Panda Bear Bear's Raves and Rants

The One that would never Be.. becomes the One that Would Be!

2010-11-23T03:59:00.002+08:00

3 years and 6 days ago from today, I posted this in regards to the my college crush which would never be. I said to leave it to fate and destiny to arrange for us. Fate have very strange way of surprising you. And of course, God have strange way of answering your prayers :-)

I'm not creating this up. It is the truth. Somewhere mid of this year, I got in contact with VY by fate. I won't reveal the details. But lets say that one thing led to another and we clicked like Honey to the Bee. After so many years, I have finally found my Honey!

We shared many things from laughters to sadness, from thoughts to dreams, from aspiration to inspiration. We shared a LOVE so fragile, yet so meaningful.

I would never thought this day would come and it came.

I could not ask for more besides the opportunity and happiness to spend my Panda Bear Bear life with her. May this day comes with all the blessings.

By chance?

2009-05-06T02:20:00.006+08:00

Check this out

Not only is this one of my favourite songs (Viva La Vida by Coldplay) , it so happened I have the fancy for Asian chicks with talents and a sweet voice :-p

Anyway, I came across her YouTube video while browsing through looking for Coldplay's version. Is this fate? I don't know. I'm just off from very very long relationship and my favourite song at this moment is My Chemical Romance's I Don't Love You

This song is such a part of me now that I really wonder how long it would take me to get over whatever that I'm feeling now....

Nevertheless, with someone as sweet as Jennifer D. Choy, LoL... I guess it is fate tonight that I could be cheered up :-)

I always love a woman that could play the guitar and it is a definite bonus that she could sing with such a sweet voice. Coupled that with her aspiration to be in the automative industry, I really really could not have come across a better someone as a candidate that I COULD DREAM ON! Ha ha ha!

Palm Pre.... Could it be the iPhone Killer?

2009-01-24T11:58:00.004+08:00

Wow! I'm so excited hearing the impending launch of a new product from PALM. Finally.. they managed to get something right. From a company that excel in innovation for mobile devices long long time ago (remember Palm Pilot and also the release of future sexier version by Sony) to a company that nobody cares about (or even heard of for the newer generations), they have finally gotten it RIGHT! Behold... PALM PRE

From my first impression from this YouTube video demoing the much publicized Palm webOS, I believe this product launch, if available for public purchase @ the right time, will definitely sway the market in favour of something not so rigid in terms of functionality (ie. iPhone infamous lacks of MMS, SMS Forwarding and Copy & Paste functions). Below are the Palm Pre & Palm webOS recently @ CES 2009.

Features wise, a recap :-)

Full 3G phone with built-in GPS
Display 3.1-inch touch screen with a vibrant 24-bit color 320x480 resolution
Keyboard Physical QWERTY keyboard
Microsoft Outlook® email with Microsoft® Direct Push TechnologyPOP3/IMAP (Yahoo, Gmail, AOL, etc).
Messaging Integrated IM, SMS, and MMS
Digital camera 3 megapixel camera with LED flash and extended depth of field
Ambient light, accelerometer, and proximity sensors
Audio Formats: MP3, AAC, AAC+, AMR, QCELP, WAV
Video Formats: MPEG-4, H.263, H.264
Image Formats: GIF, Animated GIF, JPEG, PNG, BMP

Palm have certainly comes a long way since the days of Palm OS. Let's hope that this for once, will really be a TRUE contender in the Smartphone OS arena with the likes such as Google's Android and the leader of the pack, Apple's iPhone OS.

Flying Girl

2009-01-18T10:07:00.005+08:00

Wow! I can't believe this. I watched this 10 times and I still can't believe there's no wires!

Do you think there's some Real Life Hacks in use? :-)

Learning Simple Japanese Language 101

2008-12-18T14:42:00.004+08:00

It's a been a long hiatus for me from this blog. It hits me that the end of the year is coming pretty soon. So, what better way to start a New Year then to learn a new language altogether! And IMO, I truly believe learning to speak simple phrases of a new language will allow you better understanding in the shortest time! Enjoy ;-)

Japanese 101

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Marie Digby - Umbrella (Accoustic Version)

2008-07-13T01:50:00.007+08:00

Today is one of those YouTube days and if you wondering after such a long hiatus, who's my Girl of the Month! Ta da!

Let me introduce this Beautiful and Talented Young lady. Marié Christina Digby (pronounced Ma-ree-AY Dig-Bee) (born April 16, 1983) is an American singer-songwriter, guitarist and pianist. She is best known for her acoustic cover version of Rihanna's No. 1 hit "Umbrella", which attracted attention on YouTube in 2007 (for more info on her, you can check her out at Wiki).

She's great! Let me tell you that I have no idea who she is until her version of Rihanna's Umbrella (trust me... her's is way way much better than original version) start bombarding the airwaves of my local hitz station ;-)

I can tell you one thing. I hate Rihanna's Umbrella! I have no idea who will come out with song like that. Totally doesn't even make any sense to me. But.. the moment I heard Marie's version, I'm like wondering to myself "How come Rihanna's voice started to sound so sweet and the accoustic version is so way way much better than the radio edit version!". But that's until I found out that this accoustic version is sang by her. A couple of Googling and YouTube and WOW! She's fantastic. She got some Asian heritage in her blood cos her look is simply gorgeous! Her popularity seems to spread towards Asia as well as she recently made a tour to Asia.

Thus, because of all these, she's Panda Bear Bear's Girl of the Month!

p/s: And I just found out I'm the only one who doesn't know who she is while hundreds if not thousands of people globally already know her! My hibernation thingy is really working! Gosh.. I'm so outdated! Muahahaha!

Jesse McCartney - Leavin'

2008-07-13T01:28:00.003+08:00

After hibernating for a season or two :-p

I wanted to share this with all da guys out there who happened to be in the same shoes as this guy ;-)

Did I ever tell you... there used to be a time when I went through such an ordeal :-p

Enjoy!

Past vs Present (Girl of Dreams)

2007-12-21T01:07:00.000+08:00

How ironic.. I just spoke about how Jolin is my Girl of Dreams and how I only have one favourite pop singer when I'm young and she's Kylie Minogue. Guess what? Jolin is having a duet with Kylie Minogue titled "In My Arms" :-

I'm totally speechless. What a combination. I guess EMI really found the correct female artist to match Kylie's prominent voice although I think Kylie's presence is more prominent. Nevertheless, it is very brave of Jolin to attempt such feat and Kudos to her.

Jolin.. If one day you decided all the stupid, flirtatious, sweet-talking, no good #$#%$#^&&#!@! otherhalf from the entertainment industry is enough. Give me a Holla ok ;-)

Totally contactable via email ;-) Just buzz me :-p

Girl of Dreams a.k.a. Jolin Tsai

2007-12-21T00:50:00.000+08:00

Finally, I'm back after a long break or hiatus.. Working in global company is really not that easy as smaller or medium-sized company. I should know.. cos I've been through that. Life's really different going from local to global ;-)

Well.. back to topic. I just wanted to talk about Panda Bear Bear's Girl of Dream (those that you can only think about or thought of having in dreams) :-p

Well her name is Jolin Tsai and she's a well-known Taiwanese Pop Singer. Very very popular in Taiwan and is considered one of the top earning female artist in Taiwan. How does a MBC (Malaysian Born Chinese :-p) came to know about her since I'm a Banana (can't write in Chinese but can converse in Cantonese or lil' bit of Mandarin) and hardly look at Chinese artists or listen to their songs. Well.. it all came long long time ago when someone mentioned to me that there's this girl by the name of Jolin from Taiwan that look exactly like Ayumi Hamasake (a very popular J-Pop singer whom have a very apparent ultra copper red dyed hair) and she's really HOT! Well.. I check her out in her "Kan Wo 72 Er Bian" MV (which I included below and the title stands for "See My 72 Changes") and I'm totally knocked out although I would wish I could see more than 3-4 changes ;-)

This girl can really dance and her smiles totally melts me. But it is more of her very feminine moves and smiles that give the killer blow! I could now understand how the rest of her Taiwanese male fan base are so crazy over her. Even her dressing style and hairdo are copied by many girls. I could remember during that time, how some girls will dyed their hair totally copper red to emulate her. But an original is always an original.

Talk about total change.. well you should see her when she's younger and totally chubby. I think she won some singing competition and from there built her music career and became what she is today. Totally AWESOME. I'll say.. COOL DUDE! COOL! Now.. where's my wine ;-)

Well.. Why I'm totally BONKERS over her (although I don't show it to my friends or acquaintances cos "malu" <-- embarrassed tat an adult guy can still have pop idol). Well.. after Kylie Minogue when I was very very young.. she's the only other female star that I really like (please take into account I don't use the word "Love" cos you can't love someone that you don't know). Why? Cos.. I'm a perfectionist by nature (although I tried to kick the habit).. probably due to my Star Sign.. ;-) And she to me.. is someone I can appreciate estatically (probably due to her great looks and) and someone I could really grow very fond of because besides her more "wild" look, she have this very "down-to-earth" type of look and could be very plain and simple and sweet. What else could an adult guy ask for? I've been through many relationship from young to adulthood and I guess for someone in my dreams.. she's PERFECT. Enjoy the sweet side of her below:

Besides that, recently (or maybe quite a while ago) that she just ditched her full copper red hair do for a jet black (because she's Lux's Brand ambassador) and she's totally so Elegant. See what I meant. Totally versatile, not only dance and moves very well and feminine, but could also be very elegant. I could tell you that by my scrutinizing, I think she undergo the knife to enhance her sharp features especially her nose but the entertainment industry is a bitch and people tends to comments on how other looks very often and most stars are under pressure to look good constantly (part of the reason why it is still better to be a rich civilian than a rich star). So.. I really don't care. Watch the Korean Drama "200 Pounds Beauty".. you'll get what I meant after watching the show. She's the most Perfect Cosmetic Enhanced Taiwanese Female Artist that I've seen and really really LIKE. I couldn't care less whether her boobs are fake. Most important thing.. please just smile at me everyday and you'll really turn my day around ;-)

To Jolin... YOU R SIMPLY THE BEST! ;-)

p/s: I think she's the very reason why I'll learn to speak Mandarin (although I understand it very well but can't speak). I guess if given a choice for any girl to squeeze my face when I wake up from my sleep, it'll be her. I used to be chubby when younger but of course things change and people change. But nevertheless, she's perfect to be the one I would love to have cooking breakfast and dinner for me. You should have seen her cook.. so funny :-p That's the kind of wife and best friend you'll want to have ;-)

The One that would never be

2007-11-18T01:00:00.000+08:00

I met someone today that I never thought I will meet for so long. She's my ex-college mate and well enough long long time ago, although I used to like her alot because she's unique and hitam manis, she's intelligent as well. I always like intelligent girls and not only she still looks good and sweet, she's still there after so many years. I never in my life will thought I will saw her. But then, fate have strange arrangements.

She's defintely with someone new that I don't know cos long long way back, she's with this long time boy friend of her's. Of course, being the gentleman, I am, I will never interfere because I never believe in breaking people's relationship. Anyway, today's is something new. Because she's with a new guy. Fuck.. if i know this will happen.. long long time ago I will do something. But then, if I can see the future, everyone or everything will be different.

She's still look the same considering our age. As sweet, as pretty as hitam manis as ever. Gosh.. although I have spoken to her long long time ago, but I presume she's married like everyone of my friend. That's the very reason I never do anything tonight. What's the point? But then.. if fate will allowed, I believed I will meet her again.. after all.. this world is a small world..

Till then.. let's see how fate have arrange things for us! For her.. VY.. I dedicate this song to you.. if you will ever know...

Lexy - Let Me Dance

2007-11-17T01:49:00.000+08:00

Wow! I'm so into this dancing fever now. B4 I go, let me tell you that long long time ago in Neverland.. that's the way Panda Bear Bear snuggle up to da girls ;-)

Sexy Korean Dancer performing Rihanna's Let Me

2007-11-17T01:14:00.000+08:00

In my quest to lose weight and gain stamina, I come across this! Oh my... she's hot and sexy! I think I want to go party now!

Should I eat after working out? by Jonny Bowden, M.A.

2007-11-17T01:02:00.000+08:00

Ok, Panda Bear Bear is on a mission to lose weight and gain stamina. Unfortunately, I have to work too. So, like all working people, I have only limited time per day to do my workout. I have already figured out where to slot in my exercise routine. Unfortunately, it also means that they are very close to my eating time. So how? I've been hearing all these things from people and personal trainers alike that we shouldn't eat 2 hours after our exercise or we'll gain weight and negate all the exercise routine. Well.. just to be sure, I found this very comforting statements :-)

Q
Is it true that I should avoid eating for two hours after a workout? The instructors at my gym told me that I should eat only protein after exercising, and that if I eat carbohydrates or fat I'll gain weight.

A
The information about waiting two hours to eat after your workout is rubbish. Every responsible source in body-building and athletics recommends that you eat after training, and preferably within 45 minutes (or even an hour) after a workout. This period, known as the golden hour, is when the muscles absorb the most nutrients and when glycogen, an energy reserve in your muscles, is replaced most efficiently. The actual composition of the post-workout meal is a matter of some debate. For optimal glycogen replacement, most people recommend carbohydrates, but a certain amount of protein (at least 10 percent of the meal) is needed for muscle repair and growth.

I think the above recommendation is a good general guideline for athletes, but for weight management you probably have to go higher in protein and lower in carbohydrates. You don't need to eat a big meal, but you should eat something after exercising. Lots of people feel good after having a small, high-protein shake, just beware of the extremely high sugar and carbohydrate content of juice-based smoothies. Experiment with the amount of food or drink and proportions of carbohydrates, protein and fat to find out what works best for you.

Perhaps what the trainers at your gym are trying to emphasise is the need to moderate carbohydrate intake in a weight-loss program. They want to see you become someone whose metabolism burns fat faster and more efficiently. That is best accomplished by eating a nutritionally dense, low-calorie diet that offers a balance of protein, high-quality fat and the right kind of carbohydrates. This will keep your hormones balanced and your fat-burning machinery working optimally. I agree that you shouldn't load up on carbohydrate and fat after a workout, but you shouldn’t refrain from eating after you exercise.

Standard of Living Part Duex

2007-11-09T00:08:00.001+08:00

Ok, today is supposed to be a public holiday nationwide due to Deepavali (The festival of light) in Malaysia; but as usual, Panda Bear Bear is working and for a lonely lunch due to the fact that everyone is away, I have what you might call an economical meal. Why I say that, well, I need a dose of cafe and thus I head to my local Kopitiam (Coffee shop) for a meal. Here's it is. One is Xi Mut Lai Cha (Stocking milk tea) and another is Nasi Lemak (Local favourite which consist of rice and spicy chicken and anchovies) and they both only cost me a total of not more than $9 bucks. A big difference compared to my previous Starbucks which cost me $15 bucks alone. But then, they are both from different rank of society. Here I have a drink that only cost me $2.50 and I have a nice environment. But then, what separates them? I guess that's where the different beliefs and perception comes in. :-)

Rick Astley - Video Megamix

2007-11-07T21:54:00.000+08:00

Today, Panda Bear Bear got the 80s fever and is introducing one of the greatest (if not the best) from PWL (which houses the trio producers; Stock Aitken Waterman). He none other than Rick Astley. The Video Megamix is contributed by jurandirecologia (gotta give him credit for his FANTASTIC work) and consist of all Astley's best hits from the 80s to the early 90s. Yup, you heard me right... he is from that far back :-)

Enjoy! I know I do!

Standard of living

2007-11-01T00:13:00.001+08:00

Now a days, i believe if you have an average lifestyle like panda bear bear, you'll feel the pinch. Why I say that? Let me illustrate how much i manage to spend in just 1 night after having my dinner at home.

1. Car park $1
2. 2 Magazines $20
3. 200g Famous Amous cookies $15
4. Grande size Blackberry Green Tea Frappucino from Starbucks $15

At the end, it cost me a total of $51 because I went out for a while. Sigh. Please help Panda Bear Bear by clicking on my sponsors and visiting their websites for any products that might interest you ;-)

By the way, I'm posting this from starbucks via my mobile using Blogger's Mobile posting. This is my first time and if my posting does appear on my blog, it means Blogger is not lying when they said the blogging could be mobile! ;-)

lecca - Starting Line

2007-10-29T01:16:00.000+08:00

Panda Bear Bear loves this track. It's a super catchy tune by Dancehall Japanese singer, lecca (her artist name apparently starts with a small letter 'L'). The song title is Starting Line from her album Otaku Girls no Utage. Click on the play button below to move to the catchy tune with Panda Bear Bear!

Se7en - Hikari

2007-10-28T23:36:00.000+08:00

Gosh... my Jpop fever is back! After having that raving sort of feeling over the weekend.. I'm currently going through the JPop craze once again. Today, I'm sharing a particular video clip which is quite interesting. It's by Se7en, a very popular Korean male artist which not only acts, but sings and dance very well as well (Yes, although he is Korean, apparently, he can sing Japanese songs as well and this video is taken from his 1st Japanese album). The title is Hikari. Don't ask me what it means as I don't know. That's why I find Japanese songs so interesting. I have no idea what they are singing but in the same time I'm moving my bear bear head to the rhythm and loving it. Panda Bear Bear is going Jpop!

Panda Bear Bear so going to HIN Rave Party! :-)

2007-10-26T23:57:00.000+08:00

It's a Friday night and I just got off from work. Yawn yawn.. feel like sleeping. But when I came across this....

I decided otherwise! Let's Party till there's no tomorrow! Panda Bear Bear's going to Rave!

Ladies!
Here we go…
Baby where’d you get your body from?
Tell me where’d you get your body from.
Baby where’d you get your body from?
Tell me where’d you get your body from.
I got it from my mama.
I got it from my mama.
I got it from my mama.

:-)

A very sad state

2007-10-24T14:45:00.000+08:00

Usually I will keep on talking and talking but today, I felt it is better to let the bloggers of this website tell you of the state that have befallen on dear old dear old country. So sad.

First and foremost, as our country's General Elections is nearing by, the unspeakable happens. I could not believe what I just read. It is truly sad.

First will be the blog titled Even God can’t sink Umno by our country's own royalty Raja Petra Kamarudin
Second will be the current state of our judical system on the blog titled CJ, say bye-bye! by Raja Petra Kamarudin as well
Last but not least, by our country's own top blogger Jeff Ooi on his blog titled Lingam Tape: The plot thickens while Lingam & CJ keep mum

For these 50 years since gaining independence on 1957, our country have indeed enjoy certain success in the socio-economics arena as well as graduating from a Third World country status to a Developing Country status. This period saw a shift from an agriculture-based economy to one based on manufacturing and industry in areas such as computers and consumer electronics.

The physical landscape of Malaysia has changed with the emergence of numerous mega-projects. The most notable of these projects are the Petronas Twin Towers (at the time the tallest building in the world), KL International Airport (KLIA), North-South Expressway, the Sepang F1 Circuit, the Multimedia Super Corridor (MSC), the Bakun hydroelectric dam and Putrajaya, a new federal administrative capital.

Besides that, having a successful national oil company, Petronas which enable the country to carefully managed our country's natural oil and gas reserves are something not every country have. Indeed, most Malaysian have what I called a significant advantage in global platform. Why do I say this, because of our multi-racial heritage leftover by the past British colonisation, we are able to grow up learning from one another and compromising with one another (Petronas great ads during Hari Raya or Chinese New Year have always been great displays of such cultures that we have and enjoy). Such opportunities are scarce yet it hurts Panda Bear Bear to see the kinda of racial tension that's happening because certain non-responsible individuals are taking for granted the kind of luxury we are living in and challenging the very fragile foundation that are holding all of us together as a multi-racial country.

Besides that, the corruption on our judiciary system shows how easily certain scoundrels can manipulate the law into their own hands. I read all these news and articles with great sadness and wish that one day, someone from within will come out and lead all of us once again in a united nation with grace, compassion, understanding, wisdom and last but not least vision.

I'm going to sleep now to forget all I have read and written. May God Bless this country.

Nokia 810 Internet Tablet

2007-10-24T11:16:00.000+08:00

Panda Bear Bear is every excited today cos Nokia have recently just introduced the Nokia N810 Internet Tablet. To me, this signified a new phase in portable Internet communication OR put it simply, I don't need to bring my laptop whenever I go to Starbucks :-)

Before I continue, let me just emphasize the following facts:

It is the only NSeries mobile device not to use the Symbian OS. It uses the Linux operating system and an open source platform called Maemo
Although it bears the Nokia Nseries designation, it is NOT a PHONE but an Internet appliance
Since it is not a phone, it won't have cellular radio connectivity features such as 3G/HSDPA/EDGE/GPRS/WiMAX (the WiMAX version will be coming next year) but would instead rely on Wi-Fi 802.11b/g for data packet connectivity
But it do support the Bluetooth v.2.0 DUN profile (Dial-Up Networking) of which you can pair up with your 3G/HSDPA/EDGE/GPRS/WiMAX phone to suft the Internet if you can't find any hotspot [talk about working around limitation ;-) .... Ha ha ha!]
What? No calling features? No worries, it support SIP communication for VOIP calls and supports both Skype (comes installed by default) and Gizmo Project (my favourite and it support Video Calling)
Remember how Symbian OS mobile phones always seems to have this Out of Memory error whenever surfing the web, well, the Nokia N810 comes with a 128MB DDR RAM and 256MB Flash ROM + support up to 8GB SDHC cards
Built-in GPS
It weighs 226g
This device cost approx. USD$ 479 (which is approx. MYR$ 1615)

I guess the trump card for this device will be Web 2.0. Nokia is also making a big deal out of how the Nokia N810 is very Web 2.0-friendly. The included browser is based on Mozilla technology with Adobe Flash 9 plug-in, and can be used to access all your favorite Web 2.0 sites like Google Docs, Flickr, Facebook, and so forth. This also coincides very nicely with Nokia's own Web portal, Ovi, which provides a "gateway" to these services plus Nokia's own Music Store.

A built-in media player supports 3GP, AVI, WMV, MP4, H263, H.264, MPEG-1, MPEG-4 and RV (RealVideo) video formats, as well as MP3, WMA, AAC, AMR, AWB, M4A, MP2, RA (RealAudio) and WAV audio formats. The media player provides direct access to shared media over Universal Plug and Play (UPnP). Nokia claims a music playback time of 10 hours; continuous usage (display on, wireless LAN active) of up to 4 hours; always online time of up to 5 days; and standby time of up to 14 days.

Sporting a 65K colors 4.1" display with a resolution of 800 by 480 pixels, the Nokia N810 Internet Tablet is expected to start shipping mid November

Overall, I felt that the Nokia N810 Internet Tablet would indeed be a very good tool for bloggers. I can't wait to get my bear bear paws on one!

Emmalina @ YouTube

2007-10-23T00:16:00.000+08:00

Ok. Today I'm bringing to all my readers something I come across by mistake over at YouTube. Trust me, I was simply just curious by the title "About Emo" Wouldn't you?

And honestly, curiosity gets the better of me and YES YES, I click on the link and here I am sharing this particular clip with you all (it's been viewed 306,392 times and counting)

To my male readers? During the first half of the video clip, are you really paying attention? ;-) Come on... what might be the distracting factor? Well, Emma seems to know and here's her message to you titled "One day you might even get to see a pair NUDE!"

By the time I finished it, I can't help but laughed at how shallow most guys are (especially when you see most of the responses she gets from YouTube are actually asking her to show her assets). Ha ha ha! I know I wasn't concentrating first half as well ;-) Nevertheless, I gotta give it to her for her sense of humor and below are some info on our lady friend.

Emmalina is our featured female Vlogger (short for Video Blogger.. if there's such word) from Oz, the Land Down Under and she's only 19. You can find more of the above videos on her featured YouTube site. She even have her own private journal here. I gathered she's from Sydney and from the above videos, I believes she pretty pissed off because majority of her 26,678 subscribers are actually more interested on her assets than anything else. Oh... poor thing.

Well, she'll be next month's Panda Bear Bear's Girl of the Month! and that's provided I still have the interest by next month >-<

A reminder to married couples

2007-10-21T23:59:00.000+08:00

I would like to share this piece of email that travels the globe via the Net several times and over. I remember receiving this email few year backs and somehow, it found its way back to my inbox. I can't help but get touched by the message. It is both heart felt moving as well as thought provoking. Read on.

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said; I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, Why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to a lovely girl called Dew. I didn’t love her anymore... I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month if we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realised she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me; she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute.

I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realise that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote: I'll carry you out every morning until deaths do us apart.

The small details of our lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy.

Regards,
Anonymous

I believed after reading this, the message the author of this email is trying to convey might differs from people to people. But one thing for sure, if Panda Bear Bear could understand and applies it in my life, I'm sure the rest of my readers would not have any problems comprehending and applying this message in their life too. I wish you all a Happy, Healthy and Long Lasting Lives together with your mate. ;-)

2007 F1 Drivers World Championship title

2007-10-21T16:29:00.000+08:00

Tonight (eerr.. more like tomorrow morning) at approx. 12:00 am, will be the last F1 race for the year of 2007. I am normally not a avid F1 spectator but seeing that Malaysia play host to one of F1 races in Sepang International Circuit, it is hard not to be swallowed into this whole F1 frenzy especially since there's so many controversies to spice things up. My sentiments is echoed by Grand Prix veteran David Coulthard who most probably is one of the oldest driver in F1 or perhaps even win the title of one of the longest driver who are still in F1 ;-)

Side raves and rants: If my memory serve me correctly, David Coulthard spent most of his tenure in F1 with the West Mclaren Mercedes team and was team mate to World Champion Mika Hakkinen (why all the Finland driver got name ending with "nen" ie. Kimi Raikkonen (Ferrari team), Heikki Kovalainen (Renault team). I guess I will never know. Maybe some visitor from Finland could drop their 2 cents on my comments blog. :-p

Ok back to my topic. I love side tracking. Muahahaha.

The Brazilian GP is tonight and would be held at Sao Paola, Brazil. What make this particular race so interesting is the fact that tonight we might be seeing any one of these 3 drivers walk away with the 2007 F1 Drivers World Championship title.

Lewis Hamilton (most likely BUT I certainly HOPE NOT)
Fernando Alonso (need a miracle that Lewis Hamilton suffer the same ill super bad luck at Chinese GP to win)
Kimi Raikkonen (need both No. 1 and No. 2 to be super last or super unlucky or be at 7th place and 3rd place respectively which is highly unlikely seeing how good No. 1 actually is even though he is a rookie)

The three challengers for the world champion title - (from left) Kimi Raikkonen, Lewis Hamilton and Fernando Alonso

Usually 2 or 3 races before the end of the F1 season, the Driver World Championship title would be known but thanks to Lewis Hamilton's unforeseen blunder at the 2007 Chinese GP, audiences all over the world have something to look forward too tonight ;-)

Why is that so? Because of the current World Rankings for these 3 drivers.

Lewis Hamilton (107 points)
Fernando Alonso (103 points)
Kimi Raikkonen (100 points)

Do you see how close they are to each other. If Lewis Hamilton suffers the same bad luck like the 2007 Chinese GP, and Alonso and Kimi maintained their current form, either one could be the next World Champion with Alonso being the one that have more to lose since he have to fight hard to maintained his World Champion title for the 3rd consecutive year. But seeing his latest results from qualifying which places him on 4th place behind Kimi (3rd place), his rival team mate, Hamilton (2nd place) and Massa (1st place), the chances is highly unlikely because knowing all F1 drivers who are in the Top 3, they will fight very hard to maintained their position or even overtake the pole leader which will be Massa now. And did I mentioned that Massa was the last year winner of the Brazilian GP which coincidentally is his home ground.

So tonight, I really gotta stay up until wee hour of the morning to watch the last race for the F1 season and hope very strongly that, Alonso will beats all odds and have miraculous abundance of luck to win the World Championship title (it is always good to see such fight for the top). If that is not logically possible, at least Panda Bear Bear still hopes that Kimi will be the next one in line. Kimi seems to be a favourite with lots of people in winning this Championship by seeing all those votes around the Net. Although one have to admit that if Massa sees no chance that Kimi will ever overtake Hamilton, he will do his best to win the Brazilian GP, otherwise, as promise to his team Ferarri, he will help Kimi to secure the World Championship title if the Fin are in the opportunity zone.

Nevertheless, let's hope for the possibly Panda Bear Bear's best that Alonso will once again be the F1 Drivers World Champion :-p

Latest update as of 1:38 AM

Kimi did the impossible and snatch the F1 Drivers World Championship title by 1 point from both Alonso and Hamilton. Both Alonso and Hamilton finished with 109 points whereas the new World Champion finished with 110 points :-)

This is indeed a joy for all Ferrari fans out there!

ps: By the way, Hamilton did suffer super bad luck once again or else Kimi would not have won. What a day for Ferrari!

Waitless.org

2007-10-18T14:58:00.001+08:00

Waitless.org... a very interesting website that I would like to recommend to my fellow readers. Why? Cos it teaches us via their selections of short video clips on how to perform certain things which we do everyday in a more efficient manner. Trust me, I'm impressed by the Tangle-Free Cord Wrap video and totally blown away by the Quick-peel an egg and Turbo Parking videos!

If I do Turbo Parking in front of Bangsar Shopping Village II, I guarantee Panda Bear Bear will be the talk of the town! :-p muahahahah!

Enjoy :-)