Versification

Not meant for me

2016-10-19T19:43:00.001-07:00

The head on my shoulders can't look into anyone's eyes,
wish I was good at keeping my own disguise.
Patience is my best friend for a reason because it listens,
it never promised me anything, it never told me anything is missing.
There's a reason why I am skeptical for half of the things in this world,
there's a reason why I believe more in sweat and blood.
You put in the effort and reap the results of what you put in,
but there's always the oversight of fate the day you begin.
Can you beat what has been already written for you the day you were born?
Can you find your way to the place where you are meant to belong?
I wish I knew the answers to these question just like you did,
and unpack all the mysteries like gifts by a little kid.
In the end I'll do whatever can be done by me to make it align,
just do your part and hope everything is gonna be fine.

Tell Me

2016-06-24T00:27:00.002-07:00

tell me how do you weave magic into every single day,

tell me how are you brighter than sunshine’s ray.

tell me why are you so cute than a melted marshmallow,

tell me why are you so understanding, its like moon’s midnight glow.

tell me what is the secret of our pointless funny banter,

tell me what is that we have, why do you matter.

tell me who should i tell all of this when you are the one i talk the most,

tell me who should i admire when you are serene as tropical coast.

Connection

2016-06-24T00:25:00.001-07:00

you ask me to miss you while you’re gone,

i’ll let you know how i feel through this song.

it doesn’t matter if i’m a thousand miles away or just feet apart,

there’s always a leash on me, that syncs to the beat of your heart.

i miss you when you look away even for a moment,

the connection we have is clearly godsend.

if i see anyone who talks to you when i’m around,

i start to feel jealous and my brain goes hell-bound.

there’s no worse feeling than knowing that you are supposed to go,

will i be ever to quantify my love? or will it be enough to show?

you say you’re selfish for keeping me hooked on you,

but that’s my call to make because i’m the one who’s loving you.

they say its better to avoid heartbreak and steer clear,

but i know you are quite the opposite because you’re not what i fear.

my fear lies in the absence of you, in not giving a shot of what we can be,

my fear lies in not seeing you everyday and setting my heart free.

I will be there

2016-06-24T00:21:00.001-07:00

here i stand, with you standing on the other side of the sea,

i keep shouting that we are meant to be.

i know you hear me and i know you understand,

but you are too scared to even hold my hand.

i’ll make a bridge which connects to your soul,

a bridge for you and me to take a stroll.

I will be silent, I won’t scream out anymore,

because I believe that we have good things in store,

for our future and for our present i’ll pray,

above all this i pray that you stay.

my life was boring until you came with your essence,

everything you tell me always makes sense.

this is no magic but just a change in perspective,

you know what i’m saying and it needs no retrospective.

i keep you happy, you keep me sane,

this is our equation till our mortal remains.

but now is not the time, or now is not the place,

i won’t hold you back, neither will i give up the chase.

i can live with regrets in my life, but not this one i can’t,

i want to be with you and hold your hand.

distance will be kept, don’t you worry about that,

i won’t do anything that messes with what you have.

i’ve been a quiet observer, i’ve lived in the shadows before,

but know that when you need me i’ll be right outside your door.

Pain

2016-06-24T00:20:00.000-07:00

look at this face, do you see any emotions?

do you find any reason behind how this mind functions?

i’m a slave to my own design, a sucker for punishment,

looking in those alleys of life for the next detriment.

100 things make sense, i find the 1 which is not,

i will use all my day trying to make sense of that one thought.

welcome to this dysfunctional paradise of lost dreams,

don’t lose your way in here, you can hear all the muffled screams.

every now and then mind will find a reason to make you upset,

even though the thing has passed, i will never forget.

i will replay it in my mind a thousand times and once more,

pick it apart like with surgical precision till there’s nothing more.

each of those pieces will be further examined and scrutinized,

till i find something wrong with another piece and feed my mind.

this process repeats till i see the light of another day,

and i have more days to screw up again.

Hope

2016-06-24T00:18:00.002-07:00

just like we wait for the rain on a sweltering hot day,

just like we wait for the medicines to take the pain away.

the wait of a better day is what makes the fruition worthy,

it is the hope that navigates us through days which are murky.

we all have places we want to be, we want to go,

bills to pay, work to do, calls to answer , feelings to show.

all this we do in the hope of a better tomorrow,

a lesser burden, a day of lesser sorrow.

it’s not about the sorrow for all, some like the chaos within,

everyone is different, we don’t know what keeps everyone ticking.

it’s not about the end, its more about the journey,

its the passion which drives us, which keeps burning.

Joker's ballad

2016-05-18T01:42:00.002-07:00

while i’m stargazing at this time of night,

let me tell you that you are not out of sight.

you’re still on my mind, you are still in my heart,

there is no end to this because there is no start.

there is a storm brewing in me which you need to feel,

you might be scared to fall in my arms, but my resolve is of steel.

i will make you fall right in my arms for one whole hour,

i will caress you like you are the lightest flower.

there will be passion, there will be heat,

but there will be a symphony for when our lips meet.

there is no escape from my love coz it’s a maze,

its too late for you harley, now you’ve already entered the craze.

the card of the joker is now here to stay,

no matter if you keep it with you or not, it will play.

Give up on you

2016-05-18T01:41:00.003-07:00

i will not give up on you, not in a thousand years,

i know you’re strong enough, I won’t be the shoulder for your tears.

but let me tell you that you are the special to me in a 100 ways,

i will be there if you need release from those woeful days.

its your smile that i always look forward to make,

i will make you happy no matter how much effort does it take.

days are like weather they are bad once in a while,

but just like those bad weather they shouldn’t ruin your smile.

i know that feeling when you can’t shake off that vibe,

a little bit of me is what the doctor would prescribe.

i can’t feel your pain or can’t hear your mind,

wish there was a crystal ball, one which i’ve yet to find.

a certain helplessness engulfs me if i don’t feel your sadness,

coz i maybe am not that close to you and that starts the madness.

find your woes, find your nightmares dump it on me,

because under all the frustration is that smile we all wish to see.

Die in her arms

2016-04-22T00:51:00.001-07:00

she has the radiance of the moon, and heat of the sun,

the way she takes control, you will hand her the gun.

walking tall and high, she has no regrets,

she’s all that you’ll see, an angel you never met.

a glance of her is enough, a look is all you need,

once you meet you want more, she’ll bring out your worst greed.

she will be loved, she will be respected,

she deserves every good that her world has expected.

her presence is enough for me to be calm,

i’d love to be by her side or die in her arms.

whenever I want to I wish I could see her,

i wish i could bury all the problems beneath her.

make her days better even if it’s already good,

i should be there for her to anticipate her mood.

she is beyond any letters, beyond any word,

trying to contain her in a song is purely absurd.

she will be loved, she will be respected,

she deserves every good that her world has expected.

her presence is enough for me to be calm,

i’d love to be by her side or die in her arms.

Unacceptable

2016-04-21T15:50:00.003-07:00

I tried to make myself understand that everything has it's time,

but how long am I supposed to wait until you're mine.

Some said move on, some said to forget you,

as long as there's time we'll surely make it through.

Staring quietly into the crowd hoping to see you there,

my heart refuses to believe you won't look back, maybe I'm just scared.

I am patient from everything else but not for you,
what more do I need to do, what else do I need to prove.
Saying a lie a million times won't make it true,
I'm selfish like a baby, I don't want to lose you.

Fighting back my demons to accept what is the inevitable,
but the demons are not wrong, its what they are asking is unacceptable.
Like a good song I hum you every moment that i'm awake,
you keep me hooked on to you like a risk i should never take.
Someday I will stop roaming around like an aimless fool,
Someday I can say we're just friends and still be cool.

Don't leave me

2016-03-27T23:04:00.002-07:00

I try to find a way to talk to you everyday,
I search for an excuse to meet you in any way.
You are all I have, you are all I seek,
you are what I dream of when I goto sleep.
I'll hold on to you till the last day I live,
all I have is love and love is what I'll give.

I'm broken from within, you can gather all the pieces,
look beyond my failures, look beyond my dirty creases.
Stitch me back together with your love, make me myself again,
be my morphine, be my drug, take away my pain.
If we've got this far, then I refuse to give up now,
all I need from you is to be there for me, don't leave me now.

Black

2016-03-27T17:11:00.003-07:00

I'm so inviting, but you don't even see me coming,
I'm like a song, which you can't just stop humming.
I'm the absence of color, still I'm the best there is,
royal, classy, formal are some of the words I can be.

Absence is my presence, that is how I come into your eyes,
I'm visible when you are alive, and when someone dies.
I represent the devoid, I represent the wealthy,
I am the good, am I the bad? Maybe.
I'll steal your breath with fear or awe,
I'll be the best thing you never saw.
In the darkest night you will see me surround you,
I can help you disappear anything around you.
I'm shrouded in mystery, there's nothing you can take from me,
I don't want anything from you, just acceptance of my being.

Silence

2016-03-23T17:57:00.000-07:00

I've been quiet for too long now,
how am I supposed to tell you I don't know.
I can't see you cry, I can't see you stumble,
I will be there to help you if you ever fumble.
Let me wipe that tear off before it falls on the floor,
I will hug you into eternity till it hurts no more.

I've been silent coz I know it's not my place to say,
I've had enough of you being hurt, I'll make the pain go away.
I don't care what people say or what they think,
I will bring down an empire for you or make a ship sink.
The people who don't believe in you don't deserve to be with you,
my love will shine through their disbelief and find its way through.

All this silence maybe is why you don't know the way I feel
but will you accept my love unconditionally.
Your heart has already chosen and I'm not the type to steal,
they said silence is golden, is it really?

Dance with the devil

2016-01-29T01:26:00.000-08:00

I stand in the corner looking for an excuse to talk to you,
looking forward to get a chance to share a drink or two.
All the guys in the room are staring at you, the atmosphere is getting thicker,
feeling like a wild west shootout, who will be the one to pull the trigger.
Enough of this waiting, its time to make my move,
I'll get you in my arms and we'll start to follow the groove.
Let the music carry the night into it's embrace,
let our heart beat and then match their pace.

why is my soul wanting to run away from itself,
am I dancing with the devil in the fires of hell?
is this the thrill people get while walking on those tightropes,
is this the calm snipers feel while stalking their targets on the scope.
The music is just driving me more into this abyss,
I didn't feel like this even during my first kiss.
You smile and let me know that you're having a good time,
i'm sure if I ask for more of that, I wouldn't be charged for a crime.

Keep you up at night

2015-11-27T20:47:00.000-08:00

I wish that I could tell you the reason I still can't sleep,
if only I could tell you the secret I hate to keep.
Tossing and turning at night in my bed, keeping thoughts in my head,
I could never understand the words that you never said.
I'm too scared to find a new way to be in touch with you,
I would be the courageous one only if I knew you thought this way too.
We are looking at the same picture, but are we wearing same lenses too,
I wish I could change my actions and thought things through.

Now I'm a figure from your past, dwelling in your present,
I hope there was a time when I was in your mind wherever you went.
Maybe for the wrong reason, maybe for the right,
as long I was there, I think it's alright.
Tell me what do you think, tell me what do you want to hear,
show me your anger, show me your dreams, show me your fear.
The more you let me understand you, the more I can do,
let me in your mind, I'll build a fairy tale for you.

You're still my aspiration, I won't give up on you yet,
just let me know what keeps you up at night in bed.

Got your back

2015-11-17T00:01:00.003-08:00

Life has got you by legs, trying to break free and save yourself,
shouting at top of your lungs, screaming out for help.
This is not meant for you to walk alone, I got your back,
this is not meant for you to do on your own, I got your back.
Racing through the maze as fast as you can,
don't hurry, just look back I'm your man.
Yep, I'm a braggart tooting my own horn,
but if you're a rose I'm your thorn.
I said I got your back you gotta trust me,
I'll follow you around for all those paths that are dusty.

Just say that you got a problem and I'll see it through,
just say you got a heartbreak and I'll glue it for you.
When I said I got your back, I don't know why you still so sad,
I've always made it right with every single chance I had.
I know I talk like a freakin' kid, but whatever I've ever done,
is to see you smile as bright as the summer sun.

Doesn't change a thing

2015-11-16T23:06:00.002-08:00

If we didn't know each other, what are we doing together,

this is just a phase, it'll pass by like the days with bad weather.

Everything was good the last time I noticed,

everything was good the last time we kissed.

Now I am losing my mind thinking what went wrong,

you don't say a word, but we won't break that easy, our love is strong.

People say me to walk away when there's nothing left,
but I can't walk away from the promises we never kept.
What's this thing that's holding me back, I can't let you go,
why am I so restless, even though you ain't here anymore.
I'll keep my word and get everything you wanted,
I'll be by your side, even if I'm stranded.
All these promises might be just words but you gotta trust me,
I wouldn't have said all these things, you are special ! you must be !

Now that you're gone, and I'm here staring at this darkness,
I'm waiting for you at the same place, struggling with my madness.
I don't know what I meant to say, maybe I didn't think through,
but I know that the fanciest dream surely come true.

Confusing

2015-09-02T19:53:00.000-07:00

Everyday I wake up with some goal in my head,
by end of day I starting chasing another one instead.
I want to reach for the moon and reach for the stars,
but I like the look of Venus, maybe I'll head to Mars.
Things will never stay the same, everything is meant to change,
but everyone wants you to remain the same, well that's strange!

It might be really amusing when you read my confusion,
but what I'm trying to say is life is an illusion.
You change your needs based on your situation,
everything you fail at is just another emancipation.
The gem which was today might be a stone tomorrow,
today you might be the richest but tomorrow you might borrow.

Everything may seem to be moving too fast, faster than you want,
somethings you can control but there are somethings you can't.
There maybe sleepless nights in the middle of September,
but which was the last night you slept well and remembered?

Faith

2015-01-17T23:43:00.000-08:00

Everyone has something or someone to care about,
me? I'm still on the road trying to figure it all out.
Saints, deities and believers we have something to turn to,
someone forgiving, someone who gives a pardon for all the sins we do.
I'm just confused if there is someone I need to look for,
Maybe I have them in my life, and they are everything I stood for.

All I can do is go on knocking on all the doors,
hoping one of them would open up to me and say "look no more!"
But its all that I hope for, maybe I'll find what I'm looking for,
success, happiness, content I wish they would sell these in stores.
I'm done window shopping for all these things ,
I'll just make the best of whatever life brings.

All of us try to fill that void with the things we see on TV,
wishing all of those people in the box is how our life should have been.
I've come to accepting that life is not what we want, its what we make,
no matter what happens, every challenge is where you put your faith at stake.

RED

2015-01-11T23:45:00.001-08:00

I am the color red, I represent fire,
I show the depth of your deepest desire.
My presence shows there's love in the air,
or is it blood and I gave you a scare.

A little bit of me might refer promiscuity,
but i make you stop in streets of the city.
Flaunt me or keep me I'll grab some eyes for you,
lovers and haters both won't know what to do.

I'll make you look like Ferrari stable horse,
I'd sell you like those red velvet cakes in stores.
I am the color of lust and anger, in short I'm emotion,
I am the one and only who wants the whole portion.

Untitled

2014-12-27T21:49:00.001-08:00

I've met stubborn people, but this one's a catch,
I'm pretty sure there isn't anyone to match.
The smile of the sun, ferocity of a tiger,
anyone who doesn't share happiness with him is definitely a miser.

Overwhelming with raw energy, walks on fire,
if I didn't admit he is an unstoppable force, I'd be a liar.
Shooting for the stars, he will land on each one of them,
the greatness won't get to his head, he will be the same.

Dreams so big it might look like a boat on the horizon,
but it'll be these dreams which will make him a titan.
You might think he'd run low of happiness some day,
but that day is very far far away like the guys in Star Wars say.

If you would ask me to sum it up in these lines,
I won't lie but there's much more to find in his mind mines.
All I can say is he is the support everybody needs,
he is the friend everybody wishes and pleads.

Three phases of a crush

2014-07-18T11:40:00.000-07:00

Phase one, I'm stunned to see you walk by,
I pause for a moment to check if a star fell from the sky.
Checked my pulse to check if its running or not,
My mind just went blank, I lost my train of thoughts.
I quickly think of something to say something witty,
and blurt out some thing which is categorized as creepy.
I beat myself up for being such a immature slob,
but maybe practice makes perfect and I'll get better at this job.

Phase two, I've started to talk to you and now we are in talking terms,
I'm getting closer to you, at least that's what my heart confirms.
I still feel distant for some weird reason, I try to be closer,
at the same time I want to genuine and not a poser.
I find out all the likes and dislikes like a cop on a case,
I must have a mind vault where I keep all your files in place.
There's a weird excitement to find new things about you,
I feel so accomplished to come to deduce facts from the clues.

Phase three, my brain starts to work too much and reality steps in ,
you were so sorted out but the feeling of being lost sets in.
Your expectations rise even though you didn't expect anything from the start,
the inhibitions and doubts now start to tear you apart.
Were you right? or Were you wrong ? You need to find where you belong,
All of this is a big mess, but you pick up the pieces and become a little bit strong.
The whole thing crashed into pieces, at least that's what it seems,
but how many of you would like to wake up from a beautiful dream ?

Emotion

2014-04-26T07:11:00.000-07:00

Some have it under control, some just let it flow,
some just hang onto it, some just let it go.
It moves the cogs of the brain makes us think about a moment,
its the same thing which makes us write those little sonnets.
It lingers around in our mind until it has found its peace,
some find it easy to suppress it all and pretend it didn't exist.

Its that little thing which sets everything in motion,
I guess that's what they call an emotion.

Nobody is there who doesn't possess this little wonder,
its the precursor to the biggest successes or the worst blunders.
We sway to its whimsical tunes and let our brain figure it out later,
we end up doing something in the moment which leaves a crater.
Even though we think we learn from our mistake,
this little thing will override again and put everything at stake.

Its that little thing which sets everything in motion,
I guess that's what they call an emotion.

7 days

2014-02-02T09:37:00.001-08:00

Day one, you wake up and see the world from a new perspective,
reacting to the world throws at me, cycle it through my introspective.
Today you will understand what every thing means without any misdirection,
you will find the reasons why people seek all the affection.

Day two seems a bit better when you feel you've figured out things,
this is the day when you think you can handle whatever life brings.
Confidence on full throttle, self belief at its all time best,
You're ready to take over the world without taking single moment's rest.

Day three is the pinnacle of your time when you reached the peak,
all the things lined up in your backyard as trophies of your winning streak.
Gloating in your own success you tell your victory rides to your friends,
it feels like a joyride on a turbo boosted ride which has no end.

Day four is starting and all of this seems old to you now,
the same things which made you think now don't even raise a "How?"
The questions which gave you sleepless nights have lost their charm,
even the most exciting of things now don't raise an alarm.

Day five is where you think what all you missed out until this moment,
what happened to you ? where is your old zeal? where's the proponent?
Your mind goes slower, you lose your swag ,
you are okay with losing, there's no reason to brag.

Day six is where you accept your life as it is,
think of bad days and good times equally as it is.
There are no regrets on how your days have gone,
you're the only one who can put it in a beautiful song.

Day seven is when you realize you're life can be put in six phases,
the phases may not be arranged as I put it in these six stages.
Everyone goes through all of this and you're no class apart,
if you missed which part you're going through, you can read it from the start.

Leap of faith

2013-11-03T05:07:00.002-08:00

It was not this way in the beginning, dunno how it changed,
everything seems still in its place but my mind feels estranged.
doing everything on our part to make the mood elevate,
our mind is forbidden territory hidden behind that high palisade.
its an enigma, arcane in its own way, struggling to be free,
but how can I understand others when I can't even understand me.
I know what I need, but I chase what I want,
I know what's needed to be done , but try to do what I can't.
Is it an eternal optimism or a stupid fool trying to get the moon ?
Will the optimism shine or its just impulsive to ask for it too soon ?
Either way you'll never know what's in store for you ,
life likes to keep you in the dark until the moment passes through you.
we're more worried about the journey rather than the destination,
the question always lingers if our determination would match their intimidation.
intimidating we can all be, trying to pull someone down who tries to jump higher,
mocking our way out of our failures coz we never could be a fighter.
we all can say we tried our best, but who's to determine what's our limit
there's no absolute line to draw which can contain us within it.
everyone will remember the last one inch at which you gave up,
if you could climb this far, why this little inch should be the reason for you to stop