The Path of the Soul

Learning Lucid Dreaming

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Mon, 03 Oct 2011 07:48:00 +0000

Astral projection is not as easy as I first thought. It's actually more difficult to attain than a lucid dream, so I've decided to first practice to attain lucidity during my dreams before going back to AP.

One of the first things I'm doing is learning to have a better dream recall. So I've started a new dream journal over at DreamViews. I don't feel like starting a new blog only for my dream journal. Let's see how I progress over time.

So far I've only tried lucid dreaming for the last 3 nights and a few times during afternoon naps. I do get to a state where I feel tingling and numbness in my body, but I have yet to experience sleep paralysis (SP). Working towards that.

Close To Astral Projection Using William Buhlman's Latest CD

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Wed, 28 Sep 2011 07:12:00 +0000

I've been trying unsuccessfully to astral project for a long time now, using product after product and method after method. Unfortunately except the Hemi-Synch which did "something" (but not much), everything else was really useless for me.

A few days ago I got in the post William Buhlman's latest set of CDs called How to have an out of body experience (check out the link if you want to see what is all about with the full description of the program), and finally last night when I went to bed, I popped in the first CD and started listening to it.

William Buhlman was actually the first who got me interested in astral projection with his book Adventures Beyond the Body, a book which I treasure even now.

So I've started listening to the first CD, where Buhlman was talking about his first AP experience, was giving the list of what you can feel as you're getting closer to have an out of body experience and the last track was a 30 minutes visualization exercise.

While listening and following this exercise track, my body started to feel first twitchy, then I felt a light tingling all over the body. Then it became lighter somehow (part of the exercise was to imagine we're floating on a cloud) and eventually the body started to feel heavier, and sinking in the mattress.

And then I heard a loud pop in my ears like a cork being pulled out of a bottle. Sadly this brought me out of trance but boy I was so happy: these were the exact "symptoms" that Buhlman listed in one of the previous tracks on this CD, right down to the popping in the ear.

I knew I was closer to an AP than ever before. And this was only an exercise for practicing visualization, it was not the 'real deal' yet.

Now I can't wait to start listening to the rest of the CD and practicing with one of the methods Buhlman describes in the CDs.

I've read at the Astral Pulse forum a while ago (and even Buhlman mentioned) that not every technique or method works with everyone. You have to try to find the one that works best for you. So far it seems I've been trying the wrong techniques - for example listening to any form of Binaural Beats seem to cause me headaches.

But the guided voice is what really seems to mostly resonate with me, so I'll keep on using the Buhlman CDs and report back on how I got on. I can't wait to have my first real astral projection!

See aura after reiki session

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Tue, 02 Aug 2011 18:00:00 +0000

I haven't had a Reiki session in really a long time, maybe longer than a year. For some unknown reason, I've decided to give myself a Reiki treatment and it felt really great. The energy started really flowing and I really enjoyed it. Wondering why I stopped with it in the first place.

After my Reiki treatment, I remembered having learned from William Lee Rand in his The Reiki Touch home study course to send Reiki through the eyes (if you're doing self-healing, then simply sit or stand in front of the mirror for about 10 minutes and look yourself in the eyes).

This is a great way to learn to see auras and also might give you a glimpse into either a past life or maybe spirit guides.

So having just finished my Reiki session, I went over to a mirror and started simply staring at my image, of course by sending Reiki at the same time (having put the intent and prayer into it).

At first nothing happened, however soon after I've started to see my aura really clearly. I've always been able to sort of see auras, more of a milky shade around the head than anything else. Now, that milky shade became crystal clear, focused and very bright. It was not a light-ish color but a strong sharp yellow around my head and shoulders. Sometimes above my head it was extending, depending on how I was focusing on my image. Towards the end, on one side of my heard the aura became so sharp, it actually broke my connection - it was amazing! Never saw anything like it, like a laser beam!

Another thing I"ve noticed was that at some point my face started to morph - my eyes became different (almost scary - like the eyes of a man, not a woman) and my mouth became much thinner, downwards slanted. Totally spooky

That was definitely something I just had to write down because I've really never experienced anything like it before. I guess the fact that I just did Reiki on myself before enhanced me seeing the aura. The chi energy must have flown in me like crazy.

What I feel right now? I feel very calm (well except the tiny excitement due to the mirror experience) and relaxed - also a bit energized. It's almost 9 pm so hopefully I can sleep tonight :-)

How to quiet your mind for meditation

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Fri, 14 Jan 2011 08:22:00 +0000

Before you start meditating, you need to quiet your mind, to prepare your mind for it. You can't just sit down and enter a state of zen, no matter how long you've been meditating.

One thing to do before anything else is sit down and think what do you really like. I mean do you like music, do you like to read or you like to simply close your eyes and let your mind wander around. Or maybe you like to actually do something physical that doesn't require any brain work.

I love music very much, especially relaxation, meditation music. Enya is one of my favorites, but I am also strongly drawn to Reiki music. So I make sure that I am alone at home, put on the CD with the music of my choice, sit down, make sure that I am in comfortable clothing - no jeans while meditating! -, and start listening to the music.

Try to avoid heavy music with a strong beat because that will excite your mind and keep it busy instead of letting it relax the right way before meditation.

When I am in the mood, I like to light a few scented candles around me and dim the big light. Then I sit down and start to relax. Not to meditate yet, just to relax.

Sometimes it takes a while to stop the chatter in my mind. That's ok. It takes as long as it takes. The mind needs to have its thing told out, so don't try to cut it short. What you can do in this case is simply start slowing down the mind chatter before you even sit down for meditation, while going about ending your other business.
One way to do it is simply listen to others instead of doing all the talking at the dinner table. Just listen and be silent. After a few attempts, you will notice that your brain follows suit. It slows down its constant chatter in your mind. It doesn't stop it, as in normal circumstances it cannot stop it, but it doesn't overwhelm you with everyday worries, thoughts, chit chat and naggings. It listens, just like you.

By starting the meditation the right way, you will gain much more benefits of meditation that if you simply sit down and say to yourself 'now i will meditate'.

Focus 10 - The Movie Never Happened

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Sun, 26 Sep 2010 12:08:00 +0000

That's what I heard today when I was in Focus 10. I had a rather easy session, no major hickups, no swallowing urges. I got relaxed, calm and today I followed again my 'story line' into getting to Focus 10. It seems that Frank was right, one gets better results when imagining a storyline to get to Focus 10 instead of simply listening to Monroe's voice. The last few sessions I disrupted the pattern and simply did what Monroe said, but it wouldn't work that well.

I didn't see any 3D blackness, I had no vibrations or anything, I simply had my body very relaxed. I clicked out 1-2 times and came back very fast. At some point while being in a green meadow with 'lush green grass' as they say it, I heard a man's voice saying 'the movie didn't happen' (or that movie, or this movie', I'm not quite sure). It's like I was having a talk with that person and he was telling me in conversation. Then I focused my awareness again on being in that green grass. I felt I was really there, it was a great feeling. I'll have to explore that green valley or meadow when I'm doing the exercise again, it seems like a nice place to start the exploration from.

Reached the 3D blackness again?

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Wed, 22 Sep 2010 15:26:00 +0000

A couple of days ago I've read on the Astral Pulse forum about a sleeping mask made by Mindfold that helps really when you want to do the exercises during the day and the light goes through the eyelids. You can purchase it at the Mindfold website for $20 I think but I found it at around $10 at Amazon so I bought it. I've just checked some Amazon reviews and some people were complaining that they can't sleep with it. Well it's for meditation and relaxation mostly, and for that it seems to be perfect.

Anyway I bought it and today it came in the post. Came quite fast actually. So this afternoon, sitting at my computer desk, I put the mask on, put also the headphones on (I wonder how I was looking with all these things on my head) and I started again the same Intro to Focus 10 tape. I'm going to be at it for a while until I really can easily slip into Focus 10 before I progress.

First of all about the mask. It's very comfortable, it has a foam padding so it lays nicely over the face. Plus it has two holes for the eyes so you can even have your eyes open and it still works. I've tried and and it's pitch black in there! I did close my eyes after a while simply because I'm used to having my eyes closed when meditating.

At first everything went pretty much as usual, regular relaxation (lots of swallowing impulses, I can't seem to get rid at times at these impulses but they say it's normal). Towards the end though, while I was enjoying being in the Focus 10 state I started actually looking at the blackness and noticing what I saw. At some point I saw something towards the bottom part of my reach with my eyes closed a darker black than the regular black so I focused on it. I was actually surprised that there was something blacker than black since the Mindfold gave me true blackness during the session. But there it was like a small lake in the middle of the vast land. So I started focusing on it more and at some point it's like it grew bigger and I had a feeling like it exploded suddenly and it became huge, pushing everything else aside. It was only me and that blackness in front of my closed eyes.

I started to see lots of white worm type things moving all over the place. Last time I experienced something similar there were many tiny stars. Now I saw whitish worms (unghhh) everywhere. I suddenly had a feeling of depthness, it was all no longer flat. I could still feel my body so I knew I was not relaxed enough however I felt that if I were, I could have easily jumped into that deep black right in front of my eyes.

However this happened towards the end of the session, just before Monroe started to count back from 10 to 1 so this was very short. But it was very different from the regular blackness I saw all the time through my closed eyes, and it was similar to the second Gateway session from a little while ago. Wow that was such a great feeling, I want it again! Was this the 3D blackness that everyone is talking about?

Felt slight tremors or vibrations

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Sat, 18 Sep 2010 16:11:00 +0000

During the afternoon I used the Discovery intro to focus 10 track and I got deeply relaxed. Early on, maybe because it's been around 1 hours since lunch, I actually felt nauseous and dizzy, but I let the tape go on and went with it. At some point I felt like I had nothing under my right foot and I felt really very relaxed and light headed. Sadly soon after that one of my neighbors started washing his car and put the radio on very loud, so I started to get out of that deep relaxation feeling. I did finish the session but it was uneventful after that.

A bit later on I went to bed to read Monroe's Journeys Out of Body (bought all three of them and they arrived on Friday). I got a bit sleepy in the process, so I put the book aside and simply relaxed. After about 15 minutes I must have dozed off for a few seconds (or minutes) and then I woke up. Right after I started to feel light vibrations - more like tremors in my entire body, it was quite pleasant actually and it very subtle. It lasted for no more than maybe 30 second or so and then it went away. I no longer felt sleepy so I got up.

More vivid dreams

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Fri, 17 Sep 2010 17:30:00 +0000

Just wanted to jot down something in my journal that I've noticed recently. For the last few days since I've started focusing more on the subject of astral projection/OBE, I've started noticing my dreams more - at least the last dream that I have before waking up. On average, I do remember sometimes my dreams, but not always, but what I've dreamed the last 2 nights I remember quite accurately, at least in parts. The dreams are not especially weird, or anything, but they are much more vivid than my previous dreams. Not sure if this actually has anything to do with the fact that my mind is more and more focused with the subject, I read more books on it and when I go to sleep I focus on affirmations that I will remember my dreams and that I will become lucid during dreaming (the second hasn't happened yet).

Even if there are no major breakthroughs yet, something is definitely moving in the right direction, I can feel it through all these small signs. I know I'm far away from anything major yet, but practice does make perfect, and while unfortunately nothing really comes easily to me (I really have to struggle in most areas of my life to 'get there'), I can say that with hard work, I usually do. I've been pretty unhappy during the last couple of years at my dayjob and finally in December I managed to leave. Now I'm working for myself from home, as self-employed. It's not easy, but I do see an increase in my earnings every month. And this is just one aspect of it all. When I put my mind to it, I can learn it and I've proved it over and over to myself. So now, all I need is to simply keep at it without losing interest, and sooner or later I will succeed in having my first astral projection.

Deeply relaxed - felt the touch of a spoon on my hand

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Thu, 16 Sep 2010 15:52:00 +0000

I had a few more Introduction to Focus 10 sessions during the last few days, however there was nothing special to report. I know it's early to have any big headways in this. I was always in bed with the headphones on. Today I tried it again like I used to one year ago, sitting on my chair in my office. For one, I got really deeply relaxed. I clicked out a few times.

During one of those click-outs, a woman put a spoon on one of my hands. As soon as I clicked back in, I physically felt the cool touch of the spoon on that spot. That was quite interesting and different experience. I had that feeling for a while until it actually disappeared. Otherwise it was, again, a regular session whereby I simply felt myself deeply relaxed.

Another thing I'm trying when I go to sleep is learning to see the hypnogogic images that are usually happening before falling asleep in a dream. I'm reading an ebook by Donald DeGracia called Astral Projection Class on Compuserve, it's a free pdf that is makes it really easy to understand many things about astral projection, OBE and lucid dreaming. Why is it that many times the free books are more useful than those were we pay heavy money for them?
Here is the ebook (it's a pdf so you need Acrobat Reader to open it) if you're interested in reading it. I highly recommend it!

3D Blackness

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Mon, 13 Sep 2010 20:00:00 +0000

Well look like that heavy black wall with many white stars that I wrote about it in my last post was actually no wall, but the proverbial 3D blackness that one experiences as a part of the phasing process. I've read more about it at the Astralpulse forum and I didn't realize before that this is what I've just experienced the other day.

On one hand it was truly beautiful, so different from anything else I've 'seen' with closed yes, but on the other hand, I wanted so bad to get back to my 'vision' on the beach, instead of actually trying to phase into this blackness. Had I known then that I could have...oh well, I'm sure it will happen again...So it seems it's not a wall, it's something that you could actually enter...

This is the post by Frank that describes it so well.

Second Gateway session today

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Sun, 12 Sep 2010 16:38:00 +0000

I had the home to myself this afternoon, so around 7 pm I had a second session with the Introduction To Focus 10 track. Now I used pretty much the same technique as I started with today on visualizing a case scenario with the butler and all. It almost went the same as earlier today, with a major and startling difference. Somewhere in the middle, when I had to relax my legs I think, under my left eye the skin started itching very strongly, but so strongly that it was unbearable, so I effectively had to use my hand to massage it lightly.

I then went back to relaxation and this is when the weird thing happened. Suddenly I felt like I had a door closed on me. I was immediately aware of my own eyes which were seeing a strong blackness with thousands of white tiny stars in front of me, like a heavy black curtain with many small white points on it. I was trying to break through that black veil to get back to my place but I could not. It was like that veil was a heavy door and I could not go through it. I was trying to see through it, to see my 'scene', but I could not. All I could see was that heavy black curtain with the million many white little dots, or stars. It was a very weird sensation but it was also beautiful to be aware something like that. Eventually I relaxed my body a bit more and then gradually I started to 'see' the scene where I was supposed to be, at first as if from far away, then I got 'in' the scene, so eventually all went back to normal and I completed the exercise without further problems.

This was completely different from simply having woken up from a meditation session. My eyes were closed, and I was still 'out there'. I just could not get to my 'place' due to a black wall with many many white tiny stars. It would have been actually freaky if I weren't that fascinated with this particular experience.

Gateway Experiences I - Change my technique

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Sun, 12 Sep 2010 12:04:00 +0000

I've read yesterday a lot about Frank's phasing technique at the Astralpulse forum, and I've changed during my session today my technique. So instead of simply listening to Monroe's voice and imagining whatever he was saying, I was actively creating a space of my own with a full fledged start from the beginning into getting to focus 10 and running back to my energy conversion box.

I deviated slightly from the way Frank was doing it, and I need to learn to time everything based on the voice but so far the experience was great. I didn't doze off into the lala land so often like the last time, I was pretty much conscious all the time (I think my mind wandered off only 2-3 times when I was jolted back by Robert's voice) and everything seemed much better this time. I even have a butler called Stephen whom I give my physical garment to place in the box and then closing the box when I leave from there.

I can't put my finger onto what happened, but I enjoyed this time the experience much better. And towards the end my fingers and arms and part of my body really started prickling and tingling. The whole thing was like I'm here, and yet I'm not. I'll start using this technique from now on for getting into and being in Focus 10 when listening to the tape.

I've just pondered upon a major difference between working with the Gateway CD and any other regular meditation track, be it guided or free. When I usually meditate, be it with the Dick Sutphen CD, or the Om, or anything else, I do enjoy it, as I like meditating. However many times I feel like I have to do it, and throughout the session I catch myself thinking about 'when is the tape over, is it much left yet'? And sort of relieved when the 20 minutes or so are over.

Here, on the other hand, I can't wait to start every time, and even though it's a full 37 minutes track, every time I listened to it so far, I had this feeling that it's too soon over and I wanted to be still there, wherever I was, and not come back so soon. This was pure enjoyment, meditation felt more like enjoyable work, something that I would feel guilty if I didn't do.

I'm not sure why I feel this difference, but there I have it, and that's one reason why I'll continue with this for now instead of going back to regular meditating.

Gateway Experiences I - Day 2

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Sat, 11 Sep 2010 11:17:00 +0000

Yesterday was a really impossible day for practicing with the Hemi-Sync Cd. I have a neighbor who moved recently just above us so he was hammering and drilling exactly on top of my room. But I said I would give it a try nevertheless.

So I went to the bed, with the laptop on and headphones on (they do cover my ears fully but I can still hear everything in the outside world - anyone knows of a really good set of headphones that dumb down the external noise?) and I started the second track in the Wave I CD. I'm going to stick with this track until I perfect getting and staying in Focus 10. Only then I will move to Focus 12. I feel that getting a real astral projection is a long way ahead...

Anyway back on track, I was curious to see what results I get - if any - despite all the hammering from upstairs. Well at first I couldn't really concentrate (or relax actually) but eventually I found myself going from dream to dream - only Monroe's voice was getting me out of these when we was speaking again. He was basically jolting me out of these. It's funny how I slipped into this dream state at least 5 times during the 35 or so minutes...By the time the exercise was over, I felt like only 10 minutes passed and there he was, counting from 1 to 10 to get me back to the normal state. How did I lose track of time so far and so often? I was not even tired...This for sure was a different experience from what I felt the day before doing the same exercise...

HemiSync - Focus 10 again

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Thu, 09 Sep 2010 16:45:00 +0000

I remembered I have the Gateway HemiSync CDs somewhere around and I've decided to start the training again. Afterall, I really feel that I had most success with these tapes than with any other meditation tapes or CDs that I listened to.

While earlier on I used to listen to the CD sitting on my chair (in my office at home where I also work every day), now I've decided to try something else. I went to the bedroom and put the CD in the laptop and listened to Discover #2 (Introduction to Focus 10) lying down in bed. It's about 35 or so minutes, I was alone, so I knew I would not be disturbed. And I also wanted to see how it is to be lying down while entering the Focus 10 state.

One thing I've realized afterwards is that I got much more relaxed and much 'deeper' than when I do usual meditation based on Dick Sutphen or somebody else. This feeling of mind awake / body asleep is totally relaxing and I welcome it fully. At some point I was not even sure how I was positioned in the bed, and I had the distinct feeling that one of my hands is actually turned inwards, in a funny position, whereas it turned out that it was not.

I had the window open and a strong rather cold was entering the room, plus I realized that I had the sound too loud, so I will know better next time. But all in all, I think I will give the Gateway Experience another shot and this time I hope I will stick with it. Also another feeling that I've noticed was different from my regular meditation sessions...usually when I open my eyes and I start moving around the room, I still feel a bit dazed, and I need to center to get back into the 'nromal'. Now, on the other hand, when I had to open my eyes and be wide awake, I truly was. It was as if nothing had happened in terms of 'aftereffects' of the session. I just felt great.

Hm, re-reading what I wrote after my first session over a year ago with the same track, I guess I felt pretty much the same again...

"After finishing the exercise, I also felt fresher, not as sleepy and drowsy as I usually feel after regular meditation. Now if this is a good or not so good sign, I have no idea."

So it seems that my previous Gateway experience journal is about to be reopened again and I'm really looking forward to my experiences in the process.

I started to see auras again

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Wed, 08 Sep 2010 19:00:00 +0000

A few years ago when I was trying out various things related to spirituality, wanting to see auras was one of them. I got as far as seeing my own whitish halo over the head or a white line when I put two opposite fingers together and tried slowly to move them apart (try this exercise as well, it's the easiest to see a first glimpse of the aura!).

But then life got in the way, other things took priority I never tried anymore. Until now. Yesterday to be exact. I was lying in bed with one one hand outstretched and was trying to see the aura around my fingers. At first there was again the usual milky halo over the fingers, but then eventually I started to see colors as well. Very faint ones, a bit of yellow, just a tad bit of red, but as if really washed out. I guess I got so excited from having seen this that I could not do it again after that before turning off the light and going to sleep.

And tonight, while relaxing in a bubble bath, I tried again to see the aura around my outstretched fingers. Nothing spectacular happening there, so I gave up. Later on I went in a room with a big mirror on the wall, and well rested and relaxed from the bath, I decided to see if I can spot the aura around my head. I haven't done this exercise in years. However the white halo came with extreme ease and even after I blinked it was there. And I know it was the aura, as when it's just an aftereffect of blinking, when you move your head, the 'halo' remains in place. Whereas here it moved along with my head. And then I started to see the milky halo becoming slightly bigger, and it turned to a sort of pale green, yellow with a very narrow strip of darker blue at the edge. Again, I got excited, and that was it. But it was enough to prove to myself that I can do it. And do it again I will!

Will start meditating again

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Mon, 06 Sep 2010 16:14:00 +0000

I feel I've neglected my spiritual practices enough so I've decided to get back into meditation. I am currently testing two different types of meditation, the original OM CD by Tom Carey and Dick Sutphen's Ultra Depth Hypnosis. So far I find that Dick Sutphen's voice reaches me more than the OM bells, I tend to respond better to it, so I will just use this for now. I know it is a past life regression CD, but it has some good meditation tracks on it and I want to start small again, and take it one step at a time...

Also I will start again with my out of body (or astral projection) exercises in the night when going to bed, before falling off to sleep. It's a pity that I stopped actually as I was making some good headway. I got a few times to the state of vibrations earlier on, and now, I have to start it all over again. Oh well, it's true what they say, better later than never...

Telepathic mental push or coincidence

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Sun, 05 Sep 2010 11:19:00 +0000

I have a lovely old neighbor who is in the habit of sitting out in his garden (which is just next to our bedroom window) and around 6-7 am and have his radio blasting on the news. I've tried many things, talking to him (worked temporarily), even put foam ear plugs in my hears (didn't work as I woke up with pain in my ears), left the air conditioning on in the morning, closed the window...I'm at my wits end, really. He's just one of those annoying neighbors that are old and simply don't care about their own surroundings and neighbors.

Anyway, I was sitting in the bed this afternoon reading Psychic Discoveries Behind The Iron Curtain by Sheila Ostrander and Lynn Schroeder - an amazing book about the many different psychic experiments in Russia during the Communist era - when I heard again the radio blasting fully in my year...I was actually reading about this guy who was explaining how to trained himself to become psychic. He was basically 'commanding' people to do this, do that, and of course at first it didn't work, but he kept at it until the people really started touching their foreheads, or waving away a non-existent fly from their ears. While reading the book, I remembered my previous attempts at meditation, relaxation and astral projection and since I had about an hour to kill, I started to relax my body. After a few minutes I said a couple of times 'close the radio', 'switch off the radio', I even said it in Greek. Soon I listened to something weird...silence. The guy switched off his radio and he was nowhere to be seen, he went inside the house.

Now of course, I don't say that this had anything to do with my meager psychic attempts on his brain :D But nevertheless for I moment I was grinning from ear to ear. Needless to say, I felt very smug.

After that I continued with my AP experiment - nothing happened except I became very sleepy, but it was interesting, nevertheless.

I haven't really been doing any spiritual or psychic work during the last year as 'real life' took over and I had lots of things to deal with, but I will start meditating again and I will start my AP exercises again. I've just realized today during this afternoon 'experiment' that I was actually missing them...

Synchronicity and Reincarnation

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Sun, 14 Mar 2010 19:49:00 +0000

Nothing so glamorous as what the title says, but it did give me a few goosebumps nevertheless.

I was in the middle of Reincarnation by Roy Stemman and also watching with an eye one of the funny episodes of Boston Legal. I'm not sure which season it is or which episode (we're a bit behind the US when it comes to broadcasting the latest), but it was when the two main characters were sitting at their usual balcony spot with their usual cigars and drinks in their hands. So Allen asks suddenly Danny 'Do you believe in reincarnation?' and then they have a short - silly - discussion on the subject. I got goosebumps.

I know that these kinds of coincidences happen quite often with everybody, but let me just say that I haven't touched a book on reincarnation in almost a year now. However I just felt like suddenly wanting to read on the subject again, and this is not like a fantasy or romance novel that you pick up whenever you feel like. Thus it was rather a big thing for me to pick up a book on this very subject.

Now is this coincidence or synchronicity? Goosebumps they were...

Past Life - New TV Show

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Fri, 19 Feb 2010 16:28:00 +0000

If you're like me interested in past lives, I'm sure you've been eagerly waiting for this new TV show called Past Life.

The whole issue of past life and reincarnation is quite divided and muddled up in the Western world, and while a larger number of people start to believe in 'this stuff' as they call it, there are still loads of those that believe that all this is just quackery and Eastern mythology, but nothing based on facts. Even though Ian Stevenson was a Westerner who is maybe the biggest authority, the biggest source of scientific proof on the subject, still, past life is in many places mocked by so many.

So this is why I've been also looking forward to this new show that comes from the US.

Well the show is interesting, obviously quite a lot dramatized to captivate the audience and from all that I've studied on the subject during the last few years, this is very seldom the way a PL memory is brought to surface. However, I've read about cases of spontaneous PL regression, so these types of cases being more dramatic in nature, I guess they formed the bases of this drama series as well.

I have to say though that it's quite a realistic show (many people find it actually boring), which is good. While obviously the subject has been largely dramatized and enhanced to fit the TV screen, the cases seem real enough and are actually plausible.

What I like most about this series is the fact that it brings more awareness to the subject in a rather natural, realistic way, without too much focus on the 'supernatural' aspect.

I do hope that the show will not be discontinued just because the 'wow' factor is less than say in the Ghost Whisperer or Supernatural.

I've been away from the whole scene for over a year now due to other real life commitments (career change, working on my own right now) but I'm thinking of finding my old Om CD and doing a few past life regressions again, I kind of miss it all.

Hemi Sync Gateway Experience - Wave 3 - Remote Viewing

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Sun, 05 Apr 2009 19:03:00 +0000

I've already had some practice with remote viewing with some degree of success a couple of years ago, so I've decided to try out this particular track, see what it was all about. I've realised a while ago that I didn't need to go through every single track in sequential order, as for example pretty much everything else after the introduction to Wave 2, starts out again from Focus 10, which is great.
So here are my perceptions, for what they are worth. I wonder how can I get confirmation of these...
Number 149721
A person dressed in black pants and blouse (or shirt) is talking to his wife, they are in the kitchen, she is busy doing something, and they are just standing and talking. Kids are running around them and the wife tells one of the kids to slow down. Then they just continue talking. I didn't feel a sense of urgency, or fight, it was simply a discussion of stuff to take care of. Regular, domestic life. The floor where the kids are running in has parquet.
Then I saw a letter/envelope falling down.

Not sure what this all means. If it does mean something, it will be unraveled in its own time. Now lets see if I get contacted by this person the way I conveyed the message...

A very real example of synchronicity

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Wed, 01 Apr 2009 18:00:00 +0000

People keep asking if synchronicities really exist and how do they actually happen? Well, here is a real example that happened to me today.

1. I've received from a friend a great set of CD on NLP by Igor Ledochowski. I've never been so far exposed to NLP (I've heard about it, of course), or to Igor L. Out of curiosity and because I've seen so many good reviews, I've started listening to the CDs yesterday afternoon. To be honest, I got so hooked, that today, as a public holiday, I've spent most of my day in my room listening to CDs without to stop. A good couple of hours. The guy is brilliant, knows his stuff, and is extremely funny too. I've just decided that I'll learn at least the basics of NLP.

2. I've taped the latest Mentalist tv series (I'm currently hooked on it, I'm sure the main actor has something to do with it *grins*), and what do you know, what the main subject of this particular episode was? Yep, indeed. NLP, hypnosis and the power of suggestion. Of course I watched it with strong interest, and I had all the time in the back of my head the set of CDs that I just listened to.

3. I've checked my wishlist at Bookmooch.com, the international book trading site I'm a long time member of, and what book did I just see appear that I could 'mooch' (ask for a trade)? The title is: Introducing NLP Neuro-Linguistic Programming by Joseph O'Connor.

Now if these seemingly unrelated events that just 'happened' to me within a day are not a major synchronicity that means something, then I don't know what they are. Sometimes, when something in the water quacks and flips its wings, it is, indeed, a duck, even if you might think it's Loch Ness instead.

As for what do these synchronicities mean in my life? I'm not sure, but of what I am sure is that I'll now start learning NLP and hypnosis. Taking baby steps, learning the basics, one step at a time. I'll post back, of course, with what happens next.

Small vibrations

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Sat, 28 Mar 2009 14:53:00 +0000

Saturday afternoon, a bit after lunch, I've decided to have a quick nap. I don't think I've actually slept anything, at some point I remember hearing a light snoring (must have been me?) and woke up. I was lying face down, on my stomach, with one arm under me.

As soon as I woke up from that light snoring (still not sure if it was me, or just noise that I heard in my subconscious), I've decided to try the breathing technique, so I breathed in and out a couple of times, slowly, trying to feel my body go heavy on the outbreaths, and suddenly I felt something like vibrations, more like small tremors coming from my heart area and expanding around my chest and upper body. It was a very light feeling which started to increase, but I got excited, as I've never felt this before, so the vibrations left as fast as they came.

I was so disappointed and by then completely awake, so I knew there was no use in continuing the exercise at this point. Yet this is a step forward, as it's the first time I consciously felt these tiny vibrations. They started very lightly, like when you are on a train shaking along with it, and they were increasing bit by bit. I really wish I didn't get excited at the moment, when I realised what was happening, as now I might have missed my chance at my very first conscious OBE...

Intro to Focus 12 and what I felt

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Thu, 26 Mar 2009 18:01:00 +0000

Today I've decided to try Focus 12. Yes, I know, I'm impatient, and I should stick with Focus 10 for a while, but I can always go back to it.

For a good while nothing really happened, I didn't feel any major difference between focus 10 and 12, however when Monroe brought me back the second time to focus 12, there was just one weird sensation that I had. I was suddenly aware of my heart beating, and I mean each and every one.

It was so amazing, to actually hear and feel every single heartbeating and quite strongly so too. I'm not sure though if that's what I was supposed to feel, lol. Monroe was saying that Focus 12 is an expanded awareness, however I kept feeling I'm very strongly in my head and in my body. Not like when you're grounded, in normal ways. I felt I was really there. I don't remember having ever felt quite like this before. It was almost spooky, but in a good way. Sometimes, when I was breathing out, the heartbeating was so strong, that I felt my upper body pushing back, like getting a kick-back with each beat, sort of like a ripple effect...

I didn't remember if I felt this also with focus 10 or not, so when I went back to focus 10, I checked it out. Basically I did feel the heart beating, but not each heartbeat and not as strongly as with focus 12. It seemed as if my heart was beating calmer.

I'll go check around on forums to see what effects focus 12 has on people, I wanted to post though first my first impressions, which are not biased by others experiences.

Out of body experiences - The Vehram Energy Way

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Wed, 25 Mar 2009 08:21:00 +0000

I was reading some posts at the Astral Pulse forum, and came across a thread discussing another technique for OBE, called the Vehram Method. The discussion was quite exciting around it, so I've decided to check it out, bought it and gave it a try. It was only $10, so it won't break my bank if it doesn't work.

The program basically advocates reaching an OBE using 3 main stages. The first stage is to place the body in the proper hypnagogic state. I've started with this two nights ago. Basically the first step involves auto-programming of the body to wake up at given times. Once you awakened during the night and you're still groggy and ready to go back to sleep, it's very easy apparently to get into hypnagogic state, meaning mind awake and body asleep.

Well for me it seems that this step worked quite nicely. Both nights I tried this, I woke up not once, but 2-3 times, lol. I slept very lightly throughout both nights, and funnily enough, I was not sleepy at all during the next day. Maybe it has to do with the fact that you actually program your body to wake up, rather than being woken up suddenly by an external factor, so the body uses its internal alarm clock to put itself in the waking position. When I went to sleep I used strong cues and feelings for this. I put myself in a state of light alert (re-living the feeling that I used to have whenever I had to catch a plane early in the morning, meaning that I had to wake up in the night, usually around 2 am. The fear of missing the plane is a strong motivator indeed!).

I managed to achieve this waking up both nights I tried it. What didn't work so far is step 2, trying to bring my body into hypnagogic state. The more I tried, the more I became wide awake and had trouble getting closer to falling back asleep. Maybe instead of really trying, I will have to simply let myself go back to sleep. But then the problem is to retain the consciousness of the mind, while my body does go back to sleep. Oh troubles...I'll have to sort this one out somehow...

What I really liked about this book is the way it was in detailed explained the process of going into hypnagogic state, of how one should really feel. I've never read anything like this before. Everything else is usually dry, telling the facts, the mechanics of it. Here you could actually feel as you were reading along. You know exactly what you're supposed to feel when you're getting there using the trick the author describes in the book. Now that step 1 is done and I could achieve it twice in a row, I will try out the next step and will report back.

Note: after posting this, I've checked out the thread on Astral Pulse about the system. This sentence caught my eyes:

"Due to an intense desire to practice the system, I am waking up more than 5 times a night now, with no signs of sleep deprivation."

Yes, I think I'm on the right track here...

I am more than my physical body

noreply@blogger.com (Marika) — Mon, 23 Mar 2009 07:11:00 +0000

This is the start of the affirmation in the Gateway series and although this post will not be about my Gateway meditation, I think it is quite relevant.

I'm strongly convinced now that indeed, we are more than our physical, human bodies. We are actually souls living on Earth in this life. Somehow last night this became more and more clear and based on 'how I live' here on Earth, I'm pretty sure it's true. For me it's everything, the way I act, the way I am, the way I respond to things and people, the way I feel, the way I am sensitive to others (they say I am empathic), yet so clumsy many times in my physical body, and even utterly clueless to things that should be very 'common sense', yet for me they aren't...

I have a theory. I strongly believe in reincarnation, there are plenty of cases of people who are remembering day in, day out their past lives, at least the latest one, or even more of them. I don't doubt that, there can't be a mass hysteria around that makes people (and children 2-3 years old) just remember something that never was. However, for some reason, after trying many times to remember past lives, I just can't. I do have some flashes, very short ones, but not strong memories of past lives. I think the reason for it is that I haven't been incarnated in a long time, so there is not much to remember. Also all the other things that I experience only make sense in light of this theory.

I just can't seem to fit. I'm not very comfortable in crowds and among many people. Parties don't interest me much. I actually try to avoid them, or if I have to go, I try to get out as fast as possible from there. I'm quite happy by myself. I always said that in this life I'm here to learn, and that seems to be true. I've had many different hobbies and interests during the last few years (talking with people, I seemed I have way more hobbies than others), and when I get excited by something new where I can learn something else, I let go of my previous 'hobby'. Usually this happens when I've learned the previous one quite well, so I can let go of it. I am always thirsty of learning. I went to college nights, while working in the day, not because anyone asked me to, or because of peer pressure, but because I wanted to. I just feel this craving to learn, and then I just ... do.

I do many things ackward, things that people find common sense, and should know by instinct. Very worldly things. Things that if you've had past lives recently on this Earth, you would know indeed 'instinctively'. It's like I'm still learning to do them. Also I don't seem to get these social/society games people usually play (and I'm not talking about Monopoly here). All those conventions, those power games that one should know, they all edule me somehow.

If you've seen or read Twilight (the vampire saga), I sort of feel like Bella felt in her 'human' skin. She was always clumsy, not really comfortable with who she was, she felt she didn't belong. Until she became a vampire, and she realised that's what she was ment to be, that's what she truly is. Of course, the comparison stops there. I'm not saying I should be a vampire, but that awkward feeling I do get it as well, and I feel I just don't belong like everybody else. I'm still searching for my place in this world - or another.

On the other hand, for years now I'm obsessed with the 'other world', with OBE's, astral travel, with reincarnation, with letting go of my ego, with everything spiritual. This is where I am most comfortable in, doing. I feel I'm 'home'. The other day I was walking with my husband and we walked past a cemetery. He started to go faster, to pass that place, while I wanted to go in, just to walk around, to listen to the peace and silence, to the souls. I'm sure they have lots to tell. I was not afraid.

I love listening to meditation music, to reiki music, to chants, and running after the latest top 40 is not my thing. Am I weird? Based on the social norms, I bet I am. But I don't really mind. I know now that I'm not just a body living its life until it dies, but I'm much more than that. I always felt there is something more out there than what we feel with our 5 senses, something that was always just out of my grasp. Now, even without any physical proof, I simply know there is.

Update 24 March 09

Just a late addition to this post - it occured to me today that I might be a soul that hasn't incarnated in a long time ... or I could be a young soul here on Earth.

People usually don't like hearing this about themselves, as everybody'd love to know that they are old, wise souls, but we do have to start somewhere, right? And if I am a young soul on Earth, that could also count for my awkwardness in social situations, in me being 'different' when it comes to dealing with people...