onlyYAHJ

I'M SORRY

2011-10-18T12:06:00.000+08:00

AKALA KO KAYA KO NA MAGALIT KA.. HINDI PALA..

I didn't expect that everything will just end this way.. I hate myself.. I'm so stupid.. All of a sudden hindi ko na nakilala sa sarili ko because I let myself driven by my emotion.. Wala akong nagawang tama.. I know everything that happened is all my FAULT.. and now I'm earning all of the STUPIDITY that i did, nagdudusa ako, which I truly deserve.. I don't know if there's still a life that in store for me.. I don't know where to start. because I know I can't change everything that happened..

I know SORRY is really not enough.. but I'm hoping it helps somehow.. And I know the fact that the WOUNDS that I gave to you will not be healed, and if it does for sure it will leave you a mark.. but i hope one day I can cover those marks..

I can do everything just for you to forgive me, I'm very much willing to stoop down.. do everything just for you to forgive me..

But if you can't really forgive me.. then wala akong magagawa but to accept it.. beacuse I can't blame you if you can't forgive me, with all that stupid stuff, even I can't forgive myself..

Though it's really hard for me if hindi mo ako mapatawad..

I'M STILL HOPING AND PRAYING..

THANK YOU RIN FOR EVERYTHING.. I WILL NOT FORGET THAT YOU'VE BEEN PART OF MY LIFE.. YOU ARE THE ONLY PERSON THAT DEFINES TO ME WHAT HAPPINESS IS.. AT LEAST EVEN ONCE IN MY LIFE I WAS ABLE TO FEEL THAT KIND OF HAPPINESS..THANK YOU.. AND I'M SORRY AGAIN..

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Hurting so much that I cannot hide it any longer and a

river of tears flow down my cheeks to my pillow.

Crying until I cannot anymore.

Words the invisible knife that goes deeper with each

word spoken until it makes it through.

Words that then make a knife slice downward more each

time with it’s painful intention.

In the end, what is left is a broken heart, sitting inside

depressed crying in pain.

My mind can’t stand the heart this way.

Thoughts fluttering in of the possible solutions all no

good to be thought; let alone acted upon.

My heart feels so weak it can’t go on; there is no hope

or support.

Time to end it, my heart can’t take any more and either

can I.

Hands shaking as they accept the mind’s command.

Taking slowly a few pills at a time, in the palm of my

hand and taking them to my mouth.

After that slowly taking a knife and slicing my will to

live.

Sitting in the corner in the fetal position, my face to the

wall and my back to the rest of it all.

Silently awaiting my fate as the blood trickles all over and my blurred vision sets in.

Could this be the end?

Oh please let it be!!

I can take no more.

Set me free of this life and bring my heart to the joyful

beats it once had.

Bring me to the place of ecstasy and harmony so that for

once I may be happy.

I cannot and will not take this pain and guilt anymore.

team myphone

2011-10-01T12:30:00.013+08:00

"Never shall I forget the time I spent with you. Please

continue to be my friend, as you will always find me yours. " - Ludwig Van Beethoven

"Friendship is a treasure that always help us overcome any kind of difficulty, Friendship is a comfort for somehow which always understand worries and emotions, Friendship is a blessing because it teaches the way to live." - Unknown

Being a call center agent is not an easy job.We'll have to face a lot of stressful things whether it be like coming from the customers, schedule or to other people in our work place. But there is one main reason why everyone of us from our team (team myphone) was able and still able to surpass this kind of stress in our work.. and that is FRIENDSHIP.. the bond and the laughter that we shared through out the shift, makes our work an enjoyable one. Though sometimes we have a delayed opening just like what happen to me before.. hehe..its really good to know that everyone of us are enjoying our work together. We're the most noisiest team as what our new team mate noticed, that makes our team a different from other team. The most bonded the most enjoyed and the most stress-free team ever.

And it's really good to know that I'm part of this team, because if not i could say that i couldn't last in this work for 10 months now. I love working with this beautiful people. Beautiful inside and out. They inspired and motivate me. And I believe that its really not a matter of what kind of job you have and how much the the salary is, its the matter of the people you're working with. That's the reason why I'm still in iQor, because of you guys. And if inevitably i will be leaving for sure i will miss you all guys.

And to my supervisor, hay nako dami ko ng kasalanan.. thanks for understanding and extending your patience tl..

And though others may come and go.. friendship still remains..
Others may move to a diff team or for some reason will be leaving iQor, friendship will still be there..
And for our new team mates, I'm sure you will not regret that you are part of this team..

And for all of you guys.. thanks a lot. Thanks for being there always.. you don't guys how i thankful and how i feel blessed to have all of you being part of my life, you may find me so serious and so emo but that's true guys.. SUPER THANKS.. =)

friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It's not something you learn in school. But if you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you haven't really learned anything. -Muhammad Ali

If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred

minus one day, so I never have to live without you.

- Winnie the Pooh

The best way to keep your friends is not to give them away. -Wilson Mizner

Our best friends are those who know their faults well enough

to forgive us ours.

- Moulton H. Farnham

it's you

2011-09-22T12:55:00.000+08:00

I want to be the one
To share your happiness with

I want to be there for you

When you're down and feeling blue

Isn't it too much to ask you

If you feel the same way too

Coz i've been loving you for long
Even if i know that it is wrong

.. not yet done

-continuation soon..

written by my friend melanie oro sta ana