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Long Ago.

2010-10-21T01:29:00.001+08:00

How long has it been? Eight, nine years? I miss having a best friend all of a sudden :(

Fml.

2010-10-19T23:03:00.003+08:00

OMG!!! What in God’s name is wrong with me?! It’s like I’m forgetting almost ANYTHING that’s important!

First, I left my pliers at college and couldn’t do shit about my assignments. Then I left my hot glue gun at home which is one of the most important tool! And NOW, I left my bloody hot glue gun at college and brought the wrong tool home. I know I promised myself not to swear but…

FUCK. MY. LIFE!!!!!!

Dusty.

2010-10-19T02:40:00.002+08:00

I'ts been a long time since I touched land over here. So, it's good that 5th semester is ending soon. That means more free time for some serious updates about... Heck, I seriously lost count on all the updates I've missed out on. I'm a slacker, yes.

But WHO is Esther without procrastinations, eh? (the things I do for the slightest self-motivation...)

Speaking of colleges and what not, unfortunately, I was not able to participate in the Interior Design competition that will be held at Taylor's College. Apparently it's strictly for ID students ONLY. If you never knew, I'm a FINE ART student. Which means I only do what Michael Angelo, Picasso or Da Vinci did (Google?). Yeah so, Filzah was devastated.

I exaggerate a lot but, she was AT LEAST a little sad.

Oh well, lost that chance for a good experience but at least I'll still be helping out with some planning and some constructing. Not forgetting my full support for the girls :)

So... I guess you'll just have to wait for the next post then?

I promise I'll be posting new artworks!

Goodnight world.

Thoughts After Midnight.

2010-10-19T02:22:00.000+08:00

Every night, I think about her.

Every night, I shed a tear.

Every night, I wished I was there.

Every night, it feels so unfair.

Every night, I longed to see her die.

Every night, that feels better than to cry.

Every night, I always knew.

Every night, I knew that you lied.

Work and Flu.

2010-09-22T23:20:00.000+08:00

So Filz saw my installation work just the other day and fell in love with it. And now she's signing me up for some Interior Designing competition held by Taylor's College.

Omgosh.

Water Booger.

2010-09-18T00:00:00.005+08:00

Okay, my flu is getting worse each passing day. Now my nose is starting to leak like a frigging lose pipe! I have watery booger all over my hands. Salute and respect the next person who touches my laptop.

I Sound Like A Man Toad.

2010-09-17T22:50:00.009+08:00

You must be wondering why I've been missing in action for quite some time. My excuse(s): I took some time to visit Mount KK, been busy with work after that and now I've fallen sick.

Joy to the world.

I sound like a man toad.

And there's nothing far more exciting about getting sick RIGHT BEFORE THE DAY OF AN IMPORTANT PRESENTATION!! Not only did I miss an important event, I feel awful. I can't eat right, my eyeballs hurt, I can't go anywhere and the worst part is, I dunno if I can look fresh enough for my niece's birthday party and my cousin's wedding dinner.

ALL IN ONE DAY!

Anyhoo, with all the time in the world and mentally tired, I somehow had some funny energy to do my nails. I think I'm more sober and normal when I'm sick compared to being well and upright.

I used a dark glittery Maroon colour as the base coat and drew pink ribbons using a thin brush which I trimmed lol. Both pink and maroon nail polish that I used are from THE BODY SHOP. Not that perfect but not bad for a first timer with shaky feverish hands, eh?

And this was done using my left hand

Enough said.

Anyway, I'll be updating on some previous events and my encounter with the TALLEST MOUNTAIN IN SOUTH EAST ASIA. I can only say that the climb was a huge experience. There's the good, the bad and, well, the regrets.

Stupidest suspense ever.

So mistaaay.

31.

2010-08-31T22:43:00.001+08:00

Happy Corruption Day

Motivation Please.

2010-08-30T01:08:00.052+08:00

Only four more days till I finally get to fly to Sabah and climb the oh-so big mount KK!

Sexcitehd *groovy*

I probably did not mention anything about this before but NOW YOU KNOW LAH. It’s been ages since I wanted to go on an adventure like this one. Hiking and climbing and whatever that’s climbable! And speaking of which, mannnnn, I’ve been craving for an extreme sport like:

Rollerblading

(used to practiced everyday around my condo using my cheap skates lol)

Surfing

(there' a reason why my parents renovated their bathtub )

That cycling thingy

(I was a kampung she-rempet okay. Don't mess)

Paintball

(hard to find people who likes that)

OR ANY AWESOME OUTDOOR SPORTS FOR THAT MATTERS!

But those need some amount of money which... I no have.

*slams face on table*

Besides those, I almost, ALMOST joined the Kick Boxing club at Hartamas and the place is super duper convenient! But my dad said, “It’s too violent lah, darling. Not so appropriate.” Lawyer’s words. It was kinda expensive, either way. But there’s one that’s SUUUPAH CHEAP! RM20 PER MONTH! Guess where THAT’s located.

Notingham, tempat berulu-ulu…… *&$%#@*$#%@!!!!

Damn it! The place so far, the sport so cheap. The place so near, the sport can buy a better car than Jason Khoo.

MALAYSIA LIKE THAT PUN BOLEH! Kanasai.

And recently, Izzy, a classmate of mine, mentioned that he goes camping and hiking every once in a while. I NAK JOIN YOU WEH, PENDEK! And just recently, he came back from Malacca after spending two weeks in the jungle. Chuun-ted gilerr! Anyhoo, I’ll be leaving on the 3^rd of September, which also means I’ll be leaving before Zhe leaves for his 5 weeks gig thingy =(

It's okay Esther, it's okay.

You’re gonna enjoy the KK climb and you’re gonna join an extreme sport asap!

*pats own shoulder for motivation*

Grades and Jobs.

2010-08-28T15:43:00.001+08:00

A new semester has since started about two weeks now and well, my grades were pretty fit-ish-mouth-foaming to look at.

It’s bad.

*drops head* (same reaction as dad)

LET’S NOT FAIL AGAIN, SHALL WE. But that’s not really the hardest thing to swallow, for now. Zhe is studying mass communication and recently, he got a job for some event thingy where he will be traveling about here and there for 5 friggin weeks starting from the 7th of September to the 16th of October. That’s super duper long!

I doubt he’ll have any time to Skype either.

Well, gotta start getting use to this when he really starts working in a real job.

*deflates*

Facebook Account Disabled.

2010-08-28T14:29:00.001+08:00

I’m a horrible person for leaving my blog to die like this but I can say, if Facebook was an actual person in real life, he / she would be a cold, heartless and sadistic human being!

I, Esther Ng Jia En, had literally put all, and I mean ALL my good memories into that social network! Memories like, photos of friends, families, events, whatnot and those pictures really, really, really mean a lot to me!

So the other day, when I tried logging in into my Facebook account, I couldn’t believe what read before my eyes.

Disabled?? DISABLED?!?!?!?!

How in God’s name is my account even disabled?!?!?!

At first, I thought my account got hacked in, so the obvious reaction would be checking with Facebook Help / Guide thing. But it wasn’t much of a help either. The whole time I just kept clicking “NO” whenever they asked, “Was this answer helpful?” After clicking a dozen of unhelpful links, I just decided to send Facebook an email instead.

And so, I followed what they asked, yada yada yada, waited in anxiety for a few days and today, they FINALLY replied after what seemed like a million years. But I gotta say though,

IT. WAS. NOT. PRETTY.

Bah! Nonsense! Even though if it was useless replying that email, I bloody well just did it anyway for the sake of stopping myself from stomping or jumping up and down on my lap top. And since when did I ever go against those policies?! It’s ridiculous! And the weird thing was, when I tried finding my account by typing my email, this popped up:

MY OLD FRIENDSTER ACCOUNT

where the heck did that come from!?

When I look at his account, tak best weh. My name's nowhere to be seen and over the days, people has been asking me whether I deleted them from my Friend List =(

Worst has come to worst, I’ll have to create a new account. THIS IS HARD, MAN! And I worked SO HARD to upgrade my Baking Life game!!! I had the biggest bakery and almost reached my goal in making half a million coins for it!!!

I don’t really have anything to put two and two together to say this, but on the other hand, my account might have been flagged or reported… maybe? Ugh. This is so mind-f......

*fits*

*starts foaming at the mouth*

KANASAI !!

2010-08-24T23:04:00.002+08:00

MY FACEBOOK ACCOUNT HAS BEEN HACKED, DELETED AND DISAPPEARED INTO THIN AIR!!!

*POOF*

JUST LIKE THAT!!

WHATTHEMOTHERFATHERUNCLEAUNTYDOGCATKANGAROOFROGSNAILKUIHCABAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#@$%^%^%#@@#$%^AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GOODAY!

2010-08-19T23:56:00.007+08:00

Of course people do change. How long has it been? 1, 2 years? Miss the little friendship we had. But I'll appreciate it if you just stop bragging about your slumber parties.

I swear there was a pun in it.

Giberish.

2010-08-14T23:29:00.002+08:00

I had no idea all those were complaints. Maybe I should start doing the...

... treatment.

So sit back, relax and enjoy. Pfft, what else can I say? It's all complaints to you, no?

Thoughts After Midnight.

2010-08-14T03:36:00.003+08:00

Would you compare yourself to someone else and feel degraded in exchange for a big push of motivation to reach that certain goal?

Would I or should I?

ROFL.

2010-08-14T01:18:00.008+08:00

Just the other day I was watching WHEN IN ROME. I would say, it was one of the most clichés comedy romance movies ever. Still, I continued watching for the sake of clearing my oh-so-itchy cravings for my eyeballs pleasure, which happens every now and then and it’s starting to feel like a disorder.

I rated it just about 5 over 10. And that is generosity in a good way.

Simply because:

ONE.

It was somehow, in a weird way, entertaining when spotting Kristen Bell’s unshakable boobs. And all those low cut dresses were just TOO DISTRACTING. Even Henry couldn’t stop giggling.

TWO.

Everyone, meet Kate Miccuci.

I developed extra laugh lines when I saw Kate Miccuci for the first time in this movie. It was just... lol. She reminds you of this familiar face, doesn’t she? Legendary.

I guess adding a 0.5 wouldn’t be THAT bad, eh?

Red Head.

2010-08-06T03:03:00.003+08:00

AFTER ALL THIS WHILE, INSPIRATION HAS HIT EARTH!

No, it's just my head.

I was just too lazy, actually. Couldn't bring myself together to get a frame for my canvas. Hey, all the way to Subang. With train and buses! Don't mess.

Anyhoo, it's in process at the moment, so you'll just have to wait a tiny bit till it's done. I'll keep you posted!

Whoever's.... reading....?

PY and Nails.

2010-08-03T02:41:00.016+08:00

Weird.

Coincidentally, Pui Yan and I :

- Were too very bored virtually bumming around.
- Had our nails done.
- Were on Facebook bragging about it.
- Decided to take pictures.
- Had the same mind set a minute ago.

VOILA!

Coincidentally, we had a ring on our finger too. Does my fingers look stumpier here? :(

Aimless Fools.

2010-08-01T17:59:00.011+08:00

It sucks to wait for 6 frigging hours all the way at Sunway Coll. Imagine the guy being late instead of the girl. Nope, he doesn’t know I waited that long and no, he doesn’t know I slept in my classroom while waiting.

Ah well,

THAT’S HOW LOVE FLOWS. BEING PATIENT WITH EACH OTHER DESPITE HOW MUCH YOU WANNA BITE THE PERSON’S HEAD OFF AND SMILE IN SATISFACTION AS YOU WITNESS RED SPAGETHI SAUCE SQUIRTING IN ALL DIRECTIONS…. yeah…. wtf.

Anyway, to cut the long story short, we decided to take the train back to Mid Valley for reasons you don’t need to know because it involves Najib.

No, not really.

But you get my point.

While on the train, Zhe and I were *coughcoughgossipingcough* about *coughschoolteacherscoughcough* and I noticed this sign that was stuck on the window. Only one caught all my attention.

DILARANG BERKELAKUAN SUMBANG

No Indecent Behaviour

We looked at each other....

*snap*

Ultimate sexy rebels, eh eh eh?

Love this sound effect.

OH! OH! OH! There was another LOVE incident that took place at Mid Valley's McDonalds opposite the cinema. It was this couple who was seated behind our table, who kept on rubbing their noses against each other’s noses, heads stuck to each other and looking into each other’s eyes as if they were looking deeper and DEEPER into each other’s SOULS. It took them FOREVER to separate!

I swear they would have made babies with burgers and fries, there and then.

Don't get me wrong. I love lovey dovey moments but I just happen to prefer acting stupid with my blonde partner more lol. Ah well, those were the days when you first lay eyes for the first few times on him or her, the world just disappears….

Now, it's just running around shopping malls like fools, poking each other's butts and screaming "YOU STOOPIT".

Definitely considering today as one of those good moments to remember. Even if it was just walking aimlessly, nibbling on fatty food, reading books together or chatting over meals. It’s good having a gay partner. Just like a man appreciating his other half (of his wiener) every precious moment.

Ah, good times, good times.

*nods solemnly*

"Love teaches even asses to dance."
- French Proverb -

Pick - A - Boo.

2010-07-31T01:17:00.005+08:00

I was in da ZOOONE baby!

And totally forgot that my webcam was on.

Basketball At Nottingham.

2010-07-30T20:58:00.005+08:00

There's nothing much I can do for my holidays for now. So I decided, hey, why not tag along with Henry to his ulu college, Nottingham, that's in the middle of NOWHERE.

Awesome.

I have officially become one of those bored ass Malaysians.

Gotta say though, the campus was huge. But with the college in the middle of somewhere / nowhere / whatever, it was like right in the middle of an open field. No shade, blazing hot sun pouring down on you, die.

But as the sun went down, the sky turned beautiful :)

THERE'S NOTHING BETTER THAN A COOL EVENING ON A SUNNY B[removed] DAY!

Henry tried, TRIED, to pop lock. It's okay Henry. It's okay.

After all those pressure, they managed second placing. Not bad for freshman year, eh? And people thinking I was Henry's new life partner, not helping, man.

Congrats :D

Pretty Ugly.

2010-07-28T19:02:00.084+08:00

I think I know how I fell into my own black hole that happened some time ago. I'm guessing it's because of this painting here. Hm.

Who knew painting something that's full of... shall we say, UNPLEASANT stuff could change someone's mood just like that. You're probably wondering what the heck am I mumbling about but TRUE STORY! The painting made me depressed. Yeah, I know, PFFT SERIOUSLY?!

Seriously.

If you noticed, I never, NEVER called anyone ugly. But I somehow lost my mind that day trying to create a picture of someone by using different pictures from different angles.

And then I distort the face.
In the most ugliest gruesome way ever.

But by somewhat, I just stopped. I was really determine to see the end result but something just kept me from being motivated. So, in the end I just decided to paint another picture over it.

I'm weird like that.

Goodbye beautiful lady.

Nandos Competition.

2010-07-27T19:31:00.016+08:00

Now I hope none of you have forgotten about the Nandos competition I was talking about weeks ago. The exhibition was held at 1 Utama that day. It was SO EARLY IN THE MORNING that not many people were there to witness the art event. Disappointingly, I didn't win anything. Moreover, none of us won anything. But what really ticked my classmate and I off that day was when we arrived at the opening ceremony, MAJORITY OF THE ARTWORKS HAD CHICKEN AND CHILIES ON IT!

We were SPECIFICALLY told that the judges clearly stated that this year, there will NOT be any necessity to include any pictures of CHICKEN or CHILLIES to describe the title, HERITAGE. But lo and behold, we saw everything with the little annoying feathered friend and chillies. But that wasn't the only main pissing point.
The JUDGES chose the artworks with those 2 infamous ELEMENTS. Awesome. Ah well, what did I even expect getting anything with 3 naked chicks posing on my canvas anyway. Bah!

This was one of the most detail work presented. See the frame of the artwork? It's detail in INK, as in PEN INK. Very good work.

Spot the Aunty.

Over and over AGAIN, we artist always say NEVER TOUCH THE ARTWORK! HELLOOOO WOMAN!

See that artwork right in the middle of this picture? IT'S A FRIGGIN HUGE ASS CHICKEN! Made of PLASTIC. But i gotta say that the artist was creative folding the plastic into a shape of that. Pssh, lucky bum.

Ah yes, Nando's actually served us with THEIR food after the whole event thing. Now imagine my smiling face turning into a frown, muttering "IT SUCKED". Only the salad was good though. Huh.

Aaaand the moment we've all been waiting for!

Not really.

*drum roll*

The GRAND PRIZE WINNER of Nandos 2010 goes to THIS gigantic CHICKEN stamp!

Yeah i know. The CHICKEN again. But i gotta hand it to this guy, man. He's was LAST YEAR'S winner, okay. Don't mess.

What he created was this huge 'stamp' that was made out of the canvas itself and, if i'm not mistaken, he used this ink called BITUMEN that gives a shade of that old looking brown colour. Plus i think he added a little bit of some coffee maybe? Hm.

And for the drawing would be definitely ink. Trust me, it looks like it's printed from here but if you took a step CLOSER to it, wow.

So... I wonder where my three ladies are. Up till today, I honestly never took it back. Yet. Was kinda disappointed but we'll see what happens next year.

Cheerio.

I sound so pissed with chickens and chillies here :(

Branded.

2010-07-27T02:14:00.017+08:00

I'm building a new me.

Tuesday 1:07 AM.

2010-07-27T00:48:00.003+08:00

I would rather consider today as the day where I have mind-fucked, will mind-fuck and will keep mind-fucking myself, till the very day where…. I think I’ll just keep the mind-fucking business going till God knows when.

“Why so?”

Because I slipped, knocked my head on some hard cement words and realized I just couldn’t be bothered.

I never really cared about what people thought of what I do, what I chose, what I feel or what I love. Zero interest. But I just wanna spit at your face and spell out:

“ Y-O-U-A-R-E-W-R-O-N-G ”

Simply because,

The moment I stepped out of your car, I stepped out of this conversation.
The moment I stepped out of this conversation, I stepped out of your life.

Straight forward, neat and simple.

There will be a few editing here and there and of course, any sparks for a conversation or whatsoever, will have none of my interest.

Nothing.