My Life Sucks - Big Time ... !

Loud speakers

Bobby — Tue, 09 Mar 2010 18:07:59 +0000

I’m working like crazy this morning, but bad food last night… So I’m on my computer, music plays loudly in the office, and …. I fart. But not once… Twice, three times, four times, … Don’t care, the music is covering.

Or so I thought… I had my earplugs. Forgot that. Shame…

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JUST BREATHING…

Alison Nettle — Tue, 09 Mar 2010 08:20:53 +0000

Ok…So I don’t have a reason why my life sucks, it just does. You know sometimes its hard to breath and the fact you are stuck in a body you don’t want to be in sometimes just takes my breath away its so painful. How can the most horrible people I have met been born into the most beautiful bodies and I am still me. I am the girl guys look past to get to the pretty ones. I am the girl that is just living and not living life. I am the girl that even though I say nothing and mind my own business people still feel the need to make fun of me and to be horrible to me. Like I don’t feel bad about myself already..Like I need their help to feel worthless. Now I am 25 and I still feel the same helplessness I felt when I was 15. Isnt this feeling supposed to have gone by now? I thought i was supposed to feel mature and adult. I still feel like the little ugly duckling i was back then. When does it change I keep waking up wondering if today is the day I will feel normal. Do you know what it is like to not feel comfortable in your own skin??? to not even know who you are after 25 years. who am I? I am a nobody and that i could even live with but im not even a happy nobody I’m just me who has friends, none Ive ever felt truely close too. A boyfriend who I am almost positive doesnt like me, we have been together 6 years and have a beautiful baby together who is my only great acomplishment. Yet I feel his hate spitting onto me daily. ANd I stay cos lets be honest no one else would ever want me. Because I’m not normal I’m an oddball. So any words of advice would be greatly appriecated and I don’t want to hear any bullshit cli’ches because you can say them as much as you want but the don’t work. So my life sucks, I prefer my dreams to my life and after ten years nothings changed which leads me to the conclusion it probably never will. ANd I’m stuck here. Just breathing.

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my life sucking…

vanitha — Tue, 02 Mar 2010 10:24:51 +0000

my life is sucking bcoz havenot mum..
she refused my father.. may tat was fate.. but what the wrong am did? have two sisters.. ho much difficulties had my father to grow us..want tell my god pls take care of my dad.. also take me soon.. no words to tell the pain.. really my life is sucking………

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An “Accident” that was smothered

jo — Sat, 27 Feb 2010 22:48:24 +0000

Why can’t I get over the fact that I don’t know why I even exist. I found out from my mother talking to someone else, when she didn’t think I was listening, that I was an accident. My father’s vasectomy didn’t take. It wasn’t just a few extra sperm, he had it at least a year before I was conceived.
Growing up poor, I now know that the sacrifices that I made, due to the family not having “the money”, was because I felt somehow responsible for the money situation. I thought that I was the reason that things were difficult. If I wasn’t around, they wouldn’t had to spend extra money for my food, extra utilities that I used, school supplies, etc.
At least when I die, my assets will be divided up amongst my siblings as some type of act of repayment. I just hope that it’s sooner than later. I’m at a really low point in my life (again-it never seems to get better), and am wondering when things might start to look up.
Now that you know about the “accident”, now to tell you about the “smothering” from my mother.
I grew up in a very religious household, with a very restrictive, over-protective mother, and a father who couldn’t (or wouldn’t) stand up against her. The very first date I went on was with another “Christian” girl, who happened to go to a different church. We went to see a movie (I can’t remember which one), then decided to go to a restaurant for ice cream afterwards. When I got back, my mother, for lack of a better term, interrogated me about what the movie was about, how many cuss words were in it, how long the movie was, if it was only that long what did we do after that. I just wanted to scream, “WE DIDN’T HAVE SEX!!!!” From that point on, I figured that it was just easier not to date than to go through that again.
Now to the subject of friends. Well, I have none. At least no “true” friends to speak of. I have aquaintances from work, but for some reason, I can’t let anyone “in”. This comes from my lovely mother as well. It seems that whoever I brought home wasn’t good enough to be a friend of her son. So again, it was easier not to bring them by.
As I said, I grew up in a very religious household. I went to church sunday morning, sunday night, and wednesday night for “youth group”. After my sister (2 years older) left for college, during the most influential times in a teenager’s life, my parents would drag me out for “fellowship” with THEIR friends after church on sunday night. If I said that I didn’t want to go, she would say something like, “Oh, it will be fun”. Since I wasn’t old enough to drive, and the church was too far to walk home, I didn’t have much choice.
Most of my family is on “facebook”, and when they tell me that I should join, I just tell them no. Then they say that it’s a great way to get back in touch with old friends, I guess they’d be right if I had any from school. I was the “loner” in high school. We lived within walking distance, so there was nobody to ride the bus with.
Oh well, maybe one day I’ll be able to figure all this crap out.
PARENTS: If you are reading this, don’t EVER let your children know that they are accidents. EVER!!!

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don’t want to be here anymore

jamie — Thu, 25 Feb 2010 07:44:56 +0000

Life is getting to be more than I can take. I am going thru a divorce, after ten yrs he decides he does not want to have the responsibility of a wife and three kids. I lost our apt cause I couldn’t work because I am completely dependent on tramadol for my scoliosis and when I run out get so sick I can’t function. everything I have ever owned including so many precious family heirlooms and all my kids stuff was put into storage. He promised to pay it cause of our kids things and I thought he was until I letter telling me it was being auctioned the next week if I didn’t pay 1800. My children had to go live with my mom. now my oldest,12 is living w my ex who is just her stepdad so she can go to her school, shes very depressed cause she wants me there. My boyfriend I was staying w ended up punchin me in the jaw knocked out a tooth and burned all the photos I have left of my family cause I was w my little girls and got home late. I am now living w my mom and girls 6 and 8 and today I found out my ex went to jail for felony warrents and is saying my exbfrnd turned him in. his mom whom I loved more than anything called tonite and told my stepdad that they were gettin a restraining order on me and I was never to step foot in thier house again my child lives there for gods sake. I cant even talk to her today.Hard tellin what they have put her thru today as far as talkin bad about me. My stepdad decides cause of all thid drama he doesn’t want me stayin here cause he pays the bills and my mom don’t. But says I have to leave my girls here. He is an alcholic and has no driving due to 3 duis. He was so pissed and blaming everything in the world on me and took my moms car. he is also into smokin crack. never here i do know that for fact. if he gets picked up he is going to do 3 years they told him. I am so scared cause if he does I will be blamed for that. I just want to end it all.I think my kids would be better off w my mom cause I dont want them to be like me. I cant even hold a job and when i get like this i have been a cutter for as long as i remember. I have slit my wrists before they were all born and my hands are covered in scars. I even cut thru a tendon and had to have surgery. they see these everyday they think it was due to a car accident. Ive only cut twice in the past year. tonite i just want it to end i hurt so bad i had to cut and ended up having to go get stitches tonite. she bought new knives didn’t know they were that sharp. I had an overdose 8 years ago and would be dead if my ex was not a paramedic. I cant do this anymore. i need it to end.

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life is suck

SadMan — Sun, 21 Feb 2010 00:09:48 +0000

no house ,no car ,no money n now over 30 year old still don have any girl friend,all the support to have then i don have… what a fucking life

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life still suckz

Lizzie — Sun, 14 Feb 2010 07:35:29 +0000

ok so incase u’ve read my other post(do u think my life sucks)u no the basic part of my life but idk…neways im 11(15 days til im 12)i cut my familys broke and my dad has a rlly bad temper he 1time got rlly mad and threw a skoolbook at my bros head with me watching(im so amazed im not crying rite now but it will happend sum times 2nite)i have a super bad skin condition messed up mind 2 lolz er…i dun rlly have anything else to say rite now but if u eva wanna talk my email is llizzie9990@hotmail.com

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Life sucks… so why am I here?

Losten — Fri, 12 Feb 2010 01:33:27 +0000

I don’t know where to start…. everything is pretty messed up right now. I’m having to repeat my first year at university because I screwed up on the first attempt, some of my classmates and teachers dislike me, I have no “real” friends, I have no money (I only have a week’s supply of food left), every job I apply to turns me down, my parents don’t care about what happens to me or anyone else because their own lives are really messed up, my grandfather died last month, I haven’t been eating properly for years and have dramatically lost weight, I haven’t left the house that I’m living at for a whole week… I feel so weak, purposeless and depressed and yet, I feel guilty that I’m even writing all this down when someone out there is probably far worse than I am. Why is life so hard? It beats you up so hard that you’re left with no strength to stay positive and keep going. You question, “When will things get better?” “If only things would just get better?”

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Betrayal

Ashley — Wed, 10 Feb 2010 01:03:50 +0000

So, I bought my 2 friends a ticket to a game they REALLY wanted to watch. So of course I would’ve bought the tickets for them. When we got into the game I thought we all were going to sit next to each other, but apparently one of them decided to sit with someone else so I was like, “Okay, at least I have my other friend here.” But several seconds later my other friend left me too to go sit next to the others. So they both left me alone with two complete strangers. There wasn’t anymore room left on the bench so I decided not to sit there. What made it worst was that this girl named Andrea came along and they all decided to scoot over for her to sit on and didn’t offer to do that for me. So in the end I ended up sitting next to two strangers for 2 whole hours. My life sucks.

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48219

Tiana — Mon, 08 Feb 2010 02:30:38 +0000

i hate my life my mom is really “GOOD FRIENDS” with my uncles bestfriend and he is 19 years old she is 30 going on 31 next week i hate this and i dont know what to do i need serious help my family is crazy i am the only sane one in the house thank GOD

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What’s below rock bottom?

Just aguy — Fri, 05 Feb 2010 18:56:06 +0000

Well, I really don’t know where to start. I’m starting to think my existence on this earth just wasn’t meant to be. When I am out walking I’ll often look to the sky and pray a meteor will strike me or if I’m in a car I sometimes hope the 18wheelers would just hit the car. I’m getting severly depressed and can’t seem to get my life in order.
I used ot have a severe drinking problem and in a course of 3 years this ruined my life. I had 4 dui convictions within this span and lost the priviledge to drive permanently. I lost my job the following year and now it seems impossible to find work. It just seems like everything I try never works out.
I just really wish I could get another chance to drive. It is really bothering me as of late because I truley am a changed person. I quit drinking after my 4th conviction and have been drink free/drugfree since. I joined AA and even find it hard getting rides to meetings! I’m always broke and seem to have lost most of my friends during htis whole episode(s).

This all just really sucks and makes me question my existence.

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Does Not Compute

Gavyn Lyfe — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 13:47:41 +0000

I’ve been trying to tell “that girl” that I love her for a while now and decided TODAY WAS THE DAY! But I stuttered when speaking, so I wrote script on my computer to have her computer say it for me. And when she received the code that said it, she got “scripting error: does not match”….

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Mother Don’t Love Her Kids :-(

Black Sheep — Mon, 01 Feb 2010 19:49:17 +0000

MY MOM IS A SINGLE PARENT & ALTHOUGH SHE DOES EVERYTHING POSSIBLE TO GIVE US WHAT SHE DIDN’T HAVE SHE ALWAYS BUT SHE ALWAYS PUTS HER ‘WOMAN’ ABOVE US (HER KIDS) NO MATTER WHAT.

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Shit Happens!

AlEx — Sun, 24 Jan 2010 13:53:16 +0000

Shit happens! Heck…it happens over and over again…

Ask yourself now - “What am ‘I’ gonna do about it?”

Everyone knows their the answer to this question.

You know i’m not lying. Try those answers. Ask yourself this question every single morning.

Coz when you stop asking, you stop doing.
When you stop doing you stop failing. If you don’t fail enough, you don’t get what you want.
100 hits to the stone, don’t stop at the 99th. : )
Good luck fellow souls. GoD bless you.

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rape

Bob — Fri, 22 Jan 2010 14:21:25 +0000

Well i got married about a year ago. She had a daughter named brittany. Brittany was sixteen. I went into her room to check on her while her mother was at work. She was supposed to be asleep. She was using a vibrator… it made me horny. I went over to her and started kissing her. She was naked i got naked we fuck she pregnant. I wanna do it again and again. It was nice.

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Sucks

Bob — Fri, 22 Jan 2010 14:13:13 +0000

i have struggled with heaving drinking and drug use for the last 25 years, had a lot of good times but it became a dependence that I ‘default’ just out of sheer habit and boredom. So, keep in mind, that problem remains throughout my story. I fell passionately in love/lust with my wife in ‘96, we were extremely attracted to each other for about the ‘usual’ 1.5 -2 years. Then her accusations of my involvement with employees (female) started. She loved me, or she was obsessed with me, maybe a combination of both. We got married, had one child, built a business and had a lot of money, or so we thought. I knew ‘things’ weren’t always connected between the two of us. Two years ago she turned into a teenager again at the age of 35, she spent tons of money and simultaneously quit paying the bills and became involved with an 18year-old employee. She bought a dog that pissed all over our furniture and carpet, costs us thousands. She had our home remodeled after the dog damage and we spent 25 thousand dollars. She didn’t pay payroll taxes and the IRS demanded 40 thousand dollars, she moved out. The house is still unfinished. I had to sell the business just to break even with the debt where she did not pay the bills. I lost my business. I lost my wife (at the time to an 18 year old moron), my son went with her, I am stuck with two years back taxes to pay, and her business that she opened on the side and emotionally talked me into co-signing the note that she cannot pay:40 more thousand. I finally got 2007 taxes done, owe 13 thousand on that.About 4 months ago she was kind enough to give me “some lovin” if u know what i mean, then she borrowed my credit card to fill up the gas tank, 4 thousand dollars later, she claims I was not communicating with her,(she mentioned nothing of her credit card use). Life still sucks.

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I hate life

Kelly — Fri, 22 Jan 2010 14:12:29 +0000

You know how people say that God never gives you more then you can handle well sometimes I beg to differ. Lets see here a couple of years ago I got charged with a hit and run n couldn’t drive for a year; my dad tells me not to so much get a speeding ticket in the next like three years…. What do I do get a DUI. So there goes $1500 for a lawyer and who knows what else after I go to court here in a month.Then i was out with these guys and we hit some ice and got into an accident and I had to go to the ER and get 18 stiches. Also I couldn’t remember the last time I had a period and went in and turns out I’m pregnant and am due in April turns out I’m already at 27 weeks. Now I have no idea what I should do I can’t throw more shit at my parents and I can’t have a kid. but when you can actually see your kid and can feel it kicking how do you just get an abortion; by the way it’s a boy…. I am completely lost and don’t know what to do. And to top it all off the guy that I thought it was; there is no way it could be his cause I wasn’t talking to him at the time so now I have no idea. All I want to do is drink and pretend this isn’t real but turns out I’m pregnant. Life sucks…

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Sucks bein prego

Kelly — Fri, 22 Jan 2010 14:11:15 +0000

Well, it all started one weekend I was at my boyfriends house. His parents were gone for a week so we were just there hanging out. Then, I had to go pee. I went to the bathroom and sat down. I was off my period. YAY! I came out and he was horny. Now three months I’m pregnant. My parents still don’t know. I’m married now (I’m 16) and pregnant. LESSON: USE TROJON CONDOMS!!!

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I really really hate my life

K Jackson — Thu, 21 Jan 2010 02:47:28 +0000

I have lived with my sister for 4 years helping her take care of her three kids. They moved into a house where there is no room for me. I have no job, no car, no cell phone, no place to live, I dont even have $1 to buy a coke. I have no insurance and can’t go to the doctor or dentist. I have terrible excema that makes my whole body itch all day. My face looks like I have leprosy. I have a cavity that is killing me. I sleep on couches when I can. I am driving my brother’s old car that is going to break down any day. I am 32 years old and have no boyfriend or anyone that will even talk to me when they find out what a loser I am. I live out of plastic containers. I hate my life so much.

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Birthday

Meredith — Sun, 10 Jan 2010 00:32:37 +0000

Today is my birthday, and my family always go out for dinner, and eat at the restaurant we chose. But my dad told me that today was the only time to have some of his employees over to our house and have dinner and work something on the computer, and that we will have the dinner the day after my birthday. So I agree, because I thought it will probably only take few hours, but I don’t think it will at all. So to top it all off, my dad still hasn’t say happy birthday to me, and we probably won’t have any cake today either. But the only birthday present I got is from my best friend.

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