Nynka's Domain

Life lessons...

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Thu, 06 Dec 2012 03:49:00 +0000

As i grow older i'm wishing i'm back to being 16 and certain decisions in my life is something i should have looked into as practicality not for the heck of it. I shouldn't say i regret it because I've learned and i did the hard way.

Life choices - one thing i'm to cowardly facing on what i really want out of it. I used to be a dreamer, now my dreams are just something i do when i read a book and then when i'm done with it, i become too practical and go back to my old self. I know i al a big fat coward when it comes to life, i am paranoid to face the real world. Paranoid to be embarrass or make mistakes. Life is what we make of - this is what i made it off.

Vacay time!!!!

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Thu, 21 Jun 2012 22:45:00 +0000

Im goin home im goin home!!!! Yay!

My mom told me....

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Tue, 05 Jun 2012 04:37:00 +0000

Things i should have listened and followed. Shit happen but life goes on.

In 1 month....

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Mon, 21 May 2012 16:16:00 +0000

I'm flying home!!!!!! Havent been home in 1.5yrs , i cannot wait to see my family and friends but i sure will miss my bubu

When do u let go?

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Sun, 29 Apr 2012 19:33:00 +0000

I have asked myself this a thousand times but i cannot seem to have any answer over it. Maybe because you are scared, maybe because you think you are a coward and maybe just maybe you just can't. Whatever it is - it is one of the most difficult thing to do.

You hear people having incurable disease and are thankful it is not you but it makes you wonder if people would love you more when you have one. You see i have 2 wonderful children that i love the most - i would die for them, they make my life more meaningful. I love my husband to death and i know my biggest mistake yet is not leaving some for myself.

But how can you do that? I have seen it with my parents, my mom leaving us to find herself because she has given everything yet she felt under appreciated. Thats what made me tougher over the years and she did came back - she loves her children beyond word can say & was able to fall in love again with my dad and sometimes i wanna kick myself because they were the example. I told myself not to let it happen but slowly i slipped in to the same situation. Sad but thats the truth.

They said that care a lil less, less and leave yourself some but if thats what it is then that couldnt be called LOVE. I guess with my 30 yrs in this world, i still know nothing but i have to say my children are my life. Without them i am nothing even with the stressfulness of life they send my way - i would not trade it for anything. And yes i have nothing to say my own in terms of material things but my children are my own. Whatever happens they are me and i am them and their happiness is my priority.

2 months

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Mon, 23 Apr 2012 16:14:00 +0000

And ill be back home in the Philippines!!! Yipee sooo excited:) sooo today i told myself i need to do my everyday biking soo ill be fit when i get there :))

Here goes

California Capitol in Sacramento

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Mon, 26 Mar 2012 20:07:00 +0000

Shots taken by Me :)

Lake Elsinore

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Sun, 25 Mar 2012 06:24:00 +0000

Shots using bu's iPhone and taken from Highway 74. What a view but that road is seriously dangerous, 1 mistake and you can fall on the cliff/ravine and can i say i got dizzy from it?!?! too much curves!

Napa

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Sat, 24 Mar 2012 21:00:00 +0000

My aunt, cousin and nephew lives there. I was given a chance to see the place when the 3 of them moved there and we came to visit... here are some shots i took when we were there last year:) I'm hoping to visit the place again before the year ends :)

Enrolled the Princess to K2!

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Wed, 21 Mar 2012 19:07:00 +0000

Yay so today opens the enrollment for my baby girls elementary school, i went straight to the Menifee Unified School District Enrollment services after i drop her off her preschool. Having kai with me, i know it will be a challenge knowing that it will take a while and lots of parents would be there too. So i came prepared, i brought some crackers and oreos in a ziplock and apple juice ofcourse. A toddler have a short attention span so making them busy is a goal for me so he'll behave and wouldnt act up in the office.

Ha! True enough, he was busy munching on foods i got him and was amuse seeing other kids over there, although he got some antics (like he thinks he's a superhero and start blasting everyone in the room with his hand - like ironman) i gotta say he did behave.

I was worried that i would be late picking up kali at her school, i know if i wanna make it before 11 at her school, i have to leave the place by 10:30 (consider the traffic) & well like any office transaction it did take a while though i was out there by 10am soo we decided to swing by the hubs work and say HI :))

The boy did lit up when he saw his dad and wondered when we left why his dad didnt drive home with us :) told him papa will be home soon and needs to drive his own car home :)

I was 18 min early at my princess school so i had enough time to munch on skme pasta salad at the parking lot since i left home before 8am and only had coffee :)) well you gotta do what you gotta do right?

Now the 3 of us are home and hubs should be home soon too. I'm done with my errands and i have a half say to spare and do whatever i feel like. Right now i want a nap but we'll see since i need to work my ass off today. Still kinda sore from monday's workout so i'm going to take it easy...

I'm overwhelmed that my baby girl start big school this come school tear, i know she will do good but it does make me realize that i am indeed getting older. Hayyy life :)

Hoping your day is as productive as mine, tata for now :))

Xoxo
Nynka

Live.Love.Laugh.

Day 1 workout

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Mon, 19 Mar 2012 17:44:00 +0000

I stopped working out since Kali started school last year in August. I was doing quit good for 3-4months straight and then i got lazy because i havent been getting enough sleep when the princess started school so i fell behind and next thing i know its 2012...

I have given up rice over the lent. Yes i am catholic and i kinda hate myself for not as religious as i used to be before i moved to the US of A. Though i do attend church every sunday prior to having kids then when i started having children - i kinda stopped. It is kinda challenging for me to drag two kids by myself at church every sunday. The hubs usually have work on weekends and out church where i live only offers mass in the morning of sunday.

Though i still pray at home & still attends mass on holy week, xmas and etc and ofcourse teaches my kids how to pray and talk to jesus at night - i still feel that despite not being able to go to church as often as im suppose to, i try to pay my respect in my own way.

So this year for the first time in years, a friend and i decided to give something up for the entire lent and holy week. We gave up rice and knowing me and her - we cannot live without it. Its a must on every meal. A meal aint complete without it.

I was suppose to start ash wednesday but prior to that i had a dental appointment on the monday before ash wed & ended up having a root canal. Since it was my first and was scared that i could fucked it up afterward i started eating just soup (Pho - vietnamese beef noodle soup) and it went on mon & tues soo by ash wed it was actually my 3rd day of eice. It was tough i tell you but i know injust had to so it. If i cant do something as easy (hardest for me) this, then i am no good - i have no will power and i was not to accept that...

So it went on replaying rice with pasta at first and the hubs keep telling me that i might as well eat rice if im eating pasta sooo i started cooking steamed veggies and oatmeal as my rice replacement and the next thing i know - today is my 29th day off rice and my abs are starting to look nice. But that's not enough, i gotta add working out - i know but i was too damn lazy.

So today i told myself enough is enough. I have to work out sooo i finally did for 25mins. I know its short but hey you gotta start somewhere right??!!! Maybe after i pick up the princess at school im gonna hit my bike. Baby steps :))

Anyway, im hoping to have more define abs and legs by the time i take my vacation back home. I have 3 mos to go to do that. And well i'm not getting younger so i gotta take care of myself right? Soo there today's day 1 im gonna keep track on my workout here on my blog. Bear with my silliness :)... Tata for now 😉😉😉

Xoxo
Nynka

Live.Love.Laugh. 💛

Hook

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Sun, 18 Mar 2012 07:04:00 +0000

Ever remember the movie Hook? I remember growing up it was one of my fave. The fact that i'm a big Peter Pan fan and of course the stars Robin Williams who played Peter, Dustin Hoffman as hook and the gorgeous Julia Roberts as Tinkerbell :))

Anyways, since having netfilix we have been watching movies that are either foreign films (particularly chinese ones !) or ones we grew up with but have no copies of... Tonight, i wanted to show my kids the peter pan movie version ive grown up with. The start was lil boring on the kids but the lil kids dis caught their attention. My daughter was whining that she wanted to change the movie till the part were Peter (Robin W.) was taken to Neverland by Tink and met the lost boys...

Ahhh i love the classics :)) if they ever sell this movie on Bluray, i'd definitely get me a copy so my kids will be able to watch this whenever they want ...

So if you grew up in my generations and love Peter Pan and you got netflix subscription - do make time and watch Hook, i'm sure you'd enjoy reminiscing your childhood and wish you didnt grow up :)) remember, there is a child in us :))

Xoxo

Nynka

Live.Love.Laugh =)

Ideas for my boy's 3rd birthday :)

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Fri, 16 Mar 2012 16:54:00 +0000

Soo its the time of the year where you throw your child a party. Since 2012 they say is the "end of the world" my FIL wants to throw party on each of our bday this year and the fact that his and kai's bday are just a day apart - we will throw them a joint party here at home :)

I know my boy thinks he is a superhero and as much as i wanna throw him a superhero themed party, its kinda hard for me to look for a party favors for adults... Soo i'm going for a jungle/safari themed party :))

I have seen what favor i wanna buy online but i havent really mailed in any invitation though i have informed friends & family about it. I'm still waiting for one tiny detail that i had made online to get in the mail for the invites :))

I just love parties i just hate the cleaning up part :)) but well as long as everyone have fun its worth it :)

Crossroads

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Thu, 15 Mar 2012 17:33:00 +0000

Life as we know has been so cruel to me though i have so much to be thankful for. i am a strong woman, whatever stone thrown my way i know i can fight it and keep my life going. Its not about me, its my children that fuels me up. Its them that i am strong. They did not choose me as their parent so if i ruin life for them, i would be unfair.

Xoxo
Nynka

My all time fave Korean TeleNobela

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Fri, 24 Feb 2012 20:44:00 +0000

Winter Sonata... you can watch it here: here w/ english subtitle :)

Saying Sorry

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Mon, 20 Feb 2012 00:13:00 +0000

When intoxicated, we say things we don't mean and the fact that you can admit you were wrong and apologize - i think is enough to know the person is sincere.

i'm back!

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Sun, 19 Feb 2012 20:47:00 +0000

I keep forgetting my account information that's why i havent been able to blog for a while now... soo finally i was able to retrieve everything so now i'm back :)

food blog

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Wed, 17 Aug 2011 05:55:00 +0000

i was browsing my mobile uploads on my facebook account and it hit me that i've been making tons of FOOD... sooo maybe i should just start a food blog?! hmm..... I love to cook whenever i'm in the mood and not lazy but for the past 3 weeks, i've been cooking homecooked meal because we are on a budget. Thats basically one reason why i've been cooking a whole lot. I've been trying to help out the husband cut out some of our expenses and start paying off bills that accumulated over some unforeseen events.... Hayyy if only i'd win the lottery... *wishful thinking!

One thing aside for all the plans i have in my heart (not anything material or extravagant for our lifestyle - but some plans i have for the less fortunate) i would enroll to Le Cordon Bleu and explore the wonders of international cuisine and culinary :) ahhhhh don't we all just wish for that jackpot?! :)

anyways, gotta hit the bike. I hate working out but u gotta do what u gotta do right?! the price of not being gifted on being skinny.... LIFE.... soooo TTFN

Kali's 1st day :)

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Tue, 16 Aug 2011 16:49:00 +0000

iMovie

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Tue, 16 Aug 2011 07:38:00 +0000

I seriously want to learn about video editing but i have no extra $$ to spare to buy any software for it. So for now, i'm using my ever reliable iMovie on my benzie ;) Will post the vid i made out of the pictures and videos i took from Kali's 1st day. Yes, i am a doting mom. It my life not yours so don't judge me ;)

Kali's 1st day of school...

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Mon, 15 Aug 2011 08:07:00 +0000

I've been looking forward to this day since she was born. I told myself, she'll grow up and starts school and i can start looking for jobs but seriously, i have been having some separation anxiety over it. It finally hit me that she's growing up and the baby that I almost died delivering will now start preschool :(

I have one of the most amazing daughter in the world, true that she has her antics and tantrums but on times i need help, even for a toddler, she's willingly there to help me w/ a lot of things especially when it come to her little brother Kai and she's sweet. I'm kinda scared to put her out in the real world, i'm scared that she'll get hurt and mommy isn't there to pick her up but then again, we have to let them go at some point right?! and it's just 3 hours ;)

I pray that Jesus will guide her in everything, will keep her safe always and that she would be able to adjust and make friends. It scares me that the teacher would make a mistake and would give her to a wrong parents. Seriously with the news you read these days, it scares the crap out of you that your kids will get harmed. Now, it makes me wonder if my parents ever felt how i felt when i first went to school but then again, i went to a strict catholic school way back in the day and my big brother and cousins goes to the same school as me. hmmm.....

Anyways, today is actually orientation day so I have to be with her in her class for an hour and class would be dismissed so technically tomorrow is the day i'm kinda dreading. I have a feeling i will cry or will stay in the parking lot and wait till her class ends. haha yes i'm an overly protective parent, who's not anyways! Sooo..... will update later on how it all turns up... Wish me luck that i won't cry... :)

P.S. I have never left my children to a babysitter or daycare since the day she was born. On days me and bu goes out or something, i leave them w/ my mom or my inlaws sooo there, you'll understand why i feel this way :)

P.P.S. I still cant find a job, i have my 2 year old boy w/ me while her sister goes to school for 3 hours. So till they start going to full day of class then i can get a job....

TTFN....

turning the big 3-0 in 54 days

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Sun, 07 Aug 2011 20:02:00 +0000

ahhh the big 3-0.... Something that i really didnt look forward to. Why?! well, for one aside from graduating in college, passing my board exam as Civil Engineer in the Philippines, Living in US, being married to a wonderful husband and have 2 beautiful kids, i haven't really accomplished anything career wise. I forgot how to manipulate the autoCAD and basically i forgot what i learn. I know reviewing such and such would help me remember but the drive to be a successful CE isn't in my book anymore. I feel like everyday is the same day like it has been for the past 4 or so years.

Midlife crisis i tell you and though i dont regret it i just wonder how it would feel to actually practice being a CE. oh well, life begins at 30 they say. Right now, i still don't know what i want. I still don't know which direction ill follow but i still hope ill hit the jackpot in lottery! haha wishful thinking....

I wanted to write more of the things that i'm going through here but sometimes i'm to exhausted to think. I love being domesticated although sometimes i wish our manang elsa is here to help me out and i still wish i can sleep longer than what ive been getting. But i'm just thankful that w/ all the whining i do w/ my husband, he still loves me.... So i'm still lucky!!!

I wanna do something when i turn 3-0... No i don't want to go clubbing w/ friends because it would mean that my kids have to stay home. They are part of me and i want them to be part of that so maybe i'm gonna throw a party that day. haha gotta ask my parentals to help me out, food wise! and gotta think of what theme i'll do... If only i could do it in Gensan w/ all my friends... haha oh well, we can never have it all right?! Andd..... what if i win the jackpot?! that would be awesome....

Anyways, yah i'm bored.... so ttfn :)

home cooked meal :)

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Thu, 04 Aug 2011 23:25:00 +0000

Soooo the husband and I are trying to save and I'm trying to cook homecooked meal as much as possible. So far we are on day 3 on cooking home cooked meal for the week. Spent about $75 on groceries for 5 day meal and hopefully i can stretch it all the way to a week meal. here's our menu for the past 3 days so far:

Day 1: Ginisang taogi and ground pork
Day 2: left over taogi and pork chop
Day 3: Ginisang Pechay w/ pork
Day 4: hopefully some left over of the Pechay ... and SPAGHETTI?!?!
Day 5: Spaghetti .... and Pakbet
Day 6: left over Pakbet and Beef giniling :)
Day 7: Left over Beef giniling....

so there hoping i can accomplish that and the husband and kids wont be picky on eating left overs :)

remembering my highschool

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Thu, 28 Jul 2011 08:49:00 +0000

The past days i've been reminiscing my High school days. I guess seeing some of my cousin Deanna's 30 years reunion pictures and walking at the grounds of our old school Notre Dame of Lagao made me remember some events that made me "ME" for that 4 years in that institution.

It was the school that made me happy, made me feel accepted, made me feel that i need not to be someone to be known by people that mattered and by people that made the same memories as me. I miss my friends to be honest, we haven't had a single decent reunion since we all left Highschool, i guess it has something to do w/ the 2 section among the 3 we have are kinda aloof over the 1st section. I started as an "N" section in 1st year and spent the last 3 years on "D" (sophomore/junior/senior) because as what my teachers have said, I AM LOUD. but well, i never regretted belonging to D for that 3 years. I was happy that i made friends w/ the N D and L section.

My BFF were all w/ me in D sec though we all started as N. haha the loud ones gets to be thrown out of the 1st sec! and i still have a lot of close friends up to now from N... It doesnt really matter what section you comes from, its the footsteps you leave on their hearts.... College was fun too, dont get me wrong on that and I will blog about that next time....

So anyways, i'm here listening to Alanis M. Jagged Little Pill album like crazy, remembering some class presentation I did to pass PE. yes, thats how it was in my school. You either have to suck it up to dance or sing or do whatever talent you can do and as a music lover yet cant sing a note, Alanis M. fits my kind of vocals, if i have such! haha I think it was in freshmen when i sang You Outta Know infront of the whole class, wearing Levis Plaid Longsleeves and 501 Jeans. man... it was one of the most embarrassing moments i have but heck! i passed PE! hahaha

anyways, I'm suppose to go workout so i'm gonna go on and do that right now. LOL soooo I'm gonna leave and say TTFN...

P.S. Did i ever say i graduated w/ PERFECT ATTENDANCE medal?! yup i did and one of my BFF did to! Right Nov? ;)

edited a bit

noreply@blogger.com (Nynka) — Mon, 25 Jul 2011 07:05:00 +0000

using iPhoto to blur a lil on the side but thats it no color enhancing or anything. FYI i have no photoshop ;)