my life after Near Death Experiences

I tell stories

2022-03-01T18:22:00.004-05:00

Storytelling! I am a Storyteller by nature. I come by this way as I think in metaphors and analogies. Jesus might call this "parables". I keep discovering, you all, that most listeners tend to think in literal examples. "Facts, *please*", they tell me! No! "Facts" are but leaves on a tree. Each leaf is a fact. Very few sense the twigs and branches that connect each leaf to another leaf. Our human race is a huge tree and all of the ideas in the collective consciousness are linked together. Linked together through the collective unconsciousness. Take for an example the Invasion of the Capital on January 6th. I see a cat in heat, out in the yard and there are maybe ten tomcats trying to impregnate her. Only one will win out! Now...just *what* does this cat idea have to do with the capital invasion, you all might could ask! *everything* I have linked the two examples together through a kind of analogy-story. See, this group of people were trying to enter the building to overthrow the current administration in order to place their own ideas onto the Chair of Power. There are also probably hundreds of groups of people who also would like to do this but they do not have the numbers or the warrior mentality to do so. The environmentalists would *love* to get someone elected who is one with their beliefs. The vegans, the Fundamentalists, the 352 groups who interpret the Constitution in 352 ways, and who knows who else, they are "tomcats" trying to Get In! Seeing life as unconnected "leaves" doth not make for Understanding. Little wonder there are so many diverse opinions on politics these days! Each leaf of that tree IS different from each other and the only unifying factor are those twigs and branches. Seven blind men touch the elephant in seven different places and one man says an elephant is rough skin. Another person says an elephant is a long tube with two holes at the smaller end. Yet another says that an elephant is a big foot. Each person is 100% correct and they will correctly argue their point. They, however, cannot sense the Greater Elephant. I have great trouble, people, talking with anyone who senses only one reality, in, say, politics. Problem is...they are utterly correct in their belief. NO! Not "belief", they are utterly correct in their Knowing! "Constitution interpretation number 89 IS the one true way". Period. Correct. Do not argue. If we all cannot see this "elephant" of our politics problems, someday a Strong Man might could appear and he could bull his way into the inner chamber and win the cat-in-heat intercourse! Society cannot function in a vacuum with 300+ million leaves and precious few branches! One man could cut the Gordian Knot with one stroke. Called "authoritarian Dictatorship"!

There is criticism and then there is Ranting.

2021-01-29T19:45:00.037-05:00

---from my own facebook newsfeed.

Wow!

I trolled down my newsfeed now, about 7 pm eastern. I am AMAZED at all of the political posts! If I found one that was not such, the post was an ad for something. Maybe too, a soulless post of just a photo of flowers and "cute" bunnies nearby.

Was not that these political posts were political, it was the *tone* that got me. They all usually had an Edge to them. Like the knives could come out at any moment. there seems to be no middle ground: either *this* or *that*. Mud is thrown like from a firehose. I can well understand how families have broken up over this. the Unfriend Button must be in great use these days, here. Even posts like where I write about old Interlaken town where I grew up, has a profound unreality to it! Unreality, like of me writing about the pretty black color on your mother's dead face as when you and I come into her home and then find her dead on the floor face-up from a heart attack six hours ago. Like I am "supposed" to join the fray! writing about something "positive" is like singing a joyful tune at the Funeral!

The old saying from the 70s holds: "if you are not angry and enraged, you *just* do not know what is really going on! I can take my own power saw and then rip into anyone in politics! Take even Biden! look at his kids! look at all of the squirmy deals they made and let us hope Father Biden did not get involved, back then!

Or "let the immigrants come in"! yeah. soon Migration history will come true, south and central America and other Hispanic countries rush to the border and soon we have 200,000,000 new Hispanics. All well and good, perhaps, but *you*, anglo, will become a minority having to adapt to a Spanish culture! perhaps it is the TONE that defines politics writing, and in complaining in general! One can state something intelligently with feelings, or one can just rant with negative energy! Negative energy sticks with you long after the rant finishes and slowly this negativeness becomes your very soul! Once that happens, then everything you say or even do is contaminated with a bad vibe!

As the Beetles song said, "you can feel his disease"! you could enter a room with a sleeping baby and then the baby awakes and then cries if you have such a negative soul. Some people can walk into a room with a crying baby and the baby stops crying. I like the story of the guy who used to walk past a certain house nearly three days a week and eventually got to know the owner, talking through the screen door. One day this owner invited this man inside and as both sat down, one of his two cats came over to be petted. Then the second cat came over to also be petted by the newcomer. the owner was in shock!! He says that this second cat ALWAYS runs under the bed when *any* stranger or even my friends enter the house and why is it that he comes to you on your very first indoors visit?! That *never* happens.

Strive to have Vibrations and auras like that person!!

2021-01-18T09:15:00.003-05:00

testing the extra large size.

2021-01-18T09:13:00.004-05:00

A photo taken over 10 years ago from the 11th floor of "Georgia Belle" where I used to live, an independant senior residence here in Tallahassee. Looks like a forest, eh? Well, the tree canopy is so thick that under all of these trees are houses. You cannot see them very well. I have heard that a tree grows in 7 years where a similar tree takes 20 years to grow to the same size in the US Northern states!

Reality check.

2021-01-16T18:56:00.004-05:00

I want a reality check. here are my pageviews as of january 16th. I think that I will now post more on my blog. 235,720 freestone

Aliens incarnating on planet earth

2020-04-28T09:01:00.001-04:00

hi all.

I had a very Interesting dream last night! a Voice dictated to
me something that I have never heard or, read of, or even
suspected. Explains some things about the currant political
climate too!

[my Message does not necessarily reflect my own beliefs! I
give the message as best that I can recall, in this 10 to 20
minute monologue that I heard last night]

the Adarians.
[that is my name for them. the pronouncing of the name was
not quite like what is printed here.]

The Adrarians. They are a race from Adararia, another planet
in the galaxy. The planet had very recently suffered
something rare, a wipeout due to an asteroid strike! As a
result, most of the race died out and they all went to their own
heavens. Reincarnation, for them, is now impossible! Thus
the Galactic masters had to do a "farming out" to other
planetary systems. A number of other planets had to take up
these survivors.
[think: a new factory opens up in your small town and they
hire 100 people and most come from other towns. In your 8th
grade, suddenly 10 new kids arrive. These kids now will be
with you until graduation. Welcome them in!]
the earth is one of these planets that is being asked to take
in some of these souls. They began to incarnate here at
some ???? time ago. Now today, there are even more coming
in. eventually the percentage of Adarians will be from 10 to 20
percent!
They are not coming to conquer, or to rule. They are much
more "needy" than authoritative. Oh the adjustments they
have to make!
One of the major reasons whey there is, was, a dispensation
of Spirit upon the earth plane, in the 1970s and beyond, is so
that these souls could get the Christ Impulse into them!
Natively, their cultural evolution growth rate and cultural
changes was far far slower than ours. [as if stream trains
lasted for 1000 years and windows 7 would last for 100 years
before windows 10 came onto the scene.] These incoming
souls, then, are very very conservative and resist all change
mightedly! Not all of them are so, but many.
[this could explain some of our "Diversity" problems in
politics! the radical right and the white supremacists too.]

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oh boy! up to one out of five people. All of this on top of our
own problems! Something like your dementia mother is in the
nursing home and then this home goes out of business and
she now has to come back to live with your family. You have
to caregive her on top of raising your three children! Husband
threatens a divorce. You have to quit your own job as she
needs 24/7 care!
The human race, in turn, will change too; I have little idea as
to how. Many older souls will "Ascend" and never come back
to reincarnate. Thus the earthplane will have lots of younger
souls plus these Adarians.
"Ascend", does not mean "never to reincarnate"! Ascension
means that after you die, *you* do not reincarnate as your
oversoul sends down the next incarnation, you remain in
heaven as a fully functioning entity and you become a guide
for your incarnation.
[White Eagle, or some other beloved master Indian guide,
speaking through a lady medium to her class; after teaching
session the students asked questions. One student asked,
"who were you, White Eagle, in your previous incarnation"?
the answer shocked everyone!! he replied, "my previous
incarnation is the present incarnation, which is the lady
medium that i am speaking through.". He is a guide to her.
---like a large limb of a tree sends down a branch to the
ground, like of a banyan tree, you are still up there on the
limb, though. you guide the soul on the ground but that you
are not "in it"!]

the "ascension section" was also part of the message.

*This* might explain why so many people have gotten dreams
of end times and asteroids and of other end time events.
These events happened in their PAST on that planet Adarian!
[I wonder if there are also *other* immigrant souls from other
planets too!

freestone

spring break kids could bring Virus back to everyone!

2020-03-19T09:40:00.000-04:00

""Some young spring breakers insist the party’s on and they’re planning to keep at it despite pleas from health authorities to help stop the spread of the coronavirus.

“If I get corona, I get corona,” Brady Sluder, an Ohio resident on spring break in Florida, told Reuters. “At the end of the day, I’m not gonna let it stop me from partying.”

He was hardly alone.

Others also told reporters they just wanted to party:

CBS News
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@CBSNews
“If I get corona, I get corona. At the end of the day, I'm not gonna let it stop me from partying”: Spring breakers are still flocking to Miami, despite coronavirus warnings. https://cbsn.ws/33sb67i""

https://www.yahoo.com/huffpost/coronavirus-spring-break-075047804.html
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freestone says.....
there is a nurse at my facility. in the middle of the week, she says that friday [13th] she is taking next week off to go to spring break in Panama city, florida. what struck me was the intense glow on her face as she said this! like for her this trip is Life Itself! like the only reality worth living for!

these kids would go even if they had to be brought there on a ambulance gurney!

thousands, of kids from colleges and high schools from all over the country, partying, meeting, dancing, packed, in clubs and on the beach. then all go back home.
do these people ever consider the ramifications if they come back and get sick? do they consider being the Infector for all of their relatives and friends? a nurse coming back then infecting a whole nursing home?! a guy coming back to his small rural town and then partying with his friends who did not go, even as the local school has shut down, 30 other kids are then exposed!. how many could die from this virus, due to a "kid" coming back home?
me? if and when they "release" me from my building and then Release me from the Oaks campus, where a friend could take me to panera coffee shop on a busy saturday again, *would* I want to go? suppose i pick up the virus or even just a cold, i would bring it back to my nursing home facility, I do not want to be the Instigator there. I might not want a saturday trip until the vaccine is made, tested, and ready, then everyone in my building get the shots! perhaps a weekday trip to coffee shop, out on the patio would be the only social trip that I would make until maybe 2021 summer!

I did this in 1957!
I and two other boys went to the Boy Scout Jamboree. 50,000 boys from all over the world. that spring the "Asian Flu" had begun in china and a few cases were already here in the usa. I came back home. I immediately got sick with a flu, 20 hours a day in bed asleep, at the family lakeside cottage!
the beauty of the lakeside was lost to me. for a week i did this. the two other boys also got sick! that fall, when everyone in Interlaken got the Asian flu, i did not get it. so us three boys brought that flu back to interlaken!! from that Jamboree, of course. the perfect Disimminator!
the spring break will be also the Disimminator. from even coastal new england to south Texas, the beaches will be full of high school and college kids. a club might have 60 dancers, dancing for hours, each kid from a different city, breathing onto everyone. touching, hugging, and slightly drunk, thus no hand washing or distancing. just *one* kid with the virus in that club alone, could infect hundreds!

I read today florida now has 328 cases. many of the new cases are from the new testing protocol. they ALREADY had the virus but were not yet sick yet. some might never get sick but will spread it. thus probably there are kids who would test positive who are now partying! soon they all will return back to where they came from. the testing only has just begun, thus there probably are hundreds more people out there in florida who would test positive!

be ready for virus to come to your hometown soon!

the Reality of the coronavirus

2020-03-15T09:52:00.000-04:00

The Ironic reality of this Virus Time. And what each of us should DO about this new reality!

Read below what the News has been saying to us for the last year or so....
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The need for company, love, and support is not something that diminishes as we grow older. In fact, a healthy social life is particularly important for seniors.
Why Socializing Matters
Healthy relationships are necessary at every age, but the importance of socialization for seniors cannot be overemphasized. Consistent social interactions help keep people mentally, physically and emotionally fit. Of course, they also fend off the difficulties inherent to isolation and make our lives feel more meaningful in an overall sense.
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Today’s children are growing up with screens at their fingertips. They have never had to live without smartphones, tablets or the internet. But studies show that too much screen time can have a negative impact on children. Their brains can actually change, according to The American Academy of Pediatrics. While smart devices can help improve your child’s education, too much time can be damaging.
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There are now nursing homes where not only are no relatives allowed to ever visit, they cannot even socialize within themselves! Not even to eat in the dining room together.
"Screen time" now is becoming vital for us all. "Telecommuting" and 9-12 grades and universities shut down so that the only way to "attend" is to use screens.

Ironic, isn't it?
And this might be the Reality for many months!

A doctor just now reports on CNN that he preferred to have lived in China as they handled the epidemic better. There, many people stayed in their homes and only out for two hours a day and only to go buy food at one type of grocery store. We all, here, should have done the same! A cold hard shutdown 100%.
We did not!

So now we are. Even the golf master's tournament is being delayed.

What we all should do now is to stop everything. Do not go out. Eat alone, a table for *each* person in the household 3 to 6 feet apart. Social distancing to the max. Screen time to the max. Only Designated stores open. No more then three people together at one time and six apart at that. No hugs, no handshakes. No movies, parties, sports, stores, schools.

We each should now be like"Monks in a Cell, in a *severe* monastery". As like in Like "Trappist".
Alone.

I repeat: *A*lone !!

Alone to meditate and to Commune with God.
Or...and.......on just What?

As this time is 2020, the beginning of the next decade, each of us should meditate upon just *what* each of us wants for America! Do we want "to make America great again" in the way Trump envisions?
----develop those national parks into mineral resources. Strip mines and oil! Public lands too.
----the Amazon rain forest area should be developed into cities and farms and mines.
---embrace the sale of African animal body parts to China. One Rhino horn can pay the wages of a park ranger for life, if he kills one rhino and sells the horn!
Do we want $200,000 make-over kitchens? Does one *need* another million $$$ after one made the first million $$$ ?

We are killing the planet [and ourselves]with our greed, materialism for its own sakes, and power/control.

Who do we elect for president to be the spokes person for this new times?
When school teachers cannot afford to live in the city of their schools, and one of the prettiest cities in the country is filled with 100,000 homeless, and untold thousands are still awaiting fixes for the hurricane Michael homes, children are not seen as safe to go out and play, anymore; who do we elect and what kind of politics should we have? Maybe we all should learn to embrace a form of socialism!
Then even deeper, each of us should ask Questions about our lives, what do we each live *for*? What is the meaning of life, thusly! To make lots of money? For more power and control? To ignore morals and ethics?

In these Times, a Master Teacher has walked into the classroom, displacing the old regular teacher. He carries an apple in one hand, symbolizing love and encouragement for the students and in the other hand he carries a long switch stick, a stick to whip the butts, spanking, till it bleeds, if he needs to!
Listen to the Children, often they are the first to tell us What Is Going On, and what to do about it!
THE SNOWFLAKE CHILDREN! Greta Thunberg. This is *not* just about climate change and environmentalism though! It is about True equality of opportunity for everyone. Sharing, Love, goodness, Truth...the children cry!

----and I read an advertising man write that "Children;s playtime is a resource to precious to waste. We should start brand identity at the earliest age, to have every single toy be branded such that brand loyalty is set at that early age!"! [we mine even our children to satisfy our $$$ urges! We ruin our kids in order to keep us going more into Riche$.

"TOUGH LOVE" is to be his curriculum.
He pastes a large sheet of paper upon the wall behind his desk for all to see.
The Ten Commandments is what is on it! Next to this sheet is a second sheet, listing many of the sayings of Jesus, like "do unto others as ye want others to do unto you"!

If he does not affect these students, there are other teachers awaiting in the faculty lounge. Mr Yellowstone volcano. Mrs asteroid. Mr world war III. Ms Pole Shift. Mr pandemic with a 60% kill rate!
There is a mural-like painting on the lounge wall. "The four horsemen of the apocalypse" is its name.

Freestone

2020-02-28T09:25:00.001-05:00

there is a commenter who seems bent on posting to *every* article that I write.

""XXXX has left a new comment on your post "we are losing our way":

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Wow! this is Amazing! Do you know your hidden name meaning ? [click here to find your hidden name meaning.]''"

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I have seen him comment on maybe ten posts now and for weeks.

there is no way to block the site.

do you all wonder why churches are now locked or even have fences around them? why many people now do not answer directly their phones?

the lowest common denominator of our society sets the tone for all of us. used to be the very best people set the standards for everyone to follow.

freestone

will the end times be delayed?

2019-12-24T18:35:00.000-05:00

hi all.

I had a dream last week, a strange sort of dream where a sheet of paper was held up for me to read. As i read it, I followed a voice narration; someone was reading this news sheet to me.
[of course much of this narration is now from my memory, and I have to put some of it into my own words.]
He bagan, at first, to describe people that he called "the Elites". He expounded on this, that these people are at the top of society, the movers and shakers and the managers. government officials, top CEOs, sports stars, etc. then he focused on how many of these people are virtually soul less. the rule with materialism, sex, power control, in mind!
He then talked about the "illuminated" people. [his word]. could mean several things. he meant, i think, those old souls who are Awaked to the Inner spirit and are in touch with their High Selves. he spoke then about that there are many more coming into incarnation at this time, coming to try to turn the tide against the materialism of this age.
he then spoke of how at a *certain* time, very close in the future, where there will be a ??? event that will wipe out all of these materialistic elites. all at once, a crisis point for the human race. within only a year or three!
He then said that the more of these illuminated old souls that there are, the better the outcome for all of us.
[they are like beacons of light, lighting up the world.]
however, he says, that it takes time to Illuminate these young people! they have to grow up and become wise, first. thus, he says, that the present old souls are helping the young illuminated souls, just by being here, affecting their aura at a distance.
*then* came the small bombshell, people!
----that they are now going to push this "end times" ???? event[s] further ahead into the future! to give us all more time. to get more and more illuminated souls to become "ripe", in my own words. to get more souls to become Awakened to inner spirit.
*then* he more or less gives a kind of "challenge" to me, a kind of "clarion call" to any and all older souls. to have us all pray to the Lord and to our each High selves, to ask if it might be best if one were to live longer on earth, then one would have had the time set to die, at birth!!
[I chose to Ask. subsequent dreams then told me that i *could* live at least another six more years, from my 78 years old, presently; then be ready to have more extension, if needed!] not everyone, maybe, will need to live longer then their high self Allotted time to live. but some could! thus i have to ask you all: to those who might have been told that they are to leave the earth very soon, to reconsider! to consider volunteering for a few or even many more years here on earth so to help the entire human race evolve in spirit. a Grand Christmas Gift, then; *US*! the end times is to be delayed a few more years. "few more years", though, might even mean 10 to 30 years more! those of you who are like 30 years old and feel that you will leave soon, might find out to now to live until you are 95 years old, to become the Wise Old Woman or the "ascended-while-on-earth", man.
so some of us would indeed become "Gifts" to the lower evolved of us, by helping more and more old souls Activate their inner high selves.
for when the Harvest time will come, there will be many "ripe apples". alas, some of elite-apples will never get ripe, no matter how long the extension is or how many old souls that there are to Radiate to them!

merry christmas....freestone

meth and why people might be using it!

2019-11-20T09:55:00.002-05:00

""“We are dealing with a very, very complex public health and national security crisis that we've never seen in this country, in regards to the drug trafficking and the types of drugs that are getting into the communities of America,” Derek Maltz, former head of the DEA’s Special Operations Division, told Yahoo Finance. “Methamphetamine is exploding all over America, not just South Dakota. Methamphetamine is being produced in the ton quantities in very large-scale laboratories by the Mexican cartels.” "
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freestone says.....yet more attempts, alas, to remove a vine by cutting off one leaf a week! no one seems to be addressing *why* people do drugs!

a Hint as to why:
back in the very early 70s, marijuana, "grass" and LSD were being used by the hippies. they were using these drugs to expand their awareness, to Raise Consciousness. But later I saw grass and LSD being used to *dull* consciousness! to relieve the Pain of living, perhaps. LSD also became just a recreational drug. another way to dull the emotional pain. "raising consciousness" has a terrible side effect! one becomes much more aware of one's emotional pain!

once upon a time, wine was used for...."a jug of wine and Thou"! "Thou, here means "God"!
commune with God? not today! used as a baseball bat to knock oneself over the head, to again remove the pain.

so lets ask the question: what is it that is so missing in the lives of people that they want to relieve this pain of living. Thus in a sense these drugs are the very most highest state of happyness that they can get to!!
our modern age, too, just makes one more aware of one's own psychological pains and giving us not so many ways of overcoming this pain!

no job. no future. gray skies forever, a terrible childhood......what would *you* do?!

if you remove these drug cartels, more will spring up to replace them. and yet more....
in a terrible sense thusly, i sort of admire them, the cartels, , as they provide a desperately needed service to so many people!
Thus, in order to stop people from using these drugs, one must somehow get people to find a way to be really happy, and not just superficial happiness either; this happyness must enter their very soul and spirit!

*a* Solution: real spirituality! not just some guilt inducing fundamentalism either! a personal Jesus within, perhaps.
*a* solution: real counselings!

also, i "blame" somewhat the "Liberal Left", here, for this drug problem!
the left wants to remove nearly all reasons for living! every icon and religion to be taken away. remove the family, remove the reasons for work and personal advancement. not even songs sung in schools due to offensiveness to some people. maybe the only purpose in life, left, is to make lots of money! thus the Left is really supporting CAPITALISM!

we are losing our way

2019-10-23T09:33:00.001-04:00

https://finance.yahoo.com/news/deaths-of-despair-why-this-group-of-americans-has-higher-mortality-rates-130633528.html?.tsrc=fauxdal

Certain American men are dying 'deaths of despair'

“Significant sectors of our society are dying prematurely from preventable deaths (deaths of despair) and almost 20% of prime aged males are out of the labor force,” according to a recent Brookings report, “Geography of Desperation in America.”"

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the map shows the states. its the same states with high level of drug use. people left behind. no college degree. too old at 50, no one hires them.
---freestone is playing the violin dirge as he writes this!

in times of radical changes, the "safety net" is now too too small to catch many people. there probably has been more change per year, now, for a number of years, then in most of recorded history, outside of major wars and disasters! the only historical similar, is maybe "bleak street" of Dickinson London, where the city filled with homeless men because the industrial revolution put them out of work.

the other side of the "pincher" is how we measure Success as $ucce$$. and even if someone were not to worship the all mighty dollar, society has it set up where very few can live without much money! so people are forced to put money ahead of everything else.
in the 50s, i knew of a man who owned a lake side cottage.. he made this place look really pretty, he "still fished" a lot. Still fishing, in a Finger lake, in upstate new york, meant that one would sit still in a boat and anchor 20 feet off shore and just sit there with a drop line or pole, maybe for hours. he would enjoy the still lake and the open sky. today?? power ski and jet ski and powerboating rules. quick and fast. if you join up, be prepared to spend big bucks! then too, today, the taxes on that cottage will be very high. then the environment rules on the sewer system. gotta keep this place up to expen$ive code$!
In my school, 1st grade through 12, all in one building, the two janitors , i think, worked there for all of their work lives. no wives had to work in my 1000 people hometown. some people drove to the factory town nearby and worked for 10 to 30 years. no more! the school now is super-consolidated, the factories are gone.
there seems to be little to *replace* this materialism money-is-all, way of life.

we all might be in the middle of a transition period between this materialistic way of life to a ???? maybe more spiritual way of life. the old is going away but the new has yet to arrive.

yet to arrive! but! even if this new way were to arrive, most people have not developed any appreciation of it! nor do most want to, they are still on that older bus and will not get off! having no job nor money is only at the other end of the stick of materialism. our materialistic way of life is not-so-slowly ruining the planet!

"if the new way were to arrive"? our schools have not taught any "other than materialism", for a number of years. our children need to be inspired and nowadays, imagination is not what is taught. nothing that develops souls, are taught. "common core" and other data-driven curriculum subjects rule.

materialism. Things and Money and self-ego-power-control, count for all! to have this or not to have this, is the same thing! the have-nots are still caught in the materialism trap! and again, our schools do not teach that there are other ways to appreciate life!
--take a teenager today. he or she is on a trip and "selfies" are maybe the only interest. they walk by historical displays, nature scenes, art gallery shows, and the schools have not planted the needed seeds into the souls! so there is little soul language present for the visitor to appreciate *with*!

we are way behind the curriculum curve! we *should* have, by now, developed our souls far more. most of us did not, do not. for instance, a tiny instance: we drive straight to our "vacation" of two weeks, on the interstate. death! no looking to the right or left. might as well travel in a box. get there as fast as possible. in europe, i read, people have a month off. most of us never even take the two weeks.
a man once told me that he works 80 hours a week. he then said that he would only sit around and watch tv, so he might as well get paid for his breathing! no development of anything else! way way behind what could be possible.

so what *is* this new way to come?!
development of our souls! development of Spirituality based on living with God!

maybe we should look at the christian mystics. the spiritual poets and other artists. not only present ones, but mystic people from even the 1700s to present. read what they say should be a life of soul and spirit.

https://swedenborg.com/
emanuel swedenborg.

https://www.rsarchive.org/
Rudolf Steiner.

but why go look at esoteric mystic, who often speak in a language where few can understand?
why not go to the very Source,
Jesus Christ and the rest of the Bible! not to just read the Bible and to read the Jesus teachings, but to apply the teachings to one's life! to live as to how Jesus would want you to live. His Kingdom , for instance, is not of this material world.
salvation. to have Him as your inner guide. His values are anything but our collective values of today!

freestone

the secret of Happiness!

2019-10-20T09:50:00.001-04:00

"The secret of happiness is not doing what one likes to do but in liking what one has to do."! ----this saying comes from some spiritual teacher. I was reminded just this morning about this. here at my senior facility, besides the regular nurses, there are the meal servers and the low level CNAs, CNAs who do the low level stuff, then the housekeeping staff too. sometimes these people are grumpy and even a bit ornery. I can feel why. they do not like their job and they feel stuck there and they cannot find a "better" job. Better. maybe they lack the degree or the skills. maybe they do not want to move to cold Chicago where they know no one but the pay for this same job is so much better. so these people come to work with a resentment attitude, sometimes. too, they bring all of their home problems with them. like perhaps two kids and no husband. Mother is living with them and she has dementia. her own health is not so good. etc...etc.... to "better oneself"! to me, this kind of "bettering" is not what feels right, to me! for me, and i am too often guilty of the very thing that i am to describe, here, that "bettering" has to do with a Bettering of the soul and Spirit. and applying this to life. one should try to do the job better, more happily, instead of holding resentments. to be not only happy, not only doing the very best that one can, but to , more so, try to make the people that you serve, happy too! [too many of us treat life like the Interstate highway! the goal is only what is counting and no looking side to side! its the journey not the goal that we all should do!] this bettering one's self, this phrase, has an "ego" sound to it. me me me, all about me. I do not mean this, here! I find that often i feel the happiest if i do or say something that makes someone else happy and/or solve their question or problem. that to me is "betterment"! my morning's memory of that grouchy breakfast server. she was all alone, doing all of the work. maybe someone else did not come in, sick or just wanted to stay home today, thinking only of her needs instead of the needs of everyone else. people who work in a nursing home or assisted living facility *must* put the needs of everyone else to be first! "needs". most people think of needs as having breakfast served, or being taken to the bathroom. but no, the *Real* needs, is in trying to radiate a sense of happyness outwards and to make these residents feel better emotionally and mentally! many feel depressed or frustrated-angry, being "old" and not able to see, hear, talk, walk, very well anymore! thus they bring their own grouchy selves into the dining room. the servers should try to cheer them up! they talk now about the "Quality of life" for seniors, as we live longer these days. but if you are say, 80 years old, and cannot see, hear, talk, eat what you once liked, walk, very well, and you have maybe 10 to 15 more years to live, then what?! much of the quality of life has to do with emotional warmth and that "life is still good" even at an advanced age. thus servers of the elderly: your attitude towards your job and your attitude towards your residents that you serve, count nearly for all!! we, in America, are slowly getting it all wrong: it is the customer who counts, not the product, not the shareholders! and it is one's daily life, minute by minute, that counts, not some far off goal! it is doing the very best that one can, even if you are a dishwasher for 30 years, in some large restaurant. and also it is sad: if in a cafe, if a server is indeed making the customers happy, she is likely to be promoted and soon she sits only in an office on the third floor, doing nothing but paperwork! we age all slowly getting everything backwards!

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storm cloud

2019-08-14T09:02:00.000-04:00

a storm cloud . this image is not from an airplane! nor is this image zoomed or telephoto. taken from the ground, almost directly overhead. Tallahassee, florida.

2019-08-01T09:07:00.000-04:00

a screenshot of my Nehrim mod game, a mod for Oblivion. 100 hours they say, in the mod. they say the mod is better then the game!

2019-07-27T19:00:00.001-04:00

https://www.newyorker.com/culture/culture-desk/cartoons-for-thanksgiving
Roz Chast, the new yorker magazine.
my favorite cartoon, I found at last! why my favorite? this one cartoon says it all, for me, about America in 2019 and why we all are so "divisive", in politics and in life. Roz Chast, in the New Yorker magazine, shows a family gathering where each person now has a diet where any food that they have brought with them *cannot* be shared with any other person! each person must bring their own meal with them and eat it without passing any of it, around.
Relatives all gathered together. each person has a lifestyle as well as a food diet. one by one......

one: he is a gay person. *now* he can take off his actor's mask as now he can live a real life instead of a lie, to others and to even himself. he is an educator by career and his hope is to instigate sex-choosing courses in nyc schools so that the kids can know more about which sex they identify with.

two: he is a policeman who has the night car patrol shift. if he sees a car, at night, with "minorities" in it, he will stop this car! he has found that 70% of the cars that he stops has criminals and drug people in them! 80% of the crimes are committed by one minority group! he belongs too, to the KKK! he utterly dislikes a certain minority group!

three: she is a strict Vegan. she is campaigning to have all meat and meat products removed from all city restaurants and grocery stores!

four: she is a avowed socialist. And also a teacher. her intent is to ban all score-keeping in games at all schools. a winner means someone has to also lose and losing is SO hurtful to a child! she has three hyperactive, gifted, kids. she takes them out with her to cafes and restaurants, regularly. she lets them run all over the place, disturbing everyone's meals. several patrons have faced her to tell her to please discipline her children better. she tells them in stern Tones, "HOW DARE YOU TELL ME HOW TO RAISE MY CHILDREN, THEY HAVE TO BE *FREE* TO *EXPRESS* THEMSELVES!"! her husband is a high powered attorney. He has successfully sued these complainers and won! by golly no one is going to *tell* her how to raise her kids!

five: he belongs to a religious cult. very "puritanical" this way of life. books have been written about this cult. their lawyers, though, usually win! but this sect has really, truely, helped him live a far better life!

six: he owns a nightclub where people dance to the latest electronic music. he admits that everyone uses drugs there and he himself likes what drugs Do!

seven: she belongs to a very fundamentalist church and she wants the traditional meal. in her world, gays are satan bonded people. they all deserve to roast in hell forever!

eight: he belongs to the Trump organization and he is forefront in helping him win in 2020.

nine: she is from Dominican republic and she has had many run-ins with grocery stores, in Miami, where she lives. all of her people know that every food must be tasted before it is bought. "would not *you* want to open the peanut butter jar and stick your finger into it to taste it before you buy it?! it might be spoiled! so in most grocery stores, in Miami, this is a large problem. [a true story!]

ten: he is a muslim. a true Believer. he tells everyone that sooner or later they must Convert or die! the entire world must convert to muslim and sharia law, sooner rather then later!

ten people.
the hippies said it first, in the early 70s. "consciousness expansion, consciousness raising". what this now means is that the autistic kid can live a life, the battered woman can Leave, the wheelchair man has Access, the gay person can come out of the closet. and in politics we become more and more "ourselves". entire ways of life become like splitting of a species of rabbits where there are now so many sub-species, and often they have diverged so much that the individual sub-species cannot mate with another rabbit of another sub-species!
so this one cartoon, for me, is one picture that says 10,000 words about America, today!

2019-07-24T09:12:00.001-04:00

oh dear.
Boris Johnson is now prime minister of England.

I just now read a letter from my England Friend, she went to supermarket and saw beer and booze fly off of the shelves like there is no tomorrow! This, after the results were announced.
.
some will drink to remember, others will drink to forget. To celebrate his win, or to try to Forget!

some people *want* what he says that he will do. make England great again. the masses feel the malaise. you feel it too, amongst the common people there, surely, even in America too. the ordinary Bloke, the tired housewife. Johnson, like trump, was the only One available, the only stone on the pavement that the rioters could find, to toss at the Thing that they see is destroying their lives. they do not see clearly what this Thing is! I do not think anyone can, even me....
each word that I will use, to now describe this Thing, is only a slight approximation Pointing to the Thing.
"the modern age".
"the loss of control".
"everything is broken, in social world".

England, like the united states, has lost some of its founding vision. there is now no more frontier. for the Brits, no empire.
everything that they buy is made elsewhere. every company has headquarters in another country, for the Brits, it is Europe.
[your ice cream is branded with a name that once represented the company. now Kraft Owns it. and now Kraft itself is owned by yet another company, some alphabet name; one name is the Bayer company. ]
[brit small towns, i read, are having, by the day, fewer and fewer mom and pop stores. the Gap, starbucks, Lidis, all Corporate franchises owned by something elsewhere.]

One world economy really needs a one world government to Manage it! better yet, in the future, have a one world culture. no race, no discrimination. one language. one world.
stores will sell clothes, no more women or men things. men and women will dress alike.

if you date someone you will not know their sex. if you "lady" turns out to be a man, well, have sex with him!
there will be no difference.

there might be even no more stores, everything online, besides, your Implanted Chip is your Money, if you do not have this you will indeed be homeless and an outcast.

no direction either. there now is nothing greater than the individual. God is Dead, for many. then the next level down falls, the Church authority. then the next level down goes away, for us two countries it is the "egypt-greek-roman-renaissance" historical past that undergirds everything that we all do as a culture, all held together by the Judeo-christian way of life.

all Going Away.
what is left? probably people now, as they *have* to have something out there to "identify" with, will clasp onto "Identity Politics"! and everyone then becomes a Victim of Something or someone.
watch the snowflake kids! they are the delicate tendril tips, of a vine. see where this fore-front, of this vine, is pointing to, and then you will see where the vine itself will be growing to, in a few years! they appear, these kids, to be our future unless we change it!
change it.
trying to stop this runaway train by throwing logs onto the tracks, to derail it.

Boris Johnson.
Trump!
Japan, Brazil, Philippines....the People are Voting. grasping at logs to try to throw onto the rails to try to stop this Train!

but when you Get Right Down To It, a master once wrote this: "for every advance someone makes, for every five minutes of growth, there has to be 55 minutes of Focus and Discipline". those 55 minutes, for many people are sorely lacking!

the words "spiritual life", has so many meanings, depending upon who and what is saying them!
*This* is the true center of the record album that everything revolves around.
for me "spiritual life" means this: God Incarnated onto the earth, once, 2000 years ago. His name was Jesus Christ. his soul was the Christ Himself, the Son of God. the Christ then, is the very center of spiritual life.

someone wrote that a best Bible is a read Bible. i add to this, here, i say that the very best Bible is that what is in the Bible must be applied to one's life!
but very very few people are applying Jesus Christ, and the Bible Teachings, to their lives! thus "greed, crime, materialism, miss-use of sex, power, control, become the primary influences in many people's lives. in fact when Modern culture takes away most Meanings, the only meaning left might be only to make lots of money! how about that, people?! that the radical left actually reinforces capitalism! making money is the only thing that gets you out of bed in the morning, if everything else is taken away!

since the real Stuff, Spiritual life, is not now in vogue, what *IS* left. well, a counterfeit life! lesser values take the place.

I learned from my Jewish room mate about a counterfeit anything. since Christ is the real Creator, only He can Create, being the son of God, the Ultimate Creator, anything else that is not of God, is then counterfeit. the collective Name of this Counterfeit is...
SATAN.

when football players can make $12,000,000 a year and nurses and teachers and most service-to-humanity people earn only a minimum wage, or a bit higher, Something Has Gone Really Wrong! we idolize media stars, sports heros, corporate CEOs. corporate CEOs who give themselves huge raises every year while the workers get nothing. no wonder many of the youth want Socialism!

so the common man wants the Head to be placed back onto the Culture statue,of their country. Johnson and Trump are only Bulldozers elected to try to stop the process of the Growth of this loss of culture. since there is little of God, in this "movement", we get a sort of counterfeit leader, instead. it is the best that we can do.
it might be *us* who are lacking! no spiritual life: the blind leading the blind!

We, who live an "unspiritual life", can only elect for to be our leaders, people who have little spiritual life! We elect and accept the mirror images of ourselves. This hold for our sports idols and our top CEOs too. The blind can only elect the blind, to run everything!! So we have leaders who reflect our interest in making money, power, control, materialism.

a nice view

2019-07-22T11:05:00.002-04:00

across the muddy pond, here at the Oaks.

a nice backyard

2019-07-22T09:41:00.000-04:00

someone's back yard, here at the Oaks, in Tallahassee. nice and lush.

2019-07-07T19:03:00.000-04:00

I read some of the sunday new times review section just now. again, i am amazed at the articles. some of them had the header to be...
---the middle class and its Heavy Burden. "power and wealth spiral to the top".
---this is quite gay. "how social media tries to keep me in the closet".
---prescription drugs. " americans pay more for drugs then any other country in the world".
---the Dominance of the white male critic, in art.

*very* liberal left!!
my Interlaken childhood "me" shudders at the socialist agenda being pushed. over the years I became much more "Liberal", Liberal in the classic sense. Now i am faced with a change in this Liberal word! now "Liberal" means the radical left. can i accept that?! I begin to wonder, today, if indeed we all should make that hard left turn, into socialism?!

on a quick walk, after reading that newspaper section, i quickly cobbled together *my* prescription for a future America!

maybe we should just let every single industry go to china and the rest of the world. they need the work and the $1.50 an hour for wages is a fortune for most! maybe every business that employs over, say, ten people, should be nationalized. then we become a service oriented country! there is so so so much need for this. the vast increase of elderly and the huge increase of alzheimer's that the baby boomers will give to us. everyone becomes a caregiver to someone.
then the children and education.
--our infrastructure.
---our nurses and librarians.
---firemen and police should have a much higher wages.
the homeless and the insane. crime and crime prevention by dealing with future criminals before they commit a crime.
[san francisco, i read, has had a 17% increase of homeless people in two years!]

every city, every country, that has a lack of people to do the entry level jobs, the salvation for them is "immigration"! maybe we should just let everyone in; take down the walls. yes, over a million might arrive, but history is filled with mass migrations of people and we are holding back the flow of history! they will take our low level jobs! yes, their "mafia" will also come, just like the mafia came with the italians. but they sell drugs but no one requires anyone to *take* these drugs! besides, we need the black market to provide life support where it is illegal to possess the drugs or items!

try to inspire into everyone a good reason to live, and for a future worth living for! then maybe our drug use will go down!

bring back Spirituality as the core of America. note that i did not say "religion! teach us all about near death experiences and what they tell us about such a thing as the Afterlife and how to prepare for it while living!

we have come a long way towards accepting "minorities", but still have a very long way to go; we need to all go much much further!

bring down prescription drugs by like 70% in cost. maybe socialized medicine will have to be accepted.

there. this is only some of the suggestions that I could imagine, right this second, on facebook.

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my take on "Microaggression"!

2019-07-03T09:41:00.001-04:00

the secret of "Microaggression"! I cannot get away from it. microaggression. goes along with "complaining about everything"! i see before me as i talk, a nimbus cloud of words. words that i can use in my conversation that i am in right now.
the snowflake kids see microaggression in nearly every single sentence anyone utters. someone or some group is being put down. the "out" group or person receives the Hit!
But i see that i have little choice in the matter, every word that i can think of, in the one second that i have for a reply, is either a microaggression or a complaint. no way out.
"oh get away from the table", to a lady with dementia; she would roll up and pick up my food and eat it and bother my talk with my seatmate. the nurse rolls her away to her table spot. this is a microaggression! i am judging a dementia person. putting her down by elevating myself to be "better" then she is!
quoting the article i read yesterday:" we feel better about ourselves, creating self confidence, by elevating ourselves to be above someone or something that is "below" us"!
what i "ought' to do is to invite her to sit with us two and she eats our lunch as she is to join our conversation as an equal!
an EQUAL! see....the only way a non-judgement can occur is to have everyone be exactly the same. True Equality!
not going to happen!!
and "complaints" are in this too, as complaints means that there is a difference in stuff and I feel better about myself if i notice a difference and then complain about it.
"Profiling", thusly, is the way to live: this is *how* we live! contrast and compare and there is always a loser. any winner means that there has to be a loser.

the only way that i see to "overcome' this, at conversations is to say something like this, over and over again...."the beneficent angels radiate bliss downwards upon us all, the radiance, may it be with you daily and always, God's love for each of us." this statement for 99.999% of us is like a purdy, pretty, jet contrail cloud at 30,000 feet, having nothing to do with our daily lives! people *want* to hear how Trump is bad or that the salad, at lunch, had wilted leaves. or they want to hear that they live in a nice place compared to the homeless people. of course the homeless people, here, are getting a small microaggression! even a christian, talking about the unsaved people, are microaggression them! "i am saved, i am better than you are"!
thus every single observation comparing two objects or people, is in reality a Judgement, which means that one wins, the other loses! a microaggression. same with a complaint. a complaint is where some one thing is not right compared to a similar thing. again: a microaggression!
but this is how I think! I am at the south pole and told to walk but must not walk North! our *entire* language is of this!! there are few other words available for me, to think of, in that one second, in a conversation!
no escape!
so i accept that i am a complainer and a micro aggressor.

then i now can live my day, week, and years, without a feeling of Guilt!!

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The Lichen

2019-06-20T07:21:00.001-04:00

a lichen on a oak tree. not much to say, but here it is. there are lichens on everything here, if it sits outdoors for a while.
i read once that a movie studio, in England, wanted to create a front yard from North Florida. reviewer says they did a good job, even right down to the lichens on the mailbox!

every object, here in north florida, seems to have a lichen or ten on it, if it has been exposed to weather for a while.

2019-06-16T07:30:00.003-04:00

happy fathers day to  everyone.

[a picture of my own father, Dudley Wilson, with my sister Suanna and me.]

2019-06-09T09:21:00.003-04:00

a test, really. This view is from where i used to live in downtown Tallahassee . "urban forest" they call this. under those trees are houses.

2019-01-13T09:53:00.003-05:00

yes, Tallahassee, florida. even in late December there are trees with Color. here, spring shakes hands with fall. the last leaves fall off just as the new buds open. even now, nearly the middle of January, some bushes are putting out flowers!