My Life Sucks - Big Time ... !

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nikki — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 18:57:28 +0000

i am tired of my life everything goes wrong…..no matter how hard i try i fail

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Regretting Everything

Regrets — Tue, 13 Oct 2009 13:56:13 +0000

I was only 9 when I got raped by my step-dad. My mom was at work and he came with me to my room. He undressed and made me do the same. He forced it in. Hard and fast. He did it over and over.

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Pregnant

Kelly — Wed, 23 Sep 2009 13:32:58 +0000

Well, it all started one weekend I was at my boyfriends house. His parents were gone for a week so we were just there hanging out. Then, I had to go pee. I went to the bathroom and sat down. I was off my period. YAY! I came out and he was horny. Now three months I’m pregnant. My parents still don’t know. I’m married now (I’m 16) and pregnant. LESSON: USE TROJON CONDOMS!!!

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Killing in the name of love

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 18:48:54 +0000

There are times when in our heart we know the right thing to do…
We don’t really think what’s in it for us? or what repercussions be…
we just do…coz that can make a world of difference in someone’s life…
maybe not ours…but “someone”…that ’someone’ who means a world to us…
You’ve been selfless in your deeds…and your faith intact to help out that “special” person
You sacrifice…you bleed…you plead…trying to identify the creed..which is however no where engraved.

You took her hand…and assured her that you gonna make everything all right
You took your heart out and gave it to her sayin “Baby…this one’s for you…never break it”
And then time turns the tide around… you see your emotions were traded with something else.
That “something else” was more important to that other person…u cried from the inside..
But assured your self “If that is what makes my baby happy…I’ll find peace in that”

And then from a new end with a new resolution you start fighting again…
A fight for truth…honesty and above all to keep ya baby safe…
thinking “my baby” is too innocent to understand the “politics of life”…
you were selfless then…your love is selfless now…its a hard way now
there aint no way you can get into someone’s mind and make them realise…

But you kept your goodness alive….protecting your ‘baby’ like some guardian angel…
the cult of wolf is within you…re-assuring and fighting a fight which people will never know
in the end what all this world will say is “dude…you made it all look like hell..but it wasn’t”
they bloody didn’t knew…and you fuckin not answerable to em’…those who seek..finds the truth.

And then one fine day…you see some warriors coming your way…giving you your much deserved accolade…
you can see in the eyes of your sweetheart….she did something she shouldn’t have done
You hear the words of those “warriors” appreciating the bravery put forward….
they’ll never know the price…and better will be never to tell them…or infact anyone coz no one will understand…whats the worth of some emotion you tell??

and then when you turn around and you can see your sweetheart realizing the mistakes…
which turned into atrocities…and you convince your self by thinking “baby is a baby too innocent to understand the shady part”…

And then when the bloody battle is over…(mind it for the people) you still on front…
and you ready to take on the another wave…you turn around and say….
“I just wanted to see you happy…you go..be safe…soon we’ll meet and never be apart”
another wave…another blow…fuck em all…you keep moving

In the end you got what was promised to you by the “Mightiest of all” (find the cliché or ask me)
and then fine day…you go back…go back to see the love of your life…
for whom no pain of yours is greater than her happiness….
with arms wide open you make your gesture clear…
And then “Slashhhh!….a dagger passes nicely through your back”
Damn…you turn around to see who did it…
And “Khaccchhhh! another dagger deep into your heart”
You couldn’t believe what your eyes made you see….

“Sure she wasn’t a baby anymore”….you sighed and told your self
on your knees taking your final rest…you look up to her…and all you can do is just smile
and this closes ‘a chapter’ of your life

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life…

Nikki — Wed, 12 Aug 2009 07:47:15 +0000

I am in debt haha. not good. im 18 and this all started when i was working at pizza hut. waitressing is the worst job in the world cuz people treat u like a survent just to say. anyways this guy asked me for my number and we started hangin out. it turns out he lied alot cuz later i found out he was a 25 year old illegal immigrant from mexico. so funny but no, then one day he’s all im goin to louisiana to be with my wife and son. i dont know why the fuck i was even with him cuz now i feel gross. i think cuz he was really hot and nice.:) my sister was pissed cuz she wanted him but mwuhahaha yeah i need to stop smokin weed…back on track here people. but the thing is a month later i found out i was pregnant. “good damb it nic why?” is what i thought to myself. but woohooo then i had a miscarriage. i mean i would love my kid but it wasn’t supose to happen. but the shitty thing is i got an MIP when i was with him and its really expensive!!!! then i got two speeding tickets cuz im a dooshbag! i like to drive fast and so do my friends its great fun….but okay back to it. I got depressed after he left me and started doing drugs quit my job at pizza hut and started forging my parents checks. seriously i can write there names exactly perfect. but i owe them like 2,000 dollars so yeah i think im goin to jail. No haha im not the parents forgave me but they REALLYYYY hate me!!!!!!!!!! my sibs hate me cuz i fight w/ them. my lil sis J and i got in a fist fight the other day it was like insane. but i feel bad cuz im alot taller than her and i lift weights and run. so i really hurt her with my strongness. but im goin to college next year. i just wanna be happy. and that guy i was speaking of the mexican dude well now he is calling my friend. shes not really my friend cuz shes a bitch face but yah she likes to hurt my feelings but i could kick her ass. haha just kidding im really a peaceful person:) really…people call me the hippie child. yeah im bored and this is my life so read it beautiful people:) yeah the bitch face friend stepped on my laptop and broke it and won’t pay for it. im afraid to tell the parents cuz i owe them so much money all ready. im so scared…:( yeah i no other peoples lifes are way worse!!! cuz people die and what not and i feel soooooo bad for u.!! but hey i got a job today and im goin to pay back my parents cuz i love them!! and stop doin drugs w/ my friends. stop hangin out w/ those friends actually. i wanna live good and have a huge manchine that i live in w/ tons of rooms and a pool w/ a groto:) maybe i will become the drug dealer instead…hehe no im kidding!! seriously tho if people think there life sucks try this it really helps!! pop in the movie Step Brothers watch it u will laugh for hours. i could die from it from laughing. i just wanna give every sad person in this world a HUGE HUG!! and who ever that was that wrote about the living in the small house.. my god i feel 4 u brother! no fricken way can i stand to be w/ my parentos and sibs in a cooped up lil trailer no f’en way man i won’t do it. seriously move outa there! go to the police and tell them to help u out. Peace and love-moonshine

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Tuesdays

meep — Sun, 19 Jul 2009 23:33:01 +0000

I remember when life was so happy and mom and dad would hug and kiss and each Tuesday my brother mom dad and i would go to the mall together and i would go to the hello kitty store and my brother would go to the sticker machines.Ha ha ha! Life rocked and every morning my mom would make me blueberry muffins that tasted so good.My dad kinda spoiled us but moderately.One day he told me to make a wish and i wished 4 a dog and the next day he came home with a little puppy!!! I miss those days so much.Then we moved to a new house and life went to hell.Im realy young to be writing this(im eleven)but whatever.It started when we skipped Tuesdays once and awhile and then it grew to more and more and my parents asked my brother and i if we could do Tuesday on Saterday.(at these times i was only 5&6)I didnt want to but we did and we never had those days ever again.Then mom and dad started to have arguments and then they would sream at eachother and hit and throw stuff and mom kept getting very very sick and puking and taking pills(idk if they were drugs or not but i think it was judt a medication)My parents would knock over glass vases and i would start crying and hide.Now im traumitized from the noise and i kinda break down wen i hear it.then my parents would get in such big arguements that my dad would leave and my mom would sit crying in her room. I would stay up waiting 4 my dad to come back trembling and tearing. Then i would write letters to god asking nhim to bring back Tuesdays and daddy and stop the argueing.It never worcked.Dad would come back late at night smelling like beer at times.Eventually the arguement got so big my dad would take us with him to a hotel all night and take us to school in the morning. I was in kinder and my bro went to pre.My life is all blurred in this area except some parts to personal 2 say.We moved to a new house later.(wer i live now-we moved wen i was in 2nd grade.)They still argued and then Valentines day came.My dad sed he had a buisness trip.he left for a looong time.He wouldnt answer phone calls and we wer just move in to our new home.we slept on the floors.my mom would wake my brother and i up at 3 in the morning and drive all around town pointlessly.One day my I heard my dad came bak and to meet him in hte church.(my bro and i now went to a catholic school–I was in 2nd and he was in 1st)We went there and he sed he got us a new mommy and she was in the church and he wunted us to show her how well we prayed.so we went in and prayed came out and there was a chick less than half his age in his arms.I was going to be a brat but i was to kind.i sed hi and we went out 4 lunch.l8ter my dad took my bro and i home.my dad was staying in a hotel with her.bla bla bla all this stuff happened and my dad kicked my mom out.She started to live in this little condo on a nice little golf course.We would visit on weekends.Later she couldnt afford it anymore.Now shes a hohbo that i hardly ever get to see in Sandiego.I lived with my dad and my new stepmom.I used to always pray and think of god and draw picture in this little journal and i would show my dad.One day he was out with his gf (wen she moved in he would NEVER pay attention or support us at all)And i showed him a picture i drew and he sed” oh ya thats her stupid little book she writes her prayers in!” And they both started to laugh.I was so sad that i threw the book away and i never prayed again.Later they started arguing and my dad thot i didnt care cuz i was ”used” to it.And i was getting sick of life so i stopped talking to every one. i wouldnt talk 2 my dad only sometimes. I did talk to my bro but i NEVER talked to his girlfrend.She started out getting realy mad and then i would laugh at her.then since she started to argue with my dad she started to suck up to me like a pathetic little leech because she knew if i liked her my dad wouldnt kick her out.and my plan worcked she was OUT.I realy didnt mind her that much mbut i am not stupid. I stopped talking at first as a test to see if she realy ”loved us”.Then i realized she didnt i was her tool to staying and i didnt want to be. so bam.She left.But karma came back around and i was living with me my bro and my dad.I have to make dinner for everyone and do all the laundry and all the cleaning and teach my little bro manners.I get in trouble for everything my dad treats me like **** at most times.My bro will leave a mess an i pay 4 it. In the end everything comes back down on me.If i am completely exausted and make dinner a little late im in huge trouble.And after all this my family has a reunion (my other parts of my family) and my dad has the nerve–HE HAS THE NERVE TO ASK MY AUNT 4 PARENTING ADVICE!!!!
Well life is hard and everything is like a living hell i have to be my dads wife and my brothers mom and my mom. YIPEE!!!

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Annoyances usually come in the form of a question.

Katie — Fri, 17 Jul 2009 04:45:58 +0000

Its not that my life sucks so much, I guess you could say that I’m just more annoyed at it than anything. I suppose for some strange reason I’m just not ready to grow up, and yet, I have and I need to get used to it, and I’m working on that.

I’m 23, I just recently graduated from college. Well, that would be all fine and dandy and the fireworks would cheer. Problem is, I did it in the middle of an economic crisis. Have I found a job yet? Of course not, nobody is going to hire anybody who doesn’t have experience, are you crazy? But its every bodies *favorite* question. Especially when its asked by my coworkers at the dead end job I’m working at.

But I’m looking, and honestly that’s all I can do in a situation like this.

However, to change the subject a little bit, if there not asking me if I have a job, there asking me when my boyfriend of 4 years is going to propose or get married to me. Would I be horrible if I said I think I’ve secretly come to the conclusion that I want a wedding and not a marriage? Its not that I don’t love him. I just want my special day and care free commitment to a life long decision. I love him, I just don’t feel I need unnecessary pressure in my life. Unfortunately that’s sort of how I view a marriage, unnecessary pressure to a good relationship. However, I still have that childhood fantasy of walking down the aisle and later on cutting into a large cake. Can’t I just have a mock wedding on my birthday and call it a birthday present to myself? I’d still get cake, presents, and everybody would be paying attention to me. The perfect birthday.
Now I would imagine this would be alright and my boyfriend would understand this situation. It doesn’t help that he told me recently he’d like to have kids in the next 5 years. Five years is a while, however, its not long enough. I’m 23, and I’d be 28 by than… I really don’t think I’m looking to do that now. But we definitely want kids, just not. right. now. And I’m beginning to question if that’s really because of me.

At the same time I’m thousands in debt with my student loans right now… In the middle of an economic crisis. Of course I wont have the time to get married or have kids for that matter. I’ll be too busy paying off my debt at the dead end job I’m working at.

I suppose I just need to grow up, take it all in and deal with it. And I keep telling myself day in and day out that things will get better, something will happen and I’ll find my way. After all our parents did it and thousands of other people have been through worse than I have. I’ll make it somehow. At least I have a degree, that’s more than most people can say. At least I have a strong relationship, even if I am afraid of commitment, that’s better than some people.

But still, I wish I could take a wand and make all the noisy people go away and just do what I want to do.

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I tried. I failed.

A Big Failure — Mon, 06 Jul 2009 20:52:21 +0000

I’m turning 25. I’ve done everything I was supposed to do in my life. I stayed in school, I got good grades. I enlisted in the Air Force for 4 years, and I started going to college after my military service ended. Of course, I can’t get a job. 4 years of experience and a security clearance isn’t enough. I’m stuck living with my dad, and he hates me. My whole family is completely embarrassed, so I’ve shut myself off from them all. The one friend I did have was going through the exact same situation until he got kicked out of his mom’s house, and I haven’t talked to him in months. I did everything life says you’re supposed to do. I played by the rules. I followed the directions. I worked hard. And all it got me was enough unemployment benefits to pay a portion of my father’s rent for the last 2 years. This is the American Dream on display, kids. Work hard, do your best, and you’ll fail miserably!

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Yeah this really happened

that girl — Fri, 03 Jul 2009 22:02:58 +0000

I just got out of a 6 year relationship which was not my choice he tells me he feels trapped, is unhappy, and doesn’t want a relationship with anyone. So not even 2 months after I find out he is with someone whom I know and is known to be a lose woman. Talk about a kick in the gut!!!!!!

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Hope

cw — Mon, 29 Jun 2009 00:54:05 +0000

I thought my like sucked until I started reading all the entries. Wow, thanks for helping me get my perspective back. Each of you need to read the entries on this page until you find a couple of people whose life is worst than yours. If you read with an open mind your sure to find a couple. There is hope.

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what if you was me?

anonymous but real — Fri, 26 Jun 2009 14:38:50 +0000

all of you onthis site think you have it bad, im 17 fat, ugly, small dick, never had any kind of relationship with a girl let alone kiss a girl, have shitty parents and family, everyone knows my father cheats never went to a party dont really have any friends get mediocre grades at school have insomnia due to anxiety, identity crisis because i’m mixed with indian and black and cant seem to fit in with either group
agnostic my life seems to really have no purpose or meaning want to commit suicide lower middle class up till a year ago my parents myself and my sister all used to sleep in the same room

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couldnt get much worse

texas — Fri, 26 Jun 2009 07:01:53 +0000

well i just graduated from highschool and nothing seems to be going right. I have no clue what i want to do or be. I havent chosen or finished signng up for a university yet. my parents and i have trouble getting along so im looking for a place of my own but havent been able to get a new job yet. real recently one of my few best friends stopped talking to me over a real stupid incident. And too top it off a girl i liked and i think liked and does like me. i put off asking her out for too long of a time and when i finally did she said shed go out with me but i havent heard back from her and i think i may never see her again before she goes off to school around the world. leaving me to wonder how she felt and me feeling jus bad that i didnt ask her sooner

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ex is gettin married

Dj boy — Sun, 14 Jun 2009 06:02:09 +0000

I was dating the most amazing girl I’ve ever met we had amazing chemistry and made it through everything in what i thought was a blissful 2.5 years. One day out of no where she wants to break up with me and I find out she’s been sleeping with a 30 guy. ( We were both 20 at the time) she blew me off with no reasons but that she never loved me and was faking it the whole time, only because her parents wanted to see her with me. I just turned 23 today… 3 years after the breakup I am single and depressed without her after two more failed meaningless realationsips since. And she is getting married in 2 months to a guy who treats her like shit. FML!

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what happened to me

lifesuckedoutome — Sun, 14 Jun 2009 01:56:18 +0000

ok so here goes…..
when i was 14 my boyfriend had sex with me and got me pegnent and then left me.i still have not heard from him. one of my best friends tried killing herself.it didnt work. i come home eberyday to find my rent fighting over dumb things,and last firday my 200 dallor mp3 player got stolen. i meet this guy who keeps telling me that life will only get better,and its goten worse.earlier today i was going to a party and when i got there, no one was there because it was poring,the party was inside.i toke a bus there.i was in the middle of nowhere. when i tried to call someone i had no bars. i was walking down the road no the rain tring ti get some bars,i had gone 3 miles,then my phone batterie died. i had to walk anouther 4 miles to get to a gas sation.when i got there it was closed. i walked anouther 7 miles to the next one,when i fanally got home i was yellied at for geting home so late.my rents didnt let my say anything.when i tried saying sometjing my dad got mad,really mad and broke a vase.i hate my life.

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more miserableness

adult orphan — Tue, 02 Jun 2009 04:23:57 +0000

well my dad passed away a year ago come the 7th, after a quick illness. i still can\’t believe it all happened. i tried my hardest to keep it together all this time. i have no one. just my daughter, and i don\’t feel it\’s fair to lay all of this on her. my mom\’s whole family fell off the face of the earth within a 3 year period. my dad\’s family are all money hungry, all they wanted to know, after he died was who was going to get what! he didn\’t have much…they even wanted one of his trees cut down so, get this, so they could carve a totum pole…give me a break! a totum pole, really! it\’s weird to think of myself as an orphan, when I\’m a grown adult, but that\’s truely how i feel….completely alone! if anything ever happened to my daughter i would loose my mind!

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more of my miserable life

adult orphan — Tue, 02 Jun 2009 04:17:32 +0000

well, my dad turned out to be a great grandfather. my daughter adored him, which was helpful, since her father is a giant losser! he was working on his phd when we got married, then he started using meth, and has never put down the pipe! when he started hitting me i left. then his family blamed me for his ‘depression’ they were too stupid to see he was on drugs….everything was my fault. needless to say my daughter has had limited contact with her father’s family. of course her father hasn’t paid a dime of child support! i have supported her 100% for the last 11 years. the 3 years before that he worked for 1 1/2 years, and we were on welfare the other 1 1/2 years. she just graduated jr hi. he didnt even freaking get her a card!!!! i can’t belive what a freaking losser he is, he can afford cigs, and let me pay for his dinner after the grad ceremony, and i didn’t even realize he didn’t even get her a card until a couple of days later! I haven’t mentioned it to her, trying not to put energy into his pathetic excuses for parenting.

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my miserable sucky life

adult orphan — Tue, 02 Jun 2009 04:11:00 +0000

my life sucks! it was bad enough that my mom passed away when i was 5 months pregnant. i couldn’t belive she would never know my baby. she was such a good mom, and my dad treated her like shit my entire childhood. at age 7 i remember thinking they would be better off divorced. my mom didn’t think she could support me and my brother, so she put up with my dad’s horrible treatment. we would have been better off on welfare. my dad was really bad to my brother,too. my dad was not bad to me, so of course my mom and brother resented me…i couldn’t win. i hated my dad and my mom and brother hated me. if it wasn’t for my baby i know i would have thrown in the towel.

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My Life Blows

Yvonne — Sat, 30 May 2009 23:50:13 +0000

My life has never been a great one. My parents split when I was 3. My mom was never there for me, neither was my dad, and my brother is just a d*ck. I basically grew up on my own and I was alright with that UNTIL my mom started going blind. She was always depressed and taking EVERYTHING out on me. We literally HATE eachother. I became really depressed and started smoking weed and tried commiting suicide a few times. Then I met this guy who was and still is my everything. He helped me up when I was down. He is the only person I can truly turn too. The only person I really love and care about in this chaotic world.. But then my mom decided to move and I lost EVERYTHING. I can’t see the only person I care about. I’d give anything just to see him.. But I’ve gotten everything taken away from me in a single instant and now I’m just a complete disaster. But what’s really fkd is that my mom never told me we were moving until we two weeks before we moved. I hate her.. She ruined everything.

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life

bobie — Sat, 30 May 2009 19:11:30 +0000

i have moved every two years since i was 3 my dads never been there and i dont know my mom. ive lived with all my family memebers im now 19 and i have nothing i got married at 18 and then he got locked up for a sex offense charge. every relatioonship ive been in doesnt work and everything i do i seem to make it fail i dont have a job no money got kicked out of my parents house so staying with a friend and everyday seems to get worse i dont want to kill myself i just want to have things get better

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life

bobie — Sat, 30 May 2009 19:11:26 +0000

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