my life with toppings

"Status Message"

2010-03-11T00:52:00.000-08:00

Mercury rising.......workload soaring........bank balance deep sea diving........

aaaarrrghhhh.....life has fallen into a rut it seems......!!!

The Fiery Essence.....

2009-12-27T15:28:00.000-08:00

T'was a cold night and a bunch of jobless people were whiling away their time sitting around a log fire.....talking...discussing.....arguing....teasing....having a good time. One big jobless among the bunch had a decent camera....and out it came after an incidental whack on the burning log

released a shower of sparks that appealed to our sense of art. This set of pics is the result of that brief phase.
These firelit nights have a novelty about them. Its just fits so perfectly in the classic version of time pass under the clear skies on a chilly night!

Practical vs Cynical

2009-12-26T10:23:00.000-08:00

I know this wise sage! He opens various facets of my thought process.
So today this sage asked me a question which all my female friends have asked me at one point or the other...."What is your idea of your perfect man?"
Pat came the reply...."There is nothing called "a perfect man", its all in the head."
The wise one was amused...."Very good! You have had your tryst with reality!"
I stopped for a beat......
"Go on....you must have some pre-requisites for THE man?"
So I went," Yeah well he must have a good dress sense, must be a book lover but NOT a book worm, we should have similar taste in music, should like to go out and explore....." I trailed away.
"A lot of men will fit that bill you know."
I paused.
True.
"Well, since i dnt believe in the 'perfect man' concept and i think its all faff.....an illuion...my take on my preferred partner will be with whom I will have a certain number of interests in common, a few thing on which we can have an eye to eye stance.....every man has shortcomings. Now the questions is whether you would like to put up with his shortcomings and idiosyncracies or not. That is the crux of what we commonly call a 'relationship'."
"You realize dont you, that you have by force or by experience weeded out the concept of 'all encompassing'/''unconditional' LOVE? At the age of 19 you are basically looking at a relationship dynamics rather than the emotions that fuel it!", said my sage.
DAMN!!!
The wise man smiled and continued,"My dear, you have made friends with cynicism very early in life. Where's the romance in your heart?"
Not wanting to soften up I spewed forth a lil literary jargon..."As the dashing Rhett Butler once said,'Love for pleasure, Marry for convinience'.....that's whats there underlying all the muss and the fuss."
This time my sage didnt have to say a single word!
I winced at the coldness of my words.
Where is that beautiful sense of romance which enables us to appreciates the world around us....makes this life worth living?
Have I mentally evloved past my age?
Bullshit.....romance has got nothing to do with age!
I am very accustomed to hearing a good friend of mine say "Ah dont you go 'plop...plop' again" whenever there was some good looking guy around...
Does that mean I do the "plopping" in a mechanical fashion?
How come I have a shadow of a cynic tailing the most tender of my thoughts?

Just a passing thought......

2009-12-09T09:42:00.000-08:00

The whole of November went by dreading the impending loneliness in December. Now in December I realize that i don't mind my being alone at all.....in fact I quite like it.

Talk about the little perks of life.....

The same game.....with a different name.

2009-08-09T12:44:00.000-07:00

Another day come and gone. A day very similar to the last 95 days of my life. A day not very productive just like the all those 95 days. I woke up at 10:00am.......lazed around.....read the newspaper....watched TV......took my bath.....had lunch....watched some more TV......read a bit of a book.....did a few crossword puzzles.......played a bit of music....again back in front of the TV......had dinner.....watched a flick..... [Oh yeah.....in between all this I surfed the net a couple of times]. And now it’s almost 1:00 am.....and I am writing a blog after months. Quite an easy life I have got huh??? At first all this felt like heaven.....I mean after 4 months of a hectic semester where I hardly got to sleep....being able to laze around was a relief. The 1st day back home I crashed for almost 18 of the 24hrs that are there to a day.

But slowly after the 1st month the fact that I am doing nothing productive started bugging me. I had mild mood swings. Seeing people go about doing their business....earning their bread....made me feel strangely dissatisfied....lacking.....

At first i ignored the feeling....but slowly I took notice and then I found the reason. Many of us hate being in a routine....hate leading a routine life. I do. But here I am on my three month long summer vacation...not following a routine....yet...yet feeling dissatisfied! Now that really sucks!!!

It was then that it struck me that maybe as I am thinking that I am defying any sort of routine...or let’s say schedule.....unknowingly I am leading a very very orderly life. Not necessarily a good order....but hey....there you are...in an attempt to escape from one order/routine/schedule just i slipped into another, one that I don’t like much. And now I long to get back to the previous order of classes......lunch hours.....libraries....assignments.....tests.....and the whole picture. Crazy huh???

I figured it’s like a vicious circle....to escape from an orderly life [if you want to that is] you take time off and lead a different kinda life...maybe just for a change or maybe for good....but whatever it is one can’t really escape a kind of routine.....you get outta one and immediately slip into another....and it goes on....

A perfect circle indeed!!! :)

Some random stuff!!!!!

2009-03-16T08:36:00.000-07:00

Phewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!! A new batch of kids are finally coming..........at last we won’t be the “little kiddos” of this campus. When we became the newest and youngest members of this eccentric campus it was muy weird I can tell you that. Since we are the 1st batch BA batch of EFLU our immediate seniors were the MA 1st years. The PhD and the MPhil scholars in any other university would have been totally cut off from the BA s but I guess its bit different in our campus...... on the other hand it pains me a little to hand over the special position and the [slightly uncomfortable] limelight which we enjoyed for a whole year to the influx of BA s in August.......but i guess we’ll always have the distinction of being the 1st BA batch of the almighty, awshombhob antael marka bishshobiddaloy. Just hope once the new batch comes in there will be a lil more of ready acceptance of the BAs from the old shrews of the campus..........at least some of them who had a problem and also a little more unity and interaction among the BAs so that we can battle the incompetence and lackadaisical attitude of the kingpins or those old shrews who have been around too long in EFLu. I’ve heard about various college cultures but ours is perhaps the deadest one. It is supposed to be the BEST centre for learning languages but people hardly know about the university. Sad right!!! When I tell my friends and relatives that I am studying in the English and Foreign Languages University with pride in my voice it’s kind of a dampener to see their blank faces.......most of my relatives probably think that it is some obscure college with no credibility and since I did horribly in my +2 boards [not true though] my dad had to pay a huge capitation fee and stuff me in that godforsaken college.....oops.......sorry.......”university”.......shyaaah!!!

Nevertheless EFLu needs young blood with lots enthusiasm and vision. When older people hear this stuff they usually have a benign expression on their face and most of them say that,”Oh it’s the age......at the age of 18 we all think that we can conquer the world and set the screwed system right...we think that the world will walk on the path we set and etc....etc.”

I don’t really agree to that. I think it’s the power of optimism and positive thinking that young people are charged with and to be honest I think people should retain it even at the age of 60.

My Prozac.......the rain.....

2008-11-17T01:43:00.000-08:00

The weather in Hyderabad for last couple of days has been rainy, chilly and really windy.......weather experts call it a depression....... a bad weather........with cold winds incessantly blowing n the rain that is falling in breaks n spurts.....the wetness all around.........blaaargh.....for any sane mind the weather is just horrible!!!! 5 months back I would have hated this weather too.....but EFLU kinda changed my weather preferences!!! When I came to Hyderabad, to ELU for the admission formalities, it was 3rd August.....the peak of monsoon in AP. The sky was dark & overcast all the time and the continuous downpour......uffffff. The rain-washed green n neat EFLu campus was a sight to behold! The 4th of Aug was the admission day.......the day we were informed that the start of our term has been postponed from 11th Aug to 18th Aug.....we were faced with a 14 days wall......what do we do???
Me & radha, one of my batchmates, moved into the the apartment alloted to us on the 6th of August. then time started moving.....verry sluggishly it seemed as we had nothing to do the whole day!!!!!we used to get up at say 9:30am and sometimes as late as 11:00am......and in the process shocking ourselves coz obviously back home gettin up this late was jst UNTHINKABLE......but slowly we got go into this new mode of life......romping in the rain at night......singing crappy songs with complete abandon........managing to go to sleep by 3:30am....latest by 4:00.......getting up by noon.......complete addiction to the midnight walks......the steaming double elaichi tea.....a Sagar stores spaciality.......getting all high listening to 'Carnival of Rust' by Poets of The Fall......and most importantly being 'blissfully bekaar'.
After the classes started in real earnest one aspect we missed frm those days in the campus is the rain......coz wen it rains the whole campus welcomes it with open arms.....people dnt run indoors when it rains.....just the opposite!!! Quite a sight!!!
Why i am suddenly writing about the rain and my early days in the EFLU campus??? Well it so happened that a couple of day ago when the weather was still all rainy and romantic I went up to the roof of the staff quaters building. It was around 8:00 in the evening.....the wind was blowing with some force & it carried the promise of rain with it.......it was dark......i was listening to music on my MP3 player......the setting was so tranquil that that unconsciously i started kinda dancing....then all of a sudden Arpita came up too & we danced together to music of the wind & the rustling of the leaves.....ahhhh.......silly but divine.......reminded me of the silliness we used to indulge in in those early days......

So!!! U think i am inanimate haan???!!!

2008-09-18T12:43:00.000-07:00

The title seems a trifle puzzling.......??? Dnt you worry! I'll clarify! Here in our university we have an academic block....a nice and posh building......architechturally very pleasing......hi-tech classroom....what more can a student possibly want???!!! Now 4 sum important information. The building has frigging four floors. Now u might say....4 floors...big deal!!!But problem is that my classroom is in the 4th floor......so far so good. The administration has even gone to the extent of providing a couple of swanky sleek elevators for dat building. Now that's really nice of them.

Hmmmmmmmmm........................too perfect a situation right???

Tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..............!!!!!!

Problem..........here it is! The lift apparently has a mind of its own! Its like a moody woman in her forties suffering from midlife crisis!!! Seriously!!! You are call the lift to the third floor n if the lift is at the ground floor it refuses to go beyond the second floor or lets say it adopts a 'go to hell' attitude.....leaving all the people irate n waiting for the lift at the 3rd floor......repeatedly jamming their fingers on the call button! At times it graces the harried people with awsome obedience......like when your class is in 4th floor n its already 9:00am n u hav a super-punctual teacher......oh yes!!! it happens sumtyms! That cranky piece of human creation does to the extreme edge sometyms n takes a loooooooooong break....o shall we say it takes a lot of casual leaves!!!
So that's how it is......a perfect love-hate relationship.......but work out well somehow!!!

A murky side of the human mind.......

2008-09-16T01:31:00.000-07:00

Hordes of student crowded the entrance of the Gokak auditorium. It is Saturday....the day a film is screened & today the film is LOLITA. The turn out was much larger....take a guess at the reason......well it was the attraction posed by the steamy love scenes that the movie promised. Cant help that can we???!!! The movie starts.....the 1st half n hour was devoid of love scenes [poor audience!!!] but when those scenes started comming thick n fast needless to say the usual business of senseless giggles n stupid comments came alive, but that's ok right??? I mean its a college going Indian crowd......most of them still high on wine of youth....or so they say. With Indian films using liberal doses of glycerine & having people crying their eyes out in films like Kabhi Khushi kabhi Gahm, Kal Ho Na Ho.... the sad scenes where Lolita, after hearing the news that her mother is no more, sobs in a heartwrenching manner should awaken some sympathy in the minds of the audience. But woe alas!!! It was not to be so...! A roar of laughter is what greeted that particular part of the flick!!! That was not the only emotionally charged part of the film.....but I assure you that each of those scenes got a similar response......
Oh yes some morally upright people[who came to watch Lolita kowing very well abt its sexual content.....in fact came to watch the movie jst for that] left the hall soon enough.....and why would'nt they......those scenes were "too much"...

What should I call this psychology
.......hypocricy......saddism.......???
You tell me......

Made a move........finally!

2008-09-13T09:06:00.000-07:00

The need for a blog in my life in EFL-U became very glaring when too many things started happenning......one after the other.......and saturated my mind beyond toleration!!! Oh no......no no....! When I say 'happennings' there are loads of good things innit.........but also fluctuating moods that need an outlet. So here's my blog........that part of the girl Neha which many people are unaware of......& which quite a few misinterpret!!!