Once Upon A Time... In My Dreams

Life Cycle, Journey

2019-07-13T23:27:00.001-04:00

I'm not done yet
I've only just begun

This life is here
Waiting

For the living
It's for the now

This life
Is precious
Beautiful and real

In moments like this
I find myself

Searching for the true
The sweet
The gentle
The real part of me
That I am meant to be

I'm not done yet
I've only just begun

To know
To understand

More of who I really am

Destined for greatness
Destined to be
The best part of me
That I am meant to be

I'm not done yet
I've only just begun

This race of life awaits
I beat a steady path

Of love, grace, and truth
On a journey beautiful
That never really ends

© Chaile Divine, 2019
July 13

This is Love

2017-01-05T16:48:00.002-05:00

To love the unlovable
To touch the untouchable
To live in satisfaction
That one’s acts are good
To forgive the hurts of a lifetime
And to return wrongdoing with kindness
That is love

If I could speak to mine enemy
What would I say
Put off not for tomorrow
What could be done today
My foresight is my hindsight
And sometimes that’s not enough
To live gently with others
And spare not the rod of hope
Mercy, peace and goodness
Let love be the cornerstone
Of all you do

© Chaile Divine, 2017
January 5

Then there was us

2012-04-25T16:35:00.003-04:00

Once upon a time there was us
Two hearts in love so full of trust

Our dreams at last were complete
Our life together happy and sweet

Simple hopes and simple dreams
Came to life with love at the helm

Seekers of hope our hearts whispered to the wind
And the love that we came to share found us

Forever mine, forever true
Your love found me and I found you

Once upon a time love came true
And then there was us
Me and you

April 25
2012

Allowed

2011-05-03T11:39:00.000-04:00

AM I allowed to truly feel what I feel
When I feel it
Or must I play the part, put on the face
Act like I’m okay
Be what you want me to be
Which is anything except
The real me

Can I scream aloud my feelings high
Let my cry echo into the sky
Without fear
Of being seen as weird or crazy

AM I allowed to express
Let go, release or at best
Just be who I am
In any moment
Without a judge
Of character
Or the pointing of a flaw

Can I be just right
Though to the world
I’m really wrong

Well in their eyes
It seems that I
Don’t exist
They can’t explain me
So they just ignore me
Refuse to adore
My true beauty

They can’t deny
That I am here
So they walk around
Like I’m not there

Impolite stares
In a crowded room
Worshiping their own
Avoiding the one and only me
Beautiful brown
Honey hued
Skin that they’d just like to
Wish away

© Chaile Divine, 2011
May 3

Freedom

2011-02-23T17:25:00.001-05:00

Freedom is what I want
To speak my mind
To express myself
Without fear
Without bread crumbs or trails
That you can find
Leading you to the deep
Dark core of my mind
That you aren’t meant to see

No really
To express myself
To be free in voice
In heart and soul
To say what I feel
And not be judged by my feelings
That may betray what we have

My feelings don’t always match
How I live
But I live anyway
Embracing the day
Knowing that like time
These feelings too
Will pass

© Chaile Divine, 2011
February 23

We Play, I Play

2011-01-12T14:38:00.003-05:00

I know the nature of the beast
And yet I do not fear
I know where a smile here
Or laugh there will lead

I know the fanning of the flames
And still I carry on
That sly look and play on words
Will bring this “beast”
Right on home

And see how
You inspire me
To do things that
I just can’t do
Well when you’re
Not around

I know the nature of the beast
I know where this will lead

This game
We play
Just you and me
Though it will bring me
To my knees
Leave me in
Tears

I play
It

© Chaile Divine, 2011
January 12

Mystery, Time & Happenstance

2010-10-15T13:14:00.004-04:00

You are lovely
As soulful as the sea
Rise above life and
Give yourself to me

Secret window
Strangely you appear
Sultry candle
Alights the night air

Maybe when
All is said and done
I’ll discover
I'm not the only one

Mystery, time
Happenstance
Could destiny
Give my heart
A chance

© Chaile Divine, 2010
October 15

Chocolate Kisses

2010-10-06T12:59:00.009-04:00

Chocolate kisses
What you do to me
Chocolate kisses
Sultry memory

Chocolate kisses
Your lips next to mine
Chocolate kisses
Seal the hands of time

Chocolate kisses
I remember you
Chocolate kisses
Midnight rendezvous

Chocolate kisses
Lost in Love's embrace
Chocolate kisses
Unforgettable your taste

Heart full of all
The dreams I long to share
Love touched skin
Echoing your absence here

Transfixed and beguiled
This soul left to wonder
Chocolate kisses
Sweet spell I’m under

© Chaile Divine, 2010
October 6

Secret Passage

2010-08-09T13:25:00.001-04:00

Settling in for the night
Bed turned down so I sleep tight
Close my eyes fast asleep
I sink into a slumber deep
Creep to my dream you appear
Secret Passage opens near
Should I explore this route in view
Dark corridors that lead straight to you?
Should I depart my bed so warm
To follow this trail, hearts quiet storm
Cobwebbed flashlight now in hand
I linger in limbo no action plan
New morn dawns as I awake
My hopeful heart, considers, awaits
What vision would call me to you
My dreams connect, continually view
Your soul, spirit, your memory
You are a constant reverie
In my dreams, my room appear
Secret passage out of nowhere
Leading me straight to you

I Said Goodbye to the Devil

2010-05-19T12:13:00.003-04:00

I said Goodbye
to the Devil
Though I was
Very shy

I turned around
and walked away
Didn't look him
in the eye

I'd spent months
making my case
Playing the cards
at hand

Proving my loyalty
showing my worth
In hopes that he'd
be my man

Took me a while
But soon I realized
The game but the
Joke was on me

All of the things
I'd wanted from him
was simply
my own fantasy

I said Goodbye
to the Devil
Gathered my courage
And walked away

Full of his empty words
and treating me mean
Sick of his selfish heart
His soul unclean

Tired of the promises
he didn't keep
and the places
we didn't meet

or the hiding behind
night sky
or how in the
daylight
he'd turn a
blind eye

And I like a toy
was played and used
tossed, forgotten
broken and abused

Russian roulette
lover I'd become
Then one day
I was finally done

Over the waiting
And hoping against
hope that
one day...
He'd love me

I Said Goodbye
to the Devil
He Never knew
When I was gone

Sometimes
I see him
in my dreams
but this time
my heart is Done

© Chaile Divine, 2010
May 19

I'd Always Want You

2010-02-16T10:41:00.000-05:00

I know one night
Would NEVER be
Enough time for me
To express my love

How could I treat
Gourmet like fast food
Van Gogh like stencils
Chanel like Calgon

Everyone asks for just a night
But have they no concept of
what true love is like?

A bevy of magnificence
A cloud of wonder
Studded night sky with stars unnumbered
Sparkling, lights of tremendous perfection
Bursts of electric melodies, too numerous to mention
All cascading into a kiss

Tumultuous emotion
Awakened too soon to a heart
Just unready for this
Chaotic monsoon,
Of passion and restlessness
Wistful sighs
Maddening heartbeat
Piercing eyes

I would forever long
for your touch my friend
For when the night is done
I'd want to see you again

So my dear
I'd always want you
T'was love at first sight
Just one kiss will never do

© Chaile Divine, 2010
February 16

Passion Rejected, Lovers Scorned

2009-09-12T09:46:00.006-04:00

The rhythmic pounding
Incessant beating
Time keeping
Sound of
My heart

Steeped deep in confusion
Dark grief muddies
The gentle water of hope in my soul

Passion strong
Intent wistful
My soul hopes in vain
Searches
Longing to find
My love

Target locked
You are the one
Fire starter of my being
Tempered expectation
Fevered crescendo of adoration erupts
Engulfing my singular frame

Without warning
Unprepared I enter
This realm of emotion
Meant for the heart strong
Like a babe
I steady myself
First steps of passion
Embracing unknown terrain

Flames inhaling flesh
Sweet enticing visions
Of togetherness

Restrained heat sultry arms
Stealing away lovers at night
Caution left behind for
Forbidden pleasure

Passion rejected
Lovers scorned
Why can’t we
Be together?

© Chaile Divine, 2009
August 15

It is you, I love

2009-09-02T09:36:00.011-04:00

I have tried in vain to deny
This one simple truth
Tried to bury my feelings
Push aside, how I feel about you

Before I have rhymed of logic
How it no longer provides for me
A reason, argument or solution
For this new insanity

When I see you my heart rate soars
Yet with each beat stands still
My body quakes and trembles
No longer responding to my will

Soul mate, could it be you?
For my heart would give me no peace
I have done all I could to do
Yet I can find no release

And should I run as it were
To the four corners of the earth
Just to temper this passion inside
Deny my very worth

If only to find a way
My feeling for you so strong
To restrain these new emotions
Existing within my soul

I would sing of magnificent vistas
Dream of opulent hues
Swirl in the mist of possibilities
Of a life I could share with you

Why me, why now, why this
Why here, why us, why you
No answer will suffice
Or negate this passion true

Good God! I cry in vain
I wrench my heart in tears
My prayer arise to heaven
To my fathers listening ears

Yet he sees with in me the cause
The reason my love goes away
And he tells me I must be healed
Before my love with me would stay

It is you, it is you, it is you
My soul would daily declare
My sunshine maker you are
My beautiful Delly dear
I love

© Chaile Divine, 2009
Sept 2

I Want Chocolate

2009-05-28T12:59:00.010-04:00

Delightfully delicious
Sweet to the touch
My thoughts of you baby
Can be a bit much

But when you are,
here, inside
It doesn't take much for me
To swallow my pride

And give in to desire
Body and soul
Give in to your presence
Let you take hold

Your hand on my bottom
Your breath on my neck
Arms locked to embrace me
No time to reflect

Sultry heat from our bodies
On a passionate ride
Liquid fire unfolds
As we flow and we glide

Our eyes locked intensely
Lips, tongues intertwined
The taste of sweet chocolate
Good God... blows my mind

And when you're not here
I sit and reflect
Your presence still lingers
And I want chocolate

© Chaile Divine, 2009
May 28

Held

2009-03-13T10:03:00.003-04:00

This time you called and said hello
it seems my heart you won't let go

My presence my love you now desire
To touch and caress you do inspire

Me to planes of ecstasy
Our souls as one we now soar free

I loved you true so I let go
You came back freely and now I know

You really want to be together
Determined now to treat me better

And call and text and think of me
I remember last night how
in love you held me

So close to you
my sweet soul

my one my only
to have to hold

© Chaile Divine, 2009
March 13

Daddy's Gone

2009-02-05T07:21:00.007-05:00

She watches her dad walk away
and then she goes outside to play
its no big deal you hear her say
but she doesn't feel right that entire day
or any other day thereafter
and soon her life is a road of disaster
for everyone she tries to trust
it seems shes only trying to catch up
to her daddy that left her long before
she had no idea what life had in store for her
though she loved all with intentions good
it seems no one who loved her really understood
her needs and wants, her heart's desire
to be seen, heard, held, loved by her father
the question remains as it stands
is she brave enough to face the grief at hand?
to feel the loss of daddy's love
the hugs, the attention she never got
and let go of the need to replace him
and live a life of truth embracing
the knowledge that in all things
Gods love is all she truly needs

© Chaile Divine, 2009
February 5

Blood Rush

2009-01-26T19:57:00.014-05:00

Swi...ssh is the sound I hear
my yahoo messenger alerts
My special friend is online

The tone alone has the power
To change the way I breathe
Your name seen in an instant
Quickens my heart beat

My brain looses all prior thoughts
Queasy feelings rise in me
My ears hot
My throat squeezed
all words I now speak
with a low guttural voice

my chest heaves up and down
oxygen seems scarce
my veins begin to vibrate
as the flow increases there

i hold my breath unknowingly
aware only intermittently
when I heave a sigh

my heart pounds incessantly
and i know the reason why

you're not even in my presence
no where near me physically
but the changes in my anatomy
they amaze even me

god how could this be
how could i feel
like this
for you

you're online though miles away
and you haven't got a clue
that i love you

that without any act of your own
my whole equilibrium
is disrupted by the thought
the very concept of you

beyond my control
beyond reason and logic
my emotions rise up
grasping my vital organs

my heart pumps faster
my lungs expel erratically
my cheeks get hot
my face is flushed
as my body is
consumed by this
blood rush

© Chaile Divine, 2009
January 27

Dance with Perfection

2009-01-09T09:07:00.005-05:00

Perfect you are perfect
Your body is scrumptious
your touch infectious
your energy vivacious

there you stood
and all that I could do
was marvel at
your presence

gentle tremors of wonder
cascaded along my heart
tumultuous rhythm of reality
soaking in

and there you stood
in my presence
in 3D, wow

and with eyes focused on
magnificence
the dance of life began
silent longings rising above
thunderous awe

enveloped in arms that held me tight
i feel your body close to mine
my frame against yours in magnetic perfection

your smell intoxicating
i linger in your embrace
and in gentle amazement
my eyes observe your face

wow, you and me together
at last
alone

you are perfect absolute perfection
everything as it should be
your lips delicious
your smile ambitious
your eyes amorous

And with one kiss
the world began anew
entering a plane
so different than its former
self it shed its old skin
to reveal pristine
garments radiating only
pure love

© Chaile Divine, 2009
January 9

Dear God Please Forgive me but I miss the devil

2008-11-25T03:22:00.010-05:00

see there’s this man I’ve known since
we were both kids but back then
I didn’t want to know him
Beyond a simple chat now and again

Then one day this year I went to bed
And woke up with this man inside my heart and head
All grown now there’s just something about him
That draws me closer and sucks me in
And now all I want to do is know him

The thing is
He’s the one that makes me so hot
He’s mostly likely to find my secret sweet spot
His voice, his charm's so hot and sexy
His touch, oh god makes me forget things

His smell, oh yes how I adore it
And when he hugs me how I love to lean in
And breathe up all the man that he is
Like Alice I’m in a wonderland

I marvel at how just one look could
Make me want to do all things so opposite of good
My desire comes down with a simple glance
And I see his need rising in his pants

All man so hot he oozes pure sin
His touch's so sweet I just want to give in
and get caught up in love and playmaking

Didn’t think I'd get to such a level but
the truth is god I miss the devil

Dedicated to my Delly

© Chaile Divine, 2008
November 23

The Sigh

2008-11-12T20:39:00.013-05:00

I asked, do you still wanna hang out
just tell me yes or no
for a while he was silent
then I heard
The sigh

long expression of breath
wrapped in words left unsaid
that sigh was so heavy
it got stuck in my head

and I thought to myself
oh why me again

you see it started so simply
the way he led me on
said he wanted to see me
pleading like a love song

but the thing was he'd only
sing this melody but unfortunately
leave all the rest up to me

to plan and decide
where we'd meet and abide
and to make all the calls
cause he made none at all

and so funny like that
these words he'd repeat
oh boy it'd be good
for you, me to meet

he'd say lets get together
even for the weather
lets spend sometime
maybe have lunch and dine

after so much repeats
i was ready to meet
and i did what i could
just to make it all good

and then i called him
and I heard the sigh

so cut to the core
this sigh had me raw
breaking me down like
no sigh had before

to me this sigh said
i'd rather be in bed
i wish you'd leave me alone
and not call my phone

i never meant that we
should actually meet
i just said those words
so maybe i'd see some teats

so i got what i want
and now i don't want you
i thought you'd get it by now
i never want to see you

so i've left it
alone and i'm walking away
from this man who
prefers to lie and to play
with my beautiful heart
wrapped up in heavenly love
cause i really thought
there might be something for us

but i now know the truth
not from what he said
but from that wordless sigh
that he'd rather hang up the phone
and head back to bed

© Chaile Divine, 2008
November 12

I Miss You

2008-11-10T23:42:00.006-05:00

These words you've heard them all before
But I've never said to you
my heart would implore me to declare
just how much it is I miss you

The shape of your face and
waves of your hair
your sunny disposition
your smile lighting up the air

its all about you
and its you that i love
i miss you

i desire to touch you
gently, reverently, sweetly
my fingers want to explore
every part of yourself

learn what makes you smile
giggle or twitch without warning
to trail the secret parts of you
and know you with my eyes closed

my lips want to brush against your skin
discover the sweet spots and linger therein
my tongue to taste you hot, sweet and salty
and then to embrace you in reckless abandon

everything about you beckons me to explore
your heart and your soul calls me to know more
of the secrets of yourself
the delicate parts hidden
for no one else
to find but me

i miss you
your face, your smile, your smell
and your gentle generous hugs
i miss you

© Chaile Divine, 2008
November 10

Hope

2008-11-05T00:53:00.007-05:00

Ugh, there she blows
there it goes again
Hope, not my friend
rearing its ugly head

how you tease me
making me look ahead
then you leave me
filling my life with dread

and i want to give up
only to give in to you
why you treat me hope
the way you do

sometimes i love you
hold you close to me
then in horror my hands empty
as you rip yourself away from me

hope i need you
hope i ask you
please don't go away

reality finds me hoping
and hoping often
through out the day

i asked for peace i asked for joy
i asked for happiness
and i got hope to keep the time
until these come to pass

but hope you're like the waves
of sea, bobbing in and out of my life
and when i think you're gone for good
you wash back in clearing away the strife

and like a beacon you
help me stand and hold on for
what I need

but sometimes dear hope
the agony i feel
makes me want you far away from me

why hope when all hope is gone
and last hope was only hopeless
and again grief finds me
filled with tears
and doubt and sorrowed heart

hope dear hope i pray and pray
and my sorrow and tears remain
then my childish soul forgets again
and before i know it, oh no

there she blows
there it goes again
hope comes back to me

© Chaile Divine, 2008
November 5

Mind Crossing

2008-09-24T19:13:00.005-04:00

How many times have I heard you say
You ran across my mind today

And though it seems a simple thing
for me what do these words really bring

Nothing, absolutely, nothing

Are you saying you're interested? No
Do you want to know me? No

I really don't see the point of it all
So you thought of me, whoop dee do!

Thank God when I crossed your mind that day
I had the sense to run away
from a man who doesn't know what he wants

Who says one thing and does something else
Who gives away his number but won't answer his cell

Who compliments at the drop of a hat
But won't say what he means when he's goes up to bat

Says lets do lunch
Then disappears
From a friend he hasn't seen in years

Whenever next I cross your mind
Just contemplate one last time
What am I really doing there
And what is it you really fear

Is it me or just your self
Or maybe it is something else
No matter what it is I do
You cross your signals and
throw me for a loop

I'd rather find some other mind
to run across any old time
Than to get lost in your reverie
When all you do is remind me
That I was crossing there

© Chaile Divine, 2008
September 24

Simplicity

2008-09-24T13:46:00.005-04:00

Simple life
Is what I desire
Honest, Integrity
Real, Truth

Say what you mean
No hidden agenda
Play games at playtime
Truth at truth time

My heart is honorable
I will declare the truth
According to me
Until the Divine Truth
Replaces all errors within

Love in purity
Grace in sincerity
Simple and real
I am who I am

I hide not my true self
And only to know you
Only to love you
I remain in awe of life
And in awe of you

© Chaile Divine, 2008
September 24

Kiss Me

2008-07-31T17:26:00.000-04:00

I love you with feelings
That words can’t describe
New joy has made a
Home in my heart

When I consider
That feeling
I once called love
I see that it pales
In comparison to
This fire in my bones
Hot energy with wings

When I see you
All my words disappear
Hazy, honey sweetly
flows in my veins
And all I can think of
Is how I want your hands
On me and your skin
Next to mine

And your lips
sweet parting place
Of your delightful tongue
How I long to feel your
Breath linger on my neck
As your tongue tastes me there
Finding the crevice of my
Collar bone
Trailing up to my chin
Where your mouth
Finds my own

Connecting
The heat, heat, heat and
The scorching flame
Meeting of
Cool and passionate tongues
Forever I pray
Kiss me this way

Those lips
Good God!
Those lips

© Chaile Divine, 2008
July 31