Welcome to Heather's HER2+ Hooter Infiltrator Roller Coaster ride for my life..

Please READ!! My friend's Mother was just diagnosed with Stage 3 Cancer. Please help if you can!! Thanks!

2014-04-12T19:51:00.000-04:00

Rose Norton friends and family are uniting to raise money to help with her battle against Uterine Cancer. Please show your support.!!!

Rose just found out she has stage3 Uterine Cancer. She does have some health insurance but it will not cover all of her expenses for medical and Chemo. She will be out of work without pay for about 6 weeks best case. As long as they do not find any more Cancer. We are asking for donations this will help her with expenenses. No amount is to small!

Rose lost her husband 2-1/2 years ago of 28 years to bladder cancer. Now she is facing cancer herself.

Go to www.giveforward.com

Thanks Love, Light and Hugs!!

My friend Loni who is an EVERYDAY INSPIRATION TO ME!! Please READ!!

2013-05-21T20:10:00.000-04:00

My friend Loni has been dealing with Lung Cancer for sometime now and the amazing journey it has taken her on. The awareness she has now what she has learned she is now teaching. Be blessed to have this knowledge.

Here is the link to purchase her book that will inspire and touch the hearts of those who read it..

http://www.amazon.com/Something-Extraordinary-Inspirational-Journal-Sparked/dp/1484008510/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1369156166&sr=1-1&keywords=something+extraordinary

LOVE, LAUGHTER, BLESSINGS, AND GOOD-BYES AFTER THE ROLLER COASTER!!

2013-01-20T17:25:00.002-05:00

Hello everyone, I know it has been forever since I have posted here a lot has happened in the last few months..

2012 was a Roller Coaster of a year both great and very sad as well.

By Dec 30th of 2012 I lost 6 friends to Cancer I would like to list their names now I ask as you read each one to just take a moment of silence, to pray and be grateful for all the loved ones you have still as well as those who souls have passed.

Toni, Carol, Ila, Priscilla, Jean and Annette. You all touched my life in different ways, I will remember your smiles, hugs, laughter and love.

Your soul's shine bright forever in my heart and thoughts. I am blessed to have known you, for what you stood for, most of all what you taught me that laughter even in the toughest of times is a choice we ALL have and not to wait for life to happen, go out and make it happen :) Miss you all...Until we meet again..

Wheww had to get that out..Now that we have their light on us, let's get to the rest of the year..

The girl's are GREAT My oldest is graduating High School this year and taking college course's as well could not be more proud!!

She is this June while I have struggled with this, the best I can do is let go and let her go to the college of her choice which is out of state, I know she will go GREAT things with her Life..Watching her grow from a baby to a young woman with beauty, brains and common sense there are no words..Just pure JOY! Making every moment count, they go by way too fast!

My baby (not a baby ya know what I mean:) is also doing very well great grades, Glee club and LOVES One Direction..Happy Teen she is my Lil LOVE So glad we have a few more years together before she goes off to College as well..

My girl's have always been my best motivation and deserve the best that life has too offer..

Myself I am going on 2 years cancer free Jan 24th :) I have to see my Oncologist every 6 months for a few years, okay by me he is a GREAT one!!
On all levels I am forever Humbled and Grateful..

God Bless you all, Many thanks for all your thoughts and Prayers..

GREAT drawings that my dad is doing! Uplifting!!

2012-08-28T18:10:00.000-04:00

http://frommypencil44.blogspot.com/2012/08/wolves_28.html?showComment=1346191210235#c3438300669900582410

Please Check out these amazing drawings my dad is doing!

Amazing, and yes he can draw your animal as well!!

Stay Blessed...

Heather

NEW BLOG!! LINK BELOW :)

2012-06-24T07:53:00.000-04:00

Hi everyone! Hope the start of your summer is great, full of sunshine and FUN! I started my new blog on Mother's Day.. Things are shifting in my life (for the BETTER) so I wanted to start a new blog that is very HEALING and EVERYONE can DO!! In life people, places and things can drain you, let my blog be a healing in your life as bringing it to you is in mine! Thank you!! These next chapters are gonna be EXCITING :)) ((((HUGS)))))

http://neversettle71-hugs.blogspot.com/

Sticks and Stones may break my bones, but Stitches and Scars will FOREVER change me!

2012-04-21T21:56:00.000-04:00

Well here we are at the final end of the Coaster, with the surgery over with had the tissue ex pander removed with an implant replacement and my right was revised as well, I still have the stitches they are small, my plastic surgeon is wonderful the scars will fade beautifully in time. Yet, after such a disaster (DAMN this GOOGLE CHROME go spell check yourself ANNOYING, yea I got that one right).
I am having to use the TAO and bandage myself everyday till Tuesday when the stitches come out..It is hard to do, I feel the stitches over my hands it is like touching the thorns on a rose (no they don't cut my fingers) just my heart..will be nice to trade in the bandages for a bra...I am blessed to have made the choice to get breast's back..Yet the relationship is so different, still such a detachment..

When the first ones tried to kill me..So much has changed in such a short time, like my body has gone through so many costume changes, and with each one I did have to play such a different role, now this one is not going to change..Who, What, Where, Why and HOW?

Time what is it really? The sun rises, sets, we set our clock to wake, work, sleep..Dates to keep track of Birth, times, and then our physical death..In that short dash is our life..So even if we lived to be 100 in the relevance of time or lack there of..Speaking of Eternity wise then even at that age we are still very, very young..But because our physical bodies show signs of death by aging we as humans are taught to gauge time by that and that alone..TO me no matter what age we die at still is not enough TIME to do ALL we want to do..or really meant to do..

Death is a needed event..Cancer is caused by our cells not dying and multiplying..invading precious organs required to survive..We need our soldiers to be the chemo in the event when invaders threaten our safety and ensure our survival as a country..The fact is no one gets out alive, it is who can live the longest, and have the interesting death story..I mean really who wants to go through hell and back to die from like a fire ant bite or something..( I am very allergic to them) so after all of this, that would suck..(this does not have to make sense) where I am at in my thought process..

I just know that my time is so precious, I have a second chance at life and want to take it by both hands..I just have to find that place and I am almost there..

Sticks and Stones may break my bones, but Stitches and Scars will forever change me..

Reminders of the journey of not knowing, to the hug I gave my girl's after my diagnosis the feeling that I still get with each one because I make them count.

Each birthday is precious without a doubt, seeing the sun, feeling the wind, tasting the rain..

Helps to lessen the pain, to find what is real what really matters..

Cause in an instant it can be shattered, like glass cutting into the soul, tears are the blood the soul cries out, leaving in it's place scars from the surgeons knife, who's gift was to save my life.

To cut the cancer out, and release my soul to serve my purpose for this life..Blessed be the scars, that forever changed me, who ever that is no longer matters, each day I choose to be whom ever and not ask why, I am finally free to FLY!

The butterfly is complete...

2012-04-12T08:45:00.000-04:00

Hi everyone, had my final surgery for my breast reconstruction yesterday. Had to be at the hospital at 5:45am UGGHH I know..LOL. Of course the arm (my right side) can no longer have IVs, blood pressure cuff as well as blood draws..due to all my lymph nodes taken out, so I was a hard stick the IV had to go in my wrist on my left arm all I have to say is thank goodness for lido-cane!!

The the gorgeous anesthesiologist came by to discuss everything..He is just so HOT!! Hey whatever gets me through huh? LOL Dr. E marked me all up, gave me the good drugs to relax me (wouldn't let me take any of it home though :) Then I got in the OR put the mask over my face and then Dr. Hottie put me to sleep..

Woke up in recovery not to much pain there, did give me pain med in my IV so that helped. Surgery was about 3 hours, amazing how nice it was to wake up with the tissue expander gone (no wonder I was so grumpy) it was as hard as a baseball and painful at times.That alone was a relief and he lifted my right side as well he fixed my "dog ears" which was the little flaps of skin from the tummy tuck on each side of my hips were poking out just annoying and ugly so he fixed that..

This surgery was so much easier then the last one, I am very sore, especially on my left side I can feel that side, where my right is not too bad still numb from the previous surgeries..Cannot shower or take off my bandages until tomorrow so I cannot wait to see the final results (it will take a few weeks for everything to settle.. So, happy that it is OVER..That I could get this reconstruction that a lot of women cannot get (if they do not have insurance) it is very expensive..Please click on the link on my blog page upper right hand corner that reads " Help women get the breast reconstruction they deserve" It is "My Hope Chest" helping women through donations to get the reconstruction they need to help put cancer behind them. It does help so much to have breast back that won't kill ya :) It is bringing awareness to people that think money with other groups helps with that and it DOES not! Thank you Dr. Egozi and his wonderful staff giving me back my balance in life. Your gift is amazing, I am so grateful to have this done.

" When you are grateful, you cannot be hateful" it is a choice..Thanks for reading :)

SURVIVOR SHIP IS like learning how to walk, If I fall I have to pick myself back up, and there are days I just want to crawl..

2012-04-01T19:03:00.002-04:00

Hi everyone, sorry have not blogged in awhile but as you can see by the title these past few weeks have been hard..I did see my surgeon,( Dr. B who did my double mastectomy, and I just fell apart on him. (By the way all is good), here I am during the roller coaster I went in to see him happy, great attitude, fighting spirit, taking things as they came to me..Now I fall apart???!! WTF is that about, he says it is called "Survivor Ship" and it is a real part of the journey, he says that himself and colleagues discuss this quite a bit. It is like post-partum depression or PTSD..(Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) I get these waves of on top of the world to really bad rage and anger, to hypersensitive to everything on a spiritual level that is great, however when others make comments that I used to take with a grain of salt now just get under my skin..I mean the other day I flipped the bird to a very old man that started to yell at me, for waving him on to cross the street..Not my finest hour but at the time it felt GREAT!!

If you really want to sum it up, I have been Poisoned, (chemo) Burned (by radiation), and Amputated (having both of my breasts removed)..So during the RIDE I had to go with it my life was so programmed and organized I made my choices that I felt (and turned out to be right) for me and my LIFE..However, the aftermath is messy, lonely, not very pretty and I just have to learn to accept it. I am trying, I have not told this to alot of people because I hear "Your alive are you not grateful?" DUHHH that goes without saying ALL the time how DAMN grateful I am, of course I am..Are you grateful you have not been diagnosed with cancer? That your ALIVE?? Just because I have had to go through and no it is not over it will never BE COMPLETELY OVER,..there will always be testing, Dr.'s feeling for lumps, "listening" to my body..I can accept that, I have a hard time with people who bitch and complain about the petty shit in their lives and I am supposed to be on the ground being grateful because I SURVIVED?? My survival was the outcome of MY choices to DO all I could to have a GREAT life with my family..For that I will forever be thankful..But do not, FEEL GUILTY for not being happy everyday..I am human, probably more so now..

Realizing what happened, it really happened to ME..

2012-02-19T22:40:00.001-05:00

Good evening everyone..Had to go to the ER today, had a funky looking bite or what ever on my leg after getting a pedicure..and had a viral stomach thing so had to get fluids and chest, and stomach xray..I totally had a breakdown in there today...I did not want to be there and the realization that I will always have to be under a doctors care. I got through cancer just fine, now with these little things I freaked OUT! I know it was from having to tell (again for the 1,000 time) every surgery, chemo, rads, meds ect..and today for the first time I really HEARD myself..And I was scared..I really broke down and I have never done that in front of anyone (except at home) but I did not care and it was really freeing..I feel better, but different..Am watching the Tony Robbins special and I really am feeling the Post Traumatic Growth from this...Growth is painful..Just means I am on the right path..Here is my fav song by Adele..:) All will be good..Seasons set in, have to weather the storms..

Thanks for reading as always..:)

http://youtu.be/FlsBObg-1BQ

Expansion is over, still under CONSTRUCTION!!

2012-02-05T00:14:00.002-05:00

Hi everyone! It has been a crazy ride this past January, with working 6 days a week (been a blessing though)..Along with weekly expansion of my left breast which I just finished (Dr thinks maybe one more this next week I see him on Thursday) then I can rest for 2 months before the final surgery, where he will exchange the expander for an implant and revise the other side to make them match..I am very lop sided at this point..LOL I just make a joke about it, as I know it is not forever. However it is as hard as a baseball and getting to be painful..It is all going to be GREAT!

On a much more somber note, my mentor and friend Toni Keen passed away at 51 on Jan.24th, 2012 she battled stage 4 breast cancer for 4 YEARS..She is my hero, inspired so many people even when she (I know) she didnt feel good, her faith in God and upbeat attitude reminds me that everyday may not be good, but there is something good in everyday! I miss you Toni and will think of you always..You have inspired me to help others just as you did, after all that is why we are here..To serve others..Those that are self-serving are usually the ones that are so unhappy..

Peace, Love and happiness to all here is a link to my HUGS support group..Please message me and look for the new HUGS blog starting tomm..Along with monthly meetings for those in the Clearwater, FL area..Will post again this Sunday with more information.. Thanks for reading and keep Toni's family in your prayers.. God Bless :)

https://www.facebook.com/#!/pages/HUGS-Help-Understanding-Guidance-and-Support/302442586450419

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! Hello 2012 :)

2011-12-31T20:49:00.000-05:00

Yea, I love the first of the year, it is new, fresh,exciting..Not knowing what is coming is exciting, making really FUN plans this coming year..Knowing it has been a year Jan, 24th that I was declared cancer FREE..YIPPEEE!! No resolutions, goals this instead this year..Goals are easier to keep..So have a safe, fun New Year's Eve everyone!! Thanks for supporting my blog all year..More posts to come :)))

The good, the bad and the UGLY!! GRAPHIC PICTURES!!! .

2011-12-29T21:12:00.004-05:00

*****WARNING THE IMAGES IN THE

POST ARE HIGHLY GRAPHIC THIS IS THE REALITY OF MASTECTOMY AND RECONSTRUCTION YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED*******

I have had requests for pictures of what I have been through after all it has not all been pretty and positive that is not reality, that exists in my blog at least..Leave that for TV my blogs are not edited just as reality isn't. This is 10months post op, the darking of the skin is from the radiation it will fade with time..My port is on the upper right side which I had my treatments through, that was taken out at the time of reconstruction :)

January 2011 I underwent a double mascetomy the right breast had cancer, the left was a choice of mine which now I am glad I made. I did not choose immediate reconstruction because I had to have radiation on the right side due to the cancer invaded my lymph nodes. So I healed up had 33 treatments of Radiation.

Six months later met with my Plastic Surgeon to undergo a 10 hour reconstructive surgery TRAM FLAP (take the tissue, fat, and some muscle from my stomach to make my new breast! (Nov.2nd, 2011) 15 days before my 40th birthday here I am below 5 days post op with 6 drains that lasted for almost 2 weeks, had daily nursing care to change my dressings and put on a tube of Antibiotic ointment each day had over 200 stitches..My left breast is being expanded out every week until it the skin is stretched enough then the expander will be taken out, implant placed and some revisions to the right breast..This also resulted in a tummy tuck which is FAB!! Went back to work after 4 weeks. Feeling very good, cannot wait to get the next surgery over with so I can go bikini shopping! I am so thankful to be ALIVE and HEALTHY again..IT still is hard somedays waiting to heal...Thank you GOD!! For a second chance :))

How to protect your teenagers from breast cancer!! (Son's included)

2011-11-30T10:30:00.001-05:00

Hi everyone, I was up till 2 am last night doing some research on prevention of breast cancer for my daughters. My oldest daughter April is having a really hard time and I know that a big fear for her is "Am I going to get breast cancer too?"

Not being able to answer that question is devastating as a mother, because I should have all the answer's right??? I am her mom, I am supposed to protect her from harm..And I, well there is just no words on how I am feeling, so I am doing something proactive. Now it is important to check out the links etc. I like this site because, it gives you a list of foods to avoid, what to eat and WHY!! Just click on the foods..

NOW A BIG WARNING, THIS SITE IS FOR HER2+ BREAST CANCER I AM NOT SURE ABOUT OTHER TYPES, IF YOUR FAMILY HAS A HISTORY OF BREAST CANCER IT IS IMPORTANT TO KNOW THE FACTORS, (THERE IS TOO MANY TO LIST) AS THEY VARY GREATLY!!!! SO DO YOUR OWN RESEARCH FOR THAT (NOT SHOUTING JUST WANTING TO MAKE SURE THAT IS UNDERSTOOD;)

This thought just will not leave me until I blog it..One of my home health nurses had lymphoma 20 years ago she was told by 3 doctors that she was going to die, having a husband that just died of cancer a year before and two teenage kids, she said "HELL NO I am not going anywhere" She researched her cancer and nutrition (plus doing all the medical treatments i.e. chemo ect.) she is here, doing well and taking care of others..

Her dog by the way has cancer as well, should have been dead 6 months ago, because she took the time to research his type (P52, whatever that is) she has fed him beets every night (prevents the cancer from reproducing) and he is doing very well..

I pray this helps us all..I pray everyday, along with meditation that I can do what is in my control to help prevent this from happening to our precious children..The list will shock most..Here is another link for son's as well it can happen..Thanks for reading..

http://foodforbreastcancer.com/articles/how-can-we-protect-our-daughters-from-breast-cancer%3f---teenage-years-and-young-adulthood

http://foodforbreastcancer.com/articles/how-can-we-protect-our-sons-from-breast-cancer%3f

I am a SURVIVOR, I wear my scars as the badges of my battle PROUDLY!

2011-11-25T10:24:00.002-05:00

Today is a very emotional day for me, I am not really sure why..feelings I should not have to explain anyway going with the flow means just that, do not question it feel it and see where it takes you. I picture it as a wave that I am surfing along with..I just had to write today..As most of you know I did have my reconstructive surgery done, it is not complete I will have revisions and a implant placed in my left breast sometime next year (April) or so...I am excited, but never less I will have scars that are very visible and it is so hard to REALLY see what I have been through,,I know the scars will fade with time..Right now they are so fresh and new..The pain will go away..in fact it really is not all that bad I am 3 weeks out and do not need pain med anymore..I drove with no pain yesterday! Just another change but I am so happy to look down and see my new breasts they are not perfect but they are MINE and nothing can take these away!!

The scars I bear are the badges of honor that I will forever wear..
reminding me that I fought the war of cancer and won, it did not defeat me, I am not done..Each day I look at them and weep for my body has gone through so much, will anyone ever what to touch me again??? I hope and pray that someday, someone special will look at my scars the way I do that is my goal, to see me, see my soul. I am not perfect I never was..I have learned the lesson of what is important, people not things, positive energy and spiritual healing is the way to go..I will forever wear my badges proudly, holding my head high knowing I won the battle..

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Taking the time to quiet my mind and find my true path in life..It is so powerful!

2011-11-21T10:24:00.001-05:00

Good day to all!! I am taking this healing time to really find myself, I have always been attracted to healing, love and sharing what I have been through with others. There are reasons why we go through what we do, my conclusion is to help each other deal with the pain and truly heal.

Most of us ( I am speaking for myself as well) have used negative things to numb ourselves from really feeling, for me it was wine I would have a glass or two a few times a week I never got drunk but I did feel completely relaxed, I really thought that helped me deal with stress etc. Which I am sure most of you can relate!

Now that I am on this path of healing, listening to Reki music, going to meditation and healing classes gives me a FAR better relaxation feeling that lasts, without the depressed feeling that alcohol leaves you with in the morning. Instead I am relaxed, rejuvenated, thinking is much better, can really focus and am finding out who I am and what I REALLY want. It is a beautiful process this is a brand new journey that is a true FEELING it is something that is inside of us all we just need to take the TIME to tap into it. Love yourself enough to get this gift that is inside all of us..It really unfolds like a butterfly, the feeling is true FREEDOM...

Stay positive, blessed and loving!

Heather ;)

H.U.G.S New support group on Facebook!!

2011-11-19T09:04:00.000-05:00

Good Saturday Morning everyone! I am so excited as I have a new support group called H.U.G.S. ((Help,Understanding, Guidance and Support)

It is for anyone going through struggles, illness, caregivers ect. Whatever the case maybe we ALL have a story to tell, we are here to help EACH other so I offer all of us to come together and help heal each other knowing we are not alone and YES someone does know how you feel!

Here is my link my goal is to have 10,000 likes soon..Give a HUG to someone as you always get one back, it is free and healing. Change is always, lets be better together in turn the world will start to heal as well..We want a better place, lets create it..WE can do it! Postive thoughts = Positive results! Peace and Love to all :)

https://www.facebook.com/#!/pages/HUGS-Help-Understanding-Guidance-and-Support/302442586450419

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME, I AM CANCER FREE AND ALWAYS WILL BE :)

2011-11-17T08:57:00.001-05:00

Good Morning Everyone! Today is a great day, I am 40 years old and could not be happier or more blessed. I went through my reconstructive surgery on Nov. 2nd took 10 hours, lots of stitches and a WONDERFUL plastic surgeon Dr. Egozi did a wonderful job, I get my stitches out today, while it was no picnic I would recommend this surgery to anyone I feel so much better mentally to see that I have back what cancer took, I have my life and self esteem back. I thank God above for 40 years of a great life, which now I appreciate more then ever. I hope my blog continues to bring peace and comfort to those that are going through this take it day by day, appt by appt, and you CAN and WILL get through this. Please let me know if I can pray for you or someone you know. I have a support group on FB called H.U.G.S. (help, understanding, guidance and support). Please look into it as we ALL need some support from one another, we are not put through things to be alone, together we are stronger! Peace and Love always!!

Heather

3 Days until I board the Reconstruction RollerCoaster!!!

2011-10-30T08:36:00.002-04:00

Happy Sunday Everyone!! Here we are at recounstruction already..It has been a year and 4 months since this crazy cancer rollercoaster started; On Wed. Nov 2nd I will be undergoing surgery I am nervous, excited to show cancer that I am at the top of the coaster shouting "HAHAHAHHAHAHA you may have taken my breasts, now I am getting them back and I have allowed this journey to make me sooooooooooo much better, you may have pushed me down but I am standing tall"

What I am learning is that some people do not understand why I have to have this type of surgery I have included a video on why and ~~IT IS VERY GRAPHIC SHOWING THE WHOLE SURGERY FROM START TO FINISH SO IF YOU DO NOT LIKE THAT SORT OF THING DO NOT WATCH IT~~~~~I WARNED YOU!!!

The reason for this type of surgery is duing a mascetomy the surgeon takes everything on my right side the new my chest wall is GONE! It looks like my breasts were erased from my body..very surreal..IT is FLAT I cane feel my breast bone also radation killed the blood supply so the pedicule flap has its own blood supply which will keep my new breast alive. On the left side there is still the wall there because that side did not have cancer I wanted it gone because I am too young and did not want to take the risk no matter how small..There is enough tissue there to use a tissue expander which stretches the skin to one size larger then what I want, it is filled with saline once every 2 weeks and then will be replaced with a silicone implant. In Aug 2012 I will be able to have my nipples replaced..And then the journey will be over..Of course I will have to be monitered for the rest of my life..Hey that is ok with me, every doc visit will be few and farther, each one means I am still ALIVE!!!

http://youtu.be/xcew3ycbG50?t=5s

Soon to be 40 and FAB!!! SO excited...

2011-09-25T09:03:00.002-04:00

Hi everyone, I know it has been awhile since my last post dealing with alot of emotions very up and down...I am ALL finished with my Herceptin treatments, my heart handled it very well last ECHO was fantastic (I always knew I had a good heart ;)

Went to my plastic surgeon about reconstruction (all along nurses, Dr's have been telling me you must wait a year due to radation ect) That however is not the case, 6 months is the longest he would like to wait as the radation side only gets worse with time not better..Nov 2nd is the day he is doing the TRAM flap (so I get a tummy tuck as well) I am so excited to have my body back..I deserve to have my breasts back and will get back on the rollercoster for the make-over..I will keep you posted..See Cancer what you took away I will get back ten-fold you are dead, forever and NEVER allowed to invade my body or family EVER again..We are stronger, braver, and FEARLESS..You never had the power..You taught me I am amazing, and I HAVE THE POWER..I was weak when I met you..You made me a survivor...^--^

You must NOT QUIT!

2011-06-19T20:07:00.000-04:00

You Must Not Quit

When things go wrong; as they sometimes will,
When the road you’re trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don’t you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a fellow turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out.
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow,
You might succeed with another blow,

Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man;
Often the struggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor’s cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit,
It’s when things seem the worst that you must not quit.

Author Unknown~~

Don't be afraid of me I am just "UNDER CONSTRUCTION"~~New Chapter in this book :)

2011-06-12T15:04:00.002-04:00

Yes, it my cancer is GONE. In fact it was one year ago June 10th,2010 I got the awful news..The old Heather did die that day..She had too, Who came out of this is someone so different! It is crazy but TRUE. My duty here is not finished there are still more stories to share. For many women (and MEN) their journey is just starting and while I am done with chemo, surgery, radation, losing hair, growing hair, having big boobs, to no boobs, planning my reconstruction now is the fun side of it ALL!

This summer I am planning on meeting with the plastic surgeon to find out excatly when I can proceed with the "boob prints" (Get it instead of Blue prints hahaha yea whatever). This is part of the light at the end of the dark tunnel with new ideas, dating again, volunteering and just having FUNNNNN!!

Here is my FAV song by Adele http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mBRUkdQa6Is

I missed writing and did go through a period of withdrawing and deppression, I am getting over that, venturing into other business ideas I in fact today have purchased my domain sites and getting my website started, ordered some of my products, ect. Realizing that I am the OWNER of my destiny, Life is no longer running me, I am taking the wheel, with the top down, sun on my face, feeling the true inner peace of KNOWING what I am doing is my destiny and passion. New Fun Chapter in this new book, cannot wait to see it play out..All I want to do right now is to have TONS OF FUN :)

Heather's H.I Final RIDE!!! :))))

2011-05-03T21:17:00.002-04:00

Shedding my old skin, learning to get to know the new role, in the next chapter of my life!

2011-04-25T20:11:00.001-04:00

Hi all! Radation is OVER, I am in the final stages of healing from the burns, old skin is peeling, brand new and the softest skin EVER it is really going to be beautiful! Still having some pain, better then last week but not 100% yet. Going tommorrow for my Echo (to check my heart as Herceptin can maybe damage it so I am monitored very closely).

To me this whole cancer crap is over, yes I will still have Dr. appts every few months and Herceptin till Sept but that is nothing compared to what lies ahead!! :) A beautiful life, enjoying my girl's every minute the little things, (baking cookies, throwing the ball,swimming, and my favorite is while I was healing all of us in my bed with bowls of ice cream, watching TV and just laughing over everything! Even our cat enjoyed the fun!!) Having a social life again, no longer sweating the small stuff, knowing you can fit alot in one day..Planning my reconstruction which is very EXCITING!!!!!

Love this picture of my cat Smokey he was cleaning his stomach and propped himself up on the coffee table was way too cute!!

I am doing very well! It is done I am closing the chapter in the cancer book. I will still continue to inspire those who need it while gaining inspiration myself..

Thanks again for reading and supporting me and my blog...I am just getting started as blogging is a passion of mine. Just will be different subjects that are fun and to show those going through this there is an end to cancer and it does not have to be a bad one :)) Then a new chapter begans, new awareness, working for the better of ourselves and others.

Where there is pain, there is growth. Growth equals Wisdom. Wisdom brings truth..In Truth is where Happiness lies..That is my perception of what this journey was supposed to teach me..I am slowly learning the lesson..

The Final countdown!! 5,4,3,2,1....Life begans :)

2011-04-07T23:39:00.000-04:00

I may not be beamed up but my energy sure is.....

2011-03-22T21:06:00.000-04:00