New life,New Journey & New role...

High Five:my teddy turned 5

2015-09-30T09:45:00.001-07:00

My baby turned 5 today.I can see him growing more independent,more braver with more reasoning.it kind of broke my heart when he started to accept his toddler bed this year.I wish he stays like a cuddly doll always.:-)

Love u more everyday siddhu kuttus.
Happy birthday to my ladoo b

Convo 2 with siddhu :date >27 sep

2015-09-27T10:07:00.001-07:00

Mom:siddhu b,u like just like ur daddu
Siddhu:no,I look like my amma now
Dad:No da siddhu.u like appa.I will show ur baby pic and appas baby pic.we both are alike
Siddhu:With a smiling face,no appa, we are not,I am light brown but you are dark brown
Amma:(bursted with laugh :-)

Convo 1 with siddhu

2015-09-18T11:09:00.001-07:00

Me: siddhu,amma made kanji today and I will be giving u 2 glasses of it once we get home.
Sid:(in a upset tone)why am I getting 2 glasses everyday?
Me:you are supposed to be drinking for ur age.anish takes 1 glass so u must be taking 5 glasses.amma is being nice to u.so u get just 2 glasses.
Sid:(instantly)so u need to have 30 glasses.but I always see u only drink 1 glass everyday.why is that amma?
I had to zipped my mouth then...
Took me a minute to realize ,I was fighting a big boy now :-)

Siddhu @ 5 :ready for school

2015-09-18T11:02:00.001-07:00

September 8,2015 :Tears rolling down from my eyes as I patted my son to sleep that night.my only thought was my sons official schooling starts tomorrow and he will have to continue the tiring days for next 20 years.

Siddhus first day at school : september 9th 2015.His first day at school was a lot of fun and he was so proud to carry his big ninja turtle bag to school.:-)

Professional walker

2012-02-24T21:20:00.001-08:00

Siddhu's dad was eager to see his son walk.Siddhu took his first steps on nov 28,2011.

Within a week,he was already a pro.

First b'day -poipu beach ,kuaui,HI

2012-02-24T21:17:00.001-08:00

Siddhu cut his first cake @9 :30 am in poipu beach with his mom and dad.

One year with Siddhu was incredible...
Morning hugs and cuddles..breakfast rhymes,ducky bath times, cute bablings and good night lullabies and kisses...our tiny miracle is already an year old.:-)

Teething stages

2011-10-27T19:23:00.001-07:00

We knew Siddhu was teething from his 6th month.It takes several days for a teeth to come out.So,it is tough to find exact dates on which the spouting of those white diamonds began...:-)Approximately,dob of his first teeth should be in August 1 week

SEPTEMBER 1 -WALK WITH WALKER DAY...

2011-10-27T13:48:00.000-07:00

We purchased a walker in August.Siddhu was never pleased with the walker as a toy.
He can stand with Walker support but didn know how to sit on floor leaving the walker behind :-).Took few days for him to learn that..
Finally,
On September 1st,Siddhu took his steps with Walker.He just loved it.He smiled and did his walking exercise the entire day.

Virginia Beach -July 4

2011-10-27T13:45:00.000-07:00

Siddhu was 9 months old when we took him to VA beach.If you search for top 100 people scared of an ocean,i would be between 50 to 100 ranks:-).Me and Nagaraj din want Siddhu to join my club.So,We decided to take the jr to beach in early age itself.

july 1 to july 4 was a long weekend.We planned our small vcation to VA especially to check out the beach.VA Beach was very crowded and water temp would be anywhere between 15 to 20c in the early evenings.Dip...Dip...Dip...We immersed Siddhus feet in a small wave and in no seconds ,he gave us 4 -5 continuous screams.

Just like mom,Water = Terribly Scared for Siddhu...

Picture Taken : In VA beach on July 3 ,2011 4:30 PM

July 20 STANDING WITH SUPPORT -Motor skill 3

2011-10-27T13:26:00.000-07:00

One more gradual evolution..
Time just flied and in no time my teeny tiny baby started holding up himself with support.He even started taking those small steps holding the sofa tight...

These are real precious moments...

24 March 2011 -2nd Motor Milestone...

2011-10-27T12:49:00.000-07:00

Siddhu gradually learnt to sit without support.24th March was the first day he managed to sit for 30 seconds without any support.
My son gave me boundless happiness in a 30 sec act.100 Muah's to my Sweetie-Pie!!

No cheating worked in Food Matters

2011-10-27T11:54:00.000-07:00

Carrots and sweet potatoes will always get a yummm reaction.But other than that,Siddhu never liked anything.
The moment he tasted the first spoon ,he knows what it was.No forcing and no cheating ever worked...

April -month of roll over...

2011-10-27T11:47:00.000-07:00

Siddhu started rolling over from april 1.But the rate at which he rolled rapidly changed after his first week in daycare.

FIRST DAY IN DAYCARE -APRIL 8

2011-09-06T12:18:00.000-07:00

First Daycare:Bright horizons,White house station,NJ
Start date :April 6th

My mom was a working woman.I was 3.5 yrs old when my baby brother was born.While at work,She left me and my brother with our grandmother.My mom told me that Whenever my baby brother cried,i used to join him saying 'Can someone please feed my brother? ; he is crying for Milk'.I personally have experienced how kids feel when parents are not there to answer their cues.My mom was helpless.She had to work to settle our lives and I am here on the same boat.

So,I was all set to send my son to daycare.I wasn't sure if Siddhu will adjust to new environment.We chose the best day care.
No matter what,it is hard for moms to let their children in others hands.

New place and new faces.I took a day off to have a check on Siddhu.He is just a baby and it would take a while for him to adjust to the new environment.He cried for a while.I was low the entire day .More than my son,i was the one to shatter.Moms speak out;dads never.I am sure his dad also felt the same way i did.

Picture taken on Apr 6 :Siddhu on buggy ride

Month 3 to Month 8

2011-09-03T08:57:00.001-07:00

80 days passed...

Time for my mom to go back home.Dad was already missing mom to the core...

My mother-in-law was here after a week.Ours was a love marriage.I need not mention how good MIL-DIL relation would be in such a circumstance.I had a real tough time.I tried keeping my mouth shut for 6 months.But she did not let me. Every time she bit me,i bit her back.She was always on top of my head.She hated me.For such a hatred,i could not pay her back with my love.
I missed my mom terribly.

Siddhu was growing fast.He started recognizing our faces.With both my sweethearts around,i felt relaxed even on stormy days.

Month 1

2011-09-03T08:15:00.001-07:00

Stitches were healing but i could still sense the pain while moving around.I literally did nothing except for taking care of my son.My mom took care of me like i was just born.Mom's presence lightened my pain and fear.
Every single day was awesome with Siddhu.He started looking more like a baby.His smile,his cry ,his actions...He created a new me with full of selflessness.
Top of the world will not be synonymous to what i felt underneath my heart.Warm hug from a caring husband and tender touch from a sweet baby.Life is so complete than ever before...

Day 1 at Hospital

2011-08-11T18:10:00.001-07:00

After an hour,nurse took Siddhu to observation room for examination and i could not wait to see him again.THey gave him back to us in a while after Siddhu passed the conducted tests.

Mom was at home to prepare next day breakfast and nagaraj stayed with me all night.I had grade 3 stitches and post pregnancy was real painful.I could just not move from my bed.Siddhu was awake whole night.May be realized he is in a new world:-).

HAPPY BDAY TO SIDDHU

2011-07-13T12:53:00.000-07:00

Picture 1 - Siddhu with his proud parents in Somerset medical center,newjersy,USA.
Picture 2 -Siddhu's close up shot

THURSDAY SEP 30

2011-07-13T12:49:00.000-07:00

Letter to Siddhu :DAY AT THE HOSPITAL

Doctor: Andrin Margaret
Nurse: Eddie
Epidural Specialist: Dr. Walker
Today ‘s Date: Sep 30th 2010

It was morning 7.05 AM when we(myself,your mom and lakshmi patti) started from our home to the Somerset Medical Center ,New Jersey ,US. It was heavily raining the whole day and it took us an hr to reach the hospital. After Parking our car,we went directly to registration counter in the hospital.
8.20 AM- we were at registration office of the hospital. All the formalities and procedures of registration got over around 8.50 AM. We were asked to march towards the Labor and Delivery ward. Immediately, your mom was admitted in room 153 of the ‘Labour and Delivery ward’.

9.00 AM –Your mom was asked to change her dresses and lie on her back. First they measured your heart beat followed by your mom’s blood pressure for vg and temperature. Then they took some blood samples. After that, to avoid dehydration, it was time to start the glucose dosage.Nurse pierced a big needle in her left hand to pass glucose.

9.25 AM -The doctor came in and measured dilation level and she said dilation was already 5 cms. So,5 more cms to go .Many ladies in US get admitted at 2.So,doctor was like-‘OMG,you are already 5 and we are good to go’.She was lot more surprised .

9.30 AM-Time for picotine.Picotine is a medicine which artificially induces labor pain. They started passing this medicine through her left hand along with the glucose. Now the time is 9.55 AM and the contractions have become little stronger than usual. To be continued….

11.00 AM-During this course , she had regular contractions which were monitored by the doctors and nurses…and finally @ 11.15, water broke on its own.

11.30 AM -Discussions were going on between the myself, nurse and your mom about taking epidural which is kind of a medicine that should be taken in the Spinal cord for reducing the labor pain. You know what, the pain is unbearable and this is a substitute which is used for this purpose to make pregnant women feel comfortable during pregnancy. So finally, I decided that your mom will go for it.

12 Noon - Dr. Walker walked in and explained us about the procedures of epidural and your mommy was given a shot. She had to sit erect and they injected a big needle through her spine during which she should not to avoid the risks of having a spine head ache.Epidural has lots of risks if not taken properly. I know it was un bearable for her seeing her reactions during that time. After 15 minutes ,she started feeling the numbness in her tummy, lower part of the abdomen and legs. But,this definitely will make her comfortable and she will be good to go for a while.

1:30 PM -she was 8 cms dilated. The doctors were expecting you around 3 – 5 PM. Thank God, she did not feel much pain because of the epidural .she was slowly dilating. Excitement still continues and the time was 2.15….
2.40 PM-Nurse has started setting up the delivery room for your arrival. They said that by 3 PM Viji can start pushing… heart pounded more …TBC at 3.

She could feel the baby's head right in the spot and at 3 PM the doctor and nurses stepped into the room to start pushing exercise. It was time for my role to give her hope ,confidence ,mental and moral support that she could do a natural birth. She started pushing but could not make it. I know it was tough to get it right at the first time. She tried too hard but couldn't make it. The doctor helped her and I could see bit of the your head and hair when she tried pushing. It's around 3.20 PM and doctor felt that the your heart rate may go down and she said she was going to use a vacuum to pull you out.

I personally felt that she could have waited more because your mom just started pushing and for a first timer how could they expect to push the baby out in 20 mins. She took the tools and set the vacuum in appropriate position and in the next few pushes the you were out @ 3.32 PM.

3:32 PM HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIDDHU,MY JUJU BOY…

It was all mixed emotions and I have been with her all through this process and in the last 30 mins holding he hands and legs ,helping her out in all sorts of ways that I could.Few drops of tears rolled down my cheeks after years. They took you out and droped on your mother’s chest for a while and the doctor asked me if I would cut the umbilical cord between the boy and mommy. I boldly said YES and bravely honored the cermony .

Then nurses cleaned and measured your body. You weighed 5 pounds and 15.8 ouncesyou’re your height was 19.4 inches. While they were doing this, doctors were doing stiches for Vg parallely .Without caring for the pain,her eyes were set on Siddhu .She was asking if she can see you again.I could see that pain in her eyes vanished the moment you were born.

Finally after cleaning it was photo session and sweets distribution. Long story in short . Finally we are entering parenthood and its going to be exciting, thrilling whatever you can name it. All together it's going to be a new start again for us with you, cute little pumpkin SIDDHU.

-Narration by Nagaraj .editor -Viji Nagaraj :-);dedicated to Siddhu Nagaraj

WEEK 39,WEDNESDAY NIGHT 9:40 EST,newjersy, Viji Nagaraj's bedroom

2011-07-13T12:43:00.000-07:00

DAD's FIRST LETTER TO HIS SON

Siddhu Nagarajan - this is what the world is going to refer you as :-) it's 10 in the night and still 9 more hrs left to admit your mom in the hospital...I know it's going to be very painful for her which I can see only through her eyes...all I am thinking now is I am going to carry my cute little pumpkin (you) in my hands ...heart pounding a little more than usual dreaming what we are going to see tomorrow...our new journey is going to start with u...all I can see through my eyes is you my boy...waiting for u and you have got the lovable parents in the universe ...good night baby...sleep well in your mother's womb for the last day doggie...tata tc

WEEK 39 WEDNESDAY NOON :MOM'S FIRST LETTER TO HER SON

2011-07-13T12:40:00.001-07:00

Juju ma, for the past one month, me and your dad have been waiting to see you. Wait
has become so long and now it feels really awesome to even think that
We will be seeing you tomorrow. I am bit scared about the entire process I am going
to go through for next couple of days:-).But you know what ,seeing you, will definitely
make me feel better.

Can’t wait to hold your lil lil fingers...Its now, I know what is called 'love at first sight'.
Sorry, Love even before that first sight :-)I am sure ,I am going to crazy for your love.

We know you are a boy and I think your features will go by your dad...:-)As of today,
Your dad and myself have shortlisted 2 names-siddhu and adhvik.
Again, not sure what your name would be ...Love you my juju doggie…

WEEK 39...

2011-07-13T12:33:00.000-07:00

Week 39 -Doc said i was more than 2 cms diluted in week 38 and we can have the baby anytime this week after Wednesday ...

So,this is it...A wonderful journey of 10 months was going to take a new turn..Finally,we chose to be induced.Sep 30,2010 was the next big day of our lives...

Pregnant women fart,they lose shape,they look tired,they eat like elephants...still everyone loves being pregnant..You sound more perfect with all possible imperfections...It was Special by all means...People treat you special..Anywhere you go,you get the preference.You get to eat whatever you like.I loved being pregnant:-D.Not only my belly grew,i grew myself as a mom ;-)

HATS OFF TO THE CREATOR!!!THANKS FOR MAKING ME A GIRL!

THIRTIES ...30th week to 38th week

2011-07-13T11:55:00.000-07:00

Week 30 - Belly started showing up.No tight Tee's
Week 31 - Sleepless and tiresome nights started ...
Week 32 - Finally,someone arrived -Mr.craving.:-)..I was expecting him in initial stages.but when he arrived,he just got icecreams and icecreams for me :-).Icecreams seemed more creamier and more tastier than any food to me after week 31.So,my hubby took me to this place called polar cub on US 22 almost every week :-)
Week 33 -Eating even few spoons of rice made me feel full and exhausted.Sitting in sofa all the time was heavenly and stress releaving remedy ;-)
Week 34 -Fear ,anxiety grew more along with the love for the new stranger
Week 35 -kickboxing champion proved all his skills thr'o nights.i experienced kicks in between my ribs..it was painful yet a wonderful experience.gives an assurance that boxer is getting strong day by day ;-)
Week 36-hiccup nights...I felt rhythmic beats in my tummy for like 2 hours in a night.Then i realised,my baby just learnt how to hiccup :-)
Week 37 -Hubbies love cannot be defined..Mom's love cannot be measured...A gal will always need both supports @all times...This week,My mom arrived to take charge.
Week 38 -I accepted for a job offer in week 38.It was a hard decision to take.

DOSA DOSA DOSA!!

2011-04-04T08:23:00.000-07:00

Nausea was sickening me to the core.I used to run away from any kinda smell.No powders,No soap,no lotions,no perfumes...there were many no's ,i dont remember all of them now.For 3 whole months,my sole food was dosa,dosa and dosa.Even dosas used to taste weird if i spread the batter. :-(

Anytime i am hungry,my hubby would volunteer to make dosas and side dishes for me.i always trashed those dishes.:-(....Both were travelling together in pregnancy with respect to food :-)Poor him...:-)

Forgot to add..Many days,i have also snacked on those dosas..

June 15 2010

2011-04-01T13:38:00.000-07:00

Washing new born dresses in winter could be more tiresome and so we just shifted to a new place that would give us more comfort.This is definetely a no big thing.But to us,it was....This was going to be little one's first home.

NEW ADDRESS :1606 Spruce Hills drive
Glen Gardner ,NJ ,08826

Just wanted the address to be on the record :-)