A corner for two..

Loves..

2012-01-07T12:26:00.000+08:00

I don't know if I think too much or is it that my intuition is accurate. To some extent, I wish that what I think is not the true. But somehow, I still believe that it might be true. I tried to convince myself that everything is not that. Maybe is another way. But do you know that convincing myself is a torture. The more that I tell myself the positive things, the more I felt like crying.

Yesterday, when I saw the scene, I totally feel like dying and crying. But I know I cannot. Maybe is because I fall for you for so long or something. I see you as the one but you might be seeing someone else. No matter what, I will choose to give you all the blessing. Afterall, we are just strangers. You are free from my sight from now onwards. I will no longer choose to believe in first sight.

First time, I love someone so deeply but end up with no result. I really do love to make friend with you but there isn't anymore chance of it. I wish you all the best and may everything turns out right for you. All the blessing may be upon you.

Good luck and good bye, my secret love....

Pamela <3

Clearing up..

2012-01-02T02:16:00.000+08:00

It's the second day of 2012. I was trying to look through this blog which I owned since 2005. I didn't really remember that that "someone" actually posted a lot of comments to encourage me when I needed them most.

Anyway, I don't know if you will see this or not but still, I wanted to say thank you. I appreciated all that and thanks for being a friend in the past that was so important to me. However, I decided to delete all those postings from you not due to any reasons but simply, I want to clean my blog entries and all only.

A friend that become a history and part of my life. Time to move on and say goodbye to such friend.

P/S: C.H.E.R.I.S.H

Pamela<3

Cleaning..

2011-12-04T21:44:00.000+08:00

Okay, I finally managed to get in here to blog. After so many months of not blogging here, I think it's time for me to clear some dust. LOL!

For some reasons, I had decided to remove my tag board and also the music player. As I wanna to revamp my blog into something oldies style. Like the initial blogspot, simple and not too messy. I have been blogging more often over at my tumblr as I believe there is more privacy for me. I am planning to shift my whole blogger postings over to tumblr if possible and closed down my blogger.

Currently, busy handling my upcoming exam. Praying hard that my revision will be well paid off. For now, I shall just leave this blog at it is.

<3 Pamela

You came and left

2011-02-01T00:37:00.000+08:00

I am really tired. I am really sick of forcing myself to smile and laugh hard daily. You came into, but you left shortly..

Spring Cleaning..

2011-01-16T23:12:00.000+08:00

It's been long since I update. It is time to do some spring cleaning. LOL. Really kind of busy these few weeks. Busy with assignments and final year project.

Assignments Completed as follow:
1. EA Group Report
2. EA Individual Journal
3. BSIT FILA chart

While, Left over Assignments as follow:
1. FYP system
2. Final Presentation
3. Documentation
4. MYM Preparation
5. BSIT Group Report
6. BISSA Group Project and Video
7. BISSA Group Presentation
8. EA End- Semester Test

As, now everyone is going through a count down to the graduation, we are kind of busy.. so much busier than previous 2 years. It can be seriously tired. But, just 1 more month to go, we will say GOODBYE to our POLY life. Let's all work hard and race towards this finishing line.

While, one bad thing about POLY is that we cannot really enjoy ourselves during Chinese New Year as our FINAL EXAM always fall somewhere near CNY. Same goes to this year, my last TEST in POLY falls on 10th Feb. Meaning I must start preparing soon.

After 24 hours without sleep, FYP system is finally coming to a completion. Hopefully, by this week we can complete it and proceed to the next stage of progress.

Finally stored up my energy for the next lap..

Even if I know it is WRONG.

2010-12-27T01:26:00.000+08:00

Given another chance, I think I will still make this decision. Even if I know it is wrong, I will still take this path and walk it. I really enjoy my life despite of some unhappiness in between. But, still, you are great person! An absolute extreme...

Really great to have you in my life. Thanks for every moments! Hope you love the CHOCOLATE!! And, thanks for the invitation to your new home. Love it to the max! =)

A great CHRISTMAS, BOXING DAY and a great YEAR coming ahead! =))

Gonna be busy all the way! Projects, studies, Birthday Party, CNY party.. PLANNING in progress!!

Things to buy!!

2010-12-24T00:20:00.000+08:00

Okay, I am going to start saving $$ so that I can buy all the things I want.

I bought this model like 4 years ago.. And now I am considering to get another Baby-G watch.. Seriously, I uploaded the photos of the watches on FB like a month ago. I am still thinking of getting which.

I am in love with the WHITE one, but come back and think, I already had a white watch, should I consider getting another colour? Actually this model have other colours, but I don't know if Singapore carry them a not. Hmmm.. Which one should I buy??

Other than watch, I am also thinking of getting this longchamp bag,

But super duper EXPENSIVE.. Hopefully, I can find someone who is going to PARIS and get them to help me buy. LOL..

Okay, I also thinking of getting a new camera, DSLR? But still need to save a lot more.

I still need to save $$$ for my overseas trip next year. Hopefully I can get all these next year!! LOL!!

你知道吗？

2010-12-20T00:14:00.000+08:00

你知道今天我突然好想你吗？去了一些曾经去过的地方，拥有我们共同的回忆。经过曾经走过的路，突然好想念你！不知你还好吗？好久没有和你一起聊天，真的好想念你。原以为你这次会回来但不知为何你却决定不回来了。希望能再和你见面。想要知道你过得如何。不想一直猜测下去了。

读了上回发给我的mail,我真的很难过。但还是要说声谢谢！

Finally! Ended..

2010-12-16T23:18:00.000+08:00

Okay.. Finally tests are over.. Major project presentation is down.. Leaving with a few more assignment and major project presentations and one test to go for next term. After a week of Chionging and sleepless night, finally get to enjoy sleep and resting. Now can like relax a bit and charge my energy.
2011 is just 2 weeks away.. Very soon we will bid goodbye to 2010. Seriously, 2010 is really zoom pass me just like that. I didn't realized that time passed so fast and I am graduating soon. To be frank, I now really feel a bit sad that I am graduating. Ahhhh.. Kinda sad to be separated from my poly friends. Shall we cherish these 2 months plus we left? Let's gather more!!
I am really very sad!! Thank goodness I survived through my tests without thinking anything.. Sigh.. Should there be a clear line??

Why? Now?

2010-12-13T21:15:00.000+08:00

What should I say? What should I do? Why must you tell me all these at this point in time? This is really affecting me. AHHHHH!! The more I asked myself not to think, I keep thinking about it. Your voice just keep sounding at my ear. AHHHH!! Going crazy already.

I think it is time to move on. Really it's time to move on. Simply need to focus on my stuff and get it over. Thanks for everything! =)

Made a new friend recently. It is really great to get in contact with Jessy. Finally, you contacted me. Really great to hear about your good new! Congratez! Going to be a BRIDE next year. Really feel happy for you.

Okay, shall share again. Got to go study liao..

A week of battle..

2010-12-11T01:30:00.000+08:00

Seriously, this week is really a hell for me. As you can see that I never update my blog for so long. Deadlines are really pressing me hard that I feel I might suffocate and die any minutes. This semester is really very stressful. Finally, two weeks holiday is drawing near. But no resting, gonna do projects. Omg! Really hell.

I think soon I might be crazy, having to convince myself that I can do it. Seriously, I hope by telling myself I can do it, I really can do it! Next Monday and Wednesday will be the mid sem test. Really got to work hard.

Pamela, you can do it! Jia you!

Are we?

2010-11-28T16:53:00.000+08:00

It's been a week since you went back. Really kind of miss you... being my driver. With you around, say NO to cab and say NO to lateness. But, since you went back, I seriously kind of LATE every now and then.

Sometimes, I am sick of tired of answering some questions asked by people. Are we...??? Are we...?? Seriously, I don't find there is a need for me to reply all these "ARE WE" questions. As, there is no need for anyone to know about it at all.

School is kind of getting busy. More and more deadlines are coming. In just 3 weeks time, mid-semester test will be here, Two subjects to clear. OM-GG-NESS!

Top Table

2010-11-25T21:20:00.003+08:00

Finally!! After 3 years! We went to Top Table for LUNCH. Seriously, the food is so-so only. But what do you expect more? They are student. Given the standard, overall is still acceptable. NICE!! Great place to lunch at and to gather with friends. NICE!

Sigh! My tummy just failed on me these days. OMG! Hopefully can SLIM down by all these? LOL..

Stop it please!!

2010-11-24T23:13:00.002+08:00

Can you people please stop all these nonsense! I hate it! Yes you might be joking. But I really cannot stand it at all. Please, stop all these teasing and all. I really dislike it!

Douglas Lee!! That's really irritating man! Next time I going to bring you parade man. Show them what's my standard!

REJOICE! CHEERS!!

2010-11-21T00:32:00.000+08:00

Let's REJOICE for a NEW BEGINNING! CHEERS! Seriously.. Let's get drunk and forget everything!! Shall we?!

I am SUPER DUPER...

2010-11-20T00:47:00.000+08:00

Seriously, on Thursday, the LADY of LUCK wasn't by my side. Sigh! Or maybe my luck used up. A series of unfortunate events happened on me. Sucks, totally!

Firstly, early in the morning, I left home around 8.15am. Until 850am I was still at the BUS STOP. Can you imagine? Not that the bus is late or anything. But because all are packed like SARDINE. I had no choice but to hitch a cab and rush to school. My lesson starts at 9am.

Secondly, after school, 11am. I went home to collect my laptop. I left my bag with my friends. Only took my handphone and ez-link card. When I reached home, then I realised I didn't bring my key with me and no one at home. I had to travel four bus stops to collect the key from my sister.

Thirdly, I dropped my PHONE on the ROUGH bus stop floor! Heart super PAIN. Lucky, was well protected.

Lastly, went to Timbre substation. Service lousy and POWER FAILURE!! My friend told me that he never meet this kind of things at there at all.

OMG!! Am I so lucky or am I so UNLUCKY!

However, today I think still alright.. Hope I won't be unlucky again!!!

Wrong...

2010-11-17T00:19:00.000+08:00

Sometime, we insist that we are right and is the other party's fault.. But is it really that way?? I think not always.. I thought I am right.. But now I realize I am wrong.

Did I not cherish a single thing?? Did I? I always think that my parents don't really love me.. But I was wrong. They proven me wrong. Ever since I stop working and went back to lead a normal student life. My parents really play a big part in my finance.. I really should not said that they don't love me at all. I think among the siblings.. They dote on me the most..

Seriously.. The feeling is gone.. I no longer feel for.. I think the situation now is good enough.. I am really glad to know that when I need someone to talk to.. He is always there listening and giving me advices.. Really great! Are you willing to this for me forever even after you have your own family??

I don't ask much.

2010-11-14T17:18:00.001+08:00

I love the way we are now. I love every single moment. I don't want to make any changes to it right now. Can we just make it this way until it's time for us to change?

Love someone, doesn't mean that you need to be with that someone. Just able to know that he is doing well and he is alway there for you when you need him is just more than enough, seriously. Why bother to clear things up when you are enjoying these moments a lot.

I don't ask much from you. Just keep everything this way, and we will be fine! =)

Relationship come and go. Lesson learnt, time to grow up. Never repeat the same mistake again when come a new. Just make it an experience in life, a fertilizer to help you grow and a hand to mould you. Seriously, don't be sad because a relationship had ended. But rejoice that a relationship has ended. Welcome a the arrival of the new. =)

Deadlines kill (Me)

2010-11-13T00:15:00.001+08:00

I think I am going to be murdered by deadlines any single minute. Monday, there is a assignment due. Going to die any moment. Cracking my brain, drenching my brain juice on what stupid concepts for the article. Bless me! Still got MP to do.. Nice! Tutorial.. OMG! Seriously, this semester isn't playing a fool time for anyone of us. Simply have to really plan our time nicely and focus the goal.

Final year, final semester. All the way through everything and just score well.

I got a lot of things that I wanna do!! Hope for time!! Gonna complete my assignment asap. So I can do my BISSA lecture all that on Sunday. Better buck up from now on.

Mr D, you can faster go back there.. Like that you won't disturb me and make me lost focus!

P/S: I am seriously in love with HIMs!

Sorry that I loved you.

2010-11-11T15:30:00.001+08:00

中譯：陶晶瑩

詞：倪安東Anthony Neely 、Skot Suyama

曲：Skot Suyama

For all of the times that I tried for your smile

For making you think that I was worth the while

So your love love love love love would be mine

For sending you flowers and holding your hand

That no one was there to take a stand

But then love love love made us blind

And I’m so sorry that I hurt you

Sorry that I fell through

Sorry I was falling in love with you

I’m sorry that it came true but sorry doesn’t turn back time

For all that I have done to you

I wish that I could make it right

So sorry that I loved you

Sorry that I needed you

Sorry that I held you tight

And I’m so sorry for…

Making you love me and saying goodbye

For being the one that taught you how to cry

It was love love love and it passed us by

For giving you every thing that you dreamed

For taking it back when I fled the scene

Sorry love, for wasting your time

And I’m so sorry that I hurt you

Sorry that I fell through

Sorry I was falling in love with you

I’m sorry that it came true but sorry doesn’t turn back time

For all that I have done to you

I wish that I could make it right

So sorry that I loved you

Sorry that I needed you

Sorry that I held you tight

An apology now after all of this time

Won’t make any difference tonight

But I’m hoping “im sorry” will open your mind

To love love love love in your life

對不起,我愛過妳

曾經我總是試著討妳歡心

好讓妳認為我就是真命天子

那麼我就能贏得妳的愛

送妳鮮花牽妳的手

沒有人阻止我們

但是愛情終究讓我們盲目

對不起我傷害了妳

對不起我搞砸了

對不起我愛上了妳

很抱歉它發生了但道歉也不能讓時光倒流

所有我對妳做的事

我希望可以補償

對不起我曾經那樣愛妳

對不起我曾經那麼地需要妳

對不起我曾緊緊擁著妳

而且我還要道歉的是

讓妳愛上我卻必須說再見

還有我居然教會了妳什麼是哭泣

愛情真的來過但它又悄悄溜走

很抱歉我曾給妳夢想的一切

卻又在我逃離後全部拿走

抱歉我的愛因為我浪費了妳的青春

對不起我傷害了妳

對不起我搞砸了

對不起我愛上了妳

很抱歉惡夢成真但再多的道歉也改變不了什麼

所有我對妳做的事

我希望可以補償

對不起我曾經那樣愛妳

對不起我曾經那麼地需要妳

對不起我曾緊緊擁著妳

經過了這麼久

一句抱歉並不能改變什麼

但我真心希望這句抱歉能打開妳的心房

好讓妳在未來還能繼續去愛

Shit!

2010-11-10T23:00:00.000+08:00

If you want to plan, then plan it properly. Seriously, your planning sucks. Please go learn it. You should collect the availability and not come tells the date and just fixed it. And the way you made, is not asking us but is informing us. So be it with or without, you will still go ahead right? If that's so, you might as well don't ask and don't plan?

Don't come tell me all those nonsenses. I simply get enough of all these shit.

Fabulous Friday!

2010-11-07T23:33:00.002+08:00

Had a great Friday. Really enjoy those moments.. LOL.. Good gathering!!!

Saturday was a BONUS! Went home early in the morning, 7am.. Then slept until 12noon. Went to meet up with Somebody who is back to settle some stuffs. Had a great chat and a great meetup (Say hi to my EYE-BAGS). OMG.. After that, went home at 2 pm to help my mum.. If not for her, I will be playing and spending more time.. LOL..

Anyway, great day!! More to come please. And Mr D. when you returning back there???

Really miss those times when I can sleep on your arms till you keep complaining its numb.

Really miss those times when you look me into your eyes and smile...

Really miss those times when you say....

Awesome someone!!

2010-11-05T02:54:00.000+08:00

After so long.. It's really great to have an awesome someone.. I guess he had change for better?? Really feel great to have you in my life.. Though many ups and downs. But having you around made me safe and sound!! Love ya! See ya real soon! <3
Just a few hours later, we will be having our very first clique chalet.. Everyone is real excited and looking forward to it!! So I am!! Gonna enjoy and have fun!! :))!!

Ordeal October

2010-11-03T00:11:00.001+08:00

I had an ordeal October. Starting of it was pretty good. But when school started, it's got really BAD. NIGHTMARE!

Hoping for a NOBLE November. Deadlines are very packed. One after another. Tomorrow will be the first presentation for Major project and also for the year. Hope everything goes smoothly. Wonderful Wednesday~

I've bought my iPhone!! Pretty nice. My mickey mouse cover is shipping it's way to Singapore. Hope it can reach by this week. LOL..

After so many weeks, so long.. I still feel something...

Let go..

2010-10-19T23:37:00.000+08:00

If you were to ask me what I want now, I can tell you straight. All I want is to end it. End it at once, get the PAIN at once. This is the best solution. Better than leaving it HANGING and making the PAIN prolonged.

Let go now, get hurt now better than suffering in such way. Shall we? Just let go....

I am really tired of all these. I am not getting anywhere. I am so STRESS! At work and at project and... This is not all about time management. I am really tired. I need a long rest from all these! I am so gonna chiong for project tomorrow. Time to sleep. My body, mind and soul are all tired!

Please don't say it to me anymore. Please, end it at once. Once and for all.

"Putting a full stop now, is not the end of a story. As, we might not know what we want now and we might have no more inspiration to continue the story. Hence, there might be more sentences and might be continued."