My time is NOW!!

New Website

2010-04-13T07:49:00.000-07:00

I found out that I'm not really that interested in a solely niche MMA market website so I have created a new site that is really getting me excited.

My new site is www.qualitybloke.com

Have a look and let me know what you think

www.4mmalovers.co.uk

2010-03-25T12:54:00.000-07:00

61 views at the last check!
Hardly impressive to some, but I made all the changes last night and only added two posts just now. For my first attempt at a website, I'm beaming! I may have kittens when I get over 100!

My new way of thinking!

2010-03-24T16:04:00.000-07:00

FUUUUUCCCCKKK

2010-03-24T15:39:00.001-07:00

Sorry to any regular readers, I know its been a while since I last updated.
Anyway checkout the changes I've made to www.4mmalovers.co.uk

LAst few days

2010-01-16T18:08:00.000-08:00

Had an excellent last few days.
I've gone home to see the parents and my bro and sis. I've spent the day moving furniture around the place and loved the physicality of it. Its great getting some workout done. I've really missed it. Maybe thats what I need to do more of.

The type of confidence I'd love to have!

2010-01-16T18:06:00.001-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lFF2bkiHNVQ

Today

2010-01-11T15:32:00.000-08:00

Today has been a good day!

I got some better medicine from the doctor.
I went back to work for the first time since Xmas as my place opened up since the bad snow - I got organised, learnt a rake of new stuff, took notes and despite knowing I haven't been shown how to do that much, I still accomplished a lot and was sociable too.
I applied for one job and sent off for an application form and asked a company for advice on what to do next.
I got everything one on my to do list.
I've hardly had any obtrusive thoughts from my OCD.

All in all, not too bad a day!

Bucket List

2010-01-09T03:13:00.000-08:00

I'm trying to put together a bucketlist. The 100 things that I want to do before I die. Its meant to inspire and motivate. One website said to go past 100 and then narrow it down to the most important. Hell, at the moment, I'm barely at 25 and struggling. I have lost the knowledge of what I really like anymore.

Question

2010-01-08T16:56:00.000-08:00

I've just read another blog where the writer mentioned the benefits of using a daily journal. I therefore started one. However, now that I think about it, is this blog not in essence a journal of sorts? Am I not therefore just going to be duplicating my thoughts, feelings, ramblings etc on both formats?!

James Bond

2010-01-08T16:54:00.000-08:00

I always seem to get coy about being a big James Bond fan, partcularly the Daniel Craig films. I use to get embaressed as people would take the mickey and my ex thought I had a crush on him! However, enough is enough I am not ashamed. I am proud to have another good role model and passion - James Bond movies. I think if we all admitted to others who we truly were and what we liked, there wouldn't be so many problems in this world.

Exercise

2010-01-08T13:57:00.000-08:00

Just went out and cleared the path to my house and an elderly neighbour. Cleared the snow and ice from the path and the steps to the cars. Feel quite alive getting a decent workout with a shovel. Natural chemicals pumping through my body. Now I know what I've been missing when I've not been working out.

Recently

2010-01-08T13:56:00.000-08:00

Recently, I have been having some increasing anxiety about my ex. I don't know why it has been getting so strong recently, but it feels considerably stronger than it has been for the last few weeks.

Finances

2010-01-04T19:03:00.001-08:00

Just had a bit of a shock. Looked at my current account and didn't like the results. My bank have now changed to charging if you are in your overdraft at the end of the day. As I was just in the black and no more most months, X-mas and some trips away have put me dangerously close to being in debt big time this month.

I may have to borrow from my parents again which I really don't want to have to do or alternatively, switch to paying groceries and fuel on my credit card and pay it off in full at the end of the month and look for a part time job. What I really need is a better paying job but there very scarce at the moment.

Sky-Dive

2010-01-03T14:18:00.000-08:00

I have signed up to do a Sky-Dive for a Cancer Charity.
If you can spare even a few pounds then please sponsor me.
Every penny is going towards a brilliant cause. I have lost three grandparents to this dreadful disease and want to help the fight to eliminate it and stop others having to go through it.
Please go to:
https://www.bmycharity.com/V2/bod
and donate anything that you can.
Thank you.

EFT

2010-01-03T14:15:00.000-08:00

Signed up to a Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT) forum etc after reading about it. I'll give it a try and report back.

Confronting a friend

2010-01-03T14:01:00.001-08:00

Tonight I confronted a friend, well one of my oldest friends.
He just texted me asking for a lift home from the pub. He lives about twenty minutes drive away.
Now, I was good enough to ask for a lift but didn't ask me to come to the pub.
I said no but this time , asked him why he hadn't invited me, thinking as my councillor puts it "whats the worst that can happen?"
I got a reply back saying he never knows if I am at home (I work in a big city and just home now and then - not a good excuse) and I sometimes say no - again not a good excuse.
Normally, I would have just said no, (as I had been drinking for real) and internalised it and been annoyed but this year is different.
This is my year of confidence and one of my goals is to confront those that needed it and thats what I done.
I realised that although I wasn't as cheeky or confrontational as others may be, I did go out with the norm and confront. Hopefully, this is the turning point and they realise that I am no longer the pushover I use to be.

Fri Night

2010-01-03T14:00:00.001-08:00

I did some flirting with a cousin of a friend. Just playing really as nothing looked likely to happen. It was nice to be cocky and funny and be back in the game. She lives in the same city as me so I may try and organise a hookup to see what happens.

The sort of thing I'd like to get ...

2010-01-01T11:11:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PPJCByTd2F4

What you're reading ...

2010-01-01T10:52:00.000-08:00

2010 is going to be my Year of Confidence.
I am fed up with the way my life has been going so it's time for a massive change.
I have a plan of attack and this blog will state what I do and what I learn from it.
I plan to gain confidence in all areas of my life from meeting women to work situations to financial stability and so on.

Happy New Year

2010-01-01T10:39:00.001-08:00

Happy New Year to all!
I hope that 2010 is the best year yet for you all.
Thanks for reading.