• How to express feelings in a healthy way while keeping thoughts out of the equation.
• YOU don’t make ME feel anything.
• Blame.
• Study feelings and make sure of what you are trying to express.
• What is my “organic feeling?”
• “Health foods.”
• Avoidance of vulnerability and intimacy.
• Gene!!!!!!!

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• “Personal Retreats” what to do and what not to do.
• What the Monk said to Paul………..
• Keeping it simple.
• Don’t worry about “the plan.”
• The fear and anxiety of being alone with yourself.
• More about feelings and how “I don’t have them.”
• Intimacy
• “You get me” and the magic that follows.
• Patterns and cycles in our life and how and why they repeat until we heal the initial trauma.
• Much gratitude to all of you who said “Happy Birthday.”

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• Chemical Dependency and Codependency.
• A review/reminder of The Four Agreements.
• Standing in your Honor, Honesty, and Integrity.
• Listening to our Inner Voice.
• Blueberry vodka + BMW = DUII.
• “Talkaholics” are avoiding something deeply painful.
• The Quiet vs. the noise.

Thanks to all for an incredible four years!

Kurt

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This and more on episode 207 with my gratitude.

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• Chemical dependency vs codependency!
• “I feel”……………. ????
• Be honest!!
• A review of our energetic footprint.
• How do I manage my energy.
• Embracing your pain.
• Change? Forgiveness, Letting Go? Don’t be mad………….
• How much do you want to change your life?

This and more on ORS 206 with my gratitude,

Kurt

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This and more with my gratitude.

Kurt

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This and more on episode 204 of ORS Radio.

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• The impact from the accumulation of trauma in our lives.
• Anxiety, panic, and how our bodies “talk” to us.
• We manifest “symptoms” so we can heal (if we are willing) as there are no accidents.
• Listen to the message.
• Claiming our life and our space.
• How loud does the message need to get?
• Much gratitude to Elizabeth for her contribution and support of the show.
• Owning our own “stuff”.
• A review of feeling statements.
• Blame, and making up stories and being unable to successfully express myself.

This and more on episode 202 of ORS Radio with my gratitude.

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This week I talk about Brene Brown’s interview with Oprah on this weeks Super Should Sunday show.

• Shame, vulnerability, and courage.
• We are hardwired for Love, not shame.
• Vulnerability is not a weakness.
• Being honest with myself.
• Being tough vs. being real, without fear.
• Don Miguel Ruiz and “domestication.”
• Don’t let anyone tell you how to feel.
• Vulnerability is the gateway to joy.
• Shame.
• Letting go of fear and old tapes.

This and more on episode 201!!

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I mention a few of you who have been so integral because you provide me the information, energy, inspiration, and support to continue to do the show. Your questions are the answers sometimes………

• How do I know whats right, then find clarity?
• How do we “get it right?”
• “The still small voice.”
• When and what do I need to share?
• When and if you think you are “done”.
• A reminder of The Four Agreements. Barbara Marciniak, Wayne Dyer, Eckhart Tolle, Joel Goldsmith.
• Living the 12 steps.
• The incredible work of Brene Brown and the power of Vulnerability.
• “This resonates vs. this is uncomfortable.”
• My “limits.”
• If we don’t stretch, we don’t grow.

To all of you who follow and support the show, my deepest thanks. I look forward to many more shows and continued growth and healing for all.

Much Love, Kurt

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• A simple example of titration and how detoxing doesn’t need to be complicated. 7 days, 7 envelopes.
• Gentle, comfortable, easy, withdrawal.
• Step 10 (modified) version.
• How our brain makes up a story and then, we have the feelings.
• Am I proud if my life?
• Feeling better, quickly
• Fine tuning.
• Defining and understanding our true feelings.
• Asking the right questions and changing you to i.
• Blame and disappointment.

This and more on episode 199 with my gratitude.
Kurt

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• Therapy and Vulnerability.
• “Re-traumatazation”
• Staying out of the story.
• Our truth and our essence.
• Gut instinct.
• Head, Heart, or, Pure Awareness?
• What am I repressing?

This and more on ORS 198 with my thanks.

Kurt

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• Shame, Fear, Vulnerability, Pain, Desperation, and how to heal it.
• Resignation and surrender.
• Denial and blame.
• If you have been in “recovery” for 30 years and you still feel like drinking, there is a bigger problem.
• What issues am I hanging on to?
• Safety
• Growing up!!
• Traction, direction, and momentum.
• Feelings dont convert to logic.
• Where is my pain?
• Your body is NOT lying to you.
• Not quitting.
• Expect a miracle.

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• A big thanks to Teresa and Nicole.
• Finding good meetings, good treatment centers, and a good sponsor. Trust your gut.
• Desperation.
• Being willing to ask for help.
• “Put it out of my mind”
• The fear of losing “it.”
• Step Eleven, Love, Joy, Relief.

This and more on ORS 196!!

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• Biological or situational depression?
• Hormones and your endocrine system as it relates to depression.
• Establishing stability in our lives and learning how to Self comfort.
• Freedom from pain by treating the cause instead of the symptom.
• How our ego can interfere with our healing by wanting to win or be right.
• Seek first to understand, then to be understood.
• “How can I help you?”

This and more on ORS episode 195

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• Conscious Contact
• Don’t believe everything you think!
• What you think of me is none of my business
• A reminder about The Four Agreements and to live from your heart.
• Listening to the Still, Small, Voice, and not leaving my body.
• Our growth, and the intention of this show.
• Much Gratitude to our good friend Matt.

This and more on a special episode of ORS Radio.

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This and more on ORS 193, with our gratitude.

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• A story about “feelings vs. thoughts” and how we convert our “feelings into thoughts”, project them onto others, and not own our stuff!!
• I feel……… along with multiple examples. Like “I feel like you.”
• Anger, blame, and responsibility.
• Honesty and openness.
• Victimhood.
• A reminder of the basics in The Four Agreements.
• Speaking our truth and being real.
• Speaking with Love and vulnerability while asking yourself why is this in my life?
• What to do when you Soul is screaming at you.
• Questioning and evaluating the value of Faith and trust in my life.

This and more on ORS 192 that includes my gratitude for the awesome support.
Kurt

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• Crying/not crying.
• What happens when I am so afraid of my feelings that I literally fear that having my emotion ail actually kill me?
• Angry feelings vs. angry behavior.
• Listening to the “Still Small Voice.”
• Willingness and commitment (with the acknowledgment of fear).
• Running across The Golden Gate Bridge.
• Anxiety.
• Internet on Innernet……….
• Our friend Jeff graduates!! (with my blessing), so cool.
• Listening to You’re truth.

Thank you for the great review on ITunes and my best for an amazing 2013 to all!!
Kurt

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This and more on this weeks episode of ORS Radio.

Happy New Year and Blessings to all.
Kurt

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• Honesty, Authenticity, Honor, Truth, Bravery, Vulnerability and The Four Agreements.
• How to open doors you don’t have keys for.
• Moving more deeply into our truth.
• The importance of Brene Brown’s energy on this show.
• Gratitude for the simple things in life and the gift of being “of service” and sharing our gifts with others.
• One thought about a New Years resolution.

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• Clarification of the meditation recording I spoke about on last weeks show.
• Knowing how to stay grounded when the world around us appears to be falling apart.
• Try a “media diet” or a “media cleanse.” You will feel better in 2 days, promise.
• What is my contribution of the energetic, or karmic “pool”?
• How my thoughts produce chemistry in my body.
• Trust what’s inside, then jump!!

Just a reminder that the Winter Solstice of 2012, the end of a 26,000 year cycle, occurs this week. The Solstice occurs (begins) at 3:11AM Pacific Standard time. Energetically, I expect this to be a magnificent “download” of Love and Light, and we will feel very different if we are open to the energy. Check YOUR time zone if you plan to be awake and connecting with what I sense will be an amazing event, filled, with Love. It would be a great time to embrace a loved one, light a candle, and meditate.

Blessings to all, and, Happy Holidays if you are celebrating. I will be taking some time off, but I do not plan on taking time away from the program. You can expect a new show each Wednesday as usual.

Kurt

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• 185, did you get it? Let me know if you didn’t.
• Meditation recording, interested??
• Love of Self and Step 4.
• What is life trying to teach me?
• Being open.
• Oneness and equality.
• Treat yourself as you want to be treated.
• Barbara Marcinak’s comments about out “balance sheet”.
• Gratitude.
• Oneness.

This and more on this weeks episode on ORS 187. Much gratitude for everyone’s support.
Kurt

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• Did you get knocked off balance over Thanksgiving’?
• Relapse?
• Avoidance or healing.
• Pain.
• A great story of Love……
• What am I so afraid of?

This and more on this weeks episode of Online Recovery Support Radio. Please join us.

Much Love to all,
Kurt

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• Dealing with our “issues” that our family and loved ones help us recognize and possibly address.
• Responsibility for our healing.
• The importance of being quiet during the holiday season and maintaining our boundaries.
• Love, and a really sweet example.
• What’s right “for the whole?”
• Dont settle for less!
• Many blessings to all of you who are celebrating the holidays with my love and gratitude.

A special thanks to Matt and Joshua.

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Right now Isabelle and I are just sitting in the dark listening to the rain outside. Really peaceful. Tonight I decided to turn my phone off and sit quietly. It was a good decision.

When we sit quietly we hear beyond the noise of life. I know it doesn’t sound like much, but the water landing on the roof and draining down the gutters is close to (if not better than) those fountains we buy for our homes and offices to bring us “peace.”

Sitting quietly with all electronics in the “off” position is pretty amazing. Join me??

Much Love to all, and, happy holidays. Everyone’s support of the show is amazing. I had no idea how important this podcast would become, and I am incredibly grateful and humbled for the opportunity to be a part of so many lives.

Kurt

Above is “The Cosmic Window” by Narcissus Quagliata. It can be viewed at Grace Cathedral in San Francisco atop Nob Hill and across from Huntington Park. This image (and the park) has great meaning to me as it was an important part of Online Recovery Support’s episode 34, (recorded in 2009) and by far the most popular show I have done thusfar. For those of you who have not been with us that long, it is my personal story of healing, tears, and the releasing of pain. This was the turning point for myself and the show, following an exceptionally painful period in my life. While visiting San Francisco, I stepped more deeply into my truth, honesty, and Spirituality. I then became more willing to be ungaurdely vulnerable with anyone who was listening. After episode 34, we grew from a few thousand listeners, to over 100,000 listeners a week.

Be open, honest, and loving. Step into that which scares you, it is there you will find your freedom.

Again, my gratitude for all the support,

k

• It’s Fall, be still and listen. Its a great time to “turn within”.
• A story about someones trip to Africa, and creates a new reality for himself. Hmmm, truth or reality?
• What’s the next right thing? Trust in your truth!
• A true story about panic attacks (not natural human anxiety), and some of the origin and pathology behind this disorder. This is something that I lived with and learned how to heal after looking deeply inside my body for answers.
• Fear……….

Many thanks to those who have helped out by expressing themselves on ITunes (with kind words in the review section) and those who have contributed by using the paypal button.

Much gratitude.
k

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Matt has been a constant presence with ORS Radio and we now celebrate true birth of his second child. I tell a story of health, healing, and suffering.

• Pain can help us heal if we embrace it without being a victim.
• What if we didn’t have to struggle and/or suffer? What if life was effortless?
• We create our own reality!!!!
• “Be responsible, grow up, and get over it!!”
• “For some things in life there will never be an app.”
• Falling in love with technology? Really?? How we disconnect by defaulting to technology. Reach for the truth!!

This and more on ORS 182.

Much gratitude to all who support us by hitting the Paypal button and, writing reviews at ITunes, its awesome!!

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• What do I not know about myself that I need to learn?
• Doing what you came here to do.
• Is suffering my truth?
• I manifest what I believe in.
• I create my own reality.
• What do you really care about?
• Accepting responsibility for creating your own reality.
• I, we, or me?
• Anticipatory anxiety about the upcoming holidays.

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• A story of how small and simple can bring Peace and happiness. “Sunflowers make me happy.”
• Kurt receives a mysterious package containing the “Seth” from Jane Roberts. An awesome story about belief systems.
• Again, we are all magnificent creators, it is just a matter of what we choose to create.
• The laws of nature and the invisible order of life.
• Rock climbing with your intuition.
• A review and some comments about the new movie about the life of Bill W.
• Ho’o pono pono

With gratitude,
k

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• “Peace brings a space where we can make choices. Fear and anxiety leaves us feeling trapped.”
• Locating, identifying and managing the energy in our bodies.
• Question; “How do you feel?” Good and fine are NOT feelings.
• Listening to and paying attention to the movement and presence of energy in my body.
• Kurt’s heart, and issues of Love and resolution.
• Dealing with our feelings in a practical way.
• Finding the “perfect” therapist.
• “No, for now.”

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• My weekend with Barbara Marcniak and reminders about responsibility, self will, and creating our own reality.
• A contrasting story from Patricia and her time in Paris.
• Deer in the front yard.
• Gold in the earth and no cell phone service.
• Vibrations (Ludi and his gong) and learning to stay in your body.
• The incredible benefits of being in nature.
• This and more on episode 178.

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• Paul and the ten meter diving board. An awesome metaphor for life.
• True Joy.
• Reluctance to vulnerability.
• “Teach me how to see.”
• How of you carry yourself?
• An exercise in photography. Powerful stuff!
• Keelping a feelings journal.
• The importance of patterns in our life.
• Living in fear.

This and more on ORS 177 with my gratitude.
Kurt

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The majority of this weeks show is sourced in the work and quotes from Barbara Marciniak and the power of her amazing book The Path of Empowerment.

Slow down!
Guilt.
Purpose and meaning.
Blame and excuses.
Honesty.

This and more, with my gratitude.
Kurt

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Gene, as evidenced by his storage of these early episodes has been with us from the very beginning. Gene and I have exchanged emails and stayed in contact for more than three years and I am honored and grateful for his participation and support of the work that we do.

“The Lost Episodes” have become so popular that we are about to exceed our bandwidth for the month so as soon as we hit the new billing cycle we will offer either a new folder or figure out a way to place Gene’s contribution into the larger file. Either way, they should be available soon and I will let you know when that happens.

Much gratitude to all of you who have helped out in so many ways. It humbles me to know that we reach so many people and I am honored to be a part of so many lives.

Much Love, Kurt