<?xml version='1.0' encoding='UTF-8'?><?xml-stylesheet href="http://www.blogger.com/styles/atom.css" type="text/css"?><feed xmlns='http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom' xmlns:openSearch='http://a9.com/-/spec/opensearchrss/1.0/' xmlns:blogger='http://schemas.google.com/blogger/2008' xmlns:georss='http://www.georss.org/georss' xmlns:gd="http://schemas.google.com/g/2005" xmlns:thr='http://purl.org/syndication/thread/1.0'><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5540041</id><updated>2024-11-01T04:32:11.685-07:00</updated><category term="blogging"/><category term="boredom"/><category term="changes"/><category term="coen brothers"/><category term="confusion"/><category term="creativity"/><category term="crying"/><category term="emergency room"/><category term="extremes"/><category term="fear"/><category term="feelings"/><category term="getting old"/><category term="going to the extreme"/><category term="led zeppelin"/><category term="life"/><category term="needles"/><category term="new years"/><category term="no country for old men"/><category term="pain"/><category term="partying"/><category term="podcast"/><category term="podcasts"/><category term="psychopaths"/><category term="record labels"/><category term="serial killers"/><category term="sickness"/><category term="sounds of life"/><category term="the truth"/><category term="videos"/><category term="videotaping"/><category term="young women"/><category term="youtube"/><title type='text'>my soul stripped bare</title><subtitle type='html'>As much as I am interested in peak performance, I am intrigued by doing the opposite. I&#39;m intrigued by fucking things up. Yet I&#39;m obsessed with making things perfect. Maybe it&#39;s because I&#39;m obsessed with perfection that fucking things up seems so attractive to me. This site is now devoted to my art and writings.  My style of choice is decidedly modern and certainly abstract, with an emphasis right now on abstract expressionism: &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.masterslaverelationship.com&quot;&gt;view art here&lt;/A&gt;</subtitle><link rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#feed' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://cybertzara.blogspot.com/feeds/posts/default'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/5540041/posts/default'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://cybertzara.blogspot.com/'/><link rel='hub' href='http://pubsubhubbub.appspot.com/'/><author><name>Sexyweb</name><uri>http://www.blogger.com/profile/05651769096759204592</uri><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='32' height='32' src='//blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7oVD29-KKH18x5RhcXVZYyySYljZ-SLuqLDHiuPdSrPt15L1Br2PtUFrsUEsxEGedtPmI_FjuxEwQLWQ8G-r9Sy1q0h4uXGdJ3xXu3rIpmjmpbhaS-1VsN3Myusr6qw/s220/sexyweb.jpg'/></author><generator version='7.00' uri='http://www.blogger.com'>Blogger</generator><openSearch:totalResults>8</openSearch:totalResults><openSearch:startIndex>1</openSearch:startIndex><openSearch:itemsPerPage>25</openSearch:itemsPerPage><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5540041.post-6510781129295889240</id><published>2008-01-03T22:01:00.000-07:00</published><updated>2008-01-03T22:29:39.553-07:00</updated><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="crying"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="emergency room"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="life"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="needles"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="new years"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="pain"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="sickness"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="sounds of life"/><title type='text'></title><summary type="text">sounds from lifeThe last 2 days have been some of the most difficult days of my life. 2008 came in quietly and with great promise and then came to a screeching halt last night when E went to the emergency room in excruciating pain and 6 hours later he was admitted and is awaiting surgery this weekend. As we waited hours we heard the man wheeled into the ER behind us making the most horrific and </summary><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/5540041/posts/default/6510781129295889240'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/5540041/posts/default/6510781129295889240'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://cybertzara.blogspot.com/2008_01_01_archive.html#6510781129295889240' title=''/><author><name>Sexyweb</name><uri>http://www.blogger.com/profile/05651769096759204592</uri><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='32' height='32' src='//blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7oVD29-KKH18x5RhcXVZYyySYljZ-SLuqLDHiuPdSrPt15L1Br2PtUFrsUEsxEGedtPmI_FjuxEwQLWQ8G-r9Sy1q0h4uXGdJ3xXu3rIpmjmpbhaS-1VsN3Myusr6qw/s220/sexyweb.jpg'/></author></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5540041.post-6128476675128784323</id><published>2007-12-27T21:47:00.000-07:00</published><updated>2007-12-27T21:57:57.976-07:00</updated><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="blogging"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="confusion"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="fear"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="feelings"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="record labels"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="the truth"/><title type='text'></title><summary type="text">Why am I afraid to express my true feelings? Just typing them here scares me. It&#39;s funny because &quot;everyone&quot; blogs these days but does anyone really say anything? I sit here with a blank white page on the screen staring at me and I wonder what to type, what to write, that people might want to read. If I bare my soul, as I&#39;m supposed to do here, what do I say? Yet it seems like most people have no </summary><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/5540041/posts/default/6128476675128784323'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/5540041/posts/default/6128476675128784323'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://cybertzara.blogspot.com/2007_12_01_archive.html#6128476675128784323' title=''/><author><name>Sexyweb</name><uri>http://www.blogger.com/profile/05651769096759204592</uri><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='32' height='32' src='//blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7oVD29-KKH18x5RhcXVZYyySYljZ-SLuqLDHiuPdSrPt15L1Br2PtUFrsUEsxEGedtPmI_FjuxEwQLWQ8G-r9Sy1q0h4uXGdJ3xXu3rIpmjmpbhaS-1VsN3Myusr6qw/s220/sexyweb.jpg'/></author></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5540041.post-6621856423884649030</id><published>2007-12-11T10:43:00.000-07:00</published><updated>2007-12-11T10:45:14.672-07:00</updated><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="getting old"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="led zeppelin"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="partying"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="young women"/><title type='text'></title><summary type="text">Led Zeppelin, young women, blogging and herbal teaI just finished reading about the Led Zeppelin concert that happened in London last night. What I find interesting is how times have changed. Yes, the reviews for the music are good. I expected that actually. But what I am really interested in are the reports that the Led Zep guys required very little in the way of backstage demands - no booze or </summary><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/5540041/posts/default/6621856423884649030'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/5540041/posts/default/6621856423884649030'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://cybertzara.blogspot.com/2007_12_01_archive.html#6621856423884649030' title=''/><author><name>Sexyweb</name><uri>http://www.blogger.com/profile/05651769096759204592</uri><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='32' height='32' src='//blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7oVD29-KKH18x5RhcXVZYyySYljZ-SLuqLDHiuPdSrPt15L1Br2PtUFrsUEsxEGedtPmI_FjuxEwQLWQ8G-r9Sy1q0h4uXGdJ3xXu3rIpmjmpbhaS-1VsN3Myusr6qw/s220/sexyweb.jpg'/></author></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5540041.post-2191463366302547367</id><published>2007-12-08T21:57:00.000-07:00</published><updated>2007-12-08T21:58:40.839-07:00</updated><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="coen brothers"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="creativity"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="no country for old men"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="psychopaths"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="serial killers"/><title type='text'></title><summary type="text">Isolationism. I exist in the world of isolationism most of the time. Positively, I look at it as a way to enjoy nice and quiet time to get things done. Negatively, I&#39;m bored and about to snap. I channel those energies into my art. Creativity is the only thing that has ever saved me. If I were not a creative person, if I were not able to make things out of nothing, things that please me, that </summary><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/5540041/posts/default/2191463366302547367'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/5540041/posts/default/2191463366302547367'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://cybertzara.blogspot.com/2007_12_01_archive.html#2191463366302547367' title=''/><author><name>Sexyweb</name><uri>http://www.blogger.com/profile/05651769096759204592</uri><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='32' height='32' src='//blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7oVD29-KKH18x5RhcXVZYyySYljZ-SLuqLDHiuPdSrPt15L1Br2PtUFrsUEsxEGedtPmI_FjuxEwQLWQ8G-r9Sy1q0h4uXGdJ3xXu3rIpmjmpbhaS-1VsN3Myusr6qw/s220/sexyweb.jpg'/></author></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5540041.post-7051185060453377769</id><published>2007-12-06T11:07:00.000-07:00</published><updated>2007-12-06T11:12:23.293-07:00</updated><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="podcast"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="podcasts"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="videos"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="videotaping"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="youtube"/><title type='text'></title><summary type="text">I&#39;m working on some ideas for podcasts. Oh sure, everyone is doing them, so jumping on the bandwagon is not so difficult. I&#39;m a bandwagon jumper, sometimes. I don&#39;t spend much time looking at YouTube videos but the ones I&#39;ve seen just seem like people are videotaping anything and everything and posting it. Is this not correct? Is there some thought behind all these thousands of videos? So .... </summary><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/5540041/posts/default/7051185060453377769'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/5540041/posts/default/7051185060453377769'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://cybertzara.blogspot.com/2007_12_01_archive.html#7051185060453377769' title=''/><author><name>Sexyweb</name><uri>http://www.blogger.com/profile/05651769096759204592</uri><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='32' height='32' src='//blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7oVD29-KKH18x5RhcXVZYyySYljZ-SLuqLDHiuPdSrPt15L1Br2PtUFrsUEsxEGedtPmI_FjuxEwQLWQ8G-r9Sy1q0h4uXGdJ3xXu3rIpmjmpbhaS-1VsN3Myusr6qw/s220/sexyweb.jpg'/></author></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5540041.post-2047141596015312708</id><published>2007-12-05T12:10:00.000-07:00</published><updated>2007-12-06T11:13:04.076-07:00</updated><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="boredom"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="changes"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="extremes"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="going to the extreme"/><title type='text'></title><summary type="text">I&#39;m changeable. I change my mind. I change my desires. I change my tastes. About every six months or so. And in between I experience boughts of boredom. Then I find something new to interest me and devour it with a passion and intesnse voracity. I go from Simon and Garfunkle to Alice Cooper to Chopin to Black Metal all in seamingly a heartbeat. Then I look back and feel embarrassed at the Simon </summary><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/5540041/posts/default/2047141596015312708'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/5540041/posts/default/2047141596015312708'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://cybertzara.blogspot.com/2007_12_01_archive.html#2047141596015312708' title=''/><author><name>Sexyweb</name><uri>http://www.blogger.com/profile/05651769096759204592</uri><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='32' height='32' src='//blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7oVD29-KKH18x5RhcXVZYyySYljZ-SLuqLDHiuPdSrPt15L1Br2PtUFrsUEsxEGedtPmI_FjuxEwQLWQ8G-r9Sy1q0h4uXGdJ3xXu3rIpmjmpbhaS-1VsN3Myusr6qw/s220/sexyweb.jpg'/></author></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5540041.post-8537406359891792012</id><published>2007-12-05T12:08:00.000-07:00</published><updated>2007-12-05T12:10:32.639-07:00</updated><title type='text'></title><summary type="text">I am now on Technorati. Yay.Technorati Profile</summary><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/5540041/posts/default/8537406359891792012'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/5540041/posts/default/8537406359891792012'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://cybertzara.blogspot.com/2007_12_01_archive.html#8537406359891792012' title=''/><author><name>Sexyweb</name><uri>http://www.blogger.com/profile/05651769096759204592</uri><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='32' height='32' src='//blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7oVD29-KKH18x5RhcXVZYyySYljZ-SLuqLDHiuPdSrPt15L1Br2PtUFrsUEsxEGedtPmI_FjuxEwQLWQ8G-r9Sy1q0h4uXGdJ3xXu3rIpmjmpbhaS-1VsN3Myusr6qw/s220/sexyweb.jpg'/></author></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5540041.post-105720836837788620</id><published>2003-07-02T21:59:00.000-07:00</published><updated>2005-08-18T00:32:57.946-07:00</updated><title type='text'></title><summary type="text">nothing</summary><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/5540041/posts/default/105720836837788620'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/5540041/posts/default/105720836837788620'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://cybertzara.blogspot.com/2003_07_01_archive.html#105720836837788620' title=''/><author><name>Sexyweb</name><uri>http://www.blogger.com/profile/05651769096759204592</uri><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='32' height='32' src='//blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7oVD29-KKH18x5RhcXVZYyySYljZ-SLuqLDHiuPdSrPt15L1Br2PtUFrsUEsxEGedtPmI_FjuxEwQLWQ8G-r9Sy1q0h4uXGdJ3xXu3rIpmjmpbhaS-1VsN3Myusr6qw/s220/sexyweb.jpg'/></author></entry></feed>