrogantly believe is their God-given right to do as they please.

The way I look at it, they have have made a martyr of Tun Salleh and he deserves to be honoured and respected as such. What happened to him may prevent others in this country from suffering the same fate.

What is written in this book will be a lesson to young Malaysians who have a long way to go. Let us try do what is right for the future generations. I sincerely hope this story is widely read and always remembered by the people.

2012-01-08T03:03:00.000+11:00

You know, I always thought life could never be that hard. This was many years ago of course, when I was young and carefree. If I could just go back in time and speak to my old self for a couple of minutes, maybe things would be different now. But if I did I probably wouldn't be the person I am today.

This place.. it has made me realize a lot. You do a lot of thinking here. Probably because that's the only thing you can do in a place like this.

I first came here with high hopes and dreams. I was excited to be starting a new chapter in my life. Few months into it and I wondered why I even came here in the first place. But I had no choice, so I soldiered on. All the money put into this, I couldn't just give up. And believe me, I wanted to give it all up to be honest. I started to think if aviation was really for me. Some couldn't take it anymore so they packed their bags and left. But how could I leave after all I've been through here? I just couldn't..

My dad didn't want me to become a pilot. He told me to study in Malaysia first. Even my mom told me not to come here, and I should just do my training elsewhere. But did I listen? No. I wanted to pursue my dreams to be a pilot. And look where it has got me today.

Flying is great don't get me wrong. But this place, the people, they make me hate aviation. I even have trust issues now after everything that has happened. Everyone is so nice to you in the beginning, and then after awhile you see their true colours.

And I can't believe how supportive both my parents have been. Especially my dad. When I failed an exam not once but twice, he told me he too had failed a couple of exams during his time in university. But he told me to never give up, and to try harder next time. He never once got angry with me. He keeps telling me that Allah is testing me. That this is one of His many tests that I will have to face in life, and the harder your life is, the more Allah loves you. Or something between those lines. But I wonder.. how could He even love such a person as myself? Like I said you think more than you should over here..

But you know.. I don't regret anything. If I didn't come here, I probably wouldn't appreciate life as much. And my family and friends back home. It's been one hell of a life experience living here. One that I would have never learnt if I was still living in Malaysia, because life was too easy for me over there. I had pretty much everything. But once you lose everything, once you have nobody to help you out and you have to stand on your own two feet, you look at life from a different perspective. It's like I've been given a new pair of eyes to see. And I like what I see.

I don't expect any of you to understand what I've been through here. Not even my parents or my friends would understand. You just can't explain it until you've lived through it all. I really hope that none of you will ever experience it because it means some of you might give up on your dreams. And that's one thing you should never give up on.

Perseverance. That's one word you could call it. Maybe years from now I'll look back and say, "I've finally made it". I just hope it's all worth it in the end. Don't we all?

Kermit the katak

2012-01-04T23:10:00.000+11:00

What is up with Malaysians nowadays? (Malays to be specific) Why do we care so much with what others do with their own lives? Does it affect us in any way? Must we condemn others just because they don't wear the "tudung"? You probably know who I'm talking about.. I won't bother mentioning her name here.

You know, every fucking time I see someones name trending on Twitter, it's always a Malay. And it's the Malays who are talking about it all. Starting all the hoo-ha. It's a fact that if the person (who must not be named) was Chinese or Indian, nobody would give two fucks. It's because only the Malays would care about such a matter as small as this. Please try and prove me wrong. We care so much about what people do with their lives. Suka sangat jaga tepi kain orang, betul?

Aduh.. but this is nothing new if you're Malaysian. It's just the way we are I guess.

I say let them do what the fuck they want, it's between them and God. It's none of our business, and please don't try and act like such a saint on the internet, who are you trying to fool? It's as if the ones who are voicing out have already been guaranteed a spot in heaven.

The fact is, the ones who have problems with all this bullshit have never stepped outside Malaysia. They don't know how the outside world is like. It's the same with Australia, just look at the Australians who have never left the country. Most of them are racist fucks let me tell you that. They're not exposed to the outside world. Katak bawah tempurung la bro. Korang semua katak le..

Thing is, Malaysia will never ever move forward if we keep making stuff like this an issue. We're too busy arguing about how others should be instead of looking at ourselves first. Everyone needs to stop acting like Gods and just get on with their lives.

At the end of the day, it's your own sins that will be accounted for, not anyone else's. Simple as.

"Orang study overseas culture shock takpe, jangan orang duduk Malaysia culture shock"

2011

2012-01-01T22:20:00.000+11:00

Another year has passed. What can I say about 2011? It's been one hell of a ride for me. Ups and downs, but mostly downs for me. Nonetheless it has been a year of learning for me. I have gained a lot of experience to carry with me in 2012 and the years to follow. I can't say I enjoyed it too much, but at times when I did I felt like I was on top of the world.

Like any other year, I don't have any new year's resolutions bullshit. I don't believe in these kind of stuff honestly. I do look forward to 2012, whether the world is gonna end in 12 months time we'll have to wait and see. But I want this year to be the year of travelling. I want it to be full of adventure if possible. So if the world does end, I'll have no regrets. I'm gonna live it as if the world is gonna end.

I have a feeling after a year of disappointment, 2012 will be good to me. If there's one thing I have learnt in 2011 is that nothing ever goes as planned. And it's better to keep quiet 99% of the time. And the world is not what you think it is.. Okay, that's more than one thing, but like I said I have learnt a lot. Maybe we can meet up one day and I'll tell you what I've been through.

I just wanna wish everyone a happy new year and I hope it turns out to be a great year for everyone.

Eat, pray, live, laugh, love.

I wanna take up capoeira after watching this

2011-12-27T23:25:00.002+11:00

December must be video month or something

2011-12-18T12:59:00.002+11:00

the first days of spring

2011-12-10T18:40:00.001+11:00

I remember looking for this video last year and had no luck. Tried looking for it on Vimeo and voila!

song of the year

2011-12-04T20:07:00.000+11:00

yep. pretty much sums it all up.

this is home

2011-12-02T19:18:00.000+11:00

Aku bagi dia pilihan doh

2011-11-30T01:27:00.000+11:00

Girls. As much as I love them, they have caused me nothing but problems. Not only them, but what they tell their boyfriends. And I usually end up in the middle of it all. I know pretty well whenever shit like that is going down and I do my very best to stay out of it. The only woman I trust is my mother. And even she has the tendency to tell my dad what I tell her. They seem to think it's always the "best thing to do". I also know Malaysian boys pretty well. And they too like trouble, especially when it involves girls. I can tell you 99% of fights in Malaysia have been boys fighting over girls. The other 1% being girls choosing klcc over their boyfriends.

I spent my whole life trying not to be careless.

Women and children can afford to be careless, but not men.

- Don Corleone

Not by foot, I hope!

2011-11-25T21:24:00.000+11:00

Looking at the stars always makes me dream, as simply as I dream over the black dots representing towns and villages on a map.
Why, I ask myself, shouldn’t the shining dots of the sky be as accessible as the black dots on the map of France?
Just as we take a train to get to Tarascon or Rouen, we take death to reach a star. We cannot get to a star while we are alive any more than we can take the train when we are dead. So to me it seems possible that cholera, tuberculosis and cancer are the celestial means of locomotion. Just as steamboats, buses and railways are the terrestrial means.
To die quietly of old age would be to go there on foot.

-Vincent van Gogh

No Matter What I'll Still Have This Son Of A Bitch

2011-11-17T02:58:00.000+11:00

Kenapa?

2011-11-16T01:10:00.000+11:00

bila sedih,

bila gagal,

bila ingin sesuatu,

Dia dicari.

bila gembira,

sudah berjaya,

dan mempunyai segala-galanya,

Dia diabaikan.