Nazri Awang

Arah

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Tue, 21 Feb 2012 15:26:50 PST

Bila hilang arah-tuju, sepatutnya manusia itu sedar akan kelemahan diri sendiri dan segera kembali ke pangkal jalan. Tuhan maha mengetahui, maha pengasih.

Mentari

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Fri, 17 Feb 2012 01:59:03 PST

Daripada rasa, ingin sekali mengukir kata,
namun tercantas, ini mungkin bukan akhirnya,
adakah masa tidak lagi bisa menerima,
atau mungkin suatu halusinasi cuma.

Jika belakang menentukan hadapan,
jika kiri menentukan yang kanan,
suatu ketika bila berkaki lapan,
suatu persona tangkas ditelan.

Dan dedaunan itu masih hijau,
mentari masih memancar gemilau,
daun coklat, seakan mati, masih meracau,
masih hidup, andai mentari tiada menghalau.

Oh matahari, apakah benar sinarmu masih terang?

Nazri Awang
- 5.51pm, 17 February 2012.

Turn Your Lights Down Low

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Wed, 15 Feb 2012 00:10:46 PST

Coupled with the right emotion, even listening to a song can make one cry, oh God. Pathetic!

Seashell

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Tue, 14 Feb 2012 19:23:33 PST

And the world was spinning just like before,
but there was a man trying to withdraw,
alone he was, walking along the shore,
and there it was, a dead albicore,

The sharp bones, they were like a claymore,
bare foot was bleeding profusely, very sore,
he stopped, gazed up into the blue sky galore,
he pondered if there were fairies up there anymore;

He wondered if they can grant wishes,
or perhaps stop firewood from turning to ashes;
they seem to be there, forever are austere,
but will they never to interfere?

His foot was still in great pain,
Four minutes later the wound magically healed,
as if nothing had happened,
the left foot was just like the right;

he never again walk alongshore,
he is too afraid of the dead albicore,
once is enough, and no more,
but once in while, though he swore,
the scar refuses his call, evermore,
and bleeds again to the core;

Different

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Sat, 11 Feb 2012 02:31:16 PST

If things were different, then I would've been someone very different from what I am today; someone who won't be interested as much in philosophy, and a little dull perhaps.
It's a bit funny to see those people talking and discussing about the things that they've gravely misunderstood.

Everyone seems to think that they are right;
On the other hand, I am trying to obey by what Montaigne and Descartes believe in;
Summed up pretty well in one short sentence by Montaigne "Not being able to govern events, I govern myself"

I believe in myself, more than anyone or anything else; that's the greatest source of my strength to overcome anything, just anything. (everyone else, will sooner or later, run away or disappear; always)

How To Read The Economist For Free (updated)

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Wed, 08 Feb 2012 01:08:46 PST

There's an even easier way to get economist subscription for free, go to the website and subscribe for the least period possible. If I am not mistaken, it's 12 issues. (Don't forget that you have to pick the printed subscription!!) . Get online access to economist.com by going here. Do not renew your subscription when it is due, as you will soon realize that your online access is valid forever!!

Word of caution: I had one year subscription, then decided to not renew it and found out about this sweet magic. Try at your own risk, as after some googling around, I think it has to do with the way how they organize their user database. Funny thing, that they don't have capable IT people over there, :p. Have fun!

If it doesn't work, try the other method here using calibre. Everything is self explanatory, and you'll then be able to transfer the content to any ebook reader, such as kindle.

Illusion

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Mon, 30 Jan 2012 17:58:49 PST

Square A and Square B is of exactly the same color, but our brains perceive A to be of a darker shade than B. What sorcery is this? http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Checker_shadow_illusion

Daniel Kahneman mentioned about illusion of thought. Damn, what if the things that we thought were true, are actually false? How can we ever know?

Black and white

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Sun, 29 Jan 2012 22:43:12 PST

Do you realize that, there is no concrete/exact separation between black and white? The spectrum of color varies from the very darkest black, reducing intensity of the blackness gradually until you reach the end of the spectrum; a pure white.

And do you realize that between number 1 and 2, there exist unlimited numbers from 1.111, 1.112, 1.113, etc etc.

What if many things are like this? What if there is really no "black and white" answer to anything? (~~Except for mathematical calculations, off course)~~

Regret

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Sun, 29 Jan 2012 18:28:45 PST

I am regretful, for not finishing the certificate in philosophical studies in Warwick. I miss the excitement of learning something new every week. I needed to focus on my final year, but in retrospect I could have done better and continued with the course. But instead, I didn't.

Everyone was free to think and to say anything; there's nothing absolutely right or wrong. We were given equal opportunity to just talk about what we really have in mind.

Too bad, I was so nervous and couldn't really talk properly, most of the times. Mainly because I felt a little inferior for my accent, as the class was almost 90% British, and most of the students were so much older than me.

I wish I can do something similar here.

Too bad, there is none. :(

Mistakes

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Wed, 25 Jan 2012 03:50:56 PST

“A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable, but more useful than a life spent doing nothing.”

- George Bernard Shaw

Plan, execute, fail, improvise.

Shut Off

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Tue, 24 Jan 2012 22:44:32 PST

I remember the first family meeting to let us in on their plans for getting a divorce. They wanted us to choose which of them we'd live with. We cried our eyes out. The divorce never happened, but the battles and the meetings never stopped. It wasn't very long before Chris and I shut off. We'd say "Go ahead. "Get the divorce. "

- Into The Wild.

Dream

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Tue, 24 Jan 2012 23:31:47 PST

Is it not the mark of a strong mind to readily accept one's mistakes,
to try constantly improving upon one's weaknesses,
to never be ashamed of apologizing to those of whom one has wronged,
to work hard and hope that one day, one's dreams will be realized,
by none other than oneself.

- Nazri Awang, 25 Jan 2012.

Sleep

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Tue, 24 Jan 2012 16:48:16 PST

I used to sleep at 12, and wake up at around 6.30 in the morning.

Last night I slept at 3, and woke up still at 6.30 am.

And I don't feel any different.

Why sleep early then? If 3 hours plus is enough?

Humanity

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Sat, 21 Jan 2012 19:42:37 PST

I have seen people helping strangers for nothing,
I have known people who never judge others upon their appearance,
I have met people who did good things I would've never thought they were willing to,
I have witnessed first hand, how pure some people hearts are,
I have read how people went through physical and mental calamities, with much admirable strength,
I have stumbled upon people who never care about what you are, only what you are capable of,

Those people are my inspiration. :)

Three

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Thu, 19 Jan 2012 00:25:52 PST

I am gonna live my life just like Montaigne, Thoreau and Spinoza did.

Laws

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Wed, 18 Jan 2012 17:43:21 PST

There is nobody I can rely upon more than myself; I am still obeying the two laws that I have enshrined into the constitution of the self, one month and a week ago.

I believe in myself, more than anything or anyone else. To go through anything, that alone is more than enough. There is nobody and nothing can break me apart.

"What does not kill me, makes me stronger"- Nietzsche

Logotherapy

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Wed, 18 Jan 2012 17:13:12 PST

"One who has a why to live, can bear with almost any how"- Nietzsche

"Not being able to govern events, I govern myself"- Montaigne

"A scientific man ought to have no wishes, no affections,- a mere heart of stone"- Darwin

"To be a philosopher is not merely to have subtle thoughts, nor even to found a school, but so to love wisdom as to live according to its dictates, a life of simplicity, independence, magnanimity and trust. It is to solve some of the problems of life, not only theoretically, but practically."- Thoreau

Just to clear the air, the vast majority of the posts were meant to those who don't even know the existence of this blog.

Google Galaxy Nexus

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Wed, 18 Jan 2012 00:08:04 PST

The only phone with android 3.0 Ice Cream Sandwich is now available in Malaysia, via Celcom and Digi.

My HTC Desire will be 2 years old in March. Should I really buy a new phone? But then, I am not really into gadgets anymore. At least, not like before.

Buntu

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Tue, 17 Jan 2012 22:06:44 PST

Pilihan? Buntu.

Harus, bagaimana?

Tiada

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Mon, 16 Jan 2012 00:26:49 PST

Victor Frankl, anda mengagumkan. Membaca buku karanganmu itu, seakan suatu pengalaman sungguh menakjubkan.

Namun....

Apa lagi?

Senyuman, dalam air mata.

Penat..

Sungguh, amat.

Classical.

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Wed, 11 Jan 2012 23:01:36 PST

I've always loved classical music.

In an instant, they can make me shiver, cry, mentally awake, sad. Mix of emotions.

Oh God, what a beauty.

Youtube Joshua Bell. :)

Meaning

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Tue, 10 Jan 2012 18:29:39 PST

"Man can preserve a vestige of spiritual freedom, of independence of mind, even in such terrible conditions of psychic and physical stress"- Victor Frankl

"Everything can be taken from a man but one thing: the last of human freedoms- to choose one's attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one's own way"- Victor Frankl

"There is only one thing that I dread: not to be worthy of my sufferings"- Dostoevsky

I don't know if one can still preserve the sanity, spiritual freedom, to have independent mind when one is in a midst of a mental crisis. The way I see it, perhaps one can rely upon one's mental strength when one is faced with physical crisis, but how about otherwise?

If one's mental state is delirious, delusional, unstable, how does one cope with one's mental illnesses?

Should one rather try to use one's physical capabilities to control mental chaos?

...I don't know...and soon enough, I won't care....this is just too much.

Is

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Thu, 05 Jan 2012 16:58:59 PST

What is it about life that one must understand? What do we need to know, in order to live? Why? and why?

A friend in need, is a friend indeed.

Truly, this is hard.

Damn it, stop being such a weakling.

New

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Wed, 04 Jan 2012 23:22:52 PST

In the past few weeks I learnt something new. When you're outspoken and critical against anything, you're expected to walk the talk.

Philosophy, you created so many changes inside me.

Heart

noreply@blogger.com (Nazri Awang) — Wed, 04 Jan 2012 01:38:33 PST

The heart has been repeatedly stabbed vigorously, albeit virtually.

Senseless, cold-hearted. He just doesn't care about what people think of himself. :)