Agent Anime

Time is relative..and most certainly irrelevant

2011-09-23T11:51:00.000-07:00

As I sit here on a day off work (the first in about 12 days) I ponder why it is that I have soo much to do, and so little time to do it in. I have also come to the realization that I, myself, just so happen to create chaos for my own life. Whether it be to create about a million and one projects that I should know deep down that I will never finish, or looking on facebook profiles of freinds that most likely dont give a rats ass about me when I should be doing homework, or perusing the endless amounts of anime toys on ebay that I can't afford to buy, or looking up beer recipes to homebrew batches that I may or may not ever get around to making. Thinking about the paperwork and money accounts of a father who is sitting in a nursing home and then just pushing them aside because of other things I should be doing at that moment. Wondering the whole time why I do the things I do and about want I want to do, just to come full circle and think about the load of shit that fills up my garage to a point of impossibility to ever even imagine trying to get a vehicle in there. The amount of toys all over the house in random places put there by none of my kids but some crazy dark leprechaun that the children speak of frequently as the mysterious being that causes all the mischief around the home when I'm not looking or when I ask "who made this mess!" The homework that I do need to do creates another realm of wonder that in turn makes me want to find a really tall building to go hangliding off of without the glider to thus hang from. Whatever it is that causes this mental chaotic connundrum I cannot say. All I can say is that if not for chaos what would I do? Without the worry that I may never be completely happy with anything in my life unless it is a huge mess, what would I do? If anybody has ever been the kind of person to make a big twisted mess of things than you may be able to relate at least on the top layer of the madness that is behind this big piece of bloggy poo. And on that note I better get back to my homework, because planetary nebulea need to be explained, and if not for the credits and grades from this final class in my Ass-ociates program I may not even care.. but since I've also a Philosophy quiz to finish by the end of the week I can't even think that any accomplishment is even justified. I never gain any satisfaction from any level of work I put into a project, and I bet that some physcologist would say that I've a very hard habbit of self destruction to break, and that I should learn to take a compliment. Well, that aint happenin....at least not until somebody can help me break the rails of this train and help me go in another direction that's a little less painful. Any volunteers? Didn't think so...... FML

That Day

2011-09-11T11:14:00.000-07:00

It wsa 10 yrs ago today that I was outproccessing from 5 long yrs in the U.S.Marine Corps. And on this day 10 yrs ago my Sargeant Major told me he wasn't sure what would be happening in the next several hours but he would sign my discharge papers. I told him that if they needed me, they knew where they could find me. I'll never forget that day.

911

2011-09-11T11:12:00.001-07:00

I'd gladly go back to that day and do everything over again if I thought that it would help change things forever. I would shoot those planes out of the sky if it would change the intentions for what they succeeded in doing. To lower the moral and hope for those attempting to lower ours as a free country I would bear arms and cut off anyones head to end things such as terrorism, racism, and fasciast communism. The war isn't with terror, it's with our own selves and the evil we can create within. There has to be way and I believe that fire is the only way out. You may not have to pass through the fires of hell in order to reach heaven, but nobody ever said things were supposed to be easy. I'd walk that line, just so that others will not have to. The innocent lives lost that day, unfortunately will not be the last, but we must remember. Because without something lost there will never be anything to gain.

My New Cybersprocket

2011-07-24T07:39:00.000-07:00

Well I did it, or at least started it. I went on over to my wordpress account (dont hate me google) and started using that for my writings. I'm going to just throw a little bit on there to start with and see what kind of reactions I get. For now. I'll probably add more to it here and there, but over all I'm going to keep writing on my own as much as I can until I have something worthwhile that maybe I could possibly publish one day. I really hope that I can publish someday, it would be a dream of mine come true.. well actually I had only thought about that possibility about a random 2-300 times before in my life, and mostly it dealt with creating comics and wanting to get them published. So anyway, jog on over to my wordpress and see for yourself, then come back here or check me on FB or twittie and let me know whats up. Word? Word.. http://wormholebrewing.wordpress.com/

To write, or not to write. That is the Question.

2011-07-23T11:53:00.000-07:00

Well I've been running it over and over in my head. What do I want to do when I grow up. I have a somewhat stable job/occupation, but I am always on the look out from something better. Not something with neccissarily more money (although that would be a nice bonus) but for something that I can actually be satisfied with. So what does the person do that is never satisfied with anything??? If I could just up and drop my life to start all over again I tend to think that would, but at the same time there comes into question the stability and comfortability of the current setup. I've been playing an idea for a story back and forth for a few years now, and at first it was an idea for a web comic that I would write and draw and post on a website dedicated to it. But the longer I go without really drawing (which as of right now could be the sum of almost 10 year now) and since I'm soo out of practice it is always seeming unlikely that I could provide the quality of artwork I would want to match my story. So instead of going through the trouble (at least as of yet) to retrain myself in artistic abilities. I've been thinking I would start off by just writing my story idea for the web comic into novel or novela or even some other form of documentation form. What do you think? Maybe I'll just start off by writing on a blog or something and see what kind of feedback I can get. I could change my wordpress blog maybe to a direct link from my storytelling synapsis and see what happens, and then document my progress here.. I dunno.. I'm soo goddamned indecisive. All I do know is, something has to change or I just may lose it soon. har har har... uugghhh

#MOflood Go Guard! 2011

2011-07-17T10:11:00.000-07:00

I was going to write a story about the Flooding here in Missouri. I had been called up to active duty with the Missouri Air National Guard (my full time employer as a civil service technician) to help fight off the rising water to help save some of the farm land and homes along the Missouri River near a few small towns around the Carrollton MO area which is just north of the Missouri River about 30 minutes from I70 and about an hour and a half from Kansas City. The experience was one that I felt would not be very intimate with things I would normally find interesting or in the least bit beneficial, to myself, or anybody else for that matter. But I'm not ashamed to say, that I was wrong. Seeing the people out there fighting for what they would consider to be their livelyhoods is something I did not expect. When I normally see a bunch of farmland and cornfeilds I usually dont think much past the fact that it must be a pain to harvest all of that, and then to have to deal with the process of farming and the big food industry. Kind of like when I see the chicken trucks every day in the town I live in. I can't really feel sorry for them because I know that they are all on their way to the food plant where they will soon be turned into chicken nuggets and microwave dinners. But this experience was different. Even though I know that the life of a farmer is not easy, I could clearly see that these people (old and young) were in fear of loosing what they work their fingers to the bone for. In just the area I was in, I was standing up on one levee and heard one of the farmers mention that if the water were to break through here or at another point about 2 miles from there, that it would mean the annual salary of about 50-60 families would be gone, just like that (a snap of the fingers). And since I usually think of such a big scale, this really didn't mean that much to me, because how many families annual saleries were lost in Japan during the tsunami earlier this year? I bet more than 50-60. Probably more like 50-60 thousand, along with everything else they had owned, and even some of their loved one's lost, and pets, and everything else. But even though I have the ability to make such comparisons I still have the ability to separate the logical sense of those comparisons and to realize that every situation is different and to also realize that I do not have all of the facts to support most of my theories or ideas. Oh but anyway, I would look at these farming people and see that even though they knew that their livelyhood were at stake, it would not change who they were, their determination, and overall, their sense of the down home family that they most cherish. This community I was helping was some of the most gracious and farm friendly (pun intended) that I'd met in a long time. I can see that they live a humble life and that they really did need and appreciate the fact that the National Guard (Army and Air Force) was there. It gave them a sense of relaxed nervouseness. A feeling that even though they might lose a years long worth of income that there was people that cared about them, that the state cared, that the members of the Guard cared, and that a lot of us were all there for a common purpose. To help each other. That we are all family even though distanced by occupations and regionally different backgrounds. When I looked out at the cornfield from atop the levee bearing a water pressure that could have broke through at any time. It changed my outlook. I didn't see the food process of the nation. I just saw people. Just as the buildings and lives, boats and cars, and everything in the path of water washed through Japan as destructive as any other force on earth. The families in Missouri and the other surrounding states affected by the flood waters were no different. It's not the level of the devastation, but the level of the inner self to comprehend that loss... is loss.

Atop the Levee (Norborne, MO)

Heartland America

Carrollton, MO

I65 closed down to one lane only

Snake

2011-05-14T09:33:00.000-07:00

Me and my friend Ryan a long time ago were going to open up a public amphibious aquarium full of snakes and lizards of the sorts, but we couldn't agree upon a name for the place. He had one in mind but a certain restaurant establishment would probably sue us for copyright infringement. The same ordeal would have taken place if we were to also incorporate an ice cream stand into it.

Naughty Anime for Kids? Me thinks not!

2011-05-13T17:53:00.000-07:00

Panty and Stocking with Garterbelt,

That certainly doesn't sound like a kids show does it? Well it's not. But look at the art style it must be a cutesy kiddy anime? Nope! And that just goes to show you that you cannot judge an anime by it's level of cartoony quality animation. If this looks like Powerpuff Girls, Dexters Lab, or any of those other Cartoon Network shows that its been compared to, to you, then look again. But dont watch it in the presence of children under say the age of, hmmm, 14? 15? 18? I'm no good with those show-watching-age-range-acceptability-judging. But I can tell you it's not for those that do not mind hearing about sexually devious themed content. It may be cute and all, but it's about as raunchy as all get out..well okay maybe it's not that bad. But it does certainly rate up there with maybe a Terantino style film violence mixed with some Invader Zim nonsense, a slight touch of late night Showtime softcore, and, well, a tad bit of Powerpuff.

But this hasn't been the only cutesy moe type anime lately that's been ultra-violent and not as expected...See Higurashi no Naku Koro ni (or When They Cry as the American release is simlpy called)

But if you dont believe me than just ask youself, how can an anime that looks like this

Turn into this?

androidify

2011-04-22T05:52:00.001-07:00

a silly lil app on my galaxy s

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Where do we go now???

2011-04-11T23:44:00.000-07:00

Ok, so here I am perusing a bunch of anime blogs out there, I'm away from home on work related travel, I've got massive amounts of homework to do, and I can't sleep. So what do I do? I decide to blog. I know I'm rather hit-r-miss with my updates so I've decided to write about some things that are really not pertinent to my everyday life. Maybe as a form of expression, escape, or just curiosity. I've had a rather odd but lengthy web pressence for a very long time, with pretty much the only fan being myself, but I am faced with trying to reduce, drop, or compile all of my web junk (sites, profiles, etc). So what do I do? I started my ultra not famous web archiving back at the end 2001/beginning of 2002 with a little site called Agent Anime (much like the name of this blog) and here is pretty much where it all started with the blog-like archives (well actually I had a really old yahoo web site before that called the Anime Room or something to that effect but I'm sure that has been long dead). After I had started the Agent Anime Fan Club I kept the archiving going for a good long while informing club members of events and just rambling at times, then I had decided at one point to actually make an actual blog and name it after the site that was once an anime fan club a few years back, but that wasn't working out too well, I just couldn't get the hang of all that coding and what-not. So I decided to just make a home page to somewhat confluence all of those previous projects here (since really I just have trouble throwing anything away...yes I'm a packrat) and all I really did with that was replace the original sites main/index page and then have links to the other projects.. oh and on that page there is a link to some old portfolio school project that I had made for, 'you guessed it!' a school project.. The portfolio was rather lame and I rarely ever go there, I guess I could delete that and it wouldn't be much of a loss but oh well. So anyway, here I am now with yet even more unfinished or ongoing projects and I need to either delete them or compile them like I've done before.. or just say screw it and keep this blogspot one going and maybe delete everything else and just use my actual domain name for this bloggy blog. Or find another alternative.. Any ideas? Either way, did I mention I have a lot of school work and that I'm on travel away from my family? It sucks and I miss them, but at least I'm sorta catching up on homework without my little rat-weasel's interrupting me every 5 seconds or waking me up at 5AM every morning, but still. I was just wondering what I should do about all this webstuff because it's been kinda bothering me for awhile. Hope you enjoy the little chibi K-ON characters above, it has nothing to do with this post, but I thought it was a cute image and it's a great anime show that I've been watching.. Think I'll make a K-ON banner.. LOL

Back to School

2011-01-16T17:46:00.001-08:00

So I've decided to go back to school for what I don't know but at least I'm going. I decided to take a speech and a psychology class this term. My classes are only 8 weeks long and two classes are worth 6 credits so this qualifies as full time and so I should get my full GI Bill payment. Which will really help me out. Now I just have to deal with the whole going back to school anxiety of worrying about assignments being due and doing lots of research and also writing papers in the correct format.

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Happy New Year!!!

2011-01-02T09:38:00.000-08:00

Well 2010 was a pretty interesting year for me...lots of chaos, started off okay with a deployment to Guam, then getting back and dodging bill collectors, but then my baby girl Oriana was born adding the 3rd to my ever growing Smith clan, and things all seemed okay for a bit. Then I went and got a Vasectomy after deciding 3 kiddies is enough for me, and ended up in more pain than I thought possible from a simple procedure that is done every day for thousands if not millions of already happy customers, and then towards the end Dad almost dying from congestive heart failure, getting a stint put in, than getting some random new pain in his right leg (heart unrelated at this point), he went back into the hospital, and now is in a nursing home waiting for other docs to figure out what's wrong with him. So, uh.. yah, it's been busy. (and this is not to mention all the other huge projects I had going on, like staining the deck, building a fort for the kids in the backyard, having the truck break down numerous times, and then moving around at work from office to office, shop to shop, just to get settled into one work environment and then to be up and moved to another, what a pain).

So anyway, resolutions? I thought of a bunch just yesterday after struggling to even care about making any for the last week or so since Christmas....but then I was soon to forget today. I was thinking that one of them would be to try an be more optimistic and get a little back to my creative roots, maybe join a club, form a club, or just get people into anime, or if they're already into anime, get them to watch some with me. Or something like that. Either way I do know I need to come on here and post more updates, especially after I watch more cool anime shows, buy more cool figures, or do anything anime related. I think maybe I'll go back to school as well (but I know if I do that I'll definitely be more absent from my blog or my overall internet presence) seeing as my GI Bill is getting ready to run out, cant believe they only give you 10 yrs to use that damn thing, and I wasted all of but about 14months of it.. good lord I could've had a degree ages ago, but alas I was just fine working at the time. Oh well....enough complaining.. that should be another resolution, haha. Happy New Year!!! I hope this one is fairly uneventful, but who my kidding? Fuck it! Keep Rocking On People!!!

Updates Smupdates

2010-10-06T19:44:00.000-07:00

Where in the world have I been? Well you of all people should know. I'm right here, just busy as always. I've been watching Eden of the East and just started Sore No Woto (spelling).. Eden is a pretty intrigueing show and keeps me watching and impatiently awaiting the next episode (which at this point is the last episode) and then after finishing the series I can then move on to the movies as they are released. Its rather odd to here of an anime that only has like 11 episodes and then goes straight into have (I think 3 so far) movies made from it. But oh well, kinda a cool concept if you ask me.

I have realized that I must be some kind of closet shoppaholic, cuz I haven't really bought anything lately..namely electronics, toys, or other anime merch.....AND IT'S FREAKING KILLING ME!!!!!!
I need some more hard drives, cuz I'm running out of room on mine (and the lord knows I hate to delete data for fear that I may need it again someday).. I'd like a new projector (preferably one that's high def with capable 3D compatibility, but mostly just high def)... I really really really want a new smartphone... HTC Evo comes to mind from all my months of nagging leading up to its release and then now months after that looking into other alternatives such as the G2 or the Epic, or Vibrant....I'd also like to get some sort of new media home computer to hook directly up to my living room high def DLP tv.. so that I can stop using my laptop thru HDMI to stream Netflix, Hulu, Crackle, and a wide variety of other online tv (since we've recently had out Satelite TV shut off to save money (and also to keep the kids from getting addicted to silly Nick Jr and Sprout shows 24/7) and the same with out land telephone line which we really didn't need cuz we do have cell phones (even if our current carrier has really sucky coverage in my area (even with the cheesy GPS/Internet cell phone signal boosting device that they gave us for free in hopes of keeping us as customers, which really isn't working too well right now). But anyway, I know that this world is a material one, and that we are not supposed to dwell on such objects, but it's really hard when you have such an affliction as I do. My most recent purchase being a laptop (the one that I'm currently typing all this on) was bought back in Feb this year, and curbed my thirst for a bit (but it was mainly to replace my previous one which had died on me (and of course I was able to revive it about a month ago cuz I'm cool like that) and right before I had deployed to Guam for a few months and needed a skyping tool, so I got one with Bluray capability and the WiFis and the bigger GB's..haha. But now I want more and am being torn to bits by my own self consciousness, my wife, and my overwhelming sense of "gotta do whats right" but still is not that easy..... I really want to just get a new credit card and go crazy on Newegg.com, Tigerdirect, Geeks.com, and some new cell carrier just to quench my hunger for "things".. oh yah and I've got a kegerator for my bar recently and it needs parts too...oh and beer to go in it.. damn I've got issues.. LMAO!!!! fuck off!!!!!!!.. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!! JKJKJKJKJKJKJK

Hows that for an update!!!

Gimme that Good Ol' Fashioned Anime Untraviolence!

2010-08-09T19:17:00.000-07:00

Rin - Daughters of Mnemosyne -

All I can really say is, "Its about Friggin Time!". That we've got some of that ol'skool ultraviolence that attracted soo many of us freaks to the anime subculture. Although there are soo many good anime shows out there today (new and old), there just something that makes those sick and twisted shows draw viewers to them like a moth to a flame. Not to mention that if the storytelling is enthrawling at the same time, its almost guarenteed to be a hit with us horror and pscho-thriller fans.. Well Rin does all that and then some. I just wished that it was longer.. but not really. There's always a nice charm to those gruesome thrillers that leaves you thinking omg I've just watched that, it was screwed up, and I must be just as screwed up for enjoying it.. HAAAHAAAAHAAAA.. Check it out!

And here's just a lil snapshot of what you can expect to see.. but you'll have to watch it to get the true feeling of the jacked-uppedness of this show.. Heh

Swag Bucks!

2010-07-29T21:50:00.000-07:00

I'm already almost to 800 SB's, moving right along.. It's freakin easy, just dont fall for any of the little adds in during the surveys.. oh and always click on the daily polls and trusted surveys and you'll get an automatic 1SB just for clicking it. Also if you do any and or all of the Special Offers, those are easy too. If you have to download and install something (for example Real Media player) you can do that totally for free and then just get the swag bucks, and then uninstall whatever it was you installed.. but always save a file to a location on your Hard Drive and then scan it for virus first.. just a precautionary measure but not really needed.
Some of the surveys are long as hell so make sure you've got time to finish them, but the rewards are a lot greater than just searching the web, and also if you go shopping online (like I do at places like Borders and Tigerdirect all the time) make sure to log into Swagbucks first, than follow the shopping links and find your store and click on the link for that shop and then log into that account and shop away. Soon as your done you've just earned some SB's.. it's really that easy. Pretty fun and addicting too. Do a search for Swagbucks Unwrappings on youtube if you dont believe me, people are trading in their SB's all the time for real shit!.heh heh

v99.9999999999999976843322

2010-07-27T19:30:00.000-07:00

OK! As you can tell by the banner I've changed the name of the blog.... I changed it back to what I always used and started as the basis for my interweb presence way back when (probably when most of you so-called otaku weren't even born yet.. and yes I am that old!). Anyway, I opened a little anime fan club site and called it Agent Anime, and that was also the name of my old anime club in St. Louis a long long time ago in a dimension far far away. Anywho..some old skool fans were giving me trouble about all the name changes I had gone through over the years, and dont even recognize me anymore.. (well so what if I am always having an identity crisis.. I cant ever decide on anything!). Oh well, so I've gone back to default.. I started out as Agent Anime, and I figured I'd go out that way.. so here it is. Some may call me Wormhole, some may call me Animehead, some may call me an Otaku, but I'll always be an Agent at heart.. So that's all I wanted to say for now.. thank you and have a nice day.. Heh

School Days.

2010-07-19T19:53:00.000-07:00

School Days is a really good anime, and is waaaay more adult than I originally thought.. There are tons of non-visual sex scenes and exploitations.. I had no idea what to think most of the time. And then just when I was thinking of how it could all have a good, nice, happy, conclusive, explanative, logical, and not freaky ending.. It ended!. Overall it was good, and I like really good (meaning freakily weird) anime. Good luck with the ending... hahahaha.. now I got ya wonderin dont I? Well go see it!

And also check out swagbucks.. click on my swidget and lets earn together. We can get all kindsa cool stuff for free! It's real, no big deal, fun, and not a scam! Do it.. LOL

TOY STORY 3 Spoiler!

2010-06-27T11:19:00.000-07:00

For all the anime fans and Hayao Miyazaki fans out there. I noticed something pretty cool when watching Toy Story 3 in 3D yesterday with my 4yr old son Logan. First off I got free movie tickets when I bought the Toy Story 1 and 2 Bluray DVD combo pack from the Disney Movie Club (my main reason for joining was to get all the Miyazaki films that were available through Buena Vista/Disney), but anyway, yeah I got the tickets and the took Logan to see the movie so we could have a nice little father son day out. Now back to my point. One of the new characters I noticed in the film was in fact a toy of the Hayao Miyazaki film company Studio Ghibli's mascot character and also star of the first major animation productions.. Can you guess who it is? Here's a hint that will give it away.. Just look at the logo.. hahah.

SUMMER WARS! ! ! ! A MUST SEE! ! ! ! ! !

2010-06-11T17:35:00.000-07:00

Summer Wars by animation studio Madhouse and directed by Mamoru Hosoda has got to be ONE OF THE BEST ANIME FILMS I'VE SEEN IN THE LAST YEAR (and maybe even longer!)!!!

I'm not going to explain how phenomenal it really is, but you just have got to see it to believe it! It has elements of everything that I find exciting in a movie anime or otherwise!.. Now just F^^Kin See It!!! I will be buying this Blu-Ray Disc for sure when it comes out here in the U.S. and you better also!

Otaku Dad and Rory Mae!

2010-06-04T11:50:00.000-07:00

relaxing at the hospital waiting for time to go home, and oh yes, we are really friggin ready.. Come on Biliblanket!!! GET HERE ALREADY!!! GEEEEEZ!!!

More piccies!

2010-06-03T10:29:00.000-07:00

Finally got around to uploading some pics from my Nikon Coolpix to my facebook page.. check'em out if you're my friend.. woot woot

Hospital Baby Pics Link

2010-06-03T09:46:00.001-07:00

http://tiny.cc/gibb7

Baby Oriana

2010-06-02T12:00:00.000-07:00

She's Here!!!

2010-06-02T06:11:00.000-07:00

Oriana Mae Smith was born June 1st 2010 at 2241 (10:41PM for you non-military types) at 7lbs 11.8oz and 20 1/2 inches. She's definately a cutey tho, and has all her parts, and is healthy. She took to feeding right away too so that was good. After almost 3 nights in the hospital from being induced, and having very little progress, the docs finally threw in the towel and decided it best to do a c-section (even though I think we had decided on that event a few times during our long long stay here...uhg). But once they got everything goin, it went well, baby was born, I stayed with baby the whole time during all the nursery stuff (weight, measurement, first bath and such) and then finally went and met up with momma in recovery and then went to our final family birthing center destination the post partum room where momma got to feed baby for the first time.. and she was hungry all right.. haha.. Anyway thanks for following this whole amazing event.. there'll be a bit more before I move back into my otaku stuff, but thanks to everyone for all the warm wishes and for following on facebook and twitter and on here as I welcomed my latest otaku family addition.. Now I'm going to drive the hour home to take a nap, get the new baby girls big bro's, grandma, and cousin, and bring them back up here to meet their new lil sissy! :o)

Oh and pics to come soon also.. so look for those.. my connection is kinda slow and I'm waay too tired to do any uploading.. sorry.. ja ne!

HERE WE GO!!!!

2010-06-01T19:47:00.000-07:00

No changes for so long.... no point in goin further.. we'll be goin in for a repeat c-section in just a bit (repeat cuz we had one with our 2 yr old Hunter due to a prolapsed cord).. Wish us luck everyone, and thanks for bearing with us and keeping ya'lls fingers crossed! Hopefully pics to follow soon!