Pedestrian-X

A Sad Day

2012-02-12T14:28:00.001-05:00

I Ain't Reading Your Crappy Blog, Bro

2012-01-17T17:59:00.001-05:00

At least copy and paste what you said. Don't whore out links for more hits.

ten years tomorrow.

2011-11-29T09:11:00.002-05:00

Can't believe it.

Ten years tomorrow since Justin died.
<3

I miss you.
I miss so much.

But in the last ten years, you've helped me realize people come and go.
Sometimes to enrich our lives, like you did mine, and sometimes
to make you realize how good the people you DO have are, and how easy it
actually can be to let someone go.

I love you.
Your favourite colour was red, and you loved q107.
Baseball, hockey, and skating.
You loved your family so much.
You had a little girlfriend, and best friends who still care so much.

You were truly an amazing boy.
I miss you so much, Justin.

spmalrebma

2011-11-04T03:51:00.002-04:00

I don't get it. At first it made sense when you were posting videos of police brutality while the Occupy Wall Street movement was only two weeks in and getting almost no media coverage (though it was later discovered those people were running around vandalizing local businesses before getting their shit slapped), but now it just seems you'll post any romanticized image, video, or meme you come across that's even remotely anti-police and/or anti-governemt. I wonder if you even fully research what you're supporting, because you seem pretty clueless whenever I confront you on it.

And how many times have you been assaulted/raped/robbed/victimized in Canada and the US, compared to the events in countries like Mexico and Spain that you've already admitted to?

Trial of Tears

2011-11-02T20:07:00.001-04:00

My day was mostly spent going through the bollocks required to play CS1.5 only to find out that that community is practically dead, and that you need a ping under 100 to play just about anywhere else.

I knew it was a bad idea...

At least there's always Black Ops.

i will not apologize.

2011-10-20T15:23:00.003-04:00

Don't make me bitch out.

I Dislike Steve Jobs

2011-10-12T00:11:00.005-04:00

But this image is total bullshit:

None of those million are the grandfather of modern technology which have actually saved millions of lives with their inventions.

I'm also apathetic towards countries which are starving to death because their sky wizard-fearing governments have outlawed birth control and GE crops.

This is all on top of the fact that there are millions of bleeding hearts willing to support just about any major cause, regardless. I'm sure one or two will find this blog sooner or later. I don't see the point in pandering to those who aren't, especially with guilt. I don't have money to donate, anyway; I am the 99%.....

.....Or at least that's the popular excuse nowadays, right?

Captain's Log LXIII

2011-09-22T02:08:00.003-04:00

Captains Log, Stardate 9/17/XX11

Check me out! I'm making my first captain's log since the days of NCO! Why, you might ask? For the lulz basically. But I've tried picking up some old hobbies to kind of refreshen my life and maybe bring back some of my youthful spirit. Things have been getting too stagnent lately. Another thing I've taken back up is working on the Z-Comics and painting. Finishing a painting has felt more rewarding lately compared to my usual Photoshopped doodle. The Z-Comics are just a good way to blow off artistic tension when I don't have any other good ideas to come up with.

I've been listening to a lot of Bad Religion in the past few months. Much like how System of a Down's Mezmerize/Hypnotize was a coming-of-age album for me when I was 18, I feel like Bad Religion's albums "Suffer" and "No Control" parallells a lot of events/people/feelings I have in my life right now, be it good or bad. A lot of their music just reflects my thoughts on today's world, but certain songs really hit home what I think about certain people in my life right now. I used to write "songs" about people I knew for Pedestrian-X, but that kind of seems redundant now since another band already wrote those songs 22 years ago. So, if this captain's log is going to have any musical theme, it's those songs. When I was thinking of reviving the whole captain's log thing last night while drunk playing Doom, I was going to format everything so that I'd actually write about who I relate Bad Religion's music to, and why, but that's trying too hard, I think. Maybe I'm not as right as I think I am? If Bad Religion nails it that well, it should be pretty apparent what songs pertain to you.

12:24 PM 9/17/XX11
"No Control"

Culture was the seed of proliferation but it's gotten melded
Into an inharmonic whole, to an inharmonic whole.
Consciousness has plagued us and we cannot shake it
Though we think we're in control, though we think we're in control.
Questions that besiege us in life are testament of our helplessness.

"There's no vestige of a beginning, no prospect of an end." [Hutton, 1795]

When we all disintegrate it will all happen again, yeah.

Time is so rock solid in the minds of the hordes but they can't
Explain why it should slip away, explain why it should slip away.
History and future are the comforts of our curiosity but here we are
Rooted in the present day, rooted in the present day
Questions that besiege us in life are testament of our helplessness.

"There's no vestige of a beginning, no prospect of an end." [Hutton, 1795]

When we all disintegrate it will all happen again, yeah.
If you came to conquer, you'll be king for a day,
But you too will deteriorate and quickly fade away.
And believe these words you hear when you think your path is clear...
We have no control. We have no control.
We have no control, we do not understand.
You have no control, you are not in command.
You have no control. We have no control.
No control. No control. You have no control.

12:28 PM 9/17/XX11
Logan and Anthony have gotten me into a game called "Battle Pirates". I'm very opposed to Facebook games, but this one actually has some work put into it. It's not a GREAT game, but it's still kind of fun to build a fleet and blow shit up. I spawned on a different sector from Logan and Anthony though, and from what I've read, you can't change sectors (yet). Half the reason I started playing was to join an army with my friends, so we'll see how long I keep playing when my protective bubble goes down in eight hours and the base I've worked towards building for the last week gets destroyed.

12:35 PM 9/17/XX11
The job situation is stressful. I just got out of law school and right now I'm looking at two ads in the paper for what I assume are graphic design positions. Having a pseudoartistic career would be neat, but that's not what I just spent years and thousands of dollars jumping through hoops for. Also, I'm not a particularly varied artist. I do what I want when I want. I can't just draw up some girly bullshit for a wedding on the spot. But I guess I can't judge until I've tried it, right?

12:41 PM 9/17/XX11
Laura's wedding is coming up in a month. Pretty stoked! I dislike weddings, but I hear there'll be an open bar at the reception. However, with free liquor comes expensive hotel rooms. Logan and I have a hotel booked for a place nearby, and I just spent the week moving tons of wood (no homo) to pay it off. Too bad open bars are basically like buffets; you can really only eat/drink so much. Anyway, it's a milestone in a friend's life, so I'm happy to be apart of it, blah, blah, blah.

12:47 PM 9/17/XX11
Speaking of cool out-of-town fun, I'll be seeing GWAR on October 21, and if I play my cards right, hopefully The Misfits the very next day. That could potentially be a very epic weekend. Finally, after like four years of procrastination, I get to see GWAR. 'Can't wait to get covered in piss, blood, cum, and God knows what else.

12:51 PM 9/17/XX11
VNV Nation's new album "Automatic" released in Europe yesterday, and I had an opportunity to listen to it. SO BAD!! I will not be giving the album a second listen. I got into VNV Nation listening to moody, bassy tracks such as "Dark Angel" and "Nemesis". They went on to create the album "Matter + Form" which is full of tracks like that, and "Automatic" is about the opposite of it. The entire album, except for one song, is what I can best describe as techno-gospel bullshit. If I want to hear a bunch of slow audioscape tracks and organs, I'll go take a nap at church. I'll hopefully be seeing VNV Nation live in December; I doubt Ronan wants to put his audience asleep with that kind of thing, so I'm still looking forward to it.

1:04 PM 9/17/XX11
The new update broke Minecraft for me. On single player it works... ok-- but in multiplayer the framerate drops to like 5FPS and goes down from there. The kicker is that it does the same for everyone on the server when I join. I don't know how else I'm going to waste time tonight without it.

2:15 PM 9/17/XX11
Nevermind. Minecraft seems to be working fine now. I'm happy. I think the server map was reset again though (sadface).

3:35 PM 9/17/XX11
Found my first abandoned mineshaft since the 1.8 update!

4:18 PM 9/17/XX11
Going to try some more painting.

5:48 PM 9/17/XX11
Almost done this painting. The actual painting part is done, back I like to still use ink for the line work. Just waiting for it to dry enough first.

6:47 PM 9/17/XX11
"I Want To Conquer The World"

Hey Brother Christian with your high and might errand,
Your actions speak so loud, I can't hear a word you're saying.
Hey Sister Bleeding Heart with all of your compassion,
Your labors soothe the hurt but can't assuage temptation.
Hey man of science with your perfect rules of measure,
Can you improve this place with the data that you gather?
Hey Mother Mercy can your loins bear fruit forever?
Is your fecundity a trammel or a treasure?
And I want to conquer the world,
Give all the idiots a brand new religion,
Put an end to poverty, uncleanliness and toil,
Promote equality in all my decisions
With a quick wink of the eye
And a "God you must be joking!"
Hey Mr. Diplomat with your worldly aspirations,
Did you see the children cry when you left them at the station?
Hey moral soldier you've got righteous proclamation,
And precious tomes to fuel your pulpy conflagrations.
And I want to conquer the world,
Give all the idiots a brand new religion,
Put an end to poverty, uncleanliness and toil,
Promote equality in all of my decisions
I want to conquer the world,
Expose the culprits and feed them to the children,
I'll do away with air pollution and then all save the whales,
We'll have peace on earth and global communion.
I want to conquer the world!

6:48 PM 9/17/XX11
Painting complete and scanned.

7:02 PM 9/17/XX11
My fecking wrist hurts. Hopefully playing some more Minecraft will help it feel better.

7:18 PM 9/17/XX11
One hour left until the protective bubble goes in Battle Pirates. I just took out my first Level 5 Drac fleet, but my base is pretty shamefully protected, I'm not gonna' lie. Oh right, I was suppose to be playing Minecraft.

7:20 PM 9/17/XX11
"You"

There's a place where everyone can be happy.
It's the most beautiful place in the whole fucking world.
It's made of candy canes and planes and bright red choo-choo trains,
And the meanest little boys and the most innocent little girls,
And you know I wish that I could got there.
It's a road that I have not found.
And I wish you the best of luck, dear.
Drop a card or letter to my side of town.
Because there's no time for fussing and fighting my friend,
But baby I'm amazed at the hate that you can send and
You... painted my entire world.
But I... don't have the turpentine to clean what you have soiled.
And I won't forget it.
There's a place where everyone can be right,
Even though you remain determined to be opposed.
Admittance requires no qualifications:
It's where everyone has been and where everybody goes.
So please try not to be impatient,
For we all hate standing in line.
And when the farm is good and bought, you'll be there without a thought,
And eternity, my friend, is a long fucking time.
Because there's no time for fussing and fighting my friend,
But baby I'm amazed at the hate that you can send and
You... painted my entire world.
But I... don't have the turpentine to clean what you have soiled.
And I won't forget it.

10:10 PM 9/19/XX11
I didn't finish this thing off properly, so it looks like this Captain's Log is going to cover multiple days. I just got back from Anthony's with Logan. Played some GTA IV-- good stuffs. Logan got an authentic nazi armband at the flea market. I'm... a little jealous. The rest of the day wasn't really eventful. Just me emailing my resume about.

1:53 PM 9/20/XX11
I can't seem to shake this captain's log... It's day three and it's still lingering. I fear I made not escape with my life.

3:57 PM 9/20/XX11
I don't really know what I'm going to do with myself today. Don't really have any ideas for a painting. I don't think I can get by playing video games all day. I don't want to see my girlfriend four days out ofthe week. Perhaps watch some Basilisk, but I should get ahold of Danny because my parents' anniversary is coming up and I wanted to do something.

4:20 PM 9/20/XX11
For now, it's a little more Minecraft.

4:21 PM 9/20/XX11
PS: It's my Travis' birthday. Happy birthday, bro.

4:44 PM 9/20/XX11
Fucking troll zombie out of no where pushes me into a pool a lava!! I always die with shit I can't replace, but at least I have enough diamonds to make one pickaxe.

4:48 PM 9/20/XX11
Yes! A lot of my stuff survived. 'Lucky this time.

10:46 PM 9/20/XX11
Megamind is a sweet film.

10:58 PM 9/20/XX11
Tina just got me killed in Minecraft. Killed via creeper while the window was closed... Probably going to dump her soon.

7:08 PM 9/21/XX11
My neighbours across the street are a bunch of porch monkeys. I mean, I'm all for getting out of the house and whatnot but these guys just seem to do it because they're white trash. When they talk, it goes beyond usin their outdoor voice; they bark almost everything they say to the point where I can barely understand them from my room. They yell at passing cars; they sometimes pick fights with people walking down the street; they sometimes get drunk which just magnifies the stupid. Oh, they honk their car horns and do burnouts in the street-- thanks for just reminding me of that guys. I mean, they have a back yard. Why can't they be idiots back there? I seriously think at least half of them are mentally retarded.

7:18 PM 9/21/XX11
"When?"

I've seen a lot of things in five years.
I struggle just to hold back the tears.
But everyfuckingwhere I go,
I see the pathos that I know
Will spell the termination of us all.
Someone's got to tell me, do you see
That everything around you has a hidden tragedy?
Seeds of happiness have never
Found a place to grow,
And our generation doesn't know.
When, when will you try
To change the logarithmic face of kissing things goodbye?
When, when will you know
That human life is so short and death is oh so slow?
I've tried to make things make sense but I can't.
I'm happy just to watch them all and laugh.
And if you think you've got it made,
Just revel in your selfish ways,
'Cuz when the world stops turning so will you!

7:50 PM 9/21/XX11
Nigga, I really want a good job. Aside from the important reasons, I also want to make a many of the cocktails on http://www.thedrunkenmoogle.com

9:07 PM 9/21/XX11
Logan's MSN has to stop doing that thing where it freezes.

12:36 AM 9/22/XX11
Some nagger found my house in Minecraft and killed me. Just as I was coming back from a nice looting too. Well... I'm glad the server map is probably be reset tomorrow. I think all the items and XP orbs I dropped crashed the server though, which is lulz.

12:52 AM 9/22/XX11
He didn't take all my shit, but he grabbed the food that was on me, the red mushrooms I wanted to plant around my house so bad, and he looted the food from my house. I have 45 slices of melon, so I won't starve, but he's still a big fag.

12:53 AM 9/22/XX11
People are right: The bows in Minecraft are over powered. He took me out in like three hits, and I don't think they were all fully charged. I'm not sure how to feel about this. Apart from losing my food, I'm only butthurt about it because I ALMOST got away. I was literally a second from disappearing into the forest, and from there, I had an underground hideout. Even if he followed my nametag downwards, I have a maze of abandoned mineshafts I could deak him out through. I could have possibly even doubled back and walled in the enterance making him get lost and starve down there. Man... If only he didn't make that last shot... the story would have been epic.

1:03 AM 9/22/XX11
"Do What You Want"

Hey do what you want, but don't do it around me.
Idleness and dissipation breed apathy.
I sit on my ass all goddamn day,
A misanthropic anthropoid with nothing to
Say what you must, do all you can,
Break all the fucking rules and
Go to Hell with Superman and
Die like a champion, yeah hey!
Hey I don't know if the billions will survive,
But I'll believe in God when 1 and 1 are 5.
My moniker is man and I'm rotten to the core.
I'll tear down the building just to pass through the door.
So do what you must, do all you can,
Break all the fucking rules and
Go to Hell with Superman and
Die like a champion, yeah hey!

2:02 AM 9/22/XX11
This Captain's Log has gone on long enough. A few days is already too much, so I'll try to end it here. I'm not really sure what I'm going to do with myself tomorrow. Danny's not answering his phone, but I need him to because I want him to print off some flyers for me. A few events are coming up in the following week... My brother's having a keg party on Saturday, which I guess I'll be going to (though I don't have money). If any of you fags read this far, let me know if you want to come. My parents' anniversary is on the 27th. Danny and I talked about getting them a limo that they can take to dinner that night. Again, if Danny would answer his phone, we could start arranging that.

Danny. Answer your phone.

End of log

someone..

2011-09-12T13:00:00.000-04:00

...please help? I know its all my fault. But I'm sorry and I just need help.

MONOPOLY

2011-09-11T09:40:00.001-04:00

I miss monopoly. And shit movies. And buffet. And popcorn with seasoning. And my fucking pillow.

Things were a lot easier. I'm missing work today because of bruised ribs.

New Blog

2011-09-05T17:45:00.003-04:00

I started up a new blog. Its intention is to be what Pedestrian-X was originally suppose to be: a blog ripe with exclusive content, not a diary of awkward young adult angst that half the contributors refuse to post on. I've uploaded some old P-X content on there already, and I should be inviting Ryan and Logan to it ASAP so they can contribute what they want. Hopefully this ball can get rolling again and we'll have at least a halfway decent catalogue of comics, art, short stories, news, and reviews

I'll still be using this blog as a diary, since I don't like to use Facebook for that kind of crap, but any content-related posts will be directed to:

http://www.lbcblogs.blogspot.com/

I'm a pretty girl

2011-09-01T22:43:00.003-04:00

Well, someone in the LBC had to start sporting the chelsea cut again.

Or as it's usually styled:

moving day .again.

2011-08-28T15:17:00.002-04:00

On the 30th, I'm moving back to 30th street. Yaaaay. So excited.
Moving from mimico, back to Alderwood, again.
Shawns basically working from home, bonus.
And hopefully am still getting my puppy for Christmas.

Logan, Ryan, now that there's room to stay..drinks in Toronto!
Come visit mee.

Cousin!

2011-08-27T10:59:00.003-04:00

Remember when no less than eight months ago all your Facebook statues were angsty shit about no one understanding you and now that you're knocked up it's all about you having a mommy fetish? I guess it's true that children turn us all into walking clichés.

Your profile fails to tell me who the baby-daddy is. EDIT: But I guess he exists. That's good.

titled.

2011-08-21T11:02:00.003-04:00

I had a miscarriage.
It was really scary and I still feel like shit.
What a crazy summer.
Ready for fall and exciting, new things to happen.

Edit. Good news. Got a place with shawn. He wants to buy a puppy around Christmas time.
Things might be looking UP!

Further edit. So many of my friends already have kids. I never cared, either way.
Now, Everytime I hear about their kids, or see a goofy ultrasound picture of whoevers new baby,
I feel angry and jealous and like I hate them. Almost like, ' keep your shitty kid and your happy news to yourself. '

Fucking hormones. I never wanted a kid. I still don't want one right now, but it does hurt to hear about people my age with successful pregnancies and supportive baby-daddys..I feel so silly.

Five Years Later...

2011-08-18T16:55:00.002-04:00

Well, technically six.

I basically need a lot of money

2011-08-16T09:12:00.002-04:00

Playing at the Phoenix alone throughout October & December:

Oct 19 - Yngwie Malmsteen
Oct 25 - GWAR
Oct 26 - The Misfits
Dec 2 - VNV Nation

All shows are between $25-$35, plus the cost of getting there.

Bah

2011-08-05T15:06:00.001-04:00

I've been dating this girl, Christina, for a while now and things are going fine, but the other day at the bar I met a girl named Kristina and she seems pretty interesting. Who should I pick?

moved...*siiiiiiiigh...again.

2011-03-05T17:44:00.002-05:00

back to nana's.

realized lots of bullshit during my six-month irresponsibility binge.
back on track now.

job hunt is actually on.
money is being saved.
weight is still being lost.
i'm keeping my life to myself and keeping it in ORDER.

and i'm excited to turn into a real adult.

goals?

15 more pounds, leaving me at 150 even.
keeping my room clean every single day.
saving money.
not quitting because that's actually impossible, but slowing down my smoking habits, both with cigarettes and weedies.

four goals.
i'm giving myself til august to have all these goals achieved, or at least down to a routine.

Cinderella backwards is about a woman learning her place

2010-12-18T18:01:00.001-05:00

Gilligan's Island is kind of disturbing when you realize that all 7 people who got stuck on the island are really smelly, straight, neck bearded men. The combination of extreme loneliness and coconut caused dementia eventually resulted in their mutual alternate reality where the 2 least dominant males have become the egos 'Mary Ann' and 'Ginger'. Everyone truly believes it, including Mary Ann and Ginger. This alternate reality, as seen by the island's inhabitants, is what is presented to the audience.

I remember when being evil was cool

2010-10-09T12:40:00.000-04:00

They're just saying what we're all thinking

[ no subject ]

2010-08-18T21:56:00.001-04:00

wtf?..

I have my own IMDb page

2010-08-03T11:27:00.001-04:00

http://www.imdb.com/name/nm3975299/

I can now be as cool as Ryan.

IMDb

2010-06-26T00:08:00.004-04:00

The forum for The Book of Eli reminds me, once again, why I don't visit movie specific boards. Hopefully I can look at this blog from now on and think better of it whenever I am tempted.

It Seems...

2010-05-12T02:53:00.002-04:00

since I'm over my girl problems, I need to deal with everyone else's.

I may as well set my alarm clock to 3:00AM.