nothing to do with beards

Super Silly Fun Jokes! and existential philosophy.

2010-08-07T11:31:00.008-05:00

Today I was exploring the nature of duality. I drew a line down the middle of a paper to try and sort out this issue I'm having. Duality turned into more of a rectangular pie-graph with footnotes and lots of arrows. I still like polar opposite-type ideas, but they can fall apart pretty quick. A little about duality: Often measured by the Dualiness (D) that a particular thing may, or may not have. On a scale from 1 to 2; 2 being about as dual as you can get. There are pretty girls and there are ugly girls. The 1-10 scale is more common, but really, I think it boils down to 1-2. Either yes or no at the end of the night. But questions seem much more complicated while you're in them, and you are pretty sure there is options 1-100 staring back at you.

How can we be faced with so many hard questions? I want both tequila, and vodka. But not both. It's V or T. There is no real compromise. Vaquila is a harsh drink that tastes a little like maybe camel spit and rubbing alcohol. I lost sight of my point a little bit here.

I like the idea that we have two separate sides, even if they are extremely complex.

On one side of us, we have a fool. A romantic. Fire! Life on the edge, in the fast lane, fearlessly snorting coke off the dashboard. The left side of the brain some people say, the more creative and imaginary parts. Probably good in bed, but hey, kinda selfish too. Trampling over people who get in the Fool's way. Maybe rightly so in some cases.

The other side of us (or our brains? which is a totally different philosophical conundrum) would be a hermit. A realistic approach. Cold water! Wizardly, climbing a mountain near the sea, looking for answers in the horizons of the universe, contemplating Lady Gaga. The part of the brain that says "i need money", and tells us we shouldn't drink Vaquila the night before work. Caring about things other than bliss and happiness, drawn to spiritual ideas and/ empirical truth.

There's advantages to each! (Advantages! Advantages!)

Somewhere in my brain, knowledge of Buddhism, Tarot Cards, brain anatomy and a few others have gotten together and probably had an orgy and this is the brainchild*. I will copyright this philosophy and swear to outsell Ron L Hubbards common-sense bullshit.

*Brainchild is never a word I understand or use. I think I've used it correctly here, but more importantly, there is a play on words that I find funny.

So what I do some days, when I have a decision to make, I conjure a fool on one shoulder, and a hermit on the other. This is very similar to scenes in movies and cartoons where an angel and demon poof onto a character's opposite shoulders and explain what the best course of action might be. There is a hot and cold dynamic there that is kinda similar to my example, but less about what is "right" and "wrong".

Oh, and jokes. Um. What do a dildo and soy beans have in common? They are both used as substitute real meat. I heard this last night at Chapters. It's those librarian type girls, I tell ya.

better yet

2010-06-27T13:35:00.001-05:00

beard content is transplanted here.

The facts* on Octopuses. (*not really factual)

2010-05-24T19:20:00.017-05:00

Cephalopod intelligence has an important comparative aspect in our understanding of intelligence, because it relies on a nervous system fundamentally different from that of vertebrates. I'm saying that squids, octopi and other tenticle-y or slug-like creatures are not like us because they have no spine. This is probably important when we talk about how smart they are because they are kinda like aliens compared to us. Don't even get me started on squid sex and slug foreplay. There is a lot we don't understand about our squid friends and for some reasons, outlined here, I think they are the coolest and most elusive aminals, like, EVR.

Go back to the days where giant squids were known for demolishing galleons and schooners. Now we perhaps have had a resurfacing of squid-lore by the scenes of Crakkens in our movies. I find it cool-looking I suppose, but doubtful that these giantest of octopuses would be such violent beasts. In fact (actually it's not a fact) the bigger the cephalopod, the smarter it may be.

First off, these folks have no brains. Rather, no central nervous system to compare to our own. It's instead, strewn throughout their bodies. Therefore, there are more direct links between the giantness of the squid and geniousness of the squid. Octopuses have been conditioned, practice observational learning, and have spacial intellegence. None of this is proven and I find it a little hard to believe that squids know much about space. Unless they are aliens that came from space.

But what the fuck do we KNOW about these things?! Well, gentle and concerned reader, they steal whatever they find in lobster traps. There's like a child-lock on those things and well this clearly proves that they are smarter than children. They also have been known to steal food from fisherman's boats. Sneaky, and not afraid to climb out of the water.

They have very dexterous arms and suckers that are in some cases, as good as a human hand. Like us operating a locking mechanism. Except they can operate 8 of them. If you have one of those jars that you just cant get that fucking lid off, like, you tried the elastic band thing and the hot water thing and the guy with big forearms thing, chances are, a squid could do it. They're also strong like Hulk.

Cuttlefish are known for changing their colours as not just a form of camouflage but as a means of communicating with each other. More than that, they communicate with the squid on their left, with the left side of their body, and the squid on their right, with the right side of their body. AT THE SAME TIME. Though not all squids exhibit all of these traits, I hope one day they do and will read this blog and give me a painless death.

If you must eat animals, please stick to the dumber ones like dogs, cats, or monkeys.

The Unicorn

2010-05-17T03:09:00.001-05:00

Infamous for many things, but named after only one

the unicorn always orders a soft serve ice cream

sticks it to his forehead

and walks around the restaurant

till it melts and slides away

Sometimes the melting takes a few seconds, but

other times you see him sitting

with cream running down his face

proud cone still intact.

2010-05-04T16:52:00.004-05:00

I need one of these for my LIFE. please. thanks.

-Lately I've been feeling that my move across this continent has really just been a slingshot maneuver to sling me back to Ontario. Somehow, it's what I needed to gain some momentum.

- I looked at apartments in Toronto and found a few that would be ideal. Somewhere between "Yup, probably a roach problem" and "Ballin!". I miss friends there and can't seem to get around it. I'm not sure if it's a negative thing that I can't get over missing old friends, or if it's positive that I've found friends worth missing. I've never put it in context like that until just right now actually, and choose to see it in the positive way.

How, exactly, do they get so hot

2010-04-21T16:44:00.004-05:00

mcdonalds pie
burns your tongue so fucking badly that
you can't taste a damn thing for three days after
when you'll order another two,
because of the one reason:

it's pretty damn cheap.

I'd never heard this poem before now. It is noteworthy.

2010-04-16T19:04:00.002-05:00

Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul,
And sings the tune without the words,
And never stops at all,

And sweetest in the gale is heard;
And sore must be the storm
That could abash the little bird
That kept so many warm.

I've heard it in the chillest land,
And on the strangest sea;
Yet, never, in extremity,
It asked a crumb of me.

This makes me happy

2010-04-16T18:55:00.003-05:00

This is a new device being used in Haiti.

It helps heal wounds faster because there is no air around the wound and bacteria stops growing? It also create a suctioned area around the wound to draw circulation. The bandage doesn't have to be taken off. Sweet.

"Zurovcik originally intended to field-test the device in Rwanda, but then the Haiti Earthquake struck. At the request of Partners in Health, an NGO, she traveled to Haiti with 50 of the pumps.

Currently, Zurovcik is verifying the healing benefits of the device, and developing a new model that can be readily carried and concealed. The one technical hurdle that remains is ensuring the bandage seals tightly--but after that, the device could benefit a huge portion of the 50-60 million people in the developing world that suffer from acute or chronic wounds."

Simple, cheap, help. Yay!

Panning for gold

2010-03-26T00:03:00.008-05:00

The last time I wrote on here was a month ago. I'd like to think that I've been full of productivity that has cut into my blogging time. It's certainly a part of it. The other part of it is probably just how much Buffy the Vampire Slayer I've been watching to take my mind off being so productive!

Boredom is the enemy. Time alone with ourselves is the culprit. Shaun the Boredom Slayer. The fearless hero!

It's a totally great show by the by, and everyone should totally watch it, regardless of your opinion of Sarah Michelle Gellar. What I really want to get at though, is the secret to happiness and the meaning of life. I'm pretty close I think. I'm surprised how taking a slew of classes that seemingly have nothing in common, are all adding up for me. They do have something in common, it's the fact that they'll amount to nothing official at the end of the semester. I'll get a piece of paper saying I've completed the courses, and I'd as soon give that paper to the guy at the bus stop to roll a joint with.

We all have voids in our lives that we try to fill. This idea of a "void" slips into every subject I look at. It's what we fill that void with, that determines our feeling of happiness or fulfillment. What exactly is the right thing to fill that void with, I'm not sure yet. But I know that people like to feel productive. I know that trying to escape the void doesn't work. You can't avoid the Void! It's the plot of an existential horror movie. We fill voids with addictions to various things like Party or Sex or Work, but it doesn't seem to make us feel better? Temporary fixes.

Escapism. A tool, but a dangerous one. I feel like masturbation or porn fits in there somewhere but that's a different blog for a different day. The notion of "Get me the fuck out of here for just a while at least!" seems to be more and more common and apparent to me. Even more terrifying is the looming burden of needing to do something that isn't a waste of time. I've been feeling heavier and heavier since drawing my attention to what is really significant. But at the same time, feeling this heavy is better than feeling like a ghost, just haunting my way through life.

All in all, I still like watching Buffy because I think it's a social commentary on teenage life, but I am becoming very particular who I invest time in. Life is short so I am developing a strategy to spend time with the people I want. A lot like panning for gold...

New Years Revolutions

2010-01-17T15:42:00.004-06:00

Yes.
It's time to do something crazy again.
I need to set an alarm, to go off once a week. The alarm would also punch me in the face. Like a red boxing glove on a spring from a bugs bunny cartoon. Written on the punching side of the glove would be "you're going to die soon". It' couldn't be predictable. It would have to keep me on my toes.

It would be my existential reminder to wake the fuck up. If this were a real service that someone would provide to me, I would pay well for it. People in my past have felt they were doing me a service by just letting me be, letting me sleep. That's not what I want or need.

"Is my life not all
that I thought it would be?
Is it simply ordinary?
Oh, is it far from all my fantasies?
I lay awake
I lay awake at night and brood
About the things I never do"

I'm going for the gold this year. My very own olympics, with just as much debt and social outrage.

Strudents

2009-12-20T17:21:00.007-06:00

So I'm making some toaster strudels, probably not even really food, the pilsbury kind. They get all crazy if they are in the freezer too long once the package is opened. I know this. Be warned.

I have some cereal and I've been wanting it for weeks. I haven't had milk for a while because I was too busy at first, then forgot, then couldn't buy milk because I was scared I wouldn't drink it all before I leave for home. Or probably more often, can't really afford milk. I wonder how many other students face this little dilema. Even more so, I wonder who else used up the rest of the bailey's in the frige on their cereal. An exciting new world of culinary adventures in student kitchens. Surely this concept has been explored by others in similar circumstances, right?

Try Bailey's and Lucky Charms first thing in the morning! It's almost as good as milk, and gets you drunk by 9am.

close

2009-12-17T05:18:00.004-06:00

i like
that we never
had to say
please
or
thankyou
or
iloveyou

i like
what was saved for strangers
was always just
understood

we are far from each other

i like
that we are that close

the hippidy hop.

2009-12-17T05:00:00.003-06:00

"you can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, even months analyzing a situation, trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, should've, would've happened, or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on. "
-tupac

Now I never knew much about Tupac. But as I go on a musical journey with him and his albums, I get why people cared why he died. Ya. I'm about 15 years late on that train. But it makes me wonder what other trains I'm late on. Just recently it occured to me that The Clash and The Police have a reggae beat in common. It's only by listening to entire albums that I get the artist.

I've been turned off of "rap" for decades. It left a weird taste in my mouth and I never really gave it a shot. It's like someone cooking you calamari and overcooking it but you don't know it because you've never had calamari before. You think "ugh plaagh gah this is horrible and rubbery. Did someone batter a condom and serve it to me? WTF!" and may think that calamari is shit and never eat it again.

Then you go to europe where they know what seafood is and how to make it and it's not overcooked and tastes glorious! (but don't eat squid. they are smarter than you. and it's not nice.)

Well the same thing can happen with music.

my brain's repeating

2009-12-03T05:24:00.003-06:00

Experience tells me that I shouldn't say things out loud (posting on the internet included), at this hour, because the next morning it will seem stupid or trite.

These days seem to be full of getting excited about something and then realizing it's only about half as cool as I first thought. Sometimes the excitement lasts a long time. Sometimes years, sometimes minutes. Once it's over, there is just the moving-on to the next thing to occupy my interest. Interest or love or attention or hunger.

Surprisingly like hunger actually. Just as far as it's something that can be great and then you just have to go about it again in a few hours. How frustrating!

I wish I had more charming things to say.

Why you should Steal from Corperations 101

2009-11-08T01:48:00.005-06:00

" In a world turned up-side down, you have to be a thief to be an honest man" Author of 'One Man's Quest for Vengence'

You grow up in a world where everything already belongs to someone else. You are expected to sell your life, your free time, in order to pay for the minimum you need to survive. You are surrounded by forces that are out of your control, and that don't care about your needs or welfare. Stealing from a corperation is a way to carve out a little bit of the world, back for yourself - to for once act on 'Them', who act so much upon you.

When you pay for something, you are trading your time and effort, for something. This isn't a negotiation though. This is not a loving relationship between you and other human beings. This is a corperation making money, off you.

The shoplifter gains his or her prize, not by exchanging their freedom, but by taking risks. Is life something that can be sold away for $9 / hour or is it something you take, or lay claim to?

Shoplifting is a refusal of the exchange economy.

It's saying "no" to everything you and I hate about corperations. You don't hate corperations? I guess maybe they aren't that bad. At least they: pay extremly low wages, have little to no benifits, and only make profit for a few people high up on the chain. They are awesome for the environment too. They're awesome for small private businesses too, who consist of real people, not a symbol.

Corperations are the kings of exploiting cheap labour, and not just here. They buy their goods at the lowest cost, no matter what.

Stealing from a corperation hurts a corperation and is the only means of protesting against them that will have the slightest effect. You aren't showing them 'dissatisfaction', you're saying 'fuck this'. It's costs them, instead of just denying them a few people's profit.

But what about the people in the corperations!? Friends. You are stealing from an non-human entity when you steal from Wal-Mart. The corperation doesn't pay the workers by how much they make that week or quarter or year. They fucking pay them as little as they can get away with.

But doesn't this drive up the prices for everyone if people steal? False. They charge as much as they can get away with. It's what they think you can pay, not how much it costs them.

So go ahead and argue about how corperations aren't just holding commodities for randsom, at our expense. Justify it for them, and play along. They like that.

bigger than it used to be

2009-09-08T13:01:00.003-05:00

the idea that western society is at fault for everything is kinda funny to me. do other societies not have the same flaws we do? aren't they inherent?

no other Society besides Western is narcissistic? i think most of us humans are narcissistic and few of us get over it.

facebook is a problem with younger people. people younger than me, who do confuse the internet for real life. i have faith that the young internet generation will figure this out over time, but i'd rather not see that happen cuz it'll be bad. (not that i'm sure how to stop it.) if we, as older and wiser internet users have issues with facebook, what will the youngling's issues be! protect them we must. i read an article on making facebook work for the people like it once was supposed to.

it's an easy way out to say "fuck it. i don't like this. deleted."
we can't do that in real life. we can't take the people in our lives and "limit" when they see us and when they don't. there is no "hide" button running into ex's at the movies. the young ones of the future will have issues with this, just like a sci-fi book. relying on computers to do everything for them. even socially.

is this a growing concern for anyone else? that the world is too big for some of us? or all of us these days. we can burn 1000 bridges and there are still 100000 more? the world used to be smaller and we had to learn to fix things instead of just move along. run away. screw it. there is lots more. this is unimportant.

what is important? flying through life like a tornado leaving things broken behind you?

the counterpoint to this i guess being "cut your losses". but i think people give up too easy. i don't want to be one of those people.

internet visionaries

2009-08-17T11:46:00.005-05:00

i've considered deleting my facebook account and come to these conclusions.

i'm irked by facebook being vilified. facebook isn't the man. i think there are more important "the man" 's to rebel against besides facebook. why delete it, conspiracies about your personal/privacy issues/information aside? conspiracies are fun but the common thread with ALL of them is that you can't prove or disprove them. i'ma say facebook, it's a tool like any other tool, one that possibly makes communication easier.

yes, of course it can be used by narcissists to make a virtual altar to themselves and plead that people pray at steps. we can waste a lot of time. but that's those people. use it within reasonable means, whatever that is to you, and accept your own limitations. if you feel the need to cut it out of your life altogether, by all means do so. but frame it as you overcoming your own personal weakness or gaining your security back, not as some noble act that makes you less narcissistic than everyone who did not. i use facebook for lots of sweet things.

my tangent rant would be about how people have a wrench in their gears and look to something like facebook to blame. but i'm ranted out for a while.

eat beet

2009-08-16T20:03:00.005-05:00

Ingredients (serves 2 or 3 less hungry people)

* 1 bunch swiss chard, chopped

* 2 medium beets, peeled and grated

* A handful of roasted walnuts

* Tsp balsamic vinegar

* Extra virgin oil to taste

* A crumbling of goat cheese

Preperation

1. Bring lightly salted water to a serious boil in a large pot.

2. While waiting, peel and grate beets.

2. Chop up stems of swiss chard and set aside; blanch the leaves of swiss chard in the boiling water for 2-3 minutes.

3. When the swiss chard has wilted, strain and rinse with cold water to stop cooking. Press out excess water or the flavor will be diluted. Chop into 2-3 inch sizes and put in bowl.

4. Add the grated beets and walnuts the chopped swiss chard stems (or treat as celery and do what you would with celery) and drizzle with olive oil and balsamic vinegar. Top with goat cheese and serve that shit up.

it's nice because it's raw-ish and raw foods are better. something to do with the nutrients staying intact.

a blog less heavy

2009-08-16T19:42:00.006-05:00

i'll write this blog in some more calming colours.

i mostly want to get the serious stuff out of my head, onto the internet. maybe it should be on a piece of paper in a book that no one will read till i'm dead. but that doesn't appeal to me. it's a weight off my shoulders. i'm just very enraptured with how some awesome people changed my life in a dramatic way as far as animals and the environment goes. i've known the same information more or less for a while now, but for me, it took people to get in my face and ask me what i was doing. what are you doing shaun?

what was i doing?

after this last outburst, i think i can relax and reflect a little. it's nice. though some could say "you hardly did anything, you just wrote a long boring blog!" i guess. i guess i'm not punching walmart CEO's in the nuts or lighting fur coats on fire or whatever. maybe only 2 friends read it and think i'm stupider for writing it; i still know what i wrote. it's a tool for me to make sure i stick to what i'm saying. i wonder if others do this too. to keep them on their own toes?

you should read this if you eat

2009-08-15T12:23:00.020-05:00

"Because one species is more clever than another, does it give it the right to imprison or torture the less clever species? Does one exceptionally clever individual have a right to exploit the less clever individuals of his own species? To say that he does is to say with the Fascists that the strong have a right to abuse and exploit the weak - might is right, and the strong and ruthless shall inherit the earth." Richard Ryder

what is:
the huge excuse not to act responsibly.

we want purpose and reason for doing something. especially if it involves some sort of sacrifice on our part. why do we seems to have the group mentality of not taking a serious issue, seriously. the jokes used to be funny to me. global warming will make winters awesome. now i cringe. the apathy is transmittable, i see it spread. we set standards for each other, tell each other what is appropriate. i DO feel like a douche saying "holy shit your so wrong we're all gunna die if we don't do something quick!" & telling my friends "don't order the meat-dish you fool. get something better for everyone in general" is hard. but why? no one else is doing it, but the expectations are low in the first place. is this a stigma? why is this frowned upon? it's an uncomfortable topic? or god said in the bible said it was cool to eat animals and that's good enough right?

.outside example.

throw one piece of litter on the ground and it doesn't "matter" in the most obvious sense. but the mindset of it does. other people seeing you do it, or seeing the litter as they walk by, does matter. i do mean that by throwing the litter once on the street, you are less likely to care if other people do it too. there is the contagiousness of it. i'm not under the illusion that everyone will literally start immediately throwing their shit all over the place. the whole city starts emptying garbages out the windows from apartment buildings. no. i'm talkin bout the attitude. the indifference. not being hard enough on each other. we aren't looking out for each other. we are letting ourselves get away with it. if you see someone about to be hit by a bus, do you say, nah i won't bother them? they may not want to be interrupted?

so tell people "ya i guess it's your choice what you eat. go ahead and order the half-cow sized steak. this is just my choice to not eat meat. don't have to listen to me." then expect them to take you seriously when you say you think being vegetarian is important or serious or not just a fucking hipster-fad. i started eating less meat, then being more vegetarian out of curiosity. what's it about? maybe i'll feel better. but meat, i miss you, i like you, i like cooking you. it's hard to give up. i'm not the guy who just doesn't like meat. please someone tell me how i can clean-consciously eat meat! i'd love to change my mind. i can't help but see that this much meat is bad for us. and for the "meat" that are animals. i hate people that can convince themselves of whatever they want. i can't be that.

.boiling down to.

how can it be ok to eat a cow or pig when you don't have to. i think the world would be better off if we were all vegetarian, or at least shifting in that direction gradually, the faster the better. it's about having the same standards across the board. imagine that is just a normal thing one day - people are respectful or at least conscious of what they're eating.

!shock!

the world would be better off with less rapists. people are pretty sure rape is bad. at least around here. now if i crack the case on an unoticed world-wide problem of tons of rapists all over the place, people wouldn't tell me to keep my views to myself or mind my own business or that it's their choice to rape or how much they rape or does a little rape matter that much here and there. i wouldn't be scared or feel unjustified saying something about it. we don't allow each other to do that kind of thing round these parts here. it's not savvy. the standard says no raping. there's no question if one rape really makes a difference in the big picture.

it's wrong no matter how you slice it. that's why i don't see a problem pointing out that eating the amount of meat we do in the world, is wrong. how can it be right? it's right just because it tastes good? we've been doing it a long time? what is there out there even. pro-eat-whatever-how-much-ever-i-want people tend to not say anything, or get defensive.

!solution!

eat less meat. the less, the better. don't tell people it won't make a difference. don't tell yourself that. every little bit matters. and every big bit matters more. challenge your neighbour or brother to be better about eating meat. if you think it's wrong, then don't be passive about it. go about it however you want, but don't cop out and be scared to rock the boat. the more vegetarians there are, the better the chances of me not having to eat some of the shitty veg food out there. the better the odds of finding something without meat on the menu that isn't an appetizer.

so is it wrong to campaign for animals who have no way to debate the subject themselves? it's not like the solution is complicated. the solution won't backfire. it's not solving AIDS in africa or child abduction in uganda. it's changing the way you eat.

*i may be doing this so that i can't turn back now. now if i eat meat, i'm a hypocrite moron. i'm stuck. . . whew!

**if you need non-animal reasons to be vegetarian, there is a slew of them. health. environmental. cost. that's another blog for another day.

1:50 am blog?

2009-08-12T01:50:00.000-05:00

value.

expendability.

such important words. it's important to have a personal grasp on these ones. at least i think so. what is valuable in my life? what is expendable? what makes them that way?

effective advocacy - making a point

2009-08-11T13:39:00.009-05:00

* disclaimer. you may feel offended or uncomfortable reading this. good.

the first rule is not to insult people. this is especially important when trying to talk to meat eaters, on behalf of animals. due to the fact that meat eaters whine like little bitches when you comment on their lifestyle. just kidding. calm down little bitches. this is just a test of how to effectively advocate something. i wouldn't start broadcasting my opinions on people who don't want to hear about it. that might be frustrating for me.

it'd do no good to insult the people who insist on killing defenceless animals for food when there are lots of pimps, drug lords, crooked cops, and politicians - rich sources of protein - that are roaming around our communities. that would be counter productive.

it'd do no good to walk the back yards of meat eating houses and slit the throats of fellow neighbours pets. and then dismiss the community's subsequent outrage as childish sentimentality. that would be anti-social.

we should be ready to make sure the people who already know better, aren't feeling guilty about their selfish cruel eating choices.

choosing not to eat meat is about being superior and pure. *cough* not about extending moral consideration to the other inhabitants of the planet.

it's ridiculous to think that just because we can't treat a gentle and sentient creature with some decency, that there is some correlation to how we treat our fellow humans, who are even more complex and unique.

nope, it's best not to rock the boat on this one. i'll just eat who i want to eat and you eat who you want to eat.

notes: Self

2009-08-11T12:41:00.008-05:00

1. don't be scared to take chances, despite the possibility you could fuck up or face plant.
in following examples
2. try a whole wheat bagel with strawberry cream cheese and black pepper.
why did i think that would work, i don't know; but it does. *
3. playing drunk by yourself is harder than drunk with a band. you can forget your place with a band and people half notice but you can pick it back up pretty quick. by yourself, you're in a whole new game of concentration.
4. playing songs i've known how to play for years, are way easier than the ones i just learnt that week. is learnt a word? like burnt? ...nope. no, it's learned.
5. i can do this. what an attitude change! i played horribly, but felt a scrap of promise and potential. (thanks Blue, wherever you are)
6. i wish i did this years and years ago. i won't make that mistake now. or hopefully again.

*mint would make an awesome addition. and goat cheese?

seduction pt2

2009-08-09T14:55:00.006-05:00

seduction is based on lies. fake-ness. on the way things seem, not how they are.

the book states that we look for other people to fill our holes. say if i have a weakness, i will look for someone that has that strength. whether i recognize that's what's happening or not.

this to me now, is true, but is laziness. it seemed natural at first, but in the end it is allowing us to stay weak. and when that person is gone, we're fucked. this should be avoided.

we should take hard looks at our own weakness. we know what we want to change about ourselves. we know we reap what we sow. if we aren't paying attention to what seeds we are planting, we're going to end up with a crazy-ass cluster-fuck.

we are so lacking the focus we need to stay on top of these things. the problem is that it's acceptable. a noble thing for me to set out and change. but i have to be change.

truth is the most important thing. the worst sin against yourself is convincing yourself that a lie, is true. that a wrong, isn't that wrong, and that a past, never happened.

seduction can't be at fault in all of this though. i want to look further into how seduction can be honest. not just oblivious. how can seduction work on a true and noble scale? do they just call that attraction? those two take some careful thinking to determine the differences between them. to see past the "act".

resistance is fertile

2009-08-06T11:24:00.005-05:00

are we being sucked into green-consumerism? feel you aren't really helping the Earth unless you spend your income on Earth friendly products from “environmentally conscious” companies? does the green-left convince you that you can rescue this beautiful land by trading in environmentally-unfriendly corporations, vehicles, energy, food, factories, and house cleaning products for environmentally-friendly ones?

i'm not sure this is the way. i see some big problems in big cities because we've got a lot of sheeple. perhaps this is just my distrust of how capitalism works?

i think big companies care about capital, what’s going to make them money; and that is to exploit the consumer’s wants and desires. want to save the planet kids? moms and dads, save your children's future! buy this! it's easy, you hand over the money and you feel better.

corporations are still corporations, mass production is still mass production, industrial agriculture is still industrial agriculture, greenhouse gas emissions are still green house gas emissions, worker and animal exploitation is still worker and animal exploitation. are not a lot of oil, natural resoures, land, being used to produce eco-friendly products? how do we get around that? i'm thinking the only reasonable answer to the problem is keep up research in artificial intelligence and let the robots take over the world. then it's all their problem, and humanity will live in small bands of resistance at the earth's core where it's still warm, worrying more about our survival than blogging about eco-friendly products.