My Poetic Heart

Vigor (Dear Leo)

2020-12-05T09:14:00.004-08:00

It’s not the notion that nothing crumbles beneath your shadow or talus

Tell us nothing is bothering you

We are believers of beautiful storms

And

The gospel that you’ve reached mountains and topped that with conquests or upsets

Preyed up ... and heavily eating heavenly

It’s not the pressure in muscle tones having to tone deaf death threats

Invisible razors hidden in the mane of sharp tongued bluntness

But the indestructible habits

Impregnable spirit

Mighty roar of contentment

Look Ma “I did it!”

It’s the incomplete fetish of grown man success

Stepping on toes right in front of whoever’s getting left

It’s the purest and only form of love and loneliness ..

It’s the way that you humble the God in you by silently blessing God with your humbleness

It’s the vigor of a Lion so faint

Caressing each curve of my tender fragility with the most powerful restraint

Receiving perceptions of your love language untouched by your lips

Your falsehood entangled within my deception groping naked truths ...I lie in your strength

Involved

2018-06-26T18:41:00.001-07:00

The sun is failing at hiding

Effortlessly not trying to shine,

Come with wind blowing north of you

Roots attached, shedding all but truth

Trust, there’s some deeply embedded fuckery of sorts

You know like how I carved the outline of my soul

Digging my heart, wasting good blood

Wrapping the beautifully scorned sculpture in non fragility

Your arms don’t even reach on low shelves

And high shelves gives too much credit to worthiness

Because I was never taught simple mathematics

So let’s complicate things

You know let’s pretend it’s pretty

And the brutal ugliness of he’s not that into you doesn’t appear so moon like

For the imaginary Kings are awaiting the Crimson liquor drenched we

The scent of me is too faint

So i drown myself in poignant self love self loathing bullshit my nose wakes up

Before my eyes

Still closed, still blind to imagery so clear

How I can still see the sun shining at its failing attempt to hide.

©️Vernette Harris 2018

Flames

2018-01-07T19:31:00.000-08:00

Soulmates always having to be thunderstorms

invading beats of hearts

making bad choices

good choices in the eyes

beholding some sort of hope of compatibility..

I surrender my indifference

pity time spent

figuring out the calmest storm.

Teetering in doubts collectively united

storing them in glittery satin ribbon tied boxes..

we should enjoy moments like this..

repeating harmonious fears

neglecting our power .

Let’s pray...

Combustion of silences,

we face invisible lines and

tongues tainted in white lies

blacken our vision

we stay loving a slow death.

©️Vernette Harris 2018

Boi

2018-01-06T19:05:00.000-08:00

Inside and out

I’ve imagined sunshiny moonlights crossing paths with black cats

Resting assured the we don’t meditate on thoughts ..

thinking only in sub titles

and its foreign to me that you only see clear shadows ..

blackened moments brighten my day.. imagine that.

In fact ..

how soon we forget the bliss of ignorant sweet dreams

and salty wounds hidden in depths of unspoken memories.

You are not who I pretend to see
©️Vernette Harris 2018

Expectancy

2017-12-22T10:33:00.001-08:00

Dedicated to my sins

Devoted transgressions to divine law

I prosper in peace

Piecing apart unspoken movement

Conflicted on the erect joy dangling

Engulfing my inner shift

Suffering never felt so good

We drift, I seek air amass the watering

Watered down indulgence

Ejecting a pink silhouette

But you promised me crimson type shit

I digress

We stayed true to two

and one thing for certain False Gods blessed

Clearly undressed,

But to deceive a phantom,

How touching it is to embrace hope

Wishing a motherfucker would just learn to love

©Vernette Harris 2017

I've never

2016-11-23T21:10:00.000-08:00

I've never met the gaze of his eyes

And wonder which empty space interrupts our coupling

I read his mind in between lines of quiet

Never meeting the moment

Where his hands shakes credence

We've arrived at future glances and tongues dance in anticipation.

I crave him forcefully.. banging the notion that we are present in a never ending past of not knowing what desire really is..

I've never met the sudden thrust of his whispers .. shadows speaking the unsung love language commonly known to man..rejected and accepted in my hands

We've come further than karma

Now I must wait for fate

How soon a melody cried time in time

Waiting for him to meet my stained skin or laughter

Perusing me in strokes and fondle my inner peace .. I surrender

Never have I ever wanted what I've never.

©Vernette Harris 2016

Oh Africa

2016-02-15T16:10:00.001-08:00

Oh Africa

Reaching within in search of my mother

My entire being has been washed before birth

Tampered and smeared in soil

I dig

I find the roots of my blood

But tainted hands are executed

So I live..

Living with an entire lost continent embedded on my lips

My hair longing for mercy

My eyes rebel against me, the devil has raped them to brighten my skin.. Unrecognizable yet acceptable enough to fondle

My breasts erect and full of liquors,

My suns and moons get drunk off rage

I taste the Nile in my cries so i remain tearless

My mother can't help me and I beg for her.

So I close my eyes and scream her name...oh Africa!

SERENDIPITY

2014-10-04T12:06:00.001-07:00

And like the seasons

To be predictably unpredictable

We've fallen into each other's sunshine

We've melted into each others cool

Hovering in doubt.. We bend

Fallaciously straightening our curves

The authenticity in our faults

Our brokenness mends... How cruel to be so loving

Time teaches us to cry

Screams silent soliloquies in ardor

And we blow each other in spence

Unfulfilled and so full of the obvious

We ignore soulfully

Thoroughly amazing

Our moments are clear at midnight

Unclear.. Betwixt twilight and dawn

Unawakened by fear..

We share space interrupted

Love has conquered us

Bullied its way toward freedom

Leaving our minds blurry and grey

Carelessly ignoring its silhouette

Should we ever...

©Vernette Harris 2014

Trouble sleeping

2014-08-21T23:32:00.001-07:00

Rocks so solid

Arise like certitude

We meld

Complete and...

Uninterrupted truths and such

How can I be so translucent?

My skin so sticky

Like Braille upon your membrane

How could you understand where I'm coming from?

We be like in reverse

Running from palpitating inner thoughts.

No love lost, I suppose

And love so stubborn

It stains crimson matter

Tracing the roots of

My sins to the core of my soul..

I loosen your flow

Boldly tilting the balance that don't exist

In other words, I'm tripping

Leaning to side of indifference

Im stretched so deep

The flood that ensues

Troublesome.

Soul stirring

My Nile has erupted.

I-firmative

2014-05-25T16:48:00.001-07:00

Breath....ing

Outside the conception of I never had

Sensations and typos of love

Make it go lustfully and sun settings

I belong

Touching each sleepless thought

Heartache never felt so alive

Waking up to hollow dreams

Walking silently into---passion

Passionately

I belong

The song begins to play our end

Settled in your speechless tongue

Layered beneath broken promises

Hopeless in shattered hopes

Regrets bloom so lovely

I belong

Rebel destiny and grasp wandering air

Trust my graceful silhouette

I lie loosely into the crevices of your certain untruths

Belonging to you.me.we

Moving mountain tops and

Rising rivers we cease to-

Afraid to attach a memory

To nothing more than

Distant whispers

We be longing

Carefully un-placing fingerprints

Intentionally unloving you

Defying sweet things and such

Into city lights and the moon lit country side

I belong

Thinking of two 2 trains

At speeds of harmonious desire

Towards brooks- lingering

I reach waves and oceans

Drowning

At the thought

Us belonging

Simply

©Vernette Harris 2014

2014-04-13T07:06:00.001-07:00

I believe life is art. How I grow into you is art. The way I see you is an art form. My gaze is artistically and colorfully composed onto a blank canvas. The way I look at you, the way I walk with you, the way I laugh with you, the way I embrace you, the way I love you, the way I lay with you is creatively and purposefully made into a moment.

Darling, you have to believe that I am not your little accident.... You did not just come upon me. - Vee

Waiting it is

2014-02-20T19:56:00.001-08:00

Is it my fault
There is a extended space and time
Lengthened by rhyme
In which my heart yearns your awakened shadow
Gripping for soothing intentions
That ache i long for

Is it my fault
I recite the hymns
Said to be floating adjacent to life
Interconnecting a single tear to a harsh cry
I die in song
And resemble the rebirthed soul

Is it my fault that i love unconditionally
And just like the flower
Expanded and emptied
Completely parched in all its splendor
Watered carelessly
Soaked in irrelevancy

Waiting

To be plucked
Inhaled
And adored

©Vernette Harris

My Heart Resides in Brooklyn

2014-02-02T06:40:00.001-08:00

I step in a crooked stone fashion, lying in linear direction...kissing gravity atomically, beyond my dimensions grabbing your affection. Fingers tip toeing vertically, hipster, I gyrate sensually to split screen images of head shots, nursing shots awaiting your liquors I suppose.

Unforgotten

2013-12-19T16:50:00.001-08:00

We forgot about love…

And simmered between the currents lust offered

The moments in between that battle of falling,

Deeply, momentarily became a faint whisper.

How often does autumn remind us to forget stillness?

And how often does the sun remember the lonely shade?

The freedom of becoming nothing more than what is

What was the end is beginning to forget love

Stirring the souls before the outcome of promises

We never mentioned that hands grasped in togetherness

Completely crumbles inside the ache of longing

We forget about love to just be…he, me …we

Passionately succumbing to the notion of fearlessly forgetting

Because love wants to take the freedom

And run

Stealing heart beats and freeing tear drops

When love is to be remembered and not forgotten

With us

Mutual Understanding

2013-07-20T05:55:00.001-07:00

There's beauty

in an imperfect unknown

Where your beginning

ends in my imagination

so flawed,

We were unbroken in anticipation

Where

The conception of lust

understood

that love never happens at all,

we submerged

Simply

My silhouette

was understood by your touch

so deep it plummeted

into a violent passion

Your tongue

understood the ebb and flow

of my Niagara Falls

and the rapture of my inner Nile...

you were consumed in my core

understanding my depth

Begging for submission

Fighting emotional warfare,
demanding my strength
to diminish inside your strokes,

I surrendered

Beating the notion

that you can't reach

my heartless soul

and

caress that ache of longing,

You succeeded

Parting lips

And

Allowing breaths

to lie into each others words

Kissing the untruths

Imploding against exploding secrets,
we came deeply into our understanding
of betrayal

Forgiving each other passionately

Igniting thoughts

that will fondle memories

so recklessly, again

And again

We collapsed

into the heat of the moment

And understood

nothing

about the flame we just created.

Dwell

2013-05-13T19:53:00.001-07:00

I dwell in what I imagine your scent to be

Lingering the moments of air

Out and in the realm of my source

Envision the hues of you

Mahogany like silhouette

Dripping the inner of my emotions

I dwell in what I imagine your soul to be

Craving the fated memories

And moons elude us

Betwixt the suns breath

Beneath the willows weep

Alluring whispers are kept

And I seek

What I imagine

Anticipation

2013-05-13T19:52:00.001-07:00

Anticipation

The fragrance of you my soul seeks

And heart beats with

Deep sighs til sun takes the moon

Rise and

My eyes speak in past tense

Clearly unsure

But

Unspoken soliloquies erect in my

Position

I await you

My inner thighs dance to the bump of your rhythm

And

I shift in my patience

Anticipation has taken over me

Lately

Daydreaming

2012-07-10T18:45:00.000-07:00

Chasing the midnight silence By the glow of the distressed stars The motion of my somber dreams And the breeze of your nearness I graze the spirit of your pitted silhouette Wondering Which blink of your excavated eye, Will I Expire into the gravity of your longing? I do not breathe the air hoping for breath Nor Circulate my thoughts hoping for certainty Within the grasp of our honey suckle vine Dry bleeding the fruits bruised Raping the moments intended And abusing the conception of love Daydreaming …simply daydreaming -Vernette Harris 2012

The Promise

2012-04-15T15:59:00.001-07:00

Your promise was "No promises" And My expectation To expect nothing from it all Falling into a black hole No promises has sought me Finding The air is deep, you speak And I suffocate In the swallowing Truly in sadness Running sideways, dazed Paths be in blueness And blackness clarifies That happiness is colorful Like the purples you promised me Caution elopes the breeze And The quick step has suffered And deceased We meet Far beyond Arriving at no promise Expecting to be loved -Vernette Harris

My Moon, His Sky

2011-04-18T11:06:00.000-07:00

He is a hard one to love

Say things in multiple silences

And I forgive his inexperience

Multiplying in a cataclysmic

Carefree

Combustion

I can’t ponder his frailty

Rise up my legs

Touching thighs

And be blessed

…thank me later

Oh I welcome your blindness

Freedom deliverance in an agonizing moan

Visualizing complex simplicity

Is unheard of

How insecure be the throne of you

Like do I really walk amongst his tears?

Throw away my own brightness

Stretch my arms to his sky

I wither at the moment he wrestles me

Do I dare leave me there ebbing?

The reason why our world craves an opening

Tide

So it seems

So ever clear, the blue hue is not happy tears

I’ve even shattered the moon in half

Split the screen in my dreams

And nothing would appear

Filter

His fear

A hard one

To love

He is…

©Vernette Harris 2011

Sunday Rose

2011-01-16T09:39:00.000-08:00

Running immediately backwards in slow motion

Peeking at the wasted scenery

And closing eyes to the memories

Eyelids have exhausted themselves in wondering

While tears linger and remain unmoved

There lies a willow tree and beneath

Are his scurried footsteps

Embedded in the mud scattered above

Rooted promises…

Gravitating to his spirit lying in it

I gaze at the droop of the leaves…

Insinuating anguish and suddenly

Sorrow is no longer dangling

And in my journey back in time,

We’ve said our goodbyes in the form of a hello kiss

Searching the emptiness of black and white highlights

Making out the shadow waiting in abated anxiety

And you…

To greet your soliloquy of aspiration

Wrapping myself in the comfort of the rapture

I’ve become undone, in the moment

You’ve somehow captured the movement in his eyes

Resembling his distant stare of ardor

And I welcome the sun rising from your hindering soul

Melting in its glow

Fast forward to the seconds in which we’ve once ignored

I am spread upon the point of it all

Banging fists through the air filled voices

Silence ensues…

Giving thought to hearts pounding in a steady beat

We arrive separately and meet the beautiful rhythm

Afar…

Divine and lonely…like a Sunday Rose

© Vernette Harris 2011

Quiet Storm

2010-11-21T07:00:00.001-08:00

Awakened and maddened

Alarm of voices

Banging loudly

And permeating through thick skin

Hair wrestling with pillow fabrics

Suffocating

And talking pillows begin to whisper

No longer a murmur

The screams are fading

The end is nearing

The sun is roaring

Targeting ashamed eyes

And mellow drifts through eyelids

Resting inside the walls

Adjacent to bangs once more

Covered in splattered fear

Her shell ascend

And mounts to the heavens

Frozen by peace

Or death

And whatever blood drawn

By the explosion of

An epiphany

Until then

2010-11-07T17:29:00.000-08:00

In the midst of an unemotional downpour

I’ve released in candor, my passion runs deep

A feeling found in the crust of scarred tissue

Implanted within my being

And there a core prevails, full

And still

You haven’t realized my poetry

And I’ve spoken to you, heart beat to heart beat

And I’ve walked with you, rhythm to rhythm

And I’ve lain with you, quietly co-existing

With each breath betwixt the moment of silence

And silently we made a connection with our disconnection

We stared into our own eyes and dreams unraveled

Became undone in the frontier of hope

And still

You haven’t realized I died loving you

Until you realize the scent of a crushed flower

Is the fervor rising to our surface of genesis

Until you realize the truest hue of mahogany

Is the perfect blend of our bodies squeezing

Until you realize the gentle brush against my thigh

Is the birth of ecstasy

Until you realize that each breath taken

Is the moment captured in endless thought

Will you realize the depth in which my love flows

For only you

Daydreamer

2010-09-13T11:54:00.000-07:00

Have you ever been in love with someone you wasn’t in love with?

A sacrificial embodiment exemplifying a touch of euphoria

Pleading with the Passion Gods

And wanting to exchange the color blue for something more beautiful

Have you ever doubted that sprinkles of confetti existed in the clouds, ever

And that never will your hands gift it to the sky?

And the only rainbow exists in the pouring rain

Especially when shadows follow the sun and never lead a moment

And time repeats itself never too often and occasionally dies

I wonder if I can put your aura in a bottle and observe the scene inside

Have you ever wrapped yourself in the blanket of his warmth

And be chilled by the pleasure…?

Have you ever lifted yourself to trust the seconds pending to become forever

And gaze into eternity until eternity reaches your eyes?

Despite the world rotating against the flow of my heart

I float

And I discover the peace placed perfectly betwixt the moon and my muse

Already Gone

2010-09-12T05:36:00.001-07:00

Body stretching in a cloud

Softly white washed

Becoming the one who see’s that one star

Who travels the destination of thought?

Bring me back to the pouring rain

And change me

My mind has changed to a less fogged window

And clarity peeks…

Imagine that we’ve become who we are

While speaking passing bricks

An unbearable load to knowing you

Forgiving the forgets, do you remember?

Our past is a new day and an old memory

Stripped from the wrongness of living right

I captured your photogenic lies

Framing all the possibilities denied

Sitting inches from a blossomed life

Shriveling into a shadow

Who were you?