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My grandmother knitted these little shoes for the little feet we cannot wait to meet..

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We had a friend over with his little dog and I was alone with guest dog and Nico (our black lab) for 15 minutes. I ended up sobbing in the bathroom. Guest dog is a male and doesn’t resemble Piña the slightest except that he’s a small dog. But the sound of his little paws on our hardwood floors and the two of them buzzing after me around the house started to give me an unpleasant feeling and I couldn’t get myself to “talk” to guest dog so I just ended up ignoring both of them and feeling bad over it. I decided I was an idiot and went out in the kitchen to give them both a treat. And as they were sitting there, the two of them staring up at me, I just fell apart.

I know some of you may have trouble understanding how the death of our dog can affect me so much and I probably sound melodramatic or just plain crazy to you, and that’s okay. The relationship people have to their pets can be extremely different. I don’t even like to call Piña my pet. See? Crazy. To me she was a partner and she was our baby girl. It was my job to protect her and she got sick and we weren’t able to save her. And no matter how many vets tell us that we couldn’t have done anything, it still isn’t good enough.

She was supposed to be there when Miracle arrives. And she isn’t there to experience that with us as a part of the family.

How do you deal with grief? And what are your views on having pets and loosing them?

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I haven’t posted since my brain has basically shut down from 24/7-pain and sleep deprivation. I’m fearing that my IQ and creativity level have dropped to the stage of Homer. Our stomachs even match! Except, he doesn’t get fatter.

In other news my beautiful, beloved phone decided to die on me right when I got my moblog working and I totally need to go see my optician cause I’m definitely going blind.

The funny part is that I’m still happy. Damn hormones.

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Miracle and I got beautiful swimwear today! I can’t wait to get in the warm water.

I thought maybe my body just needed rest but when nothing had gotten better Monday morning I had to go see a doctor. We did some fun gymnastics that made me nearly pass out and he ordered me to stay home the rest of the pregnancy. Apparently my pelvis isn’t having a great time.
The positive side is that I now know what’s going on and that Miracle isn’t in danger. I had an appointment with my midwife the day after and surely enough, the baby is still BIG, happy and healthy. And then there was a little more twin suspicion but I’ll give you that story another time.

Thank you for your comments on my last post about Piña’s death. As you could tell, her death came as a huge chock to us. I’ve tried to write what happened but I can’t seem go on from the part where we leave a happy, energetic Piña at the vet in the morning and are told we can pick her up at three.. So I’ve decided to wait and finish the story at a time when I’m better able to.

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Finally I got my moblog working the way I want it to! My Flickr account and moblog are now seperated and everything I discover with my HTC Touch HD will now go here. I can now have you guys with me everywhere.
Why my toes? Because SOMEONE HELP me repaint them cause I can’t reach, I can just STARE at them and nothing happens and I can’t stand it much longer! Pretty please….?

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