My Walks to Remember- things to do before I die

55a) Visit Burj Kalifa Dubai, UAE, 24. Be vegetarian for a week, 27. Swim with Dolphins, 36. Go Skydiving 76. Fly First Class 89. Visit Zambia again

2014-08-07T06:16:00.004-07:00

55a)

24. Whilst I was volunteering in Zambia, they had no fridge or freezer facilities so had to be vegetables! Funnily enough I didn't miss meat weird huh? Since I have been back I find it weird having meat!

27. This was also such an amazing experience I have never been happier. I got to kiss a dolphin ^_^ SO HAPPY!

36. Such an amazing experience this was, such an adrenaline rush and for such a good cause. Managed to raise £595 in total for Dreams Come True.

76.Fly First Class

OK so I didn't get to fly first class but I did get a free upgrade to business class from economy flying with Emirates. Was so exciting, best experience ever and great company. Flying from Lusaka to Dubai. Food was amazing, and the service that you get as well like your in a hotel, and tablecloths as well!

89. Visit Zambia again

Well can safely say I have done this one and loved it even more the second time and have met some amazing people there too. :) Baby elephants were so sweet and playful ^_^ don't you agree they are cute aren't they just? This is the Lilayi Elephant Nursery in Lusaka you may have seen it on Paul O Grady Wild Animals, good programme I would recommend it.

82. Complete University

2014-08-07T05:48:00.001-07:00

Sorry it has been so long since I have been on this blog. I am back now though and wanting to tick some more things off my list.

I graduated from the University of Winchester in October 2013 achieving a 2:1 for my Bachelors Law Degree so I can tick that off my list!

Zambia Volunteering

2014-08-03T03:29:00.000-07:00

I went volunteering in July for a month, came back on the 30th. It was amazing, I met some great people. Anyway I wrote a few blog entries whilst I was over there thought I better share them here in case you were interested. The culture there was amazing, everyone was so friendly and sweet adults and children alike.

Volunteer Blog
Friday 18th July 2014
Today we are heading to Ngoma School which is the nearest town to Camp Phoenix and is roughly an hour away. We are going to be giving out letters to the children there which have been given to them by the Alexandra Parade School which is based in Glasgow, Scotland. They are one of the schools who form part of the Muzovu Awareness Project (MAP) School Friendship Scheme where letters are exchanged between schools in Zambia and those from other countries. At the moment however they are all based in the UK. One of the main aims of this is to help to increase awareness of conservation. Currently there are only 5 schools which are in correspondence with Zambian schools out of a total number of 40.

There are four of us travelling today myself, Max, Jeni our MAP coordinator and Davison will be driving us. I noticed travelling on the way to the school how many Vervet monkeys there were in sight. They are grey in colouring and are very cheeky little things. They were all sitting on the rooftops of the houses and were looking very photogenic I must say. They were busy preening and moving from place to place. They do also like to take food from the neighbouring houses within the village which not all the children liked as they thought that they were greedy!
We introduced ourselves to the teacher to tell them why we had come to visit, and also to let them know that we had brought donations for the school. We brought with us some stationary equipment and some books for the children. The teacher helped us to organise the children, and gather them, before we all went into the classroom.
When we stepped into the classroom the first thing that I noticed was how everyone was smiling widely, and how open and receptive they were. They really care about their education and are willing to learn.
The teacher helped us to distribute the letters to the children. Some were named and others were just addressed as “Dear Friend”. The letters which were named were called out and the child came up to class to collect it. Photographs were taken of them receiving the letter, and they looked so delighted to have received something. You could tell how much hard work was put into writing these letters by the beautiful colourful pictures that were coloured in and put onto these letters. Some even had the words “God Bless you” and “I Love you” which I thought was very sweet. Anyone who had not received a letter was asked to put their hands up, at first very few did so, but gradually more and more hands went up. By the end of it pretty much the whole class had their own letter. Funny how the smallestthings can be the most rewarding; you could have given them a sticker and they would have been happy, so easily delighted.

We then asked the children if any of them wanted to read their letters out loud or if they wanted us to read their letters. They were very eager to do so, so pleased were they to show off their letters to everyone.
Jeni asked the children some questions so we could find out more the children’s likes and dislikes. I was very surprised at the range of different subjects that were taught and how it compares with the UK. Two firm favourite subjects were Science and Maths. However amongst these there was also English ( my favourite!), Social studies and studying the language of Tonga. Their favourite sports were football, netball and basketball. The children were also very well spoken in English which I found surprising but I think that it is very good.
Once all letters had been distributed and the donations been given we said goodbye to all the children who were all very enthusiastic waving to us even as we were leaving which was lovely.

The next school which we visited was called Basanga where we wanted to provide the school with donations of books and stationary. We were met by two teachers, one of which was acting as a supply head teacher. We introduced ourselves and provided them with the donations that we had brought. They were very pleased and grateful to receive them and recorded it in a book. I was also quite surprised when he told us that there were 600 children in the school. Good amount though impressive. He was also saying that it was difficult at the moment with the school holidays looming in August to ensure that children arrived to school on time.
Jeni and I went to use the toilet whilst Max and Davison waited by the car. When we came back we found that they were surrounded by lots of school children. They found Max’s camera of much interest, inching closer and closer. Seeing photos that that had been taken
of them on the camera screen absolutely fascinated and delighted them. Max asked them all to jump up and down which they did quite happily. I am sure she got some really good pictures.
Our next pit-stop was to pick up the Zambian Wildlife Authority (ZAWA) scouts from where they had been resting and bring them back to Camp Phoenix. Once we had picked them up we also went a short distance to pick them up some more water as they were running low. Once that had been delivered we also went to collect some Maize to be provided for some neighbouring villages who were in much need of it. We then headed back to Camp Phoenix, to shower, prepare dinner and sit by the campfire, which I like as you get a real sense of community and team all working, eating, sleeping in close proximity you definitely build a nice rapport. That’s it for now, catch up with you soon.

Skydive!

2013-07-22T15:27:00.003-07:00

So my skydive is all booked! October 19th baby, got to be up early though as got to be there by 8am!

If you would like to donate there's a link below. I would be ever so grateful if you could, I am fundraising for a charity called Dreams Come True who help fulfil the wishes of terminally ill children. I am aiming to raise £395 to cover both the cost of the jump and a minimum of £125 in donation.
http://uk.virginmoneygiving.com/fundraiser-web/fundraiser/showFundraiserProfilePage.action?userUrl=VictoriaBrown6

Thanks for reading and I'll keep you updated.

Passion.

2013-06-08T15:22:00.002-07:00

I was watching Britain's got Talent tonight, and I was watching Attraction. I thought they were fantastic. Something so unique,so different, completely breath taking. I remember watching their audition and nearly crying, the story was so moving, so inspiring, and so creative. I think that they deserved to win.

I know it has been a while since I have been on here, I think I am going to have to amend some of my Walks To Remember in light of me going on a leadership course that was provided for by the University. I have learnt so much more then I had ever thought I would. I am really a firm believer that you have to take as many opportunities that come your way. You only have one shot after all. I would rather take a risk than live to regret it. Something that I think we must all remember. Life is too short guys. I mean before I would never have even dreamed about before applying for things like gameshows, but I applied for one today. Yes, I may not even get through, but at least am having a go. Why not eh?

As of Monday I am planning to start up my fitness regime again, as I am really unfit and need to get going again. Start off slow about 2-3 times a week for 30 minutes and build it up. Obviously not all running, I am not superwoman after all!

I am also really in love with the Emilie Sande song at the moment read all about it, really emotional song, very strong voice and so powerful as well. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eFXRQKYFbXE

Thats it for now, will update you again soon. I think my next thing to tick off my list skydiving... hmm yes!

2012-02-17T15:57:00.002-08:00

I don't know really, I haven't been on here for a while, apologies for that, I am rather ashamed to say that I havent acccomplished any more on the list except go to subway and try a meatball sub which I have to say was well worth the wait no wonder Joey from Friends loves them they are epic, also known as the 'joey special'

Recently have been finding and realising despite having had this blog to begin with that life is short. There are no guarantees that you will live tomorrow therefore you have to live today. I have to admit although easy in theory putting it into practice is another story.

There seems to be so much sadness around, and its so heartbreaking, because theres nothing you can really do to help. We all want to leave this world hoping to have left a mark on it, to say that in some way we helped the world in a small way to make it better, I think we forget that sometimes that we are ALL important as individuals we all have a role to play.

Thats the way I want to leave this world having had done something for someone else, just to have helped someone or something a bit better.

Sometimes everything is just a constant struggle, and your struggling to fight struggling to stay alive, and all you can feel is pain, but that pain it reminds you your still alive.

Do you ever wonder about your life? About whether you feel your just letting it pass you by, that your not really living? The time to do something is now. We don't want to wake up with regrets of broken dreams and hopes and desires. Sometimes though it seems your struggling and fighting and trying so hard to keep afloat, but sometimes despite your best efforts you feel your sinking and all you feel is disappointment, for having failed, disappointment in yourself.

There are some in this world, who have had so many things that have happened to them through no fault of their own all due to CIRCUMSTANCE and yet if you met them in the street you wouldn't be able to tell. It is definitely about 90% attitude and 10% what happens to you, I remember seeing it in a quote somewhere and its so true. I need to be more like that, I wish I was.

Thats sort of the end of my little blog writing for now, be happy people do what you love, remember that life is precious.

New Year

2012-01-01T10:29:00.000-08:00

Happy New year Everybody! Hope that it is a great year for you all and as Oprah Winfrey said another chance for us to get it right! Does anyone have any new years resolutions or do some believe they are a non starter in the sense that they always get broken?

I have a few of my own this year, lets hope I can keep them! I will let you know... did everyone have a good christmas? I hope so, good time to be with friends and family, did you get everything you wanted? Wishing you all the best for 2012, did you all see the new year come in?

I promise I wont make it so long next time I write! :)

Sing in Front of An Audience

2011-09-12T05:42:00.000-07:00

So one of the things on my list is to sing in front of an audience which I have done before, just been a while since have done it think the last time I sang on my own, was when I was 11 years old. Pretty scary stuff. Think I would still be terrified now if I had to do it now but sometimes you have to do things just to say you have done it but also because sometimes you need to challenge yourselves. I do rather like singing after all. Anyway I recently saw something at Pizza Express for auditions which can be uploaded via youtube. The competition has closed now, but anyway I entered into it and I doubt I will get anything out of it but the point is to try right? Anyway I don't normally post youtube songs, particularly because they are terrible, and not at all flattering, but if you do for any silly reason want to listen have posted some links below. Thanks for listening http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MxbARg-cnbs http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zI9U7Yw5gVY&feature=related

Journey of Self Discovery

2011-09-11T09:38:00.000-07:00

Perhaps the greatest stories are not those with a happy ending but those that have a moral, those that go beyond the road of self discovery. So that when the journey ends you realise, you not only know yourself better, but that all the hardships and laughter that you had among that journey was worth it was even necessary because it made you realise who you are. Do you ever wonder though who that person actually is? None of us know for sure where we are actually headed, some of us just seem to be bimbling along, hoping for something better to come along, not quite knowing which direction we are going and some in complete bliss. The reality is that nobody is perfect, and no-one should expect perfection, its too unfair and unrealistic to hold people to such high standards as we are all only human. Reminds me a bit of that One Tree Hill Song ' I never promised you a ray of light I never promised there'd be sunshine everyday I gave you everything I had the good bad. One thing is clear I wear a halo, when you look at me standing from here you wouldnt say so and I just want to love you. Why do you put me on a pedastool Im up so high I can't see the ground below... I have flaws and sometimes I even sin' Incidentally I do love that song, not just the words but the way its sung, with such heartfelt emotion. I think perhaps we hold people to such high standards, because we expect perfectionism in ourselves. I have come to realise though, that throughout life you do come to realise who your friends really are, who is important. Its hard letting go though sometimes, as naturally some friendships to fall to the wayside, through unforeseen circumstances or something else entirely whether preventable or not, sometimes you just have to accept something as it is whether you want to or not because its simply how it is. It is sad, but sometimes you do have to move on. Its important that we are loved, and treated with respect, and I hope with all my heart that you are, that you have someone who you know loves you for you and not for anyone else, who accepts you and who you can have a good time with. Thats what its all about, enjoying life and having fun. It shouldnt be a chore, as long as you live and enjoy! Be thankful for the things you have and not what you have lost. Thanks to whoever is reading.

The Reading List

2011-08-21T07:51:00.000-07:00

So I have just started reading with my sister the Chronicles of Narnia collection, we have just finished The Magicians Nephew, which was really good, very important as well, the introductory book if you like the one where you understand who what where and how everything has come about. Have already read and watched the Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe and are now reading The Horse and his Boy. So far so good :)

Must say The Magicians Nephew did make me laugh, not giving anything away but all I need to say is Tree and Uncle Andrew am sure you will know what I mean, wouldnt want to give away any spoilers...

Also bought The Secret Garden and Little Women absolute classics, havent started them yet, another thing to add to though as I don't think Little Women is up there. I must admit that the first thing I think of when it comes to Little Women is that episode of Friends where Joey reads it and Rachel reads The Godfather? or something like that and Joey puts the book in the freezer when he gets sad/scared. Which he does end up doing in this case, so I know that it will probably be a tear jerker.

Another thing to add to the list!

2011-08-14T08:52:00.000-07:00

Right thats it! I have decided I am going to be a better person, and one of those things is going to be to learn to keep my gob shut! Not talk so much and actually think before I talk. Be more considerate. When will I learn? Instead of just talking talking talking. Woffle, woffle woffle.

39. Lobby your local MP

2011-08-11T05:13:00.000-07:00

On the 17th July I sent an email to my local MP Andrew Tyrie about the bus system. I don't know if you know anything about it, but basically the Council only want to get rid of local buses to save THEM money... Nice eh? Particularly when we as a community rely on it. Especially the elderly, no point in having a free bus pass if you can't use it effectively.

Not to mention not being able to use the services going to and from the hospital. Quite important don't you think? They want to get rid of all sunday services, and evening services for weekdays. Not good!

Anyway I didnt expect him to respond, but I received a letter in the post today with a response from him. Was quite exciting all very official, the envelope even has House of Commons on it how very official...

Even got a signature from him, how exciting! So completed another off the list!

New Cooking Blog

2011-08-08T15:33:00.000-07:00

Just wanted to let you all know I have started up a new blog, which I have linked on the tab next to home called Victoria's recipes and inspiration which will lead you to a link for my cooking blog. Feel free to have a look :)

Not much up there at the moment but there will be! Enjoy!

Ponderings.

2011-08-08T14:17:00.000-07:00

At the end of the day we can either choose to float or swim. To go against the tide, thats taking us upstream in our boat, or go with the flow of the current letting it take us wherever the current goes.

The music in the backgrounds of our lives that can be tinted so softly with sadness, filled with bittersweet moments of joy.

Perhaps the reality is that we dont know what the day can bring, all we can do is hope, and do our best that everything will come right. We can only do our best, only be ourselves. Thats why we have to live our lives to the fullest, in case there isnt a tomorrow.

Do something completely different, that you would never do before, the world is very big after all.

So when you wake up tomorrow, instead of doing the expected, perhaps its time do something a little unexpected, a little out of the ordinary. Perhaps its a dream that you always wanted to pursue, or something you've always wanted to do.

We don't know how humans will behave when faced with a crisis or an obstacle until we come face to face with it. Watching Titanic has made me realise how despite the fact the love story is not true, there were many children who were left with their mothers, whilst the boat went down. The brave who didnt want to leave their loved ones behind, the ones who were so afraid that they fought, with the other lifeboats, something they didnt think they had, but was something more like a survival of the fittest. Some simply accepted what was going to happen to them as calmly as they could, whilst others perhaps were too hard on themselves. As portrayed in the film, such a sad, yet good film.

Just a few ponderings really.

Don't be afraid, of living your dreams, of doing things you always wanted to do because sometimes there comes a point when you are no longer able to do all of the things that you wanted. Take a chance! Live a little. Live your life, be happy people :)

70. Learn to Bake a Cake

2011-08-01T08:58:00.000-07:00

Made cupcakes today, as I have been given this new piping set which I have been dying to try out, and I finally used it today.

There are some pictures below if your interested :) Was also wondering to anyone reading, was thinking of starting up my own cooking blog what do you think? Just really a collection of different recipes, trying out, pictures, my experiences of it, of what goes right and wrong. Perhaps a bit inspired by that film Julie/Julia has anyone ever seen it? The recipes she made were absolutely fabulous, and I know its just a film, but it seems such a great idea as I do like experimenting with different things. I could put up recipes healthy, unhealthy, cheap and cheerful, made up recipes and some not made up..

41. Race for Life

2011-06-12T09:42:00.000-07:00

So number 41 completed! It was an absolutely amazing day. Everyone got soaking wet, including all the organisers and volunteers, very well set up I must say, plenty of refreshments and toilets and some undercover.

Got a taxi there with Helen Jones to the Garrison Ground at Bar End Road, and the turn out was amazing, some of the signs were rather sad, yet inspiring, things like in memory of my granny or to mum the survivor. Was so surprised as there were so many kids there, I even saw a mum and daughter holding hands so sweet. The ground was massive with everyone dressed up in tutus, fairy wings (me included), from clown outfits to glittery sandals.

All different ages, heights, builds groups, just a lot of fun really, the rain wasnt going to damper anyones spirits, felt so amazing, the atmosphere everyone there for a good cause.

We got there an hour earlier, got set up with my number and the reason we were racing me: 'My Auntie Fluff and Auntie Angela who I never got to know properly' and of course everyone affected but there were other sadder stories like to Mums and Dads.

Around half an hour before the race had two warm ups one was zumba which was really fun although felt a bit of an idiot, but the music was great and all of the heart radio sponsors were there. Then after that we were hanging around trying to get warm, everyone was smarter than me in wearing anoraks haha, but then we had another warm up of aerobics.

A very emotional speech from the person who had organised it, our Local Winchester MP also said a few words and we had a minutes silence to everyone who we were remembering for the race.

Then at 11:00 we were off! First the runners, then the joggers and then the walkers. So great seeing people even if you didnt know them supporting you, round the track, including Miss Helen Jones :). Some people managed to finish in 20 minutes, so fit they are! I managed to do it in 41 minutes, I was worried was going to take too long so am glad about that.

When I finally finished felt such a sense of achievement not just for me, but for everyone who raced for that one cause. Everyone cheering everyone else on, was really nice we got given a medal each and a bag of goodies and some much needed water. :) The volunteers did a wonderful job as did the people who directed us around the course. SO THANKYOU!

Thank You Helen Jones for being there for me, for supporting me, couldn't have done it without you. <3

Countdown.

2011-06-06T15:23:00.000-07:00

Not long to go until the race now...

5 days and counting...

My dear friend Helen is going to watch me, isn't she great?

Anyway I shall post pictures up for you all of the event and everything :)

Until Sunday.

Thanks to whoever is reading

:)

70. Learn to Bake a Cake

2011-04-22T13:12:00.000-07:00

Heya, so I made or tried to make a Red Velvet Cake today with the help of Iced Jems http://www.icedjems.com/ have a look at the website if you are looking for inspiration or want to experiment and become a professional chef or something.

It is an American cake for those who have not heard of it and is meant to be red, I had never heard of it before, was so light and fluffy!

Thanks to whoever is reading and Happy Good Friday!

Music.

2011-04-03T15:30:00.000-07:00

Really liking Bruno Mars Just The Way You Are, it is such a sweet song don't you think? It's how it should be, what every lover/boyfriend/girlfriend should say. Wouldn't that be nice? To be loved for who we are, that they won't try and change us in any way 'you're amazing just the way you are' Magnifique.

Still training for the race for life, was a bit disheartened that I am not speeding along as far as I would wish but I am contemplating joining a running club for beginners.

Have you got any tunes that your really liking at the moment? I think mine are Mine- Taylor Swift, Bruno Mars- Just The Way You Are, Airplanes by Hayley Williams and B.O.B, Grace Potter and Bethany Joy Galeotti- I want something that I want, Fireflies- Owl City and Someone Like You- Adele. What about you? Any music you into at the moment which suits the time, that is upbeat makes you happy or whatever?

Atonement.

2011-03-31T16:33:00.000-07:00

.We all make mistakes, feel really guilty about making them wondering why we made them in the first place, wanting to be forgiven for our sins, which some people could not forget. They could not find it in their hearts to trust us again, because in their eyes you had committed the ultimate betrayal.

So you tried to move on with you lives and forget the past, try to atone for your sins, for all that was wrong and the mistakes that you made. Hoping one day that we would be forgiven or else die old, feeling guilty for something so deep into our hearts that the burden never truly faded away.

The truth is that you cannot undo what has now been done, for your behaviour your sins, your address, your lack of selflessness, your flaws, I am no angel I do not deny that. Were there reasons for what you did? Did you just make an honest naieve mistake? Or did it go deeper, was it intentional? Did you apologise, get down on one knee were you pushed away to the side, too much resided in you deep inside.Was there a cause was it two sided can you make or break it did everything coincide?

We are not perfect, we hold people to high standards believing that they would not harm you. What happens when they do? Will you crumble will you fall? Will you tumble far below?

Let time take you far, forgive yourself, try to think of the future and not the past, bring your hands together pray a little more, remind yourself, that you have come this far, that what defines you now is how you deal with that mistake. Will you repeat it or will you learn from it? Your choice, two forks in the road, which one will you decide?

Snap.

2011-03-30T16:16:00.000-07:00

Funny how easily it can break in two
Become two halves instead of one, whole
Something left you so incomplete and bare
Something you never appreciated, I wish I had, darent.

Snap, the paper falls time moving slowly through gravity and space, everything evolving constantly round the globe we call earth, full of tiny dots little people moving with determination and tenacity.
Suddenly your not the person you remember, everything has changed.
Is this real is this a dream? Are we fast forward are we moving? Are we really here? Is your face pale so full of fear.
You cannot go back, delve into the wayward past, but I still remember along slow remembered walks and memories.

Suddenly your falling down, floating from the ground, rising in the air from above, glittering lights, like fairy dust twinkle smiling, like happiness, like love.

There is no rhyme or reason, no tale worth telling, nothing significant nothing too realistic.
Nothing too sad, but something buried deep, beyond that secret place where memories cannot be seen. Locked away hidden in a box, but you will never find it.
Beyond the realms of fantasy, of tall green jungles full of toucans tigers and monkeys, there is a place that nobody knows of,
Its just you and me baby, who cares if its just a dream. Its ours, its mine its yours and we're together for eternity.

The Bird, The Beauty and The Beast.

2011-03-27T14:24:00.001-07:00

Lets walk these long remembered memories
Down lanes which have no ends
Where everything is okay
Working so hard resisting against everything you are
Because the truth is your no beauty but a beast

Have you looked into the mirror
What do you see are you replulsed
Tear drops may fall but dont worry Ill be fine
Im falling falling who will be there to catch me
Perhaps this is all just a distant dream
Suddenly see true beauty as
I opened my arms and sprouted wings.

Free as a bird that may be with ruffled feathers
Rustling against my reality
Open your eyes can you see, feel that sweet smelling breeze
Like a spirit ghost whispering sweet melodies
Is there a lightness against the black
Will there be life amongst the dank dire, crime and petrified

Are you my angel so pure and white
You are my angel delight
If you knew then what you know now
Would you still be here would you still kiss me love me regardless

Is this a dream where happy endings are not few and far between
Where there is fairy dust and make believe
There lies gravity in reality but not in someone elses dream
So I jump and spread my wings
And in the distance I hear a bird sing.

Rainbows never end.

2011-03-27T14:23:00.001-07:00

These pearlescent tears that fell
When you ran far away
When you kept running and didnt look back
At everything you had left behind
The people, passers by, everything that mattered.

The seasons changed quickly
From summer to spring,
Autumn to winter,
Yet things still seem the same
Not everything how its meant to be
What did it all mean
Why can't I just leave
Why wont you leave me be

These floods of memories float back
To sunshine, laughing on grass
Picnics, friends oh how sublime
Laughed like we had no care in the world
Had everything we ever thought we wanted
Full of dreams, love hope and possibility
Suddenly everything has changed, impossibly
Not everything was how it was meant to be

Make yourself believe,
In yourself, in hope in destiny
That you will feel that way again
Where rainbows have no end
Innocent smiles, lollipop sticks,
With carefree rebellion
Flying away like beautiful butterflies
Floating into careless oblivion
So mesmerising, sweet and happy.

Breakdown.

2011-03-27T14:20:00.000-07:00

I think that the reason why sometimes we end up having such difficulty, and one of the main reasons why relationships of any kind break down is because of a lack of communication. We dont say how we feel because we are too afraid that if we do, we will end up hurting the other person by either making them angry or hurt or upset. Or sometimes we are just afraid to stick up for ourselves, and tell someone that we are hurting inside, or that we think you think less of us or whatever reason. Its so dangerous because it means sometimes we think something which is not the case at all.
If we were to tell each other how we felt, everything would be a lot better, because even if it did hurt you would be able to begin to negotiate, to understand, to hug to cry to begin to make things better. If we dont understand why or that you are hurting in the first place, it just leads to more confusion.Yes the truth hurts, but at least once its out there once its been said you can try to deal with it somehow.

Possibility.

2011-03-25T12:27:00.000-07:00

I think it is possible for anyone to do as they want if they truly want something, no matter how small they are, like the Lord of The Rings. Ever been so afraid of failing where everyone was counting on you, where the whole world depended on it, and you would feel let down if you let them all down. I am watching it at the moment, there is one part that always makes me cry: when Boromir is saving the two hobbits, no matter how many arrows get stuck in him he keeps fighting, even though he is so clearly dying because he wanted to save the little ones. Its such a heartwarming scene, have you watched Lord of The Rings? Such a good trilogy and I found out today that the Hobbit is coming out!! ^_^ Happy times.

Sometimes we are so afraid of failing, we dont try at all, I think we should rather try and fail and perhaps succeed then dont try and fail. Its going to be okay. I guess we just have to have faith in ourself. Corny? I know it is, but is true.