Natural Mental Implosion

I just can't get into Xmas or dating it seems

2011-12-13T21:47:00.001Z

Hi guys,

Well it's my birthday on Saturday and I just can't get into the spirit of it. I don't know if it's because I'm so busy with work which is a good thing ( it really is ) or I'm just not in the mood, probably the latter as I can't get fired up for Xmas although I am going away this year....

Yay!

I fly on boxing day and I'm due back on the 2nd I'm off out to Spain and I am so looking forward to it.

Well what's new with me?

I have been really struggling with my weight to the point where I lost over 2 stone and now I'm back where I started I was really struggling with binging on junk food it got so bad I sat down to eat two large bags of giant chocolate buttons a large bag of revels And three bags of sweets after a trip to McDonald's where I had consumed a large big mac meal a hamburger and a cheeseburger.

I think the only thing that's stopped me from keeling over is I have been swimming at least 4 times a week

I wish I knew why I have been binging, I don't and I have stopped cold turkey like I did with the smoking and caffeine but that hasn't answered my question?

What's new on the mentalist front well? I'm still mental it's getting so I'm getting better at managing it I know I have to eat well and sleep better and exercise and I'm getting bits of it right with baby steps.

Every baby step I make is a step in the right direction.

What I really need right now is some company I've tied a couple of dating sites and it's all slightly hit and miss and when do you admit to being a mentalist really!

Anyway I'm going to sleep soon which isa miracle this side of midnight 21:46 goodnight

P.s. follow me on twitter @leebrookes

- L out

Location:United Kingdom

Getting things done

2011-11-08T12:46:00.001Z

Worrying about how everything will get done or whether I am capable of doing it limits my ability to respond to challenges considerably. The less I think about doing something and the faster I just get on with it, the fewer problems I cause myself. Good planning is always helpful, but time spent fretting and procrastinating is a major drain on my energy. The more willing I am to respond positively to opportunities, the more my capacity will grow.

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Why do I let it / her get to me

2011-09-23T16:25:00.002Z

So, she used me spat me onto the pile like a disused rag and I wasn't even used in a good way.

Today I saw her I got completely and utterly ignored and well know I have deleted her from my phone and blocked her from the messenger we used to use!

Enough is enough. I helped her in her time of need and what do I get pfft

sorry peeps rant over

Anger

2011-08-25T13:00:00.001Z

Never give way to anger - otherwise in one moment you could burn up the joy that you collected over a long period.

- L out

Location:Congleton,United Kingdom

it's been a weird week

2011-07-14T21:27:00.001Z

So I've had a pretty ridiculous week this week, check back through this blog and you'll see a certain somebody keeps reappearing!!

Well she's made a reappearance in my life of recent times and I can't work out whether it's for the good or the bad :(

I'm not entirely sure she's good for me or team bipolar as it's been battering my head and stressing me out I'm not even sure how I feel.

I know how I feel about her I have very strong feelings for her I may even possibly go as far as to say I am struggling with the L word.

I have known her for 15 years she is ace, she is so funny, she is cute beautiful, sexy and I would so like her to be apart of my life but I don't think she knows what she wants ( all will become clear)

She has liked me for a while she tells me and yet like me she has her issues let's not go into those in full now maybe later and they aren't really for me to share

She has been in complicated relationship that she has been trying to end and I set her a bit of a gauntlet which I was amazed she took up to end it so she tried to end but he was having none !

This is were I turned dumb ass she asked me to get involved and to say something to his Wife ( I know!!! )

So I did ( I know!!! )

This has been going on for a week now I'm not sure if I have been used manipulated or been asked as a genuine friend

I hope she has asked me as a genuine friend if I have been used or abused I am going to be furious!!!

So I'm in a predicament now me and his wife are having quite an amicable conversation on Facebook and I so want to trust my friend I so really truly do

Oh so I am so wobbled up at the moment

I know she needs some space and she doesn't want me to put any pressure on her but I really just want to know when her heads clear whether there is room for me or not?

Too much?

L out

Anderton Boat Lift

2011-06-12T23:21:00.001Z

I've been here this weekend

My first post from my iPhone :)

2011-02-26T00:19:00.001Z

Well hello there readers what few of you have hung around while I have been on and off this blog.

I think the last time I posted mobile like this was when I posted from my palm I am quite excited :)

I'm no saying I'm will post anything interesting or even worth reading but I'll at least post

But for now

L out :)

Easy

2011-01-23T19:40:00.002Z

With the good wishes and drops of co-operation from everyone, even the biggest tasks of all will become easy.

Hey you guys

2011-01-18T16:33:00.000Z

Im spending more and more time on twitter right now Twitter which I think is the lazy reason for why I am not on here more but I am going to make an effort to get my arse over here when I can :)

for now Im off

L out

I'm on the radio

2010-12-16T15:02:00.000Z

Have I told you guys I'm on the radio its a local community radio station but you can listen to it on Itunes and they cover a variety of shows with 40+ presenters its managed by Liz and Gav who do an amazing job and my show Reboot is a gadget, technology and entertainment show :)

I've been on for about three weeks now and I am really enjoying it I've had some great guests we are running a photo competition at the moment

Being on Redshift Radio really has been helping me with my stability I have been alot more settled since I started the show and having the show to prep for and look forward to is something away from work which is obviously good for me.

Get on Redshift and have a listen :)

I have also started playing more and more on my Wii recently which I know is really chilling me out.

Christmas is coming, we are all going for an Italian for christmas dinner and I'm really looking forward to it, I have Smeg booked into Kandahar cattery for 12 days as from boxing day Im off up to Scotland for 10 days for my first proper break in too long.

I'll be back to at least wish you all a very festive seasons greetings

L out

Inspirations, writing and my bloody memory

2010-12-10T16:21:00.000Z

I had a lovely tweet today from somebody who I don't speak to very often (well tweet or blog post comment).

We've never actually met but I would consider this person a cyber friend she has been in touch with me on or off for over 4 years I have followed her blog as she has been through some very difficult times.

It is safe to say this person inspires me, she is now with her husband starting out on journey that will make for hard time good times fun times and many, many memories for her and her family.

Why am I writing this post?

Well from the bottom of my heart I wanted to wish them all the best may the gods be with them and keep them safe well and happy

L out

Over Thinking

2010-11-14T13:41:00.001Z

The biggest disease of the mind is over thinking, especially too much thinking about others. Thinking too much is like eating too much. The heaviness makes it impossible to remain light and flexible.

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Happiness

2010-11-13T22:38:00.001Z

It is the art of living, the purpose of our existence. Happiness is the true index of quality of life. Without happiness, life is dry and meaningless. With happiness, life immediately becomes fulfilling and wonderful. Happiness is an infectious feeling that immediately lifts the sagging spirits of people. Happy people keep themselves happy because they know the little ways to appreciate themselves and to see the humour and magic in each moment.

Regards
Lee Brookes
Beacon for Business
01260 274038
@beacon4business

2010-11-01T09:35:00.002Z

Thought for the day

2010-10-30T14:17:00.003Z

Good WishesGiving good wishes to others acts like sunlight, filtering into the dark corners of their mind and lightening their burden.

Stanley Head

2010-10-15T21:37:00.000Z

Hey peep,

I'm currently sitting with a group of people trying to explain to Twitter to each other and dogging has come up and most of them are Drunk

I'm canoeing tomorrow and wall climbing and archery on Sunday

Its all getting complicated

Speak to you Later

L out
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Radio

2010-10-14T23:47:00.001Z

Hello peeps,

I had the most awesome day today.

Let's start with the fact that I'm on slimming world and last week I lost six and a half pounds this week I think I'm doing well too and I'm eating good food :) on a diet Yaaay

We at www.beacon4business.co.uk or @beacon4business had a demo at client today that went exceedingly well and the I was invited onto the Red Shift Radio (www.redshiftradio.co.uk) to talk to Liz and two female entrepeneurs for two hours which was great fun. You can listen to that show repeated this sunday on their website :)
I had that much fun they invited me back to talk on their tweet up show later that evening which was awesome fun. So log on to www.redshiftradio.co.uk and Listen you could help them by following them on Twitter and liking their facebook page.

I have a Networking meeting in the morning and I'm seeing my Shrink after that then I'm going on an adventure weekend which I'm looking forward to stay in touch

@leebrookes

L out
Regards
Lee Brookes
Beacon for Business
01260 274038
@beacon4business

From Frank & Jane

2010-10-03T21:08:00.000Z

My name is Frank Kibaki and my Sister Jane Kibaki, we are Kenyan Nationals, but are currently at the refugee camp here in Accra-Ghana. Please I will like you to assist me and my sister to retrieve and receive our consignment over there in United States that contains some reasonable amount of value in United States dollars and some quantity of gold and Diamond, which I cannot specify. The consignment is presently in United States . The consignments got to the United States through a diplomatic delivery company. The fact is that he was supposed to deliver the consignment to a very nice man who agreed to assist us as our guiding over there in United States . when the diplomat got to United States after clearing the consignment from the Airport, he call the man to make arrangement for the delivery, but response he go was that the man hard a fatal car accident which lead to his death. All the demurrages have already been paid by the security company, custom check report has also been paid and he also assisted us in getting the Drug/Anti Terrorist Certificate. However the consignment has to deposit with a warehouse over there in United States by the diplomat. We have been advised to look for a new beneficiary to receive the consignment, so please I will like you to assist me and my Sister to received the consignment from the diplomat.

If you accept to assist us in being our new beneficiary then get back to me as soon as possible to enable me furnish you with the contact details of the courier agent in United States so you can personally contact him and forward your address to him for immediate delivery of our consignment to you.

We await your urgent response.

Thanks and God bless you

Frank & Jane Kibaki.

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2010-10-03T11:10:00.001Z

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Thought for the day

2010-09-28T07:32:00.001Z

Soul Consciousness

Spiritual awareness (soul-consciousness) is cultivated through deliberate practice and only those who have understood the need for this kind of true, inner, self-respect will make the effort. Difficulties will arise to test your resolve for self-upliftment - physical illness, relationships, memories of the past, and so on. Yet with patience and introspection, you will come to see how these very tests are the means to strengthen your spiritual identity.

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Thought for the day

2010-09-17T22:04:00.001Z

Think No Evil
"See no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil." Do not even think evil, because first you think of something, then you speak of it, then you see it.

Your Vision

2010-09-09T14:40:00.001Z

When someone's feeling low, you can help them restore their self-belief by keeping a firm, clear vision of their goodness and what makes them special.
Increase their self value by letting your vision be drawn to the diamonds (their specialities), rather than any stones (their defects).
Take a gentle encouraging approach and never give up on anyone.

Tesco's

2010-09-03T11:13:00.000Z

Our local Tesco's has been undergoing a refurb and re opens again on Monday as a 24 hour store which in my opinion is brilliant.

Ok I need a hobby.

I am doing my first stint of volunteering today at our local Disability Information Bureau and I'm looking forward to that which is good :).

I'm sure we'll speak soon

L out
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2010-08-27T21:31:00.001Z

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Been a blue day

2010-08-25T17:33:00.001Z

I've not had a good day today -

Spent most of the day in bed, its been a long time since I had one of these. I just slept it off.

I'm gonna eat my way out of it which is not the answer but its a short term fix.

L out
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